In the year 1843, a fancy fair was
held at Paris, for the benefit of the
sufferers by an earthquake in the
island of Guadaloupe. The patronage
of the Queen of the French, added to
the strong sympathy awakened by the
catastrophe, filled the bazaar with a
gay throng, delighted to combine
amusement with charity, and to chaffer
for baubles with aristocratic saleswomen.
Amidst the multitude of
tasteful trifles, exposed for sale was
a contribution from Queen Marie
Amélie—fifty books, printed at the
royal press and elegantly bound.
They were fifty copies of a volume
containing three charming tales, and
soon it was whispered that no others
had been printed, and that the author
was a lady of rank, distinguished for
grace and wit, but whose literary
talents were previously unknown, save
to a limited circle of discreet and admiring
friends. At the queen's request,
and at the voice of pity, pleading for
the unfortunates of Point-à-Pitre,
she had sanctioned the printing of
fifty copies; these taken, the types had
been broken up. Such rumours were
more than sufficient to stimulate curiosity,
and raise the value of the volume.
Every body knows that an
author's title often sells a stupid book;
should any doubt it, we refer them to
our friends Puff and Co.; how much
greater the attraction when the book
is a clever one, written by a countess,
printed by a sovereign's command,
and at a royal press. The market
rose instantly. Sixty francs, eighty
francs, five napoleons, were freely
given; how much higher competition
raised the price, we cannot say; but
we are credibly informed the improvement
did not stop there.
The editor of the Revue des Deux
Mondes was not the last to hear the
history of the volume. He procured
a copy, and esteeming it unjust to
reserve for a few what was meant for
mankind, by limiting the produce of so
graceful a pen to the narrow circulation
of fifty copies—he laid violent hands
upon one of the tales, and reprinted
it in his excellent and widely-circulated
periodical. Although literally
a day after the fair, it was not the
less acceptable and successful. The
tale, whose title is "Resignation," was
attributed by many to the amiable
Duchess of Orleans, then in the first
year of her widowhood. The real
authoress is the Countess d'Arbouville,
wife of the lieutenant-general
of that name, granddaughter of
Madame d'Houdetot, and niece by
marriage of Monsieur de Barante. Inheriting
much of the wit of her celebrated
ancestress, and no small share
of the literary aptitude of her accomplished
uncle, this lady, without
aiming at the reputation of a woman
of letters, writes tales of very remarkable
merit. Whilst her husband, as
governor of Constantine, wields the
sabre in defence of Algeria, the Countess,
secluded in her boudoir, beguiles
her leisure and delights her friends by the
exercise of her pen. Last spring,
it became known that she had completed
the matter of a second volume.
Thereupon, she was so besieged by
petitioners for the favour of a perusal,
that in self-defence, and out of regard
to the integrity of her manuscript,
she was compelled to print fifty copies
for private circulation. Through the
kindness of a Parisian friend one of
these has reached us. It contains
two tales. The first, "Le Medecin
du Village," is a simple and touching
story, highly attractive by its purity
of style and exquisite feeling. The
circumstances under which it was
printed forbid criticism; otherwise
we might cavil at its introduction
as unartistical, and at one of the
incidents—the restoration of an idiot
boy of fifteen to unclouded reason—as
unprecedented and out of nature.
But one dwells not on these blemishes
whilst reading the old doctor's affecting
tale, which does equal honour to
the heart and mind of the authoress.
We would gladly place it before our
readers in an English dress, but the
indefatigable Monsieur Buloz, ever
watchful of the interests of his review,
has already pounced upon it. It had
scarcely been printed, when he transferred
it to the pages of the Revue des
Deux Mondes. We are obliged, therefore,
to content ourselves with the
second tale, no way inferior to its
fellow, but whose greater length compels
us to abridge. This we would
fain avoid, for even without such curtailment
it is impossible to render in
another language the full charm of the
original, a charm residing in delicacy
of style and touch rather than in description
or incident. We will do our
best, however, and should the attempt
meet the eye and disapproval of
Madame d'Arbouville, we wish it
may stimulate her to print her next
work by thousands instead of tens,
that all conversant with the French
tongue may have opportunities of reading
and appreciating the productions
of so pleasing a writer.
The tale in question is entitled—
UNE HISTOIRE HOLLANDAISE.
It was the hour of sunrise. Not
the gorgeous sunrise of Spain or Italy,
when the horizon's ruddy blaze suddenly
revives all that breathes, when
golden rays mingle with the deep
azure of a southern sky, and nature
bursts into vitality and vigour, as if
light gave life. The sun rose upon
the chilly shores of Holland. The
clouds opened to give exit to a pale
light, without heat or brilliancy.
Nature passed insensibly from sleep
to waking, but continued torpid when
ceasing to slumber. No cry or joyous
song, no flight of birds, or bleating of
flocks, hail the advent of a new day.
On the summit of the dykes, the reed-hedges
bend before the breeze, and
the sea-sand, whirled over the slight
obstacle, falls upon the meadows,
covering their verdure with a moving
veil. A river, yellow with the slime
of its banks, flows peaceably and
patiently towards the expectant
ocean. Seen from afar, its waters
and its shore appear of one colour,
resembling a sandy plain; save where
a ray of light, breaking upon the surface,
reveals by silvery flashes the
passage of the stream. Ponderous
boats descend it, drawn by teams of
horses, whose large feet sink into the
sand as they advance leisurely and
without distress to the goal of their
journey. Behind them strides a
peasant, whip on shoulder; he hurries
not his cattle, he looks neither at the
stream that flows, nor the beasts that
draw, nor the boat that follows; he
plods steadily onwards, trusting to
perseverance to attain his end.
Such is a corner of the picture presented
to the traveller in Holland, the
country charged, it would seem, more
than any other, to enforce God's
command to the waters, Thou shalt go
no farther! This silent repose of
creatures and things, this mild light,
these neutral tints and vast motionless
plains, are not without a certain
poetry of their own. Wherever space
and silence are united, poetry finds
place; she loves all things more or
less, whether smiling landscape or
dreary desert; light of wing, a trifle
will detain and support her—a blade
of grass often suffices. And Holland,
which Butler has called a large ship
always at anchor, has its beauties for
the thoughtful observer. Gradually
one learns to admire this land at war
with ocean and struggling daily for
existence; those cities which compel
the waters to flow at their ramparts'
foot, to follow the given track, and
abide in the allotted bed; then those
days of revolt, when the waves would
fain reconquer their independence,
when they overflow and inundate,
and destroy, and at last, constrained
by the hand of man, subside and again
obey.
As the sun rose, a small boat glided
rapidly down the stream. It had a single
occupant, a tall young man, lithe,
skilful, and strong, who, although
apparently in haste, kept near the
shore, following the windings of the
bank, and avoiding the centre of the
current, which would have accelerated
his progress. At that early hour the
fields were deserted; the birds alone
had risen earlier than the boatman,
whose large hat of gray felt lay beside
him, whilst his brown locks, tossed
backward by the wind, disclosed
regular features, a broad open forehead,
and eyes somewhat thoughtful,
like those of the men of the north.
His costume denoted a student from
a German university. One gathered
from his extreme youth, that his life
had hitherto passed on academic
benches, and that it was still a new
and lively pleasure to him to feel the
freshness of morning bathe his brow,
the breeze play with his hair, the
stream bear along his bark. He
hastened, for there are times when
we count the hours ill; when we outstrip
and tax them with delay. Then,
if we cannot hurry the pace of time,
we prefer at least to wait at the appointed
spot. It calms impatience,
and resembles a commencement of
happiness.
When the skiff had rounded a promontory
of the bank, its speed increased,
as if the eye directing it
had gained sight of the goal. At a
short distance the landscape changed
its character. A meadow sloped
down to the stream, fringed by a thick
hedge of willows, half uprooted and
inclined over the water. The boat
reached the shadow of the trees,
and stopping there, rocked gently on
the river, secured by a chain cast
round a branch. The young man
stood up and looked anxiously through
the foliage; then he sang, in a low
tone, the burthen of a ballad, a love-plaint,
the national poetry of all countries.
His voice, at first subdued, not
to break too suddenly the surrounding
silence, gradually rose as the song
drew to a close. The clear mellow
notes escaped from the bower of
drooping leaves, and expired without
echo or reply upon the surface of the
pasture. Then he sat down and
contemplated the peaceful picture
presented to his view. The gray sky
had that melancholy look so depressing
to the joyless and hopeless; the
cold dull water rolled noiselessly onward;
to the left, the plain extended
afar without variety of surface. A
few windmills reared their gaunt arms,
waiting for the wind; and the wind,
too weak to stir them, passed on and
left them motionless. To the right,
at the extremity of the little meadow,
stood a square house of red bricks and
regular construction, isolated, silent,
and melancholy. The thick greenish
glass of the windows refused to reflect
the sunbeams; the roof supported
gilded vanes of fantastical form; the
garden was laid out in formal parterres.
A few tulips, drooping their heavy
heads, and dahlias, propped with white
sticks, were the sole flowers growing
there, and these were hemmed in and
stifled by hedges of box. Trees, stunted
and shabby, and with dust-covered
leaves, were cut into walls and into
various eccentric shapes. At the corners
of the formal alleys, whose complicated
windings were limited to a narrow
space, stood a few plaster figures.
One of these alleys led to the willow-hedge.
There nature resumed her
rights; the willows grew free and
unrestrained, stretching out from the
land and drooping into the water;
their inclined trunks forming flying-bridges,
supported but at one end.
The bank was high enough for a certain
space to intervene between the
stream and the horizontal stems. A
few branches, longer than the rest,
swept the surface of the river, and
were kept in constant motion by its
current.
Beneath this dome of verdure the
boat was moored, and there the young
man mused, gazing at the sky—melancholy
as his heart—and at the stream,
in its course uncertain as his destiny.
A few willow leaves fluttered against
his brow, one of his hands hung in the
water, a gentle breeze stirred his hair;
nameless flowerets, blooming in the
shelter of the trees, gave out a faint
perfume, detectible at intervals, at the
wind's caprice. A bird, hidden in
the foliage, piped an amorous note,
and the student, cradled in his skiff,
awaited his love. Ungrateful that
he was! he called time a laggard, and
bid him speed; he was insensible to
the charm of the present hour. Ah!
if he grows old, how well will he
understand that fortune then lavished
on him the richest treasures of life—hope
and youth!
Suddenly the student started, stood
up, and, with outstretched neck, and
eyes riveted on the trees, he listened,
scarce daring to breathe. The foliage
opened, and the face of a young girl
was revealed to his gaze. "Christine!"
he exclaimed.
Christine stepped upon the trunk
of the lowest tree, and seated herself
with address on this pliant bench,
which her weight, slight as it was,
caused to yield and rock. One of her
arms, extended through the branches
that drooped towards the water,
reached that of her lover, who tenderly
pressed her hand. Then she drew
herself up again, and the tree, less
loaded, seemed to obey her will by
imitating her movement. The young
man sat in his boat, with eyes uplifted
towards the willow on which she he
loved reposed.
Christine Van Amberg had none of
the distinguishing features of the
country of her birth. Hair black as
the raven's wing formed a frame to a
face full of energy and expression.
Her large eyes were dark and penetrating;
her eyebrows, strongly marked
and almost straight, would perhaps
have imparted too decided a character
to her young head, if a charming expression
of candour and naïveté had
not given her the countenance of a
child, rather than of a woman. Christine
was fifteen years of age. A
slender silver circlet bound her brow
and jet-black tresses—a holiday ornament,
according to her country's custom:
but her greatest festival was
the sight of her lover. She wore a
simple muslin dress of a pale blue
colour; a black silk mantle, intended
to envelope her figure, was placed
upon her hair, and fell back upon her
shoulders, as if the better to screen
her from the gaze of the curious.
Seated on a tree trunk, surrounded by
branches and beside the water, like
Shakspere's Ophelia, Christine was
charming. But although young,
beautiful, and beloved, deep melancholy
was the characteristic of her
features. Her companion, too, gazed
mournfully at her, with eyes to which
the tears seemed about to start.
"Herbert," said the young girl,
stooping towards her lover, "Herbert,
be not so sad! we are both too young
to despair of life. Herbert! better
times will come."
"Christine! they have refused me
your hand, expelled me your dwelling,—they
would separate us entirely:
they will succeed, to-morrow perhaps!..."
"Never!" exclaimed the young girl,
with a glance like the lightning's flash.
But, like that flash, the expression of
energy was momentary, and gave
way to one of calm melancholy.
"If you would, Christine, if you
would!... how easy were it to fly
together, to unite our destinies on a
foreign shore, and to live for each
other, happy and forgotten!... I
will lead you to those glorious lands
where the sun shines as you see it in
your dreams,—to the summit of lofty
mountains whence the eye discovers a
boundless horizon,—to noble forests
with their thousand tints of green,
where the fresh breeze shall quicken
your cheek, and sweep from your
memory these fogs, this humid clime,
these monotonous plains. Our days
shall pass happily in a country worthy
of our loves."
As Herbert spoke, the young girl
grew animated; she seemed to see
what he described, her eager eye
sought the horizon as though she
would overleap it, her lips parted as
to inhale the mountain breeze. Then
she passed her hand hastily across her
eyes, and sighed deeply. "No!" she
exclaimed, "no, I must remain here!...
Herbert, it is my country:
why does it make me suffer? I remember
another sky, another land,—but
no, it is a dream! I was born
here, and have scarcely passed the
boundary of this meadow. My mother
sang too often beside my cradle
the ballads and boleros of her native
Seville; she told me too much of
Spain, and I love that unknown
land as one pines after an absent
friend!"
The young girl glanced at the river,
over which a dense fog was spreading.
A few rain-drops pattered amongst the
leaves; she crossed her mantle on her
breast, and her whole frame shivered
with sudden chill.
"Leave me, Christine, you suffer!
return home, and, since you reject my
roof and hearth, abide with those who
can shelter and warm you."
A sweet smile played upon Christine's
lips. "My beloved," she said,
"near you I prefer the chilling rain,
this rough branch, and the biting
wind, to my seat in the house, far
from you, beside the blazing chimney.
Ah! with what joy and confidence
would I start on foot for the farthest
corner of the earth, your arm my sole
support, your love my only wealth.
But ..."
"What retains you, Christine? your
father's affection, your sisters' tenderness,
your happy home?"
The young girl grew pale. "Herbert,
it is cruel to speak thus. Well
do I know that my father loves me not,
that my sisters are often unkind to
me, that my home is unhappy; I
know it, indeed I know it, and I will
follow you ... if my mother consents!"
Herbert looked at his mistress
with astonishment. "Child!" he exclaimed,
"such consent will never
leave your mother's lips. There are
cases where strength and resolution
must be found in one's own heart.
Your mother will never say yes."
"Perhaps!" replied Christine,
slowly and gravely. "My mother
loves me; I resemble her in most
things, and her heart understands
mine. She knows that Scripture
says a woman shall leave her father
and mother to follow her husband;
she is aware of our attachment, and,
since our door has been closed against
you, I have not shed a tear that she
has not detected and replied to by
another. You misjudge my mother,
Herbert! Something tells me she
has suffered, and knows that a little
happiness is essential to life as the air
we breathe. Nor would it surprise
me, if one day, when embracing me,
as she does each night when we are
alone, she were to whisper: Begone,
my poor child!"
"I cannot think it, Christine. She
will bid you obey, be comforted,
forget!"
"Forget! Herbert, my mother
forgets nothing. To forget is the
resource of cowardly hearts. No,—none
will bid me forget."
And once more a gloomy fire flashed
in Christine's eyes, like the rapid
passage of a flame which illumines
and instantly expires. It was a revelation
of the future rather than the
expression of the present. An ardent
soul dwelt within her, but had not yet
cast off all the encumbrances of childhood.
It struggled to make its way,
and at times, succeeding for a moment,
a word or cry revealed its presence.
"No—I shall not forget," added
Christine; "I love you, and you love
me, who am so little loved! You find
me neither foolish, nor fantastical, nor
capricious; you understand my reveries
and the thousand strange thoughts
that invade my heart. I am very
young, Herbert; and yet, here, with
my hand in yours, I answer for the
future. I shall always love you!...
and see, I do not weep. I have faith
in the happiness of our love; how?
when? I know not,—it is the secret
of my Creator, who would not have
sent me upon earth only to suffer.
Happiness will come when He deems
right, but come it will! Yes,—I am
young, full of life, I have need of air
and space; I shall not live enclosed
and smothered here. The world is
large, and I will know it; my heart
is full of love, and will love for ever.
No tears, dearest! obstacles shall be
overcome, they must give way, for
I will be happy!"
"But why delay, Christine? My
love! my wife! an opportunity lost
may never be regained. A minute
often decides the fate of a lifetime.
Perhaps, at this very moment, happiness
is near us! A leap into my
boat, a few strokes of the oar, and we
are united for ever!... Perhaps,
if you again return to land, we are
for ever separated. Christine, come!
The wind rises: beneath my feet is a
sail that will quickly swell and bear
us away rapidly as the wings of
yon bird."
Tears flowed fast over Christine's
burning cheeks. She shuddered,
looked at her lover, at the horizon,
thought of liberty; she hesitated,
and a violent struggle agitated her
soul. At last, hiding her face amongst
the leafage of the willow, she clasped
her arms round its stem, as if to withhold
herself from entering the boat,
and in a stifled voice muttered the
words,—"My mother!" A few seconds
afterwards, she, raised her pallid
countenance.
"If I fled," said she gently, "to
whom would my mother speak of her
dear country? Who would weep
with her when she weeps, if I were
gone? She has other children, but
they are gay and happy, and do not
resemble her. Only my mother and
myself are sad in our house. My
mother would die of my absence. I
must receive her farewell blessing or
remain by her side, chilled like her
by this inclement climate, imprisoned
in yonder walls, ill-treated by those
who love me not. Herbert, I will
not fly, I will wait!" And she made
a movement to regain the strand.
"One instant,—yet one second,—Christine!
I know not what chilling
presentiment oppresses my heart.
Dearest,—if we were to meet no
more! If this little corner of earth
were our last trysting-place—these
melancholy willows the witnesses of
of our eternal separation! Is it—can
it be—the last happy hour of my life
that has just slipped by?"
He covered his face with his hands,
to conceal his tears. Christine's heart
beat violently—but she had courage.
Letting herself drop from the tree,
she stood upon the bank, separated
from the boat, which could not come
nearer to shore.
"Adieu, Herbert!" said she, "one
day I will be your wife, faithful and
loving. It shall be, for I will have
it so. Let us both pray God to hasten
that happy day. Adieu, I love you!
Adieu, and till our next meeting, for
I love you!"
The barrier of reeds and willows
opened before the young girl. A few
small branches crackled beneath her
tread; there was a slight noise in the
grass and bushes, as when a bird takes
flight; then all was silence.
Herbert wept.
The clock in the red brick house
struck eight, and the family of Van
Amberg the merchant were mustered
in the breakfast-room. Christine was
the only absentee. Near the fire
stood the head of the family—Karl
Van Amberg—and beside him his
brother, who, older than himself,
yielded the prerogative of seniority,
and left him master of the community.
Madame Van Amberg was
working near a window, and her two
elder daughters, fair-haired, white-skinned
Dutchwomen, prepared the
breakfast.
Karl Van Amberg, the dreaded
chief of this family, was of lofty
stature; his gait was stiff; his physiognomy
passionless. His face,
whose features at first appeared insignificant,
denoted a domineering temper.
His manners were cold. He
spoke little; never to praise, but often
in terms of dry and imperious censure.
His glance preceded his
words and rendered them nearly
superfluous, so energetically could
that small sunken gray eye make
itself understood. With the sole aid
of his own patience and ambition,
Karl Van Amberg had made a large
fortune. His ships covered the seas.
Never loved, always respected, his
credit was every where excellent.
Absolute monarch in his own house,
none dreamed of opposing his will.
All were mute and awed in his presence.
At this moment, he was
leaning against the chimney-piece.
His black garments were very plain,
but not devoid of a certain austere
elegance.
William Van Amberg, Karl's
brother, was quite of an opposite
character. He would have passed
his life in poverty, subsisting on the
scanty income left him by his parents,
had not Karl desired wealth. He
placed his modest fortune in his
brother's hands, saying, "Act as for
yourself!" Attached to his native
nook of land, he lived in peace,
smoking and smiling, and learning
from time to time that he was a richer
man by a few hundred thousand
francs. One day, he was told that
he possessed a million; in reply, he
merely wrote, "Thanks, Karl; it
will be for your children." Then he
forgot his riches, and changed nothing
in his manner of life, even adhering
in his dress to the coarse materials
and graceless fashion of a peasant
dreading the vicinity of cities. His
youthful studies had consisted of a
course of theology. His father, a
fervent Catholic, destined him for
the church, but it came to pass, as a
consequence of his indecision of
character, that William neither took
orders nor married, but lived quietly
in his brother's family. The habitual
perusal of religious books sometimes
gave his language a mystical tone,
contrasting with the rustic simplicity
of his exterior. This was his only
peculiarity; otherwise he had nothing
remarkable but his warm heart and
strong good sense. He was the primitive
type of his family: his brother
was an example of the change caused
by newly acquired wealth.
Madame Van Amberg, seated at
the window, sewed in silence. Her
countenance had the remains of great
beauty, but she was weak and suffering.
A single glance sufficed to fix
her birth-place far from Holland. Her
black hair and olive tint betrayed a
southern origin. Silently submissive
to her husband, his iron character had
pressed heavily upon this delicate
creature. She had never murmured;
now she was dying, but without complaint.
Her look was one of deep
melancholy. Christine, her third
daughter, resembled her. Of dark
complexion, like her mother, she contrasted
strongly with her rosy-cheeked
sisters. M. Van Amberg did not love
Christine. Rough and cold, even to
those he secretly cherished, he was
severe and cruel to those he disliked.
He had never been known to kiss
Christine. Her mother's were the
only caresses she knew, and even
those were stealthily and tearfully bestowed.
The two poor women hid
themselves to love each other.
At intervals, Madame Van Amberg
coughed painfully. The damp climate
of Holland was slowly conducting to
her grave the daughter of Spain's
ardent land. Her large melancholy
eyes mechanically sought the monotonous
horizon, which had bounded
her view for twenty years. Fog and
rain surrounded the house. She gazed,
shivered as if seized with deadly cold,
then resumed her work.
Eight o'clock had just struck, and
the two young Dutchwomen, who,
although rich heiresses, waited upon
their father, had just placed the tea
and smoked beef upon the table, when
Karl Van Amberg turned abruptly to
his wife.
"Where is your daughter, Madam?"
He spoke of Christine, whom the
restless gaze of Madame Van Amberg
vainly sought through the fog veiling
the garden. At her husband's question,
the lady rose, opened the door,
and, leaning on the banister, twice
uttered her daughter's name. There
was no reply; she grew pale and again
looked out anxiously through the fog.
"Go in, Madame," was the surly
injunction of Gothon, the old servant
woman, who knelt on the hall flags,
which she had flooded with soap and
water, and was now vigorously scrubbing;
"Go in, madame; the damp
increases your cough, and Mademoiselle
Christine is far enough away!
The bird flew before daybreak."
Madame Van Amberg cast a mournful
glance across the meadow, where
nothing moved, and into the parlour,
where her stern husband awaited her;
then she went in and sat down at the
table, around which the remainder of
the family had already placed themselves.
No one spoke. All could
read displeasure upon M. Van Amberg's
countenance, and none dared
attempt to change the course of his
ideas. His wife kept her eyes fixed
upon the window, hoping her
daughter's return. Her lips scarcely
tasted the milk that filled her cup;
visible anguish increased the paleness
of her sweet, sad countenance.
"Annunciata, my dear, take some
tea," said her brother-in-law. "The
day is chill and damp, and you seem
to suffer."
Annunciata smiled sadly at William.
For sole answer she raised to her lips
the tea he offered her, but the effort
was too painful, and she replaced the
cup upon the table. M. Van Amberg
looked at nobody; he ate, his eyes
fixed upon his plate.
"Sister," resumed William, "it is
a duty to care for one's health, and
you, who fulfil all your duties, should
not neglect that one."
A slight flush tinged the brow of
Annunciata. Her eyes encountered
those of her husband, which he
slowly turned towards her. Trembling,
almost weeping, she ceased her
attempts to eat. And the silence was
again unbroken, as at the commencement
of the meal. At last steps were
heard in the passage, the old servant
grumbled something which did not
reach the parlour, then the door
opened, and Christine entered; her
muslin dress damp with fog, her graceful
curls disordered by the wind, her
black mantle glittering with a thousand
little rain-drops. She was crimson
with embarrassment and fear. Her
empty chair was beside her mother;
she sat down, and hung her head;
none offered aught to the truant child,
and the silence continued. Yielding
to maternal anxiety, Madame Van
Amberg took a handkerchief and
wiped the moisture from Christine's
forehead and hair; then she took
her hands to warm them in her own.
For the second time M. Van Amberg
looked at his wife. She let
Christine's hands fall, and remained
downcast and motionless as her
daughter. M. Van Amberg rose from
table. A tear glistened on the mother's
eyes on seeing that her daughter had
not eaten. But she said nothing,
and returning to the window, resumed
her sewing. Christine remained at
table, preserving her frightened and
abashed attitude. The two eldest
girls hastened to remove the breakfast
things.
"Do you not see what Wilhelmina
and Maria are about? Can you not
help them?"
At her father's voice, Christine
hastily rose, seized the cups and teapot,
and hurried to and fro from parlour
to pantry.
"Gently! You will break something!"
cried M. Van Amberg.
"Begin in time, to finish without
hurry."
Christine stood still in the middle of
the room. Her two sisters smiled as
they passed her, and one of them muttered—for
nobody spoke loud in M.
Van Amberg's presence,—"Christine
will hardly learn housekeeping by
looking at the stars and watching the
river flow!"
"Now then, Mademoiselle, you are
spoiling every thing here!" said the
old servant, who had just come in;
"go and change that wet gown, which
ruins all my furniture."
Christine remained where she was,
not daring to stir without the master's
order.
"Go," said M. Van Amberg.
The young girl darted from the
room and up the stairs, reached her
chamber, threw herself upon the bed
and burst into tears. Below, Madame
Van Amberg continued to sew, her
head bent over her work. When the
cloth was removed, Wilhelmina and
Maria placed a large jug of beer,
glasses, long pipes, and a store of
tobacco upon the mahogany table, and
pushed forward two arm-chairs, in
which Karl and William installed
themselves.
"Retire to your apartment,
Madam," said M. Van Amberg, in
the imperious tone habitual to him
when he addressed his wife; "I have
to discuss matters which do not concern
you. Do not leave the house;
will call you bye and bye; I wish
to speak with you."
Annunciata bowed in token of obedience,
and left the room. Wilhelmina
and Maria approached their
father, who silently kissed their pretty
cheeks. The two brothers lit their
pipes, and remained alone. William
was the first to speak.
"Brother Karl!" said he, resting
his arms upon the table, and looking
M. Van Amberg in the face, "before
proceeding to business, and at risk of
offending you, I must relieve my
heart. Here, all fear you, and counsel,
the salutary support of man, is
denied you."
"Speak, William," coldly replied
M. Van Amberg.
"Karl, you treat Annunciata very
harshly. God commands you to protect
her, and you allow her to suffer,
perhaps to die before your eyes, without
caring for her fate. The strong
should sustain the weak. In our
native land, we owe kindness to the
stranger who cometh from afar. The
husband owes protection to her he
has chosen for his wife. For all these
reasons, brother, I say you treat Annunciata
ill."
"Does she complain?" said M.
Van Amberg, filling his glass.
"No, brother; only the strong resist
and complain. A tree falls with
a crash, the reed bends noiselessly to
the ground. No, she does not complain,
save by silence and suffering,
by constant and passive obedience,
like that of a soul-less automaton.
You have deprived her of life, the
poor woman! One day she will cease
to move and breathe; she has long
ceased to live!"
"Brother, there are words that
should not be inconsiderately spoken,
judgments that should not be hastily
passed, for fear of injustice."
"Do I not know your whole life,
Karl, as well as my own, and can I
not therefore speak confidently, as
one well informed?"
M. Van Amberg inhaled the smoke
of his pipe, threw himself back in his
arm-chair, and made no reply.
"I know you as I know myself,"
resumed William gently, "although
our hearts were made to love and not
to resemble each other. When you
found our father's humble dwelling
too small, I said nothing; you were
ambitious; when a man is born with
that misfortune or blessing, he must do
like the birds, who have wings to
soar; he must strive to rise. You
departed; I pressed your hand, and
reproached you not; it is right that
each man should be happy his own
way. You gained much gold, and
gave me more than I needed. You
returned married, and I did not approve
your marriage. It is wiser to
seek a companion in the land where
one's days are to end; it is something
to love the same places and things, and
then it is only generous to leave one's
wife a family, friends, well-known
objects to gaze upon. It is counting
greatly on one's self to take sole charge
of her happiness. Happiness sometimes
consists of so many things!
Often an imperceptible atom serves
as base to its vast structure: for my
part, I do not like presumptuous experiments
on the hearts of others. In
short, you married a foreigner, who
perishes with cold in this country,
and sighs, amidst our fogs, for the sun
of Spain. You committed a still
greater fault—Forgive me, brother;
I speak plainly, in order not to return
to this subject.
"I am attending to you, William;
you are my elder brother."
"Thanks for your patience, Karl.
No longer young, you married a very
young woman. Your affairs took
you to Spain. There you met a needy
Spanish noble, to whom you rendered
a weighty service. You were always
generous, and increasing wealth did
not close your hand. This noble had
a daughter, a child of fifteen. In spite
of your apparent coldness, you were
smitten by her beauty, and you asked
her of her father. Only one thing
struck you; that she was poor and
would be enriched by the marriage.
A refusal of your offer would have
been ingratitude to a benefactor.
They gave you Annunciata, and you
took her, brother, without looking
whether joy was in her eyes, without
asking the child whether she
willingly followed you, without interrogating
her heart. In that country
the heart is precocious in its awakening
... perhaps she left behind her
some youthful dream ... some
early love.... Forgive me,
Karl; the subject is difficult to
discuss."
"Change it, William," said M.
Van Amberg coldly.
"Be it so. You returned hither,
and when your business again took
you forth upon the ocean, you left Annunciata
to my care. She lived many
years with me in this house. Karl,
her youth was joyless and sad. Isolated
and silent, she wore out her
days without pleasure or variety.
Your two eldest daughters, now the
life of our dwelling, were then in the
cradle. They were no society to their
mother; I was a very grave companion
for that young and beautiful
creature. I have little reading and
knowledge, no imagination; I like my
quiet arm-chair, my old books, and
my pipe. I at first allowed myself to
believe—because I loved to believe
it—that Annunciata resembled me,—that
tranquillity and a comfortable
dwelling would suffice for her happiness,
as they sufficed for mine. But at last I
understood—what you, brother, I fear
have never comprehended—that she
was never intended for a Dutch housewife.
In the first place, the climate
tortured her. She constantly asked
me if finer summers would not come,—if
the winters were always so
rigorous,—the fogs so frequent. I
told her no, that the year was a bad
one; but I told her a falsehood, for
the winters were always the same.
At first she tried to sing her Sevillian
romances and boleros, but soon her
song died away and she wept, for it
reminded her too much of her own
native land. Silent and motionless
she sat, desiring, as I have read in the
Bible,—'The wings of the dove to
fly away and be at rest.' Brother, it
was a melancholy sight. You know
not how slowly the winter evenings
passed in this parlour. It was dark at
four, and she worked by lamp-light
till bed-time. I endeavoured to converse,
but she knew nothing of the
things I knew, and I was ignorant of
those that interested her. I saw at
last that the greatest kindness was to
leave her to herself. She worked or
was idle, wept or was calm, and I
averted my eyes to give her the only
consolation in my power,—a little
liberty. But it was very sad,
brother!"
There was a moment's silence,
broken by M. Van Amberg. "Madame
Van Amberg was in her own
dwelling," said he, severely, "with
her children, and under the protection
of a devoted friend. Her
husband toiled in foreign parts to
increase the fortune of the family;
she remained at home to keep house
and educate her daughters; all that is
very natural." And he filled his
pipe.
"True," replied William; "but
still she was unhappy. Was it a
crime? God will decide. Leave her
to his justice, Karl, and let us be
merciful! During your long absence,
chance conducted hither some Spaniards
whom Annunciata had known
in her childhood, and amongst them
the son of an old friend of her father's.
Oh! with what mingled joy and
agitation did the dear child welcome
her countrymen! What tears she
shed in the midst of her joy ...
for she had forgotten how to be happy,
and every emotion made her weep.
How eagerly she heard and spoke her
native tongue! She fancied herself
again in Spain; for a while she was
almost happy. You returned, brother,
and you were cruel; one day,
without explaining your motives, you
shut your door upon the strangers.
Tell me, why would you not allow
fellow-countrymen, friends, a companion
of her childhood, to speak to
your wife of her family and native
land? Why require complete isolation,
and a total rupture with old
friends? She obeyed without a
murmur, but she suffered more than
you thought. I watched her closely;
I, her old friend. Since that fresh proof
of your rigour, she is sadder than
before. A third time she became a
mother; it was in vain; her unhappiness
continued. Brother, your hand
has been too heavy on this feeble
creature."
M. Van Amberg rose, and slowly
paced the room. "Have you finished,
William?" said he; "this conversation
is painful, let it end here; do not
abuse the license I give you."
"No; I have yet more to say.
You are a cold and severe husband,
but that is not all; you are also an
unjust father. Christine, your third
daughter, is denied her share of your
affection, and by this partiality you
further wound the heart of Annunciata.
Christine resembles her; she
is what I can fancy her mother at
fifteen—a lively and charming Spaniard;
she has all her mother's tastes;
like her she lives with difficulty in
our climate, and although born in it,
by a caprice of nature she suffers from
it as Annunciata suffered. Brother,
the child is not easy to manage;
independent, impassioned, violent in
all her impressions, she has a love of
movement and liberty which ill agrees
with our regular habits, but she has
also a good heart, and by appealing to
it you might perhaps have tamed her
wild spirit. For Christine you are
neither more nor less than a pitiless
judge. Her childhood was one long
grief. And thus, far from losing her
wild restlessness, she loves more than
ever to be abroad and at liberty; she
goes out at daybreak; she looks upon
the house as a cage whose bars hurt
her, and you vainly endeavour to
restrain her. Brother, if you would
have obedience, show affection. It is
a power that succeeds when all others
fail. Why prevent her marrying the
man she loves? Herbert the student
is not rich, nor is his alliance brilliant;
but they love each other!"
M. Van Amberg, who had continued
his walk, now stopped short,
and coldly replied to his brother's
accusations; "Christine is only fifteen,
and I do my duty by curbing the
foolish passion that prematurely disturbs
her reason. As to what you
call my partiality, you have explained
it yourself by the defects of her character.
You, who reproach others as
pitiless judges, beware yourself of
judging too severely. Every man acts
according to his internal perceptions,
and all things are not good to be
spoken. Empty your glass, William,
and if you have finished your pipe, do
not begin another. The business
I had to discuss with you will keep
till another day; it is late, and I am
tired. It is not always wise to rake
up the memories of the past. I wish
to be alone a while. Leave me, and
tell Madame Van Amberg to come
to me in a quarter of an hour."
"Why not say, 'Tell Annunciata?'
Why, for so long a time, has that
strange sweet name never passed
your lips?"
"Tell Madame Van Amberg I
would speak with her, and leave me,
brother," replied Karl sternly.
William felt he had pushed Karl Van
Amberg's patience to its utmost limit;
he got up and left the room. At the
foot of the stairs he hesitated a moment,
then ascended, and sought
Annunciata in Christine's chamber.
It was a narrow cell, shining with
cleanliness, and containing a few
flowers in glasses, a wooden crucifix,
with chaplets of beads hanging on
it, and a snow-white bed; a guitar
(it was her mother's) was suspended
on the wall. From the window was
seen the meadow, the river, and the
willows. Christine sat on the foot of
the bed, still weeping; her mother
was beside her, offering her bread and
milk, with which Christine's tears
mingled. Annunciata kissed her
daughter's eyes, and then furtively
wiped her own. On entering,
William stood for a few moments at
the door, mournfully contemplating
this touching picture.
"My brother, my good brother,"
cried Annunciata, "speak to my
child! She has forgotten prayer and
obedience; her heart is no longer submissive,
and her tears avail nothing,
for she murmurs and menaces. Ask
her, brother, by whom it was told her
that life is joy? that we live only to be
happy? Talk to her of duty, and
give her strength to accomplish it!"
"Your husband inquires for you,
sister. Go, I will remain with Christine."
"I go, my brother," replied Annunciata.
Approaching the little
mirror above the chimney-piece, she
washed the tear-stains from her eyes,
pressed her hand upon her heart to
check its throbbings, and when her
countenance had resumed its expression
of calm composure, she descended
the stairs. Gothon was seated on the
lower steps.
"You spoil her, madame," said she
roughly to her mistress; "foolish ears
need sharp words. You spoil her."
Gothon had been in the house before
Annunciata, and had been greatly
displeased by the arrival of her
master's foreign lady, whose authority
she never acknowledged. But she
had served the Van Ambergs' mother,
and therefore it was without fear of
dismissal that she oppressed, after her
own fashion, her timid and gentle
mistress.
Annunciata entered the parlour and
remained standing near the door as if
waiting an order. Her husband's
countenance was graver and more
gloomy than ever.
"Can no one hear us, madam?
Are you sure we are alone?"
"Quite alone, sir," replied the
astonished Annunciata.
M. Van Amberg recommenced his
walk. For some moments he said
nothing. His wife, her hand resting
on the back of an arm-chair, silently
awaited his pleasure. At last he
again spoke.
"You bring up your daughter
Christine badly; I left her to your
care and guidance, and you do not
watch over her. Do you know where
she goes and what she does?"
"From her childhood, sir," replied
Annunciata gently, pausing between
each phrase, "Christine has loved to
live in the open air. She is delicate,
and requires sun and liberty to
strengthen her. Till now you have
allowed her to live thus; I saw no
harm in letting her follow her natural
bent. If you disapprove, sir, she
will obey your orders."
"You bring up your daughter
badly," coldly repeated M. Van Amberg.
"She will dishonour the name
she bears."
"Sir!!" exclaimed Annunciata,
her cheeks suffused with the deepest
crimson; her eyes emitting a momentary
but vivid flash.
"Look to it, madam, I will have
my name respected, that you know!
You also know I am informed of whatever
passes in my house. Your
daughter secretly meets a man to
whom I refused her hand; this morning,
at six o'clock, they were together
on the river bank!"
"My daughter! my daughter!"—cried
Annunciata in disconsolate tones.
"Oh! it is impossible! She is innocent!
she shall remain so! I will
place myself between her and evil,
I will save my child! I will take
her in my arms, and close her ears to
dangerous words. My daughter, I
will say, remain innocent, remain
honoured, if you would not see me
die!"
With unmoved eye M. Van Amberg
beheld the mother's emotion.
Beneath his frozen gaze, Annunciata
felt embarrassed by her own agitation;
she made an effort to calm herself;
then, with clasped hands, and
eyes filled with tears, which she would
not allow to flow, she resumed, in a
constrained voice:
"Is this beyond doubt, sir?"
"It is," replied M. Van Amberg:
"I never accuse without certainty."
There was a moment's silence. M.
Van Amberg again spoke.
"You will lock Christine in her
room, and bring me the key. She
will have time to reflect, and I trust
reflexion will be of service to her; in
a prolonged seclusion she will lose
that love of motion and liberty which
leads her into harm; the silence of
complete solitude will allay the
tumult of her thoughts. None shall
enter her room, save Gothon, who
shall take her her meals, and return
me the key. This is what I have decided
upon as proper."
Madame Van Amberg's lips opened
several times to speak, but her
courage failed her. At last she advanced
a pace or two.
"But I, sir, I," said she in a stifled
voice, "I am to see my child!"
"I said no one," replied M. Van
Amberg.
"But she will despair, if none
sustain her. I will be severe with
her; you may be assured I will! Let
me see her, if only once a-day.
She may fall ill of grief, and who will
know it? Gothon dislikes her. For
pity's sake, let me see Christine!
For a minute only, a single minute."
M. Van Amberg once more stood
still, and fixed upon his wife a look
that made her stagger. "Not another
word!" he said. "I allow no discussion,
madam. No one shall see
Christine; do you hear?"
"I will obey," replied Annunciata.
"Convey my orders to your
daughter. At dinner bring me the
key of her room. Go."
Madame Van Amberg found Christine
alone, seated on her bed, and
exhausted by long weeping. Her
beautiful face, at times so energetic,
wore an expression of profound and
touching dejection. Her long hair
fell in disorder on her shoulders, her
figure was bent, as if weighed down
by grief; her rosary had fallen from
her half-open hand; she had tried to
obey her mother and to pray, but had
been able only to weep. Her black
mantle, still damp with rain, lay upon
a table, a few willow sprays peeping
from its silken folds. Christine eyed
them with mingled love and melancholy.
She thought it a century since
she saw the sun rise on the river, on
the old trees, and on Herbert's skiff.
Her mother slowly approached her.
"My child," said she, "where were
you at daybreak this morning?"
Christine raised her eyes to her
mother's face, looked at her, but did
not answer. Annunciata repeated
her question without change of word
or tone. Then Christine let herself
slide from the bed to the ground, and
kneeled before her mother.
"I was seated," said she, "upon
the trunk of a willow that overhangs
the stream. I was near Herbert's
boat."
"Christine!" exclaimed Madame
Van Amberg, "can it be true? Oh,
my child, could you so infringe the
commands laid upon you! Could you
thus forget my lessons and advice!
Christine, you thought not of me when
you committed that fault!"
"Herbert said to me, 'Come, you
shall be my wife, I will love you eternally,
you shall be free and happy;
all is ready for our marriage and our
flight; come!' I replied, 'I will
not leave my mother!' Mother, you
have been my safeguard; if it be a
crime to follow Herbert, it is the
thought of you alone that prevented
my committing it. I would not leave
my mother!"
A beam of joy illumined Annunciata's
countenance. Murmuring a
thanksgiving to God, she raised her
kneeling child and seated her by her
side.
"Speak to me, Christine," she said,
"open your heart, and tell me all your
thoughts. Together we will regret
your faults, and seek hope for the
future. Speak, my daughter; conceal
nothing."
Christine laid her head upon her
mother's shoulder, put one of her
little hands in hers, sighed deeply,
as though her heart were too oppressed
for words, and spoke at last with
effort and fatigue.
"Mother," she said, "I have
nothing to confess that you do not
already know. I love Herbert. He
is but a poor student, intrusted to my
father's care, but he has a noble heart—like
mine, somewhat sad. He knows
much, and he is gentle to those who
know nothing. Poor, he is proud as
a king: he loves, and he tells it only
to her who knows it. My mother, I
love Herbert! He asked my hand of
my father, whose reply was a smile of
scorn. Then he was kept from me,
and I tried to exist without seeing him.
I could not do it. I made many
neuvaines on the rosary you gave me.
I had seen you weep and pray, mother,
and I said to myself—Now that I
weep as she does, I must also pray
like her. But it happened once, as
day broke, that I saw a small boat
descend the stream, then go up again,
and again descend; from time to time
a white sail fluttered in the air as one
flutters a kerchief to a departing
friend. My thoughts, then as now,
were on Herbert; I ran across the
meadow—I reached the stream.—Mother,
it was he! hoping and waiting
my coming. Long and mournfully we
bewailed our separation; fervently we
vowed to love each other till death.
This morning Herbert, discouraged
and weary of waiting a change in our
position, urged me to fly with him. I
might have fled, mother, but I thought
of you and remained. I have told you
all; if I have done wrong, forgive me,
dearest mother!"
With deep emotion Madame Van
Amberg listened to her daughter,
and remained buried in reflection,
when Christina paused. She felt
that the young girl's suffering heart
needed gentle lessons, affectionate
advice; and, instead of these, she was
the bearer of a sentence whose severity
must aggravate the evil—she was
compelled to deny her sick child the
remedies that might have saved her.
"You love him very dearly then,"
said she at last, fixing a long melancholy
look on her daughter's countenance.
"Oh, mother!" exclaimed Christine,
"I love him with all my soul! My life
is passed in expecting, seeing, remembering
him! I could never make you
comprehend how entirely my heart is
his. Often I dream of dying for him,
not to save his life, that were too easy
and natural, but uselessly, at his
command."
"Hush! Christine, hush! you
frighten me," cried Annunciata, placing
both hands upon her daughter's mouth.
By a quick movement Christine disengaged
herself from her mother's arms.
"Ah!" she exclaimed, "you know
not what it is to love as I do! My
father could never let himself be
loved thus!"
"Be silent, my child! be silent!"
repeated Annunciata energetically.
"Oh, my daughter! how to instil
into your heart thoughts of peace and
duty! Almighty Father! bless my
weak words, that they may touch her
soul! Christine, hear me!"
Annunciata took her daughter's
hands, and compelled her to stand
before her. "My child," she said,
"you know nothing of life; you walk
at random, and are about to wander
from the right path. All young hearts
have been troubled as yours is now.
The noble ones have struggled and triumphed;
the others have fallen! Life
is no easy and pleasant passage; its
trials are many and painful—its
struggles severe; believe me, for us
women there is no true happiness
without the bounds of duty. And
when happiness is not our destiny,
many great things still remain to us.
Honour, the esteem of others, are not
mere empty words. Hear me, beloved
child! That God, whom from
your infancy I have taught you to love,
do you not fear offending him? Seek
Him, and you will find better consolation
than I can offer. Christine, we
love in God those from whom we are
severed on earth. He, who in his
infinite wisdom imposed so many
fetters on the heart of woman, foresaw
the sacrifices they would entail,
and surely he has kept treasures of
love for hearts that break in obedience
to duty."
Annunciata rapidly wiped the tears
inundating her fine countenance; then
clasping, Christine's arm—
"On your knees, my child! on our
knees both of us before the Christ I
gave you! 'Tis nearly dark, and yet
we still discern Him—his arms seeming
to open for us. Bless and save
and console my child, oh merciful
God! Appease her heart; make it
humble and obedient!"
Her prayer at an end, she rose, and
throwing her arms round Christine,
who had passively allowed herself to
be placed on her knees and lifted up
again, she embraced her tenderly,
pressed her to her heart, and bathed
her hair with tears. "My daughter,"
she murmured between her kisses,
"my daughter, speak to me! Utter
one word that I may take with me as
a hope! My child, will you not speak
to your mother?"
"Mother, I love Herbert!" was
Christine's reply.
Annunciata looked despairingly at
her child, at the crucifix upon the
wall, at the darkening sky seen through
the open window. The dinner-bell
rang. Madame Van Amberg made a
strong effort to collect and express
her ideas.
"M. Van Amberg," said she in
broken voice, "orders you to remain
in your room. I am to take him the
key. You are to see no one. The
hour is come, and he expects me."
"A prisoner!" cried Christine;
"A prisoner,—alone, all day! Death
rather than that!"
"He will have it so," repeated
Annunciata, mournfully; "I must
obey. He will have it so." And she
approached the door, casting upon
Christine a look of such ineffable love
and grief, that the young girl, fascinated
by the gaze, let her depart
without opposition. The key turned
in the lock, and Annunciata, supporting
herself by the banister, slowly descended.
She found M. Van Amberg alone
in the parlour.
"You have been a long time up
stairs," said he. "Have you convinced
yourself that your daughter
saw the student Herbert this morning?"
"She did," murmured Annunciata.
"You have told her my orders?"
"I have done so."
"Where is the key?" She gave
it him.
"Now to dinner," said M. Van
Amberg, walking into the dining-room.
Annunciata endeavoured to follow him,
but her strength failed her, and she
sank upon a chair.
M. Van Amberg sat down alone to
his dinner.
"A prisoner!" repeated Christine
in her solitude; "apart from all!
shut up! Yon meadow was too wide
a range; the house too spacious a
prison. I must have a narrower cell,
with more visible walls—a straiter
captivity! They deprive me of the
little air I breathed—the scanty liberty
I found means to enjoy!"
She opened the window to its
full extent; leaned upon the sill, and
looked at the sky. It was very dark;
heavy clouds hid the stars; no
light fell upon the earth; different
shades of obscurity alone marked the
outlines of objects. The willows, so
beautiful when Herbert and the sun
were there, were now a black and
motionless mass; dead silence reigned
around. In view of nature thus lifeless
and lightless, hopes of happiness
could hardly enter the heart. Christine
was in a fever: she felt oppressed and
crushed by unkindly influences, by the
indifference of friends, by a tyrant's
will, even by the cold and mournful
night. The young girl's heart beat
quickly and rebelliously.
"Be it so!" she exclaimed aloud;
"let them have their way! They may
render me unhappy; I will not complain.
They sanctify my love by persecution.
Happy, I should perhaps
have been ashamed to love so much.
But they rob me of air and liberty; I
suffer; I weep. Ah! I feel proud
that my heart still throbs with joy in
the midst of so many evils. My
sufferings will hallow my love, will
compel the respect of those who
scoffed and slighted it. Herbert! dear
Herbert! where are you at this
moment? Do you joyfully anticipate
to-morrow's dawn: are you busy with
your boat, preparing it for its early
cruise? Or do you sleep, dreaming of
the old willows in the meadow, hearing
the waters murmur through their
branches, and the voice of Christine
promising her return? But no; it
cannot be; our hearts are too united
for their feelings thus to differ! You
are sad, my love, and you know not
why; I am sad with knowledge of
our misfortune—'tis the sole difference
separation can establish between us.
When shall we meet again, Herbert?
Alas! I know not, but meet we assuredly
shall. If God lets me live, he
will let me love you."
Christine shut the window and
threw herself on her bed without
undressing. It was cold; she wrapped
herself in her mantle, and gradually
her head sank upon her breast. Her
hands, at first pressed against each
other, opened and fell by her sides.
She dropped asleep, like an infant, in
the midst of her tears.
The first sun-rays, feeble though
they were, awoke Christine, who
sprang hastily from her couch. "Herbert
waits for me!" she exclaimed.
At her age memory is better for joy
than for sorrow. For her the dawn
of day was still a rendezvous of love.
The next moment she awoke to the
consciousness of her captivity. She
went to the window, leaned out as
on the previous evening, and looked
mournfully around. In a corner of the
heavens was a glow of light, intercepted
by billows of cloud. The pale
foliage of the willows shivered in the
breeze, which ruffled the leaves without
bending the branches; the long
fine grass of the meadow was seen
through a veil of fog, as yet undispelled
by the sun. The sounds of awakening
nature had not yet begun, when a white
sail stood out upon the surface of the
stream, gliding lightly along like the
open wing of a graceful bird. It passed
to and fro in front of the meadow;
was lowered before the trees, and
then again displayed, bending the
boat's gunwale to the water's surface,
hovering continually around a point
of the bank, as though confined within
the circle of an invisible fascination.
At long intervals the wind brought a
faint and scarce perceptible sound,
like the last notes of a song; then the
little bark again manœuvred, and its
sail flapped in the air. The pale tints
of dawn gave way to the warmer
sunbeams; passengers appeared upon
the bank; trading boats ascended the
river; the windows of the red brick
house opened as if to inhale the morning
air. The boat lowered its sail,
and floated slowly away at the will of
the current. Christine looked after it
and wept.
Twice during that day, Gothon
opened the door of the young girl's
chamber, and brought her a frugal
meal. Twice did Gothon depart
without uttering a word. The
whole day passed in silence and solitude.
Christine knew not how to get
rid of the weary hours. She knelt
before the crucifix, her alabaster
rosary in her hand, her head raised
towards the cross, and prayed. But
her prayer was for Herbert, to see
him again; she never dreamed of
praying to forget him. Then she
took down the guitar, passed round
her neck the faded blue riband, tied
on it at Seville, and which her mother
would never allow to be changed.
She struck a few chords of the songs
she best loved; but her voice was
choked, and her tears flowed more
abundantly when she tried to sing.
She collected the little sprays of willow,
and placed them in a book to
dry and preserve them. But the day
was very long; and the poor child
fluttered in her prison like a caged
bird, with an anguish that each
moment increased. Her head burned,
her bosom throbbed. At last night
came. Seated near the open window,
the cold calmed her a little. They
brought her no light, and time passed
more slowly than ever. She went to
bed, but, deprived of her accustomed
exercise, tormented by a thousand
anxieties, she could not sleep; she
got up, walked about in the darkness,
and again lay down; slumber still
avoided her. This time her eyes, red
with tears and watchfulness, beheld
the sunrise without illusion; she did
not for a moment forget her captivity,
but looked mournfully out at
the little sail which, faithful to its
rendezvous, came each morning with
the sun. Again, none but Gothon
disturbed her solitude. During another
long day, Christine, alternately
desponding and excited, walked,
wept, lamented, and prayed. Night
came again. Nothing broke the
silence; the lights in the red house
were extinguished one after the other.
Profound darkness covered the earth.
Christine remained at her window,
insensible to cold. Suddenly she
started: she heard her name pronounced
in low tones at the foot of
the wall. She listened.
"Christine, my daughter!" repeated
the voice.
"Mother," exclaimed Christine,
"you out in this dreadful weather!
I conjure you to go in!"
"I have been two days in bed, my
child; I have been unwell; to-night
I am better; I felt it impossible to
remain longer without seeing you,
who are my life, my strength, my
health! Oh! you were right not to
leave me; it would have killed me.
How are you, dear Christine? Have
you all you require? How do you
live, deprived of my caresses?"
"Dearest mother, for heaven's
sake, go in! The night is damp and
cold; it will be your death!"
"Your voice warms me; it is far
from you that I feel chill and faint.
Dearest child, my heart sends you a
thousand kisses."
"I receive them on my knees,
mother, my arms extended towards
you. But, when shall I see you
again?"
"When you submit, and promise
to obey; when you no longer seek
him you are forbidden to see, and
whom you must forget. My daughter,
it is your duty."
"Oh mother, I thought your heart
could better understand what it never
felt. I thought you respected the
true sentiments of the soul, and that
your lips knew not how to utter the
word 'forget.' If I forgot, I should
be a mere silly child, capricious,
unruly, unworthy your tenderness.
If my malady is without remedy, I
am a steadfast woman, suffering and
self-sacrificing. Good God! How is
it you do not understand that?"
"I understand," murmured Annunciata,
but in so low a tone, that
she was sure her daughter could not
hear her.
"Mother," resumed Christine, "go
to my father! summon up that
courage which fails you when you
alone are concerned; speak boldly
to him, tell him what I have told you;
demand my liberty, my happiness."
"I!" exclaimed Annunciata in
terror, "I brave M. Van Amberg, and
oppose his will!"
"Not oppose, but supplicate! compel
his heart to understand what
mine experiences; force him to see
and hear and feel that my life may
cease, but not my love. Who can do
it, if you cannot? I am a captive.
My sisters know not love, my uncle
William has never known it. It
needs a woman's voice to express a
woman's feelings."
"Christine, you know not what
you ask. The effort is above my
strength."
"I ask a proof of my mother's
love; I am sure she will give it me."
"I shall die in so doing. M. Van
Amberg can kill me by a word."
Christine started and trembled.
"Do not go then, dearest mother.
Forgive my egotism; I thought only
of myself. If my father has such
terrible power, avoid his anger. I
will wait, and entreat none but
God."
There was a brief pause. "Christine,"
said Madame Van Amberg,
"since I am your only hope, your
sole reliance, and you have called me
to your aid, I will speak to him.
Our fate is in the hands of heaven."
Annunciata interrupted herself by
a cry of terror; a hand rudely grasped
her arm; M. Van Amberg, without
uttering a word, dragged her to the
house door, compelled her to enter,
took out the key, and made her pass
before him into the parlour. A lamp
burned dimly upon the table, its oil
nearly exhausted; at times it emitted
a bright flash, and then suddenly became
nearly extinguished. The corners
of the room were in darkness,
the doors and windows closed, perfect
silence reigned; the only object on
which a strong light fell, was the
countenance of M. Van Amberg. It
was calm, cold, motionless. His
great height, the piercing look of his
pale gray eyes, the austere regularity
of his features, combined to give him
the aspect of an implacable judge.
"You would speak with me,
madam," said he to Annunciata, "I
am here, speak!"
On entering the parlour, Annunciata
let herself fall into a chair. Her clothes
streamed with water; her hair, heavy
with rain, fell upon her shoulders,
her extreme paleness gave her the
appearance of a corpse rather than of
a living creature. Terror obliterated
memory, even of what had just
occurred, her mind was confused,
she felt only that she suffered horribly.
Her husband's voice and
words restored the chain of her ideas;
the poor woman thought of her child,
made a violent effort, rallied her
strength, and rose to her feet.
"Now then," she murmured,
"since it must be so!"
M. Van Amberg waited in silence,
his arms crossed upon his breast, his
eyes fixed upon his wife; he stood
like a statue, assisting neither by
word nor gesture the poor creature
who trembled before him. Annunciata
looked long at him before speaking;
she hoped that at sight of her
tears and sufferings, M. Van Amberg
would remember he had loved her.
She threw her whole soul into her
eyes, but not a muscle of her husband's
countenance moved. He
waited for her to break silence.
"I need your indulgence," she at
last said; "it costs me a fearful
effort to address you. In general I
do but answer; I am unaccustomed to
speak first, and I am afraid. I dread
your anger; have compassion on a
trembling woman, who would fain be
silent, and who must speak. Christine's
happiness is in your hands.
The poor child implores me to soften
your rigour.... Did I refuse,
not a creature upon earth would intercede
for her. This is why I venture
to petition you, sir."
M. Van Amberg continued silent.
Annunciata wiped the tears from her
cheeks, and resumed with more
courage.
"The poor child is much to be
pitied; she has inherited the faults
you blame in me. Believe me, sir,
I have laboured hard to check them
in the bud. I have striven, exhorted,
punished, have spared neither
advice nor prayers, but all
in vain. God has not been pleased
to spare me this new grief. Her
nature is unchangeable; she is to
blame, but she is also much to
be pitied. Christine loves with all
her soul. Women die of such love
as hers, and when they do not die,
they suffer frightfully. For pity's
sake, sir, let her marry him she
loves!"
Annunciata covered her face with
her hands, and awaited in an agony
of anxiety her husband's reply.
"Your daughter," said M. Van
Amberg, "is still a child; she has
inherited, as you say, a character
that needs restraint. I will not
yield to the first caprice that traverses
her silly head. Herbert is
only two-and-twenty; we know
nothing of his character. Your daughter
requires a protector, and a judicious
guide. Herbert has neither
family, fortune, nor position. He
shall never be the husband of a
woman who bears the name of
Mademoiselle Van Amberg!"
"Sir!" cried Annunciata, clasping
her hands and breathless with emotion,
"Sir! the best guidance for a
woman's life is a union with the man
she loves! It is her best safeguard,
it strengthens her against the cares of
the world. I entreat you, Karl!"
exclaimed Madame Van Amberg, falling
upon her knees, "have compassion
on my daughter! Do not render
duty a torture; do not exact from her
too much courage! We are weak creatures:
we have need both of love and
virtue. Place her not in the terrible
necessity of choosing between them.
Pity, Karl, pity!"
"Madam," cried M. Van Amberg,
and this time his frame was agitated
by a slight nervous trembling, "Madam,
you are very bold to speak to
me thus! You! you! to dare to hold
such language to me! Silence! and
teach your daughter not to hesitate
in her choice between good and evil.
Do that, instead of weeping uselessly
at my feet."
"Yes, it is bold of me, sir, thus to
address you; but I have found courage
in suffering. I am ill,—in pain,—my
life is worthless, save as a sacrifice—let
my child take it, I will speak for
her! Her fate is in your hands, do
not crush her by a cruel decision! An
absolute judge and master should be
guarded in word and deed, for a
reckoning will be asked of him! Be
merciful to my child!"
M. Van Amberg approached his
wife, took her arm, placed his other
hand on her mouth, and said:—
"Silence! I command you; no such
scenes in my house, no noise and
whimpering. Your daughters sleep
within a few yards of you, do not
disturb their repose. Your servants
are above, do not awaken them.
Silence! You had no business to
speak; I was wrong to listen to you.
Never dare again to discuss my orders;
it is I whom your children must obey,
I whom you must obey yourself. Retire
to your apartment, and to-morrow
let me find you what you yesterday
were."
M. Van Amberg had regained his
usual calmness. He walked slowly
from the room.
"Oh, my daughter!" exclaimed
Annunciata, despairingly, "nothing
have I been able to do for you! Merciful
Father! what will become of me,
placed between him and her, both inflexible
in their resolves!"
The lamp which feebly illuminated
this scene of sorrow, now suddenly
went out and left the unhappy mother
in profound darkness. The rain
beat against the windows,—the wind
howled,—the house clock struck four.
Christine had seen M. Van Amberg
seize Annunciata's arm, and lead her
away with him; afterwards, she had
distinguished, through the slight partitions
of the house, a faint echo as of
mingled sobs, entreaties, and reproaches.
She understood that her
fate was deciding,—that her poor
mother had devoted herself for her,
and was face to face with the stern
ruler whose look alone she usually
dared not brave. Christine passed
the night in terrible anxiety, abandoning
herself alternately to discouragement
and to joyful hopes. At her
age it is not easy to despair. Fear,
however, predominated over every
other emotion, and she would have
given years of existence to learn what
had passed. But the day went by like
the previous one. She saw none but
Gothon. Her she ventured to question,
but the old servant had orders
not to answer.
Another day elapsed. Christine's
solitude was still unbroken, no
friendly voice reached her ear, no
kind hand lifted the veil shrouding
her future. The poor girl was exhausted,
she had not even the energy of
grief. She wept without complaint,
almost without a murmur. Night
came, and she fell asleep, exhausted
by her sorrow. She had scarcely slept
an hour when she was awakened by
the opening of the door, and Gothon,
lamp in hand, approached her bed.
"Get up, Mademoiselle," said the
servant, "and follow me."
Christine dressed herself as in a
dream, and hastily followed Gothon,
who conducted her to her mother's
room, opened the door and drew
back to let her pass. A sad spectacle
met the young girl's eyes. Annunciata,
pale and almost inanimate, lay
in the agonies of death. Her presentiment
had not deceived her; suffering
and agitation had snapped the slender
strings that bound her to the earth.
The light of the lamp fell full upon
her features, whose gentle beauty pain
was impotent to deface. Resignation
and courage were upon her countenance,
over which came a gleam of
joy when Christine appeared. Wilhelmina
and Maria knelt and wept
at the foot of their mother's bed.
William stood a little apart, holding
a prayer-book, but his eyes had left
the page to look at Annunciata, and
two large tears trembled on their lids.
M. Van Amberg, seated beside his
wife's pillow, had his face shaded by
his hand, so that none could see its
expression.
With a piercing cry, Christine
rushed to Madame Van Amberg,
who received her in her arms.
"Mother!" she cried, her cheek
against Annunciata's, "it is I who
have killed you! For love of me
you have exceeded your strength."
"No, my beloved child, no," replied
Annunciata, kissing her daughter between
each word, "I die of an old
and incurable malady. But I die
happy, since I once more clasp you in
my arms."
"And they did not let me
nurse you!" cried Christine, indignantly
raising her head; "they concealed
your illness! They let me
weep for other sorrows than yours,
my mother!"
"Dearest child," replied Annunciata
gently, "this crisis has been very
sudden; two hours ago they knew not
my danger, and I wished to fulfil my
religious duties before seeing you. I
wished to think only of God. Now I
can abandon myself to the embraces
of my children." And she clasped
her weeping daughters to her heart.
"Dear children," said she, "God is
full of mercy to the dying, and sanctifies
a mother's benediction. I bless
you, my daughters; remember and
pray for me."
The three young girls bowed their
heads upon their mother's hand, and
replied by tears alone to this solemn
farewell.
"My good brother," resumed Annunciata
to William, "My good
brother, we have long lived together,
and to me you have ever been a devoted
friend, indulgent and gentle. I
thank you, brother!"
William averted his head to conceal
his tears, but a deep sob escaped him,
and he turned his venerable face towards
Annunciata.
"Do not thank me, sister," he said,
"I have done little for you. I loved
you, that is certain, but I could not
enliven your solitude. My sister, you
will still live for the happiness of us
all."
Annunciata gently shook her head.
Her glance sought her husband as
if she would fain have addressed her
last words to him. But they expired
on her lips. She looked at him timidly,
sadly, and then closed her eyes, to
check the starting tears. She grew
visibly weaker, and as death approached,
a painful anxiety took possession of
her. Resigned, she was not calm. It
was ordained her soul should suffer
and be troubled to the end. The
destiny of one of her daughters disturbed
her last moments; she dared
not pronounce the name of Christine,
she dared not ask compassion for her;
a thousand conflicting doubts and
fears agitated her poor heart. She
died as she had lived, repressing her
tears, concealing her thoughts. From
time to time she turned to her husband,
but his head continued sunk upon his
hand; not one look of encouragement
could she obtain. At last came the
spasm that was to break this frail existence.
"Adieu! Adieu!" she murmured
in unintelligible accents. Her
eyes no longer obeyed her, and none
could tell whom they sought. William
approached his brother, and placed
his hand upon his shoulder. "Karl!"
he whispered in tones audible but to
him he addressed, "she is dying! Have
you nothing to say to a poor creature
who has so long lived with you and
suffered by you? Living, you loved
her not; do not let her die thus!
Fear you not, Karl, lest this woman,
oppressed and slighted by you, should
expire with a leaven of resentment in
her heart? Crave her pardon before she
departs."
For an instant all was silent. M.
Van Amberg stirred not. Annunciata,
her head thrown back, seemed
to have already ceased to exist.
On a sudden, she moved, raised
herself with difficulty, leaned over
towards M. Van Amberg, and groped
for his hand as though she had
been blind. When she found it,
she bowed her face upon it, kissed
it twice, and expired in that last
kiss.
"On your knees!" cried William,
"on your knees, she is in heaven! let
us implore her intercession!" And all
knelt down.
Of all the prayers addressed to God
by man during his life of trial, not
one is more solemn than that which
escapes the desolate heart, when a beloved
soul flies from earth to heaven,
to stand, for the first time, in the
presence of its Creator.
M. Van Amberg rose from his
knees.
"Leave the room!" said he to his
brother and daughters, "I would be
alone with my wife."
Alone, beside the bed of his dead
wife, Karl Van Amberg gazed upon
the pale countenance, to which death
had restored all the beauty of youth.
A tear, left there by human suffering,
a tear which none other was to follow,
glittered upon the clay-cold cheek;
one arm still hung out of bed, as
when it held his hand; the head
was in the position in which it
had kissed his fingers. He gazed
at her, and the icy envelope that
bound his heart was at last broken.
"Annunciata!" he exclaimed, "Annunciata!"
For fifteen years that name had not
passed his lips. Throwing himself on
his wife's corpse, he clasped her in
his arms and kissed her forehead.
"Annunciata!" he cried, "can you
not feel this kiss of peace and love!
Annunciata, we have both suffered
terribly! God did not grant us happiness.
I loved you from the first day
that I saw you, a joyous child in
Spain, till this sad moment that I press
you dead upon my heart. Oh Annunciata,
how great have been our
sufferings!"
Karl Van Amberg wept.
"Repose in peace, poor woman!"
he murmured, "may you find in
heaven the repose denied you upon
earth!" And with trembling hand
he closed Annunciata's eyes. Then
he knelt down beside her.
"Almighty God!" he said, "I have
been severe. Be thou merciful!"
When, at break of day, M. Van
Amberg left the chamber of death,
his face had resumed its habitual expression;
his inflexible soul, for a
moment bowed, had regained its usual
level. To Annunciata had been given
the last word of love, the last tear of
that heart of adamant. To the eyes
of all he reappeared as the stern
master and father, the man on whose
brow no sorrow left a trace. His
daughters bowed themselves upon his
passage, William spoke not to him,
order and regularity returned to the
house. Annunciata was buried without
pomp or procession. She left, to
revisit it no more, the melancholy
abode where her suffering soul had
worn out its mortal envelope; she
ceased to live, as a sound ceases to be
heard, as a cloud passes, as a flower
fades; nothing stopped or altered
because she went. If any mourned
her, they mourned in silence; if they
thought of her, they proclaimed not
their thoughts; her name was no
more heard; only the interior of the
little red house was rather more
silent, and M. Van Amberg's countenance
appeared to all more rigid
than before. During the day, Christine's
profound grief obeyed the iron
will that weighed on each member of
the family. The poor child was silent,
worked, sat at table, lived on as if
her heart had not been crushed; but
at night, when she was alone in the
little room where her mother had so
often wept with her, she gave free
course to grief; she invoked her
mother, spoke to her, extended her
arms to her, and would fain have
left the earth to be with her in heaven.
"Take me to you, dear mother!"
she would exclaim. "Deprived of
you, apart from him, I cannot live!
Since I saw you die, I no longer
fear death."
Since the death of Annunciata,
Christine was allowed her liberty,
M. Van Amberg doubtless thinking,
and with reason, that she would make
no use of it during her first grief.
Or, perhaps, with his wife's corpse
scarcely cold, he hesitated to recur to
the severity that had caused her so
many tears. Whatever his motive,
Christine was free, at least to all
appearance. The three sisters, in
deep mourning, never passed the
threshold; they sat all day at work
near the low window of the parlour,
supped with their uncle and father,
then retired to bed. During the long
hours of their silent work, Christine
often thought of her lover. She dared
not attempt to see him; she would have
expected to hear her mother's voice
murmur in her ear,—"My daughter,
it is too soon to be happy! Mourn me
yet a little, alone and without consolation."
One morning, after a night of tears,
Christine fell into a tardy slumber,
broken by dreams. Now it was
her mother, who took her in her arms,
and flew with her towards heaven.
"I will not let you live," said Annunciata,
"for life is sorrow. I have
prayed of God to let you die young,
that you may not weep as I have
wept!"
The next instant she beheld herself
clothed in white, and crowned with
flowers. Herbert was there, love
sparkling in his eyes. "Come, my
betrothed!" he said, "life is joy! My
love shall guard you from all evil;
come, we will be happy!"
She started up, awakened by a sudden
noise in her chamber. The window
was open, and on the floor lay a
pebble with a letter attached. Her
first impulse was to fly to the window;
a bush stirred in the direction of the
river, but she saw no one. She
snatched up the letter, she guessed it
was Herbert's writing. It seems as if
one never saw for the first time the
writing of him one loves; the heart
recognises as if the eyes had already
seen it. Christine was alone, a beam
of the rising sun tinted the summits of
the willows, and hope and love revived
in the young girl's heart, as she read
what follows:
"Christine, I can write but a few
lines; a long letter, difficult to conceal,
might never reach you. Hear me with
your heart, and guess what I am unable
to write. As you know, dearest,
my family intrusted me to your father
and gave him all authority over me.
He can employ me at his will, and according
to the convenience of his commercial
establishments. Christine, I
have just received orders to embark in
one of his ships, sailing for Batavia."
A cry escaped Christine's lips, and
her eyes, suffused with tears, devoured
the subsequent lines.
"Your father places the immensity
of ocean between us; he separates
us for ever. We are to meet no more!
Christine, has your heart, since I last
saw you, learned to comprehend those
words? No, my adored Christine, we
must live or die together! Your poor
mother is no more; your presence is
no longer essential to the happiness of
any one. Your family is pitiless and
without affection for you. Your future
is gloom and unhappiness. Come,
then, let us fly together. In the Helder
are numerous ships; they will bear
us far from the scene of our sufferings.
All is foreseen and arranged.
Christine, my life depends on your
decision. For ever separated!...
subscribe to that barbarous decree,
and I terminate an existence which
henceforward would be all bitterness!
And you, Christine! will you love
another, or live without love? Oh!
come, I have suffered so much without
you! I summon you, I await you,
Christine! my bride! At midnight—on
the river-bank—I will be there!
and a world of happiness is before
us. Come, dear Christine, come!"
As Christine read, her tears fell fast
on Herbert's letter. She experienced
a moment of agonising indecision. She
loved passionately, but she was young
and innocent, and love had not yet
imparted to her pure soul the audacity
that braves all things. The wise
counsels heard in her father's house,
uncle William's pious exhortations,
the holy prayers she had learned
from her infancy upwards, resounded
in her ears; the Christ upon her
wooden crucifix seemed to look at her;
the beads of her rosary were still
warm with the pressure of her fingers.
"Oh! my dream! my dream!" she exclaimed:
"Herbert who calls his bride!
my mother claiming her daughter!
With him, life and love! With her,
death and heaven!..." And Christine
sobbed aloud. For an instant she
tried calmly to contemplate an existence
in that melancholy house, weeping
for Herbert, growing old without
him, without love, within those gloomy
walls, where no heart sympathised
with hers. The picture was too terrible;
she felt that such a future was
unendurable. She wept bitterly,
kissed her rosary, her prayer book, as
if bidding adieu to all that had witnessed
the innocence of her early
years. Then her heart beat violently.
The fire of her glance dried her tears.
She looked out at the river, at the
white sail which seemed to remind her
of her vows of love; she gave one
last sob, as if breaking irrevocably the
links between her past and future.
The image of her mother was no longer
before her. Christine, abandoned to
herself, followed the impulse of her
passionate nature; she wept, trembled,
hesitated, and at last exclaimed,—
"At midnight, I will be there!"
Then she wiped her tears, and remained
quite still for a few moments,
to calm her violent agitation. A vast
future unrolled itself before her; liberty
would be hers; a new world was revealed
to her eyes; a new life began
for her.
At last night came. A lamp replaced
the fading day-light. The
window was deserted for the table.
William and Karl Van Amberg came
in. The former took a book; his
brother busied himself with commercial
calculations. The lamp gave a
dull light; all was silent, sad, and
monotonous in the apartment. The
clock slowly told the succeeding hours.
When its hammer struck ten, there
was a movement round the table;
books were shut, work was folded.
Karl Van Amberg rose; his two
eldest daughters approached him, and
he kissed their foreheads in silence.
Christine no longer a captive, but
still in disgrace, bowed herself before
her father. Uncle William, grown
drowsy over his book, put up his
spectacles, muttering a "good-night."
The family left the parlour, and the
three sisters ascended the wooden
staircase. At her chamber door,
Christine felt a tightness at her heart.
She turned and looked after her
sisters. "Good-night, Wilhelmina!
good-night, Maria!"
The sisters turned their heads.
By the faint light of their tapers
Christine saw them smile and kiss
their hands to her. Then they
entered their rooms without speaking.
Christine found herself alone. She
opened her window; the night was
calm; at intervals clouds flitted
across the moon, veiling its brightness.
Christine made no preparations for
departure; she only took her mother's
rosary, and the blue ribbon so long
attached to the guitar; then she
wrapped herself in her black mantle
and sat down by the window. Her
heart beat quick, but no distinct
thought agitated her mind. She trembled
without terror; her eyes were
tearful, but she felt no regret. For
her, the hour was rather solemn than
sad; the struggle was over, and she
was irrevocably decided.
At last midnight came; each stroke
of the clock thrilled Christine's heart;
for an instant she stood still, summoning
strength and courage; then,
turning towards the interior of the
room,—
"Adieu, my mother!" she whispered.
Many living creatures dwelt
under that roof. It seemed to Christine
as if she left her only who was
no longer there. "Adieu, my mother!"
she repeated.
Then she stepped out of the window:
a trellis, twined with creepers,
covered the wall. With light foot
and steady hand, Christine descended,
aiding herself by the branches, and
pausing when they cracked under her
tread or grasp. The stillness was so
complete that the slightest sound assumed
importance. Christine's heart
beat violently; at last she reached
the ground, raised her head, and
looked at the house. Her father's
window was still lighted. Again she
shuddered with apprehension; then,
feeling more courage for a minute's
daring than for half an hour's precautions,
she darted across the meadow
and arrived breathless at the clump
of willows. Before plunging into it,
she again looked round. All was
quiet and deserted; she breathed more
freely and disappeared amongst the
branches. Leaning upon the old tree,
the witness of her former rendezvous,
she whispered, so softly that none but
a lover could hear, "Herbert, are you
there?"
A cautious oar skimmed the water;
a well known voice replied. The boat
approached the willow; the young
student stood up and held out his
arms to Christine, who leaped lightly
into the skiff. In an instant, they were
out of the willow-shaded inlet; in
another, the sail—the signal of their
loves—was hoisted to the breeze;
the bark sped swiftly over the water,
and Herbert, scarce daring to believe
his happiness, was seated at Christine's
feet. His hand sought hers; he heard
her weep, and he wept for sympathy.
Both were silent, agitated, uneasy,
and happy.
But the night was fine, the moon
shed its softest light, the ripple of the
stream had a harmony of its own, the
light breeze cooled their cheeks, the
sail bent over them like the wing of
an invisible being; they were young,
they loved, it was impossible that joy
should not revive in their hearts.
"Thanks, Christine, thanks!" exclaimed
Herbert, "thanks a thousand
times for so much devotedness, for
such confidence and love! Oh how
beautiful will life now appear! We
are united for ever!"
"For ever!" repeated Christine,
her tears flowing afresh. For the
first time she felt that great happiness,
like great grief, expresses itself
by tears. Her hand in Herbert's, her
eyes raised to heaven, she gazed upon
bright stars and fleecy clouds, sole
and silent witnesses of her happiness.
Presently she was roused from this
sweet reverie.
"See there, Herbert!" she exclaimed;
"the sail droops along the
mast, the wind has fallen, we do not
advance."
Herbert took the oars, and the boat
cut rapidly through the water.
Wrapped in her mantle, Christine
sat opposite, and smiled upon him.
Onwards flew the boat, a track of
foam in its wake. Day-light was
still distant; all things favoured the
fugitives. Again Christine broke
silence.
"Herbert, dear Herbert, do you
hear nothing?"
Herbert ceased to row, and listened.
"I hear nothing," he said,
"save the plash of the river against
its banks." He resumed the oars;
again the boat moved rapidly forward.
Christine was pale; half risen from her
seat, her head turned back, she strove
to see, but the darkness was too great.
"Be tranquil, best beloved," said
Herbert with a smile. "Fear creates
sounds. All is still."
"Herbert," cried Christine, this
time starting up in the boat, "I am
not mistaken! I hear oars behind
us ... pause not to listen ...
row, for Heaven's love, row!"
Her terror was so great, she seemed
so sure of what she said, that Herbert
obeyed in silence, and a sensation of
alarm chilled his heart. Christine
seated herself at his feet.
"We are pursued!" she said; "the
noise of your own oars alone prevented
your hearing. A boat follows us."
"If it be so," Herbert cried, "what
matter! That boat does not bear
Christine, is not guided by a man who
defends his life, his happiness, his
love. My arm will weary his, his
bark will not overtake mine." And
Herbert redoubled his efforts. The
veins of his arms swelled to bursting;
his forehead was covered with
sweat-drops. The skiff clove the
waters as though impelled by wings.
Christine remained crouched at the
young man's feet, pressing herself
against him, as to seek refuge.
Other oars, wielded by stalwart
arms, now struck the water not far
from Herbert's boat. The young
student heard the sound; he bent
over his oars and made desperate
efforts. But he felt his strength failing;
as he rowed he looked with
agony at Christine; no one spoke,
only the noise of the two boats interrupted
the silence. Around, all was
calm and serene as when the fugitives
set out. But the soul of the young
girl had passed from life to death; her
eyes, gleaming with a wild fire, followed
with increasing terror each
movement of Herbert's; she saw by
the suffering expression of his countenance,
that little hope of escape remained.
Still he rowed with the
energy of despair; but the fatal bark
drew nearer, its shadow was seen
upon the water, it followed hard in
the foamy track of Herbert's boat.
Christine stood up and looked back;
just then the moon shone out, casting
its light full upon the pale, passionless
features of M. Van Amberg.
Christine uttered a piercing cry.
"My father!" she cried, "Herbert,
'tis my father!"
Herbert also had recognised his
pursuer. The youth had lived too
long in Karl Van Amberg's house,
not to have experienced the strange
kind of fascination which that man
exercised over all around him. Darkness
had passed away to reveal to the
fugitives the father, master, and
judge!
"Stop, Herbert!" cried Christine,
"we are lost, escape is impossible!
Do you not see my father?"
"Let me row!" replied Herbert,
disengaging himself from Christine,
who had seized his arm. He gave so
violent a pull with the oars, that the
little boat bounded out of the water and
seemed to gain a little on its pursuer.
"Herbert," cried Christine, "I tell
you we are lost! 'Tis my father,
and resistance is useless! God will
not work a miracle in our favour!
Herbert, I will not return to my
father's house! Let us die together,
dear Herbert!"
And Christine, threw herself into
her lover's arms. The oars fell from
the young man's hands; with a cry
of anguish he pressed Christine convulsively
on his heart. For a single
instant he thought of obeying her,
and of plunging with her into the
dark tide beneath; but Herbert had
a noble heart, and he repelled the
temptation of despair. The next
moment a violent shock made the
boat quiver, and M. Van Amberg
stepped into it. Instinctively, Herbert
clasped Christine more tightly,
and retreated; as if his strength could
withhold her from her father; as if,
in that little boat, he could retreat
far enough not to be overtaken. With
a vigorous arm, M. Van Amberg
seized Christine, whose slender form
bent like a reed over his shoulder.
"Have mercy on her!" cried the
despairing Herbert; "I alone am
guilty! Punish her not, and I promise
to depart, to renounce her!
Pity, sir, pity for Christine!"
He spoke to a deaf and silent statue.
Wresting Christine's hand from the
student's grasp, M. Van Amberg
stepped back into his boat and pushed
Herbert's violently with his foot.
Yielding to the impulse, the boats
separated; one was pulled swiftly
up the river, whilst the other, abandoned
to itself, was swept by the
current in a contrary direction. Erect
on the prow of his bark, his head thrown
back, his arms folded on his breast,
M. Van Amberg fixed a terrible look
upon Herbert and then disappeared
in the darkness. All was over. The
father had taken his daughter, and no
human power could henceforward
tear her from his arms.
Within eight days from this fatal
night, the gates of a convent closed
upon Christine Van Amberg.
On the frontier of Belgium, on the
summit of a hill, stands a large white
building of irregular architecture, a
confused mass of walls, roofs, angles,
and platforms. At the foot of the
hill is a village, whose inhabitants
behold with a feeling of respect the
edifice towering above their humble
dwellings. For there is seen the
belfry of a church, and thence is
heard unceasingly the sound of pious
bells, proclaiming afar that on the
mountain's summit a few devout
souls pray to God for all men. The
building is a convent; the poor and
the sick well know the path leading
to the hospitable threshold of the
Sisters of the Visitation.
To this convent was Christine sent.
To this austere dwelling, the abode of
silence and self-denial, was she, the
young, the beautiful, the loving, pitilessly
consigned. It was as though
a gravestone had suddenly closed over
her head. With her, the superior of the
convent received the following letter:
"Madame la Superieure,—I
send you your niece, Christine Van
Amberg, and beg you to oblige me
by keeping her with you. I intend
her to embrace a religious life; employ
the influence of your wise counsels
to predispose her to it. Her
misconduct compels me to exclude
her my house; she requires restraint
and watching, such as are only to be
found in a convent. Be pleased, dear
and respected kinswoman, to receive
her under your roof; the best wish
that can be formed for her is that
she may make up her mind to
remain there for ever. Should she
inquire concerning a young man
named Herbert, you may inform her
that he has sailed to Batavia, whence
he will proceed to our most remote
establishments.
"I am with respect, Madame la
Supérieure, your kinsman and friend,
"Karl Van Amberg."
Five years had elapsed since the
date of this letter, when one day the
convent-gate opened to admit a
stranger, who craved to speak with
the superior. The stranger was an old
man; a staff sustained his feeble
steps. Whilst waiting in the parlour,
he looked about him with surprise
and emotion, and several times he
passed his hand across his eyes as if
to brush away a tear. "Poor, poor
child!" he muttered. When the
superior appeared behind the grating,
he advanced quickly towards her.
"I am William Van Amberg," he
said, "the brother of Karl Van Amberg.
I come, madam, to fetch Christine,
his daughter and my niece."
"You come very late!" replied the
superior; "sister Martha-Mary is
on the eve of pronouncing her vows."
"Martha-Mary!—I do not know
the name!"—said William Van Amberg;
"I seek Christine—my niece
Christine."
"Christine Van Amberg, now sister
Martha-Mary, is about to take the veil."
"Christine a nun! Oh, impossible!
Madam, they have broken the child's
heart; from despair only would she
take the veil; they have been cruel,
they have tortured her; but I bring
her liberty and the certainty of
happiness,—permission to marry him
she loves. Let me speak to her, and
she will quickly follow."
"Speak to her then; and let her
depart if such be her will."
"Thanks, madam,—a thousand
thanks! Send me my child, send me
my Christine—with joy and impatience
I await her."
The superior retired. Left alone,
William again contemplated the
melancholy abode in which he found
himself, and the more he gazed, the
sadder his heart became. He would
fain have taken Christine in his arms,
as he did when she was little, and
have fled with her from those chilly
walls and dismal gratings.
"Poor child!" he repeated, "what
a retreat for the bright years of your
youth!... How you must have
suffered! But console thyself, dearest
child, I am here to rescue thee!"
He remembered Christine as a
wild young girl, delighting in liberty,
air, and motion; then as an impassioned
woman, full of love and independence.
And a smile crossed the
old man's lips as he thought of her
burst of joy, when he should say to
her,—"You are free, and Herbert
waits to lead you to the altar!" His
heart beat as it had never beaten in
the best days of his youth; he counted
the minutes and kept his eyes fixed
upon the little door through which
Christine was to come. He could not
fold her in his arms, the grating prevented
it, but at least he should see
and hear her. Suddenly all his blood
rushed to his heart, for the hinges
creaked and the door opened. A
novice, clothed in white, slowly advanced;
he looked at her, started
back, hesitated, and exclaimed: "Oh
God! is that Christine?"
William had cherished in his heart
the memory of a bright-eyed, sunburnt
girl, alert and lively, quick
and decided in her movements, running
more often than she walked,
like the graceful roe that loves the
mountain steeps. He beheld a tall
young woman, white and colourless
as the robes that shrouded her; her
hair concealed under a thick linen
band, her slender form scarcely to be
distinguished beneath the heavy folds
of her woollen vestments. Her movements
were slow, her black eyes
veiled by an indescribable languor;
a profound calm was the characteristic
of her whole being—a calm so great,
that it resembled absence of life.
One might have thought her eyes
looked without seeing, that her lips
could not open to speak, that her
ears listened without hearing. Sister
Martha-Mary was beautiful, but her
beauty was not of the earth—it was
the beauty of infinite repose,—of a
calm that nothing could disturb.
The old man was touched to the
bottom of his soul; the words expired
on his lips, and he extended
his hands towards Christine. On
beholding her uncle, Martha-Mary
endeavoured to smile, but moved not,
and said nothing.
"Oh my child!" cried William at
last, "how you must suffer here!"
Martha-Mary gently shook her
head, and the tranquil look she fixed
upon her uncle, protested against his
supposition.
"Is it possible that five years have
thus changed my Christine! My
heart recognises you, my child, not
my eyes! They have compelled you
to great austerities, severe privations?"
"No."
"A cruel bondage has weighed
heavily upon you?
"No."
"You have been ill then?"
"No."
"Your poor heart has suffered too
much, and has broken. You have
shed many tears?"
"I remember them no longer."
"Christine, Christine, do you
live? or has the shade of Annunciata
risen from the grave? Oh my child!
in seeing, you, I seem to see her
corpse, extended on the bed of
death!"
Martha-Mary raised her large eyes
to heaven; she joined her hands, and
murmured, "My mother!"
"Christine, speak to me! weep
with me! you frighten me by your
calm and silence.... Ah! in my
trouble and emotion, I have as yet explained
nothing.... Listen: my
brother Karl, by the failure of a partner,
suddenly found his whole fortune
compromised. To avoid total ruin he
was obliged to embark immediately
for the colonies. He set sail expecting
to return in a few years; but his
affairs prolong his absence, and his
return is indefinitely postponed. His
two eldest daughters are with him.
To me, who am too old to follow him,
too old to remain alone, he has given
Christine. I would not accept the
precious charge, my child, without
the possibility of rendering you happy.
I implored permission to marry you
to Herbert. You are no longer a
rich heiress: your father gone, you
need protection, and that of an old
man cannot long avail you. In
short, your father has agreed to all I
asked; he sends you, as a farewell
gift, your liberty and his consent to
your marriage.... Christine! you
are free, and Herbert awaits his
bride!"
The long drapery of the novice was
slightly agitated, as if the limbs it
covered trembled; she remained some
seconds without speaking, and then
replied, "It is too late! I am the
affianced of the Lord!"
William uttered a cry of grief, and
looked with alarm at the pale calm
girl, who stood immoveable before him.
"Christine!" he cried, "You no
longer love Herbert?"
"I am the affianced of the Lord!"
repeated the novice, her hands crossed
upon her breast, her eyes raised to
heaven.
"Oh my God! my God!" cried
William, weeping bitterly, "my
brother has killed his child! Her
soul has been sad even unto death!
Poor victim of our severity, tell me,
Christine, tell me, what has passed
within you, since your abode here?"
"I saw others pray, and I prayed
also. There was a great stillness,
and I was silent; none wept, and I
dried my tears; a something, at first
cold, then soothing, enveloped my
soul. The voice of God made itself
heard to me, and I listened; I loved
the Lord, and gave myself to him."
Then, as if fatigued with speaking
so much, Martha-Mary relapsed into
silence, and into that absorbing meditation
which rendered her insensible
to surrounding things. Just then
a bell tolled. The novice started, and
her eyes sparkled.
"God calls me!" she said, "I go
to pray!"
"Christine! my daughter, will you
leave me thus?"
"Hear you not the bell? It is the
hour of prayer."
"But, Christine, dearest child, I
came to take you hence."
"I shall never leave these walls!"
said Martha-Mary, gliding slowly
away. As she opened the parlour
door, she turned towards William; her
eyes fixed upon him with a sad and
sweet expression; her lips moved, as
if to send him a kiss; then she disappeared.
William made no attempt
to detain her; his head was pressed
against the grating, and big tears
chased each other down his cheeks.
How long he remained thus plunged
in mournful reflection, he noted not.
He was roused by the voice of the
superior, who seated herself, wrapped
in her black robes, on the other side
of the grating.
"I foresaw your grief," she said.
"Our sister Martha-Mary refuses to
follow you."
With a despairing look, William
answered the nun.
"Alas! alas!" he said, "the
child I so dearly loved met me
without joy, and left me without
regret."
"Listen, my son," resumed the
superior; "listen to me.—Five years
ago, there came to this convent a
young girl overwhelmed with grief
and sunk in terrible despair; her
entrance here was to her a descent
into the tomb. During one entire
year, none saw her but with tears on
her face. Only God knows how many
tears the eyes must shed, before a
broken spirit regains calm and resignation;
man cannot count them. This
young girl suffered much; in vain we
implored pardon for her, in vain we
summoned her family to her relief.
She might say, as is written in the
psalm,—'I am weary with my groaning:
mine eye is consumed because of grief.'
What could we do, save pray for
her, since none would receive her
back!..."
"Alas!" cried William, "your
letters never reached us. My brother
was beyond sea; and I, having
then no hope of changing his determination,—I
had quitted his empty
and melancholy house."
"Man abandoned her," continued
the superior, "but God looked upon
his servant, and comforted her soul.
If He does not see fit to restore
strength to her body, exhausted by
suffering—His will be done! Perhaps
it would now be wise and generous to
leave her to that love of God which
she has attained after so many tears;
perhaps it would be prudent to spare
her fresh shocks."
"No! no!" interrupted William, "I
cannot give up, even to God, this last
relic of my family, the sole prop of my
old age. I will try every means to
bring back her heart to its early sentiments.
Give me Christine for a few
days only! Let me conduct her to the
place of her birth, to the scenes where
she loved. She is deaf to my entreaties,
but she will obey an order from you;
bid her return for a while beneath her
father's roof! Should she still wish
it, after this last attempt, I will restore
her hither."
"Take her with you, my son,"
replied the superior, "I will bid her
follow. If God has indeed spoken to
her soul, no worldly voice will move
her. If it be otherwise, may she return
no more to the cloister, but be
blessed wherever she goes! Adieu,
my son; the peace of the Lord be with
you!"
Hope revived in the heart of William
Van Amberg; it seemed to him as if—the
convent threshold once passed—Christine
would revert to her former
character, her youth and love. He
believed he was about to remove his beloved
child for ever from these gloomy
walls, and with painful impatience he
awaited her coming. Soon a light
step was heard in the corridor; William
threw open the door, Christine
was there, and no grating now separated
her from her uncle.
"My beloved Christine!" exclaimed
William, "at last, then, you are restored
to me; at last I can press
you to my heart! Come, we will
return to our own country, and
revisit the house where we all dwelt
together."
Sister Martha-Mary was still paler
than at her first interview with William.
If any expression was discernible
upon that calm countenance, it
was one of sadness. She allowed herself
to be taken by the hand and conducted
to the convent gate; but when
the gate was opened, and, passing
into the open air, she encountered the
broad daylight and the fresh breeze,
she tottered and leaned for support
against the wall. Just then the sun
rent the clouds, and threw its golden
beams on plain and mountain; the
air was clear and transparent, and the
flat and monotonous horizon acquired
beauty from the burst of light.
"See, my daughter!" said William,
"see how lovely the earth
looks! How soft is the air we breathe!
How good it is to be free, and to move
towards that immense horizon!"
"Oh, my dear uncle!" replied the
novice, "how beautiful are the
heavens! See how the sun shines
above our heads! It is in heaven
that his glory should be admired!
His rays are already dim and feeble
when they touch the earth!"
William led Christine to a carriage;
they got in, and the horses set off.
Long did the gaze of the novice remain
fixed on her convent's walls; when
these were hidden from her by the
windings of the road, she closed her
eyes and seemed to sleep. During
the journey, William endeavoured in
vain to make her converse; she had
forgotten how to express her thoughts.
When compelled to reply, fatigue overwhelmed
her; her whole existence
was concentrated in her soul, and detached
entirely from the external
world. At intervals, she would say to
herself: "How long the morning is!
Nothing marks the hours; I have not
heard a single bell to-day!"
At last they reached the red house,
and the carriage drove into the court,
where the grass grow between the
stones. Gothon came out to receive
them, and Martha-Mary, leaning on
her uncle's arm, entered the parlour
where the family of Van Amberg had
so often assembled. The room was
deserted and cold; no books or work
gave it the look of habitation; abandoned
by its last occupants, it awaited
new ones. Christine slowly traversed
this well-known apartment, and sat
down upon a chair near the window.
It was there her mother had sat for
twenty years; there had her childhood
passed at the knees of Annunciata.
William opened the window, showed
her the meadow, the willows, and the
river. Christine looked at them in
silence, her head resting on her hand,
her eyes fixed on the horizon. For
a long while William stood beside her,
then he placed his hand on her
shoulder and pronounced her name.
She rose and followed him. They
ascended the stairs, traversed the
gallery, and William opened a door.
"Your mother's room," said he to
Christine. The novice entered and
stood still in the middle of the
chamber; tears flowed from her eyes,
she clasped her hands and prayed.
"My daughter," said William, "she
ardently desired your happiness."
"She has obtained it!" replied the
novice.
The old man felt a profound sadness
come over him. It was like
pressing to his heart a corpse to which
his love restored neither breath nor
warmth. Martha-Mary approached
her mother's bed, knelt down, and
kissed the pillow that had supported
the dying head of Annunciata.
"Mother!" she murmured, "soon
we shall meet again."
William shuddered. He took
Christine's hand, and led her to the
room she had formerly occupied. The
little white-curtained bed was still
there, the guitar hung against the
wall, Christine's favourite volumes
filled the shelves of her modest bookcase;
through the open window were
seen the willows and the river.
Martha-Mary noticed none of these
things: the wooden crucifix was
still upon the wall; she rapidly approached
it, knelt, bowed her head
upon the feet of Christ, closed her
eyes and breathed deeply, like one
finding repose after long fatigue.
Like the exile returning to his native
land, like the storm-tossed mariner regaining
the port, she remained with her
brow resting upon her Saviour's feet.
Standing by her side, William
looked on in tearful silence. Farther
off, Gothon wiped her eyes with her
apron. Several hours elapsed. The
house-clock struck, the birds sang in
the garden; the wind rustled among
the trees; in the lofty pigeon-house
the doves cooed; the cock crowed in
the poultry-yard. None of these
loved and familiar sounds could divert
Martha-Mary from her devout meditation.
Sick at heart, her uncle descended
to the parlour. He remained
there long, plunged in gloomy reflections.
Suddenly hasty steps were
heard; a young man rushed into the
room and into William's arms.
"Christine! Christine!" cried Herbert;
"where is Christine? Is it not a
dream? M. Van Amberg gives me
Christine!... Once more in
my native land, and Christine
mine!"
"Karl Van Amberg gives, but God
refuses her to you!" replied William,
mournfully. Then he told Herbert
what had passed at the convent, and
since their arrival at the house: he
gave a thousand details,—he repeated
them a thousand times, but without
convincing Herbert of the melancholy
truth.
"It is impossible!" cried the young
man; "if Christine is alive, if Christine
is here, to the first word uttered by
her lover, Christine will reply."
"God grant it!" exclaimed William,
"my last hope is in you."
Herbert sprang up the stairs, his
heart too full of love to have room for
fear. Christine free, was for him
Christine ready to become his wife.
He hastily opened her chamber door;
but then he paused, as if petrified,
upon the threshold. The day was
closing in, and its fading light fell upon
Martha-Mary, whose form stood out
like a white shadow from the gloom
of the room. She was still on her knees,
her head resting on the feet of Christ,
her fragile person lost in the multiplied
folds of her conventual robes. She
heard not the opening of the door, and
Herbert stood gazing at her, till a flood
of tears burst from his eyes. William
took his hand and silently pressed it.
"I am frightened!" said Herbert,
in a low tone. "That is not my
Christine! A phantom risen from
the earth, or an angel descended from
Heaven, has taken her place!"
"No, she is no longer Christine!"
replied William, sadly.
For a few moments more Herbert
stood in mournful contemplation. Then
he exclaimed:—"Christine, dear
Christine!"
At the sound of his voice the novice
started, rose to her feet, and pronounced
his name. As in former days,
when her lover called "Christine!"
Martha-Mary had replied, "Herbert!"
The young man's heart beat violently;
he stood beside the novice, he
took her hands. "It is I, it is Herbert!"
he said, kneeling down before her.
The novice fixed her large black eyes
upon him with a long inquiring gaze;
a slight flush passed across her brow;
then she became pale as before, and
said gently to Herbert:—"I thought
not to see you again upon earth."
"Dear Christine! tears and suffering
have long been our portion; but happy
days at last dawn upon us! My love!
my bride! we will never part again!"
Martha-Mary extricated her hands
from those of Herbert, and retreated
towards the image of Christ.
"I am the bride of the Lord" she
said in trembling accents. "He expects
me."
Herbert uttered a cry of grief.
"Christine! dear Christine! remember
our oft-repeated pledges, our loves,
our tears, our hopes. You left me
vowing to love me always. Christine,
if you would not have me die of
despair, remember the past!"
Martha-Mary's eyes continued riveted
on the crucifix; her hands, convulsively
clasped, were extended towards
it.
"Gracious Lord!" she prayed,
"speak to his heart as you have spoken
to mine! It is a noble heart, worthy
to love you. Stronger than I, Herbert
may survive, even after much weeping!
Console him, oh Lord!"
"Christine! my first and only love!
sole hope and joy of my life! do
you thus abandon me? That heart,
once entirely mine, is it closed to me
for ever?"
Her gaze upon the crucifix, her
hands still joined, the novice, as if able
to speak only to her God, gently replied:—"Lord!
he suffers as I suffered!
shed upon him the balm wherewith
you healed my wounds! Leaving him
life, take his soul as you have taken
mine. Give him that ineffable peace
which descends upon those thou
lovest!"
"Oh Christine! my beloved!"
cried Herbert, once more taking her
hand, "do but look at me! turn your
eyes upon me and behold my tears!
Dearest treasure of my heart! you
seem to slumber! Awake! Have you
forgotten our tender meetings? the
willows bending over the stream, the
boat in which we sailed a whole night,
dreaming the joy of eternal union?
See! the moon rises as it rose that
night. We were near each other as
now; but then they tore us asunder,
and now we are free to be together!
Christine, have you ceased to love?
Is all forgotten?"
William took her other hand. "Dear
child," he said, "we entreat you not
to leave us! To you we look for happiness;
remain with us, Christine."
One hand in the hands of Herbert,
the other in those of William, the
novice slowly and solemnly replied:
"The corpse that reposes in the
tomb does not lift the stone to re-enter
the world. The soul that has seen
Heaven, does not leave it to return
to earth. The creature to whom
God has said, 'Be thou the spouse of
Christ,' does not quit Christ to unite
herself to a man; and she who is about
to die should turn her affections from
mortal things!"
"Herbert!" cried William, "be
silent! Not another word! I can
scarcely feel the throbbing of her
pulse! She is paler even than when
I first saw her behind the convent
grating. We give her pain. Enough,
Herbert, enough! Better yield her
to God upon earth, than send her to
him in Heaven!"
The old man placed the almost inanimate
head of Martha-Mary upon
his shoulder, and pressed her to his
heart as a mother embraces her child.
"Recover yourself, my daughter," he
said; "I will restore you to the house
of God."
Martha-Mary turned her sad and
gentle gaze upon her uncle, and her
hand feebly pressed his. Then addressing
herself to Herbert:
"You, Herbert," she said, in a
scarcely audible voice, "you, who
will live, do not abandon him!"
"Christine!" cried Herbert, on his
knees before his betrothed. "Christine!
do we part for ever?"
The novice raised her eyes to heaven.
"Not for ever!" she replied.
Some days afterwards the convent
gates opened to receive sister Martha-Mary.
They closed upon her for the
last time. With feeble and unsteady
step the novice traversed the cloisters
to prostrate herself on the altar-steps.
The superior came to her.
"Oh my mother!" exclaimed
Christine, the fountain of whose tears
was opened, and who wept as in the
days of her childhood, "I have seen
him and left him! To thee I return,
oh Lord! faithful to my vows, I
await the crown that shall consecrate
me thy spouse. Thy voice alone
shall henceforward reach my ears; I
come to sing thy praises, to pray and
serve thee until the end of my life!—Holy
mother, prepare the robe of
serge, the white crown, the silver
cross; I am ready!"
"My daughter," replied the superior,
"you are very ill, much exhausted
by so many shocks; will you
not delay the ceremony of profession?"
"No, holy mother! no; delay it
not! I would die the bride of the
Lord!... And I have little
time!" replied sister Martha-Mary.