DISCIPLINE
The storm spent itself before they reached Gibraltar, and Toby emerged
smiling from his captivity below. He still wore the brown and gold
hotel-livery as there was nothing else on board to fit him, but from
Gibraltar a small packet of notes was dispatched to Antonio by Saltash in
settlement of the loan.
"Now I've bought you—body and soul," he said to Toby, whose shining look
showed naught but satisfaction at the announcement.
The vivid colours of his injured eye had faded to a uniform dull yellow,
and he no longer wore a bandage. When they put to sea again he was no
longer an invalid. He followed Saltash wherever he went, attended
scrupulously to his comfort, and when not needed was content to sit
curled up like a dog close to him, dumb in his devotion but always ready
to serve him.
Saltash treated him with a careless generosity that veiled a good deal of
consideration. He never questioned him with regard to his past, taking
him for granted in a fashion that set Toby completely at ease. No one
else had much to do with him. Larpent ignored him, and Murray the steward
regarded him with a deep suspicion that did not make for intimacy.
And Toby was happy. Day after day his cheery whistle arose over his work
while he polished Saltash's boots and brushed his clothes, or swept and
dusted the state-cabin in which he slept. He himself had returned to his
own small den that led out of Saltash's dressing-room, but the
intervening doors were kept open by Saltash's command. They were always
within hail of each other.
They went into perfect summer weather, and for a blissful week they
voyaged through blue seas with a cloudless sky overhead. Toby's white
skin began to tan. The sharp lines went out of his face. His laugh was
frequent and wholly care-free. He even developed a certain impudence in
his attitude towards his master to which Saltash extended the same
tolerance that he might have shown for the frolics of a favourite dog. He
accepted Toby's services, but he never treated him wholly as a servant.
It was an odd companionship which only the isolated life they led during
those few days could have developed along those particular lines. When
Saltash was bored he amused himself with his protege, teaching him
picquet and chess, and finding in him an apt and eager pupil. There was a
good deal of the gambler's spirit in Toby, and Saltash idly fostered it
because it gave him sport. He laughed at his opponent's keenness,
supplied stakes for the game, even good-naturedly let himself be beaten.
And then one day he detected Toby cheating. It was an end that he might
have foreseen. He had encouraged the fever, he had practically sown the
seeds; but, strangely, he was amazed, more disconcerted than he had been
for years by the consequences. For it was not his way to disturb himself
over anything. His principles were easy to laxness. But that Toby—the
urchin he had sheltered and nursed like a sick puppy—should have done
this thing somehow cut clean through his complacence.
"I'm going to give you a licking for that," he said, black brows drawn to
a stern line. "You can go below and wait for it."
Toby went like an arrow, and Saltash spent the next half-hour pacing the
deck, cursing himself, the youngster, and the insane and ridiculous Fate
that had linked them together.
Then he went below to administer judicial corporal punishment to a human
being for the first time in his life. As he himself whimsically expressed
it, he had received ample correction during his own chequered career; but
he had never been in a position to correct anyone else.
He found Toby waiting for him in his shirt-sleeves, rather white but
quite composed, his riding-switch all ready to his hand.
"Ever been flogged before?" he asked him curtly as he picked it up.
"No, sir," said Toby, with downcast eyes.
"Why not?" There was a gibing note in Saltash's voice. "Never qualified
before?"
Toby shot him a swift and nervous glance that was like a flash of blue
flame. "No, sir. Never been caught before," he said.
Saltash's eyes flickered humour, but he steeled himself. "Well, you're
caught this time—fairly caught. I may not be a specially fit person to
punish you for it, but you won't be let off on that account."
"Go ahead, sir!" said Toby, with his hands twisted into a bony knot in
front of him.
And Saltash went ahead. His heart was not in the business, and as he
smote the narrow bent back it cried shame on him. Toby made no sound, but
at the third stroke he winced, and Saltash with a terrific oath in French
hurled his switch violently at the opposite wall.
"There! Don't do it again!" he said, and swung him round to face him.
"Sorry? What?"
Then he saw that Toby was crying, and abruptly let him go, striding out
through the dining-saloon and up the companion-way, swearing strange
oaths in varied languages as he went.
He was openly rude to Larpent when the latter sauntered up for a word
with him a little later, but Larpent, knowing him, merely hunched his
shoulders as his custom was and sauntered away again.
When Saltash went down to dress for dinner, he found his clothes laid out
as usual, but no Toby in attendance. His first impulse was to look for
him, but he checked it and dressed in solitude. This thing must be
conducted in the approved judicial manner at all costs.
Larpent was stolidly awaiting him in the saloon, and they sat down
together. Usually Toby stood behind his master's chair, and the vacant
place oppressed Saltash. He talked jerkily, with uneasy intervals of
silence.
Larpent talked not at all beyond the demands of ordinary courtesy. He ate
well, drank sparingly, and when not listening to Saltash's somewhat
spasmodic conversation appeared immersed in thought. When the meal was
over, he refused coffee, and rose to go on deck.
Then, abruptly, Saltash stayed him. "Larpent, wait a minute—unless
you're in a hurry! Have a cigar with me!"
Larpent paused, looking across at the dark, restless face with the air of
a man making a minute calculation. "Shall we smoke on deck, my lord?" he
said at length.
Saltash sprang up as though he moved on wires. "Yes, all right. Get the
cigars, Murray!" he commanded the steward; and to Larpent as the man went
to obey, "That's decent of you. Thought you were going to refuse. I was
damned offensive a while back. Accept my apologies! Fact is—I'm fed up
with this show. Sorry if I disappoint you, but I'm going home."
"You never disappoint me, my lord," said Larpent, with his enigmatical
smile.
Saltash gave him a keen look and uttered a laugh that was also not
without its edge. "I like you, Larpent," he said. "You always tell the
truth. Well, let's go! We shan't make Jamaica this trip, but it doesn't
matter. In any case, it's a shame to miss the spring in England."
"Or the Spring Meetings?" suggested Larpent, as he chose his cigar.
"Quite so," said Saltash, almost with relief. "My old trainer—the man
who bought my racing-stud—always looks for me about now. You ought to
meet him by the way. He is another speaker of cruel truths."
He thrust a hand through his captain's arm as they left the saloon, and
they went on deck together. Though Larpent never made any sign of
resentment, yet was Saltash never wholly at his ease when he knew that he
had taxed his forbearance until he had made amends. He took the trouble
to make himself unusually agreeable as they settled down to their smoke.
It was a night of glorious stars, the sea one vast stretch of silver
ripples, through which the yacht ran smoothly, leaving a wide white trail
behind her. Saltash lay in a deck-chair with his face to the sky, but his
attitude was utterly lacking in the solid repose that characterized his
companion. He smoked his cigar badly, with impatient pulls. When it was
half gone, he suddenly swore and flung it overboard.
"Larpent," he said, breaking a silence, "if you were a damned
rotter—like me—what should you do with yourself?"
Larpent turned his head and quietly surveyed him. "I shouldn't run a home
for waifs and strays," he said deliberately.
Saltash made a sharp movement. "Then I suppose you'd leave 'em in the
gutter to starve," he said, with suppressed vehemence.
"No, I shouldn't. I'd pay someone else—someone who wasn't what you
called yourself just now—to look after 'em." Larpent's voice was
eminently practical if somewhat devoid of sympathy. "Gutter-snipes are
damned quick to pick up—things they ought not," he observed dryly.
Saltash stirred uncomfortably in his chair as though something pricked
him. "Think I'm a contaminating influence?" he said.
Larpent shrugged his shoulders. "It's not for me to say. All diseases are
not catching—any more than they are incurable."
"Ho!" Saltash laughed suddenly and rather bitterly. "Are you
suggesting—a cure?"
Larpent turned his head back again and puffed a cloud of smoke upwards.
"There's a cure for most things," he observed.
"Can the Ethiopian change his skin?" gibed Saltash.
Larpent was silent for a space. Then: "A painful process no doubt!" he
said. "But more wonderful things have happened."
"Pshaw!" said Saltash.
Nevertheless when Larpent rose a little later and bade him good-night, he
reached up a couple of fingers in careless comradeship.
"Good-night, old fellow! Thanks for putting up with me! Sure you don't
want to kick me?"
"Not when you're kicking yourself," said Larpent with a grim hint of
humour.
He took the extended fingers and received a wiry handclasp that caused
him faint surprise. But then, he reflected as he went away, he had always
known Saltash to be a queer devil, oddly balanced, curiously impulsive,
strangely irresponsible, possessing through all a charm which seldom
failed to hold its own. He realized by instinct that Saltash was
wrestling with himself that night, but, though he knew him better than
did many, he would not have staked anything on the result. There were two
selves in Saltash and, in Larpent's opinion, one was as strong as the
other.
It was nearly an hour later that Saltash, prowling to and fro in the
starlight, became suddenly aware of a figure, small and slight, with
gleaming brass buttons, standing behind his vacant chair. He turned
sharply to look at it, some inexplicable emotion twitching his dark face.
Then abruptly he moved towards it, stood for a second as one in doubt,
then turned and sat down in silence.
But as he settled himself he stretched forth an arm with a snap of the
fingers, and in a flash Toby was kneeling by his side. The arm closed
around him like a spring, and Toby uttered a low, tense sob and hid his
face.
Thereafter for a while there was no sound beside the throb of engines and
wash of water. Saltash sat absolutely motionless with eyes half-closed.
Save for the vitality of his hold, he might have been on the verge of
slumber. And Toby, crouched with his head in his hands, was as a carven
image, neither stirring nor seeming to breathe.
The man moved at length, flicking his eyes open as though some unseen
force had prodded him into action. He spoke with a brevity that might
have denoted some sternness but for the close grip of his arm.
"Have you been sulking all this time?"
Toby started at his voice and burrowed a little deeper. "No, sir."
"Well, why didn't you come before?" said Saltash.
"I was—afraid," whispered Toby piteously.
"Afraid! Why on earth?" Saltash's hand suddenly found and fondled
the fair head. His speech was no longer curt, but gentle, with a
half-quizzical tenderness. "Aren't you rather an ass, boy? What was
there to be afraid of?"
Toby could not tell him. He only, after a moment, slipped down in a
sitting position by Saltash's side and rested with more assurance against
the encircling arm.
"Come! I didn't hurt you much," said Saltash.
"No, sir. You didn't hurt me—at all." Toby stammered a little.
"You—you—you meant—not to hurt me, didn't you?"
"I must hit harder next time evidently," observed Saltash, with a squeeze
of the narrow shoulders.
"No, sir—no, sir! There shan't be—a next time!" Toby assured him with
nervous vehemence. "I only did it just to see—just to see—I'll never do
it again, sir."
"Just to see what?" asked Saltash curiously.
But again Toby could not explain himself, and he did not press him.
"Well, you didn't do it at all well," he remarked. "I shouldn't certainly
make a profession of it if I were you. It's plainly not your métier."
He paused, but with the air of having something more to say. Toby waited
silently.
It came with a jerk and a grimace, as if some inner force compelled. "I
can't talk pi-jaw—on this subject or any other. You see—I'm a rotter
myself."
"You, sir!" Toby lifted his head suddenly and stared at him with eyes
that blazed passionately blue in the starlight. "Don't believe it!" he
said. "It isn't true."
Saltash grinned a little. His face had the dreary look of something lost
that a monkey's sometimes wears. "You needn't believe it, son, if you
don't want to," he said. "But it's true all the same. That's why I gave
you that licking, see? Just to emphasize the difference between us."
"It isn't true!" Toby asserted again almost fiercely. "I'd kill anyone
else that said so."
"Oh, you needn't do that!" said Saltash, with kindly derision. "Thanks
all the same, my turkey-cock! If I ever need your protection I'll be sure
to ask for it." He flicked the young face with his finger. "But you're
not to follow my example, mind. You've got to run straight. You're young
enough to make it worth while, and—I'll see you have a chance."
"But you'll keep me with you, sir," said Toby swiftly. "You'll keep
me—always—with you!"
"Ah!" Saltash's brows twisted oddly for a second. He seemed to ponder the
matter. "I can't say off-hand what I'm going to do with you," he said.
"You're—a bit of a problem, you know, Toby."
"Yes, sir. I know. I know." Toby's voice was quick with agitation. "But
you won't send me away from you! Promise you won't send me away!"
"Can't promise anything," said Saltash. "Look here! I think there's been
enough of this. You'd better go to bed."
But Toby was clinging fast to his hand. He spoke between quivering lips.
"Please, sir, you said you'd bought me body and soul. You can't mean to
chuck me away—after that! Please, sir, I'll do anything—anything under
the sun—for you. And you—you can kick me—do anything to me—and I'll
never say a word. I'm just yours—for as long as I live. Please,
sir—please, sir—don't send me away! I—I'd rather die than that."
He laid his head suddenly down upon the hand he held so tenaciously and
began to sob, fighting desperately to stifle all sound.
Saltash sat for a few moments in utter silence and immobility. Then,
abruptly, in a tense whisper, he spoke:
"Toby, you little fool, stop it—stop it, do you hear?—and go below!"
The words held a queer urgency. He raised himself as he uttered them,
seeking to free his hand though with all gentleness from the clinging
clasp.
"Get up, boy!" he said. "Get up and go to bed! What? Oh, don't cry! Pull
yourself together! Toby, do you hear?"
Toby lifted a white, strained face. His eyes looked enormous in the dim
light. "Yes, sir. All right, sir," he jerked out, and stumbled trembling
to his feet. "I know I'm a fool, sir. I'm sorry. I can't help it. No one
was ever decent to me—till you came. I—shall just go under now, sir."
"Oh, stop it!" Saltash spoke almost violently. "Can't you see—that's
just what I want to prevent? You don't want to go to the devil, I
suppose?"
Toby made a passionate gesture that was curiously unboylike. "I'd go to
hell and stay there for ever—if you were there!" he said.
"Good God!" said Saltash.
He got up in his sudden fashion and moved away, went to the rail and
stood there for a space with his face to the rippling sheen of water.
Finally he turned and looked at the silent figure waiting beside his
chair, and a very strange smile came over his dark features. He came
back, not without a certain arrogance, and tapped Toby on the shoulder.
"All right," he said. "Stay with me and be damned if you want to! I
daresay it would come to the same thing in the end."
Toby drew himself together with a swift movement. "That means you'll keep
me, sir?"
His eyes, alight and eager, looked up to Saltash with something that was
not far removed from adoration in their shining earnestness.
The strange smile still hovered about Saltash's face; a smile in which
cynicism and some vagrant, half-stifled emotion were oddly mingled.
"Yes, I'll keep you," he said, and paused, looking at him oddly.
Toby's eyes, very wide open, intensely bright, looked straight back. "For
good, sir?" he said anxiously.
And Saltash laughed, a brief, mocking laugh. "For better, for worse, my
Toby!" he said. "Now—go!"
He smote him a light friendly blow on the shoulder and flung round on his
heel.
Toby went, very swiftly, without looking back.