I warmed both hands before the fire of life.
—WALTER SAVAGE LANDOR.
Surely some hueless poppy blossomed in
the darkness of those ruins, or the soulless
ashes of the dead breathe out a drowsy
influence. Never have I slept so heavily,
yet never perhaps beneath so cold a tester.
Sunbeams streaming between the crests of
the cypresses awoke me. I leapt up as if a
hundred sentinels had shouted—where none
kept visible watch.
An odour of a languid sweetness pervaded
the air. There was no wind to stir the
dew-besprinkled trees. The old, scarred
gravestones stood in a thick sunshine, afloat
with bees. But Rosinante had preferred to
survey sunshine out of shade. In lush grass
I found her, the picture of age, foot crook'd,
and head dejected.
Yet she followed me uncomplaining along
these narrow avenues of silence, and without
more ado turned her trivial tail on Death
and his dim flocks, and well-nigh scampered
me off into the vivid morning. Soon afterwards,
with Hunger in the saddle, we began
to climb a road almost precipitous, and
stony in the extreme. Often enough we
breathed ourselves as best we could in the
still, sultry air, and rested on the sun-dappled
slopes. But at length we came out
upon the crest, and surveyed in the first
splendour of day a region of extraordinary
grandeur.
Beneath a clear sky to the east stood a
range of mountains, cold and changeless
beneath their snows. At my feet a great
river flowed, broken here and there with
isles in the bright flood. The dark champaign
that flanked its shores was of an unusual
verdure. Mystery and peril brooded on
those distant ravines, the vapours of their
far-descending cataracts. In such abysmal
fastnesses as these the Hyrcan tiger might
hide his surly generations. This was an air
for the sun-disdaining eagle, a country of
transcendent brightness, its flowers strangely
pure and perfect, its waters more limpid, its
grazing herds, its birds, its cedar trees, the
masters of their kind.
Yet not on these nearer glories my eyes
found rest. But, with a kind of heartache,
I gazed, as it were towards home, upon the
distant waters of the sea. Here, on the
crest of this green hill, was silence. There,
too, was profounder silence on the sea's
untrampled floor. Whence comes that angel
out of nought whispering into the ear strange
syllables? I know not; but so seemed I to
stand—a shattered instrument in the world,
past all true music, o'er which none the less
the invisible lute-master stooped. Could I
but catch, could I but in words express the
music his bent fingers intended, the mystery,
the peace—well; then I should indeed
journey solitary on the face of the earth,
a changeling in its cities.
I half feared to descend into a country
so diverse from any I had yet seen.
Hitherto at least I had encountered little
else than friendliness. But here—doves in
eyries! I stood, twisting my fingers in
Rosinante's mane, debating and debating.
And she turned her face to me, and looked
with age into my eyes: and I know not
how woke courage in me again.
"On then?" I said, on the height. And
the gentle beast leaned forward and coughed
into the valley what might indeed be
"Yea!"
So we began to descend. Down we went,
alone, yet not unhappy, until in a while
I discovered, about a hundred yards in
advance of me, another traveller on the
road, ambling easily along at an equal pace
with mine. I know not how far I followed
in his track debating whether to overtake
and to accost him, or to follow on till a
more favourable chance offered.
But Chance—avenger of all shilly-shally—settled
the matter offhand. For my traveller,
after casting one comprehensive glance
towards the skies, suddenly whisked off at a
canter that quickly carried him out of sight.
A chill wind had begun to blow, lifting
in gusts dust into the air and whitening
the tree-tops. As suddenly, calm succeeded.
A cloud of flies droned fretfully about my
ears. And I watched advancing, league-high,
transfigured with sunbeams, the
enormous gloom of storm. The sun smote
from a silvery haze upon its peaks and
gorges. Wind, far above the earth, moaned,
and fell; only to sound once more in the
distance in a mournful trumpeting. Lightnings
played along the desolate hills. The
sun was darkened. A vast flight of snowy,
arrow-winged birds streamed voiceless beneath
his place. And day withdrew its boundaries,
spread to the nearer forests a bright
amphitheatre, fitful with light, whereof it
seemed to me Rosinante with her poor
burden was the centre and the butt. I
confess I began to dread lest even my
mere surmise of danger should engage the
piercing lightnings; as if in the mystery of
life storm and a timorous thought might
yet be of a kin.
We hastened on at the most pathetic of
gallops. Nor seemed indeed the beauteous
lightning to regard at all that restless mote
upon the cirque of its entranced fairness.
In an instantaneous silence I heard a tiny
beat of hoofs; in instantaneous gloom
recognised almost with astonishment my
own shape bowed upon the saddle. It
was a majestic entry into a kingdom so
far-famed.
The storm showed no abatement when at
last I found shelter. From far away I had
espied in the immeasurable glare a country
barn beneath trees. Arrived there, I almost
fell off my horse into as incongruous and
lighthearted a company as ever was seen.
In the midst of the floor of the barn,
upon a heap of hay, sat a fool in
motley blowing with all his wind into a
pipe. It was a cunning tune he played
too, rich and heady. And so seemed the
company to find it, dancers—some thirty or
more—capering round him with all the
abandon heart can feel and heel can
answer to. As for pose, he whose horse
now stood smoking beside my own first
drew my attention—a smooth, small-bearded,
solemn man, a little beyond his prime. He
lifted his toes with such inimitable agility,
postured his fingers so daintily, conducted
his melon-belly with so much elegance, and
exhaled such a warm joy in the sport that
I could look at nothing else at first for
delight in him.
But there were slim maids too among the
plumper and ruddier, like crocuses, like
lilac, like whey, with all their fragrance
and freshness and lightness. Such eyes
adazzle dancing with mine, such nimble and
discreet ankles, such gimp English middles,
and such a gay delight in the mere grace
of the lilting and tripping beneath rafters
ringing loud with thunder, that Pan himself
might skip across a hundred furrows for
sheer envy to witness.
As for the jolly rustics that were jogging
their wits away with such delightful gravity,
but little time was given me to admire
them ere I also was snatched into the ring,
and found brown eyes dwelling with mine,
and a hand like lettuces in the dog-days.
Round and about we skipped in the golden
straw, amidst treasuries of hay, puffing and
spinning. And the quiet lightnings quivered
between the beams, and the monstrous
"Ah!" of the thunder submerged the pipe's
sweetness. Till at last all began to gasp
and blow indeed, and the nodding Fool to
sip, and sip, as if in extremis over his
mouthpiece. Then we rested awhile, with
a medley of shrill laughter and guffaws,
while the rain streamed lightning-lit upon
the trees and tore the clouds to tatters.
With some little circumstance my
traveller picked his way to me, and with
a grave civility bowed me a sort of general
welcome. Whereupon ensued such wit and
banter as made me thankful when the
opening impudence of a kind of jig set
the heels and the petticoats of the company
tossing once more. We danced the lightning
out, and piped the thunder from the
skies. And by then I was so faint with
fasting, and so deep in love with at least
five young country faces, that I scarcely
knew head from heels; still less, when a
long draught of a kind of thin, sweet ale
had mounted to its sphere.
Away we all trooped over the flashing
fields, noisy as jays in the fresh, sweet air,
some to their mowing, some to their milking,
but more, indeed, I truly suspect, to that
exquisite Nirvana from which the tempest's
travail had aroused them. I waved my
hand, striving in vain to keep my eyes on
one blest, beguiling face of all that glanced
behind them. But, she gone, I turned
into the rainy lane once more with my new
acquaintance, discreeter, but not less giddy,
it seemed, than I.
We had not far to go—past a meadow
or two, a low green wall, a black fish-pool—and
soon the tumbledown gables of
a house came into view. My companion
waved his open fingers at the crooked
casements and peered into my face.
"Ah!" he said, "we will talk, we will
talk, you and I: I view it in your eye,
sir—clear and full and profound—such ever
goes with eloquence. 'Tis my delight.
What are we else than beasts?—beasts that
perish? I never tire; I never weary;—give
me to dance and to sing, but ever to talk:
then am I at ease. Heaven is just. Enter,
sir—enter!"
He led me by a shady alley into his
orchard, and thence to a stable, where we
left Rosinante at hob-a-nob with his mare
over a friendly bottle of hay. And we ourselves
passed into the house, and ascended
a staircase into an upper chamber. This
chamber was raftered, its walls hung with
an obscure tapestry, its floor strewn with
sand, and its lozenged casement partly
shuttered against the blaze of sunshine that
flowed across the forests far away to the west.
My friend eyed me brightly and busily as
a starling. "You danced fine, sir," he said.
"Oh! it is a pleasure to me. Ay, and now
I come to consider it, methought I did
hear hoofs behind me that might yet be
echo. No, but I did not think: 'twas but
my ear cried to his dreaming master. Ever
dreaming; God help at last the awakening!
But well met, well met, I say again. I am
cheered. And you but just in time! Nay,
I would not have missed him for a ransom.
So—so—this leg, that leg; up now—hands
over down we go! Lackaday, I am old
bones for such freaks. Once!... 'Memento
mori!' say I, and smell the shower the
sweeter for it. Be seated, sir, bench or
stool, wheresoever you'd be. You're looking
peaked. That burden rings in my skull
like a bagpipe. Toot-a-tootie, toot-a-toot!
Och, sad days!"
We devoured our meal of cold meats
and pickled fish, fruit and junket and a kind
of harsh cheese, as if in contest for a wager.
And copious was the thin spicy wine with
which we swam it home. Ever and again
my host would desist, to whistle, or croon
(with a packed mouth) in the dismallest of
tenors, a stave or two of the tune we had
danced to, bobbing head and foot in sternest
time. Then a great vacancy would overspread
his face turned to the window, as
suddenly to gather to a cheerful smile, and
light, irradiated, once more on me. Then
down would drop his chin over his plate,
and away go finger and spoon among his
victuals in a dance as brisk and whole-hearted
as the other.
He took me out again into his garden
after supper, and we walked beneath the
trees.
"'Tis bliss to be a bachelor, sir," he said,
gazing on the resinous trunk of an old
damson tree. "I gorge, I guzzle; I am
merry, am melancholy; studious, harmonical,
drowsy,—and none to scold or deny me.
For the rest, why, youth is vain: yet youth
had pleasure—innocence and delight. I
chew the cud of many a peaceful acre.
Ay, I have nibbled roses in my time. But
now, what now? I have lived so long
far from courts and courtesy, grace and
fashion, and am so much my own close
and indifferent friend—Why! he is happy
who has solitude for housemate, company for
guest. I say it, I say it; I marry daily
wives of memory's fashioning, and dream at
peace."
It seemed an old bone he picked with
Destiny.
"There's much to be said," I replied as
profoundly as I could.
The air he now lulled youth asleep with
was a very cheerless threnody, but he
brightened once more at praise of his delightful
orchard.
"You like it, sir? You speak kindly, sir.
It is my all; root and branch: how many
a summer's moons have I seen shine hereon!
I know it—there is bliss to come;—miraculous
Paradise for men even dull
as I. Yet 'twill be strange to me—without
my house and orchard. Age tends
to earth, sir, till even an odour may awake
the dead—a branch in the air call with its
fluttering a face beyond Time to vanquish
dear. 'Soul, soul,' I cry, 'forget thy dust,
forget thy vaunting ashes!'—and speak in
vain. So's life!"
And when we had gone in again, and
candles had been lit in his fresh and narrow
chamber, seeing a viol upon a chest, I
begged a little music.
He quite eagerly, with a boyish peal of
laughter, complied; and sat down with a
very solemn face, his brows uplifted, and
sang between the candles to a pathetic air
this doggerel:—
There's a dark tree and a sad tree,
Where sweet Alice waits, unheeded,
For her lover long-time absent,
Plucking rushes by the river.
Let the bird sing, let the buck sport,
Let the sun sink to his setting;
Not one star that stands in darkness
Shines upon her absent lover.
But his stone lies 'neath the dark tree,
Cold to bosom, deaf to weeping;
And 'tis gathering moss she touches,
Where the locks lay of her lover.
"A dolesome thing," he said; "but my
mother was wont to sing it to the virginals.
'Cold to bosom,'" he reiterated with a
plangent cadence; "I remember them all,
sir; from the cradle I had a gift for music."
And then, with an ample flirt of his bow,
he broke, all beams and smiles, into this
ingenuous ditty:
The goodman said,
"'Tis time for bed,
Come, mistress, get us quick to pray;
Call in the maids
From out the glades
Where they with lovers stray,
With love, and love do stray."
"Nay, master mine,
The night is fine,
And time's enough all dark to pray;
'Tis April buds
Bedeck the woods
Where simple maids away
With love, and love do stray.
"Now we are old,
And nigh the mould,
'Tis meet on feeble knees to pray;
When once we'd roam,
'Twas else cried, 'Come,
And sigh the dusk away,
With love, and love to stray.'"
So they gat in
To pray till nine;
Then called, "Come maids, true maids, away!
Kiss and begone,
Ha' done, ha' done,
Until another day
With love, and love to stray!"
Oh, it were best
If so to rest
Went man and maid in peace away!
The throes a heart
May make to smart
Unless love have his way,
In April woods to stray!—
In April woods to stray!
And that finished with another burst of
laughter, he set very adroitly to the mimicry
of beasts and birds upon his frets. Never
have I seen a face so consummately the
action's. His every fibre answered to the
call; his eyebrows twitched like an orator's;
his very nose was plastic.
"Hst!" he cried softly; "hither struts
chanticleer!" "Cock-a-diddle-doo!" crowed
the wire. "Now, prithee, Dame Partlett!"
and down bustled a hen from an egg like
cinnamon. A cat with kittens mewed along
the string, anxious and tender.
"A woodpecker," he cried, directing
momentarily a sedulous, clear eye on me.
And lo, "inviolable quietness" and the
smooth beech-boughs! "And thus," he said,
sitting closer, "the martlets were wont to
whimper about the walls of the castle of
Inverness, the castle of Macbeth."
"Macbeth!" I repeated—"Macbeth!"
"Ay," he said, "it was his seat while yet
a simple soldier—flocks and flocks of them,
wheeling hither, thither, in the evening air,
crying and calling."
I listened in a kind of confusion. "... And
Duncan," I said....
He eyed me with immense pleasure, and
nodded with brilliant eyes on mine.
"What looking man was he?" I said at
last as carelessly as I dared. "... The
King, you mean,—of Scotland."
He magnanimously ignored my confusion,
and paused to build his sentence.
"'Duncan'?" he said. "The question
calls him straight to mind. A lean-locked,
womanish countenance; sickly, yet never
sick; timid, yet most obdurate; more sly
than politic. An ignis fatuus, sir, in a
world of soldiers." His eye wandered....
"'Twas a marvellous sanative air, crisp and
pure; but for him, one draught and outer
darkness. I myself viewed his royal entry
from the gallery—pacing urbane to slaughter;
and I uttered a sigh to see him. 'Why,
sir, do you sigh to see the king?' cried one
softly that stood by. 'I sigh, my lord,' I
answered to the instant, 'at sight of a
monarch even Duncan's match!'"
He looked his wildest astonishment at me.
"Not, I'd have you remember—not that
'twas blood I did foresee.... To kill in
blood a man, and he a king, so near to
natural death ... foul, foul!"
"And Macbeth?" I said presently—"Macbeth...?"
He laid down his viol with prolonged care.
"His was a soul, sir, nobler than his fate.
I followed him not without love from boyhood—a
youth almost too fine of spirit;
shrinking from all violence, over-nicely;
eloquent, yet chary of speech, and of a dark
profundity of thought. The questions he
would patter!—unanswerable, searching earth
and heaven through.... And who now
was it told me the traitor Judas's hair was
red?—yet not red his, but of a reddish
chestnut, fine and bushy. Children have
played their harmless hands at hide-and-seek
therein. O sea of many winds!
"For come gloom on the hills, floods,
discolouring mist; breathe but some grandam's
tale of darkness and blood and
doubleness in his hearing: all changed.
Flame kindled; a fevered unrest drove him
out; and Ambition, that spotted hound of
hell, strained at the leash towards the Pit.
"So runs the world—the ardent and the
lofty. We are beyond earth's story as 'tis
told, sir. All's shallower than the heart of
man.... Indeed, 'twas one more shattered
altar to Hymen."
"'Hymen!'" I said.
He brooded long and silently, clipping his
small beard. And while he was so brooding,
a mouse, a moth, dust—I know not what,
stirred the listening strings of his viol to
sound, and woke him with a start.
"I vowed, sir, then, to dismiss all memory
of such unhappy deeds from mind—never
to speak again that broken lady's name.
Oh! I have seen sad ends—pride abased,
splendour dismantled, courage to terror
come, guilt to a crying guilelessness."
"'Guilelessness?'" I said. "Lady Macbeth
at least was past all changing."
The doctor stood up and cast a deep
scrutiny on me, which yet, perhaps, was
partly on himself.
"Perceive, sir," he said, "this table—broader,
longer, splendidly burdened; and all
adown both sides the board, thanes and their
ladies, lords, and gentlemen, guests bidden
to a royal banquet. 'Twas then in that
bleak and dismal country—the Palace of
Forres. Torches flared in the hall; to every
man a servant or two: we sat in pomp."
He paused again, and gravely withdrew
behind the tapestry.
"And presently," he cried therefrom,
suiting his action to the word, "to the blast
of hautboys enters the king in state thus,
with his attendant lords. And with all
that rich and familiar courtesy of which
he was master in his easier moods he
passed from one to another, greeting with
supple dignity on his way, till he came at
last softly to the place prepared for him
at table. And suddenly—shall I ever
forget, it, sir?—it seemed silence ran like a
flame from mouth to mouth as there he
stood, thus, marble-still, his eyes fixed in
a leaden glare. And he raised his face and
looked once round on us all with a forlorn
astonishment and wrath, like one with a
death-wound—I never saw the like of such
a face.
"Whereat, beseeching us to be calm, and
pay no heed, the queen laid her hand on
his and called him. And his orbs rolled
down once more upon the empty place, and
stuck as if at grapple with some horror seen
within. He muttered aloud in peevish
altercation—once more to heave up his
frame, to sigh and shake himself, and lo!—"
The viol-strings rang to his "lo!"
"Lo, sir, the Unseen had conquered. His
lip sagged into his beard, he babbled with
open mouth, and leaned on his lady with
such an impotent and slavish regard as I
hope never to see again man pay to
woman.... We thought no more of supper
after that....
"But what do I—?" The doctor laid
a cautioning finger on his mouth.
"The company was dispersed, the palace
gloomy with night (and they were black
nights at Forres!), and on the walls I heard
the sentinel's replying.... In the wood's last
glow I entered and stood in his self-same
station before the empty stool. And even
as I stood thus, my hair creeping, my will
concentred, gazing with every cord at
stretch, fell a light, light footfall behind
me." He glanced whitely over his shoulder.
"Sir, it was the queen come softly out of
slumber on my own unquiet errand."
The doctor strode to the door, and peered
out like a man suspicious or guilty of
treachery. It was indeed a house of broken
silences. And there, in the doorway, he
seemed to be addressing his own saddened
conscience.
"With all my skill, and all a leal man's
gentleness, I solaced and persuaded, and
made an oath, and conducted her back to
her own chamber unperceived. How weak
is sleep!... It was a habit, sir, contracted
in childhood, long dormant, that Evil
had woke again. The Past awaits us all.
So run Time's sands, till mercy's globe is
empty and ..."
He stooped and whispered it across to
me: "... A child, a comparative child,
shrunk to an anatomy, her beauty changed,
ghostly of youth and all its sadness, baffled
by a word, slave to a doctor's nod! None
knew but I, and, at the last, one of her
ladies—a gentle, faithful, and fearful creature.
Nor she till far beyond all mischief....
"Wild deeds are done. But to have blood
on the hands, a cry in the ears, and one
same glassy face eye to eye, that nothing
can dim, nor even slumber pacify—dreams,
dreams, intangible, enorm! Forefend them,
God, from me!"
He stood a moment as if he were
listening; then turned, smiling irresolutely,
and eyed me aimlessly. He seemed afraid
of his own house, askance at his own
furniture. Yet, though I scarce know why,
I felt he had not told me the whole truth.
Something fidelity had yet withheld from
vanity. I longed to enquire further. I put
aside how many burning questions awhile!