ARTHUR AND JERRY.
ARTHUR had passed a restless night. Thoughts of
Gretchen had troubled him and two or three times
he had started up to listen, thinking that he heard her calling
to him from a distance. He had dreamed also of the
blue hood seen that day of the funeral, and of the child who
had come knocking at his door whom he had refused to
admit. He had never seen her since, and had never mentioned
her of his own accord.
Even Mrs. Crawford seemed to have passed completely
from his mind. He never went to the cottage, or near it.
He never went anywhere, in fact, but lived the life of a
recluse, growing thinner, and paler, and more reticent
every day, talking now but seldom of Gretchen, though he
never arose in the morning or retired at night without
kissing her picture and whispering to it some words of
tenderness in German.
He had measured the length of his three rooms and
dressing-room, and found it to be nearly one hundred
feet, so that by passing back and forth twenty-five times
he would walk almost a mile.
Regularly each morning, when it was not too cold or
stormy, he would throw open his windows and take his
daily exercise, which was but a poor substitute for what
he might have had in the fresh air outside, but was nevertheless
much better than nothing.
On this particular morning, when Harold and Jerry
were at the park, he was taking his walk as usual, though
very slowly, for he felt weak and sick, and, so inexpressibly
lonely and desolate that it seemed to him he would
gladly lie down and die.
"If I knew Gretchen was dead, nothing would seem so
desirable to me as the grave," he was saying to himself,
when the sound of voices outside attracted his attention,
and going to the window, he saw the children, Harold in
the top of the tree, and Jerry at the foot, with her white
sun-bonnet shading her face.
Recognizing Harold, he guessed who the little girl was,
and a strange feeling of interest stirred in his heart for her,
as he said:
"Poor little waif! I wonder where she came from, or
what will become of her?"
Then, resuming his walk, he forgot all about the little
waif, until startled by a voice which rang, clear and bell-like,
through the rooms:
"Mr. Crazyman! Mr. Crazyman! don't you want
some cherries?"
It was not so much the words as something in the tone,
the foreign accent, the ring like a voice he never could forget,
and which the previous night had called to him in his
dreams. And now it was calling again from the adjoining
room, which no one could enter without his knowledge.
Mentally weak as he was, and apt to be superstitious,
his limbs shook, and his heart beat faster than its wont, as
he went toward his sleeping-apartment, from which the
voice came louder and more peremptory:
"Mr. Crazyman! where are you? I've brought you
some cherries."
He had reached the door by this time, and saw the pail
on the broad window-ledge where Jerry had put it, and to
which she was clinging, with her white sun-bonnet just in
view.
"Oh, Gretchen! how did you get here?" he said,
bounding across the floor, with no thought of Jerry in his
mind, no thought of any one but Gretchen, whom he was
constantly expecting to come, though not exactly in this
way.
"I climbed the ladder to fetch you some cherries, and
I'm standing on the toppest stick," Jerry said, craning
her neck until her bonnet fell back, disclosing to view
her beautiful face flushed with excitement, and her bright
wavy hair, which, moist with perspiration, clung in masses
of round curls to her head and forehead.
"Great Heaven!" Arthur exclaimed, as he stood staring
at the wide-open blue eyes confronting him so steadily.
"Who are you, and where did you come from?"
"I'm Jerry, and I comed from the carpet-bag in the
Tramp House. Take me in, won't you?" Jerry said; and,
mechanically leaning from the window, Arthur took her
in, while Harold from below looked on, horror-stricken
with fear as to what the result might be if Jerry were left
alone with a madman who did not like children.
"He may kill her; I must tell the folks," he said; and,
going round to the side door, he entered, without knocking,
and asked for Mrs. Tracy.
But she was not at home, and so he told the servants of
Jerry's danger, and begged them to go to her rescue.
"Pshaw! he won't hurt her. Charles will come pretty
soon, and I'll send him up. Don't look so scared; he is
harmless," the cook said to Harold, who, in a wild state of
nervous fear, went back to the cherry trees, where he
could listen and hear the first scream which should proclaim
Jerry's danger.
But none came, and could he have looked into the
room where Jerry stood, he would have been amazed.
As Arthur lifted Jerry through the window, and put
her down upon the floor, he said to her:
"Take off that bonnet and let me look at you."
She obeyed, and stood before him with an eager, questioning
expression in her blue eyes, which looked at him
so fearlessly. Arthur knew perfectly well who she was,
but something about her so dazed and bewildered him that
for a moment he could not speak, but regarded her with
the hungry, wistful look of one longing for something just
within his reach, but still unattainable.
"Do you like me?" Jerry asked, at last.
"Like you?" he replied. "Yes. Why did you not
come to me sooner?"
And, stooping, he kissed the cherry-stained mouth as
he had never kissed a child before.
Sitting down upon the lounge, he took her in his lap
and said to her again:
"Who are you, and where did you come from? I
know your name is Jerry, which is a strange one for a
girl, and I know you live with Mrs. Crawford, but before
that night where did you live? Where did you come
from?"
"Out of the carpet-bag in the Tramp House. I told
you that once," Jerry said. "Harold found me. I am his
little girl. He is out in the cherry tree, and said I must
not come up, because you were crazy and would hurt me.
You won't hurt me, will you? And be you crazy?"
"Hurt you? No," he answered, as he parted the rings
of hair from her brow. "I don't know whether I am crazy
or not. They say so, and perhaps I am, when my head is
full of bumble-bees."
"Oh-h!" Jerry gasped, drawing back from him. "Can
they get out? And will they sting?"
Arthur burst into a merry laugh, the first he had
known since he came back to Shannondale. Jerry was
doing him good. There was something very soothing in
the touch of the little warm hands he held in his, and something
puzzling and fascinating, too, in the face of the
child. He did not think of a likeness to any one; he only
knew that he felt drawn toward her in a most unaccountable
manner, and found himself wondering greatly who she
was.
"Harold told me there were pictures and marble folks
up here with nothing on, and everything, and that's why I
comed—that and to bring you some cherries. I like pictures.
Can I see them?" Jerry said.
"Yes, you shall see them," Arthur replied; and he led
her into the room where Gretchen's picture looked at them
from the window.
"Oh, my!" Jerry exclaimed, with bated breath. "Ain't
she lovely! Is she God's sister?" and folding her hands
together, she stood before the picture as reverently as a
devout Catholic stands before a Madonna.
It was some time since Jerry had spoken a word of
German, but as she stood before Gretchen's picture old
memories seemed to revive, and with them the German
word for pretty, which she involuntarily spoke aloud.
Low as was the utterance, it caught Arthur's ear, and
grasping her shoulder, he said:
"What was that! What did you say, and where did
you learn it?"
His manner frightened her; perhaps the bumble-bees
were coming out, and she drew back from him, forgetting
entirely what she had said.
"It was a German word," he continued, "and the accent
is German, too. Can you speak it?"
Unconsciously, as he talked, he dropped into that
language, while Jerry listened, with a strained look on her
face, as if trying to recall something which came and went,
but went more than it came, if that could be.
"I talked that once," she said, "when I lived with
mamma; but she is dead. Harold found her, and I put
flowers on her grave."
Half the time she was speaking in German, or trying
to, and Arthur listened in amazement, while his interest
in her deepened every moment, as he took her through the
rooms and showed her "the marble people with nothing
on them," and the beautiful pictures which adorned his
walls.
"How would you like to come and be my little girl?"
he asked her at last, when, remembering Harold and the
cherries, she told him she must go, and started toward the
window, as if she would make her egress as she had
come in.
"Can Harold come, too? I can't leave Harold," she
said. Then, as she caught sight of him still standing at a
distance, gazing curiously up at the window through
which she had disappeared, she called out: "Yes, Harold,
I'm coming. I've seen him and everything, and he did
not hurt me. Good-by!" and she turned toward Arthur
with a little nod.
Then, before he could stop her, she sprang out upon
the ladder, and went down faster than she had come up,
leaving the pail of cherries, and leaving, too, in Arthur's
breast a tumult of emotions which he could not define.
That night, when Frank, who had heard of Jerry's
visit to his brother, went up to see him, he found him more
cheerful and natural than he had seen him in weeks. As
Frank expected, his first words were of the little girl who
had come to him through the window and left him the
cherries, of which he said he had eaten so many that he
feared they might make him sick. What did Frank know
of the child? What had he learned of her history? Of
course he had made inquiries everywhere?
It was just in the twilight, before the gas was lighted,
and so Arthur did not see how his brother's face flushed at
first, and then grew white as he recapitulated what the
reader already knows, dwelling at length upon the inquiries
he had made in New York, all of which had been fruitless.
There was the name Jerrine on the child's clothing, he
said, and the initials "N.B." on that of her mother, who
was evidently French, although she must have come from
Germany.
"Yes," Arthur replied, "the child is a German, and
interests me greatly. Her face has haunted me all the
afternoon. Was there nothing in that trunk or the carpet-bag
which would be a clew?"
"Nothing," Frank replied. "There were articles of
clothing, all very plain, and a picture book printed at Leipsic.
I can get that for you if you like, though it tells
nothing, unless it be that the mother lived in Leipsic."
Frank talked very rapidly, and laid so much stress on
Leipsic, that Arthur got an idea that Jerry had actually
come from there, just as his brother meant he should, and
he began to speak of the town and recall all he knew of it.
"I was never there but once," he said "for although
I spent a great deal of time in Germany, it was mostly
in Heidelberg and Wiesbaden. Oh, that is lovely—Wiesbaden—and
nights now, when I cannot sleep, I fancy
that I am there again, in the lovely park, and hear the
music of the band, and see the crowds of people strolling
through the grounds, and I am there with them, though
apart from the rest, just where a narrow path turns off
from a bridge, and a seat is half hidden from view behind
the thick shrubberies. There I sit again with Gretchen,
and feel her hand in mine, and her dear head on my arm.
Oh, Gretchen—"
There was a sob now in his voice, and he seemed to be
talking to himself rather than to his brother, who said to
him,
"Gretchen lived in Wiesbaden then?"
"Yes; but for Heaven's sake pronounce it with a V,
and not a W, and in three syllables instead of four," Arthur
answered, pettishly, his ear offended as it always was with
a discordant sound or mispronunciation.
"Veesbaden then," Frank repeated, understanding now
why Jerry had stumbled over the name when he once spoke
it to her.
Clearly she had come from Wiesbaden, where Gretchen
had lived, and where he believed she had died, though he
did not tell Arthur so; he merely said:
"Gretchen was your sweetheart, I suppose?"
But Arthur did not reply; he never replied to direct
questions as to who Gretchen was; but after a moment's
silence he said:
"You speak of her as something past. Do you believe
she is dead?"
"Yes, I do," was Frank's decided answer. "You have
never told me who she was, though I have my own opinion
on the subject, and I know you loved her very much, and if
she loved you as much—"
"She did—she did; she loved me more—far more than
I deserved," was Arthur's vehement interruption.
"Well then," Frank continued, "If she did, and were
living, she would have come to you, or answered your letters,
or sent you some message."
Frank's voice trembled here, and he seemed to see again
the cold, still face of the dead woman, whose lips, could
they have spoken, might have unlocked the mystery and
brought a message from Gretchen.
"True, true," Arthur replied. "She would have
come or written. How long is it since I came home?"
"Four years next October," Frank said.
"Four years;" Arthur went on, "is it so long as that?
and it was then years since I had seen her. Every thing
was blotted out from my mind from the time I entered
that accursed Maison de Sante until I found myself in
Paris. I am afraid she is dead."
Just then Charles came in with lights, and the chocolate
his master always took before retiring, and so Frank
said good-night, and went out upon the broad piazza, hoping
the night air would cool his heated brow, or that the
laughter and prattle of Jack and Maude, who were frolicing
on the gravel walk, would drown the voice which said
to him:
"Frank Tracy, you are the biggest rascal living, but
you have gone too far now to go back. People would
never respect you again. And then there is Maude. You
cannot disgrace her."
No, he could not disgrace his darling Maude, who, as
if guessing that he was thinking of her, came up the steps
to his side, and seating herself upon his lap, pushed the
hair from his forehead and kissed him lovingly.
"My beautiful Maude," he thought, for he knew she
would be beautiful, with her black hair, and starry eyes,
and brilliant complexion, and he loved her with all the
strength of his nature. To see her grow into womanhood,
admired and sought after by every one, was the desire of
his heart, and as he believed that money was necessary to
the perfect fulfilment of his desire, for her sake he would
carry his secret to the grave.
"Are you sick, papa?" Maude asked, looking into his
face, on which the moon shone brightly.
"No, pet," he answered her; "only tired. I am
thinking of little Jerry Crawford. She was here this
afternoon."
"Yes, I saw her in the park with Harold. Isn't he
handsome, papa? and such a nice boy! so different from
Tom," Maude said, and then she went on: "Jerry is
pretty, too; prettier than I am; her hair curls and mine
doesn't, but her dress is so ugly—that old high apron
and calico gown. What makes her so poor and me so
rich?"
Mr. Tracy groaned, as he replied:
"You are not rich, my child."
"Oh, yes I am," Maude said. "I heard mamma tell
Mrs. Brinsmade so. She said Uncle Arthur was worth
millions and when he died we should have it all, because
he could not make a will if he wanted to, and he had no
children of his own."
Maude had heard so much from her mother and others
of their prospective wealth, that she understood the situation
far better than she ought, and was already counting on
the thousands waiting for her when her uncle died. And
yet Maude Tracy had in her nature qualities which were to
ripen into a noble womanhood. Truthful and generous,
her instincts of right and wrong were very keen, and young
as she was, she had no respect for anything like deception
or trickery. This her father knew, and his bitterest pang of
remorse came from the thought, "What would Maude say
if she knew?" And it was more for her sake he was sinning
than for his own or that of any other. She was so
pretty, or would be, when grown to young ladyhood, and
the adornments which money could bring would so well
become her.
"Maude," he said at last, "how would you like to
change places with Jerry? That is, let her come here and
live, while we go away and be poor; not quite as she is, but
like many people."
"And not wear a sash, and beads, and buttoned boots
every day?" Maude interrupted him quickly. "I should
not like it at all. Why, Jerry dresses herself, and wipes
the dishes, and wears those big aprons all the time. No, I
don't want to be poor;" and as if something in her father's
mind had communicated itself to her, she raised her head
from his shoulder and looked beseechingly at him.
"Nor shall you be poor if I can help it," he said; "but
you must be very kind to Jerry, and never let her feel that
you are richer than she. Do you understand?"
"I think I do," Maude answered, adding as she kissed
him fondly: "And now I s'pose I must go, for there is
Hetty come for me; so, good-night, you dearest, best papa
in the world."
He knew she believed in him fully; and he could not
undeceive her. He would bear the burden he said to himself.
There should be no more repining or looking back.
Maude must never know; and so Jerry's chance was lost.
The next morning Arthur awoke with a racking headache.
He was accustomed to it, it is true; but this one
was particularly severe.
"It's the cherries; no wonder; a quart of those sour
things would turn upside down any stomach," Charles said,
as he glanced at the empty tin pail which was adorning
an inlaid table, and then suggested a dose of ipecac as
a means of dislodging the offending cherries.
But Arthur declined the medicine. His stomach was
well enough, he said. It was his head which ached, and
nothing would help that but the cool little hands he had
held in his the previous day. Charles must go for Jerry,
for he wanted her, and, as when Arthur wanted a thing he
wanted it immediately, Charles was soon on his way to the
cottage in the lane, where he found the little girl under a
tall lilac bush, busy with the mud pies she was making,
and talking to herself, partly in English and partly in
broken German, which she had resumed since her visit to
the park.
"Seemed like something I had dreamed, when he
talked like that, and I could almost do it myself," she said
to Harold when describing the particulars of her interview
with Mr. Tracy, and her tongue fell naturally into the language
of her babyhood.
On hearing Charles' errand, her delight was unbounded.
"'Ess. You'll let me go," she cried, as she stood before
Mrs. Crawford, with the mud-spots on her hands and face;
"and you'll let me wear my best gown now, and my white
apron with the shoulder-straps, and my morocco shoes,
because this is visiting."
As Mrs. Crawford could see no objection to the plan,
Jerry was soon dressed, and on her way to the Park, tripping
along airily, with an air of dignity and importance
very amusing.
Mrs. Tracy, who seldom troubled herself with her
brother-in-law's affairs, knew nothing of his having sent
for Jerry, and was surprised when she saw her coming up
the walk with Charles, whose manner indicated that he
knew perfectly what he was about. She had heard of
Jerry's visit on the previous day, and had wondered what
Arthur could find in that child to interest him, when he
would never allow Maude in his room. She did not like
Jerry, because of the three dollars a week, which she felt
was so much taken from herself, and why they should be
burdened with the support of the child, just because her
mother happened to be found dead upon their premises,
she could not understand. Only that morning she had
spoken to her husband on the subject, and asked him how
long he proposed to support her.
"Just as long as I have a dollar of my own, and she
needs it," was his reply, as he left the room, slamming the
door behind him, and leaving her to think him almost as
crazy as his brother.
Thus it was not in a very quiet frame of mind that she
went out upon the piazza, and, taking one of the large willow
chairs standing there, began to rock back and forth
and wonder what had so changed her husband, making him
silent and absent-minded, and even irritable at times, as he
had been that morning. Was there insanity in his veins
as well as in his brother's, and would her children inherit
it—her darling Maude, of whom she was so proud, and
who, she hoped, would some day be the richest heiress in
the county and marry Dick St. Claire, if, indeed, she did
not look higher?
It was at this point in her soliloquy that she saw Jerry
coming up the walk, her face glowing with excitement and
her manner one of freedom and assurance.
Ascending the steps, Jerry nodded and smiled at the
lady, whose expression was not very inviting, and who, to
the child's remark, "I've comed again," answered, icily:
"I see you have. Seems to me you come pretty often."
Turning to Charles, Mrs. Tracy continued:
"Why is she here again so soon? What does she
want?"
Quick to interpret the meaning of the tones of a voice,
and hearing disapprobation in Mrs. Tracy's, Jerry's face was
shadowed at once, and she looked up entreatingly at
Charles, who said:
"Mr. Tracy sent me for her. She was with him
yesterday, and he will have her again to-day."
Then Jerry's face brightened, and she chimed in:
"I'm visiting. I'm invited, and I'm going to stay to
eat."
Mrs. Tracy dared not interfere with Arthur, even if he
took Jerry to live there altogether, and, with a bend of
her head, she signified to Charles that the conference was
ended.
"Come, Jerry," Charles said; but Jerry held back a
moment, and asked:
"Where's Maude?"
If Mrs. Tracy heard, she did not reply, and Jerry followed
on after Charles through the hall and up the broad
staircase to the darkened room where Arthur lay, suffering
intense pain in his head, and moaning occasionally. But
he heard the patter of the little feet, for he was listening
for it, and when Jerry entered his room he raised himself
upon his elbow, and reaching the other hand toward her,
said:
"So you have come again, little Jerry; or, perhaps I
should call you little Cherry, considering how you first
came to me. Would you like that name?"
"'Ess," was Jerry's reply, in the quick, half-lisping way
which made the monosyllable so attractive.
"Well, then, Cherry," Arthur continued, "take off
that bonnet, and open the blind behind me. Then bring
that stool and sit where I can look at you while you rub
my head with your hands. It aches enough to split, and I
believe the bumble-bees are swarming; but they can't get
out, and if they could, they are the white-faced kind,
which never sting."
Jerry knew all about white-faced bumble-bees, for Harold
had caught them for her, and with this fear removed,
she did as Arthur bade her, and was soon seated at his
side, rubbing his forehead, where the blue veins were
standing out full and round, and smoothing his hair
caressingly with her fingers, which seemed to have in them
a healing power, for the pain and heat grew less under
their touch, and, after awhile, Arthur fell into a quiet
sleep.
When he awoke, after half an hour or so, it was with a
delicious sense of rest and freedom from pain. Jerry had
dropped the shades to shut out the sunlight, and was
walking on tiptoe round the room, arranging the furniture
and talking to herself in whispers, as she usually did
when playing alone.
"Jerry," Arthur said to her, and she was at his side in
a moment, "you are an enchantress. The ache is all gone
from my head, charmed away by your hands. Now,
come and sit by me again, and tell me all you know of
yourself before Harold found you. Where did you live?
What was your mother's name? Try and recall all you
can."
Jerry, however, could tell him very little besides the
Tramp House, and the carpet-bag, and Harold letting her
fall in the snow. Of the cold and the suffering she could
recall nothing, or of the journey from New York in the
cars. She did remember something about the ship, and
her mother's seasickness, but where she lived before she
went to the ship, she could not tell. It was a big town, she
thought, and there was music there, and a garden, and
somebody sick. That was all. Everything else was gone
entirely, except now and then when vague glimpses of
something in the past bewildered and perplexed her. Her
pantomime of the dying woman and the child had not been
repeated for more than a year, for now her acting always
took the form of the tragedy in the Tramp House, with
herself in the carpet-bag, and a lay figure dead beside her.
But gradually, as Arthur questioned her, the old memories
began to come back and shape themselves in her mind, and
she said at last:
"It was like this—play you was a sick lady and I was
your nurse. I can't think of her name. I guess I'll call
her Manny. And there must be a baby; that's me, only I
can't think of my name."
"Call it Jerry, then," Arthur suggested, both interested
and amused, though he did not quite understand
what she meant.
But he was passive in her hands, and submitted to have
a big handkerchief put over his head for a cap, and to hold
on his arm the baby she improvised from a sofa-cushion of
costly plush, around which she arranged as a dress an
expensive table-spread, tied with the rich cord and tassel of
his dressing-gown.
"You must cry a great deal," she said, "and pray a
great deal, and kiss the baby a great deal, and I must scold
you some for crying so much, and shake the baby some in
the kitchen for making a noise, because, you know, the
baby can walk and talk, and is me, only I can't be both at
a time."
She was not very clear in her explanations, but Arthur
began to have a dim perception of her meaning, and did
what she bade him do, and rather enjoyed having his face
and hands washed with a wet rag, and his hair brushed and
turled, as she called it, even though the fingers which turled
it sometimes made suspicious journeys to her mouth. He
cried when she told him to cry; he coughed when she told
him to cough; he kissed the baby when she told him to
kiss it; he took medicine from the tin pail in the form of
the cherry juice left there, and did not have to make
believe that it sickened him, as she said he must, for that
was a reality. But when she told him he must die, but
pray first, he demurred, and asked what he should say.
Jerry hesitated a little. She knew that her prayers were,
"Our Father," and "Now I lay me," but it seemed to her
that a person dying should say something else, and at last
she replied:
"I can't think what she did say, only a lot about him.
There was a him somewhere, and I guess he was naughty,
so pray for him, and the baby—that's me—and tell Manny
she must take me to Mecky."
"To whom?" Arthur asked, and she replied:
"To Mecky, where he was, don't you know?"
Arthur did not know, but he prayed for him, saying
what she bade him say—a mixture half English, half
German.
"There, now, you are dead," she said, at last, as she
closed his eyes and folded his hands upon his chest. "You
are dead, and musn't stir nor breathe, no matter how awful
we cry, Manny and I."
Kneeling down beside him, she began a cry so like that
of two persons that if Arthur had not known to the contrary,
he would have sworn there were two beside him, a
woman and a child, the voice of one shrill, and clear, and
young, and frightened, the other older, and harsher, and
stronger, and both blending together in a most astonishing
manner.
"With a little practice she would make a wonderful
ventriloquist," Arthur thought, as he watched her flitting
about the room, talking to unseen people and giving orders
with regard to himself.
Once Frank had witnessed a pantomime very similar to
this, only then the play had ended with the death, while
now there was the burial, and when Arthur moved a little
and asked if he might get up, she laid her hand quickly on
his mouth, with a peremptory, "Hush! you are dead, and
we must bury you."
But here Jerry's memory failed her, and the funeral
which followed was an imitation of the one which had left
the Park House three years before, and which Arthur had
watched from his window. Frank was there, and his wife,
and Peterkin, and Jerry imitated the voices of them all,
and when some one bade her kiss her mother she stooped
and kissed Arthur's forehead, and said:
"Good-by, mamma;" then, throwing a thin tidy over
his face, she continued, "Now I am going to shut the
coffin;" and as she worked at the corners, as if driving
down the screws, Arthur felt as if he were actually being
shut out from life, and light, and the world.
To one of his superstitious tendencies the whole was
terribly real, and when at last she told him he was buried,
and the folks had come back, and he could get up, the
sweat was standing upon his face and hands in great drops,
and he felt that he had in very truth been present at the
obsequies of some one whose death had made an impression
so strong upon Jerry's mind that time had not erased it.
There was in his heart no thought of Gretchen, as there
had been in Frank's when he was a spectator at the play.
He had no cause for suspicion, and thought only of the
child whose restlessness and activity were something appalling
to him.
"Now, what shall we play next?" she asked, as he sat
white and trembling in his chair.
"Oh, nothing, nothing," he groaned. "I cannot
stand any more now."
"Well, then, you sit still and I'll clean house; it needs
it badly. Such mud as that boy brings in I never see, and
I'm so lame, too!" Jerry responded, and Arthur now
recognized Mrs. Crawford, whose tidiness and cleanliness
were proverbial, and for the next half-hour he watched
the little actress as she limped around the room exactly as
Mrs. Crawford limped with her rheumatism, sweeping,
dusting, and scolding, both to Harold and Jerry, the latter
of whom once retorted:
"I wouldn't be so cross as that if I had forty rheumatisses
in my laigs, would you, Harold?"
But Harold only answered, softly:
"Hush, Jerry! You should not speak so to grandma,
and she so good to us both, when we haven't any mother."
Arthur would have laughed, so perfect was the imitation
of voice and gesture, but at the mention of Harold's
mother there came into his mind a vision of sweet Amy
Crawford, who had been his first love, and for whose son
he had really done so little.
"Jerry," he said, "I guess you have cleaned house
long enough. Wash your hands and come to me."
She obeyed him, and, looking into his face, said:
"Now, what? Can you play cat's cradle, or casino?"
"No; I want to talk to you of Harold. You love him
very much?"
"Oh, a hundred bushels—him and grandma, too."
"And he is very kind to you?"
"Yes, I guess he is. He never talks back, and I am
awful sometimes, and once I spit at him, and struck him;
but I was so sorry, and cried all night, and offered to give
him my best doll 'cause it was the plaything I loved most,
and I went without my piece of pie so he could have two
pieces if he wanted," Jerry said, her voice trembling as
she made this confession, which gave Arthur a better
insight into her real character than he had had before.
Hasty, impulsive, repentant, generous, and very affectionate,
he felt sure she was, and he continued:
"Does Harold go to school?"
"Yes; and I, too—to the district; but I hate it!" Jerry
replied.
"Why hate it?" Arthur asked. "What is the matter
with the district school?"
"Oh, it smells awful there sometimes when it is hot,"
Jerry replied, with an upward turn to her nose. "And
the boys are so mean, some of them. Bill Peterkin goes
there, and I can't bear him, he plagues me so. Wants to
kiss me. A-a-h, and says I am to be his wife, and he's got
warts on his thumb!"
Jerry's face was sufficiently indicative of the disgust
she felt for Bill Peterkin with his warts, and, leaning back
in his chair, Arthur laughed heartily, as he said:
"And so you don't like Bill Peterkin? Well, what
boys do you like?"
"Harold and Dick St. Claire," was the prompt response,
and Arthur continued:
"What would you have in place of the district school?"
"A governess," was Jerry's answer. "Nina St. Claire
has one, and Ann Eliza Peterkin has one, and Maude Tracy
has one."
Here Jerry stopped suddenly, as if struck with a new
idea.
"Why Maude is your little girl isn't she? You are her
rich uncle, and she is to have all your money when you die.
I wish I was your little girl."
She spoke the last very sadly, and something in the
expression of her face brought Gretchen to Arthur's mind,
and his voice was choked as he said to her:
"I'd give half my fortune if you were my little girl."
Then, laying his hand on her bright hair, he questioned
her adroitly of her life at the cottage, finding that
it was a very happy one, and that she had never known
want, although Mrs. Crawford was unable to work as she
once had done, and was largely dependent upon the price
for Jerry's board, which Frank paid regularly. Of this,
however, Jerry did not speak. She only said:
"Harold works in the furnace, and in folks' gardens, and
does lots of things for everybody, and once Bill Peterkin
twitted him because he goes to Mrs. Baker's sometimes
after stuff for the pig, and Harold cried, and I got up early
the next morning and went after it myself, and drew the cart
home. After that grandma wouldn't let Harold go for any
more, and so I s'pose the pig will not weigh as much. I'm
sorry, for I like sausage, don't you?"
Arthur hated it, but he did not tell her so, and she went
on:
"Harold studies awful hard, and wants to go to college.
He is trying to learn latin, and recites to Dick St.
Claire; but grandma says its up-hill business. Oh, if I's
only rich I'd give it all to Harold, and he should get learning
like Dick. Maybe I can work some time and earn
some money. I wish I could."
Arthur did not speak for a long time, but sat looking
at the child whose face now wore an old and troubled look.
In his mind he was revolving a plan which, with his usual
precipitancy, he resolved to carry into effect at once. But
he said nothing of it to Jerry, whose attention was diverted
by the entrance of Charles and the preparations for
luncheon, which, on the little girl's account, was served
with more care than usual.
Jerry who had a great liking for everything luxurious,
had taken tea once or twice at Grassy Spring with Nina St.
Claire, and had been greatly impressed with the appointments
of the table, prizing them more even than the
dainties for her to eat. But what she had seen there
seemed as nothing compared to this round Swiss table,
with its colored glass and rare china, no two pieces of
which were alike.
"Oh, it is just like a dream!" she cried, as she watched
Charles' movement and saw that there were two places
laid. "Am I to sit down with you?" she said, in an awestruck
voice, "and in that lovely chair? I am glad I
wore my best gown. It won't dirty the chair a bit."
But she took her pocket-handkerchief and covered it
over the satin cushion before she dared seat herself in the
chair, which had once been brought out for Gretchen, and
in which she now sat down, dropping her head and shutting
her eyes a moment. Then, as she heard no sound,
she looked up wonderingly, and asked:
"Ain't you going to say 'for Christ's sake,' grandma
does?"
Arthur's face was a study with its mixed expression of
surprise, amusement and self-reproach. He never prayed,
except it were in some ejaculatory sentences wrung from
him in his sore need, and the thought of asking a blessing
on his food had never occurred to him. But Jerry was
persistent.
"You must say 'for Christ's sake,'" she continued, and
with his weak brain all in a muddle, Arthur began what
he meant to be a brief thanksgiving, but which stretched
itself into a lengthy prayer, full of the past and of
Gretchen, whom he seemed to be addressing rather than
his Maker.
For a while Jerry listened reverently; then she looked
up and moved uneasily in the chair, and at last when the
prayer had continued for at least five minutes she burst
out impulsively:
"Oh, dear, do say 'amen.' I am so hungry!"
That broke the spell, and with a start Arthur came to
himself, and said:
"Thank you, Jerry. Praying is a new business for
me, and I do believe I should have gone on forever if you
had not stopped me. Now what will you have?"
He helped her to whatever she liked best, but could
eat scarcely anything himself. It was sufficient for him
to watch Jerry sitting there in Gretchen's chair and using
Gretchen's plate which every day for so many years had
been laid for her. Gretchen had not come. She would
never come, he feared, but with Jerry he did not feel half
as desolate as when alone, with only his morbid fancies for
company. And he must have her there, at least a portion
of the time. His mind was made up on that point, and
when about four o'clock, Jerry said to him:
"I want to go now. Grandma said I was to be home
by five," he replied:
"Yes, I am going with you. I wish to see your
grandmother. I am going to drive you in the phaeton.
How would you like that?"
Her dancing eyes told him how she would like it, and
Charles was sent to the stable with an order to have the
little pony phaeton brought round as soon as possible as he
was going for a drive.