DARLING, darling, by narrow ambages
Of fate, by gardens flowering with beasts,
I came unto this place. The forest marches
Behind the stalker, and the running grass
Steps lightly over his defeated bones.
This is the perilous way without return.
In glassy prison now of contemplation
I, fugitive from progress, leap erect
In analytic dance on time’s acute
And bitter needle. Crueler than a spine
It penetrates the body till it pricks
The bubbling brain, exploding life’s gray tumor
Together with its iridescent world.
I lost by winning, and I shall not win
Again except by loss. The smoky past,
Mixed with the wind, will not evaporate
Into the color of air. Let life be false,
But in our circular trap the blood remembers
Its throbbing on the lip; the hands observe
Communion, touching in the sleep of thought;
And the punctual heart reiterates love’s name.
Some little comfort I have found to think
That, though this phœnix will not hatch an egg,
Yet will its lyric history be saved
In generations of its mental brood.
And I have found some little comfort too
In colloquy with death the quiet-eyed,
Our profound and inexhaustible old father,
Still loyal to his tall obedient sons.
I have been social with the pale abstractions
That congregate within a lethal room;
But these strict walls encounter me; this house
Exhales resentment of audacious hope.
A man can starve upon the golden-sweet
Impossible apples of Cézanne; a man
Can eagerly consult a woman’s head
(Picasso’s), but her slow and stupid eyes
Drink light in vegetative apathy.
O darling, a man can cry unto his love
All night and day, and still be comfortless.
The meaning of a mouth, a breast, is plain,
But what you mean to me is dipped in blood
And tangled like the bright threads of a dream.