[Continued from the October Number.]
CHAPTER XVI.
Before a table in the apartments appropriated to him in his father's
house at Knightsbridge, sate Lord L'Estrange, sorting or destroying
letters and papers—an ordinary symptom of change of residence. There
are certain trifles by which a shrewd observer may judge of a man's
disposition. Thus, ranged on the table, with some elegance, but with
soldier-like precision, were sundry little relics of former days,
hallowed by some sentiment of memory, or perhaps endeared solely by
custom; which, whether he was in Egypt, Italy, or England, always made
part of the furniture of Harley's room. Even the small, old-fashioned,
and somewhat inconvenient inkstand in which he dipped the pen as he
labeled the letters he put aside, belonged to the writing-desk which had
been his pride as a schoolboy. Even the books that lay scattered round
were not new works, not those to which we turn to satisfy the curiosity
of an hour, or to distract our graver thoughts: they were chiefly either
Latin or Italian poets, with many a pencil-mark on the margin; or books
which, making severe demand on thought, require slow and frequent
perusal, and become companions. Somehow or other, in remarking that even
in dumb inanimate things the man was averse to change, and had the habit
of attaching himself to whatever was connected with old associations,
you might guess that he clung with pertinacity to affections more
important, and you could better comprehend the freshness of his
friendship for one so dissimilar in pursuits and character as Audley
Egerton. An affection once admitted into the heart of Harley L'Estrange,
seemed never to be questioned or reasoned with: it became tacitly fixed,
as it were, into his own nature; and little less than a revolution of
his whole system could dislodge or disturb it.
Lord L'Estrange's hand rested now upon a letter in a stiff legible
Italian character; and instead of disposing of it at once, as he had
done with the rest, he spread it before him, and reread the contents. It
was a letter from Riccabocca, received a few weeks since, and ran thus:
Letter from Signor Riccabocca to Lord L'Estrange.
"I thank you, my noble friend, for judging of me with faith in my honor,
and respect for my reverses.
"No, and thrice no, to all concessions, all overtures, all treaty with
Giulio Franzini. I write the name, and my emotions choke me. I must
pause and cool back into disdain. It is over. Pass from that subject.
But you have alarmed me. This sister! I have not seen her since her
childhood; and she was brought under his influence—she can but work as
his agent. She wish to learn my residence! It can be but for some
hostile and malignant purpose. I may trust in you. I know that. You say
I may trust equally in the discretion of your friend. Pardon me—my
confidence is not so elastic. A word may give the clew to my retreat.
But, if discovered, what harm can ensue? An English roof protects me
from Austrian despotism, true; but not the brazen tower of Danaë could
protect me from Italian craft. And were there nothing worse, it would be
intolerable to me to live under the eyes of a relentless spy. Truly
saith our proverb, 'He sleeps ill for whom the enemy wakes.' Look you,
my friend, I have done with my old life—I wish to cast it from me as a
snake its skin. I have denied myself all that exiles deem consolation.
No pity for misfortune, no messages from sympathizing friendship, no
news from a lost and bereaved country follow me to my hearth under the
skies of the stranger. From all these I have voluntarily cut myself off.
I am as dead to the life I once lived as if the Styx rolled between it
and me. With that sternness which is admissible only to the afflicted, I
have denied myself even the consolation of your visits. I have told you
fairly and simply that your presence would unsettle all my enforced and
infirm philosophy, and remind me only of the past, which I seek to blot
from remembrance. You have complied, on the one condition, that whenever
I really want your aid I will ask it; and, meanwhile, you have
generously sought to obtain me justice from the cabinets of ministers
and in the courts of kings. I did not refuse your heart this luxury; for
I have a child—(Ah! I have taught that child already to revere your
name, and in her prayers it is not forgotten). But now that you are
convinced that even your zeal is unavailing, I ask you to discontinue
attempts that may but bring the spy upon my track, and involve me in new
misfortunes. Believe me, O brilliant Englishman, that I am satisfied and
contented with my lot. I am sure it would not be for my happiness to
change it. 'Chi non ha provato il male non conosce il bene.' ('One does
not know when one is well off till one has known misfortune.') You ask
me how I live—I answer, alla giornata—to the day—not for the
morrow, as I did once. I have accustomed myself to the calm existence of
a village. I take interest in its details. There is my wife, good
creature, sitting opposite to me, never asking what I write, or to whom,
but ready to throw aside her work and talk the moment the pen is out of
my hand. Talk—and what about? Heaven knows! But I would rather hear
that talk, though on the affairs of a hamlet, than babble again with
recreant nobles and blundering professors about commonwealths and
constitutions. When I want to see how little those last influence the
happiness of wise men, have I not Machiavel and Thucydides? Then,
by-and-by, the Parson will drop in, and we argue. He never knows when he
is beaten, so the argument is everlasting. On fine days I ramble out by
a winding rill with my Violante, or stroll to my friend the Squire's,
and see how healthful a thing is true pleasure; and on wet days I shut
myself up, and mope, perhaps, till, hark! a gentle tap at the door, and
in comes Violante, with her dark eyes that shine out through reproachful
tears—reproachful that I should mourn alone, while she is under my
roof—so she puts her arms round me, and in five minutes all is sunshine
within. What care we for your English gray clouds without?
"Leave me, my dear Lord—leave me to this quiet happy passage toward old
age, serener than the youth that I wasted so wildly; and guard well the
secret on which my happiness depends.
"Now to yourself, before I close. Of that same yourself you speak too
little, as of me too much. But I so well comprehend the profound
melancholy that lies underneath the wild and fanciful humor with which
you but suggest, as in sport, what you feel so in earnest. The laborious
solitude of cities weighs on you. You are flying back to the dolce far
niente—to friends few, but intimate; to life monotonous, but
unrestrained; and even there the sense of loneliness will again seize
upon you; and you do not seek, as I do, the annihilation of memory; your
dead passions are turned to ghosts that haunt you, and unfit you for the
living world. I see it all—I see it still, in your hurried fantastic
lines, as I saw it when we two sat amidst the pines and beheld the blue
lake stretched below. I troubled by the shadow of the Future, you
disturbed by that of the Past.
"Well, but you say, half-seriously, half in jest, 'I will escape from
this prison-house of memory; I will form new ties, like other men, and
before it be too late; I will marry—ay, but I must love—there is the
difficulty'—difficulty—yes, and Heaven be thanked for it! Recall all
the unhappy marriages that have come to your knowledge—pray, have not
eighteen out of twenty been marriages for love? It always has been so,
and it always will. Because, whenever we love deeply, we exact so much
and forgive so little. Be content to find some one with whom your hearth
and your honor are safe. You will grow to love what never wounds your
heart—you will soon grow out of love with what must always disappoint
your imagination. Cospetto! I wish my Jemima had a younger sister for
you. Yet it was with a deep groan that I settled myself to a—Jemima.
"Now, I have written you a long letter, to prove how little I need of
your compassion or your zeal. Once more let there be long silence
between us. It is not easy for me to correspond with a man of your rank,
and not incur the curious gossip of my still little pool of a world
which the splash of a pebble can break into circles. I must take this
over to a post-town some ten miles off, and drop it into the box by
stealth.
"Adieu, dear and noble friend, gentlest heart and subtlest fancy that I
have met in my walk through life. Adieu—write me word when you have
abandoned a day-dream and found a Jemima.
Alphonso.
"P.S.—For heaven's sake, caution and recaution your friend the
minister, not to drop a word to this woman that may betray my
hiding-place."
"Is he really happy?" murmured Harley, as he closed the letter; and he
sunk for a few moments into a reverie.
"This life in a village—this wife in a lady who puts down her work to
talk about villagers—what a contrast to Audley's full existence. And I
can never envy nor comprehend either—yet my own—what is it?"
He rose, and moved toward the window, from which a rustic stair
descended to a green lawn—studded with larger trees than are often
found in the grounds of a suburban residence. There were calm and
coolness in the sight, and one could scarcely have supposed that London
lay so near.
The door opened softly, and a lady, past middle age, entered; and,
approaching Harley, as he still stood musing by the window, laid her
hand on his shoulder. What character there is in a hand! Hers was a hand
that Titian would have painted with elaborate care! Thin, white, and
delicate—with the blue veins raised from the surface. Yet there was
something more than mere patrician elegance in the form and texture. A
true physiologist would have said at once, "there are intellect and
pride in that hand, which seems to fix a hold where it rests; and, lying
so lightly, yet will not be as lightly shaken off."
"Harley," said the lady—and Harley turned—"you do not deceive me by
that smile," she continued, sadly; "you were not smiling when I
entered."
"It is rarely that we smile to ourselves, my dear mother; and I have
done nothing lately so foolish as to cause me to smile at myself."
"My son," said Lady Lansmere, somewhat abruptly, but with great
earnestness, "you come from a line of illustrious ancestors; and
methinks they ask from their tombs why the last of their race has no aim
and no object—no interest—no home in the land which they served, and
which rewarded them with its honors."
"Mother," said the soldier, simply, "when the land was in danger I
served it as my fore-fathers served—and my answer would be the scars on
my breast."
"Is it only in danger that a country is served—only in war that duty is
fulfilled? Do you think that your father, in his plain, manly life of
country gentleman, does not fulfill, though obscurely, the objects for
which aristocracy is created and wealth is bestowed?"
"Doubtless he does, ma'am—and better than his vagrant son ever can."
"Yet his vagrant son has received such gifts from nature—his youth was
so rich in promise—his boyhood so glowed at the dream of glory?"
"Ay," said Harley, very softly, "it is possible—and all to be buried in
a single grave!"
The Countess started, and withdrew her hand from Harley's shoulder.
Lady Lansmere's countenance was not one that much varied in expression.
She had in this, as in her cast of feature, little resemblance to her
son.
Her features were slightly aquiline—the eyebrows of that arch which
gives a certain majesty to the aspect: the lines round the mouth were
habitually rigid and compressed. Her face was that of one who had gone
through great emotion, and subdued it. There was something formal, and
even ascetic, in the character of her beauty, which was still
considerable;—in her air and in her dress. She might have suggested to
you the idea of some Gothic baroness of old, half chatelaine, half
abbess; you would see at a glance that she did not live in the light
world round her, and disdained its fashions and its mode of thought; yet
with all this rigidity it was still the face of the woman who has known
human ties and human affections. And now, as she gazed long on Harley's
quiet, saddened brow, it was the face of a mother.
"A single grave," she said, after a long pause. "And you were then but a
boy, Harley! Can such a memory influence you even to this day? It is
scarcely possible; it does not seem to me within the realities of man's
life—though it might be of woman's."
"I believe," said Harley, half soliloquizing, "that I have a great deal
of the woman in me. Perhaps men who live much alone; and care not for
men's objects, do grow tenacious of impressions, as your sex does. But
oh," he cried aloud, and with a sudden change of countenance, "oh, the
hardest and the coldest man would have felt as I do, had he known
her—had he loved her. She was like no other woman I have ever met.
Bright and glorious creature of another sphere! She descended on this
earth, and darkened it when she passed away. It was no use striving.
Mother, I have as much courage as our steel-clad fathers ever had. I
have dared in battle and in deserts—against man and the wild
beast—against the storm and the ocean—against the rude powers of
Nature—dangers as dread as ever pilgrim or Crusader rejoiced to brave.
But courage against that one memory! no, I have none!"
"Harley, Harley, you break my heart," cried the Countess, clasping her
hands.
"It is astonishing," continued her son, so wrapped in his own thoughts
that he did not, perhaps, hear her outcry—"yea, verily, it is
astonishing, that considering the thousands of women I have seen and
spoken with, I never see a face like hers—never hear a voice so sweet.
And all this universe of life can not afford me one look and one tone
that can restore me to man's privilege—love. Well, well, well, life has
other things yet—Poetry and Art live still—still smiles the heaven,
and still wave the trees. Leave me to happiness in my own way."
The Countess was about to reply, when the door was thrown hastily open,
and Lord Lansmere walked in.
The Earl was some years older than the Countess, but his placid face
showed less wear and tear; a benevolent, kindly face—without any
evidence of commanding intellect, but with no lack of sense in its
pleasant lines. His form not tall, but upright, and with an air of
consequence—a little pompous, but good-humoredly so. The pomposity of
the Grand Seigneur, who has lived much in provinces—whose will has
been rarely disputed, and whose importance has been so felt and
acknowledged as to react insensibly on himself; an excellent man; but
when you glanced toward the high brow and dark eye of the Countess, you
marveled a little how the two had come together, and, according to
common report, lived so happily in the union.
"Ho, ho! my dear Harley," cried Lord Lansmere, rubbing his hands with an
appearance of much satisfaction. "I have just been paying a visit to the
Duchess."
"What Duchess, my dear father?"
"Why, your mother's first cousin, to be sure—the Duchess of
Knaresborough, whom, to oblige me, you condescended to call upon; and
delighted I am to hear that you admire Lady Mary—"
"She is very high-bred, and rather—high-nosed," answered Harley. Then
observing that his mother looked pained, and his father disconcerted, he
added seriously, "But handsome, certainly."
"Well, Harley," said the Earl, recovering himself, "the Duchess, taking
advantage of our connection to speak freely, has intimated to me that
Lady Mary has been no less struck with yourself; and to come to the
point, since you allow that it is time you should think of marrying, I
do not know a more desirable alliance. What do you say, Catherine?"
"The Duke is of a family that ranks in history before the Wars of the
Roses," said Lady Lansmere, with an air of deference to her husband;
"and there has never been one scandal in its annals, or one blot in its
scutcheon. But I am sure my dear Lord must think that the Duchess should
not have made the first overture—even to a friend and a kinsman?"
"Why, we are old-fashioned people," said the Earl, rather embarrassed,
"and the Duchess is a woman of the world."
"Let us hope," said the Countess mildly, "that her daughter is not."
"I would not marry Lady Mary, if all the rest of the female sex were
turned into apes," said Lord L'Estrange, with deliberate fervor.
"Good Heavens!" cried the Earl, "what extraordinary language is this!
And pray why, sir?"
Harley.—"I can't say—there is no why in these cases. But, my
dear father, you are not keeping faith with me."
Lord Lansmere.—"How?"
Harley.—"You, and my Lady here, entreat me to marry—I promise
to do my best to obey you; but on one condition—that I choose for
myself, and take my time about it. Agreed on both sides. Whereon, off
goes your Lordship—actually before noon, at an hour when no lady
without a shudder could think of cold blonde and damp orange
flowers—off goes your Lordship, I say, and commits poor Lady Mary and
your unworthy son to a mutual admiration—which neither of us ever felt.
Pardon me, my father—but this is grave. Again let me claim your
promise—full choice for myself, and no reference to the Wars of the
Roses. What war of the roses like that between Modesty and Love upon the
cheek of the virgin!"
Lady Lansmere.—"Full choice for yourself, Harley—so be it.
But we, too, named a condition—Did we not, Lansmere?"
The Earl (puzzled).—"Eh—did we? Certainly we did."
Harley.—"What was it?"
Lady Lansmere.—"The son of Lord Lansmere can only marry the
daughter of a gentleman."
The Earl.—"Of course—of course."
The blood rushed over Harley's fair face, and then as suddenly left it
pale.
He walked away to the window—his mother followed him, and again laid
her hand on his shoulder.
"You were cruel," said he, gently, and in a whisper, as he winced under
the touch of the hand. Then turning to the Earl, who was gazing at him
in blank surprise—(it never occurred to Lord Lansmere that there could
be a doubt of his son's marrying beneath the rank modestly stated by the
Countess)—Harley stretched forth his hand, and said, in his soft,
winning tone, "You have ever been most gracious to me, and most
forbearing; it is but just that I should sacrifice the habits of an
egotist, to gratify a wish which you so warmly entertain. I agree with
you, too, that our race should not close in me—Noblesse oblige. But
you know I was ever romantic; and I must love where I marry—or, if not
love, I must feel that my wife is worthy of all the love I could once
have bestowed. Now, as to the vague word 'gentleman' that my mother
employs—word that means so differently on different lips—I confess
that I have a prejudice against young ladies brought up in the
'excellent foppery of the world,' as the daughters of gentlemen of our
rank mostly are. I crave, therefore, the most liberal interpretation of
this word 'gentleman.' And so long as there be nothing mean or sordid in
the birth, habits, and education of the father of this bride to be, I
trust you will both agree to demand nothing more—neither titles nor
pedigree."
"Titles, no—assuredly," said Lady Lansmere; "they do not make
gentlemen."
"Certainly not," said the Earl. "Many of our best families are
untitled."
"Titles—no," repeated Lady Lansmere; "but ancestors—yes."
"Ah, my mother," said Harley, with his most sad and quiet smile, "it is
fated that we shall never agree. The first of our race is ever the one
we are most proud of; and pray what ancestors had he? Beauty, virtue,
modesty, intellect—if these are not nobility enough for a man, he is a
slave to the dead."
With these words Harley took up his hat and made toward the door.
"You said yourself, 'Noblesse oblige,'" said the Countess, following
him to the threshold; "we have nothing more to add."
Harley slightly shrugged his shoulders, kissed his mother's hand,
whistled to Nero, who started up from a doze by the window, and went his
way.
"Does he really go abroad next week?" said the Earl.
"So he says."
"I am afraid there is no chance for Lady Mary," resumed Lord Lansmere,
with a slight but melancholy smile.
"She has not intellect enough to charm him. She is not worthy of
Harley," said the proud mother.
"Between you and me," rejoined the Earl, rather timidly, "I don't see
what good his intellect does him. He could not be more unsettled and
useless if he were the merest dunce in the three kingdoms. And so
ambitious as he was when a boy! Catherine, I sometimes fancy that you
know what changed him."
"I! Nay, my dear Lord, it is a common change enough with the young, when
of such fortunes; who find, when they enter life, that there is really
little left for them to strive for. Had Harley been a poor man's son, it
might have been different."
"I was born to the same fortunes as Harley," said the Earl, shrewdly,
"and yet I flatter myself I am of some use to old England."
The Countess seized upon the occasion, complimented her Lord, and turned
the subject.
CHAPTER XVII.
Harley spent his day in his usual desultory, lounging manner—dined in
his quiet corner at his favorite club—Nero, not admitted into the club,
patiently waited for him outside the door. The dinner over, dog and man,
equally indifferent to the crowd, sauntered down that thoroughfare
which, to the few who can comprehend the Poetry of London, has
associations of glory and of woe sublime as any that the ruins of the
dead elder world can furnish—thoroughfare that traverses what was once
the courtyard of Whitehall, having to its left the site of the palace
that lodged the royalty of Scotland—gains, through a narrow strait,
that old isle of Thorney, in which Edward the Confessor received the
ominous visit of the Conqueror—and, widening once more by the Abbey and
the Hall of Westminster, then loses itself, like all memories of earthly
grandeur amidst humble passages and mean defiles.
Thus thought Harley L'Estrange—ever less amidst the actual world around
him, than the images invoked by his own solitary soul—as he gained the
Bridge, and saw the dull lifeless craft sleeping on the "Silent Way,"
once loud and glittering with the gilded barks of the antique Seignorie
of England.
It was on that bridge that Audley Egerton had appointed to meet
L'Estrange, at an hour when he calculated he could best steal a respite
from debate. For Harley, with his fastidious dislike to all the resorts
of his equals, had declined to seek his friend in the crowded regions of
Bellamy's.
Harley's eye, as he passed along the bridge, was attracted by a still
form, seated on the stones in one of the nooks, with its face covered
by its hands. "If I were a sculptor," said he to himself, "I should
remember that image whenever I wished to convey the idea of
Despondency!" He lifted his looks and saw, a little before him in the
midst of the causeway, the firm erect figure of Audley Egerton. The
moonlight was full on the bronzed countenance of the strong public
man—with its lines of thought and care, and its vigorous but cold
expression of intense self-control.
"And looking yonder," continued Harley's soliloquy, "I should remember
that form when I wished to hew out from the granite the idea of
Endurance."
"So you are come, and punctually," said Egerton, linking his arm in
Harley's.
Harley.—"Punctually, of course, for I respect your time, and I
will not detain you long. I presume you will speak to-night."
Egerton.—"I have spoken."
Harley (with interest).—"And well, I hope."
Egerton.—"With effect, I suppose, for I have been loudly
cheered, which does not always happen to me."
Harley.—"And that gave you pleasure?"
Egerton (after a moment's thought).—"No, not the least."
Harley.—"What, then, attaches you so much to this
life—constant drudgery, constant warfare—the more pleasurable
faculties dormant, all the harsher ones aroused, if even its rewards
(and I take the best of those to be applause) do not please you?"
Egerton.—"What?—custom."
Harley.—"Martyr!"
Egerton.—"You say it. But turn to yourself; you have decided,
then, to leave England next week."
Harley (moodily).—"Yes. This life in a capital, where all are
so active, myself so objectless, preys on me like a low fever. Nothing
here amuses me, nothing interests, nothing comforts and consoles. But I
am resolved, before it be too late, to make one great struggle out of
the Past, and into the natural world of men. In a word, I have resolved
to marry."
Egerton.—"Whom?"
HARLEY (seriously).—"Upon my life, my dear fellow, you are a great
philosopher. You have hit the exact question. You see I can not marry a
dream; and where, out of dreams, shall I find this 'whom?'"
Egerton.—"You do not search for her."
Harley.—"Do we ever search for love? Does it not flash upon us
when we least expect it? Is it not like the inspiration to the muse?
What poet sits down and says, 'I will write a poem?' What man looks out
and says, 'I will fall in love?' No! Happiness, as the great German
tells us, 'falls suddenly from the bosom of the gods;' so does love."
Egerton.—"You remember the old line in Horace: 'Life's tide
flows away, while the boor sits on the margin and waits for the ford.'"
Harley.—"An idea which incidentally dropped from you some
weeks ago, and which I had before half meditated, has since haunted me.
If I could but find some child with sweet dispositions and fair
intellect not yet formed, and train her up, according to my ideal. I am
still young enough to wait a few years, and meanwhile I shall have
gained what I so sadly want—an object in life."
Egerton.—"You are ever the child of romance. But what—"
Here the minister was interrupted by a messenger from the House of
Commons, whom Audley had instructed to seek him on the bridge should his
presence be required—
"Sir, the opposition are taking advantage of the thinness of the House
to call for a division. Mr.—— is put up to speak for time, but they
won't hear him."
Egerton turned hastily to Lord L'Estrange, "You see you must excuse me
now. To-morrow I must go to Windsor for two days; but we shall meet on
my return."
"It does not matter," answered Harley; "I stand out of the pale of your
advice, O practical man of sense. And if," added Harley, with
affectionate and mournful sweetness—"If I worry you with complaints
which you can not understand, it is only because of old schoolboy
habits. I can have no trouble that I do not confide in you."
Egerton's hand trembled as it pressed his friend's; and, without a word,
he hurried away abruptly. Harley remained motionless for some seconds,
in deep and quiet reverie; then he called to his dog, and turned back
toward Westminster.
He passed the nook in which had sate the still figure of Despondency.
But the figure had now risen, and was leaning against the balustrade.
The dog who preceded his master paused by the solitary form, and sniffed
it suspiciously.
"Nero, sir, come here," said Harley.
"Nero," that was the name by which Helen had said that her father's
friend had called his dog. And the sound startled Leonard as he leaned,
sick at heart, against the stone. He lifted his head and looked
wistfully, eagerly into Harley's face. Those eyes, bright, clear, yet so
strangely deep and absent, which Helen had described, met his own, and
chained them. For L'Estrange halted also; the boy's countenance was not
unfamiliar to him. He returned the inquiring look fixed on his own, and
recognized the student by the book-stall.
"The dog is quite harmless, sir," said L'Estrange, with a smile.
"And you call him Nero?" said Leonard, still gazing on the stranger.
Harley mistook the drift of the question.
"Nero, sir; but he is free from the sanguinary propensities of his Roman
namesake." Harley was about to pass on, when Leonard said, falteringly,
"Pardon me, but can it be possible that you are one whom I have sought
in vain, on behalf of the child of Captain Digby?"
Harley stopped short. "Digby!" he exclaimed, "where is he? He should
have found me easily. I gave him an address."
"Ah, Heaven be thanked," cried Leonard. "Helen is saved; she will not
die;" and he burst into tears.
A very few moments, and a very few words sufficed to explain to Harley
the state of his old fellow-soldier's orphan. And Harley himself soon
stood in the young sufferer's room, supporting her burning temples on
his breast, and whispering into ears that heard him, as in a happy
dream, "Comfort, comfort; your father yet lives in me."
And then Helen, raising her eyes, said, "But Leonard is my brother—more
than brother—and he needs a father's care more than I do."
"Hush, hush, Helen. I need no one—nothing now!" cried Leonard; and his
tears gushed over the little hand that clasped his own.
CHAPTER XVIII.
Harley L'Estrange was a man whom all things that belong to the romantic
and poetic side of our human life deeply impressed. When he came to
learn the ties between these two children of nature, standing side by
side, alone amidst the storms of fate, his heart was more deeply moved
than it had been for many years. In those dreary attics, overshadowed by
the smoke and reek of the humble suburb—the workday world in its
harshest and tritest forms below and around them—he recognized that
divine poem which comes out from all union between the mind and the
heart. Here, on the rough deal table (the ink scarcely dry), lay the
writings of the young wrestler for fame and bread; there, on the other
side the partition, on that mean pallet, lay the boy's sole
comforter—the all that warmed his heart with living mortal affection.
On one side the wall, the world of imagination; on the other this world
of grief and of love. And in both, a spirit equally sublime—unselfish
Devotion—"the something afar from the sphere of our sorrow."
He looked round the room into which he had followed Leonard, on quitting
Helen's bedside. He noted the MSS. on the table, and, pointing to them,
said gently, "And these are the labors by which you supported the
soldier's orphan?—soldier yourself, in a hard battle!"
"The battle was lost—I could not support her," replied Leonard,
mournfully.
"But you did not desert her. When Pandora's box was opened, they say
Hope lingered last—"
"False, false," said Leonard; "a heathen's notion. There are deities
that linger behind Hope: Gratitude, Love, and Duty."
"Yours is no common nature," exclaimed Harley, admiringly, "but I must
sound it more deeply hereafter; at present I hasten for the physician; I
shall return with him. We must move that poor child from this low, close
air as soon as possible. Meanwhile, let me qualify your rejection of the
old fable. Wherever Gratitude, Love, and Duty remain to man, believe me
that Hope is there too, though she may be oft invisible, hidden behind
the sheltering wings of the nobler deities."
Harley said this with that wondrous smile of his, which cast a
brightness over the whole room—and went away.
Leonard stole softly toward the grimy window; and looking up toward the
stars that shone pale over the roof-tops, he murmured, "O thou, the
All-seeing and All-merciful!—how it comforts me now to think that
though my dreams of knowledge may have sometimes obscured the Heaven, I
never doubted that Thou wert there—as luminous and everlasting, though
behind the cloud!" So, for a few minutes, he prayed silently—then
passed into Helen's room, and sate beside her motionless, for she slept.
She woke just as Harley returned with a physician, and then Leonard,
returning to his own room, saw among his papers the letter he had
written to Mr. Dale; and muttering, "I need not disgrace my calling—I
need not be the mendicant now," held the letter to the flame of the
candle. And while he said this, and as the burning tinder dropped on the
floor, the sharp hunger, unfelt during his late anxious emotions, gnawed
at his entrails. Still even hunger could not reach that noble pride
which had yielded to a sentiment nobler than itself—and he smiled as he
repeated, "No mendicant! the life that I was sworn to guard is saved. I
can raise against Fate the front of the Man once more."
CHAPTER XIX.
A few days afterward, and Helen, removed to a pure air, and under the
advice of the first physician, was out of all danger.
It was a pretty, detached cottage, with its windows looking over the
wild heaths of Norwood, to which Harley rode daily to watch the
convalescence of his young charge—an object in life was already found.
As she grew better and stronger, he coaxed her easily into talking, and
listened to her with pleased surprise. The heart so infantine, and the
sense so womanly, struck him much by its rare contrast and combination.
Leonard, whom he had insisted on placing also in the cottage, had staid
there willingly till Helen's recovery was beyond question. Then he came
to Lord L'Estrange, as the latter was about one day to leave the
cottage, and said, quietly, "Now, my Lord, that Helen is safe, and now
that she will need me no more, I can no longer be a pensioner on your
bounty. I return to London."
"You are my visitor—not my pensioner, foolish boy," said Harley, who
had already noticed the pride which spoke in that farewell; "come into
the garden, and let us talk."
Harley seated himself on a bench on the little lawn; Nero crouched at
his feet; Leonard stood beside him.
"So," said Lord L'Estrange, "you would return to London! What to do?"
"Fulfill my fate."
"And that?"
"I can not guess. Fate is the Isis whose vail no mortal can ever raise."
"You should be born for great things," said Harley, abruptly. "I am sure
that you write well. I have seen that you study with passion. Better
than writing and better than study, you have a noble heart, and the
proud desire of independence. Let me see your MSS., or any copies of
what you have already printed. Do not hesitate—I ask but to be a
reader. I don't pretend to be a patron; it is a word I hate."
Leonard's eyes sparkled through their sudden moisture. He brought out
his portfolio, placed it on the bench beside Harley, and then went
softly to the farther part of the garden. Nero looked after him, and
then rose and followed him slowly. The boy seated himself on the turf,
and Nero rested his dull head on the loud heart of the poet.
Harley took up the various papers before him and read them through
leisurely. Certainly he was no critic. He was not accustomed to analyze
what pleased or displeased him; but his perceptions were quick, and his
taste exquisite. As he read, his countenance, always so genuinely
expressive, exhibited now doubt, and now admiration. He was soon struck
by the contrast in the boy's writings; between the pieces that sported
with fancy, and those that grappled with thought. In the first, the
young poet seemed so unconscious of his own individuality. His
imagination, afar and aloft from the scenes of his suffering, ran riot
amidst a paradise of happy golden creations. But in the last, the
THINKER stood out alone and mournful, questioning, in troubled
sorrow, the hard world on which he gazed. All in the thought was
unsettled, tumultuous; all in the fancy serene and peaceful. The genius
seemed divided into twain shapes; the one bathing its wings amidst the
starry dews of heaven; the other wandering "melancholy, slow," amidst
desolate and boundless sands. Harley gently laid down the paper and
mused a little while. Then he rose and walked to Leonard, gazing on his
countenance as he neared the boy, with a new and deeper interest.
"I have read your papers," he said, "and recognize in them two men,
belonging to two worlds, essentially distinct."
Leonard started, and murmured, "True, true!"
"I apprehend," resumed Harley, "that one of these men must either
destroy the other, or that the two must become fused and harmonized into
a single existence. Get your hat, mount my groom's horse, and come with
me to London; we will converse by the way. Look you, I believe you and I
agree in this, that the first object of every noble spirit is
independence. It is toward this independence that I alone presume to
assist you; and this is a service which the proudest man can receive
without a blush."
Leonard lifted his eyes toward Harley's, and those eyes swam with
grateful tears; but his heart was too full to answer.
"I am not one of those," said Harley, when they were on the road, "who
think that because a young man writes poetry he is fit for nothing else,
and that he must be a poet or a pauper. I have said that in you there
seems to me to be two men, the man of the Ideal world, the man of the
Actual. To each of these men I can offer a separate career. The first
is, perhaps, the more tempting. It is the interest of the state to draw
into its service all the talent and industry it can obtain; and under
his native state every citizen of a free country should be proud to take
service. I have a friend who is a minister, and who is known to
encourage talent—Audley Egerton. I have but to say to him, 'There is a
young man who will well repay to the government whatever the government
bestows on him;' and you will rise to-morrow independent in means, and
with fair occasions to attain to fortune and distinction. This is one
offer, what say you to it?"
Leonard thought bitterly of his interview with Audley Egerton, and the
minister's proffered crown-piece. He shook his head, and replied:
"Oh, my lord, how have I deserved such kindness? Do with me what you
will; but if I have the option, I would rather follow my own calling.
This is not the ambition that inflames me."
"Hear, then, the other offer. I have a friend with whom I am less
intimate than Egerton, and who has nothing in his gift to bestow. I
speak of a man of letters—Henry Norreys—of whom you have doubtless
heard, who, I should say, conceived an interest in you when he observed
you reading at the book-stall. I have often heard him say, that
literature, as a profession, is misunderstood, and that rightly
followed, with the same pains and the same prudence which are brought to
bear on other professions, a competence, at least, can be always
ultimately obtained. But the way may be long and tedious—and it leads
to no power but over thought; it rarely attains to wealth; and, though
reputation may be certain, Fame, such as poets dream of, is the lot
of few. What say you to this course?"
"My lord, I decide," said Leonard, firmly; and then his young face
lighting up with enthusiasm, he exclaimed, "Yes, if, as you say, there
be two men within me, I feel, that were I condemned wholly to the
mechanical and practical world, one would indeed destroy the other. And
the conqueror would be the ruder and the coarser. Let me pursue those
ideas that, though they have but flitted across me vague and
formless—have ever soared toward the sunlight. No matter whether or not
they lead to fortune or to fame, at least they will lead me upward!
Knowledge for itself I desire—what care I, if it be not power!"
"Enough," said Harley, with a pleased smile at his young companion's
outburst. "As you decide so shall it be settled. And now permit me, if
not impertinent, to ask you a few questions. Your name is Leonard
Fairfield?"
The boy blushed deeply, and bowed his head as if in assent.
"Helen says you are self-taught; for the rest she refers me to
you—thinking, perhaps, that I should esteem you less—rather than yet
more highly—if she said you were, as I presume to conjecture, of humble
birth."
"My birth," said Leonard, slowly, "is very—very—humble."
"The name of Fairfield is not unknown to me. There was one of that name
who married into a family in Lansmere—married an Avenel—" continued
Harley—and his voice quivered. "You change countenance. Oh, could your
mother's name have been Avenel?"
"Yes," said Leonard, between his set teeth. Harley laid his hand on the
boy's shoulder. "Then, indeed, I have a claim on you—then, indeed, we
are friends. I have a right to serve any of that family."
Leonard looked at him in surprise—"For," continued Harley, recovering
himself, "they always served my family; and my recollections of
Lansmere, though boyish, are indelible." He spurred on his horse as the
words closed—and again there was a long pause; but from that time
Harley always spoke to Leonard in a soft voice, and often gazed on him
with earnest and kindly eyes.
They reached a house in a central, though not fashionable street. A
man-servant of a singularly grave and awful aspect opened the door; a
man who had lived all his life with authors. Poor devil, he was indeed
prematurely old! The care on his lip, and the pomp on his brow—no
mortal's pen can describe!
"Is Mr. Norreys at home?" asked Harley.
"He is at home—to his friends, my lord," answered the man,
majestically; and he stalked across the hall with the step of a Dangeau
ushering some Montmorenci to the presence of Louis le Grand.
"Stay—show this gentleman into another room. I will go first into the
library; wait for me, Leonard." The man nodded, and ushered Leonard into
the dining-room. Then pausing before the door of the library, and
listening an instant, as if fearful to disturb some mood of inspiration,
opened it very softly. To his ineffable disgust, Harley pushed before,
and entered abruptly. It was a large room, lined with books from the
floor to the ceiling. Books were on all the tables—books were on all
the chairs. Harley seated himself on a folio of Raleigh's History of the
World, and cried:
"I have brought you a treasure!"
"What is it?" said Norreys, good-humoredly, looking up from his desk.
"A mind!"
"A mind!" echoed Norreys, vaguely. "Your own?"
"Pooh—I have none—I have only a heart and a fancy. Listen: you
remember the boy we saw reading at the book-stall. I have caught him
for you, and you shall train him into a man. I have the warmest interest
in his future—- for I knew some of his family—and one of that family
was very dear to me. As for money, he has not a shilling, and not a
shilling would he accept, gratis, from you or me either. But he comes
with bold heart to work—and work you must find him." Harley then
rapidly told his friend of the two offers he had made to Leonard—and
Leonard's choice.
"This promises very well; for letters a man must have a strong vocation
as he should have for law—I will do all that you wish."
Harley rose with alertness—shook Norreys cordially by the hand—hurried
out of the room, and returned with Leonard.
Mr. Norreys eyed the young man with attention. He was naturally rather
severe than cordial in his manner to strangers—contrasting in this, as
in most things, the poor vagabond Burley. But he was a good judge of the
human countenance, and he liked Leonard's. After a pause he held out his
hand.
"Sir," said he, "Lord L'Estrange tells me that you wish to enter
literature as a calling, and no doubt to study it as an art. I may help
you in this, and you, meanwhile, can help me. I want an amanuensis—I
offer you that place. The salary will be proportioned to the services
you will render me. I have a room in my house at your disposal. When I
first came up to London, I made the same choice that I hear you have
done. I have no cause, even in a worldly point of view, to repent my
choice. It gave me an income larger than my wants. I trace my success to
these maxims, which are applicable to all professions: 1st. Never to
trust to genius—for what can be obtained by labor; 2dly. Never to
profess to teach what we have not studied to understand; 3dly. Never to
engage our word to what we do not do our best to execute. With these
rules, literature, provided a man does not mistake his vocation for it,
and will, under good advice, go through the preliminary discipline of
natural powers, which all vocations require, is as good a calling as any
other. Without them a shoeblack's is infinitely better."
"Possible enough," muttered Harley; "but there have been great writers
who observed none of your maxims."
"Great writers, probably, but very unenviable men. My Lord, my Lord,
don't corrupt the pupil you bring to me." Harley smiled and took his
departure, and left Genius at school with Common Sense and Experience.
CHAPTER XX.
While Leonard Fairfield had been obscurely wrestling against poverty,
neglect, hunger, and dread temptations, bright had been the opening day,
and smooth the upward path, of Randal Leslie. Certainly no young man,
able and ambitious, could enter life under fairer auspices; the
connection and avowed favorite of a popular and energetic statesman,
the brilliant writer of a political work, that had lifted him at once
into a station of his own—received and courted in those highest
circles, to which neither rank nor fortune alone suffices for a familiar
passport—the circles above fashion itself—the circles of power—with
every facility of augmenting information, and learning the world betimes
through the talk of its acknowledged masters—Randal had but to move
straight onward, and success was sure. But his tortuous spirit delighted
in scheme and intrigue for their own sake. In scheme and intrigue he saw
shorter paths to fortune, if not to fame. His besetting sin was also his
besetting weakness. He did not aspire—he coveted. Though in a far
higher social position than Frank Hazeldean, despite the worldly
prospects of his old school-fellow, he coveted the very things that kept
Frank Hazeldean below him—coveted his idle gayeties, his careless
pleasures, his very waste of youth. Thus, also, Randal less aspired to
Audley Egerton's repute than he coveted Audley Egerton's wealth and
pomp, his princely expenditure, and his Castle Rackrent in
Grosvenor-square. It was the misfortune of his birth to be so near to
both these fortunes—near to that of Leslie, as the future head of that
fallen house—near even to that of Hazeldean, since as we have seen
before, if the Squire had had no son, Randal's descent from the
Hazeldeans suggested himself as the one on whom these broad lands should
devolve. Most young men, brought into intimate contact with Audley
Egerton, would have felt for that personage a certain loyal and
admiring, if not very affectionate, respect. For there was something
grand in Egerton—something that commands and fascinates the young. His
determined courage, his energetic will, his almost regal liberality,
contrasting a simplicity in personal tastes and habits that was almost
austere—his rare and seemingly unconscious power of charming even the
women most wearied of homage, and persuading even the men most obdurate
to counsel—all served to invest the practical man with those spells
which are usually confined to the ideal one. But indeed, Audley Egerton
was an Ideal—the ideal of the Practical. Not the mere vulgar, plodding,
red-tape machine of petty business, but the man of strong sense,
inspired by inflexible energy, and guided to definite earthly objects.
In a dissolute and corrupt form of government, under a decrepit
monarchy, or a vitiated republic, Audley Egerton might have been a most
dangerous citizen; for his ambition was so resolute, and his sight to
its ends was so clear. But there is something in public life in England
which compels the really ambitious man to honor, unless his eyes are
jaundiced and oblique like Randal Leslie's. It is so necessary in
England to be a gentleman. And thus Egerton was emphatically considered
a gentleman. Without the least pride in other matters, with little
apparent sensitiveness, touch him on the point of gentleman, and no one
so sensitive and so proud. As Randal saw more of him, and watched his
moods with the lynx eyes of the household spy, he could perceive that
this hard mechanical man was subject to fits of melancholy, even of
gloom, and though they did not last long, there was even in his habitual
coldness an evidence of something compressed, latent, painful, lying
deep within his memory. This would have interested the kindly feelings
of a grateful heart. But Randal detected and watched it only as a clew
to some secret it might profit him to gain. For Randal Leslie hated
Egerton; and hated him the more because with all his book-knowledge and
his conceit in his own talents, he could not despise his patron—because
he had not yet succeeded in making his patron the mere tool or
stepping-stone—because he thought that Egerton's keen eye saw through
his wily heart, even while, as if in profound disdain, the minister
helped the protégé. But this last suspicion was unsound. Egerton had not
detected Leslie's corrupt and treacherous nature. He might have other
reasons for keeping him at a certain distance, but he inquired too
little into Randal's feelings toward himself to question the attachment,
or doubt the sincerity of one who owed to him so much. But that which
more than all embittered Randal's feelings toward Egerton, was the
careful and deliberate frankness with which the latter had, more than
once, repeated and enforced the odious announcement, that Randal had
nothing to expect from the minister's—WILL, nothing to expect from that
wealth which glared in the hungry eyes of the pauper heir to the Leslies
of Rood. To whom, then, could Egerton mean to devise his fortune? To
whom but Frank Hazeldean. Yet Audley took so little notice of his
nephew—seemed so indifferent to him, that that supposition, however
natural, seemed exposed to doubt. The astuteness of Randal was
perplexed. Meanwhile, however, the less he himself could rely upon
Egerton for fortune, the more he revolved the possible chances of
ousting Frank from the inheritance of Hazeldean—in part, at least, if
not wholly. To one less scheming, crafty, and remorseless than Randal
Leslie with every day became more and more, such a project would have
seemed the wildest delusion. But there was something fearful in the
manner in which this young man sought to turn knowledge into power, and
make the study of all weakness in others subservient to his own ends. He
wormed himself thoroughly into Frank's confidence. He learned through
Frank all the Squire's peculiarities of thought and temper, and
thoroughly pondered over each word in the father's letters, which the
son gradually got into the habit of showing to the perfidious eyes of
his friend. Randal saw that the Squire had two characteristics which are
very common among proprietors, and which might be invoked as antagonists
to his warm fatherly love. First, the Squire was as fond of his estate
as if it were a living thing, and part of his own flesh and blood; and
in his lectures to Frank upon the sin of extravagance, the Squire
always let out this foible:—"What was to become of the estate if it
fell into the hands of a spendthrift? No man should make ducks and
drakes of Hazeldean; let Frank beware of that," &c. Secondly, the
Squire was not only fond of his lands, but he was jealous of them—that
jealousy which even the tenderest fathers sometimes entertain toward
their natural heirs. He could not bear the notion that Frank should
count on his death; and he seldom closed an admonitory letter without
repeating the information that Hazeldean was not entailed; that it was
his to do with as he pleased through life and in death. Indirect menace
of this nature rather wounded and galled than intimidated Frank; for the
young man was extremely generous and high-spirited by nature, and was
always more disposed to some indiscretion after such warnings to his
self-interest, as if to show that those were the last kinds of appeal
likely to influence him. By the help of such insights into the character
of father and son, Randal thought he saw gleams of daylight illumining
his own chance of the lands of Hazeldean. Meanwhile it appeared to him
obvious that, come what might of it, his own interests could not lose,
and might most probably gain, by whatever could alienate the Squire from
his natural heir. Accordingly, though with consummate tact, he
instigated Frank toward the very excesses most calculated to irritate
the Squire, all the while appearing rather to give the counter advice,
and never sharing in any of the follies to which he conducted his
thoughtless friend. In this he worked chiefly through others,
introducing Frank to every acquaintance most dangerous to youth, either
from the wit that laughs at prudence, or the spurious magnificence that
subsists so handsomely upon bills endorsed by friends of "great
expectations."
The minister and his protégé were seated at breakfast, the first reading
the newspaper, the last glancing over his letters; for Randal had
arrived to the dignity of receiving many letters—ay, and notes too,
three-cornered, and fantastically embossed. Egerton uttered an
exclamation, and laid down the paper. Randal looked up from his
correspondence. The minister had sunk into one of his absent reveries.
After a long silence, observing that Egerton did not return to the
newspaper, Randal said, "Ehem—sir, I have a note from Frank Hazeldean,
who wants much to see me; his father has arrived in town unexpectedly."
"What brings him here?" asked Egerton, still abstractedly.
"Why, it seems that he has heard some vague reports of poor Frank's
extravagance, and Frank is rather afraid or ashamed to meet him."
"Ay—a very great fault extravagance in the young!—destroys
independence; ruins or enslaves the future. Great fault—very! And what
does youth want that it should be extravagant? Has it not every thing in
itself, merely because it is? Youth is youth—what needs it more?"
Egerton rose as he said this, and retired to his writing-table, and in
his turn opened his correspondence. Randal took up the newspaper, and
endeavored, but in vain, to conjecture what had excited the minister's
exclamation, and the reverie that succeeded it.
Egerton suddenly and sharply turned round in his chair—"If you have
done with the Times, have the goodness to place it here."
Randal had just obeyed, when a knock at the street-door was heard, and
presently Lord L'Estrange came into the room, with somewhat a quicker
step, and somewhat a gayer mien than usual.
Audley's hand, as if mechanically, fell upon the newspaper—fell upon
that part of the columns devoted to births, deaths, and marriages.
Randal stood by, and noted; then, bowing to L'Estrange, left the room.
"Audley," said L'Estrange, "I have had an adventure since I saw you—an
adventure that reopened the Past, and may influence my future."
"How?"
"In the first place, I have met with a relation of—of—the Avenels."
"Indeed! Whom—Richard Avenel?"
"Richard—Richard—who is he? Oh, I remember; the wild lad who went off
to America; but that was when I was a mere child."
"That Richard Avenel is now a rich thriving trader, and his marriage is
in this newspaper—married to an honorable Mrs. M'Catchley. Well—in
this country—who should plume himself on birth?"
"You did not say so always, Egerton," replied Harley, with a tone of
mournful reproach.
"And I say so now, pertinently to a Mrs. M'Catchley, not to the heir of
the L'Estranges But no more of these—these Avenels."
"Yes, more of them. I tell you I have met a relation of theirs—a nephew
of—of—"
"Of Richard Avenel's?" interrupted Egerton; and then added in the slow,
deliberate, argumentative tone in which he was wont to speak in public.
"Richard Avenel the trader! I saw him once—a presuming and intolerable
man!"
"The nephew has not those sins. He is full of promise, of modesty, yet
of pride. And his countenance—oh, Egerton, he has her eyes."
Egerton made no answer. And Harley resumed—
"I had thought of placing him under your care. I knew you would provide
for him."
"I will. Bring him hither," cried Egerton eagerly. "All that I can do to
prove my—regard for a wish of yours."
Harley pressed his friend's hand warmly.
"I thank you from my heart; the Audley of my boyhood speaks now. But the
young man has decided otherwise; and I do not blame him. Nay, I rejoice
that he chooses a career in which if he find hardship, he may escape
dependence."
"And that career is—"
"Letters?"
"Letters—Literature!" exclaimed the statesman. "Beggary! No, no,
Harley, this is your absurd romance."
"It will not be beggary, and it is not my romance: it is the boy's.
Leave him alone, he is my care and my charge henceforth. He is of her
blood, and I said that he had her eyes."
"But you are going abroad; let me know where he is; I will watch over
him."
"And unsettle a right ambition for a wrong one? No—you shall know
nothing of him till he can proclaim himself. I think that day will
come."
Audley mused a moment, and then said, "Well, perhaps you are right.
After all, as you say, independence is a great blessing, and my ambition
has not rendered myself the better or the happier."
"Yet, my poor Audley, you ask me to be ambitious."
"I only wish you to be consoled," cried Egerton with passion.
"I will try to be so; and by the help of a milder remedy than yours. I
said that my adventure might influence my future; it brought me
acquainted not only with the young man I speak of, but the most winning
affectionate child—a girl."
"Is this child an Avenel too?"
"No, she is of gentle blood—a soldier's daughter; the daughter of that
Captain Digby, on whose behalf I was a petitioner to your patronage. He
is dead, and in dying, my name was on his lips. He meant me, doubtless,
to be the guardian to his orphan. I shall be so. I have at last an
object in life."
"But can you seriously mean to take this child with you abroad?"
"Seriously, I do."
"And lodge her in your own house?"
"For a year or so while she is yet a child. Then, as she approaches
youth, I shall place her elsewhere."
"You may grow to love her. Is it clear that she will love you? not
mistake gratitude for love? It is a very hazardous experiment."
"So was William the Norman's—still he was William the Conqueror. Thou
biddest me move on from the past, and be consoled, yet thou wouldst make
me as inapt to progress as the mule in Slawkenbergius's tale, with thy
cursed interlocutions, 'Stumbling, by St. Nicholas, every step. Why, at
this rate, we shall be all night, getting into—' Happiness! Listen,"
continued Harley, setting off, full pelt, into one of his wild,
whimsical humors. "One of the sons of the prophets in Israel, felling
wood near the River Jordan, his hatchet forsook the helve, and fell to
the bottom of the river; so he prayed to have it again (it was but a
small request, mark you); and having a strong faith, he did not throw
the hatchet after the helve, but the helve after the hatchet. Presently
two great miracles were seen. Up springs the hatchet from the bottom of
the water, and fixes itself to its old acquaintance, the helve. Now,
had he wished to coach it to Heaven in a fiery chariot like Elias, be as
rich as Job, strong as Samson, and beautiful as Absalom, would he have
obtained it, do you think? In truth, my friend, I question it very
much."
"I can not comprehend what you mean. Sad stuff you are talking."
"I can't help that; Rabelais is to be blamed for it. I am quoting him,
and it is to be found in his prologue to the chapters on the Moderation
of Wishes. And apropos of 'moderate wishes in point of hatchet,' I want
you to understand that I ask but little from Heaven. I fling but the
helve after the hatchet that has sunk into the silent stream. I want the
other half of the weapon that is buried fathom deep, and for want of
which the thick woods darken round me by the Sacred River, and I can
catch not a glimpse of the stars."
"In plain English," said Audley Egerton, "you want"—he stopped short,
puzzled.
"I want my purpose and my will, and my old character, and the nature God
gave me. I want the half of my soul which has fallen from me. I want
such love as may replace to me the vanished affections. Reason not—I
throw the helve after the hatchet."
CHAPTER XXI.
Randall Leslie, on leaving Audley, repaired to Frank's lodgings, and
after being closeted with the young guardsman an hour or so, took his
way to Limmer's hotel, and asked for Mr. Hazeldean. He was shown into
the coffee-room, while the waiter went upstairs with his card, to see if
the Squire was within, and disengaged. The Times newspaper lay
sprawling on one of the tables, and Randal, leaning over it, looked with
attention into the column containing births, deaths, and marriages. But
in that long and miscellaneous list, he could not conjecture the name
which had so excited Mr. Egerton's interest.
"Vexatious!" he muttered; "there is no knowledge which has power more
useful than that of the secrets of men."
He turned as the waiter entered and said that Mr. Hazeldean would be
glad to see him.
As Randal entered the drawing-room, the Squire shaking hands with him,
looked toward the door as if expecting some one else, and his honest
face assumed a blank expression of disappointment when the door closed,
and he found that Randal was unaccompanied.
"Well," said he bluntly, "I thought your old school-fellow, Frank, might
have been with you."
"Have not you seen him yet, sir?"
"No, I came to town this morning; traveled outside the mail; sent to his
barracks, but the young gentleman does not sleep there—has an apartment
of his own; he never told me that. We are a plain family, the
Hazeldeans—young sir; and I hate being kept in the dark, by my own son
too."
Randal made no answer, but looked sorrowful. The Squire, who had never
before seen his kinsman, had a vague idea that it was not polite to
entertain a stranger, though a connection to himself, with his family
troubles, and so resumed good-naturedly.
"I am very glad to make your acquaintance at last, Mr. Leslie. You know,
I hope, that you have good Hazeldean blood in your veins?"
Randal (smilingly).—"I am not likely to forget that; it is the
boast of our pedigree."
Squire (heartily).—"Shake hands again on it, my boy. You don't
want a friend, since my grandee of a half-brother has taken you up; but
if ever you should, Hazeldean is not very far from Rood. Can't get on
with your father at all, my lad—more's the pity, for I think I could
have given him a hint or two as to the improvement of his property. If
he would plant those ugly commons—larch and fir soon come into profit,
sir; and there are some low lands about Rood that would take mighty
kindly to draining."
Randal.—"My poor father lives a life so retired, and you can
not wonder at it. Fallen trees lie still, and so do fallen families."
Squire.—"Fallen families can get up again, which fallen trees
can't."
Randal.—"Ah, sir, it often takes the energy of generations to
repair the thriftlessness and extravagance of a single owner."
Squire (his brow lowering).—"That's very true. Frank is d——d
extravagant; treats me very coolly, too—not coming, near three
o'clock. By-the-by, I suppose he told you where I was, otherwise how did
you find me out?"
Randal (reluctantly).—"Sir, he did; and, to speak frankly, I
am not surprised that he has not yet appeared."
Squire.—"Eh?"
Randal.—"We have grown very intimate."
Squire.—"So he writes me word—and I am glad of it. Our
member, Sir John, tells me you are a very clever fellow, and a very
steady one. And Frank says that he wishes he had your prudence, if he
can't have your talents. He has a good heart, Frank," added the father,
relentingly. "But, zounds, sir, you say you are not surprised he has not
come to welcome his own father!"
"My dear sir," said Randal, "you wrote word to Frank that you had heard
from Sir John and others, of his goings-on, and that you were not
satisfied with his replies to your letters."
"Well."
"And then you suddenly come up to town."
"Well."
"Well. And Frank is ashamed to meet you. For, as you say, he has been
extravagant, and he has exceeded his allowance; and, knowing my respect
for you, and my great affection for himself, he has asked me to prepare
you to receive his confession and forgive him. I know I am taking a
great liberty. I have no right to interfere between father and son; but
pray—pray think I mean for the best."
"Humph!" said the Squire, recovering himself very slowly, and showing
evident pain. "I knew already that Frank had spent more than he ought;
but I think he should not have employed a third person, to prepare me to
forgive him. (Excuse me—no offense.) And if he wanted a third person,
was not there his own mother? What the devil!—(firing up)—am I a
tyrant—a bashaw—that my own son is afraid to speak to me? Gad, I'll
give it him?"
"Pardon me, sir," said Randal, assuming at once that air of authority
which superior intellect so well carries off and excuses. "But I
strongly advise you not to express any anger at Frank's confidence in
me. At present I have influence over him. Whatever you may think of his
extravagance, I have saved him from many an indiscretion, and many a
debt—a young man will listen to one of his own age so much more readily
than even to the kindest friend of graver years. Indeed, sir, I speak
for your sake as well as for Frank's. Let me keep this influence over
him; and don't reproach him for the confidence he placed in me. Nay, let
him rather think that I have softened any displeasure you might
otherwise have felt."
There seemed so much good sense in what Randal said, and the kindness of
it seemed so disinterested, that the Squire's native shrewdness was
deceived.
"You are a fine young fellow," said he, "and I am very much obliged to
you. Well, I suppose there is no putting old heads upon young shoulders;
and I promise you I'll not say an angry word to Frank. I dare say, poor
boy, he is very much afflicted, and I long to shake hands with him. So,
set his mind at ease."
"Ah, sir," said Randal, with much apparent emotion, "your son may well
love you; and it seems to be a hard matter for so kind a heart as yours
to preserve the proper firmness with him."
"Oh, I can be firm enough," quoth the Squire—"especially when I don't
see him—handsome dog that he is—very like his mother—don't you think
so?"
"I never saw his mother, sir."
"Gad! Not seen my Harry? No more you have; you must come and pay us a
visit. We have your grandmother's picture, when she was a girl, with a
crook in one hand and a bunch of lilies in the other. I suppose my
half-brother will let you come?"
"To be sure, sir. Will you not call on him while you are in town?"
"Not I. He would think I expected to get something from the Government.
Tell him the ministers must go on a little better, if they want my vote
for their member. But go. I see you are impatient to tell Frank that
all's forgot and forgiven. Come and dine with him here at six, and let
him bring his bills in his pocket. Oh, I shan't scold him."
"Why, as to that," said Randal, smiling, "I think (forgive me still)
that you should not take it too easily; just as I think that you had
better not blame him for his very natural and praise-worthy shame in
approaching you, so I think, also, that you should do nothing that would
tend to diminish that shame—it is such a check on him. And therefore,
if you can contrive to affect to be angry with him for his extravagance,
it will do good."
"You speak like a book, and I'll try my best."
"If you threaten, for instance, to take him out of the army, and settle
him in the country, it would have a very good effect."
"What! would he think it so great a punishment to come home and live
with his parents?"
"I don't say that; but he is naturally so fond of London. At his age,
and with his large inheritance, that is natural."
"Inheritance!" said the Squire, moodily—"inheritance! he is not
thinking of that, I trust? Zounds, sir, I have as good a life as his
own. Inheritance!—to be sure the Casino property is entailed on him;
but, as for the rest, sir, I am no tenant for life. I could leave the
Hazeldean lands to my plowman, if I chose it. Inheritance, indeed!"
"My dear sir, I did not mean to imply that Frank would entertain the
unnatural and monstrous idea of calculating on your death; and all we
have to do is to get him to sow his wild oats as soon as
possible—marry, and settle down into the country. For it would be a
thousand pities if his town habits and tastes grew permanent—a bad
thing for the Hazeldean property, that. And," added Randal, laughing, "I
feel an interest in the whole place, since my grandmother comes of the
stock. So, just force yourself to seem angry, and grumble a little when
you pay the bills."
"Ah, ah, trust me," said the Squire, doggedly, and with a very altered
air. "I am much obliged to you for these hints, my young kinsman." And
his stout hand trembled a little as he extended it to Randal.
Leaving Limmers, Randal hastened to Frank's rooms in St. James's-street.
"My dear fellow," said he, when he entered, "it is very fortunate that I
persuaded you to let me break matters to your father. You might well say
he was rather passionate; but I have contrived to soothe him. You need
not fear that he will not pay your debt."
"I never feared that," said Frank, changing color; "I only feared his
anger. But, indeed, I fear his kindness still more. What a reckless
hound I have been! However, it shall be a lesson to me. And my debts
once paid, I will turn as economical as yourself."
"Quite right, Frank. And, indeed, I am a little afraid that when your
father knows the total, he may execute a threat that would be very
unpleasant to you."
"What's that?"
"Make you sell out, and give up London."
"The devil!" exclaimed Frank, with fervent emphasis: "that would be
treating me like a child."
"Why, it would make you seem rather ridiculous to your set, which is
not a very rural one. And you, who like London so much, and are so much
the fashion."
"Don't talk of it," cried Frank, walking to and fro the room in great
disorder.
"Perhaps, on the whole, it might be well not to say all you owe, at
once. If you named half the sum, your father would let you off with a
lecture; and really I tremble at the effect of the total."
"But how shall I pay the other half?"
"Oh, you must save from your allowance; it is a very liberal one; and
the tradesmen are not pressing."
"No—but the cursed bill-brokers—"
"Always renew to a young man of your expectations. And if I get into an
office, I can always help you, my dear Frank."
"Ah, Randal, I am not so bad as to take advantage of your friendship,"
said Frank, warmly. "But it seems to me mean, after all, and a sort of a
lie, indeed, disguising the real state of my affairs. I should not have
listened to the idea from any one else. But you are such a sensible,
kind, honorable fellow."
"After epithets so flattering, I shrink from the responsibility of
advice. But apart from your own interests, I should be glad to save your
father the pain he would feel at knowing the whole extent of the scrape
you have got into. And if it entailed on you the necessity to lay
by—and give up hazard, and not be security for other men—why, it would
be the best thing that could happen. Really, too, it seems hard on Mr.
Hazeldean, that he should be the only sufferer, and quite just that you
should bear half your own burdens."
"So it is, Randal; that did not strike me before. I will take your
counsel; and now I will go at once to Limmer's. My dear father? I hope
he is looking well?"
"Oh, very. Such a contrast to the sallow Londoners! But I think you had
better not go till dinner. He has asked me to meet you at six. I will
call for you a little before, and we can go together. This will prevent
a great deal of gêne and constraint. Good-by till then. Ha!—by the way,
I think if I were you, I would not take the matter too seriously and
penitentially. You see the best of fathers like to keep their sons under
their thumb, as the saying is. And if you want at your age to preserve
your independence, and not be hurried off and buried in the country,
like a schoolboy in disgrace, a little manliness of bearing would not be
amiss. You can think over it."
The dinner at Limmer's went off very differently from what it ought to
have done. Randal's words had sunk deep, and rankled sorely in the
Squire's mind; and that impression imparted a certain coldness to his
manner which belied the hearty, forgiving, generous impulse with which
he had come up to London, and which even Randal had not yet altogether
whispered away. On the other hand, Frank, embarrassed both by the sense
of disingenuousness, and a desire "not to take the thing too
seriously," seemed to the Squire ungracious and thankless.
After dinner, the Squire began to hum and haw, and Frank to color up and
shrink. Both felt discomposed by the presence of a third person; till,
with an art and address worthy of a better cause, Randal himself broke
the ice, and so contrived to remove the restraint he had before imposed,
that at length each was heartily glad to have matters made clear and
brief by his dexterity and tact.
Frank's debts were not, in reality, large; and when he named the half of
them—looking down in shame—the Squire, agreeably surprised, was about
to express himself with a liberal heartiness that would have opened his
son's excellent heart at once to him. But a warning look from Randal
checked the impulse; and the Squire thought it right, as he had
promised, to affect an anger he did not feel, and let fall the unlucky
threat, "that it was all very well once in a way to exceed his
allowance; but if Frank did not, in future, show more sense than to be
led away by a set of London sharks and coxcombs, he must cut the army,
come home, and take to farming."
Frank imprudently exclaimed, "Oh, sir, I have no taste for farming. And
after London, at my age, the country would be so horribly dull."
"Aha!" said the Squire, very grimly—and he thrust back into his
pocket-book some extra bank-notes which his fingers had itched to add to
those he had already counted out. "The country is terribly dull, is it?
Money goes there not upon follies and vices, but upon employing honest
laborers, and increasing the wealth of the nation. It does not please
you to spend money in that way: it is a pity you should ever be plagued
with such duties."
"My dear father—"
"Hold your tongue, you puppy. Oh, I dare say, if you were in my shoes,
you would cut down the oaks, and mortgage the property—sell it, for
what I know—all go on a cast of the dice! Aha, sir—very well, very
well—the country is horribly dull, is it? Pray, stay in town."
"My dear Mr. Hazeldean," said Randal, blandly, and as if with the wish
to turn off into a joke what threatened to be serious, "you must not
interpret a hasty expression so literally. Why, you would make Frank as
bad as Lord A——, who wrote word to his steward to cut down more
timber; and when the steward replied, 'There are only three sign-posts
left on the whole estate,' wrote back, 'They've done growing, at all
events—down with them.' You ought to know Lord A——, sir; so witty;
and—Frank's particular friend."
"Your particular friend, Master Frank? Pretty friends!"—and the squire
buttoned up the pocket, to which he had transferred his note book, with
a determined air.
"But I'm his friend, too," said Randal, kindly; "and I preach to him
properly, I can tell you." Then, as if delicately anxious to change the
subject, he began to ask questions upon crops, and the experiment of
bone manure. He spoke earnestly, and with gusto, yet with the
deference of one listening to a great practical authority. Randal had
spent the afternoon in cramming the subject from agricultural journals
and Parliamentary reports; and, like all practiced readers, had really
learned in a few hours more than many a man, unaccustomed to study,
could gain from books in a year. The Squire was surprised and pleased at
the young scholar's information and taste for such subjects.
"But, to be sure," quoth he, with an angry look at poor Frank, "you have
good Hazeldean blood in you, and know a bean from a turnip."
"Why, sir," said Randal, ingenuously, "I am training myself for public
life; and what is a public man worth if he do not study the agriculture
of his country?"
"Right—what is he worth? Put that question, with my compliments, to my
half-brother. What stuff he did talk, the other night, on the malt-tax,
to be sure!"
"Mr. Egerton has had so many other things to think of, that we must
excuse his want of information upon one topic, however important. With
his strong sense, he must acquire that information, sooner or later; for
he is fond of power; and, sir, knowledge is power!"
"Very true; very fine saying," quoth the poor Squire, unsuspiciously, as
Randal's eye rested upon Mr. Hazeldean's open face, and then glanced
toward Frank, who looked sad and bored.
"Yes," repeated Randal, "knowledge is power;" and he shook his head
wisely, as he passed the bottle to his host.
Still, when the Squire, who meant to return to the Hall next morning,
took leave of Frank, his heart warmed to his son: and still more for
Frank's dejected looks. It was not Randal's policy to push estrangement
too far at first, and in his own presence.
"Speak to poor Frank—kindly now, sir—do," whispered he, observing the
Squire's watery eyes, as he moved to the window.
The Squire rejoiced to obey—thrust out his hand to his son, "My dear
boy," said he, "there, don't fret—pshaw!—it was but a trifle, after
all. Think no more of it."
Frank took the hand, and suddenly threw his arm round his father's broad
shoulder.
"Oh, sir, you are too good—too good." His voice trembled so, that
Randal took alarm, passed by him, and touched him meaningly.
The Squire pressed his son to his heart—heart so large, that it seemed
to fill the whole width under his broadcloth.
"My dear Frank," said he, half blubbering, "it is not the money; but,
you see, it so vexes your poor mother; you must be careful in future;
and, zounds, boy, it will be all yours one day; only don't calculate on
it; I could not bear that—I could not indeed."
"Calculate!" cried Frank. "Oh, sir, can you think it?"
"I am so delighted that I had some slight hand in your complete
reconciliation with Mr. Hazeldean," said Randal, as the young men walked
from the hotel. "I saw that you were disheartened, and I told him to
speak to you kindly."
"Did you? Ah, I am sorry he needed telling."
"I know his character so well already," said Randal, "that I flatter
myself I can always keep things between you as they ought to be. What an
excellent man!"
"The best man in the world!" cried Frank, heartily; and then as his
accent drooped, "yet I have deceived him. I have a great mind to go
back—"
"And tell him to give you twice as much money as you had asked for. He
would think you had only seemed so affectionate in order to take him in.
No, no, Frank; save—lay by—economize; and then tell him that you have
paid half your own debts. Something high-minded in that."
"So there is. Your heart is as good as your head. Good-night."
"Are you going home so early? Have you no engagements?"
"None that I shall keep."
"Good-night, then."
They parted, and Randal walked into one of the fashionable clubs. He
neared a table, where three or four young men (younger sons who lived in
the most splendid style, heaven knew how) were still over their wine.
Leslie had little in common with these gentlemen; but he forced his
nature to be agreeable to them, in consequence of a very excellent piece
of worldly advice given to him by Audley Egerton. "Never let the dandies
call you a prig," said the statesman. "Many a clever fellow fails
through life, because the silly fellows, whom half a word well spoken
could make his claqueurs, turn him into ridicule. Whatever you are,
avoid the fault of most reading men: in a word, don't be a prig!"
"I have just left Hazeldean," said Randal, "what a good fellow he is!"
"Capital," said the Honorable George Borrowwell. "Where is he?"
"Why, he is gone to his rooms. He has had a little scene with his
father, a thorough, rough country squire. It would be an act of charity
if you would go and keep him company, or take him with you to some place
a little more lively than his own lodgings."
"What! the old gentleman has been teasing him?—a horrid shame! Why,
Frank is not expensive, and he will be very rich—eh?"
"An immense property," said Randal, "and not a mortgage on it; an only
son," he added, turning away.
Among these young gentlemen there was a kindly and most benevolent
whisper, and presently they all rose, and walked away toward Frank's
lodgings.
"The wedge is in the tree," said Randal to himself, "and there is a gap
already between the bark and the wood."
CHAPTER XXII.
Harley L'Estrange is seated beside Helen at the lattice-window in the
cottage at Norwood. The bloom of reviving health is on the child's face,
and she is listening with a smile, for Harley is speaking of Leonard
with praise, and of Leonard's future with hope. "And thus," he
continued, "secure from his former trials, happy in his occupation, and
pursuing the career he has chosen, we must be content, my dear child, to
leave him."
"Leave him!" exclaimed Helen, and the rose on her cheek faded.
Harley was not displeased to see her emotion. He would have been
disappointed in her heart if it had been less susceptible to affection.
"It is hard on you, Helen," said he, "to separate you from one who has
been to you as a brother. Do not hate me for doing so. But I consider
myself your guardian, and your home as yet must be mine. We are going
from this land of cloud and mist, going as into the world of summer.
Well, that does not content you. You weep, my child; you mourn your own
friend, but do not forget your father's. I am alone, and often sad,
Helen; will you not comfort me! You press my hand, but you must learn to
smile on me also. You are born to be the Comforter. Comforters are not
egotists; they are always cheerful when they console."
The voice of Harley was so sweet, and his words went so home to the
child's heart, that she looked up and smiled in his face as he kissed
her ingenuous brow. But then she thought of Leonard, and felt so
solitary—so bereft—that tears burst forth again. Before these were
dried, Leonard himself entered, and obeying an irresistible impulse, she
sprang to his arms, and, leaning her head on his shoulder, sobbed out,
"I am going from you, brother—do not grieve—do not miss me."
Harley was much moved; he folded his arms, and contemplated them both
silently—and his own eyes were moist. "This heart," thought he, "will
be worth the winning!"
He drew aside Leonard, and whispered—"Soothe, but encourage and support
her. I leave you together; come to me in the garden later."
It was nearly an hour before Leonard joined Harley.
"She was not weeping when you left her?" asked L'Estrange.
"No; she has more fortitude than we might suppose. Heaven knows how that
fortitude has supported mine. I have promised to write to her often."
Harley took two strides across the lawn, and then, coming back to
Leonard, said, "Keep your promise, and write often for the first year, I
would then ask you to let the correspondence drop gradually."
"Drop!—Ah, my Lord!"
"Look you, my young friend, I wish to lead this fair mind wholly from
the sorrows of the Past. I wish Helen to enter, not abruptly, but step
by step, into a new life. You love each other now, as do two
children—as brother and sister. But later, if encouraged, would the
love be the same? And is it not better for both of you, that youth
should open upon the world with youth's natural affections free and
unforestalled?"
"True! And she is so above me," said Leonard mournfully.
"No one is above him who succeeds in your ambition, Leonard. It is not
that, believe me!"
Leonard shook his head.
"Perhaps," said Harley, with a smile, "I rather feel that you are above
me. For what vantage-ground is so high as youth? Perhaps I may become
jealous of you. It is well that she should learn to like one who is to
be henceforth her guardian and protector. Yet, how can she like me as
she ought, if her heart is to be full of you?"
The boy bowed his head; and Harley hastened to change the subject, and
speak of letters and of glory. His words were eloquent, and his voice
kindling; for he had been an enthusiast for fame in his boyhood; and in
Leonard's, his own seemed to him to revive. But the poet's heart gave
back no echo—suddenly it seemed void and desolate. Yet when Leonard walked
back by the moonlight, he muttered to himself, "Strange—strange—so mere
a child, this can not be love! Still what else to love is there left to me?"
And so he paused upon the bridge where he had so often stood with Helen,
and on which he had found the protector that had given to her a home—to
himself a career. And life seemed very long, and fame but a dreary
phantom. Courage, still, Leonard! These are the sorrows of the heart
that teach thee more than all the precepts of sage and critic.
Another day and Helen had left the shores of England, with her fanciful
and dreaming guardian. Years will pass before our tale reopens. Life in
all the forms we have seen it travels on. And the Squire farms and
hunts; and the parson preaches and chides and soothes. And Riccabocca
reads his Machiavelli, and sighs and smiles as he moralizes on Men and
States. And Violante's dark eyes grow deeper and more spiritual in their
lustre; and her beauty takes thought from solitary dreams. And Mr.
Richard Avenel has his house in London, and the honorable Mrs. Avenel
her opera box; and hard and dire is their struggle into fashion, and
hotly does the new man, scorning the aristocracy, pant to become
aristocrat. And Audley Egerton goes from the office to the Parliament,
and drudges, and debates, and helps to govern the empire on which the
sun never sets. Poor Sun, how tired he must be—but none more tired than
the Government! And Randal Leslie has an excellent place in the bureau
of a minister, and is looking to the time when he shall resign it to
come into Parliament, and on that large arena turn knowledge into power.
And meanwhile, he is much where he was with Audley Egerton; but he has
established intimacy with the Squire, and visited Hazeldean twice, and
examined the house and the map of the property—and very nearly fallen a
second time into the Ha-ha; and the Squire believes that Randal Leslie
alone can keep Frank out of mischief, and has spoken rough words to his
Harry about Frank's continued extravagance. And Frank does continue to
pursue pleasure; and is very miserable, and horribly in debt. And Madame
di Negra has gone from London to Paris, and taken a tour into
Switzerland, and come back to London again, and has grown very intimate
with Randal Leslie; and Randal has introduced Frank to her; and Frank
thinks her the loveliest woman in the world, and grossly slandered by
certain evil tongues. And the brother of Madame di Negra is expected in
England at last; and what with his repute for beauty and for wealth,
people anticipate a sensation; and Leonard, and Harley, and Helen?
Patience—they will all re-appear.
(TO BE CONTINUED.)