When Lady Avondale awoke from her
slumbers she found the whole castle in a
state of confusion. Lady Margaret had
twice sent for her. Every one was occupied
with this extraordinary event. Her name,
and Lord Glenarvon’s were mentioned
together, and conjectures, concerning the
whole scene, were made by every individual.
At Gerald Mac Allain’s earnest entreaties,
the body of Alice was conveyed to
his own house, near the Garden Cottage.
He wished no one to be informed of the
particulars of her melancholy fate. He
came, however, a few days after her removal,
to ask for Calantha. She was ill; but
mediately admitted him. They talked
together upon all that had occurred. He
gave her a letter, and a broach, which
had been found upon the body. It was
addressed to Lord Glenarvon. There was
also a lock of hair, which seemed, from the
fineness of its texture, to belong to a child.
The letter was a mournful congratulation
on his supposed marriage with a lady in
England, written at some former period;
it wished him every happiness, and contained
no one reproach. The broach
consisted of a heart’s ease, which she entreated
him sometimes to wear in remembrance
of one, who had loved him
truly. “Heart’s ease to you—mais triste
pensée pour moi,” was engraved upon it.
“You must yourself deliver these,” said
Mac Allain looking wistfully at Calantha.
She promised to do so.
Mac Allain then drew forth a larger
packet which was addressed to himself.
“I have not yet read it,” he said, “I
am not able to see for my tears; but it
is the narration of my child’s sorrows; and
when I have ended it, I will give it to
you, my dear lady, and to any other
whom you may wish.” “Oh Mac Allain!”
said Lady Avondale, “by every tie of
gratitude and affection which you profess,
and have shewn our family, do not let
any one read this but myself:—do not
betray Lord Glenarvon. He feels your
sufferings: he more than shares them.
For my sake I ask you this. Keep this
transaction secret; and, whatever may be
suspected, let none know the truth.—Say:
may I ask it?”
Calantha’s agitation moved him greatly.
He wept in bitter anguish. “The
destroyer of my child,” he said, “will
lead my benefactress into misery. Ah!
my dear young lady, how my heart
bleeds for you.” Impatiently, she turned
away. “Will you hear my entreaties,”
she said. “You may command; but
the news of my child’s death is spread:
many are talking of it already: I cannot
keep it secret.” “Only let not Lord
Glenarvon’s name appear.” Mac Allain
promised to do all in his power to silence
every rumour; and, with the help of
O’Kelly, he, in some measure succeeded.
The story believed was, that Mr. Buchanan
first had carried her with him to
England, where she had fallen into
poverty and vice. No further enquiry
was made; but Lord Glenarvon himself
confided to many, the secret which Calantha
was so eager to conceal.
The narrative of Alice’s sufferings may
be omitted by those who wish not to
peruse it. Lord Glenarvon desired to
read it when Calantha had ended it. He
also took the broach, and pressing it to his
lips, appeared very deeply affected. After
this, for a short time he absented himself
from the castle. The following pages,
written by Alice, were addressed to her
only surviving parent. No comment is
made on them; no apology offered for
their insertion. If passion has once subdued
the power of reason, the misery
and example of others never avails, even
were we certain of a similar fate. If
every calamity we may perhaps deserve,
were placed in view before us, we
should not pause—we should not avert
our steps. To love, in defiance of virtue
is insanity, not guilt. To attempt the
safety of its victims, were a generous but
useless effort of unavailable interference.
It is like a raging fever, or the tempest’s
fury—far beyond human aid to quell.
Calantha read, however, the history of her
friend, and wept her fate.
“My dear and honoured father,
“To you I venture to address this short
history of my unhappy life, and if sufferings
and pain can in part atone for my
misconduct, I surely shall be forgiven by
you; but never, while existence, however
miserable, is prolonged, never shall I
forgive myself. Perhaps even now, the
rumour of my disgrace has reached you,
and added still severer pangs to those you
before endured. But oh! my father, I
have, in part, expiated my offences. Long
and severe sorrows have followed me,
since I left your roof, and none more
heart rending—oh! none to compare with
the agony of being abandoned by him,
for whom I left so much. You remember,
my dear father, that, during the last
year, which I passed at the castle, the
attention which Mr. Buchanan had paid
me, was so marked, that it occasioned
the most serious apprehensions in Lady
Margaret, on his account. Alas! I concealed
from every one, the true cause of
my encreasing melancholy; and felt
happy that the suspicions of my friends
and protectors were thus unintentionally
misled. I parted with Linden, nor told
him my secret. I suffered the severest
menaces and reproofs, without a murmur;
for I knew myself guilty, though not of
the crime with which I was charged. At
Sir Everard St. Clare’s I found means to
make my escape, or rather, the mad attachment
of one far above me, removed
every obstacle, which opposed his wishes
and my own.
“But it is time more particularly to acquaint
you, my dear father, by what accident
I first met with Lord Glenarvon, to
whom my fate was linked—whose attachment
once made me blessed—whose inconstancy
has deprived me of every earthly
hope. Do you remember once, when I obtained
leave to pass the day with you, that
my brother, Garlace, took me with him in
his boat, down the river Allan, and Roy
and yourself were talking eagerly of the
late affray which had taken place in our
village. I then pointed out to you the
ruins of St. Alvin’s Priory, and asked you
the history of its unhappy owners. My
father, that evening, when yourself and
Roy were gone on shore, my brother
Garlace fixing the sail, returned with me
down the current with the wind: and as
we passed near the banks from behind
the rocks, we heard soft low notes, such
as they say spirits sing over the dead;
and as we turned by the winding shore,
we soon perceived a youth who was
throwing pebbles into the stream, and
ever whilst he threw them, he continued
singing in that soft, sweet manner
I have said. He spoke with us, and the
melancholy sound of his voice, attracted
us towards him. We landed close by the
place near which he stood. He accompanied
us to the front of the castle; but
then entreating us to excuse his proceeding
further, he retired; nor told us who
he was. From that day, I met him in
secret. Oh! that I had died before I had
met with one so young, so beautiful, but
yet so utterly lost. Nothing could save
him: my feeble help could not reclaim
him: it was like one who clasped a
drowning man, and fell with him in the
struggle: he had cast sin and misery
upon his soul. Never will I soil these
pages with the record of what he uttered;
his secrets shall be buried as in a sepulchre;
and soon, most soon shall I perish
with them....”
Calantha paused in the narrative; she
gasped for breath; and wiping away the
tears which struggled in her eyes: “If
he treated my friend with unkindness,”
she said, “dear as he has hitherto been
to me, I will never behold him more.”
She then proceeded.
“All enjoyment of life has ceased:—I
am sick at heart. The rest of my story is
but a record of evil. To exhibit the struggles
of guilty love, is but adding to the
crime already committed. I accuse him
of no arts to allure: he did but follow the
impulse of his feelings: he sought to save—he
would have spared me: but he had
not strength. O my father, you know
Lord Glenarvon—you have felt for him,
all that the most grateful enthusiasm could
feel; and for the sake of the son whom
he restored to you, you must forgive him
the ruin of an ungrateful child, who
rushed forward herself to meet it. Unused
to disguise my sentiments, I did not attempt
even to conceal them from him;
and when he told me I was dear, I too
soon shewed him, how much more so he
was to me. For when the moment of
parting forever came, when I saw my
Lord, as I thought, for the last time, you
must not judge me—you cannot even in
fancy imagine, all I at that hour endured—I
left my country, my home—I gave up
every hope on earth or heaven for him.
Oh God in mercy pardon me, for I have
suffered cruelly; and you, my father,
when you read these pages, bless me,
forgive me. Turn not from me, for you
know not the struggles of my heart—you
can never know what I have endured.”
Calantha breathed with greater difficulty;
and paused again. She paced to
and fro within her chamber, in strong
agitation of mind. She then eagerly returned
to peruse the few remaining pages,
written by her miserable, her infatuated
friend.—“She was not guilty,” she cried.
“The God of Heaven will not, does not
condemn her. Oh she was spotless as
innocence compared with me.”
“There were many amongst Lord
Glenarvon’s servants who were acquainted
with my secret. Through every trouble
and some danger I followed him; nor
boast much of having felt no woman’s
fear; for who that loves can fear. I will
not dwell upon these moments of my
life: they were the only hours of joy,
which brightened over a career of misery
and gloom. Whilst loved by the object
of one’s entire devotion—whilst surrounded
by gaiety and amusement, the
voice of conscience is seldom heard;
and, I will confess it, at this time I fancied
myself happy. I was Glenarvon’s mistress;
and I knew not another wish upon
earth. In the course of the three years,
passed with him in England and in Italy,
I became mother of a child, and Clare,
my little son, was dear to his father. But
after his birth, he forsook me.
“We were in England at the time, at
the house of one of his friends, when
he first intimated to me the necessity of
his leaving me. He had resolved, he
said, to return to Florence, and I was in
too weak a state of health to permit my
accompanying him. I entreated, I implored
for permission to make the attempt.
He paused for some time, and then, as if
unable to refuse me, he consented—reluctantly,
I will own it; but still he said
that I should go. He never appeared
more fond, more kind than the evening
before his departure. That evening, I
supped with him and his friends. He
seemed tired; and asked me more than
once if I would not go to rest. His servant,
a countryman of ours, by name
O’Kelly, brought me a glass with something
in it, which he bade me drink; but I
would not. Lord Glenarvon came to me,
and bade me take it.” “If it were poison,”
I said fondly, “I would take it from
your hands, so that I might but die
upon your bosom.” “It is not poison,”
he said, “Alice, but what many a fine
lady in London cannot rest without. You
will need repose; you are going a long
journey to-morrow; drink it love; and
mayest thou sleep in peace.” I took the
draught and slumbered, even while reposing
in his arms....
“Oh my father, he left me.—I awoke to
hear that he was gone—to feel a misery,
I never can describe. From that day, I
fell into a dangerous illness. I knew not
what I said or did. I heard, on recovering,
that my lord had taken another mistress,
and was about to marry; that he
had provided for me with money; that he
had left me my child. I resolved to follow:—I
recovered in that hope alone. I went
over to Ireland:—the gates of the abbey
were shut against me. Mr. Hard Head, a
friend of my lord’s whom I once named
to you, met me as I stood an helpless
outcast, in my own country; he spoke to
me of love; I shuddered at the words.—The
well known sound of kindness.
“Never, never,” I said, as I madly sought
to enter the gates which were closed
against me.—O’Kelly passed me:—I
knelt to him. Was he man—had he human
feelings? In mercy oh my God, in
mercy hear me, let me behold him again.
I wrote, I know not what I wrote. My
letters, my threats, my supplications were
answered with insult—every thing, every
thing was refused me....
“It was at night, in the dark night, my
father, that they took my boy—my Clare,
and tore him from my bosom....
Yes, my sleeping boy was torn by ruffian
hands from my bosom. Oh! take my
life, but not my child. Villains! by
what authority do you rob me of my
treasure? Say, in whose name you do
this cruel deed. “It is by order of our
master Lord Glenarvon.” I heard no
more; yet in the convulsive grasp of
agony, I clasped the boy to my breast.
“Now tear him from his mother,” I
cried, “if you have the heart;” and my
strength was such that they seemed astonished
at my power of resistance. They
knew not the force of terror, when the
heart’s pulse beats in every throb, for
more than life. The boy clung to me
for support. “Save, save me,” he cried.
I knelt before the barbarians—my shrieks
were vain—they tore him from me.—I
felt the last pressure of his little arms—my
Clare—my child—my boy.—Never,
oh never, shall I see him again. Oh
wretched mother! my boy, my hope is
gone.—How often have I watched those
bright beaming eyes, when care and
despondency had sunk me into misery!—how
oft that radiant smile has cheered
when thy father cruelly had torn my
heart! now never, never, shall I behold
him more....
“Linden had heard of my disgrace and
misery; he had written to me, but he
knew not where I was....
“I will sail to-morrow, if I but reach
Cork.—I have proved the ruin of a whole
family.—I hear Linden has enlisted with
the rioters. A friend of his met me and
spoke to me of him, and of you my
father. He promised to keep my secret:
yet if he betrays me, I shall be far away
before you hear of my fate.—I grieve for
the troubles of my country.—All the malcontents
flock together from every side to
Belfont. Lord Glenarvon hears their
grievances:—his house is the asylum of
the unfortunate:—I alone am excluded
from its walls.—Farewell to Ireland, and
to my dear father.—I saw my brother
Garlace pass; he went through the court
to St. Alvin, with many other young men.
They talked loudly and gaily: he little
thought that the wretch who hid her face
from them was his sister—his own—his
only sister, of whom he was once so fond.
I saw Miss St. Clare too; but I never saw
Glenarvon....
“From my miserable Lodging, Cork,
Thursday Night.
“The measure of my calamity is at its
full. The last pang of a breaking heart
is over.—My father forgive me.—We
sailed: a storm has driven us back. I
shall leave Ireland no more. The object
of my voyage is over: I am returned to
die ... what more is left me ... I
cannot write ... I have lost every thing.
“Sunday.
“I have been very ill.—When I sleep
fires consumes me: I heard sweet music,
such as angels sing over the dead:—there
was one voice clear, and soft as a lute
sounding at a distance on the water:—it
was familiar to me; but he fled when I
followed....
Every one talks of Lord Glenarvon.—Yes,
he is come back—he is come back
to his own country covered with glory.—a
bride awaits him, I was told.—He is
happy; and I shall not grieve, if I see
him—yes, if I see him once more before I
die:—it is all I ask. I am so weak I can
scarcely write; but my father, my dear
Father, I wish to tell you all.—I will
watch for him among the crowd....
“Tuesday Night, Belfont.
“I walked to Belfont;—and now the
bitterness of death is passed.—I have seen
that angel face once again—I have heard
that sweetest voice, and I can lie down,
and die; for I am happy now.—He passed
me; but oh! bitter bitter sight
to me, he turned from me, and looked
upon another.—They tell me it was my
preserver and benefactress: they say, it
was Lady Avondale. He looked proud
of her, and happy in himself.—I am
glad he looked happy; but yet I thought
he turned his eyes on me, and gazed upon
me once so sadly, as if in this mournful
countenance and altered form, he traced
the features of her whom he had once
loved so well.—But no—it could not be:—he
did not know me; and I will see
him again. If he will but say, “Alice:
God bless you,” I shall die satisfied.—And
if my child still lives, and comes
again to you, so cold, so pale—take him
to your heart, dear father, and forgive his
mother—I am ill, and cannot write.
They watch me; my pencil is almost
worn out, and they will give me no other.—I
have one favor to ask, and it is this:—when
I came to Dublin, I gave all
the money I had to buy this broach—take
it to Lady Avondale. They say
she is very good, and perhaps, when she
hears how ill I am, she will pardon my
faults, and give it for me to Lord Glenarvon.—I
shall wait for him every day in
the same wood, and who knows, but I
may see him again....”
And Alice did see him again;—and
she did kneel to him;—and she received
from his hands the relief he thought she
craved;—and the unexpected kindness
broke her heart.—She died;——and she
was buried in the church near Belfont.
There was a white stone placed upon her
grave, and her old father went daily there
and wept; and he had the tree that now
grows there planted; and it was railed
around, that the cattle and wild-goats,
might not destroy it.
“Take the band from my head,” said
Calantha. “Give me air. This kills
me....” She visited the grave of
Alice: she met Mac Allain returning from
it, they uttered not one word as they
passed each other. The silence was more
terrible than a thousand lamentations....
Lady Margaret sent for Calantha. She
looked ill, and was much agitated. “It
is time,” said Lady Margaret, to speak
to you. “The folly of your conduct,”—“Oh
it is past folly,” said Calantha
weeping. Lady Margaret looked upon
her with contempt. “How weak, and
how absurd is this. Whatever your errors,
need you thus confess them? and
whatever your feelings, wherefore betray
them to the senseless crowd?
“Calantha,” said Lady Margaret in a
hollow tone, “I can feel as deeply as
yourself. Nature implanted passions in
me, which are not common to all; but
mark the difference between us:—a strong
mind dares at least conceal the ravages
the tempest of its fury makes. It
assumes that character to the vulgar herd
which it knows is alone capable of imposing
restraint upon it. Every one suspects
me, but none dare reproach me.
You on the contrary, are the butt against
which every censure is levelled: they
know, that your easy nature can pardon
malignity, and the hand that insults you
to-day will crave your kindness to-morrow.
When you are offended, with puerile
impotence and passionate violence,
you exhibit the effects of your momentary
rage; and by breaking of tables,
or by idle words, shew your own weakness.
Thus you are ever subdued by the
very exhibition of your passions. And
now that you love, instead of rendering
him you love your captive, you throw
yourself entirely in his power, and will
deeply rue the confidence you have
shewn. Has he not already betrayed you.
You know not Glenarvon. His heart,
black as it is, I have read and studied.
Whatever his imagination idolizes, becomes
with him a sole and entire interest.
At this moment, he would fly with you
to the extremity of the earth, and when
he awakes from his dream, he will laugh
at you, and at himself for his absurdity.
Trust not that malignant and venomed
tongue. The adder that slumbers in the
bosom of him who saved it, recovers, and
bites to the heart the fool that trusted it.
Warned on all sides, beware! and if nothing
else can save you, learn at least
who this Glenarvon is, what he has done.
He is....”
“Lord Glenarvon,” said a servant; at
that very instant the door opened, and he entered.
He started at seeing Calantha,
who, greatly embarrassed, durst not meet
his eyes. It seemed to her, that to have
heard him spoken of with unkindness
was a sort of treachery to an attachment
like theirs. Lady Margaret’s words had
wounded and grieved her; but they had
not shaken her trust; and when she
looked upon him and saw that beautiful
countenance, every doubt left her. Before
she quitted the room, she observed however,
with surprise, the smile of enchanting
sweetness, the air of kindness, even
of interest, with which Lady Margaret
received him; and one jealous fear crossing
her fancy, she lingered as if reproachfully
enquiring what meant these
frequent visits to her Aunt. Glenarvon
in a moment read the doubt:—“yes” he
cried, following her, you are right: if
ever I have loved another with idolatry
it was thy Aunt; but be assured I loved
in vain. And now Calantha, I would
agree, whilst existence were prolonged,
to see her no more, sooner than cause
you one hour’s uneasiness. Be satisfied
at least, that she abhors me.
“None of this whispering,” said Lady
Margaret, smiling gently, “at least in my
presence.” “I never loved before as now,”
said Glenarvon, aloud. “Never,” said
Lady Margaret, with an incredulous and
scornful smile. “No,” said Glenarvon, still
gazing on Calantha; “all is candour, innocence,
frankness in that heart, the one
I idolized too long, was like my own utterly
corrupted.” “You wrong the lady,”
said Lady Margaret carelessly. “She had
her errors, I acknowledge; but the coldness
of Glenarvon’s heart, its duplicity,
its malignity, is unrivalled.” Calantha,
deeply interested and agitated, could not
quit the room. Glenarvon had seized
her hand, his eyes fixed upon her, seemed
alone intent on penetrating her feelings:
she burst into tears: he approached
and kissed her. “You shall not tear
her from me,” he said, to Lady Margaret,
“She goes with me by God: she is
bound to me by the most sacred oaths:
we are married: are we not dearest?”
“Have you confessed to her,” said
Lady Margaret contemptuously? “Every
thing.”
“She loves you no doubt the better
for your crimes.” “She loves me. I do
believe it,” said Glenarvon, in an impassioned
tone, “and may the whole world,
if she wishes it, know that by every art,
by every power I possess, I have sought
her: provided they also know,” he continued
with a sneer, “that I have won
her. She may despise me; you may
teach her to hate; but of this be assured—you
cannot change me. Never, never
was I so enslaved. Calantha, my soul,
look on me.—Glenarvon kneels to you.
I would even appear humble—weak, if it
but gratify your vanity; for humility to
you is now my glory—my pride.”
“Calantha,” said Lady Margaret, in
a protecting tone, “are you not vain?”
“This Glenarvon has been the lover of
many hundreds; to be thus preferred is
flattering. Shall I tell you, my dear
niece, in what consists your superiority?
You are not as fair as these; you are not
perhaps as chaste; but you are loved
more because your ruin will make the misery
of a whole family, and your disgrace
will cast a shade upon the only man whom
Glenarvon ever acknowledged as superior
to himself—superior both in mind and
person. This, child, is your potent charm—your
sole claim to his admiration.
Shew him some crime of greater magnitude,
point out to him an object more
worth the trouble and pain of rendering
more miserable and he will immediately
abandon you.”
Glenarvon cast his eyes fiercely upon
Lady Margaret. The disdain of that
glance silenced her, she even came forward
with a view to conciliate: and affecting
an air of playful humility—“I
spoke but from mere jealousy,” she said.
“What woman of my age could bear to
see another so praised, so worshipped in
her presence. It is as if the future heir
of his kingdom were extolled in presence
of the reigning sovereign. Pardon me,
Glenarvon. I know, I see you love her.”
“By my soul I do;” “and look,” he cried
exultingly, “with what furious rage the
little tygress gazes on you. She will
harm you. I fear,” he continued laughing,
“if I do not carry her from your
presence. Come then Calantha: we shall
meet again,” he said, turning back and
pausing as they quitted Lady Margaret’s
apartment. The tone of his voice, and
his look, as he said this were peculiar:
nor did he for some moments regain his
composure.
Lady Margaret spoke a few words to
Calantha that evening. “I am in the
power of this man,” she said, “and you
soon will be. He is cold, hard and cruel.
Do any thing: but, if you have one regard
for yourself, go not with him.” “I
know his history, his errors,” said Calantha;
“but he feels deeply.” “You
know him,” said Lady Margaret, with a
look of scornful superiority, “as he wishes
you to believe him. He even may
exaggerate, were that possible, his crimes,
the more to interest and surprise. You
know him, Calantha, as one infatuated
and madly in love can imagine the idol
of its devotion. But there will come a
time when you will draw his character
with darker shades, and taking from it
all the romance and mystery of guilt, see
him, as I do, a cold malignant heart,
which the light of genius, self-love and
passion, have warmed at intervals; but
which, in all the detail of every-day life,
sinks into hypocrisy and baseness. Crimes
have been perpetrated in the heat of passion,
even by noble minds, but Glenarvon
is little, contemptible and mean. He
unites the malice and petty vices of a woman,
to the perfidy and villany of a man.
You do not know him as I do.”
“From this hour,” said Calantha, indignation
burning in her bosom, “we
never more, Lady Margaret, will interchange
one word with each other. I renounce
you entirely; and think you all
that you have dared to say against my
loved, my adored Glenarvon.”
Lady Margaret sought Calantha before
she retired for the night, and laughed at
her for her conduct. “Your rage, your
absurdity but excite my contempt. Calantha,
how puerile this violence appears
to me; above all, how useless. Now
from the earliest day of my remembrance
can any one say of me that they beheld
me forgetful of my own dignity from the
violence of my passions. Yet I feel,
think you not, and have made others feel.
Your childish petulance but operates
against yourself. What are threats, blows
and mighty words from a woman. When
I am offended, I smile; and when I stab
deepest, then I can look as if I had forgiven.
Your friends talk of you with
kindness or unkindness as it suits their
fancy: some love; some pity, but none
fear Calantha. Your very servants,
though you boast of their attachment,
despise and laugh at you. Your husband
caresses you as a mistress, but of your
conduct he takes not even heed. What is
the affection of the crowd? what the love
of man? make yourself feared! Then, if
you are not esteemed, at least you are outwardly
honoured, and that reserve, that
self-controul, which you never sought
even to obtain, keeps ordinary minds in
alarm. Many hate me; but who dares
even name me without respect. Yourself,
Calantha, even at this moment, are ready
to fall upon my bosom and weep, because
I have offended you. Come child—your
hand. I fain would save you, but you
must hear much that pains you, before I
can hope even to succeed. Only remember:
‘si vous vous faites brebi le loup vous
mangera.’” She smiled as she said this,
and Calantha, half offended, gave her the
hand for which she solicited.