March 3rd.—Leaving Nosi Be; in the Indian
Ocean.
To-day was full of events. This morning I went
on shore to send my letters and help dispatch others.
There was a large crowd at the post-office. All were
hurrying to get rid of their letters by eleven, when
there is a cessation of work there until two o'clock.
At noon the order was given to be ready to get up
anchor. Many people did not succeed in posting
valuable packets, parcels, and registered letters.
The latter they threw straight into the letter-box,
which was instantly filled, and had constantly to
be emptied.
I was not looking, and the officer who was
with me took my registered letters and put them
in the box. I was at that moment putting on
stamps for transmission abroad. I was annoyed.
I went round the post-office into the back yard,
and through a window to a room where they were
receiving the letters. I induced a Malagassy to
take all the letters out of the box and look for mine,
which among the general heap came into my hands.
I gave all the letters to a clerk, begging him to send
them to Russia registered. I had no time to wait
for a receipt. I had to hurry on board. I had the
advantage of being known to the clerks—firstly
because I had often had business with them, and
secondly because I promised them medals and
orders. Representations about this are already
made. At the post-office they asked me questions
like this: "Are you leaving to-day or to-morrow?
Are you going straight to Russia from here?" By
eleven o'clock I was on board.
It was hard to imagine what was going on this
morning on the quay. Everything was quite
covered by goods and provisions. Carts with
bullocks harnessed to them constantly brought
loads. All were hastening with packages to the
boats. They were hurriedly closing accounts with
the shore.
Lunch passed off quietly, but then came my
benefit. Forgive me; I will tell you the rest to-morrow.
I am so tired I can scarcely sit. I
slept badly last night, and do not feel well. My
servant even said, "Look here, your worship, sleep
and rest. You have slept very little while at the
anchorage, and worked hard." That is true. There
has been plenty of work. I shall rest now, if nothing
happens to the ships, which God forbid. Here we
are, again on our way. The place where we are
going is still kept secret.
March 4th.—I must finish my story of yesterday.
Soon after lunch news was received from the Kamchatka
that her condenser did not work. She also
reported that a Kingston valve had been torn out,
that she was beginning to fill with water, and that
they were putting a mat under. I thought they
would send me to the Kamchatka and keep me there
for the whole voyage. I was sent for by the admiral.
I went to the Kamchatka, and found horror and
confusion reigning there. In the engine-room compartment
the water was already breast-high. I
managed to put it right somehow. It happened
that the Kingston was not torn out, but the flap
in the Kingston pipe was damaged. They shut the
flap, not taking precautionary measures, and ejected
it out of the pipe, and water came in through the
opening formed. When the danger passed I returned
to the Suvaroff. The admiral sent me to
the Kamchatka, to remain until the work was finished.
I went there in the duty steamboat. I sent it back
and returned in a rowing-boat to the Suvaroff, where
another surprise awaited me. They were unable to
hoist the steamboat in the Aurora. The davits were
damaged.
I hastened there. In all the other ships the
boats were already hoisted. I set out for the
Aurora in the admiral's light whaler, which is usually
hoisted at the last moment. Every moment was
valuable. We had to hurry. The men pulled with
all their might. At all costs the Aurora's steamboat
had to be hoisted, otherwise it would have
had to be left behind. The work was strenuous.
They hammered, filed, and bound, rove the falls,
and the boat was eventually hoisted. I was annoyed
at having dirtied myself.
You may imagine the need there was to hurry.
All this business began at twelve o'clock, and it
was necessary that the fleet should weigh anchor at
three o'clock. Weigh anchor! and the Kamchatka
sinking and a steamboat not able to be hoisted!
Besides this, there was a report from the Kamchatka
in the morning that there was a breakage in her
steering arrangements. I took it on myself to say
that she could go with such damages. Nevertheless,
I was able to put everything to rights by
half-past two. I breathed freely. The signal was
hoisted, and we began to get up anchor.
The starting of the fleet was a pretty sight.
There were forty-two ships, if you count torpedo-boats
and transports. French torpedo-boats came
to escort the fleet. They wished us a prosperous
voyage, and cheered. Our bands played the
Marseillaise. Excitement reigns in the wardroom.
Will it be for long? Am I pleased? I cannot
understand my own feelings. On one hand I
am anxious about the fate of the fleet; on the
other, there is the possibility of seeing you soon,
and the feeble, feeble hope of beating the Japanese
fleet. If by any chance that should happen, Russia
will have command of the sea, and the battle-scenes
on land will be changed in our favour. If we are
beaten—then Japan is strong, very strong.
You know the steamer Regina came to us. At
the instance of Japan part of the provisions and
supplies were unloaded from her at Port Said. How
pleased you will be at this! It means that if Japan
had wished it, the Regina would not have come here
at all. We only receive what Japan permits. See
what strength this small country exhibits! It is
all thanks to her success in the war.
Just imagine the astonishment of Admiral
Nebogatoff's fleet when they learn that we have gone
on without waiting for them. In my opinion it is a
rash step to divide your forces. It would not have
taken much longer waiting for that fleet, as we have
already waited two and a half months at Madagascar.
A flag-officer of our staff has received some secret
appointment. He remained at Nosi Be, and was
advanced two and a half months' pay.
When Lieutenant Radekin was at Diego Suarez
the French told him the date of our departure from
Nosi Be and of our further course. That was on
February 24th. Radekin wrote down the prediction,
sealed it, and gave it to me to be opened at
sea. Just fancy, the date of our departure was
given exactly! The course I cannot verify, as I do
not know it myself.
Yesterday, when it grew dark, the ships lit their
lights. The sky was brilliant with flashing stars.
Forty-five ships! What a grand armada! How
difficult it is to direct its movements, and what an
enormous extent it occupies! The admiral only left
the bridge at nine o'clock. We were then exceedingly
hungry, and sat down to dinner. Last evening
delays began immediately. The battleship Orel
reported that some of her machinery was broken.
The fleet lessened speed, and the Orel steamed with
one engine. Something then went wrong with the
Anadir's machinery. We waited a whole hour while
she put it right. To-day all are going successfully.
I have noticed that for some reason the tale of
damages usually begins at night.
To-day it is gloomy. The sun is not visible.
The sea is rather rough. God forbid that we should
have bad weather, especially during the first nine
days. All the ships are heavily encumbered with
coal. There is not a spot on deck free of coal.
This has a bad effect on the sea-going qualities of
ships.
I lay down to rest, but could not sleep owing to
the heat. I forget if I told you I sleep completely
uncovered, and keep a small piece of cardboard by
me and use it as a fan. Some one has made a bag
out of two nets, and is catching fish from the stern
gallery. The weather is calm, and a great many
fish swim after the ship.
Nearly alongside the Suvaroff is the torpedo-boat
Biedovy.[13] Life in the torpedo-boat is passed on
deck. From the ship we can see how they dine and
all that is going on.
Yesterday a sailor from the Kieff flung himself
into the sea and was drowned. What was his
mental condition? Was he afraid that he would
be killed. How strange it is! But I have heard
that there are instances when men, fearing to
be killed in action, put an end to themselves.
Probably the fear of death acts so strongly
on these men that they are not themselves. An
hour ago a sailor in a fever threw himself overboard
from the Jemchug. They lowered two whalers and
a gig to pick him up, and threw him a life-belt; but
he fortunately swam to the hospital-ship Orel and
climbed on board. Now he is remaining in her.
March 5th (morning).—Last evening something
went wrong with the machinery of the transport
Vladimir. We waited while it was repaired. On
the whole we are going very slowly. This morning
all the torpedo-boats but one (the duty boat) were
taken in tow. This was in order that they should
not expend coal, which is very difficult to supply in
mid-ocean even when it is comparatively calm.
In slightly rough weather it is useless even to think
of coaling.
Last evening a German steamer from Diego
Suarez, as she explained on being asked, overtook
and passed us. This is rather suspicious.
Why must she go on the same course as we are
going? The route for the fleet was purposely
chosen, being one along which no one ever goes.
Yesterday the Navarin fired to try the carriage of
newly placed guns. The sound of the firing reached
the Suvaroff. This, I thought, is how I shall hear
the firing when we meet the Japanese. The sounds
are not very loud. Our shots, no doubt, will make
more noise.
Slowly, very slowly, we are going ahead. Now
and then the fleet stops, and goes on again with a
speed of five to eight knots. There are varieties
of mishaps, breakages in the Sissoi, and in the
torpedo-boats Grosny and Gromky. The slightest
damage delays all. Do you know to what distance
our ships extend, going in several divisions? Nearly
ten versts. If we go on at the same speed we shall
expend a great deal of time before reaching any port.
We are going north-east, and are again approaching
the equator.
The ship scouting reported that she saw a light
far away. Perhaps a "chance" vessel, like the one
yesterday. In a good cruiser the Japanese might
watch every step of our fleet without being perceived
by us. We are steaming with lights. What
is to prevent a fast cruiser, without lights, from
approaching us, ascertaining our position, and
disappearing—and no one will ever suspect such
observation. If the Japanese do not do that now,
it is almost certain that they will watch our fleet
when approaching the islands of the East Indian
archipelago, in order that, having chosen a favourable
time, they may attack, if not the warships, at
all events the transports. It is very difficult to
defend the latter.
What is Nebogatoff's fleet doing now? Will they
really continue their voyage to the East? It will
be a great risk.
March 6th (morning).—In the night we remained
three hours at one spot. Something was amiss
with the steering engine of the Borodino. She has
not yet put it right, and so is going on the flanks of
the rest.
A steamer is coming towards us.
The light which the scouting cruiser saw yesterday,
and which she took for a ship, proved to be a star.
They say you can often make the mistake, seeing
a star setting on the horizon. I saw one like it.
Sometimes there is a completely deceptive appearance
of a ship's light. It is related that on one
occasion, during the last war with Turkey, a whole
fleet (in the Black Sea) chased a star. No doubt
the mistake was soon found out.
During the cruise life on board passes very
monotonously. There are no events except breakages.
All are tired of one another. They converse
little and about nothing, and sit in different
corners. I have not been much in the wardroom
lately. I do not play games or the pianola. I sit
mostly in the deck-house, on the bridge, or in the
flag-captain's cabin.
There was mass to-day. The weather has become
a little rougher. We are going desperately slowly,
so shall not reach a port soon. We have to cross
a whole ocean. Another pleasure is in store for the
fleet—coaling in the open sea.
Night.—The whole port side of the spar-deck is
occupied by oxen and cows. The oxen for meat
and the cows for milk, only unfortunately the latter
do not give any. There are two calves. It is
decided to feed them. They will probably die. In
the transports special stalls have been made for the
animals, so that they can endure the motion. There
are none of these stalls in the battleships, and the
oxen have to stand on deck.
March 7th (morning).—Our voyage is continued
to the Chagos Islands, past the chief island, Diego
Garcia. There were rumours that Japanese ships
were lying at the Chagos archipelago, which belongs
to England. The rumour may be true. Perhaps
there will be a collision near these islands. The
Chagos archipelago consists of small, thinly populated
islands. There is no telegraph cable joining
it to the mainland.
There is an artificer in the Suvaroff called Krimmer.
He is a very trustworthy man. I once
offered to exchange letters in the event of the
death of one of us. To-day he handed me an
envelope with the following superscription: "In
the event of my death I beg you to send the enclosed
letter to its address, and also to dispatch the things
I leave behind. G. Krimmer, 2/3/1905. In the
Kniaz Suvaroff." I have not prepared my letter yet.
And what can I say in it? I have no secrets from
you. You know everything and what I might say
to you in my last moments.
The route we are following now is little frequented
by ships. Never since the creation of the world
have battleships, small cruisers, torpedo-boats, or
a fleet at all similar to ours gone along this route.
What sort of ship is there not with us? Battleships,
cruisers, torpedo-boats, transports, a repair ship,
hospital-ship, a water-carrier, and a tug.
Again the fleet has stopped. The tow-rope of
one of the torpedo-boats has broken. We are going
slowly. To-day at noon we have done 675 miles, in
all about 1,180 versts, and we have to do 7,000
versts in order to reach the East Indian archipelago.
At 4 a.m. to-morrow all warships are to coal from
the transports which are with us.
March 8th.—I have been unable to write since
this morning. In the first place, I was going from
ship to ship; then there was such an infernal heat
in my cabin that it was useless to think of writing.
It is a little fresher now, 27° R. In the night
the tiller rope carried away in the Suvaroff; the
confusion was considerable, but I escaped it.
I was called early this morning, at seven o'clock.
All the fleet had stopped and begun to take coal
from the boats, which were loaded from the transports.
At first the weather was calm, although
there was a fairly large swell. The Aurora's steamboat
disturbed me. They had hoisted it in, but
I had not seen how they secured it. I wanted to
see it myself. The Roland went about with various
orders for ships that were far from the Suvaroff.
I decided to go in her to the Aurora.
I went in the admiral's whaler and began to
curse myself. Getting out of the whaler was very
dangerous and difficult. The Roland had to deliver
packets with orders to ten ships, and by
eleven o'clock she had just been to six. The ships
lay far off, and much time was spent in sending
boats with the packets. At twelve o'clock I
returned to the Suvaroff from the Roland in the
whaler again. Could you have believed that I
should ever be pulled across the ocean in a tiny
cockleshell?
The swell is an extraordinary thing. It looks
quite calm from a ship, but in reality it is far from
being so. I drank a cup of coffee in the Roland.
At first she rolled lightly, but afterwards to such
an extent that the plates fell from the table. When
we came near the different ships they looked at us
with curiosity, expected something, and asked the
news, as if we were not in the same fleet. They were
given the packets, and their disappointment was
fearful. I was late for lunch and ate in my cabin.
When I entered it from the fresh air, it seemed like
a stove. The heat was intolerable. I drank water
with ice in it. A piece was left. With the greatest
delight I rubbed my head and neck with it. I
often do this now. The ice melts instantly.
I went to the after-cabin; landed myself there on
a sofa to doze a little, but it was not to be. I had
begun to sleep when an orderly came and said the
admiral required me. The torpedo-boat Buistry had
dented her side slightly, broken a boat, etc. When
I had finished with her I again went to the sofa in
the after-cabin.
The coaling will soon be stopped. The ships
are moving their engines, and we shall proceed!
It will be difficult in the swell to hoist steam and
other boats on board. The weather was indifferent;
but contrary to expectation, the coaling
was fairly successful. Perhaps they will begin it
again to-morrow morning. The fleet does not
anchor, but only lies with engines stopped. The
wind and sea continually bring ships towards each
other. Up to now, thank God! everything was
all right, with the exception of the Buistry. She
ought not to have been brought. She broke up at
Revel, knocked her side in at the Skaw, and now
she has collided with a transport. We went on
again twenty minutes ago. Dinner was late again.
I have not been invited to the dining-room.
A curious impression is produced by the boxes
or barrels fastened to the masts of the cruisers for
the look-out men. Some of the cruisers have
fastened cages, like boxes, and others have simply
suspended barrels. In these boxes and barrels
signalmen stand and watch the horizon.
They are hung up very high. Without them
sailors might easily fall from the mast. Only the
heads and shoulders of the signalmen are visible
now. A monotonous journey again stretches before
us. Do you know how the officers in the wardroom
amuse themselves all the evening? They
make the dog listen to the gramaphone. Several
pieces did not please her, and she began to howl.
This employment seemed very funny to many.
The gramaphone was purposely placed on deck, and
the trumpet directed straight at the dog.
Nights of alarm have again begun. They suspect
the near presence of Japanese cruisers, which
have a base in the English Seychelles Islands,
by which we are now passing.
At the wireless telegraph office they are receiving
strange dispatches. There are more grounds for
caution now than there ever were before. No
doubt as the fleet moves forward the chances of
a meeting with the enemy increase. All day I felt
fairly well, but towards the evening a strange
depression came over me. Anxiety wrings my
heart. I have lost all interest in everything. They
say that the Japanese are near. What then? It
is all the same to me.
I often pass through bad moments. One
grieves, rages, censures, criticises, and condemns
everything. Our army is acting independently, and
the fleet does not combine with the movements
of the army. The self-same fleet is split into
little pieces, which do not act in conformity with
the movements of the others. Three (or now,
perhaps, two) ships are doing something, or
more probably are lying at Vladivostok. Our
fleet is moving east, and the third remains behind
somewhere (where we do not know); and they are
collecting some remnants at Cronstadt and Libau.
All these parts do not know what the others are
doing. Can there be success under these conditions?
I think that there are many disorders in the army.
There is no method or organisation anywhere.
Among our enemies all is worked out, foreseen, and
guessed beforehand. They conduct war on a
scientific programme. Is success likely to be on
our side? No.
Of course, anything might happen. We might
win, but it would only be by chance. With
us it is the old system called "Perhaps," and
the old game of trusting to luck. Everything is
done anyhow. Not without reason some one
remarked that the "apes were righting the anyhows."
To do him justice, it would be difficult to
say a worse or a truer thing.
The Oleg is steaming astern, and other cruisers
are ahead and abeam of the fleet. All the battleships,
torpedo-boats, and transports occupy the
centre.
March 9th (8 a.m.).—Six times to-day the tow-ropes
of torpedo-boats have carried away. This
is rather often. The Dimitry Donskoi reports that
at night she saw lights of three ships, which were
communicating with searchlight flashes, and were
going the same course as ourselves.
Another sailor has died in the Oslyabya. He
will be buried at sea. He died the day before
yesterday, but the coaling prevented his body
being committed to the deep yesterday. There
are frequent deaths in the Oslyabya, and most of
them occur when the fleet is under way.
The admiral always had weak nerves, and now
especially so. He sleeps very little, is worried,
and gets beside himself at every trifle. Probably
he will not hold out to the end.
11 p.m.—We are going desperately slowly. So
far we have made a thousand miles. If we go
by one course there will be 2,800 miles left, and by
another 2,500. This means we have to toss on the
sea for fifteen or twenty days, if nothing happens.
At every step there are breakages and damages.
This evening the Sissoi damaged first her rudder
and then her machinery. The tow-ropes of the
torpedo-boats break like threads. The Buistry has
again distinguished herself. She has broken a
gun-platform. Soon there will be nothing to break
in her.
In the wardroom they reckon that we have
4,400 miles to do in thirty-four days. Our provisions
are finished, and we shall have to take to
salt provisions (horrid filth). They make jokes,
selecting which of the officers shall be eaten first.
To-morrow it is proposed to coal. It will be
difficult to do so if the swell is as great as it was
to-day. Again we shall lose a whole day. Coaling
in our present condition is a very important thing,
though troublesome. The whole deck is encumbered
with coal, and even part of the guns.
March 10th.—At nine the torpedo-boat Gromky
reported that her rudder was damaged. The
divers had to work under water, and there were
many sharks. While they were at work men with
loaded rifles stood ready to defend them. They
were clearly visible, as the water is very transparent.
9 p.m.—From a chance word I gathered that in
fifteen days we shall be at some port. I doubt it.
By my reckoning we shall toss at sea much longer.
Slowly, very slowly, we go on. Stoppages are
constant. I am so accustomed to them that I
take very little interest in knowing the reason,
and am too lazy to go on deck and find out.
March 11th.—The Svietlana reports that she sees
a steamer ahead on the same course as ourselves.
It is strange that we are going slowly along an unfrequented
route and yet we can catch up a steamer.
Even freight-steamers do not go as slowly as our
ships.
March 12th.—The Oleg and Donskoi report that
they see some lights far away. They are watching
them. Perhaps they are English cruisers. The
steamer which the Svietlana saw was apparently a
myth. A boiler in the Kamchatka is damaged, but
she does not remain behind. She began to drop,
but when she knew about the suspicious light she
prepared to come on. We are approaching nearer
and nearer to the East.
We shall soon recross the equator. Vladivostok
seems like the promised land. Yes; Vladivostok,
Vladivostok!
But what if my supposition about Sagalien and
Vladivostok are justified? Where will our fleet
go then, and what will it do? The next time we
stop to coal I shall have to pass the whole day on
board the Gromky.
They have stopped breaking the tow-ropes in the
torpedo-boats. At all events, they have not broken
one for some time.
The Sissoi is keeping back the fleet. There is
always something wrong with her. This morning the
Nachimoff joined her. The Oleg reports that the
lights she saw yesterday were not constant. They
looked like sparks flying out of funnels. Perhaps
our fleet is following in the wake of some other
ships. By day they hide themselves beyond the
horizon, so we do not see them; and by night they
approach us, having all lights out. The sparks
betray their presence. At night, when there is
no moon, it is absolutely dark and very difficult
to see.
Our fleet is steaming with lights visible from
afar; therefore it is easy for ships knowing our
course to find the fleet in the ocean and to approach
it without danger. We may expect any moment
to be attacked at night. I cannot without horror
imagine one thing—that is, that they will compel
us to lie an endless number of days in some
Saigon.
Then what will happen? I calm myself with the
thought that they will not allow this, observing
neutrality.
Neutrality is a fine word. It is good and convenient
only for the strong. Strength is now on
Japan's side, and neutrality serves her interests
and is useful to her.
They say that the admiral declared that if he
met a Japanese ship in neutral waters he would
destroy her, remembering the capture of the Reshitelny
(Decisive) by the Japanese. There is neutrality
for you! I did not myself hear Rojdestvensky say
this—but knowing his character, think him quite
capable of it. However, this will not happen. The
Japanese are wily. They will not separate their
ships, as Russia has done. God forbid that Japan
beats our fleet! The might of Russia will perish
with it for ten years. The fleet will not be reconstructed
for long. But if we beat the Japanese
at sea and get command of it, then Japan is ruined.
She will be unable to carry on war, and will not be
able to feed and provide the army.
In Japan itself there will be nothing to eat. It
can scarcely happen so. Even if the mastery of the
sea remains with us, England and America will
defend Japan, and Russia will retire, fearing war
with these two countries. The war is bound to
end to Russia's disadvantage. How much money
she has wasted! How many men have perished!—and
for what?
Shame! Shame! We wallow in shame! How
we jeered at the English during their war with the
Boers, at the Italians during their Abyssinian campaign!
I do not know what is going on in Manchuria,
but judging by the time that passed between the
battles of Liao-Yang and Mukden the next great
fight will take place in August or September,—in the
event of the Japanese not moving beyond Mukden
and acting as they have hitherto done—that is, very
carefully.
By August or September Russia might collect
an army.
Where is now the supply depot of our land forces?
In Harbin? It may be that they will have to leave
it and retire again. Yesterday I heard a quarrel
among the sub-lieutenants about how many stokeholds
there were in the Suvaroff, and how the boilers
were placed. Officers who had been in the ship a
year, and who had, by order of the admiral, kept
watch in the stokehold, were quarrelling over these
things. How sad it was, and yet I could not listen
to them without laughing! The Japanese doubtless
know our ships better than we do ourselves. Do
you remember what I said before the departure of
the fleet? From the very beginning of the voyage
I have seen so many instances confirming my former
opinions. I do not believe in the fleet, however
many ships are in it, and however much they count
on them. It is a small matter to possess warships.
It is necessary to profit by their strength. Possibly
the Japanese fleet might be beaten, but it would only
be by chance.
March 13th.—To-day is Sunday. There will be
mass. I must go to church—the service is just
beginning. I have not been at all well.
I slept a great deal to-day, and was punished for
it. I slept in my bunk, leaving my port open.
There was a fairly heavy sea. The water splashed
in and poured over my feet. I took off my boots
and went to sleep again in wet clothes. I woke
from a second douche. A third time I was splashed
over. I rose, and began to change my socks and
boots. I sat at the writing-table. Another wave
poured in, and literally wetted me from head to
foot.
Everything on the table was drenched. I had
to shut the port. Now it is so stuffy in my cabin
and the air is so steamy that I cannot breathe. I
am writing in the deck cabin. The weather is
getting more and more rough. Perhaps it is for the
best—it will be more difficult for the enemy to
attack us.
By the morning we should be at Diego Garcia
(one of the islands of the Chagos Archipelago),
where the presence of Japanese ships is suspected.
In any case, I must be prepared to go to-morrow
morning to the Gromky, although the weather is
such that it will be difficult to coal. We are going
slowly. It is a good thing that a favourable current
is helping us on. During the last twenty-four hours
it has advanced us about fifty versts. This evening
all searchlights were lit up until the moon rose.
March 14th (morning).—What a night it was!—so
stuffy and hot that when I woke not only were
the sheets and pillows wet, but the mat as well.
We had just done half the voyage between
Madagascar and the East Indian Archipelago. We
may count not only on torpedo-attacks and ground
mines, but also on a fleet action.
Our voyage to Vladivostok will be very dangerous.
We have to pass through straits and narrow
seas. All sorts of meetings and surprises are
possible. They will follow every movement of our
ships, choosing a favourable time to deliver battle
or make a torpedo-boat attack. Some one conceived
the fancy that when the whole fleet coaled
in the open sea, and lay with engines stopped, a
Russian town had sprung up in the middle of the
ocean, with a population of 12,000 people. If I
reach Vladivostok, a distance which can be passed
over in fourteen or fifteen days will separate you
from me. How microscopic it will seem in comparison
with what we have already passed! It
will seem quite close to me.
If there are no delays anywhere, then by the
middle of April the fleet will reach Vladivostok.
But what is the use of guessing and calculating?—a
thousand things may yet happen.
It is unfortunate that in the East Indian archipelago
there are so many straits which are long and
narrow. There are some which cannot be passed
through in a day, and have to be traversed at
night. They might be mined.
On entering or leaving them when the fleet is
spread out, torpedo attacks might be made. We
may expect surprises from torpedo-boats and from
the shores. It is impossible to pass through a strait
unperceived. I have just hit on the idea that we
may possibly go to Saigon. On the way to Saigon
a collison will infallibly take place. It may have
sad consequences for me as well as for the others.
Perhaps I shall not be able to send letters. Let
us suppose we get to Saigon. The Diana is lying
there. She is officially disarmed. What is to prevent
her joining our fleet? Instead of the Diana a
ship like the Almez might be left. That would be
excellent. It would be better if we were joined
by the Cesarevitch, Askold, and torpedo-boats. It
is difficult to count on this.
All the ships are disarmed in neutral ports. It
is a pity we have to pass through the straits in dark,
moonless nights.
March 15th.—I was called at 5 a.m. in order to
go on board the Gromky.
Divers arrived and the work began. The work is
greatly hampered by the swell. The divers are
constantly struck by the rudder. I am astonished
at the dog's life they lead on board the torpedo-boats.
Whilst steaming, the vibration is so great
that it is impossible to write. They roll so much
that nothing remains on the tables without fiddles
(frames which support tumblers, plates, etc.). The
accommodation is cramped, and it is dirty and
sooty.
In addition to all this the fare is disgusting.
I remained in the Gromky until eleven o'clock. It
was time to eat, but they did not think of laying a
table. They brought the crew their stchee,[14] and
my appetite left me. There were only four sausages
for the officers. Some officers from the Kamchatka,
which was lying close by, were in the Gromky. They
requested by semaphore that preserves, lemonade,
etc., might be sent from her. I was so hungry that
I did not hesitate to insist on their bringing sardines,
ham, bacon, etc. When they arrived we all threw
ourselves on these delicacies with avidity. They
purposely brought more than sufficient, in order to
leave the surplus for the officers of the torpedo-boat.
The latter astonished me. They look upon a
lack of food as inevitable. The Irtish should supply
them with provisions, but she fulfilled the duty
badly.
The captain asked that his torpedo-boat should
be attached to another transport. I supported the
captain's request to the utmost of my ability, and
depicted in vivid colours their famished condition.
Life on board a torpedo-boat is sufficiently penal,
but in this one they starve as well. For the future
the Gromky will be attached to the Kieff.
While I was in the Gromky a heavy squall went
by on the beam. It was lucky it did not catch the
torpedo-boat.
Several times sharks gathered near the divers,
but they saw them in time and drove them away
with rifle-shots. You suddenly see a large, grey,
shapeless thing appearing. It is an ugly and
repulsive-looking shark.
In the Gromky I saw friend Grishka, "the
Iconoclast." This monkey has grown a great deal,
and is very amusing. I think I told you about
Grishka. He is the monkey who was the cause of
a scandal in the Suvaroff, and was given to another
ship. He received the nickname of the "Iconoclast,"
because he once stole an ikon out of the
cabin and threw it overboard.
March 16th (evening).—Early this morning I again
went to the Gromky. I got there with difficulty.
The swell tossed the torpedo-boat all day. Heavy
rain-squalls constantly flew by. The boat rolled
more than 25°. Everything fell about. To sit you
had to press hands and feet against something.
How many times I was literally wet to the skin
to-day, and got dry again, it is difficult to say.
Under these conditions the divers had to work.
The waves now tore them from the boat, now beat
them against her, now retreating, showing the
diver's heads, now hiding them somewhere in the
abyss. They were rocked about under the water,
and were seasick with all its consequences when in
diving clothes. They had to be drawn up, as they
were so faint. The work was desperately difficult.
I was astonished that they went into the water
again without refusing.
Picture to yourself the scene. All this was being
done in a torpedo-boat in the midst of the ocean.
The boat had been carried away from the fleet by
the swell; we could even no longer see it. The
diving-boat lay alongside the torpedo-boat. In
addition to this they were coaling at the same time.
It was a regular hell. The work went on very
slowly.
In order to review the results of my work I sat
on an outrigger (I have already told you what this
is) like a bird on a twig. When rolling, the water
now covered my head, now lifted me high. It was
horrible, abominable, foul. It was a good thing
there were no sharks.
At last, amid the chaos of waves and foam, I had
to go to the Suvaroff in a whaler. I seized hold of
a chain, pressed my feet against the side, and
climbed on deck. I was wet, dirty, and could
scarcely stand from fatigue. And what welcome
awaited me? A reprimand from the admiral, with
a cry of "Shameful! you serve on the staff, and
cover yourself with filth. You return at five o'clock,
instead of three." This is my reward! Never,
never shall I forget it! True, it is my first reprimand
during the seven months. What could I do?
They did not send a torpedo-boat for me, as they
always had done.
Nor was the Gromky at fault. She brought
me as soon as ever she could. When the work
was done she had to take the divers to the
Svietlana, Kamchatka, and Jemchug. I was only
guilty in that I was not guilty at all. Having
reached my cabin, I changed my clothes, and instantly
fell into a dead sleep.
There was nothing to eat in the Gromky, and she
could not receive anything from the transport.
They sent a present of a basket of provisions and a
live pig from the Svietlana. How pleased the
officers were!
March 17th (morning).—Since last evening we
have been going along the equator.
We are a little to the north. How strange it
seems at first! Yesterday we were in the southern
half of the globe, where it was autumn; to-day we
are in the northern half, where it is spring. We
have missed a whole winter. There is news that
the Varyag has been raised by the Japanese.
Possibly they have already been able to repair
her, and we may meet her among the hostile ships.
A pleasant encounter! Our ships will fight against
us. What a disgrace!
The Donskoi reports that she sees occasional lights
out of funnels on the horizon. That they are
following us is beyond doubt. We shall go by
the straits of Malacca, the length of which is about
1,000 versts. There will be surprises on going
through it, and on leaving it we may count on
meeting the whole of Togo's fleet. Probably among
the Japanese ships will be those the Russians were
unable to sink properly at Port Arthur. I have
no confidence in success.
If I were in the place of the Japanese I should
let the whole fleet pass without hindrance to Vladivostok,
not risking my own ships in battle. It
would be so easy to make a second Port Arthur out
of it. A siege can be more easily undertaken there
(if they have not already done so). The fortress is
worse; there are less stores, workshops, and docks.
Every advantage is on Japan's side. Her success
is almost sure.
March 18th (morning).—The weather is worse.
The barometer is falling. The wind gets stronger
and stronger; it has attained the force of a gale.
The Suvaroff inclined three degrees to the wind, and
has remained in that position. My heart beats
when I think of the torpedo-boats. They are being
towed. I am very anxious about them. It will
be dark soon. How are they faring now? They
are not visible from the Suvaroff. The wind has
gone down, but the sea is still big. The Bodry, one
of the torpedo-boats, has her mast broken. The
Gromky broke her tow-rope, and is going independently.
During the last coaling a steam-cutter from the
Sissoi was sunk. All the crew were saved. The
boat incautiously approached the side of a battleship,
which rolled and sank her. In the Terek
yesterday a sailor fell into the hold, and died to-day.
March 19th (morning).—Probably the whole
world thought the fleet would go from Nosi Be to
the East, round Australia or the straits of Sunda.
It is proposed to go, as I have said, by the straits
of Malacca. Every one will be astonished at our
effrontery.
In a day or so we shall enter on a route where
there are many merchant steamers. This means
that in a short time all the world will know the
whereabouts of our fleet and the route chosen.
At a favourable spot the Japanese may meet us.
The impending battle will be one of the most
momentous of the war.
Important events will soon now begin to take
place. A new phase of the war which has been so
unsuccessful and unfortunate for us is beginning.
We are not going to Saigon, but to Kamranh.
It is a small bay, lying about 350 versts north of
Saigon. On shore there is a fort and a small settlement.
There is no telegraph, but apparently there
is a post-office. The fleet will pass in view of
Singapore.
Many officers have begun to hide their things
behind the armour, in order to be able to dress themselves
after the battle. I do not know whether to
hide anything. We have begun to feel the proximity
of the enemy. I have not yet selected the
place where I shall be during the fight. Of course,
during torpedo attacks one should be on deck, so
that, should the ship be blown up and begin to sink,
one would not have to come up from below. A
ship in this event may go down almost instantaneously,
like the Petropavlosk and the Hatsuse.
March 20th (morning).—Coaling has not taken
place to-day. Many officers confidently rely on the
fleet. They look on the four new battleships,
Suvaroff, Borodino, Alexander, and Orel, as invincible.
The Japanese will put forth all their power to
destroy the Suvaroff, in which is the admiral commanding
the whole fleet. The torpedo attacks and
the fire of all guns will be concentrated on the
Suvaroff. She will be exposed to the greatest
danger. It will be less dangerous in the other
ships, especially in the Borodino and Orel.
The Japanese will try to kill the admiral. And
what will happen then? Our ships can scarcely
fly to various neutral ports and be disarmed, as
has been done before.
We have been eighteen days at sea, and our port
is still far away; but with each turn of the screw
we are nearer and nearer our goal. It is five and
a half months to-day since the fleet left Libau.
Scarcely any one would have supposed that nearly
six months would be necessary to get as far as the
straits of Malacca.
The Donskoi, Oleg, Orel, and Terek report that
they have seen lights. Hitherto the appearance of
every light interested us; but now that we are
near the theatre of war we regard them with
complete equanimity. Is it not all the same?
Would that it were sooner ended! There are people
who are satisfied with the existing state of affairs.
I am surprised at them. Just now there are
officers sitting at table drunk—they are singing.
Nothing like it is possible in the Japanese ships.
There, they are preparing for another feast and for
other songs. When shall we get our letters?
Hardly before we reach Kamranh Bay.
March 21st.—There still remains 3,000 versts to
Kamranh Bay. They say that Japanese cruisers
are waiting for us there. It will be ten or twelve
days' journey if nothing happens. From there to
Vladivostok I think we shall go at greater speed
than now, to get over 5,000 versts. They are coaling
to-day.
I went to the Bezuprechny and Gromky and
distributed confidential packets to the ships.
Of course, I did not go to the general lunch. I
lunched instead with the officer of the watch. A
curious thing happened in the Bezuprechny. They
drew a small shark out of the Kingstons. It was
drawn in by the current. The ships are now forming
in battle order. Probably lunch will be late. To-morrow
is the new moon. It will give little light
at night. It is a pity that we shall have to pass
through the straits of Malacca on a dark night,
when we may expect the Japanese to destroy our
ships in the narrows.
March 22nd.—Although I did not feel tired yesterday,
I lay down and slept till the waves splashed
in through the port and woke me.
Three sailors were scalded by steam in the
Oslyabya; it is not yet known if they are seriously
hurt. I have discovered the reason of my sleepiness
yesterday. I began to smoke new French cigarettes.
They had opium in them. It is a pity I
have only a hundred cigarettes left. They are
very dear now. I must smoke others, and keep
those with opium in reserve.
The torpedo-boat Buiny has damaged her forward
torpedo-tube by striking the Vladimir. Now it
will not work.
The fleet will pass through the straits of Malacca
in four columns. All the transports will be in the
middle, the battleships on the extreme right, and
the cruisers on the extreme left.
It is curious. You would expect us to be alarmed.
We are almost on the eve of meeting with the enemy's
fleet, with his mines, submarine boats, and torpedo-boats,
and yet I am quite calm, even happy. The
prospect of being at Vladivostok in a month's time is so
exhilarating. I daily look at the chart with feverish
interest, where the course already run is shown,
and I count the remaining miles to Vladivostok.
Are they despairing in Russia and not counting
on Vladivostok being able to hold out? If on our
arrival at Kamranh we learn that it has fallen, we
should then have no base. What could we do then?
We should have to occupy one of the Japanese
islands and make it our base—but that would be
bad for the supply of warlike provisions, ammunition,
correspondence, and telegrams. They would
not allow a base to be made at a neutral port. There
is a report that the Japanese have made themselves
at home in the islands of the Natuna Archipelago,
which nominally belong to Holland. These islands
lie on our course higher up, north of the strait of
Singapore, which is a continuation of Malacca.
How quickly rats swim! Two were thrown overboard
to-day. They chased the ship and climbed up,
although the speed was nearly seven knots.
Up to the present the newspapers have not known
where the fleet is to be found. To-morrow we shall
pass by the lighthouse of Pulo Way. From there
the ends of the earth will be informed by telegrams.
Strange lights have appeared. Our fleet has been
ordered to put out superfluous lights. Ports are
covered with dead lights. We may expect an attack
to-night. At last our wartime has begun.
How many restless nights are before us? How
will it all end?