"On entre, on crie,
C'est la vie.
On crie, on sort,
C'est la mort."
ON the paths of self-interest the grass is
seldom allowed to grow under the
feet. Colonel Tempest hurried. It would
be tedious to follow the various steps
feverishly taken which led to his finally
unearthing the home address of Mr. Swayne.
He procured it at last, not without expense,
from an impoverished client of that gentleman
who had lately been in correspondence with
him. Mr. Swayne had always shown a
decided reticence with regard to the locality
of his domestic roof. Colonel Tempest was
of course in possession of several addresses
where letters would find him, but his experience
of such addresses had been that, unless
strictly connected with pecuniary advantage
to Mr. Swayne, the letters did not seem to
reach their destination. But now, even when
Colonel Tempest wrote to say he would pay
up, no answer came. Swayne did not rise
even to that bait. Colonel Tempest, who
was aware that Mr. Swayne's faith in human
nature had in the course of his career sustained
several severe shocks, came to the conclusion
that Mr. Swayne did not attach importance
to his statement—that indeed he regarded it
only as a "blind" in order to obtain another
interview.
It was on a burning day in June that
Colonel Tempest set forth to search out his
tempter at Rosemont Villa, Iron Ferry, in
the manufacturing town of Bilgewater. The
dirty smudged address was in his pocket-book,
as was also the notice of his banker
that ten thousand pounds had been placed to
his credit a few days before.
The London train took him to Worcester,
and from thence the local line, after meandering
through a desert of grime and chimneys,
and after innumerable stoppages at one
hideous nigger station after another, finally
deposited him on the platform of Bilgewater
Junction. Colonel Tempest got out and
looked about him. It was not a rural scene.
Heaps of refuse and slag lay upon the
blistered land thick as the good resolutions
that pave a certain road. Low cottages
crowded each other in knots near the high
smoking factories. Black wheels turned
slowly against the grey of the sky, which
whitened upwards towards the ghost of the
midsummer sun high in heaven. We are
told that the sun shines equally on the just
and on the unjust; but that was said before
the first factory was built. At Bilgewater it
is no longer so.
Colonel Tempest inquired his way to Iron
Ferry, and, vaguely surprised at Mr.
Swayne's choice of locality for his country
residence, set out along the baked wrinkles
of the black high-road, winding between
wastes of cottages, some inhabited and showing
dreary signs of life, some empty and
decrepit, some fallen down dead. The heat
was intense. The steam and the smoke
rose together into the air like some evil
sacrifice. The pulses of the factories
throbbed feverishly as he passed. The
steam curled upwards from the surface of the
livid pools and canals at their base. The
very water seemed to sweat.
Colonel Tempest reached Iron Ferry,
being guided thither by the spire of the little
tin church, which pointed unheeded towards
the low steel sky, shut down over the
battered convulsed country like a coffin lid
over one who has died in torment.
At Iron Ferry, which had a bridge and a
wharf and a canal, and was everything
except a ferry, he inquired again concerning
Rosemont Villa, and was presently picking
his way across a little patch of common
towards a string of what had once been red
brick houses, but which had long since
embraced the universal colour of their
surroundings. They were rather better
looking houses if a sort of shabby gentility
can be called anything except the worst.
They were semi-detached. From out of
one of them the strains were issuing faintly
and continuously of the inevitable accordion,
which for some occult reason is always
found to consort with poverty and oyster-shells.
At the open door of another a girl was
standing tearing pieces with her teeth out of
a chunk of something she held in her hand.
She was surrounded by a meagre family of
poultry who fought and pecked and trod
each other down with almost human eagerness
for the occasional morsels she threw to
them. Something in her appearance and in
the way she seemed to enjoy the greed and
mutual revilings of her little dependents
reminded Colonel Tempest—he hardly knew
why—of Mr. Swayne.
Another glance made the supposition a
certainty. There were the small boot-buttons
of eyes, the heavy mottled expressionless
face, which Colonel Tempest had
until now considered to be the exclusive
property of Mr. Swayne. This slouching,
tawdry down-at-heel arrow was no doubt one
of that gentleman's quiverful.
Mr. Swayne had always worn such very
unmarried waistcoats and button holes that it
was a shock to Colonel Tempest to regard
him as a domestic character.
"Is Mr. Swayne at home?" he asked,
amid the cackling and flouncing of the
poultry.
The "arrow," her cheek "bulged with the
unchewed piece," looked at him doubtfully
for a moment, and then called over her
shoulder—
"Mother!"
The voice as of a female who had never
been held in subjection answered shrilly from
within—"Well?"
"Here's a gent as wants to see father."
There was a sound of some heavy vessel
being set down, and a woman, large and
swarthy, came to the door. She might have
been good-looking once. She might perhaps
have been "a fine figure of a woman" in the
days when Swayne wooed and won her, and
no doubt her savings, for his own. But
possibly the society of Mr. Swayne may not
in the long run have exerted an ennobling or
even a soothing influence upon her. Her
complexion was a fiery red, and her whole
appearance bespoke a temperament to which
the artificial stimulus of alcohol, though evidently
unnecessary, was evidently not denied.
"Swayne's sick," she said, eyeing Colonel
Tempest with distrust. "He can't see no
one, and if he could, there's not a shilling in
the house if you was to scrape the walls with
a knife—so that's all about it. It's no
manner of use coming pestering here for
money."
"I don't want money," said Colonel Tempest.
"I want to pay, not to be paid."
The woman shook her head incredulously,
and put out her under lip, uttering the mystic
word, "Walker!" It did not seem to bear
upon the subject, but somebody, probably
the accordion next door, laughed.
"I must see him!" said Colonel Tempest,
vehemently. "I've had dealings with him
which I want to settle and have done with.
It's my own interest to pay up. He would
see me directly if he knew I was here."
The woman hesitated.
"Swayne is uncommon sick," she said,
slowly. "If it's business I doubt he could
scarce fettle at it now."
"Do you mean he is not sober?"
"He's sober enough, poor fellow," said
Mrs. Swayne, with momentary sympathy;
"but he's mortal bad. He hasn't done
nobbut but dithered with a bit of toast since
Tuesday, and taking it out of hisself all the
time with flouncing and swearing like a brute
beast."
"Is he—do you mean to say he is
dying?" demanded Colonel Tempest in
sudden panic.
"Doctor says he won't hang on above a
day or two," said the girl nonchalantly.
"Doctor says his works is clean wore out."
"Let me go to him at once," said Colonel
Tempest. "It is of great importance; I
must see him at once."
The women stared at each other undecidedly,
and the girl nudged her mother.
"Lor, mother, what does it signify? If
the gentleman 'ull make it worth while,
show him up."
Colonel Tempest hastily produced a sovereign,
and in a few minutes was stumbling
up the rickety stairs behind Mrs. Swayne.
She pushed open a half-closed door, and
noisily pulled back a bit of curtain which
shaded the light—what poor dim light there
was—from the bed, knocking over as she
did so a tallow candle in the window-sill
bent double by the heat.
Colonel Tempest had followed her into
the room and into an atmosphere resembling
that of the monkey-house at the Zoo, stiffened
with brandy.
"Oh, good gracious!" he ejaculated, as
Mrs. Swayne drew back the curtain. "Oh
dear, Mrs. Swayne! I ought to have been
prepared. I had no idea—— What's the
matter with him? What is he writing on
the wall?"
For Mr. Swayne was changed. He was
within a measurable distance of being unrecognizable.
That evidently would be the
next alteration not for the better in him.
Already he was slow to recognize others.
He was sitting up in bed, swearing and
scratching tearfully at the wall-paper. He
looked stouter than ever, but as if he might
collapse altogether at a pin prick, and shrivel
down to a wrinkled nothing among the
creases of his tumbled bedding.
Mrs. Swayne regarded her prostrate lord
with arms akimbo. Possibly she considered
that her part of the agreement, to love and
to cherish Mr. Swayne, and honour and
obey Mr. Swayne, was now at an end, as
death was so plainly about to part them.
At any rate, she appeared indisposed to add
any finishing touches to her part of the contract.
Mr. Swayne had, in all probability,
put in his finishing touches with such vigour,
that possibly a remembrance of them accounted
for a certain absence of solicitude
on the part of his helpmeet.
"Who's this? Who's this? Who's this?"
said Mr. Swayne in a rapid whisper, perceiving
his visitor, and peering out of the
gloom with a bloodshot furtive eye. "Dear,
dear, dear! ... Mary ... I'm busy ...
I'm pressed for time. Take him away.
Quite away; quite away."
Mr. Swayne had been a man of few and
evil words when in health. His recording
angel would now need a knowledge of shorthand.
This sudden flow of language fairly
staggered Colonel Tempest.
"I must have out those bonds," he went
on, forgetting his visitor again instantly. "I
can't lay my hand on 'em, but I've got 'em
somewhere. Top left-hand drawer of the
walnut escritoire. I know I have 'em. I'll
make him bleed. Top left-hand. No, no,
no. Where was it, then? Lock's stiff;——
the lock. Break it. I say I will have 'em."
As he spoke he tore from under the pillow
a little footstool, having the remnant of a
frayed dog, in blue beads, worked upon it,
a conjugal attention no doubt on the part of
Mrs. Swayne, to raise the sick man's head.
And Mr. Swayne, after endeavouring to
unlock the dog's tail, smote savagely upon
it, and sank back with chattering teeth.
"That's the way he goes on," said Mrs.
Swayne. "Mornin', noon, and night. Never
a bit of peace, except when he gets into his
prayin' fits. I expect he'll go off in one of
them tantrums."
It did not appear unlikely that he would
"go off" then and there, but after a few
moments a sort of ghastly life seemed to
return. Even death did not appear to take
to him. He opened his eyes, and looked
round bewildered. Then his head fell
forward.
"Now's yer time," said the woman.
"Before he gets up steam for another of
them rages. Parson comes and twitters a
bit when he's in this way; and he'll pray
very heavy while he recollects hisself, until
he goes off again. He'll be better now for
a spell," and she left the room, and creaked
ponderously downstairs again. Colonel
Tempest advanced a step nearer the lair on
which poor Swayne was taking his last rest
but one, and said faintly:
"Swayne. I say, Swayne. Rouse up."
The only things that roused up were
Swayne's eyelids. These certainly trembled
a little.
In the next house the accordion was beginning
a new tune, was designating Jerusalem
as its ha-appy home.
Apprehensive terror for himself as usual
overcame other feelings. It overcame in
this instance the unspeakable repugnance
Colonel Tempest felt to approaching any
nearer. He touched the prostrate man on
the shoulder with the slender white hand
which had served him so exclusively from
boyhood upwards, which had never wavered
in its fidelity to him to do a hand's turn
for others, which shrinkingly did his bidding
now.
"Wake up, Swayne," repeated Colonel
Tempest, actually stooping over him.
"Wake up, for——," he was going to add
"heaven's sake;" but the thought of heaven
in connection with Swayne seemed inappropriate;
and he altered it to "for mercy's
sake," which sounded just as well.
"Is it the parson?" asked Swayne feebly,
in a more natural voice.
"No, no," said Colonel Tempest reassuringly.
"It's only me, a friend. It's Colonel
Tempest."
"I wish it was the parson," repeated
Swayne, seeming to emerge somewhat from
his torpor. "He might have come and let
off a few more prayers for me. He says it's
all right if I repent, and I suppose he knows;
but it don't seem likely. Don't seem as if
God could be greened quite as easy as parson
makes out. I should have liked to throw
off a few more prayers so as to be on the
safe side," and he began to mutter incoherently.
As a man lives so, it is said, he generally
dies. Swayne seemed to remain true to his
own interests, only his aspect of those
interests had altered. He felt the awkwardness
of going into court absolutely unprepared.
Prayer was cheap if it could do what he
wanted, and he had had professional advice
as to its efficacy. A man who all his life
can grovel before his fellow-creatures, may
as well do a little grovelling before his
Creator at the last, if anything is to be got
by it.
It is to the credit of human nature that,
as a rule, men even of the lowest type feel
the uselessness, the degradation, of trying
to annul their past on their deathbeds. But
to Swayne, who had never shone as a credit
to human nature, a chance remained a chance.
He was a gambler and a swindler, a man
who had risked long odds, and had been
made rich and poor by the drugging of a
horse, or the forcing of a card. If, in his
strict attention to never losing a chance, he
had inadvertently mislaid his soul, he was
not likely to be aware of it. But a chance
was a thing he had never so far failed to
take advantage of. He was taking his last
now.
Colonel Tempest looked at him in horror.
The interests of the two men clashed, and
at a vital moment.
"For God's sake don't pray now, Swayne,"
said Colonel Tempest, appealingly, as Swayne
began to mutter something more. "I've
come to set wrong right, and that will be a
great deal better than any prayers; do you
more good in the end."
Swayne did not seem to understand. He
looked in a perplexed manner at Colonel
Tempest.
"I don't appear to fetch it out right," he
said. "But it's in the Prayer-book on the
mantelpiece. That's what our parson reads
out of. You get it, colonel; just get it quick,
and pray 'em off one after another. It don't
matter much which. They're all good."
"Swayne," said Colonel Tempest, in utter
desperation, "I'll do anything; I'll—pray
as much as you like afterwards, if you will
only give me up those papers you have
against me—those bets."
"What?" said Swayne, a gleam of the old
professional interest flickering into his face.
"You han't got the money?"
"Yes. Here, here!" and Colonel Tempest
tore the banker's note out of his pocket-book,
and held it before Swayne's eyes.
"I was to have had twenty-five per cent.
commission," said Swayne, rallying perceptibly
at the thought. "Twenty-five per
cent. on each. I wouldn't let 'em go at less.
Two thousand five hundred I should have
made. But"—with a sudden restless relapse—"it's
no use thinking of that now. Get
down the book, colonel."
But for once Colonel Tempest was firm.
Perhaps his indignation against Swayne's
egotism enabled him to be so. He made
Swayne understand that business must in
this instance come first, and prayers afterwards.
It was a compact; not the first
between the two.
"The papers," he repeated over and over
again, frantic at the speed with which the
last links of Swayne's memory seemed falling
from him. "Where are they? You have
them with you, of course? Tell me where
they are?" and he grasped the dying man
by the shoulder.
Swayne was frightened back to some
semblance of effort.
"I haven't got 'em," he gasped. "The—the—the
chaps engaged in the business have
'em."
"But you know who have got them?"
"Yes, of course. It's all written down
somewhere."
"Where?"
But Swayne "did not rightly know." He
had the addresses in cipher somewhere, but
he could not put his hand upon them. Half
wild with fear, Colonel Tempest searched the
pockets of the clothes that lay about the
room, holding up their contents for Swayne
to look at. It was like some hideous game
of hide-and-seek. But the latter only shook
his head.
"I have 'em somewhere," he repeated,
"and there was a change not so long ago.
When was it? May. There's one of 'em
written down in cipher in my pocket-book
in May, I know that."
"Here. This one?" said Colonel Tempest,
holding out a greasy pocket-book.
"That's it," said Swayne. "Some time
in May."
Colonel Tempest turned to the month,
and actually found a page with a faint pencil
scrawl in cipher across it.
"That's him," said Swayne. "James
Larkin," and he read out a complicated
address without difficulty.
"Will that find him?" asked Colonel
Tempest, his hand shaking so much that he
could hardly write down Swayne's words.
"If it's to his advantage it will."
"For certain?"
"Certain."
"And the others?"
"There's one dead," said Swayne, his voice
waxing feebler and feebler as the momentary
galvanism of Colonel Tempest's terror lost
its effect. "And there's two I had back
the papers from; they were sick of it, and
they said he had a charmed life. And one
of 'em went to America, and married, and
set up respectable. I have his paper too.
And one of 'em's in quod, but he'll be out
soon, I reckon, and he's good for another
try. He precious near brought it off last
time. There's a few left that's still biding
their time! There! And now I won't hear
nothin' more about it. Get to the prayers,
Colonel, and be quick. Parson might have
come again, damn him."
"Stop a minute. Can I get at the others
through Larkin?"
Swayne had sunk back spent and livid.
He looked at Colonel Tempest with fixed
and glassy eyes.
"Yes," he said, with the ghost of an oath;
"get to the prayers."
Colonel Tempest was still trembling with
the relief from that horrible nightmare of
suspense as he opened the shiny new Prayer-book
which the clergyman had left. He
held the first link. He had now only to
draw the whole chain through his hand, and
break it to atoms; the chain that was dragging
him down to hell. He hastily began
to read.
God has heard many prayers, but, perhaps,
not many like those which ascended from
that hideous tumbled death-bed, where kneeling
self-interest halted through the supplication,
and prostrate self-interest gasped out
Amen.
Oh! did He who first taught us how to
pray, did He, raised high upon the cross of
an apparent failure, look down the ages that
were yet to come, and see how we should
abuse that gift of prayer? Was that bitter
cry which has echoed through eighteen
hundred years wrung from Him even for
our sakes also as well as those who stood
around Him—"Father, forgive them, for
they know not what they do"?
Colonel Tempest was still on his knees
when the door was softly opened, and a
young, a very young, clergyman came in and
knelt down beside him, clasping his thin
hands over the collapsed felt soufflée which
did duty for a hat. After stumbling to the
end of the prayer he was reading, Colonel
Tempest put the book into his hand and
escaped.
He stole down the stairs and past the
little sitting-room unobserved. He was out
again in the open air, the live free air,
which seemed freshness itself after the atmosphere
of that sick-room. He held the clue.
He had it, he held it, he was safe. God
was on his side now, and was helping him to
make restitution. At one despairing moment
when he had been tearing even the linings
out of the pockets of Swayne's check trousers
he had feared that Providence had deserted
him. Now that he had the pocket-book he
regretted his want of faith. I do not think
his mind reverted once to Swayne, for Swayne
was no longer of any interest to him now
that he was out of Swayne's power. Colonel
Tempest did not exactly forget people, but
his mind was so constituted that everything
with which it came in contact was wiped out
the moment it had ceased to affect or group
itself round himself. His imagination did
not follow his colleague's last faltering steps
upon that steep brink where each must one
day stand. His mind turned instinctively
to the most frivolous subjects, was back in
London wondering what he would have had
for dinner if he had dined with Archie as he
had intended; was anxious to know how
many cigarettes of that new brand he had
put into his case before he left London that
morning. Colonel Tempest stopped, and
got out his cigarette-case and counted them.
Those who had known Colonel Tempest
best, those few who had misunderstood and
loved him, had often pondered with grave
anxiety, or with the wistful perplexity of
wounded affection, as to what it was in him
that being so impressionable was yet incapable
of any real impression. His wife may or
may not have mastered that expensive secret.
At any rate, she had had opportunities of
studying it. When first, a few weeks after
her marriage, she had fallen ill, she, poor
fool, had suffered agonies from the fear that
because he hardly came into her sick-room
after the first day, he had ceased to care for
her. But when after a few days more she
was feeling better and was pretty and interesting
again in a pink wrapper on the
sofa, she had found that he was as devoted
to her as ever, and had confided her foolish
dread to him with happy tears. Possibly
she discovered at last that the secret lay not
so much in the selfishness and self-indulgence
of a character moth-eaten by idleness, as
in the instant and invariable recoil of the
mind from any subject that threatened to
prove disagreeable, the determination to avoid
everything irksome, wearisome, or reproachful.
For a moment, while it was quite new,
a sentiment might be indulged in. But as
soon as a certain novelty and pleasure in
emotion ceased the feeling itself was
shirked, at whatever expense to others.
Those who shirk are ill to live with, and lay
up for themselves an increasing loneliness as
life goes on.
Colonel Tempest found it unpleasant to
think about Swayne, so he thought of something
else. He could always do that unless
he himself was concerned. Then, indeed, as
we have seen, it was a different thing. He
was annoyed when, after slowly picking his
way back to the station, he found the last
passenger train had just gone; that even if
he drove fifteen miles in to Worcester he
should be too late to catch the last express to
London; in fact, that there was nothing for
it but a bed at the station inn. He found,
however, that by making a very early start
from Bilgewater the following morning he
could reach London by noon, and so resigned
himself to his lot with composure. He had
hardly expected he should be able to go and
return in one day.
It was indeed early when he walked across
to the station next morning, so early that
there was a suspicion of freshness in the air,
of colour in the eastern sky.
On a heap of slag a motionless figure was
sitting, black against the sky line, looking
towards the east. It was the curate, who
when he perceived Colonel Tempest, came
crunching and flapping in his long coat tails
down to the road below, raised his hat from
a meagre clerical brow, and held out his
hand. His face was thin and poor, suggestive
of a starved mind and cold mutton and
Pearson on the Creed, but the smile redeemed
it.
"It is all over," he said; "half an hour
ago. Quite quietly at the last. I stayed
with him through the night. I never left
him. We prayed together without ceasing."
Colonel Tempest did not know what to say.
"It was too late to go to bed," continued
the young man impulsively, his face working.
"So I came here. I often come and sit on
that ash heap to see the sun rise. I'm so
glad just to have seen you again. I longed
to thank you for those prayers by poor Mr.
Crosbie's bed. You know the Scripture:
'Where two or three are gathered together.'
I felt it was so true. I have lost heart so of
late. No one seems to care or think about
these things down here. But your coming
and praying like that has been such a help,
such a reproach to me for my want of faith
when I think that the seed falls on the rock.
I shall take courage again now. Ah! You
are going by this train? Good-bye, God
bless you! Thank you again."

CHAPTER XIII.
"Every man's progress is through a succession of
teachers."—Emerson.
AS John slowly climbed the hill of convalescence
many visitors came to
relieve his solitude, and one of those who
came the oftenest was Lord Frederick Fane.
Lord Frederick was a square-shouldered,
well-preserved, well set up, carefully-padded
man of close on sixty, with a thin-lipped,
bloodless face, and faded eyes, divided by a
high nose.
"Do you like that man?" said Lord
Hemsworth to John one day when he was
sitting with him, and Lord Frederick sent
up to know whether the latter would see
him.
"No," said John.
"But you seem to see a good deal of him."
"He is civil to me, and I am not rude to
him. He is a relation, you know."
"I can't stand him," said Lord Hemsworth.
"If he is coming up I shall bolt;" and Lord
Frederick entering at that moment, Lord
Hemsworth took his departure.
"You're better, John," said Lord Frederick,
looking at him through his half-closed eyes,
and settling himself gently in a high chair,
his hat and one glove and crutch-handled
stick held before him in his broad lean hand.
"I feel more human," said John, "now
that I'm shaved and dressed. When I saw
myself in the glass yesterday for the first
time, I thought I was Darwin's missing
link."
"You look more human," said Lord
Frederick, crossing one leg over the other,
and then contemplating his white spats for
a change. "Able to attend to business
again yet?"
"Not yet. I have tried, but I am as
weak as a worm that can't turn."
"Pity," said Lord Frederick, glancing at
a sheaf of letters and some opened telegrams
on the table at John's elbow. "Things
always happen at inconvenient times," he
went on. "Old Charlesworth might have
chosen a more opportune moment to die and
leave Marchamley vacant again."
"He is not dead yet."
"I suppose both sides have been at you
already to stand for it yourself," hazarded
Lord Frederick.
"Yes."
"I thought so."
Silence.
"Are you going to stand?"
"What is your opinion on the subject? I
see you have one."
"Well," said Lord Frederick, "I look at
it this way. I have often said 'Don't tie
yourself.' I am all for young men keeping
their hands free, and seeing the ins and outs
of life, before they settle down. But you
are not so very young, and a time comes
when a sort of annoyance attaches to freedom
itself. It's a bore. Now as to this seat.
Indecision is all very well for a time; it
enhances a man's value. You were quite
right not to stand three years ago; it has
made you of more importance. But that
won't do much longer. You are bound to
come to a decision for your own advantage.
Neutral ground is sometimes between two
fires. I should say 'stand,' if you ask me.
Throw in your lot with the side on which
you are most likely to come to the front, and
stand."
"And private opinions? How about them
if they don't happen to fit? Throw them
overboard?"
"Yes," said Lord Frederick. "It has
got to be done sooner or later. Why not
sooner? A free-lance is no manner of use.
There's a hitch somewhere in you, John,
that if you don't look out will damn your
career as a public man. I don't know what
your politics are. My own opinion, between
ourselves, is that you have not got any, but
you are bound to have some, and you may
as well join forces with what will bring
you forward most, and start young. That's
my advice."
"Thanks."
"There is not a man in the world with an
ounce of brains who has not high-flown ideas
at your age," continued Lord Frederick.
"I have had them. Everybody has them.
You buy them with your first razors. People
generally sicken with them just when they
could make a push for themselves, and while
they are getting better, youth and opportunity
pass and don't come back. I've seen it over
and over again. Every young fool with a
ginger moustache, when he first starts in
public life, is going to be a patriot, and do
his d—d thinking for himself. He might as
well make his own clothes, and expect society
to receive him in them. By the time he is
bald he has learnt better, and he's a party
man, but he has lost time in the meanwhile.
You may depend upon it, a strong party man
is what is wanted. The country doesn't
want individuals with brains; they are mostly
kicked out in the end. If you don't want to
go with the crowd, don't go against it, but
throw yourself into it heart and soul, and
get in front of it on its own road. It's no
good coming to the fore unless you have a
following."
"Thanks," said John again. His face
was as expressionless as a mask. He
looked, as he lay back in his low couch, a
strange mixture of feebleness and power. It
was as if a strong man armed kept watch
within a house tottering to its fall.
He put out his muscular, powerless hand,
and took up one of the telegrams.
"Charlesworth is not dead yet," he said.
Lord Frederick could take a hint.
"His death will put the Moretons in
mourning again," he remarked. "Mrs.
Moreton's ball is doomed. I am sorry for
that woman. She is cumbered with much
time-serving, and her ball fell through last
year; this is the second time it has happened.
I have been asking her young men for her.
I put down your cousin in the Guards, the
Apollo with the tow wig. What's-his-name,
Tempest?"
"Archibald."
"Yes. That would be a dangerous man,
if he were not such a fool, but the same
placard that says he is to let says he is
unfurnished, and it's poor work taking an
empty house, when it comes to living in it.
Women know that. He has let the soda
water heiress slip through his fingers. She
is going to marry young Topham. I
thought Apollo seemed rather down on his
luck when it was first given out, but he has
consoled himself since. Apparently he has
a mission to married women. He is always
with Lady Verelst now; I saw him riding
with her again this morning. I don't know
who mounts him, but he was on the best
horse I've seen this season. You are not
such a f——, such a philanthropist as to lend
him horses, are you?"
"When I can't use them myself I have
that amount of generosity."
"H'm! Well, he makes good use of his
opportunities to cheer up Lady Verelst. I
wish you would flirt more with married
women, John. You would find your account
in it. I did at your age. You see you are
too eligible to go on much with girls, and
that's the truth. You would be watched.
But you don't pay enough attention to
women, and three-quarters of the world is
made up of them. You are too much of a
Puritan, but you may remember human
nature is like a short-footed stocking. If
you darn it up at the heel it will come out at
the toe. It's no manner of use to ignore
women. People who do always come the
worst croppers in the end. A flirtation with
a fast, married woman would peel your illusions
off you like the skin off an orange.
All young men believe in women—till they
know them. He! He! If I were a rabbit
I should take a personal interest in the
habits of birds of prey. I told Hemsworth
something of the kind the other day, but
he is bent on making a fool of himself."
"He knows his own affairs best."
"I fancy I know them better than he
does. Miss Di is young, but she is uncommonly
well aware of her own value, and
she is looking higher. I should not wonder
if she tried to marry you. She'll take him
in five years' time, if he is still willing, and
she outstands her market: but in the mean
time she keeps him dangling. I told him
so, and that I admired her for it. She
holds her head high, but she is a splendid
creature, and no mistake. She has not that
expectant anxious look about her that you
see in other girls, and she is not made up.
It's sterling good looks in her case. If
you are interested in that quarter, you may
take my word for it, it is all genuine, even
to her hair. That is why her frank manner
is so telling; it's of a piece with the rest.
She knows how to play her cards. The
old woman has taught her a thing or two."
"What a knowledge you have of—human
nature."
"I have looked about," said Lord
Frederick, rising as gently as he had sat
down, and pulling up his shirt collar. "I
had my eyes opened pretty young, and I
have kept them open ever since. Glad
you're better. That black devil in tights
of a poodle wants shaving as much as
you did last time I saw you. No, don't
ring for that melancholy valet. I will let
myself out. I dare say I shall be in again
in the course of a day or two. Ta, ta."
John crushed the telegram he was still
holding into a hard ball as soon as his self-constituted
guide, philosopher, and friend
had left the room.
Cynicism was not new to him. It is cheap
enough to be universally appropriated by
the poor in spirit, for whom generosity and
tolerance are commodities too expensive to
be indulged in. Our belief in human nature
is a foot rule, by which we may be accurately
measured ourselves. There are those in
whose enlightened eyes, purity herself is
only a courtesan in fancy dress. John had
already had many teachers, for he was a
man who was being educated regardless of
expense; but perhaps to no two persons did
he owe so much as to Mr. Goodwin and
Lord Frederick Fane. Our elders act as
danger-signals oftener than they know.
John's room looked out across the Park.
His couch had been drawn near the open
window, and to lie and watch the passing
crowd of carriages and pedestrians was
almost as much excitement as he could bear
after the darkened rooms and enforced quiet
of the last few weeks. John, with Lindo
erect on the vacant chair beside him, saw
Lord Frederick's hansom, with his pale
profile inside it, turn down Park Lane below
his windows. Pain had burned all John's
energy out of him for the time, and he had
soon forgotten his annoyance in watching
the people attempting to cross the thoroughfare,
and in counting the omnibuses that
passed. It was all he was up to. It was
about five in the afternoon, and carriage
after carriage turned into the Park at the
gates opposite his window. There went
Lady Delmour with her brand new daughter,
a sweet, wild rose from the country, that
must be perfected by London smuts and
gaslight. John pointed her out to Lindo,
but he only yawned and looked the other
way. There was Mrs. Barker walking with
her husband. Those two white parasols he
had danced with somewhere, but he could
not put a name to them. Neither could
Lindo when asked. Another red omnibus.
That was the tenth red one within the last
half-hour. Royalty went flashing by, bowing
and bowed to. John obliged Lindo, whom
he suspected of democratic tendencies, to
make a bow also. He hoped his nurse
would not come in and send him back to bed
yet. It was really very interesting watching
the passers-by. Was that—no, it was not—yes,
it was Lady Verelst with red parasol
and husband to match, in the victoria with
the greys. There was actually Duchess, his
old polo pony whom he had not seen since
he sold her three years ago, looking as spry
as ever. John craned his neck to see the
last of the bob-tail of his old favourite
whisk round the corner. A moment later
Mrs. Courtenay and Di, erect and fair beside
her, spun past in the opposite direction.
Before he had time to realize that he had
seen her, almost before he had recognized
her, the momentary glimpse struck him like
a blow. His head swam, his heart, so
languid the moment before, leapt up and
struggled like a maddened caged animal.
She had passed some time before he was
conscious of anything but the one fact that
he had seen her.
He stumbled to his feet and walked unsteadily
across the room, clutching at the
furniture. He seemed to have left his legs
behind.
"What am I doing?" he said to himself
half aloud, holding on to and swaying against
a table. "What has happened? Why did
I get up?"
He dragged himself back to his couch
again, and sank down exhausted. The excursion
had been too much for him. He
had not walked so far before. He was
bewildered.
Through the open window came the jingle,
and the "clip-clop" and the hum. Another
red omnibus passed. But there was a loud
knocking at the door of John's heart that
deafened him to all beside; the peremptory
knocking as of one armed with a claim, who
stood without and would not be denied.
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