"Like to a double cherry."
Midsummer-Night's Dream.
'"Oh mamma," cried I, from the window by which I was standing, to my
mother who was working by the fire, "do come here and look at these
two funny little trots."'
[Auntie had only read this first sentence of her story when Sybil
interrupted her.
"Mother dear," she said, in her prim little way, "before you begin, do
tell us one thing. Does the story end sadly?"
Auntie smiled. "You should have asked me before I had begun, Sybil,"
she said. "But never mind now. I don't really think I can tell you if
it ends sadly or not. It would be like telling you the end at the
beginning, and it would spoil the interest, if you understand what that
means."
"Very well," said Sybil, resignedly, "then I suppose I must wait. But I
won't like it if it ends badly, mother, and Floss won't, and Carrots
won't. Will you, Floss and Carrots?"
"I don't think Floss and Carrots can say, till they've heard it," said
auntie. "Now, Sybil, you mustn't interrupt any more. Where was I? Oh
yes"]—'"do come and look at these two funny little trots."
'My mother got up from her seat and came to the window. She could not
help smiling when she saw the little couple I pointed out to her.
'"Aren't they a pair of fat darlings?" I said. "I wonder if they live in
our terrace?"
'We knew very little of our neighbours, though we were not living in
London, for we had only just come to St. Austin's. We had come there to
spend the winter, as it was a mild and sheltered place, for I, then a
girl of sixteen, had been in delicate health for some time.' ["You
wouldn't believe it to see me now, would you?" said auntie, looking up
at the children with a smile on her pretty young-looking face, but it
was quite true, all the same.] 'I was my mother's only girl,' she went
on, turning to her manuscript again, 'and she was a widow, so you can
fancy what a pet I was. My big brothers were already all out in the
world, in the navy, or the army, or at college, and my mother and I
generally lived by ourselves in a country village much farther north
than St. Austin's, and it was quite an event to us to leave our own home
for several months and settle ourselves down in lodgings in a strange
place.
'It seemed a very strange place to us, for we had not a single friend or
acquaintance in it, and at home in our village we knew everybody, and
everybody knew us, from the clergyman down to farmer Grinthwait's
sheep-dog, and nothing happened without our knowing it. I suppose I was
naturally of rather a sociable turn. I knew my mother used sometimes in
fun to call me "a little gossip," and I really very much missed the
sight of the accustomed friendly faces. We had been two days at St.
Austin's, and I had spent most of those two days at the window,
declaring to my mother that I should not feel so "strange" if I got to
know some of our neighbours by sight, if nothing more.
'But hitherto I had hardly succeeded even in this. There did not seem to
be any "neighbours" in the passers-by; they were just passers by who
never seemed to pass by again, and without anything particular to
distinguish them if they did. For St. Austin's was a busy little place,
and our house was on the South Esplanade, the favourite "promenade" for
the visitors, none of whom, gentlemen, ladies, or children had
particularly attracted me till the morning I first caught sight of my
funny little trots.
'I do think they would have attracted any one—any one certainly that
loved children. I fancy I see them now, the two dears, coming slowly and
solemnly along, each with a hand of their nurse, pulling well back
from her, as if the effort to keep up, even with her deliberate rate of
walking, was almost too much for their fat little legs. They looked
exactly the same size, and were alike in everything, from their
dresses—which this first day were brown holland, very easy about the
bodies, very short and bunchy about the skirts—to the two white woolly
lambs, clasped manfully by each in his or her disengaged hand. Whether
they were boys or girls I could not tell in the least, and to this day I
do not know.
'"Aren't they darlings, mamma?" I said.
'"They certainly are two funny little trots," she replied with a smile,
using my own expression.
'Mamma went back to her knitting, but I stayed by the window, watching
my new friends. They passed slowly up the Esplanade, my eyes following
them till they were out of sight, and then I turned away regretfully.
'"They are sure not to pass again," I said, "and they are so nice."
'"If they live near here, very likely the Esplanade is their daily walk,
and they will be passing back again in a few minutes," said my mother,
entering into my fancy.
'I took up her suggestion eagerly. She was right: in about a quarter of
an hour my trots appeared again, this time from the other direction,
and, as good luck would have it, just opposite our window, their nurse
happening to meet an acquaintance, they came to a halt!
'"Mamma, mamma," I exclaimed, "here they are again!"
'Mamma nodded her head and smiled without looking up. She was just then
counting the rows of her knitting, and was afraid of losing the number.
I pressed my face close to the window—if only the trots would look my
way!—I could hardly resist tapping on the pane.
'Suddenly a bright thought struck me. I seized Gip, my little dog, who
was asleep on the hearth-rug and held him up to the window.
'"T'ss, Gip; T'ss, cat. At her; at her," I exclaimed.
'Poor Gip had doubtless been having delightful dreams—it was very hard
on him to be wakened up so startlingly. He blinked his eyes and tried to
see the imaginary cat—no doubt he thought it was his own fault he did
not succeed, for he was the most humble-minded and unpresuming of little
dogs, and his faith in me was unbounded. He could not see a cat, but he
took it for granted that I did; so he set to work barking vigorously.
That was just what I wanted. The trots heard the noise and both turned
round; then they let go their nurse's hands and made a little journey
round her skirts till they met.
"Suddenly a bright thought struck me. I seized Gip, my
little dog, who was asleep on the hearthrug, and held him up to the
window."
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'"Dot," said one, "pretty doggie."
'"Doll," said the other, both speaking at once, you understand, "pretty
doggie."
'I don't mean to say that I heard what they said, I only saw it. But
afterwards, when I had heard their voices, I felt sure that was what
they had said, for they almost always spoke together.
'Then they joined their disengaged hands (the outside hand of each still
clasping its woolly lamb), and there they stood, legs well apart, little
mouths and eyes wide open, staring with the greatest interest and
solemnity at Gip and me. At Gip, of course, far more than at me. Gip was
a dog, I, was only a girl!—quite a middle-aged person, no doubt, the
trots thought me, if they thought about me at all; perhaps they did a
little, as I was Gip's owner; for I was sixteen, and they could not have
been much more than three.
'But all this time they were so solemn. I wanted to make them laugh.
There was a little table in the window—a bow window, of course, as it
was at the sea-side, and certain to catch winds from every quarter of
the heavens—upon which I mounted Gip, and set to work putting him
through his tricks. I made him perform "ready, present, fire," with a
leap to catch the bit of biscuit off his nose. I made him "beg," "lie
dead," like Mother Hubbard's immortal pet, and do everything a
well-educated dog could be expected to do. And, oh, how funny it was to
watch the trots! Evidently they had never seen anything of the kind
before; they stared at first as if they could hardly believe their eyes,
and then they smiled, and, at last, they laughed. How prettily they
laughed—they looked more like two fat cherubs than ever.
'But their laughing attracted their maid's attention. She too turned
round, and I was pleased to see that she had a pleasant pretty young
face. "I shouldn't have liked those dear trots to have a cross old
nurse," I said to myself, and the maid still further raised herself in
my good opinion by laughing and smiling too. In a minute or two when she
thought "that was enough for to-day," she stooped and whispered to the
trots. They immediately lifted their little hands, the right of one, the
left of the other—for nothing, you see, could have persuaded them to
let go of their precious lambs—to their rosy mouths and blew a kiss to
me, and I could see them say, "Zank zou, lady; zank zou, doggie."
'You may be sure I kissed my hand to them in return, and off they
toddled, each with a hand of "Bessie," as I afterwards heard them call
their maid, and hauling back manfully as before, which gave Bessie the
look of a very large steam-tug convoying two very little vessels.
'I watched them till they were quite out of sight. Then I turned to my
mother.
'"I have made two friends here any way, mamma," I said. "The trots are
sure to stop every time they pass. It will be something to watch for."
'Mamma smiled. She was pleased to see me pleased and interested, for
she had been beginning to fear that the dulness and strangeness of our
new life would prevent St. Austin's doing me as much good as she had
hoped.
'"To-morrow, dear," she said, "if it is fine, I hope you will be able to
go a little walk, and we'll look out for your little friends."
'It was fine the next day, and we did go out, and we did meet the trots!
'They caught sight of me (of Gip, rather, I should perhaps say) and I
of them, just about the same moment. I saw them tug their nurse, and
when they got close up to me they stopped short. It was no use Bessie's
trying to get them on; there they stood resolutely, till the poor girl's
face grew red, and she looked quite ashamed. Gip, who I must say, had a
wonderful amount of tact, ran up to them with a friendly little bark.
Bessie let go the trots' hands and stooped to stroke him.
'"He won't bite, miss, will he?" she said gently, looking up at me.
'"Oh, dear, no," I said, and the trots, smiling with delight,
stooped—not that they had so very far to stoop—to stroke him too.
'"Pretty doggie," said Doll.
'"Pretty doggie," said Dot.
'Then they held up their dear little mouths to kiss me. "Zank zou,
lady," they said, and each taking a hand of Bessie again, they proceeded
on their way.
'After that day, not many passed without my seeing them, and talking to
them, and making Gip show off his tricks. Sometimes our meetings were at
the window, sometimes on the road; once or twice, when there came some
unusually fine mild days, mamma let me sit out on the shore, and I
taught the trots to dig a hole for Gip and bury him in the sand, all but
his bright eyes and funny black nose—that was a beautiful game! I
never found out exactly where my friends lived; it was in one of the
side streets leading on to the Esplanade, that was all I knew. I never
knew, as I said, if they were boys or girls, or perhaps one of each.
Mamma wanted one day to ask Bessie, but I wouldn't let her. They were
just my two little trots, that was all I wanted to know.
'"It would spoil them to fancy them growing up into great boys or
girls," I said. "I want them to be always trots—nothing else."
'And as Bessie called them simply Doll and Dot, without any "master" or
"miss," I was able to keep my fancy.
'When the weather grew colder, the trots came out in a new
costume—sealskin coats, sealskin caps, and sealskin gloves—they were
just little balls of sealskin, and looked "trottier" than ever. About
this time they left off carrying their woolly lambs. I suspect the real
reason was that their extreme affection for the lambs had resulted in
these favoured animals growing more black than white, and that Bessie
judged them unfit for appearing in public, but if this was the case,
evidently Bessie had been obliged to resort to artifice to obtain their
owners' consent to the lambs being left at home. For, when I asked the
trots where the precious creatures were, they looked melancholy and
distressed and shook their heads.
'"Too told!" said Doll, and Dot repeated, like a mournful echo, "too
told!"
'"Of course," said I, "how stupid of me not to think of it! of course
it's far too cold for such very little lambs to be out."
'Bessie looked gratefully at me. "We're going to buy some cakes for
tea," she said, with a smile, and sure enough in about half-an-hour the
trio reappeared again, and came to a standstill as usual, opposite our
window. And, instead of a lamb, each trot hugged a little parcel, neatly
done up in white paper. I opened the window to hear what they were
saying, they looked so excited.
'"Takes for tea," they both called out at once, "takes for tea. Lady
have one. Dip have one."
'And poor Bessie was obliged to open the parcels, and extract one "take"
from each and hand them up to me, before my little dears would be
satisfied.
'Can you fancy that I really got to love the trots? I did not want to
know who they were, or what sort of a father and mother they had—they
were well taken care of, that was evident, for somehow, knowing anything
more about them would have spoilt them for being my funny little trots.
'But, for several weeks of the three months we spent at St. Austin's,
the sight of these happy little creatures was one of my greatest
pleasures, and a day without a glimpse of them would have seemed blank
and dull.
'There came a time, however, when for many days I did not see my little
friends. The weather was bad just then, and mamma said she was sure they
had got colds, that would be all that was wrong with them, but somehow I
felt uneasy. I asked our doctor, when he called, if there was much
illness about, and he, fancying I was nervous on my own account,
replied, "Oh no, with the exception of two or three cases of croup, he
had no serious ailments among his patients: it was a very healthy
season."
'I got frightened at the idea of croup, and cross-questioned him to
discover if my trots were among the sufferers, but he shook his head.
All his little patients were mere infants; he did not even know the
trots by sight.
'Then mamma suggested another very reasonable explanation of their
disappearance.
'"They have probably left St. Austin's," she said. "Many people come
here for only the very worst of the winter, and that is about over
now."
'But even this did not satisfy me. I was certain something was wrong
with Doll and Dot, and I wasted, I should be ashamed to say how many
hours gazing out of the window in hopes of catching sight of the
familiar little figures.
'At last, one day, when I had almost left off hoping ever to see them
again, suddenly, two figures appeared on the Esplanade, a stone's
throw from our window.
'Who were they? Could it be—yes, it must be one of the trots, led by,
not Bessie, no, this maid was a stranger. Where could Bessie be? And
oh, where was my other little trot? For, even at some yards' distance,
I saw something sadly different in the appearance of the one little
figure, slowly coming along in our direction. It was dressed—hat, coat,
gloves, socks and all—it was dressed in deep mourning.
'I seized my hat and rushed out to meet them. Mamma thought I was going
out of my mind I believe. When I found myself in the open air, I tried
to control myself and look like the rest of the people walking quietly
along, though my heart was beating violently, and I felt as if I could
not speak without crying. But when I got up to the one little trot and
its attendant, the sight of her strange face composed me. She was so
different from Bessie—old and stiff and prim looking. I stooped to kiss
the child, Dot or Doll, I knew not which. "How are you, darling?" I
said. "And where is——" I stopped short.
'The trot looked up in my face.
'"Oh lady," it said, "Dot is all alone. Doll is 'done to 'Ebben," and
the great tears gathered in Dot's mournful eyes and rolled down Dot's
rosy cheeks.
'"Hush, hush, my dear. You mustn't cry. You'll make yourself ill if you
cry any more," said the hard looking nurse.
'A moment before, I had intended turning to her and asking for some
particulars of the baby's sad words, but now I felt I could not. She
was so stiff and unsympathising. I could not bear her to see me, a
stranger, crying about what I had heard. Besides, what good would it do?
Why should I hear any more? I shrank from doing so. The bare fact was
enough. I just bent down and kissed the solitary darling.
'"Good-bye, my trot," I said. I could not say another word.
'"Dood bye, don't ky," said Dot, stroking my cheek. "Doll won't turn
back, but Dot will do to 'Ebben too some day."
'That was quite too much for me. I turned away and hurried back home as
fast as I could.
'"Mamma," I exclaimed, rushing into our sitting-room, and throwing
myself down on the sofa, "It's just what I thought. I wish you would
come away from St. Austin's at once. I shall never, never like it
again."
'"What is the matter, Florence?" said poor mamma, quite startled.
'"It's about the trots," I said, now fairly sobbing, "I have just seen
one—in deep mourning, mamma,—and—and—the other one is dead."
'"Poor little angel!" said mamma. And the tears came into her eyes too.
'I did not see Dot again after that day. I fancy that was its last walk
before leaving St. Austin's for its regular home, wherever that was. And
a very short time after we ourselves left too.
'I never forgot the trots. Of course the pleasure of going back to our
own dear home again, and seeing all our old friends, raised my spirits,
and softened the real grief I had felt. But whenever we spoke of St.
Austin's, or people asked me about it, and mentioned the esplanade or
the shore, or any of the places where I had seen the trots, the tears
would come into my eyes, as again I seemed to see before me the two
dear funny little figures. And whenever our plans for the following
winter were alluded to, I always said one thing: "Wherever you go,
mamma, don't go to St. Austin's."
'My mother gave in to me. When did she not? How patient she was with me,
how sympathising, even in my fancies! And how unselfish—it was not till
long after we had left St. Austin's, that she told me what anxiety she
had gone through on hearing of my having kissed little Dot. For how
sadly probable it seemed that Doll had died of some infectious illness,
such as scarlet-fever, for instance, which I had never had!
'"But Dot couldn't have been ill, mamma," I said. "Dot looked
perfectly well."
'"Did he?" said my mother. Sometimes she called the trots "he" and
sometimes "she," in the funniest way! "I wonder what the other little
dear died of?"
'"So do I," I replied. "Still, on the whole, I think I am just as well
pleased not to know."
'Our uncertainty for the next winter ended in what was to me a
delightful decision. We determined to go to the South of France. I could
amuse you children by a description of our journey—journeys in those
days really were much more amusing than now; but I must hasten on to the
end of my story. We had fixed upon Pau as our head-quarters, and we
arrived there early in November. What a different thing from our
November at home! I could hardly believe it was November; it would
have seemed to me far less wonderful to have been told I had been asleep
for six months, and that really it was May, and not November at all,
than to have awakened as I did, that first morning after our arrival,
and to have seen out of the window the lovely sunshine and bright blue
sky, and summer-look of warmth, and comfort, and radiance!
'We had gone to an hotel for a few days, intending to look out for a
little house, or "apartement" (which, children, does not mean the same
thing as our English lodgings by any means), at our leisure. Your
grandmother was not rich, and the coming so far cost a great deal. The
hotel we had been recommended to, was a very comfortable one, though not
one of the most fashionable, and the landlord was very civil, as some
friend who had stayed with him the year before had written about our
coming. He showed us our rooms himself, and hoped we should like them,
and then he turned back to say he trusted we should not be disturbed by
the voices of some children in the next "salon." He would not have
risked it, he said, had he been able to help it, but there were no
other rooms vacant, and the family with the children were leaving the
next day. Not that they were noisy children by any means; they were very
chers petits, but there were ladies, to whom the very name of
children in their vicinity was——here the landlord held up his hands
and made a grimace!
'"Then they must be old maids!" I said, laughing, "which mamma and I are
not. We love children," at which Mr. Landlord bowed and smiled, and said
something complimentary about mademoiselle being so "aimable."
'I listened for the children's voices that evening, and once or twice I
heard their clear merry tones. But as for any "disturbance," one might
as well have complained of a cuckoo in the distance, as of anything we
heard of our little neighbours. We did not see them; only once, as I was
running along the passage, I caught a glimpse at the other end of a
little pinafored figure led by a nurse, disappearing through a doorway.
I did not see its face; in fact the glimpse was of the hastiest. Yet
something about the wee figure, a certain round-about bunchiness, and
a sort of pulling back from the maid, as she went into the room,
recalled vaguely to my heart, rather than to my mind, two little
toddling creatures, that far away across the sea I had learnt to love
and look for. When I went into our room, there were tears in my eyes,
and when mamma asked me the reason, I told her that I had seen a child
that somehow had reminded me of my two little trots.
'"Poor little trots," said mamma. "I wonder if the one that was left
still misses the other?"
'But that was all we said about them.
'The next morning I was in a fever to go out and see all that was to be
seen. I dragged poor mamma into all the churches, and half the shops,
and would have had her all through the castle too, but that she declared
she could do no more. So we came to a halt at the great "Place," and
sat down on a nice shady seat to watch the people. I, consoling myself
with the reflection, that as we were to be four months at Pau, there was
still a little time left for sight-seeing.
'It was very amusing. There were people of all nations—children of
all nations, little French boys and girls, prettily but simply dressed,
some chatting merrily, some walking primly beside their white capped
bonnes; little Russians, looking rather grand, but not so grand as their
nurses in their rich costumes of bright scarlet and blue, embroidered in
gold; some very pert, shrill-voiced Americans, and a few unmistakable
English. We amused ourselves by guessing the nationality of all these
little people.
'"Those are Italians or Spaniards, mamma, look what dark eyes they
have, and those are——" I suddenly stopped. "Oh, mamma!" I exclaimed,
and when she looked at me, she saw I had grown quite pale, and in
another moment, seeing to what I was pointing, she understood the
reason. There, right before us, coming slowly up the middle of the
Place, Bessie in the middle, each child with a hand of hers tugging back
manfully in the old way, each, yes, really, each under the other arm
hugging a woolly lamb, came the two funny little trots!
'I felt at first as if I were dreaming. Could it be the trots? I sat
still in a half stupid way, staring, but Gip—I was forgetting to tell
you that of course Gip had come with us to Pau—Gip had far more
presence of mind than I. He did not stop to wonder how it could be the
trots, he was simply satisfied that it was the trots, and forwards he
darted, leaping, barking furiously, wagging his tail, giving every sort
of welcome in dog language, that he could think of.
'"Dip, Dip; see Bessie, here is a doggie like Dip," said one trot.
'"Dip, Dip, pretty Dip," said the other.
'The sound of their voices seemed to bring back my common sense. They
were my own dear trots. "Dip, Dip" would have satisfied me, even if I
had not seen them. The trots never could manage the letter "G!" I flew
forwards, and kneeling down on the ground, little caring how I soiled my
nice new dress, or what the people on the Place thought of me, I
regularly hugged my two pets.
'"Here is Dip's kind lady too," they both said at once, smiling and
happy, but not by any means particularly surprised to see me. I looked
up at Bessie at last, and held out my hand. She shook it heartily.
'"I am pleased to see you again, miss, to be sure; who would have
thought it?" she said. "And they haven't forgot you, haven't Doll and
Dot. They are always speaking of Gip and you, miss."
'"But, Bessie," I began, and then I hesitated. How could I tell her what
I had thought? "How was it you left St. Austin's so suddenly?"—the
trots were not in mourning now, they were prettily dressed in dark blue
sailor serge, as bunchy as ever.
'Bessie thought for a minute.
'"Let me see," she said, "oh yes, I remember! We did leave suddenly. My
mistress's father died, and she was sent for off to Edinburgh, and she
took Doll and me, and left Dot to keep her papa company. Master said
he'd be lost without one of them, and he couldn't get off to Edinburgh
for a fortnight after us. But we'll never try that again, miss. Dot
did nothing but cry for Doll, and Doll for Dot. Dot, so Martha the
housemaid said, was always saying, 'Doll's done to 'Ebben,' till it was
pitiful to hear, and Dot was just as bad in Edinburgh about Doll."
'"But Dot did 'do to 'Ebben," said Doll, who as well as Dot was
listening to what Bessie was saying. "And then Doll 'tummed to 'Ebben
too," said Dot, "and then 'Ebben was nice."
'I kissed the pets again, partly to prevent Bessie seeing the tears in
my eyes. I understood it all now, without asking any more, and Bessie
never knew what it was I had thought.
'Only you can fancy how sorry I was to find the trots were leaving Pau
that very afternoon! They were the children whose dear little voices I
had heard through the wall, who the landlord had feared might disturb
us! They were going on to Italy for the winter.
'"If only I had known last night who they were," I said to mamma
regretfully.
'Mamma, however, was always wise. "Think rather," she said, "how very
glad you should be to know it this morning. And who can tell but what
some time or other you may see the trots again."
'But I never did!'