“To the memory of one who by some strange
madness, beyond understanding, made
shipwreck of his own life and of the life
of others; one of whom the world speaks in
whispers, but of whom I say openly that I never
heard an objectionable word from his lips and saw
in him at no time anything more vicious than
vanity; to the memory of
Oscar Wilde,
actor (in a great life tragedy as in everything else),
artist (in more crafts than one, including flattery),
poet, critic, convict, genius, and, as I knew him,
gentleman: I dedicate these pages in memory of
many kindnesses.”
In these words I wished, soon after Wilde’s
death, to dedicate a book, but the publisher of the
book in question was obdurate. He would not, he
said, have Wilde’s name on the dedication page of
any work issued by him, and went so far as to urge
me not to fulfil the intention I had even then formed
of one day writing a chapter on Oscar Wilde as I
knew him. Yet in Oscar Wilde as I knew him, as
stated in the above dedication, except for his vanity
there was no offence.
The preface, since my relations with the publisher
of whom I speak were pleasant and friendly, I withdrew.
If I have let sixteen years elapse before
writing the chapter, it was for no other reason than
that I felt the thing could wait—would perhaps be
the better for waiting—and that the pressure of
other work kept me employed.
But one day a man, who to my knowledge has
eaten Wilde’s salt and received many kindnesses
from him in the season of Wilde’s prosperity, called
to see me concerning some literary project. On my
shelves are books given and inscribed to me by
Wilde and signed “from his sincere friend,” and on
my mantelshelf stands a portrait similarly inscribed
and signed. Seeing this portrait, my caller observed:
“If I were you I should put that thing out of sight,
and, if you happen at any time to hear his name
mentioned, I should keep the fact that he had been
a friend of yours to yourself.”
That decided me to write my long delayed chapter.
I begin by a protest. In his very interesting Notes
from a Painter’s Life, my friend Mr. C. E. Hallé
speaks of Wilde’s “repulsive appearance.” At the
time of Wilde’s conviction some of the sketches of
him, presumably made in court and published in
certain prints, did so portray him, possibly because,
as he was just then being held up to public execration,
so to picture him fitted in with the popular
conception. Mr. Hallé wrote “after the event” of
Wilde’s downfall, when it is easy not only to be wise,
but also to see in the outer man some signs of the
evil within. But from the statement that Wilde’s
appearance was “repulsive” I entirely dissent. It
is true there was a flabby fleshiness of face and neck,
a bulkiness of body, an animality about the large
and pursy lips—which did not close naturally, but
in a hard, indrawn and archless line—that suggested
self-indulgence, but did not to me suggest vice.
Otherwise, except for this fleshiness and for the
animality of the mouth, I saw no evil in Wilde’s face.
The forehead, what was visible of it—for he disposed
brown locks of his thick and carefully parted hair
over either temple—was high and finely formed. The
nose was well shaped, the nostrils close and narrow—not
open and “breathing” as generally seen in
highly sensitive men. The eyes were peculiar, the
almond-shaped lids being minutely out of alignment.
I mean by this that the lids were so cut and the eyes
so set in the head that the outer corners of the lids
drooped downwards very slightly and towards the
ears, as seen sometimes in Orientals. Liquid, soft,
large and smiling, Wilde’s eyes, if they seemed to
see all things—life, death, other mortals and most
of all himself—half banteringly, met one’s own eyes
frankly. His smile seemed to me to come from his
eyes, not from his lips, which he tightened rather
than relaxed in laughter. His general expression—always
excepting the mouth, which, its animality
notwithstanding, had none of the cruelty which goes
so often with sensuality—was kindly.
The best portrait I have seen of Wilde is one in
my possession which has never been published.
It was taken when he was the guest of the late Lady
Palmer (then Mrs. Walter Palmer), with whom I had
at the time some acquaintance. She was a close
friend of Wilde (who christened her “Moonbeam”)
and of George Meredith (whom she sometimes half-seriously,
half-playfully spoke of as “The Master”).
In the portrait, Lady Palmer is seated with Meredith,
Mrs. Jopling Rowe being seated on her right and Mr.
H. B. Irving on her left. Behind Meredith’s chair
stands Wilde with Miss Meredith (afterwards Mrs.
Julian Sturgis), Sir J. Forbes-Robertson, and I
think Mr. David Bisham on his right. The portrait
of Wilde, if grave, is frank, untroubled, and attractive,
for, when he chose to be serious, the large lines
of his face and features sobered into a repose and
into a massiveness which were not without dignity.
Too often, however, Dignity suddenly let fall her
cloak, and Vanity, naked and unashamed, was revealed
in her place.
Yet there is this to be said of Wilde’s vanity, that
its very nakedness was its best excuse. A loin-cloth,
a fig-leaf would have offended, but it was so artlessly
naked that one merely smiled and passed on.
Moreover, it was never a jealous or a malicious
vanity. It was so occupied in admiring itself in the
mirror that the smile on its face was never distorted
into a scowl at sight of another’s success. Wilde’s
vanity, I repeat, was as entirely free from venom
as was his wit. No one’s comments on society, on
the men and women he met, the authors he read,
were more incisive or more caustic, but I remember
none in which the thought was slanderous or the
intention spiteful.
A propos of Wilde’s vanity, here is a story told
me long ago by Lieutenant-Colonel Spencer, who
then held a post of some sort in connection with the
Masters in Lunacy. Visiting the Zoological Gardens
one day—in his private capacity, I assume, not in
connection with the Lunacy Commission—he
entered the Monkey House. Within the big cement
wire enclosure a certain liveliness—the war phrase
seems to have come to stay—was evident. What it
was all about Colonel Spencer did not know, but
with one exception the occupants were very excited,
leaping wildly from end to end of the cage, and from
top to bottom, jabbering, groaning, snarling, emitting
shrill shrieks of terror or hoarse howls of rage.
The one exception was an evil-looking and elderly
monkey which sat humped and brooding in a corner,
absolutely motionless except for the twitching of
his nostrils and the angry way in which he switched
his eyes first upon what he apparently thought to
be the staring human idiots outside, and then at
the capering and noisy monkey imbeciles within.
“What’s the matter with that monkey?” Colonel
Spencer inquired of a keeper. “Is he ill? He
seems too bored even to scratch.” The keeper
shook his head. “No, he isn’t ill, sir,” he answered.
“Wot’s the matter with ’im, sir? Why, wanity.”
Then stirring up the sulking monkey with his cane,
he added, “’Ere, get up—Hoscar Wilde!”
One day it was Wilde’s caprice to amuse himself by
talking the most blatantly insincere nonsense,
directed against my own political views, and deliberately
intended to “draw” me. He was in his most
exasperating mood, exuding, or affecting to exude,
egotism at every pore, and fondling, or making pretence
to fondle, his vanity as some spinsters fondle
a favourite cat. At last I could stand it no longer,
and wickedly told him the story of Colonel Spencer’s
visit to the Monkey House at the Zoo and the
keeper’s comment about the sulky monkey. “Wot’s
the matter with ’im, sir? Why, wanity. ’Ere, get
up—Hoscar Wilde.”
So far from being annoyed, Wilde simply rocked,
or affected to rock with delight.
“I hoped once,” he said, “to live to see a new
shape in chrysanthemums or sunflowers, or possibly
a new colour in roses, blue for choice, called after
me. But that one’s name should percolate even to
the Zoological Gardens, that it should come naturally
to the lips of a keeper in the Monkey House, is fame
indeed. Do remind me to tell George Alexander the
story. It will make him so dreadfully jealous.”
And I answered grimly:
“Your game, Wilde!”
My friendship with Wilde was literary in its beginnings.
Flattered vanity on my part possibly
contributed not a little to it, for when I was a young
and—if that be possible—a more obscure man even
than I am now, Wilde, already famous, was one of
the very first to speak an encouraging word. Here
is the first letter I received from him:
16 Tite Street, Chelsea.
Dear Mr. Kernahan,
If you have nothing to do on Wednesday,
will you come and dine at the Hotel de Florence,
Rupert Street, at 7.45—morning dress, and chianti
yellow or red!
I am charmed to see your book is having so great
a success. It is strong and fine and true. Your
next book will be a great book.
Truly yours,
Oscar Wilde.
This letter, it will be observed, is undated. Apparently
Wilde never dated his letters, for of all the
letters of his which I have preserved not a solitary
one bears a date, other perhaps than the name of the
day of the week on which it was written, and that
only rarely. He had the impudence once at a dinner-party,
when taken to task by a great lady for not
having answered a letter, to reply:
“But, my dear lady, I never answer or write
letters. Ask my friend there, whose faithful correspondent
I am.” Then turning to me, he said, “Tell
Lady —— when you heard from me last.”
As I had heard from him that morning, I dissembled
by saying:
“How can I answer that, Wilde, for among my
other discoveries of the eccentricities of genius I
have discovered that genius, at least as represented
by you, never dates its letters. I never had one
from you that was dated.”
Not long after the receipt of this first letter, I proposed
to write what I may call a “grown-up fairy
story,” and asked Wilde whether I might borrow as
sub-title a phrase I had once heard him use of a fairy
tale of his own making—“A Story for Children from
Eight to Eighty.” He replied as follows, then, as
always, with a capital D for “dear”:
16 Tite Street,
Chelsea, S.W.
My Dear Kernahan,
I am only too pleased that any little phrase
of mine will find a place in any title you may give
to any story. Use it, of course. I am sure your
story will be delightful. Hoping to see you soon.
Your friend,
Oscar Wilde.
My story written and published, I despatched it
cap in hand to carry my acknowledgments to the
teller of supremely lovely fairy stories—imagined,
not invented—from whom my own drab and homespun-clad
little tale had impudently “lifted” a
beautiful sub-title to wear, a borrowed plume, in its
otherwise undecorated hat.
Here is Wilde’s very characteristic reply. It
needs no signature to indicate the writer. No other
author of the day would have written thus graciously
and thus generously:
16 Tite Street,
Chelsea, S.W.
My Dear Kernahan,
I should have thanked you long ago for sending
me your charming Fairy Tale, but the season
with its red roses of pleasure has absorbed me quite
and I have almost forgotten how to write a letter.
However, I know you will forgive me, and I must
tell you how graceful and artistic I think your
story is—full of delicate imagination, and a symbolism
suggestive of many meanings, not narrowed
down to one moral, but many-sided, as I think
symbolism should be.
But your strength lies not in such graceful winsome
work. You must deal directly with Life—modern
terrible Life—wrestle with it, and force it
to yield you its secret. You have the power and
the pen. You know what passion is, what passions
are. You can give them their red raiment and make
them move before us. You can fashion puppets
with bodies of flesh and souls of turmoil, and so you
must sit down and do a great thing.
It is all in you.
Your sincere friend,
Oscar Wilde.
That Wilde was an artist in flattery as well as an
egotist, is not to be denied, but when quite early in our
friendship I was shown by a certain woman poet a
presentation copy of Wilde’s book of poems inscribed
“To a poet and a poem,” and within the next few
weeks saw upon a table in the drawing-room of a
very beautiful and singularly accomplished woman,
the late Rosamund Marriott-Watson (“Graham
Tomson”), who was a friend of Wilde’s and mine, a
fine portrait of himself also inscribed “To a poet
and a poem,” I was not so foolish as to take too
seriously the flattering things he said.
Egotist as Wilde was, his was not the expansive
egotism which, in spreading its wings to invite admiration,
seeks to eclipse and to shut out its fellow
egotists from their own little place in the sun. Most
egotists are eager only for flattery and applause.
Wilde was equally eager, but he was ready for the
time being to forget himself and his eagerness in
applauding and flattering others. Not many
egotists of my acquaintance, especially literary
egotists, write letters like that I have quoted, in
which there is no word of himself, or of his own work,
but only of his friend.
The last letter I ever received from Wilde is in the
same vein. It is as usual undated, but as the play
to which it refers was his first, Lady Windermere’s
Fan, I am, by the assistance of Mr. Stuart Mason’s
admirably compiled Oscar Wilde Calendar, enabled
to fix the date as the middle of February, 1892.
Hotel Albemarle,
Piccadilly, London.
My Dear Kernahan,
Will you come and see my play Thursday
night. I want it to be liked by an artist like you.
Yours ever,
O. W.
Wilde came to see me, I think, the morning after
the production of the play, or at all events within a
morning or two after, and hugged himself with
delight when, in reply to his question, “Do tell
me what you admired most in the play,” I
said:
“Your impudence! To dare to come before the
footlights in response to enthusiastic calls—smoking
a cigarette too—and compliment a British audience
on having the unexpected good taste—for your
manner said as plainly as it could, ‘Really, my
dear people, I didn’t think you had it in you!’—to
appreciate a work of art on its merits! You
are a genius, Wilde, in impudence at least if in
nothing else.”
“And you are a plagiarist as well as a flatterer,”
he replied. “You stole that last remark from a
story you have heard me tell about Richard Le
Gallienne. I’m going to punish you by telling you
the story, for, though you stole part of it, I am sure
you have never heard it. No one ever has heard
the story he steals and calls his own; no one ever
has read—the odds are that he will swear he has
never heard of—the book from which he has plagiarised.
Our friend Richard is very beautiful, isn’t
he? Wasn’t it you who told me that Swinburne
described him to you as ‘Shelley with a chin’? I
don’t agree. Swinburne might just as well have
described himself as ‘Shelley without a chin.’ No,
it is the Angel Gabriel in Rossetti’s National Gallery
painting of the Annunciation of which Richard
reminds me. The hair, worn long and fanning out
into a wonderful halo around the head, always reminds
me of Rossetti’s angel. However, my story
is that an American woman, in that terribly crude
way that Americans have, asked Richard, ‘Why do
you wear your hair so long, Mr. Le Gallienne?’
Richard is sometimes brilliant as well as always
beautiful, but on this occasion he could think of
nothing less banal and foolish to say than ‘Perhaps,
dear lady, for advertisement.’ ‘But you, Mr. Le
Gallienne! You who have such genius!’ Richard
blushed and bowed and smiled until the lady added
cruelly—‘for advertisement!’”
Wilde was quite right in saying I had heard the
story before. It had been told me as happening
to himself in America in the days when he wore his
own hair very long, and I am of opinion that it was
much more likely to have happened to Wilde, who
was both a notoriety hunter and an advertiser, than
to Le Gallienne, who is neither.
A propos of Wilde’s love of advertising, I once
heard the fact commented upon—perhaps rudely
and crudely—to Wilde himself. Just as I was about
to enter the Savage Club in company with a Brother
Savage, who was well known as an admirer of
Dickens, we encountered Wilde, and I invited him
to join us at lunch.
“In the usual way,” he answered, “I should
say that I was charmed, but out of compliment to
our friend here, I will for once condescend to quote
that dreadful and tedious person Dickens and
answer, ‘Barkis is willin’.’ Where are you lunching—Romano’s?”
“No,” I said, “the Savage Club.”
“Oh, the Savage Club,” said Wilde. “I never
enter the Savage Club. It tires me so. It used to be
gentlemanly Bohemian, but ever since the Prince
of Wales became a member and sometimes dines
there, it is nothing but savagely snobbish. Besides,
the members are all supposed to be professionally
connected with Literature, Science, and Art, and I
abhor professionalism of every sort.”
My Dickens friend, who shares every Savage’s
love for the old club (he told me afterwards, whether
correctly or not I do not know, that Wilde’s aversion
was due to the fact that his brother Willie Wilde
had unsuccessfully put up for membership), was
annoyed by what Wilde had said both about the
club and about Charles Dickens.
“I can understand your dislike of professionalism—in
advertisement, Mr. Wilde,” he said bluntly.
“And, since you have condescended to stoop to
quote Dickens, I may add that, in the matter of
advertisement, Barkis as represented by Wilde is
not only willing but more than Mr. Willing the
advertising agent himself. Good morning.”
One other story of Wilde and Le Gallienne occurs
to me. Wilde held Le Gallienne, as I do, in warm
liking as a friend and in genuine admiration as a
poet; but, meeting him one day at a theatre, bowed
gravely and coldly and made as if to pass on. Le
Gallienne stopped to say something, and, noticing
the aloofness of Wilde’s manner, inquired:
“What is the matter, Oscar? Have I offended
you in anything?”
“Not offended so much as very greatly pained
me, Richard,” was the stern reply.
“I pained you! In what way?”
“You have brought out a new book since I saw
you last.”
“Yes, what of it?”
“You have treated me very badly in your book,
Richard.”
“I treated you badly in my book!” protested Le
Gallienne in amazement. “You must be confusing
my book with somebody else’s. My last book was
The Religion of a Literary Man. I’m sure you can’t
have read it, or you wouldn’t say I had treated you
badly.”
“That’s the very book; I have read every word
of it,” persisted Wilde, “and your treatment of me
in that book is infamous and brutal. I couldn’t have
believed it of you, Richard—such friends as we have
been too!”
“I treated you badly in my Religion of a Literary
Man?” said Le Gallienne impatiently. “You must
be dreaming, man. Why, I never so much as mentioned
you in it.”
“That’s just it, Richard,” said Wilde, smilingly.
Here is a recollection of another sort. About the
time when Wilde’s star was culminating, he boarded
a Rhine steamer on the deck of which I was sitting.
The passengers included a number of Americans, one
of whom instantly recognised Wilde, and seating
himself beside the new-comer, inquired:
“Guess, sir, you are the great Mr. Oscar Wilde
about whom every one is talking?”
Smilingly, but not without an assumption of the
bland boredom which he occasionally adopted
toward strangers of whom he was uncertain,
Wilde assented. The other, an elderly man
wearing a white cravat, may or may not at
some time have been connected with a church.
Possibly he was then editing some publication,
religious or otherwise, and in his time may have
done some interviewing, for he plied Wilde with
many curious and even over-curious questions concerning
his movements, views, and projects. The
latter, amused at first, soon tired. His eyes wandered
from his interviewer to scan the faces of the
passengers, and catching sight of me made as if to
rise and join me.
The interviewer, who had not yet done with
him, and was something of a strategist, cut
off Wilde’s retreat by a forward movement of
himself and the deck-chair, in which he was sitting,
so as to block the way. It was apparently merely
the unconscious hitching of one’s seat a little nearer
to an interesting companion, the better to carry on
the conversation, but it was adroitly followed by a
very flattering remark in the form of a question, and
Wilde relapsed lumpily into his seat to answer. For
the next few minutes I could have imagined myself
watching a game of “living chess.” Wilde, evidently
wearying, wished to move his king, as represented
by himself, across the board and into the square
adjacent to myself, but for every “move” he made
his adversary pushed forward another conversational
“piece” to call a check. At last, shaking his
head in laughing remonstrance, Wilde rose, and the
other, seeing the game was up, did the same.
“It has been a real pleasure and honour to meet
you, sir,” he said. “Guess when I get home and tell
my wife I’ve talked to the great Oscar Wilde she won’t
believe me. If you would just write your autograph
there, I’d take it as a kindness.” He had been
searching his pockets while speaking for a sheet of
paper, but finding none opened his Baedeker where
there was a blank sheet and thrust it into Wilde’s
hand.
The latter, with a suggestion in his manner of the
condescension which is so becoming to greatness,
scrawled his name—a big terminal Greek “e” tailing
off into space at the end—in the book, and bowing
a polite, in response to the other’s effusive, farewell,
made straight for a deck-chair next to me, and
plumping himself heavily in it began to talk animatedly.
Meanwhile, the interviewer was excitedly going
the round of his party to exhibit his trophy.
“Oscar Wilde’s on board, the great æsthete!” he
said. “I’ve had a long talk with him. See, here’s
his own autograph in my Baedeker. There he is,
the big man talking to the one in a grey suit.”
The excitement spread, and soon we had the
entire party standing in a ring, or perhaps I should
say a halo, around the object of their worship, who
though still talking animatedly missed nothing of
it all, and by his beaming face seemed to enjoy his
lionising. I suspect him, in fact, of amusing himself
by playing up to it, for, seeing that some of his
admirers were not only looking, but while doing
their best to appear not to be doing so were also
listening intently, his talk struck me as meant for
them as much as for me. He worked off a witty
saying or two which I had heard before, and just as
I had seen him glance sideways at a big plate-glass
Bond Street shop window to admire his figure or
the cut of his coat, so he stole sideway glances at the
faces around as if to see whether admiration of his
wit was mirrored there.
Then he told stories of celebrities, literary or
otherwise, of whom he spoke intimately, called
some of them, as in the case of Besant and Whistler,
by their Christian names, and so tensely was his
audience holding its breath to listen, that when at
Bingen he rose and said, “I’m getting off here,”
one could almost hear the held breath “ough” out
like a deflating tyre.
No sooner was he gone than the interviewer
seated himself in the deck-chair vacated by Wilde,
and inquired politely:
“Are you a lit-er-ary man, sir?”
“Why, yes,” I said, “I suppose so, in a way.
That’s how I earn my living.”
“May I ask your name?”
“Certainly,” I said (meaning thereby “you may
ask, but it does not follow that I shall tell you”).
“I am afraid ‘Brown’ is not a very striking name,
but don’t tell me you have never heard it, for there
is nothing so annoys an author as that.”
He was a kindly man, and made haste to reassure
me.
“I know it well,” he protested. “Yours is not
an uncommon name, I believe, in England. It is less
common in the States. Your Christian name is—is—is—?”
“John,” I submitted modestly.
His brow cleared. “Exactly,” he nodded. “I
know it well.”
Then he seemed uncertain again, and looked
thoughtfully but absently at a castle-crowned hill.
I imagine he was running through and ticking
off as the names occurred to him the list
of all the illustrious John Browns. Possibly he
thought of the author of Rab and His Friends, and
decided that I was too young. Possibly of Queen
Victoria’s favourite gillie, who was generally pictured
in kilts, whereas I wore knickerbockers.
“You have published books?” he asked.
I nodded.
“Only in England perhaps?”
“No, they have been issued in America too.”
“Sold?”
“The people who bought them were,” I said.
“Tell me the name of one of your books, please.”
I shook my head.
“Can’t. Not allowed.”
“Not allowed? Why not?”
“Because,” I answered, rattling off the first
nonsense which came to my head, “I’m a member
of the famous ‘Silence Club,’ the members of which
are known as the W.N.T.S.’s. You have heard of
the club of course, even if you haven’t heard of me?”
“Yes,” he said. “I feel sure I have; but I was
never quite sure what it meant. What does
W.N.T.S. stand for?”
“It means ‘We Never Talk Shop.’ An author
who so much as mentions the title of his book
except to his publisher, his bookseller, or an agent
is unconditionally expelled.”
Then I delivered my counter-attack. He had
mentioned to Wilde that he hailed from Boston. It
so happens that at my friend Louise Chandler
Moulton’s receptions I had met nearly every
eminent Boston or even American author, so I put
a few questions to my interviewer which showed an
inner knowledge of Boston and American literary
life and celebrities that seemed positively to startle
him. He was now convinced that I was a celebrity
of world-wide fame, and that such a comet should
come within his own orbit, without his getting to
know as much as the comet’s name, was not to be
endured by a self-respecting journalist. He literally
agonised, as well as perspired, in his unavailing
efforts to trick, wheedle or implore my obscure
name from me. For one moment I was minded to
tell him my name if only to enjoy the shock of its
unknownness, but I resisted the temptation and,
tiring in my turn as Wilde had tired, I rose and said
that as I was getting off at the next stopping place
I would wish him “Good day.” He did not even
ask for John Brown’s autograph. He even seemed
suddenly in a hurry to get rid of me, the reason for
which I afterwards discovered. He had, I suppose,
heard me tell Wilde that my luggage was on board;
and the last I saw of him was in the boat’s hold,
where he was stooping, pince-nez on nose, over the
up-piled bags, boxes, dressing-cases and trunks,
painfully raking them over, and every moment
hoping to be rewarded by finding mine labelled
“Robert Louis Stevenson,” “Rudyard Kipling,”
“Algernon C. Swinburne” or “Thomas Hardy.”
I trust he found it.
When we were back in town I told Wilde my own
adventure with the interviewer after the former had
left the boat. His comment was:
“It sounds like a terrible serial story that I
once saw in a magazine, each chapter of which
was written by a different hand. ‘The Adventures
of Oscar Wilde, by himself, continued by
Coulson Kernahan.’ How positively dreadful!”
I wonder what Wilde will have to say to me, if
hereafter we should discuss together the brief and
fragmentary continuation of his own story which
in these Recollections I have endeavoured to carry
on?
Once when Wilde, a novelist and I were lunching
together, and when Wilde, after declaring that the
wine was so “heavenly” that it should be drunk
kneeling, was discoursing learnedly on the pleasures
of the table—how the flesh of this or that bird, fish
or beast should be cooked and eaten, with what wine
and with what sauce, the novelist put in:
“If I were to adapt Bunyan, I should say that
you ought to have been christened Os-carnalwise
Wilde instead of plain Oscar.”
“How ridiculous of you to suppose that anyone,
least of all my dear mother, would christen me
‘plain Oscar,’” was the reply. “My name has two
O’s, two F’s and two W’s. A name which is destined
to be in everybody’s mouth must not be too long.
It comes so expensive in the advertisements. When
one is unknown, a number of Christian names are
useful, perhaps needful. As one becomes famous,
one sheds some of them, just as a balloonist, when
rising higher, sheds unnecessary ballast, or as you
will shed your Christian name when raised to the
peerage. I started as Oscar Finghal O’Flahertie
Wills Wilde. All but two of the five names have
already been thrown overboard. Soon I shall discard
another and be known simply as ‘The Wilde’
or ‘The Oscar.’ Which it is to be depends upon one
of my imitators—that horrid Hall Caine, who used
to be known very properly as Thomas Henry; quite
appropriate names for a man who writes and dresses
as he does. I can’t say which he does worse as I have
never read him, but I have often been made ill by
the way he wears his clothes.
“And, by the by, never say you have ‘adapted’
anything from anyone. Appropriate what is already
yours—for to publish anything is to make it public
property—but never adapt, or, if you do, suppress
the fact. It is hardly fair to Bunyan, if you improve
on him, to point out, some hundreds of years after,
how much cleverer you are than he; and it is even
more unfair, if you spoil what he has said, and then
‘hold him accountable.’”
“That, I suppose,” said the novelist drily, “is
why when you said the other day that ‘Whenever
a great man dies, William Sharp and the undertaker
come in together,’ you suppressed the fact that the
same thing had already been said in other words by
W. S. Gilbert.”
“Precisely,” said Wilde. “It is not for me publicly
to point out Gilbert’s inferiority. That would be
ungenerous. But no one can blame me, if the fact
is patent to all.”
Mention of Sir W. S. Gilbert prompted the other
to say that a friend of his had occasion to take a cab
at Harrow where the author of The Bab Ballads
had built a house. Driving from the station to his
destination, his friend noticed this house, and asked
the cabman who lived there. “I don’t know ’is
name, sir,” said the cabman. “But I do know
(I have driven ’im once or twice) that ’e is sometimes
haffable and sometimes harbitrary. They
do say in the town, sir, that ’e’s wot’s called a
retired ’umorist, whatever that may be.”
From Harrow the conversation shifted to the
neighbouring city of St. Albans, where I was then
living.
“That reminds me,” said Wilde, turning to
me, “that I want to run down to St. Albans once
again to bathe my fingers in the mediæval twilight
of the grey old Abbey. We two will come to you to-morrow.
You shall meet us at the station, give us
lunch at your rooms—a cutlet, a flask of red chianti
and a cigarette is all we ask—and then you shall take
us over the Abbey.”
“I shall be delighted,” I said, “but do you remember
my meeting you the other day when you
were coming away from the Royal Academy? I
asked you how you were, and you replied, ‘Ill, my
dear fellow, ill and wounded to the soul at the
thought of the hideousness of what in this degenerate
country, and these degenerate days, dares to call
itself Art. Get me some wine quickly, or I’m sure I
shall faint.’ Well, I’m living in bachelor diggings
where it would be highly inconvenient to have dead
or dying artists on hand or lying about. The pictures
on show in my bachelor rooms, like the furniture,
are not of my selection. If you were wounded by
what you saw in the Academy, you would die at
sight of one work of art on my walls. It is a hideous
and vulgar representation of ‘Daniel in the Lions’
Den,’ done in crude chromo, four colours.”
Wilde affected to shudder.
“How awful!” he said. “But I can think of
something more awful even than that.”
“What’s that?” I asked.
“A poor lion in a den of Daniels,” was his reply.
A factor in Wilde’s downfall was, I am sometimes
told, evil association, but if so it was a factor on
which I can throw no light, as if evil associates he
had I saw nothing of them.
Louise Chandler Moulton sings of
This brief delusion that we call our life,
Where all we can accomplish is to die,
and of the many figures in the literary, artistic, and
social world of the day whom I met in Wilde’s
company, some have achieved death, some, knighthood
(Mr. Stephen Phillips once said in my hearing,
he was not sure which was the better—or the worse),
and some, distinction. Of the remainder, the worst
that could be said against them is that they have
since come a crash financially, as Wilde himself did.
It was only in money matters that I ever had cause
to think Wilde immoral.
In setting down these recollections and impressions
I do not write as one of his intimates. We
were friends, we corresponded, I dined with him and
Mrs. Wilde at 16 Tite Street, and he with me, and
we forgathered now and then at clubs, theatrical
first nights, and literary at homes; but the occasions
on which we met were not very many, all told; nor
did I desire more closely to cultivate him, and for
two reasons. One was that the expensive rate at
which he lived made him impossible as other than a
very occasional companion, and the other was that
“straightness” in money matters is to me one of
the first essentials in the man of whom one makes a
friend. On this point Wilde and I did not see alike.
He laughed at me when I said that, while counting
it no dishonour to be poor, I did count it something
of a dishonour deliberately and self-indulgently to
incur liabilities one might not be able to meet. In
his vocabulary there were few more contemptuous
words than that of “tradesman,” as the following
incident, which I may perhaps be pardoned for interpolating,
will show.
When The Picture of Dorian Grey was in the
press, Wilde came in to see me one morning.
“My nerves are all to pieces,” he said, “and I’m
going to Paris for a change. Here are the proofs of my
novel. I have read them very carefully, and I think
all is correct with one exception. Like most Irishmen,
I sometimes write ‘I will be there,’ when it should
be ‘I shall be there,’ and so on. Would you, like a
dear good fellow, mind going through the proofs,
and if you see any ‘wills’ or ‘shalls’ used wrongly,
put them right and then pass for press? Of course,
if you should spot anything else that strikes you as
wrong, I’d be infinitely obliged if you would make
the correction.”
I agreed, went through proofs, made the necessary
alterations, and passed for press. Two or three
days after I had a telegram from Paris. “Terrible
blunder in book, coming back specially. Stop all
proofs. Wilde.” I did so, and awaited events.
Wilde arrived in a hansom.
“It is not too late? For heaven’s sake tell me
it is not too late?” he affected to gasp.
“Oh, make yourself easy. It was not too late.
I stopped the proofs,” I answered.
“Thank God!” he exclaimed theatrically, throwing
himself into a chair and making a great show of
wiping away the perspiration from a perfectly dry
brow. “I should never have forgiven myself, or
you, had my book gone out disfigured by such a
blunder—by such a crime as I count it against art.”
Then in a faint undertone, as if the thing were too
unholy to speak of above one’s breath, he said:
“There’s a picture framer—a mere tradesman—in
my story, isn’t there?”
“Yes,” I said.
“What have I called him?”
“Ashton, I think. Yes, Ashton,” I answered.
He simulated a shudder and seemed to wince at
the words.
“Don’t repeat it! Don’t repeat it! It is more
than my shattered nerves can stand. Ashton is a
gentleman’s name,” he spoke brokenly, and wrung
his hands as if in anguish. “And I’ve given it—God
forgive me—to a tradesman! It must be
changed to Hubbard. Hubbard positively smells
of the tradesman!”
And having successfully worked off this wheeze
on me, Oscar became himself again, and sat up with
a happy smile to enjoy his own and my congratulations
on the exquisiteness of his art.
Wilde’s contempt for tradesmen, as instanced in
this anecdote, I did not share. Once, when he had
spoken thus contemptuously because a shopkeeper
was suing a certain impecunious but extravagant
artist acquaintance of his and mine for a debt incurred,
I told Wilde that even if I despised “tradesmen”
as he and the artist did, I should despise myself
much more were I to defraud a despised tradesman
by ordering goods for which I had neither the
means nor the intention to pay. He was not in the
least offended, perhaps because the remark suggested
an aphorism—the exact wording I forget,
but it was to the effect that only mediocrity concerned
itself with tradesmen’s bills, that a writer of
genius, whether a playwright or a novelist, ran into
debt as surely as his play or his book ran into
royalties. I remember the occasion well, though I
do not remember the phrasing of his aphorism, for
on that particular morning he had, for the first time
within my experience, shown less than his usual nice
consideration for others which—whether due merely
to love of approbation or to finer feelings—made
him so agreeable and delightful a companion.
When he came in I offered him my cigarette case.
They were of a brand he had often himself smoked
in the past—in fact it was he who had first recommended
them to me—quite good tobacco and well
made, but moderate in price, and with no pretence
to be of the very best. He took one, lit it, drew a
few puffs, and then tossing it practically unsmoked
on the fire, drew out his own bejewelled case and lit
up one of his own. That was very unlike Wilde as
I had known him in his less prosperous days. Then
he would have said, “I have accustomed myself to
smoke another brand lately and am something of a
creature of habit. Do you mind if I smoke one of
my own?”
Perhaps the omission was due only to preoccupation
and forgetfulness. Perhaps the incident will
be accounted too trivial, thus seriously to put on
record. Possibly, but it is often by the cumulative
effect of small and seemingly trivial details—not
always by the bold broad strokes—that the truest
portrait is drawn. Into the tragedy of human life
we are not often permitted to look, but just as,
since all fish swim against the stream, a minnow
will serve to show the run of the current, no less than
a pike, so trivial incidents serve sometimes to point
the trend of life or of character as truly as great
happenings.
Nor in Wilde’s case were other signs of change in
him wanting. His first play had just then been produced
and with success. He struck me on that
particular morning as unpleasantly flushed, as
already coarsened, almost bloated by success. There
was a suspicion of insolence in his manner that was
new to me, and from that time onward he and I—perhaps
the fault was mine—seemed to lose touch
of each other, and to drift entirely apart. Wilde
died in the late autumn of 1900. I never saw or
heard from him again after the spring of 1892.
Was it not Mr. Stead who defined paradox as a
truth standing on its head? Wilde’s aim in paradox
was so to manipulate truth and falsehood as to make
the result startle one by appearing to reverse the
existing standard. A paradox by him was sometimes
a lie and a truth trotting side by side together in
double harness like a pair of horses, but each so
cleverly disguised that one was not quite sure which
horse was which.
More often a paradox by Wilde was a lie (or a
seeming lie) and a truth (or a seeming truth) driven
the one in front of the other tandem-wise; but whichever
Wilde had placed last was tolerably sure to
take one by surprise by lashing out with its heels
when one came to look at it. When Wilde had carefully
arranged a paradox with a kick in it and
wished to see one jump, he spoke the first half
smilingly to put one off one’s guard. Then he would
pause, suddenly become grave and thoughtful as if
searching his words. But the pause was not for loss
of a word. It was no pause of momentary inaction.
It was, on the contrary, if I may vary the simile, like
the backward swing of a rifle, and was meant only
to give fuller play and power to the forward thrust
that bayonets an enemy. No sooner was one off
one’s guard by the smile and the momentary silence,
than swift and sure came the sting of the stab.
Let me give an illustration. Wilde once asked me
some question concerning my religious belief which
I did my best to answer frankly and, as he was good
enough afterwards to say, without the cant which he
so loathed. When I had made an end of it, he said
gravely:
“You are so evidently, so unmistakably sincere
and most of all so truthful” (all this running
smoothly and smilingly) “that” (then came the
grave look and the pause as if at a loss for a word,
followed by the swift stab) “I can’t believe a single
word you say.”
And so, having discharged his missile, Wilde, no
longer lolling indolently forward in his seat, pulled
himself backwards, and up like a gunner taking
a pace to the rear, or to the side of his gun the
better to see the crash of the shell upon the
target, and then, if I may so word it, “smiled all
over.” He was so openly, so provokingly pleased
with himself and with this particular paradox that
not to be a party to the gratification of such sinful
vanity, instead of complimenting him, as he had
expected, on its neatness, I ignored the palpable hit,
and inquired:
“Where are you dining to-night, Wilde?”
“At the Duchess of So-and-so’s,” he answered.
“Precisely. Who is the guest you have marked
down, upon whom—when everybody is listening—to
work off that carefully prepared impromptu
wheeze about ‘You are so truthful that I can’t believe
a single word you say,’ which you have just
fired off on me?”
Wilde sighed deeply and threw out his hands with
a gesture of despair, but the ghost of a glint of a
smile in the corner of his eye signalled a bull’s-eye
to me.
“Compliments are thrown away on such coarse
creatures as you,” he said. “This very morning I
called into being a new and wonderful aphorism—‘A
gentleman never goes east of Temple Bar’—notwithstanding
which I have brought wit and fame
and fashion to lighten your editorial room in the
City. Why? To pay you the supremest compliment
one artist can pay another one. To make you
the only confidant of one of my most graceful and
delicate fancies. I was about to tell you——”
“Yes, I know,” I interpolated rudely, “you have
coined a witty new aphorism, or thought out a lovely
fancy. You do both and do them more than well.
But you are going to the Duchess’s dinner party to-night,
and you will contrive so to turn what is said
that your aphorism or fancy seems to rise as naturally
and spontaneously to the surface of the conversation
as the bubbles rise to the surface of the glass of
champagne at your side. But you are not, as actors
say, sure of your ‘words.’ You think it would be
as well to have something of the nature of a dress
rehearsal. So you have dropped in here, on your
way to your florist’s or to some one else, to try it
upon me as somebody is said to try his jokes on his
dog before publishing them. I don’t mind playing
‘dog’ in your rôle in the least, but I object to being
made a stalking-horse for the Duchess’s honoured
guest.”
I have no intention in these Recollections to play
the reporter to my own uninteresting share in the
conversation, but one must do so sometimes for
obvious reasons. In this case, I wish to illustrate
the means by which I sometimes succeeded in
inducing Wilde to drop attitudinising and to be
his natural self.
There is a certain Professor of my acquaintance,
a man of brilliant abilities and incomparable knowledge,
whom I used to meet at a club—let us call
him Clough. When Clough could be induced to talk
upon the matters in which he was an expert, he was
worth travelling many miles to hear. Unfortunately
he had an aggressive, even offensive manner, and
was troubled with self-complacent egotism. It
was only after a systematic course of roughness and
rudeness at the hands of his fellow clubmen that
Clough was endurable, or could be got to talk of
anything but himself.
One would sometimes hear a fellow clubman say,
“Clough is in the other room, just down from the
‘Varsity; and more full of information than ever.
Two or three capable members are administering
the usual course of medicine—‘Cloughing’ we call
it now—of flatly contradicting every word he says,
‘trailing’ him, snubbing him, and otherwise reducing
his abnormally swollen head to moderate
dimensions. Then he will be better worth listening
to on his own subjects than any other man in
England. Don’t miss it.”
Similarly, in my intercourse with Wilde, I found
that a certain amount of “Cloughing,” such as,
“Now then, Wilde! You know you are only showing
off, as we used to say at home when I was one
of a family of kids. Stow it, and talk sense,” had
equally good result. He would protest at first when
minded to let me off lightly, that such “engaging
ingenuousness” alarmed and silenced him. At
other times he would vow that my coarseness made
him shudder and wince—that it was like crushing
a beautiful butterfly, to bludgeon a sensitive creature
of moods and impulses with unseemly jibes and
blatant speech. Having, however, thus delivered
himself and made his protest, he would often
stultify that protest and provide me with an excuse
to myself for my Philistinism, by throwing aside his
stilts (assumed possibly because he imagined they
advertised him to advantage above the heads of
those who walk afoot in the Vanity Fair of Literature
and Art), and by showing himself infinitely
more interesting when seen naturally and near at
hand than when stilting it affectedly in mid-air
above one’s head.
At times, and when he had forgotten his grievance
at being thus rudely pulled down, he would forget—egotist
that he was—even himself, in speaking of
his hopes, his ambitions and his dreams; and in his
rare flashes of sincerity would show himself as
greater and nobler of soul than many who met and
talked to him only in the salon or in society perhaps
realised.
There is a graceful fancy of Wilde’s—I do not
know whether he ever told it in print—the hero of
which was a poet lad who had dreamed so often and
written such lovely songs about the mermaid, that
at last—since the dream-world was more real to
him than the waking world—he was convinced that
mermaids there really are in the seas around our
shores, and that if one watched long and patiently
they might by mortal eye be seen. So day and
night the poet watched and waited, but saw nothing.
And when his friends asked him, “Have you seen
the mermaids?” he answered, “Yes, by moonlight
I saw them at play among the rollers,” telling thereafter
what he had seen and with such vividness and
beauty that almost he persuaded the listeners to
believe the story. But one night by moonlight the
poet did indeed have sight of the mermaids, and in
silence he came away and thereafter told no one
what he had seen.
So, of Wilde himself, I cannot but hope and believe
that though he told many stories of exceeding
beauty, none of which were true, yet hidden away
in his heart was much that was gracious, true, noble
and beautiful, the story of which will now never be
known, for like the poet lad of his fantasy he told
it to no one. Of what was evil and what was good
in his life, only a merciful God can strike the balance,
and only a merciful God shall judge.
As one who knew Wilde personally, I am sometimes
asked whether I was not instinctively aware
that the man was bad. Frankly I was not. Possibly
because scandal does not interest me, and other
things do, I had not heard the rumours which I now
understand were even then prevalent, and so I took
him as I found him, an agreeable companion, a
brilliant conversationalist, a versatile and accomplished
man of letters. On the crime of which he
has since been committed, I make no comment, if
only for the reason that I did not follow the evidence
at his trial, just as I abstained from reading Mr. W.
T. Stead’s Maiden Tribute to Modern Babylon—not
because of any innate niceness on my part, but for
the same reason which causes me to turn aside if,
in my morning’s walk, I come across offal which it is
not my business to remove. The Wilde of the days
of which I am writing was foppish in dress and
affected in manner. He talked and wrote much
nonsense, as I held it to be, about there being no
such thing as a moral or an immoral book or
picture; that the book or picture was either a work
of art, or was not a work of art, and there the matter
ended; but much of this talk I attributed to pose,
and I had even then learned that some of the men
who are most anxious to have us believe them
moralists—and stern moralists at that—are often
less moral in their life than some of those who make
no pretence of any morals at all.
To the folk who objected that Wilde has boasted
of being a “pagan” I replied that he probably used
the word—just then very much in vogue—in the
same sense in which Mr. Kenneth Grahame used it
when he entitled a volume, bubbling over with the
joy of life, with animal spirits, keen observation,
and exquisite humour, Pagan Papers. Wilde’s
“paganism” I took as meaning no more than that
he claimed for himself freedom from formula, most
of all freedom from cant in his attitude towards the
accepted conventions, whether literary, artistic,
social, or even religious.
That he was not an irreligious man, I had reason
to know. One day when we were chatting together,
Wilde mentioned a little book of mine of which I
will say no more here than that it made no uncertain
confession of the writer’s faith in Christianity.
This led Wilde—uninvited by me, for I make it a
rule never to obtrude my religious views upon
others—to express himself upon the subject of
religion, especially of Christianity, and with such
intense reverence, such manifest earnestness, that
I perhaps looked something of the surprise I felt.
“You are surprised,” he said, “to hear Oscar
Wilde, the poseur, as people call him, the man who
is supposed to hold nothing too sacred, talking
seriously and on serious things. No, I am not
making believe to be earnest, as I do make believe
about so much else. I am speaking as I feel, and
you will perhaps hardly realise what an intense relief
it is to meet some one to whom one can talk
about such matters without cant. It is cant and
officialdom” (he spoke bitterly) “which is keeping
the men and women who think out of the churches
to-day. It is cant which more than anything else
stands between them and Christ. Shall I tell you
what is my greatest ambition—more even than an
ambition—the dream of my life? Not to be remembered
hereafter as an artist, poet, thinker, or
playwright, but as the man who reclothed the
sublimest conception which the world has ever
known—the Salvation of Humanity, the Sacrifice
of Himself upon the Cross by Christ—with new and
burning words, with new and illuminating symbols,
with new and divine vision, free from the accretions
of cant which the centuries have gathered around
it. I should thereby be giving the world back again
the greatest gift ever given to mankind since Christ
Himself gave it, peerless and pure two thousand
years ago—the pure gift of Christianity as taught by
Christ.
“Yes,” he went on, “I hope before I die to write
the Epic of the Cross, the Iliad of Christianity,
which shall live for all time.”
On another occasion Wilde unfolded to me the
opening scene in a sort of religious drama which he
intended one day to write—the finding to-day of the
body of the Christ in the very rock-sepulchre where
Joseph of Arimathea had laid it, and a great and
consequent eclipse of faith in Him and in His
resurrection. Thereafter, by a new revelation of the
Christ, Wilde was, in his drama, newly to recreate
Christianity and faith in Christianity, but of this
Second Act of his World-Drama I heard no more,
as our talk was at this point interrupted, and he
never renewed it.
I speak of this proposed religious drama here for
the singular reason that I, too, had long been turning
over in my mind some such work and some such
opening scene as in Wilde’s drama—I mean the
finding of the body of Christ.
Wilde went no further with his project, but in a
book of mine, written some years after, I carried my
own project into effect. To this day I am uncertain
how much of my opening scene was Wilde’s, and
how much mine. The idea appears to have occurred
to both, but whereas, in Wilde’s mind, it was clear
and defined, in mine it was then no more than an
idea. I sometimes wonder whether his words did
not make vivid to me what before was vague. Of
one thing at least I am sure, that he was the first to
speak of such an opening scene, which fact in itself
constitutes some sort of previous claim. The rest of
the book was entirely mine, and probably the whole,
but the facts seem to me not uninteresting, and
having made confession of the possibility at least of
some debt incurred, I must leave it to the reader to
say whether I ought or ought not to be condemned
in “conscience money.”
I have already said that I have reason to know
that Wilde was not irreligious, and I propose now
to give my reasons for refusing to believe him to be
irreclaimably bad. One has some hesitation in
quoting oneself, but, in a dream-parable booklet of
mine, there is a passage which I may perhaps be forgiven
for printing here, when I say that I had Wilde
in my mind when I wrote it. In my dream-parable,
Satan, even as once of old he had presented himself
to speak with God concerning Job, appears to-day
before the Most High, urging that men and women
have become godless and faithless. He craves permission
to prove this by putting them to certain
tests. The permission is accorded on condition that
Satan himself becomes mortal, even as they. In the
following passage Satan is supposed to be speaking,
after the failure and defeat of his projects.
Master and Maker, hear me ere I die. For until
Thou didst in Thy wisdom decree that ere I might
work my will on mortals, myself must become
mortal even as they—until then, the thoughts of
these mortals were as foreign to my understanding
as are the thoughts in the brain of a bird, to the
fowler who spreads his net to catch the little
creature. Like the fowler, I knew that I must
change my bait, according to the creature that I set
out to snare, that this one could be taken by avarice,
that one by vanity, a third by spiritual pride, a
fourth by bodily lust. When they came to my lure,
and I caught them; when I saw the poor fools
struggling in my net, I laughed and hugged myself
to think of their misery and of the impotent anguish
of God. And so I grew wise in the ways and the
weaknesses of men and women, while knowing
nothing of the hearts which beat in their breasts.
But now that I have become mortal, even as they,—now
at last, to the wonder and the mystery of
mortal life, are my eyes opened. Now perceive I
that, in the least and most shameful of these lives,
is to be seen, even in uttermost wreckage, something
so sacred, so august, so beautiful, so divine,
that the very angels of light might stand amazed in
envious wonder and awe.
For if men and women have failed greatly, at
least they have striven greatly—how greatly, how
valiantly, how desperately, only the God Who sees
all, may know.
It may be that by Him, that very striving itself,
even the unsuccessful striving, shall mercifully be
taken into account. The sin and the shame are
human: the wish and the effort to overcome them
are divine. For that which in a man’s truer, nobler
moments, he has longed unutterably to be, that in
some sense he is, and shall be accounted, in the eyes
of the God, Who taketh not pleasure in remembering
sin, but in rewarding righteousness.
That even in sin, a man should think such thoughts,
should carry unsullied in his heart some white
flower of his childhood, and, in spite of what is ugly
and impure in himself, should project so pure and
perfect a vision of hoped-for, longed-for Loveliness
and Purity, sets that man, even in his sins, a world
removed above the angels. When I who was once
an angel fell, I fell from uttermost light to uttermost
dark. Ceasing to be an angel, I became a devil.
Man falls, but even in his fall retains something that
is divine.
Yonder man into whose great brain I entered,
working strange madness within! Him first I
taught to love Beauty, because it is of Thee. Him
I haunted of beauty, haunted with visions of forms
more fair than earthly eyes may know, luring him
at last to look upon Beauty as of greater worth
than all else, and as a law unto itself.
And because the love of beauty is not far removed
from the love of pleasure, it was not difficult for me
to lead on such as he to love pleasure for itself. With
innocent pleasures at first I plied him, and when
they staled, I enticed him with grosser joys, till the
pleasure-seeker became the voluptuary, and, in the
veins of the voluptuary, desire soon quickened into
lust.
Next, because wine, like water to drooping
flowers, lent fictitious strength to his flagging pulse,
made the live thoughts to quicken in his tired
brain, and set the tongue of his wit a-wagging;
because he loved to stand well with his comrades,
among whom to chink glasses together was the sign
of fellowship—because of all these I enticed him to
drink and yet again to drink, until Alcohol, the
Arch Destroyer, had stolen away his will power,
silenced his conscience, perverted his moral sense,
inflamed with foul passion his degenerate brain,
and made the wreck and the ruin of him that he
now is.
Yet even now, as I steal gloatingly through the
dark chambers of that House of Shame which was
once the fair temple of the living God, even now
there still smoulders under the ashes of a fouled
hearthstone some spark of the fire which was
kindled of God, a fire which I strive in vain to
trample out, since, because it is of God, it is inextinguishable
and eternal.
If therefore when I seem most to have conquered,
there never yet was God wholly defeated—of what
use is it further to wage the unequal conflict? For
God never entirely lets go His hold on a human
soul; and that to which God holds fast, Satan
shall never finally wrest from Him. Say the world,
think the world, what it will, in the warfare for
souls God wins, and has won all along the line.
It was, as I say, Wilde who was in my mind when
I penned that passage commencing “Yonder man
into whose great brain I entered, working strange
madness within.” To me he seems to have been less
hopelessly bad than partly mad.
We are told that it is possible, by locating and
destroying certain cells or nerve-centres in the brain,
so to affect the mind of the subject as to destroy his
sense of colour, his sense of touch, or even, it is
believed, to destroy his sense of right and wrong.
Wilde died of meningitis, which is a brain affection,
and I think that the fact should be considered
retrospectively. A post-mortem examination would
possibly have revealed some disease or degeneration
of certain brain-cells which may account for much
that is painful in his career and character. This
degeneration of brain-cells may have been inherited
and congenital, in which case, condemnation on our
part is silenced; or it may have been due to excesses
of his own choosing and committing. Even
if this be so, the price he paid was surely so terrible,
and so tragic, as in a sense to be accounted an atonement,
and even to entitle him to our pity. In the
passage quoted from my dream-parable, I have
hinted at some form of demoniacal possession which
may or may not be a positive, as opposed to a
negative form of madness. There is a brain derangement
by which the power to reason aright and to
co-ordinate ideas is lost; a brain derangement
which results mainly in vacancy of mind. But there
is yet another and more terrible form of derangement
in which, so it seems to me, that unseen evil
powers, outside himself, seize upon and possess the
brain chambers, thus vacated, and direct and rule
the unhappy victim, not according to his own will,
which indeed has passed out of his control, but
according to the wish or will of the power by which
he is possessed.
On such a question we dare not dogmatise; but
I am humbly of opinion that in the great re-awakening
to the realities (not to the outward forms) of
religion, which some of us think will follow the war,
there will be a return to simplicity of belief, and that
the too often disregarded New Testament explanation
of certain mysterious happenings will be proved
to be more in accordance with the later discoveries
of Science than some advocates of the Higher
Criticism now think. For my own part I have never
doubted the accuracy of the Gospel records in regard
to demoniacal possession. We have Christ’s own
words: “For this saying go thy way; the devil is
gone out of thy daughter,” “Howbeit this kind
goeth not out but by prayer and fasting,” and “I
charge thee come out of him and enter no more into
him.”
That some men and women whose wills are
weakened—possibly by habitual disregard of conscience
or by continued wrongdoing for which they
cannot be held irresponsible—do commit, under the
urging and direction of evil spirits by which they
are possessed, crimes and cruelties for which they
are not in the fullest sense responsible, I think more
than possible. My friend, the late Benjamin Waugh,
Founder of the Society for the Prevention of Cruelty
to Children, on more than one occasion placed before
me the full facts and the indisputable proofs of acts
so fiendish as to be difficult to ascribe to human
motive or passions.
In the most terrible sonnet ever penned, Shakespeare
says:
The expense of spirit in a waste of shame
Is lust in action, and till action, lust
Is perjured, murderous, bloody, full of blame,
Savage, extreme, rude, cruel, not to trust,
and, to lust, some particularly bestial outrages
which came before the Society were clearly attributable.
Others were as clearly the outcome of
avarice, greed, hatred, jealousy and blind fury of
anger. But some crimes there were, such as the
torturing of her own children by a mother, and, in
another case, the deliberate jabbing out of the eyes
of an unoffending pony by a woman, not under the
influence of drink, and in whom the medical experts
declared they otherwise found no symptoms of insanity,
which, if only for the sake of our common
humanity, one would be relieved to think were due
to demoniacal possession, for which the victim was,
in this last stage at least, irresponsible.
In the near future it is possible that Science will
by closer inquiry and by completer records be found
once more in harmony with Scripture. Hypnotism,
a science which as yet is not a science, but merely
a haphazard accumulation of unorganised data,
pointing to the possession of unexplained powers
and possibilities by the individual, has established
the fact that the living can thus be influenced and
obsessed by the living. If so, why not by the dead,
who, when emancipated from the body, may possibly
be able to concentrate even greater spiritual force
upon the living than when they were themselves
alive?
I am not likely to live to see it, but my belief is
that all these so-called occult matters, Hypnotism,
Thought-reading, Obsession, Clairvoyance, Spiritualism,
and the like will one day fall into line with
Science, and be proved to be not supernatural, but
merely the manifestation of natural laws—of certain
psychical powers and forces which may be easily
explainable and demonstrable with further and
exacter knowledge, but concerning the working of
which we are at present very much in the dark.
I have written at greater length than I intended,
in hinting and in hoping that Wilde was at times
under the subjection of powers and forces of darkness
outside himself. I say “at times” intentionally,
and for the following reason. It would be
gratifying to one’s amour propre (I use a French
term for once, as it expresses my meaning more
nearly than any English equivalent) could I take
high ground, and aver that I was vaguely conscious—warned,
as it were, by some fine instinct—of
evil in the presence of Wilde, but so to aver would
be untrue. I have not lived to nearly threescore
years without meeting men from whom one does
thus instinctively shrink, and concerning whom one
found it impossible to breathe the same air. I experienced
nothing of the sort in Wilde’s company,
and, since his guilt seems uncontrovertible, I ask myself
whether it is not possible that Wilde lived a sort
of Jekyll and Hyde life, of the latter of which I saw
nothing, inasmuch as just as some wounded or
plague-stricken creature withdraws itself from the
herd, so, during the Hyde period of madness or
of obsession, some instinct moved him to withdraw
from his home, his haunts and the companions of
his everyday life, only to return when the obsession
or madness had passed, and once again he was his
sane and normal self.
This “periodicity” is not infrequent in madness,
whether the madness be due to a brain derangement,
explainable by pathology, or to some such demoniacal
possession as that of which I have spoken. A memorable
instance is that of Mary Lamb, who was herself
aware of the return of homicidal mania, and at such
times of her own accord placed herself under restraint.
Recalling the fact that I saw in Wilde no
sign either of the presence of evil or of insanity, I
ask myself whether in picturing Dorian Grey as at
one season living normally and reputably, and at
another disappearing into some oblivion of iniquity,
he was not consciously or unconsciously picturing
for us his own tortured self. I write “tortured”
advisedly, for whether he were wholly, or only
partly, or not at all, responsible, I refuse to believe
that the man, as in his saner moments I knew him,
could sink thus low, without fighting desperately, if
vainly—how desperately only the God who made
him knows—before allowing himself in the hopelessness
of despair to forget his failures in filth, as
other unhappy geniuses have before now drowned
their souls in drink.
One talk with him I particularly remember. I
had been reading the proofs of Dorian Grey, and, on
our next meeting, I said that he had put damnable
words into the mouth of one of his characters.
“Such poisonous stuff is not likely to affect grown
men and women,” I said, “but for a writer of
your power and persuasiveness to set up a puppet
like Lord Henry to provide ready-made excuses
for indulgence, and to make evil seem necessary,
unavoidable, and easy, by whispering into the ears
of readers, of impressionable age and inflammable
passion, that ‘the only way to get rid of a temptation
is to yield to it’—when you do that, you are
helping to circulate devils’ doctrines in God’s
world.”
Wilde was visibly perturbed.
“You are quite right,” he said. “It is damnable;
it is devils’ doctrine. I will take it out.”
But, alas, other influences, whether within himself
in the shape of the whisperings of some evil
spirit, by which he was, as I believe, at times possessed,
or in the form of so-called friends, whose
influence over him was of the worst, I cannot say,
but some days after the conversation recorded above
I received the following letter:
Grand Hôtel de L’athenée,
15 Rue Scribe, Paris.
My Dear Kernahan,
Thank you for your charming letter. I have
been very ill and unable to correct my proofs, but
have sent them off now. I have changed my mind
about the passage about temptation. One can’t pull
a work of art about without spoiling it, and after all
it is merely Luther’s “Pecca Fortiter” put dramatically
into the lips of a character.
Do you think I should add to preface the definition
of “morbid” and “unhealthy” art I gave
in the Fortnightly for February? The one on
morbidity is really good.
Will you also look after my “wills” and “shalls”
in proof! I am Celtic in my use of these words, not
English.
You are excellent on Rossetti. I read you with
delight.
Your sincere friend,
Oscar Wilde.
When next I met Wilde I recurred to the matter,
but it was then too late, for the book, he said, was in
great part printed. Moreover, he had now another
excuse to put forward.
“After I had left you,” he said, “I remembered
that a friend of mine, a well-known critic, had
read the book in manuscript when it was first
written. He said something to the same effect
as you did, but less strongly. Honestly it was
that, more than anything else, which finally decided
me to leave the passage in. Had I taken it out, he
would have claimed that I did so in deference to his
strictures, and haul down my flag to a professional
critic I never have and never will.”
This incident (though Wilde has been dead sixteen
years I have neither written of it nor spoken
of it before) shows Wilde as weak, it shows him as
yielding—as we all, alas, too often yield—to evil
influences, and to inclination as opposed to conscience,
and as a man who was determined to shine
at all costs. His vanity would not allow him to
withhold the word that he was pleased to think
daring, original, and above all brilliant, though he
knew that word to be only brilliantly bad. Even
in his sinning, it seems to me, he fed and flattered
his insatiable vanity, by electing, even in sin, to be
unlike others; and how far vanity, even more than
viciousness, was accountable for Wilde’s downfall,
only the God who made him and the devil who
fostered and fed that vanity, till it less resembled a
pardonable human weakness than a hideous excrescence
and disease, can ever truly say.
The setting of Wilde’s sun (which had risen on so
fair a prospect, and with such promise of splendour)
in foul quagmires of sin and shame, was the greatest
tragedy I have known. I met his friend and mine,
Mr. Hall Caine, immediately after the verdict and
sentence. I have seen Caine ill, and I have seen him
deeply moved, even distressed, but I remember
always to his honour (for Wilde not seldom made
Caine’s writing the butt of his wit) the anguish in
his face as he said:
“God pity him in this hour when human pity
there seems none! To think of it! that man,
that genius as he is, whom you and I have seen
fêted and flattered! whose hand we have grasped
in friendship! a felon, and come to infamy unspeakable!
It haunts me, it is like some foul and horrible
stain on our craft and on us all, which nothing can
wash out. It is the most awful tragedy in the whole
history of literature.”