The nearest address was in the lower part of Madison Street. Mary D——,
a widow. The house was one of the typically dirty tenements of that
section. As I entered the hall a strong odour of garlic and onions
almost suffocated me. I rang the janitress' bell. She opened the door
and as soon as I mentioned the name of Mary D. she knew I was from the
charities, for she immediately began to tell me that the D.'s have no
coal, that the charities have neglected them, that the woman is sick and
the five children, the oldest of whom is eleven years old, are hungry
and naked.
"But, my dear lady, I'm not from the charities. I'm a sewing machine
agent," I lied, according to the advice of Mr. Lawson.
"Oh! a new agent? Why, she has just paid $1 last week on the machine,"
and with changed attitude: "What do you bother me for? Go upstairs and
see her—third floor back left." She re-entered her apartment. I walked
up the three floors. At the door I stood a little and thought how I
should behave. "Who's there?" a voice asked. "Sewing machine agent," I
answered, timidly.
"Come next week—I have no money," was the reply. "Excuse me. I can't
open the door for you now. I am not dressed, Mr. George."
I went downstairs and in the hall I noted down everything that the
janitress had told me. Five children, no coal, no food, $11.50 rent, and
so on.
My next address was in Henry Street.
It was one of the coldest days of the winter of 1911. The snow was
knee-deep and the icy wind blew at a terrific speed. The house where I
had to go was one of those old, decrepit buildings, where misery lurks
and peers at one from every door, every brick, windowpane, nail and
knob. The windows were covered with a coat of ice. Some broken panes
were stuffed with pillows and rags. On the ground floor was a grocery.
"They surely buy their provisions here," I thought, and entered the
store. An old woman, the storekeeper, asked me what I wanted.
"Could you give me any information about the family S.," I asked.
"Oh!" she exclaimed, "you are from the Gerry Society, aren't you?"
"Well?" I said nonchalantly. "What of it?"
"Well—it's all a lie, that's what I could tell you. The poor woman
does her best. Why! she works herself to death. A widow with three small
children—a fine woman, a good mother, a real lady, if you want to know.
But her neighbour, the rag pedlar's wife, is jealous. I don't know why!
And she did it. Why should you take away the children from a mother? She
feeds them well. The children haven't good clothes! Well, she is a poor
woman and children are children. They wear, they tear; what can she do?
Buy every day new clothes? A poor widow that works from early morning
till late at night!"
"What is the name of the rag pedlar?" I asked the woman.
"Goldberg," she informed me. "A bad woman, without a mother's heart.
Don't go to her. She'll tell you a lot of bad things about the poor
widow. Don't go to her, Mister. Oh! that such beings should be alive at
all!" she muttered in Yiddish.
"I have to," I assured her, and after inquiring the floor where Mrs.
Goldberg lived I walked up the three flights. I knocked at the door.
"Come in," came the answer. Mrs. Goldberg opened the door, and as I
entered the cheerful aspect of a tidy kitchen and the singing of the
boiling pots on the stove greeted me invitingly. Mrs. Goldberg bade me
enter their "front room," furnished pretentiously. I sat down at her
invitation, and contrary to all rules on such occasions I waited for her
to start the discussion—I hardly knew what to say. I did not have to
wait long. Mrs. Goldberg immediately asked me if I was an agent from the
Gerry Society.
"But what have you against that poor woman? Why do you want her children
taken away? Are you not a mother? Have you no feeling? What is it? Have
you a personal grievance against the woman?" I said in the tone to
invite confidences.
"But just because I am a mother," she snapped back angrily, her eyes
flashing. "Come here," she said, making a sign for me to follow her. I
followed her into a third room. A boy of about six years was in a bed.
His face was burning with fever. Around his neck he had bandages, and on
a small table were a dozen bottles of medicine.
"Well, what has that to do with it?" I queried.
"This is my only child," she explained. I did not understand what
connection there was between her sick child and the desire to put the
children of the other mother away. I told her so, energetically, almost
insolently.
"You see," she explained, "her children are always running around half
naked and barefooted, even in the coldest weather. They are always sick,
but she does not care, because when this is so she runs to all the
charitable societies and gets help and medicine. The children play in
the hall the whole day, and whenever her child has a sore throat three
or four other children catch it. Last year two children caught
diphtheria in this house. Both children died. When my child gets sick I
have to pay for medicine and the doctor and everything. If she can't
take care of her children, let her not have any—that's all. Each one
for himself," she added; "I have to take care of my children."
"But," I argued, "are you not a mother? What can the poor woman do?"
Mrs. Goldberg's eyes flashed, and with the assurance well-fed people
generally have, she answered: "Oh! never mind! I would know how to take
care of my children! There would be no charity business with me. Oh, no!
I assure you!"
"She is a widow with small children," I pleaded. "What would you do in
her place?"
"Oh, never mind. I would do something—anything—everything. My child
will always have enough to eat and some clothes, as long as I live," and
as she looked at the sick child she rolled up her sleeves as though
ready to start a fight against the whole world to defend her child from
want and misery.
I departed, first assuring Mrs. Goldberg that something would be done to
"protect her child," and went up another flight to see Mrs. S.
The grocery woman had probably announced the fact that the "Gerry
Society man" was in the house, for as I passed through the hall many a
door opened and closed. Some of the women eyed me as though I were a
murderer, while others looked at me as though I were something
mysterious—a man who had the power of parting children from the mother.
My position was not a very pleasant one. I thought of what I should do
if the real "Gerry Society man" were to appear on the scene. I hastened
towards Mrs. S.'s door. A few old women followed behind me. I knocked. A
timid "Come in." As I opened the door I saw two small children, one
probably six and the other four years old, hiding under the table. My
heart contracted. Mrs. S. stood in front of the table, hiding the
children, her open hands like the claws of a tigress, ready to defend
her offspring. We looked at one another, mutely, for a few moments. Her
eyes were sparkling with the fire of an injured animal, her hair was
dishevelled, her brows were knit together in a supreme decision, her
mouth twitched, and she was pale, pale as a waxen figure. From under
the table the two children looked at me fearfully.
"Are you Mrs. S.?" I finally stammered out, while I took out my
notebook.
No answer.
"Are you Mrs. S.?" I repeated again, as I regained my composure.
"Don't take away my children, Mister. Don't take away my children," the
poor mother yelled and growing hysterical she repeated this terrible cry
in heartrending tones, tearing her hair. "Don't take them away."
The poor tots came out from under the table. Quickly she pushed them
back, and continued to cry at the top of her voice the same sentence:
"Don't take away my children. They are mine, mine. My God, they are
mine."
"I don't want to take your children away, madam," I told her repeatedly.
"Calm yourself, I did not come to take them away." But she did not
listen to me. She kept on crying and tearing her hair. Neighbours came
in from all sides.
"Help, help," Mrs. S. cried. "Help, help, mothers! He wants to take away
my children. Help, help!" and she ran to the window.
I gently laid my hands on the hysterical mother's shoulders, and looking
straight in her eyes I said slowly and distinctly:
"I—don't—want—to—take—your children. Be quiet," I begged. Among
the neighbours was also the grocery woman.
"He wouldn't take away your children. This gentleman comes to speak with
you. Calm yourself, Mrs. S., calm yourself," and softly, in Yiddish, she
blasphemed Mrs. Goldberg and her husband, father and child.
After a few moments, during which the grocery woman spoke to her in
soothing tones, Mrs. S. quieted down a little. A reaction set in. Thick
beads of cold sweat appeared on her brows, while her cheeks flushed with
a sickly red. She asked for a glass of water and sat down. To express
how I felt all this time is more than I can do. I only know that I went
through some faint reflection of all the emotions that agitated the poor
woman. I sat down opposite to her and tried to soothe her. She could not
look me in the face. As I spoke her eyes caressed the two little
children, who, during the excitement, had come out from their hiding
place. They went to their mother. She placed them one on each side of
her and passed her arms around their necks, presenting to me one of the
strongest pictures of motherhood that I had ever seen.
"Well, how do you feel, Mrs. S.?" I broke the silence.
"Just a minute," was her answer, and she ran into the bedroom from where
I heard her sobbing. I took advantage of her absence to ask the other
neighbours to go out. They departed reluctantly and stood outside. I
tried hard to make friends with the children. Not even my pennies would
they accept, and soon they went into the bedroom with their mother—all
sobbing together. I looked around the house. The stove was cold. The
wind blew in from a broken window. A few crumbs of bread were on the
table. A few broken chairs, a big clock, out of order, on the
mantelpiece, a picture of a man of about thirty years old in the centre
of a wall, this constituted most of the furniture. The whole house was
in a state of complete disorder, with not even an attempt at
cleanliness. Through the open door of the bedroom I saw two folding beds
and the torn mattresses shed their straw all around the house. I felt
very uneasy and wished to cut short my visit, but hardly knew how to
back out of my position.
"Mrs. S.," I called, "won't you please come out and talk matters over
with me? I am pressed for time. It's one o'clock and I have other work
to do."
The woman re-entered the kitchen, followed by the children. She had
arranged her hair, put on shoes and buttoned her torn waist.
"Sit down," I urged. She did so.
"Now," I started, "what's the matter with your children? Why are they
walking naked? It is a very cold day and they are liable to fall sick."
"I am a poor widow," she started plaintively, "what can I do?"
"But listen here," I said, "this does not go! The children must be
properly clad."
The woman looked me in the eyes for a few seconds, and then, all of a
sudden, she asked me: "Are you a Jew?"
"Yes," I said, "but what has that to do with it?"
She evidently heard only my acknowledgment that I was a Jew, and with
the feeling that I was her brother she gained confidence that I would
not take her children away from her.
"If you are a Jew," she continued, "you will not take my children away,
and I will tell you the whole truth."
"Go ahead," I encouraged her, and she told me the following:
"Since my husband died three years ago, the charities have given me two
dollars a week and paid my rent. Every year, in the winter, they have
sent me coal and clothing for the children. This year they have a new
investigator and she does not like me."
"The investigator does not like you?" I repeated. "Why?"
The woman looked away for a few moments, then she shrugged her
shoulders and said: "I don't know why. She does not like me and that's
all, so they sent me only a half ton of coal at the beginning of the
winter and no clothes for the children. Every day I went to the office
and asked and begged for coal and clothes, but the investigator does not
like me—she does not like me—and she works against me. So what could I
do? To go and buy shoes and coal I need money, and I haven't any. From
the two dollars a week I get we hardly have enough for bread—dry
bread." And as the poor woman pronounced the last word the smallest of
the children repeated it in tones that would have melted a heart of
stone. His hungry eyes appealed to the mother for the staff of life.
"Bread," the older child repeated. "Mamma, give me bread. I am
hungry—give me bread."
The mother cried. The children were still asking for bread and the
mother was still crying when a young lady, whom I recognised as an
investigator from the charities, entered without even knocking at the
door. Mrs. S. jumped up from her chair, very confused.
"Who is that man?" the investigator asked without even a greeting as she
entered. The woman did not know what to do, what to answer.
"Who are you?" the investigator questioned me insolently.
"By what right do you ask me that?" I replied. "I haven't asked you who
you are."
"Well, I have a right to ask," and turning to the woman, she said: "You
must tell me immediately who this man is—do you hear? Who is he? or no
coal, no money, no rent—do you hear?" She yelled all this, shaking her
jewelled finger in the woman's face. I would have liked to have seen how
far she would have gone, but the eyes of the poor mother were so
appealing, so full of despair, I went up to the investigator and showed
her a paper with the heading of the institution.
"So, you are it!"
"Not a word," I said.
"It's all right." She turned to Mrs. S. "I know who he is. It's all
right. Any coal left? No, well, you'll get your coal to-morrow."
"And shoes?" begged the woman.
"Bread, mamma," both children said at once, "ask her for bread, mamma."
This was too much for the well-fed investigator. "Oh, these beggars!
these beggars!" she repeated. "Are you coming down soon?" she asked me,
and without bidding Mrs. S. good-bye she went out, saying, "I'll wait
for you downstairs. I'll have to talk matters over with you."
I assured Mrs. S. that I would do all in my power to prevent her
children being taken from her, and I was soon downstairs, where I found
Miss Alten waiting. We walked some distance together without speaking a
word—just eyeing one another. We passed a lunch room. I asked her to
have a cup of coffee, feeling sure she would refuse. To my great
astonishment she accepted, and soon we were sitting at a table with the
steaming coffee before us. The pleasant warmth of the place and the
steam from the cups soon melted the ice. She was a handsome dark girl of
about twenty, of Jewish-Russian descent. She had a pleasant voice, yet
how harsh and cold was her speech awhile ago, exactly the same voice as
Cram's. I wondered then! not now! Afterward I learned that this was the
professional tone, the intimidating note, as Cram called it.
"Why did you leave Mrs. S., that poor woman, without coal?" I asked.
"It's so very cold and you know she has no money to buy any!"
"Oh! she's a pest," Miss Alten replied, making a grimace that passed
like an ugly cloud of hatred over her young face. "That was to punish
her, to show her that she must not disregard my authority," she
continued. "Last month she finished the coal. When I came to see her she
told me the story, and I told her she would get it next week. Instead of
waiting, what do you think she did? She came up to the office to beg.
So! I thought, you come to the office. Wait! you'll wait a month before
you get any at all. And that is why it happened. To show her that I am
the boss. We have to have some means of keeping them in order, you
know."
"Yes, but it is not fair to punish her. And for what? She felt cold, so
did the children, and she's a mother. She was afraid of sickness for
them. Why, great God, they could have died." Miss Alten laughed at me
long and scornfully.
"Die, die? Her children die? They never die. They never die. Their
children never die, these beggars."
The coffee was finished. Miss Alten buttoned her coat, put on her
gloves, and saying good-bye she quickly disappeared from the table. I
sat more than an hour, drinking one cup of coffee after another. I
wanted to think but my mind was in confusion. "They never die. They
never die," rang in my ears. And to think that the wages of these women
investigators are seldom higher than ten dollars per week, and that if
somebody did not help them out, a brother, a sister, or father, they
themselves would be depending on charity, or—
"I'll have her discharged, too," I finally decided, and with this
determination I went out again into the street.
Aimlessly I walked through the slums. I had never taken so much
interest in every minute detail of the street as I did at that time.
Every house, every window, every door meant something, said something.
Tales of untold misery and despair and shame. I looked at the clothes of
all the children and tried to guess, figure out, which one's mother was
an applicant and which was not. Unconsciously I had divided the world
into two classes—one that applies to charity and one that does not.
Then I made up my mind that Miss Alten was a relative, perhaps a sister,
of Cram's, and I felt sorry that I had not asked her about it. In our
discussion his name had been mentioned several times, and she had always
affirmed that "he was the finest gentleman and the best investigator of
the whole bunch."
How curious! Two such cruel beings in one charitable institution! I
wondered.
My next case proved a very interesting one. It was in Monroe Street, on
the fifth floor of a yard-house—Mrs. Miriam D.
As nobody around the neighbourhood wanted to tell me anything beyond the
fact that Mrs. D. was a very honest women, I went up to the applicant at
once. The mother was not at home: only her three children, a girl of
twelve, another one of ten and a boy of seven years old were in the
house. They sat, all three, around a table, and worked at their lessons.
The kitchen was very clean and warm. The children were tidy, and
everything was in order. But the poor girls were as pale as death. A
single glance was enough to know that they were starved out. Only in
their big, moist, Jewish eyes was there life. I asked the children where
the mother was. "We don't know," was the response of all three, and they
looked at one another as though to say, "I wish she were here."
From my talk with the children I learned that they were expecting a
cousin by the name of Leb from the old country, so I decided to
impersonate an agent of Ellis Island and get all the information I
wanted in that way. I asked the girls how they were living; whether they
had things to eat every day.
"Yep," the boy of seven said, with pride. "But not enough," added the
oldest sister.
"From where does your mother get money to buy food?" I queried.
"From the Charities," the second girl explained, while the older sister
kicked her in the shins as punishment for her frankness.
"Have you no relatives?" I asked.
"Oh, yes, we have," all three again answered.
"Who are they?"
"Louis Goldman, Uncle Louis," she explained.
"What is your uncle?"
"A shoemaker."
"And who else?"
"Uncle Marcus."
"And what is he?"
"A bum," the little boy put in. "A bum, that's what he is." I had a hard
time to get him out of his sister's hands. They were still trying to
kick him when the mother came in.
Mrs. D. remained at the door in surprise, evidently wondering who I was.
"What do you want?" she questioned.
I was taken by surprise, but I immediately remembered the children's
talk about a cousin from the old country and I said that I was an agent
from Ellis Island.
"Why!" the woman cried out, in ecstasy, "is he here? Oh! children your
cousin is here!" And she kissed them all in an outburst of happiness.
"Is he here? Tell me."
"Who is he?" I asked.
"Oh, I'll go immediately and take him out. It's my cousin, Leb Herman
Rosen, my own cousin."
"All right," I said. "You'll have to give me some information first."
"What information? It's my real cousin."
She sat down ready to answer my questions. I took out my note book and
put the following questions:
"How long are you in America?"
"Eight years."
"How many children have you?"
"Three."
"How long is it since your husband died?"
"Four years."
"Now, if you want to take your cousin in your house you must prove that
you'll be able to support him until he gets work, and show enough money
to assure the United States that he will not become a public charge. How
do you make a living? How much are you earning a week?"
"I—I—I," she stammered, "I make a living."
"How?" I insisted.
"I sell whisky, tea, coffee, powder, toothpaste."
"Well, how much do you make a week?"
"Well, well, I make a living."
"But to keep a cousin you must make more than a living—more than you
need."
"I make more," she said. "I—do make more."
As I knew that she was receiving charity I did not believe her and told
her she would have to prove that she made more than she needed. She
walked up to a chiffonier, searched a drawer, and to my great
astonishment brought forth a bank book which showed that she had one
hundred and thirty-five dollars accumulated in the last two years.
"Will that prove that I earn more than I spend?" she said triumphantly.
I looked at her in astonishment. A mother who lets her children starve
to put money in the bank! What wild animal would neglect its offspring
to such an extent! I called her into the next room and told her what I
thought of her and who I was. She cried bitterly under my lashing, and
then told me the following story:
"I should not tell you this, but as you think that I am an unnatural
mother I must explain myself. My husband died four years ago. He was a
cloak operator and earned good money when I married him. After the
second child was born his wages did not suffice to keep us as well as he
wished. It was a very busy season. He worked overtime every night, until
one and two o'clock in the morning. When the season ended we had three
hundred dollars in the bank. But soon he got sick. Six months he lay
sick at home. When all the money was gone we had to send him to the
hospital. A month later he died, and two months after his death I gave
birth to the third child. While I lay in bed there was nobody to take
care of the children and there was no bread for them either. A neighbour
wrote to the charities and told them all about us, and our plight. Two
days passed. A woman came, looked around, questioned me and went away.
They sent a nurse and money to feed the children. When I was out of bed
they called me to the office and informed me that they had decided to
give me two dollars a week and pay my rent. But, I ask you, could I live
on two dollars a week? I had to do something. I went out washing and
scrubbing floors. I got sick. The charities got to know that I worked.
They immediately informed me that if I worked they would not give me
anything. What could I do? Live on the two dollars? That was an
impossibility. Work? I did not earn enough to get along without their
support. Little by little I began to sell tea and coffee in the hours
when the children were in school. But the investigator was informed by
the grocer and butcher that I spent more than two dollars a week. Again
I was called to the office. They questioned me, tortured me, accused me
of being a bad woman. Where did I get the money? In despair I lied to
them. Told them that the grocer and butcher had given wrong information,
that they did not know; they had no proof and had to give me the
pension.
"Still I could not get along on their money. My children were hungry. I
was hungry. I went out again and sold tea and coffee and whisky, and
under my coat I would bring an additional piece of meat and bread. Soon
the neighbours knew that we had meat every day and some of them told the
investigator. By this time she had made it a habit to spy on my every
move. She reported me to the office. Again I was called and questioned
and again I lied and cried. I could not get along on their two dollars a
week and could not get along on my work alone. But when I got home I was
wiser, and since then, instead of buying bread and meat, I have to put
the money in the bank. This one hundred and thirty-five dollars is the
meat and bread of my children, their health and their life. Yes, I am a
bad mother. I am a bad mother," and wept anew.
The next day I went to the office and gave a report of my work. The case
of Miriam D. I reported more extensively than the others, insisting that
the children were starved while the woman had one hundred and
thirty-five dollars in the bank, accumulated not from surplus but from
what she was forced to deprive her children of. Mr. Lawson immediately
called in the Manager and showed him my report. They congratulated me on
my ability and I felt that they would tell their investigators that they
must not persecute the woman and the orphans by spying. The Manager
pronounced me a second Sherlock Holmes and announced that Mrs. D.'s
pension would be cut off.
I was dumbfounded. So this was the result of my work! To take the bread
out of the mouths of the three orphans. I accused myself of stupidity
and could look no one straight in the face. Through treachery I learned
the truth, and instead of using it for her good I had used it to help
the investigators be more cruel, more questioning than before. What
could the woman do? Had she not told me that she could not live on what
she earned? Was the one hundred and thirty-five dollars enough for her
to support her children? And I imagined them all starved and sick, dying
in hospitals. All through my fault. I should have known that they would
not reform their investigating system because of my report. How I hated
myself. How I hated the whole world. At night when I went home I was
ashamed to kiss my children, for I had committed a crime. As I thought
of the inscriptions on the doors: "For the poor of the land shall never
cease;" "Let thy hand give freely to the needy," etc., I remembered
Dante's "Lasciate ogni speranza voi ch' entrate."
In disgust and despair I walked the streets the next day without being
able to do anything. Like a criminal who returns to the scene of his
crime I walked around the house. I felt a strong call to go in and beg
forgiveness for her undoing. I have since learned that it has not done
any harm. On the contrary, deserted by the charities the woman redoubled
her energies. The cousin she was waiting for arrived a few days later,
bringing some money with him. They bought a grocery store and she is
earning her living. But at that moment I thought myself guilty of the
greatest crime. I made many decisions, but stuck to the last, namely, to
take notes of all the evil that organised charity was doing and at the
first opportunity give them out for the benefit of the world.
I understood that the welfare of the poor did not concern the men at the
head of the charity organisation; that it has become a business for
them. A business they were managing, just as others manage factories.
Their concern was to reduce the cost, to economise, just as the
manufacturers try to produce the greatest amount of product with the
smallest amount of outlay. And if hunger, starvation, sickness was the
by-product, well, so much the worse for the poor.