The Hegira is completed—we have
all taken roost in the old tower. My
father's books have arrived by the
waggon, and have settled themselves
quietly in their new abode—filling
up the apartment dedicated to
their owner, including the bed-chamber
and two lobbies. The duck also has
arrived, under wing of Mrs Primmins,
and has reconciled herself to the old
stewpond; by the side of which my
father has found a walk that compensates
for the peach wall—especially as
he has made acquaintance with sundry
respectable carps, who permit him
to feed them after he has fed the duck
—a privilege of which (since, if any
one else approaches, the carps are off
in an instant) my father is naturally
vain. All privileges are valuable in
proportion to the exclusiveness of
their enjoyment.
Now, from the moment the first
carp had eaten the bread my father
threw to it, Mr Caxton had mentally
resolved, that a race so confiding
should never be sacrificed to
Ceres and Primmins. But all the
fishes on my uncle's property were
under the special care of that Proteus
Bolt—and Bolt was not a man likely
to suffer the carps to earn their bread
without contributing their full share
to the wants of the community. But,
like master, like man! Bolt was an
aristocrat fit to be hung à la lanterne.
He out-Rolanded Roland in the respect
he entertained for sounding names
and old families; and by that bait
my father caught him with such skill
that you might see that, if Austin
Caxton had been an angler of fishes,
he could have filled his basket full any
day, shine or rain.
"You observe, Bolt," said my
father, beginning artfully, "that
those fishes, dull as you may think
them, are creatures capable of a
syllogism; and if they saw that, in
proportion to their civility to me, they
were depopulated by you, they would
put two and two together, and renounce
my acquaintance."
"Is that what you call being silly
Jems, sir?" said Bolt; "faith, there
is many a good Christian not half so
wise!"
"Man," answered my father thoughtfully,
"is an animal less syllogistical,
or more silly-Jemmical than many
creatures popularly esteemed his inferiors.
Yes, let but one of those Cyprinidæ,
with his fine sense of logic, see that,
if his fellow-fishes eat bread, they are
suddenly jerked out of their element,
and vanish forever; and though you
broke a quartern loaf into crumbs,
he would snap his tail at you with
enlightened contempt. If," said my
father soliloquising, "I had been as
syllogistic as those scaly logicians, I
should never have swallowed that
hook, which—hum! there—least said
soonest mended. But, Mr Bolt, to
return to the Cyprinidæ."
"What's the hard name you call
them 'ere carp, your honour?" asked
Bolt.
"Cyprinidæ, a family of the section
Malacoptergii Abdominales," replied
Mr Caxton; "their teeth are generally
confined to the Pharyngeans, and
their branchiostegous rays are but
few—marks of distinction from fishes
vulgar and voracious."
"Sir," said Bolt, glancing to the
stewpond, "if I had known they had
been a family of such importance, I
am sure I should have treated them
with more respect."
"They are a very old family, Bolt, and
have been settled in England since the
fourteenth century. A younger branch
of the family has established itself in a
pond in the gardens of Peterhoff, (the
celebrated palace of Peter the Great,
Bolt—an emperor highly respected by
my brother, for he killed a great many
people very gloriously in battle, besides
those whom he sabred for his
own private amusement.) And there
is an officer or servant of the imperial
household, whose task it is to
summon those Russian Cyprinidæ
to dinner by ringing a bell,
shortly after which, you may see the
emperor and empress, with all their
waiting, ladies and gentlemen, coming
down in their carriages to see the
Cyprinidæ eat in state. So you perceive,
Bolt, that it would be a republican,
Jacobinical proceeding to stew
members of a family so intimately
associated with royalty."
"Dear me, sir!" said Bolt, "I am
very glad you told me. I ought to
have known they were genteel fish,
they are so mighty shy—as all your
real quality are."
My father smiled, and rubbed his
hands gently; he had carried his
point, and henceforth the Cyprinidæ
of the section Malacoptergii Abdominales
were as sacred in Bolt's eyes
as cats and ichneumons were in those
of a priest in Thebes.
My poor father! with what true
and unostentatious philosophy thou
didst accommodate thyself to the
greatest change thy quiet, harmless
life had known, since it had passed
out of the brief burning cycle of the
passions. Lost was the home, endeared
to thee by so many noiseless victories of
the mind—so many mute histories of
the heart—for only the scholar knoweth
how deep a charm lies in monotony,
in the old associations, the old ways,
and habitual clockwork of peaceful
time. Yet, the home maybe replaced—thy
heart built its home round it
everywhere—and the old tower might
supply the loss of the brick house, and
the walk by the duck-pond become as
dear as the haunts by the sunny peach
wall. But what shall replace to thee
the bright dream of thine innocent
ambition,—that angel-wing which had
glittered across thy manhood, in the
hour between its noon and its setting?
What replace to thee the Magnum
Opus—the Great Book?—fair and
broadspreading tree—lone amidst the
sameness of the landscape—now
plucked up by the roots! The oxygen
was subtracted from the air of thy life.
For be it known to ye, O my compassionate
readers, that with the death
of the Anti-Publisher Society the
blood-streams of the Great Book stood
still—its pulse was arrested—its full
heart beat no more. Three thousand
copies of the first seven sheets in
quarto, with sundry unfinished plates,
anatomical, architectural, and graphic,
depicting various developments
of the human skull, (that temple of
Human Error), from the Hottentot to
the Greek; sketches of ancient
buildings, Cyclopean and Pelasgic;
Pyramids, and Pur-tors, all signs of
races whose handwriting was on their
walls; landscapes to display the influence
of Nature upon the customs,
creeds, and philosophy of men—here
showing how the broad Chaldean
wastes led to the contemplation of the
stars, and illustrations of the Zodiac,
in elucidation of the mysteries of symbol-worship;
fantastic vagaries of
earth fresh from the Deluge, tending
to impress on early superstition the
awful sense of the rude powers of
nature; views of the rocky defiles of
Laconia; Sparta, neighboured by the
"silent Amyclæ," explaining, as it
were, geographically, the iron customs
of the warrior colony, (arch Tories,
amidst the shift and roar of Hellenic
democracies,) contrasted by the seas,
and coasts, and creeks of Athens and
Ionia, tempting to adventure, commerce,
and change. Yea, my father,
in his suggestions to the artist of
those few imperfect plates, had thrown
as much light on the infancy of earth
and its tribes as by the "shining words"
that flowed from his calm starry
knowledge! Plates and copies, all
rested now in peace and dust—"housed
with darkness and with death" on the
sepulchral shelves of the lobby to
which they were consigned—rays intercepted—worlds
incompleted. The
Prometheus was bound, and the fire
he had stolen from heaven lay embedded
in the flints of his rock. For
so costly was the mould in which
Uncle Jack and the Anti-Publisher Society
had contrived to cast this Exposition
of Human Error, that every bookseller
shyed at its very sight, as an
owl blinks at daylight, or human error
at truth. In vain Squills and I, before
we left London, had carried
a gigantic specimen of the Magnum
Opus into the back-parlours of
firms the most opulent and adventurous.
Publisher after publisher
started, as if we had held a
blunderbuss to his ear. All Paternoster
Row uttered a "Lord deliver
us." Human Error found no man so
egregiously its victim as to complete
those two quartos, with the prospect
of two others, at his own expense.
Now, I had earnestly hoped that my
father, for the sake of mankind, would
be persuaded to risk some portion,—and
that, I own, not a small one—of
his remaining capital on the conclusion
of an undertaking so elaborately
begun. But there my father was obdurate.
No big words about mankind,
and the advantage to unborn
generations, could stir him an inch.
"Stuff!" said Mr Caxton peevishly.
"A man's duties to mankind and
posterity begin with his own son; and
having wasted half your patrimony, I
will not take another huge slice out of
the poor remainder to gratify my vanity,
for that is the plain truth of it.
Man must atone for sin by expiation.
By the book I have sinned, and the
book must expiate it. Pile the sheets
up in the lobby, so that at least one
man may be wiser and humbler by the
sight of Human Error, every time he
walks by so stupendous a monument
of it."
Verily, I know not how my father
could bear to look at those dumb fragments
of himself—strata of the Caxtonian
conformation lying layer upon
layer, as if packed up and disposed for
the inquisitive genius of some moral
Murchison or Mantell. But, for my
part, I never glanced at their repose
in the dark lobby, without thinking,
"Courage, Pisistratus, courage!
there's something worth living for;
work hard, grow rich, and the Great
Book shall come out at last."
Meanwhile, I wandered over the
country, and made acquaintance with
the farmers, and with Trevanion's
steward—an able man, and a great
agriculturist—and I learned from them
a better notion of the nature of my
uncle's domains. Those domains covered
an immense acreage, which, save
a small farm, was of no value at present.
But land of the same kind had
been lately redeemed by a simple kind
of draining, now well known in Cumberland;
and with capital, Roland's
barren moors might become a noble
property. But capital, where was
that to come from? Nature gives us
all except the means to turn her into
marketable account. As old Plautus
saith so wittily, "Day, night, water,
sun, and moon, are to be had gratis;
for everything else—down, with your
dust!"
Nothing has been heard of Uncle
Jack. When we moved to the tower,
the Captain gave him an invitation—more,
I suspect, out of compliment to
my mother than from the unbidden
impulse of his own inclinations. But
Mr Tibbets politely declined it.
During his stay at the brick house,
he had received and written a vast
number of letters—some of those
he received, indeed, were left at
the village post-office, under the
alphabetical addresses of A B or
X Y. For no misfortune ever paralysed
the energies of Uncle Jack. In
the winter of adversity he vanished,
it is true, but even in vanishing he
vegetated still. He resembled those
algæ, termed the Prolococcus nivales,
which give a rose-colour to the Polar
snows that conceal them, and flourish
unsuspected amidst the general dissolution
of Nature. Uncle Jack, then, was
as lively and sanguine as ever—though
he began to let fall vague hints of intentions
to abandon the general cause
of his fellow creatures, and to set up
business henceforth purely on his own
account; wherewith my father—to
the great shock of my belief in
his philanthropy—expressed himself
much pleased. And I strongly suspect
that, when Uncle Jack wrapped
himself up in his new double Saxony,
and went off at last, he carried with
him something more than my father's
good wishes in aid of his conversion
to egotistical philosophy.
"That man will do yet," said my
father, as the last glimpse was caught
of Uncle Jack standing up on the
stage-coach box, beside the driver—partly
to wave his hand to us as we
stood at the gate, and partly to array
himself more commodiously in a box
coat, with six capes, which the coachman
had lent him.
"Do you think so, sir!" said I,
doubtfully. "May I ask why?"
Mr Caxton.—On the cat principle—that
he tumbles so lightly.
You may throw him down from St
Paul's, and the next time you see him
he will be scrambling a-top of the
Monument.
Pisistratus.—But a cat the most
viparious is limited to nine lives—and
Uncle Jack must be now far gone
in his eighth.
Mr Caxton—(not heeding that
answer, for he has got his hand in his
waistcoat.)—The earth, according to
Apuleius, in his Treatise on the Philosophy
of Plato, was produced from right-angled
triangles; but fire and air from
the scalene triangle—the angles of
which, I need not say, are very different
from those of a right-angled triangle.
Now I think there are people in the
world of whom one can only judge
rightly according to those mathematical
principles applied to their
original construction; for, if air or
fire predominates in our natures, we
are scalene triangles;—if earth, right-angled.
Now, as air is so notably
manifested in Jack's conformation,
he is, nolens volens, produced in conformity
with his preponderating element.
He is a scalene triangle,
and must be judged, accordingly,
upon irregular, lop-sided principles;
whereas you and I, commonplace
mortals, are produced, like the earth,
which is our preponderating element,
with our triangles all right-angled,
comfortable, and complete—for
which blessing let us thank Providence,
and be charitable to those
who are necessarily windy and gaseous,
from that unlucky scalene triangle
upon which they have had the
misfortune to be constructed, and
which, you perceive, is quite at variance
with the mathematical constitution
of the earth!
Pisistratus.—Sir, I am very happy
to hear so simple, easy, and intelligible
an explanation of Uncle Jack's peculiarities;
and I only hope that, for
the future, the sides of his scalene
triangle may never be produced to
our rectangular conformations.
Mr Caxton—(descending from his
stilts, with an air as mildly reproachful
as if I had been cavilling at the
virtues of Socrates.)—You don't do
your uncle justice, Pisistratus: he is a
very clever man; and I am sure that,
in spite of his scalene misfortune, he
would be an honest one—that is,
(added Mr Caxton, correcting himself,)
not romantically or heroically
honest—but honest as men go—if he
could but keep his head long enough
above water; but, you see, when the
best man in the world is engaged in
the process of sinking, he catches hold
of whatever comes in his way, and
drowns the very friend that is swimming
to save him.
Pisistratus.—Perfectly true, sir;
but Uncle Jack makes it his business
to be always sinking!
Mr Caxton—(with naïveté.)—And
how could it be otherwise, when he
has been carrying all his fellow
creatures in his breeches' pockets!
Now he has got rid of that dead
weight, I should not be surprised if
he swam like a cork.
Pisistratus—(who, since the Anti-Capitalist,
has become a strong Anti-Jackian.)—But
if, sir, you really
think Uncle Jack's love for his fellow-creatures
is genuine, that is surely
not the worst part of him!
Mr Caxton.—O literal ratiocinator,
and dull to the true logic of
Attic irony, can't you comprehend
that an affection may be genuine as
felt by the man, yet its nature be
spurious in relation to others. A
man may genuinely believe he loves
his fellow creatures, when he roasts
them like Torquemada, or guillotines
them like St Just! Happily Jack's
scalene triangle, being more produced
from air than from fire, does not give
to his philanthropy the inflammatory
character which distinguishes the
benevolence of inquisitors and revolutionists.
The philanthropy, therefore,
takes a more flatulent and innocent
form, and expends its strength
in mounting paper balloons, out of
which Jack pitches himself, with all
the fellow creatures he can coax into
sailing with him. No doubt Uncle
Jack's philanthropy is sincere, when
he cuts the string and soars up out of
sight; but the sincerity will not much
mend their bruises when himself and
fellow creatures come tumbling down,
neck and heels. It must be a very
wide heart that can take in all mankind—and
of a very strong fibre, to
bear so much stretching. Such hearts
there are, Heaven be thanked!—and
all praise to them! Jack's is not of
that quality. He is a scalene triangle.
He is not a circle! And yet, if he
would but let it rest, it is a good
heart—a very good heart," continued
my father, warming into a tenderness
quite infantine, all things considered.
"Poor Jack! that was prettily said of
him—'That if he were a dog, and
he had no home but a dog-kennel,
he would turn out to give me the best
of the straw!' Poor brother Jack!"
So the discussion was dropped;
and, in the meanwhile, Uncle Jack,
like the short-faced gentleman in the
Spectator, "distinguished himself
by a profound silence."
Blanche has contrived to associate
herself, if not with my more active
diversions—in running over the country,
and making friends with the
farmers—still in all my more leisurely
and domestic pursuits. There is about
her a silent charm that it is very hard
to define—but it seems to arise from
a kind of innate sympathy with the
moods and humours of those she loves.
If one is gay, there is a cheerful ring
in her silver laugh that seems gladness
itself; if one is sad, and creeps
away into a corner to bury one's head
in one's hands, and muse—by-and-by—and
just at the right moment—when
one has mused one's fill, and
the heart wants something to refresh
and restore it, one feels two innocent
arms round one's neck—looks up—and
lo! Blanche's soft eyes, full of wistful
compassionate kindness; though she
has the tact not to question—it is
enough for her to sorrow with your
sorrow—she cares not to know more.
A strange child!—fearless, and yet
seemingly fond of things that inspire
children with fear—fond of tales of
fay, sprite, and ghost—which Mrs
Primmins draws fresh and new from
her memory, as a conjuror draws pancakes
hot and hot from a hat. And
yet so sure is Blanche of her own
innocence, that they never trouble her
dreams in her lone little room, full of
caliginous corners and nooks, with
the winds moaning round the desolate
ruins, and the casements rattling
hoarse in the dungeon-like wall. She
would have no dread to walk through
the ghostly keep in the dark, or cross
the churchyard, what time,
"By the moon's doubtful and malignant light,"
the grave-stones look so spectral, and
the shade from the yew-trees lies so
still on the sward. When the brows
of Roland are gloomiest, and the compression
of his lips makes sorrow look
sternest, be sure that Blanche is
couched at his feet, waiting the moment
when, with some heavy sigh, the
muscles relax, and she is sure of the
smile if she climbs to his knee. It is
pretty to chance on her gliding up
broken turret stairs, or standing hushed
in the recess of shattered windowless
casements, and you wonder what
thoughts of vague awe and solemn
pleasure can be at work under that
still little brow.
She has a quick comprehension of
all that is taught to her; she already
tasks to the full my mother's educational
arts. My father has had to
rummage his library for books, to feed
(or extinguish) her desire for "farther
information;" and has promised
lessons in French and Italian—at
some golden time in the shadowy
"By-and-By,"—which are received
so gratefully that one might think
Blanche mistook Telemaque and Novelle
Morali for baby-houses and dolls.
Heaven send her through French and
Italian with better success than attended
Mr Caxton's lessons in Greek
to Pisistratus! She has an ear for
music, which my mother, who is no
bad judge, declares to be exquisite.
Luckily there is an old Italian settled
in a town ten miles off, who is said to
be an excellent music master, and
who comes the round of the neighbouring
squirearchy twice a-week. I
have taught her to draw—an accomplishment
in which I am not without
skill—and she has already taken a
sketch from nature, which, barring
the perspective, is not so amiss;
indeed, she has caught the notion of
"idealising" (which promises future
originality) from her own natural instincts,
and given to the old wych-elm,
that hangs over the stream, just
the bough that it wanted to dip into
the water, and soften off the hard
lines. My only fear is, that Blanche
should become too dreamy and
thoughtful. Poor child, she has no
one to play with! So I look out, and
get her a dog—frisky and young, who
abhors sedentary occupations—a spaniel,
small and coal-black, with ears
sweeping the ground. I baptise him
"Juba," in honour of Addison's Cato,
and in consideration of his sable curls
and Mauritanian complexion. Blanche
does not seem so eerie and elf-like,
while gliding through the ruins, when
Juba barks by her side, and scares
the birds from the ivy.
One day I had been pacing to and
fro the hall, which was deserted; and
the sight of the armour and portraits—dumb
evidences of the active and
adventurous lives of the old inhabitants,
which seemed to reprove my
own inactive obscurity—had set me off
on one of those Pegaséan hobbies on
which youth mounts to the skies—delivering
maidens on rocks, and killing
Gorgons and monsters—when Juba
bounded in, and Blanche came after
him, her straw hat in her hand.
Blanche.—I thought you were
here, Sisty: may I stay?
Pisistratus.—Why, my dear child,
the day is so fine, that instead of
losing it in-doors, you ought to be
running in the fields with Juba.
Juba.—Bow—wow!
Blanche.—Will you come too?
If Sisty stays in, Blanche does not care
for the butterflies!
Pisistratus, seeing that the thread of
his day-dreams is broken, consents
with an air of resignation. Just as
they gain the door, Blanche pauses,
and looks as if there were something
on her mind.
Pisistratus.—What now,
Blanche? Why are you making
knots in that ribbon, and writing invisible
characters on the floor with
the point of that busy little foot?
Blanche—(mysteriously).—I have
found a new room, Sisty. Do you
think we may look into it?
Pisistratus.—Certainly, unless
any Bluebeard of your acquaintance
told you not. Where is it?
Blanche.—Up stairs—to the
left.
Pisistratus.—That little old
door, going down two stone steps,
which is always kept locked?
Blanche.—Yes! it is not locked
to-day. The door was ajar, and I
peeped in; but I would not do more
till I came and asked you if you
thought it would not be wrong.
Pisistratus.—Very good in you,
my discreet little cousin. I have no
doubt it is a ghost-trap; however,
with Juba's protection, I think we
might venture together.
Pisistratus, Blanche, and Juba,
ascend the stairs, and turn off down
a dark passage to the left, away from
the rooms in use. We reach the arch-pointed
door of oak planks nailed
roughly together; we push it open,
and perceive that a small stair winds
down from the room: it is just over
Roland's chamber.
The room has a damp smell, and
has probably been left open to be
aired, for the wind comes through the
unbarred casement, and a billet burns
on the hearth. The place has that
attractive, fascinating air which belongs
to a lumber room, than which
I know nothing that so captivates the
interest and fancy of young people.
What treasures, to them, often lie hid in
those quaint odds and ends which the
elder generations have discarded as
rubbish! All children are by nature
antiquarians and relic-hunters. Still
there is an order and precision with
which the articles in that room are
stowed away that belies the true notion
of lumber—none of the mildew
and dust which give such mournful
interest to things abandoned to decay.
In one corner are piled up cases,
and military-looking trunks of outlandish
aspect, with R. D. C. in brass
nails on their sides. From these we
turn with involuntary respect, and
call off Juba, who has wedged himself
behind in pursuit of some imaginary
mouse. But in the other corner
is what seems to me a child's cradle—not
an English one evidently—it is of
wood, seemingly Spanish rosewood,
with a rail-work at the back, of twisted
columns; and I should scarcely have
known it to be a cradle but for the
fairy-like quilt and the tiny pillows,
which proclaimed its uses.
On the wall above the cradle were
arranged sundry little articles, that
had, perhaps, once made the joy of a
child's heart—broken toys with the
paint rubbed off, a tin sword and
trumpet, and a few tattered books,
mostly in Spanish—by their shape
and look, doubtless, children's books.
Near these stood, on the floor, a picture
with its face to the wall. Juba
had chased the mouse that his fancy
still insisted on creating, behind this
picture, and, as he abruptly drew
back, it fell into the hands I stretched
forth to receive it. I turned the face to
the light, and was surprised to see
merely an old family portrait; it was
that of a gentleman in the flowered
vest and stiff ruff which referred the
date of his existence to the reign of
Elizabeth—a man with a bold and
noble countenance. On the corner
was placed a faded coat of arms, beneath
which was inscribed, "Herbert
de Caxton, Eq: Aur: Ætat: 35."
On the back of the canvass I observed,
as I now replaced the picture
against the wall, a label in Roland's
handwriting, though in a younger
and more running hand than he now
wrote. The words were these:—"The
best and bravest of our line.
He charged by Sidney's side on the
field of Zutphen; he fought in Drake's
ship against the armament of Spain.
If ever I have a ——" The rest of
the label seemed to have been torn off.
I turned away, and felt a remorseful
shame that I had so far gratified
my curiosity,—if by so harsh a name
the powerful interest that had absorbed
me must be called. I looked
round for Blanche; she had retreated
from my side to the door, and, with
her hands before her eyes, was weeping.
As I stole towards her, my glance
fell on a book that lay on a chair near
the casement, and beside those relics of
an infancy once pure and serene.
By the old-fashioned silver clasps
I recognised Roland's bible. I felt
almost as if I had been guilty of profanation
in my thoughtless intrusion.
I drew away Blanche, and we descended
the stairs noiselessly, and
not till we were on our favourite
spot, amidst a heap of ruins on the
feudal justice-hill, did I seek to kiss
away her tears and ask the cause.
"My poor brother," sobbed
Blanche; "they must have been his—and
we shall never, never see
him again!—and poor papa's bible,
which he reads when he is very, very
sad! I did not weep enough when
my brother died. I know better what
death is now! Poor papa, poor papa!
Don't die, too, Sisty!"
There was no running after butterflies
that morning; and it was long
before I could soothe Blanche. Indeed,
she bore the traces of dejection in her
soft looks for many, many days; and
she often asked me, sighingly, "Don't
you think it was very wrong in me
to take you there?" Poor little
Blanche, true daughter of Eve, she
would not let me bear my due share
of the blame; she would have it all
in Adam's primitive way of justice,—"The
woman tempted me, and I did
eat." And since then Blanche has
seemed more fond than ever of Roland,
and comparatively deserts me,
to nestle close to him, and closer, till he
looks up and says, "My child, you are
pale; go and run after the butterflies;"
and she says now to him, not to me,—"Come
too!" drawing him out into
the sunshine with a hand that will
not loose its hold.
Of all Roland's line this Herbert de
Caxton was "the best and bravest!"
yet he had never named that ancestor
to me—never put any forefather in
comparison with the dubious and
mythical Sir William. I now remembered
once, that, in going over the pedigree,
I had been struck by the name
of Herbert—the only Herbert in the
scroll—and had asked, "What of him,
uncle?" and Roland had muttered
something inaudible and turned away.
And I remembered also, that in Roland's
room there was the mark in the
wall where a picture of that size had
once hung. It had been removed thence
before we first came, but must have
hung there for years to have left that
mark on the wall;—perhaps suspended
by Bolt, during Roland's long Continental
absence. "If ever I have
a ——." What were the missing words?
Alas, did they not relate to the son—missed
for ever, evidently not forgotten
still?
My uncle sate on one side the fireplace,
my mother on the other; and I,
at a small table between them, prepared
to note down the results of their
conference; for they had met in high
council, to assess their joint fortunes—determine
what should be brought
into the common stock, and set apart
for the civil list, and what should
be laid aside as a sinking fund. Now
my mother, true woman as she was,
had a womanly love of show in her
own quiet way—of making "a genteel
figure" in the eyes of the neighbourhood—of
seeing that sixpence not
only went as far as sixpence ought to go,
but that, in the going, it should emit
mild but imposing splendour—not,
indeed, a gaudy flash—a startling
Borealian coruscation, which is scarcely
within the modest and placid idiosyncrasies
of sixpence—but a gleam
of gentle and benign light, just to
show where a sixpence had been, and
allow you time to say, "Behold,"
before
"The jaws of darkness did devour it up."
Thus, as I once before took occasion
to apprise the reader, we had always
held a very respectable position
in the neighbourhood round our
square brick house; been as sociable
as my father's habits would permit;
given our little tea-parties, and our
occasional dinners, and, without attempting
to vie with our richer associates,
there had always been so
exquisite a neatness, so notable a
house-keeping, so thoughtful a disposition,
in short, of all the properties
indigenous to a well-spent sixpence,
in my mother's management,
that there was not an old maid within
seven miles of us who did not pronounce
our tea-parties to be perfect;
and the great Mrs Rollick, who gave
forty guineas a-year to a professed
cook and housekeeper, used regularly,
whenever we dined at Rollick Hall,
to call across the table to my mother,
(who therewith blushed up to her ears,)
to apologise for the strawberry jelly.
It is true that when, on returning
home, my mother adverted to that
flattering and delicate compliment, in
a tone that revealed the self-conceit
of the human heart, my father—whether
to sober his Kitty's vanity
into a proper and Christian mortification
of spirit, or from that strange
shrewdness which belonged to him—would
remark that Mrs Rollick was
of a querulous nature; that the compliment
was meant not to please my
mother, but to spite the professed
cook and housekeeper, to whom the
butler would be sure to repeat the
invidious apology.
In settling at the tower, and assuming
the head of its establishment,
my mother was naturally anxious
that, poor battered invalid though the
tower was, it should still put its best
leg foremost. Sundry cards, despite
the thinness of the neighbourhood,
had been left at the door; various
invitations, which my uncle had
hitherto declined, had greeted his occupation
of the ancestral ruin, and
had become more numerous since the
news of our arrival had gone abroad;
so that my mother saw before her a
very suitable field for her hospitable
accomplishments—a reasonable ground
for her ambition that the tower
should hold up its head, as became a
tower that held the head of the family.
But not to wrong thee, O dear
mother, as thou sittest there, opposite
the grim captain, so fair and so neat,—with
thine apron as white, and thy
hair as trim and as sheen, and thy
morning cap, with its ribbons of blue,
as coquettishly arranged as if thou
hadst a fear that the least negligence
on thy part might lose thee the heart
of thine Austin—not to wrong thee
by setting down to frivolous motives
alone thy feminine visions of the
social amenities of life, I know that
thine heart, in its provident tenderness,
was quite as much interested as ever
thy vanities could be, in the hospitable
thoughts on which thou wert intent.
For, first and foremost, it was the
wish of thy soul that thine Austin
might, as little as possible, be reminded
of the change in his fortunes,—might
miss as little as possible those
interruptions to his abstracted scholarly
moods, at which, it is true, he
used to fret and to pshaw and to cry
Papæ! but which nevertheless always
did him good, and freshened up the
stream of his thoughts. And, next, it
was the conviction of thine understanding
that a little society, and boon
companionship, and the proud pleasure
of showing his ruins, and presiding
at the hall of his forefathers, would
take Roland out of those gloomy
reveries into which he still fell at
times. And, thirdly, for us young
people, ought not Blanche to find
companions in children of her own
sex and age? Already in those large
black eyes there was something
melancholy and brooding, as there is
in the eyes of all children who live
only with their elders; and for Pisistratus,
with his altered prospects,
and the one great gnawing memory
at his heart—which he tried to conceal
from himself, but which a mother
(and a mother who had loved) saw
at a glance—what could be better
than such union and interchange with
the world around us, small as that
world might be, which woman, sweet
binder and blender of all social links,
might artfully effect?—So that thou
didst not go like the awful Florentine,
"Sopra lor vanita che par persona,
'over thin shadows that mocked the
substance of real forms,' but rather it
was the real forms that appeared as
shadows or vanita.
What a digression!—can I never
tell my story in a plain straightforward
way? Certainly I was born
under the Cancer, and all my movements
are circumlocutory, sideways,
and crab-like.
"I think, Roland," said my mother,
"that the establishment is settled.
Bolt, who is equal to three men at
least; Primmins, cook and housekeeper;
Molly a good stirring girl—and
willing, (though I've had some
difficulty in persuading her, poor
thing, to submit not to be called
Anna Maria!) Their wages are but
a small item, my dear Roland."
"Hem!" said Roland, "since we
can't do with fewer servants at less
wages, I suppose we must call it
small—"
"It is so," said my mother with
mild positiveness. "And, indeed,
what with the game and fish, and the
garden and poultry-yard, and your
own mutton, our housekeeping will
be next to nothing."
"Hem!" again said the thrifty
Roland, with a slight inflection of the
beetle brows. "It may be next to
nothing, ma'am—sister—just as a
butcher's shop may be next to Northumberland
House, but there is a
vast deal between nothing and that
next neighbour you have given it."
This speech was so like one of my
father's;—so naïve an imitation of that
subtle reasoner's use of the rhetorical
figure called ANTANACLASIS, (or repetition
of the same words in a different
sense,) that I laughed and my
mother smiled. But she smiled reverently,
not thinking of the ANTANACLASIS,
as, laying her hand on Roland's
arm, she replied in the yet
more formidable figure of speech
called EPIPHONEMA, (or exclamation,)
"Yet, with all your economy, you would
have had us—"
"Tut!" cried my uncle, parrying the
EPIPHONEMA with a masterly APOSIOPESIS
(or breaking off;) "tut! if you
had done what I wished, I should have
had more pleasure for my money!"
My poor mother's rhetorical armoury
supplied no weapon to meet that artful
APOSIOPESIS, so she dropped the rhetoric
altogether, and went on with that
"unadorned eloquence" natural to her,
as to other great financial reformers:—"Well,
Roland, but I am a good housewife,
I assure you, and—don't scold;
but that you never do,—I mean don't
look as if you would like to scold;
the fact is, that, even after setting
aside £100 a-year for our little
parties—"
"Little parties!—a hundred a-year!"
cried the Captain aghast.
My mother pursued her way remorselessly,—"Which
we can well
afford; and without counting your
half-pay, which you must keep for
pocket-money and your wardrobe
and Blanche's, I calculate that we
can allow Pisistratus £150 a-year,
which, with the scholarship he is
to get, will keep him at Cambridge,"
(at that, seeing the scholarship
was as yet amidst the Pleasures
of Hope, I shook my head doubtfully;)
"and," continued my mother,
not heeding that sign of dissent, "we
shall still have something to lay by."
The Captain's face assumed a ludicrous
expression of compassion and
horror; he evidently thought my mother's
misfortunes had turned her
head.
His tormentor continued.
"For," said my mother, with a
pretty calculating shake of her head,
and a movement of the right forefinger
towards the five fingers of the left hand,
"three hundred and seventy pounds—the
interest of Austin's fortune—and
fifty pounds that we may reckon
for the rent of our house, make £420
a-year. Add your £330 a-year from
the farm, sheep-walk, and cottages
that you let, and the total is £750.
Now with all we get for nothing for
our housekeeping, as I said before,
we can do very well with five hundred
a-year, and indeed make a handsome
figure. So, after allowing Sisty £150,
we still have £100 to lay by for
Blanche."
"Stop, stop, stop!" cried the Captain,
in great agitation; "who told
you that I had £330 a-year?"
"Why, Bolt—don't be angry with
him."
"Bolt is a blockhead. From £330
a-year take £200, and the remainder
is all my income, besides my half-pay."
My mother opened her eyes, and
so did I.
"To that £130 add, if you please,
£130 of your own. All that you have
over, my dear sister, is yours or
Austin's, or your boy's; but not a
shilling can go to give luxuries to a
miserly, battered old soldier. Do
you understand me?"
"No, Roland," said my mother,
"I don't understand you at all.
Does not your property bring in £330
a-year?"
"Yes, but it has a debt of £200
a-year on it," said the Captain, gloomily
and reluctantly.
"Oh, Roland!" cried my mother
tenderly, and approaching so near
that, had my father been in the room,
I am sure she would have been bold
enough to kiss the stern Captain,
though I never saw him look sterner
and less kissable. "Oh, Roland!"
cried my mother, concluding that
famous EPIPHONEMA which my uncle's
APOSIOPESIS had before nipped in the
bud, "and yet you would have
made us, who are twice as rich, rob
you of this little all!"
"Ah!" said Roland, trying to smile,
"but I should have had my own way
then, and starved you shockingly. No
talk then of 'little parties,' and suchlike.
But you must not now turn
the tables against me, nor bring
your £420 a-year as a set-off to my
£130."
"Why," said my mother generously,
"you forget the money's worth
that you contribute—all that your
grounds supply, and all that we save
by it. I am sure that that's worth
a yearly £300 at the least."
"Madam—sister," said the Captain,
"I'm sure you don't want to
hurt my feelings. All I have to say
is, that, if you add to what I bring an
equal sum—to keep up the poor old
ruin—it is the utmost that I can allow,
and the rest is not more than Pisistratus
can spend."
So saying, the Captain rose, bowed,
and before either of us could stop him,
hobbled out of the room.
"Dear me, Sisty!" said my mother,
wringing her hands, "I have certainly
displeased him. How could I
guess he had so large a debt on the
property?"
"Did not he pay his son's debts?
Is not that the reason that—"
"Ah," interrupted my mother, almost
crying, "and it was that which
ruffled him, and I not to guess it?
What shall I do?"
"Set to work at a new calculation,
dear mother, and let him have his
own way."
"But then," said my mother, "your
uncle will mope himself to death, and
your father will have no relaxation,
while you see that he has lost his former
object in his books. And Blanche—and
you too. If we were only to
contribute what dear Roland does, I
do not see how, with £260 a-year, we
could ever bring our neighbours round
us! I wonder what Austin would
say! I have half a mind—no, I'll go
and look over the week-books with
Primmins."
My mother went her way sorrowfully,
and I was left alone.
Then I looked on the stately old
hall, grand in its forlorn decay. And
the dreams I had begun to cherish at
my heart swept over me, and hurried
me along, far, far away into the golden
land, whither Hope beckons Youth. To
restore my father's fortunes—reweave
the links of that broken ambition which
had knit his genius with the world—rebuild
these fallen walls—cultivate
those barren moors—revive the ancient
name—glad the old soldier's age—and
be to both the brothers what Roland
had lost—a son! These were my
dreams; and when I woke from them,
lo! they had left behind an intense
purpose, a resolute object. Dream,
O youth—dream manfully and nobly,
and thy dreams shall be prophets!
LETTER FROM PISISTRATUS CAXTON, TO ALBERT TREVANION, ESQ., M. P.
(The confession of a youth who, in the Old World, finds himself one too many.)
"My dear Mr Trevanion,—I
thank you cordially, and so we do all,
for your reply to my letter, informing
you of the villanous traps through
which we have passed not indeed with
whole skins, but still whole in life and
limb—which considering that the
traps were three, and the teeth sharp,
was more than we could reasonably
expect. We have taken to the wastes,
like wise foxes as we are, and I do
not think a bait can be found that
will again snare the fox paternal. As
for the fox filial, it is different, and I
am about to prove to you that he is
burning to redeem the family disgrace.
Ah! my dear Mr Trevanion, if you
are busy with 'blue books' when this
letter reaches you, stop here, and put
it aside for some rare moment of
leisure. I am about to open my
heart to you, and ask you, who know
the world so well, to aid me in an
escape from those flammantia mænia,
wherewith I find that world begirt
and enclosed. For look you, sir, you
and my father were right when you
both agreed that the mere book life
was not meant for me. And yet
what is not book life, to a young man
who would make his way through the
ordinary and conventional paths to
fortune? All the professions are so
book-lined, book-hemmed, book-choked,
that wherever these strong
hands of mine stretch towards action,
they find themselves met by octavo
ramparts, flanked with quarto crenellations.
For first, this college life,
opening to scholarships, and ending,
perchance, as you political economists
would desire, in Malthusian fellowships—premiums
for celibacy—consider
what manner of thing it is!
"Three years, book upon book,—a
great Dead Sea before one, three years
long, and all the apples that grow on
the shore full of the ashes of pica and
primer! Those three years ended,
the fellowship, it may be, won,—still
books—books—if the whole world
does not close at the college gates.
Do I, from scholar, effloresce into
literary man, author by profession?—books—books!
Do I go into the
law?—books—books. Ars longa, vita
brevis, which, paraphrased, means
that it is slow work before one fags
one's way to a brief! Do I turn
doctor? Why, what but books can
kill time, until, at the age of forty, a
lucky chance may permit me to kill
something else? The church? (for
which, indeed, I don't profess to be
good enough,)—that is book life par
excellence, whether, inglorious and
poor, I wander through long lines of
divines and fathers; or, ambitious of
bishopricks, I amend the corruptions,
not of the human heart, but of a Greek
text, and through defiles of scholiasts
and commentators win my way to
the See. In short, barring the noble
profession of arms—which you know,
after all, is not precisely the road to
fortune—can you tell me any means
by which one may escape these
eternal books, this mental clockwork,
and corporeal lethargy. Where
can this passion for life that runs
riot through my veins find its vent?
Where can these stalwart limbs, and
this broad chest, grow of value and
worth, in this hot-bed of cerebral
inflammation and dyspeptic intellect?
I know what is in me; I know I have
the qualities that should go with
stalwart limbs and broad chest. I
have some plain common sense, some
promptitude and keenness, some pleasure
in hardy danger, some fortitude
in bearing pain—qualities for which I
bless Heaven, for they are qualities
good and useful in private life. But
in the forum of men, in the market
of fortune, are they not flocci, nauci,
nihili?
"In a word, dear sir and friend, in
this crowded Old World, there is not
the same room that our bold forefathers
found for men to walk about,
and jostle their neighbours. No; they
must sit down like boys at their
form, and work out their tasks, with
rounded shoulders and aching fingers.
There has been a pastoral age, and a
hunting age, and a fighting age. Now
we have arrived at the age sedentary.
Men who sit longest carry all before
them: puny delicate fellows, with
hands just strong enough to wield a
pen, eyes so bleared by the midnight
lamp that they see no joy in that
buxom sun, (which draws me forth
into the fields, as life draws the living,)
and digestive organs worn and
macerated by the relentless flagellation
of the brain. Certainly, if this
is to be the Reign of Mind, it is idle
to repine, and kick against the pricks;
but is it true that all these qualities
of action that are within me are to go
for nothing! If I were rich, and
happy in mind and circumstance,
well and good; I should shoot, hunt,
farm, travel, enjoy life, and snap my
fingers at ambition. If I were so poor
and so humbly bred that I could turn
gamekeeper or whipper-in, as pauper
gentlemen virtually did of old, well
and good too; I should exhaust this
troublesome vitality of mine, by
nightly battles with poachers, and
leaps over double dykes and stone
walls. If I were so depressed of spirit
that I could live without remorse on
my father's small means, and exclaim
with Claudian, 'The earth gives me
feasts that cost nothing,' well and
good too; it were a life to suit a
vegetable, or a very minor poet. But
as it is!—here I open another leaf of
my heart to you! To say that, being
poor, I want to make a fortune, is to
say that I am an Englishman. To
attach ourselves to a thing positive,
belongs to our practical race. Even
in our dreams, if we build castles in
the air, they are not Castles of Indolence,—indeed
they have very little
of the castle about them, and look
much more like Hoare's Bank on the
east side of Temple Bar! I desire,
then, to make a fortune. But I differ
from my countrymen, first, by
desiring only what you rich men
would call but a small fortune;
secondly, in wishing that I may not
spend my whole life in that said fortune-making.
Just see, now, how I
am placed.
"Under ordinary circumstances, I
must begin by taking from my father
a large slice of an income that will ill
spare paring. According to my calculation,
my parents and my uncle
want all they have got—and the subtraction
of the yearly sum on which
Pisistratus is to live, till he can live by
his own labours, would be so much
taken from the decent comforts of his
kindred. If I return to Cambridge,
with all economy, I must thus narrow
still more the res angusta domi—and
when Cambridge is over, and I
am turned loose upon the world—failing,
as is likely enough, of the support
of a fellowship—how many years
must I work, or rather, alas! not work,
at the bar (which, after all, seems my
best calling) before I can in my turn
provide for those who, till then, rob
themselves for me?—till I have arrived
at middle life, and they are old and
worn out—till the chink of the golden
bowl sounds but hollow at the ebbing
well! I would wish that, if I can make
money, those I love best may enjoy it
while enjoyment is yet left to them;
that my father shall see The History
of Human Error, complete, bound in
Russia on his shelves; that my
mother shall have the innocent pleasures
that content her, before age steals
the light from her happy smile; that
before Roland's hair is snow-white,
(alas! the snows there thicken fast,) he
shall lean on my arm, while we settle
together where the ruin shall be repaired
or where left to the owls; and where
the dreary bleak waste around shall
laugh with the gleam of corn:—for you
know the nature of this Cumberland
soil—you, who possess much of it,
and have won so many fair acres
from the wild;—you know that my
uncle's land, now (save a single farm)
scarce worth a shilling an acre, needs
but capital to become an estate more
lucrative than ever his ancestors
owned. You know that, for you have
applied your capital to the same kind
of land, and, in doing so, what blessings—which
you scarcely think of in your
London library—you have effected!—what
mouths you feed, what hands
you employ! I have calculated that
my uncle's moors, which now scarce
maintain two or three shepherds, could,
manured by money, maintain two
hundred families by their labour.
All this is worth trying for! therefore
Pisistratus wants to make money.
Not so much! he does not require
millions—a few spare thousand pounds
would go a long way; and with a
modest capital to begin with, Roland
should become a true squire, a real
landowner, not the mere lord of a
desert. Now then, dear sir, advise
me how I may, with such qualities as
I possess, arrive at that capital—ay,
and before it is too late—so that
money-making may not last till my
grave.
"Turning in despair from this civilised
world of ours, I have cast my
eyes to a world far older,—and yet
more to a world in its giant childhood.
India here,—Australia there!—what
say you, sir—you who will see
dispassionately those things that float
before my eyes through a golden
haze, looming large in the distance?
Such is my confidence in your judgment
that you have but to say,
'Fool, give up thine El Dorados and
stay at home,—stick to the books and
the desk—annihilate that redundance
of animal life that is in thee—grow a
mental machine. Thy physical gifts
are of no avail to thee; take thy
place among the slaves of the Lamp,"
and I will obey without a murmur.
But if I am right—if I have in me
attributes that here find no market;
if my repinings are but the instincts
of nature, that, out of this decrepid
civilisation, desire vent for growth in
the young stir of some more rude and
vigorous social system—then give me,
I pray, that advice which may clothe
my idea in some practical and tangible
embodiments. Have I made
myself understood?
"Rarely do we see a newspaper here,
but occasionally one finds its way
from the parsonage; and I have lately
rejoiced at a paragraph that spoke of
your speedy entrance into the administration
as a thing certain. I write
to you before you are a minister; and
you see what I seek is not in the way
of official patronage: A niche in an
office!—oh, to me that were worse than
all. Yet I did labour hard with you,
but—that was different! I write to
you thus frankly, knowing your warm
noble heart—and as if you were my
father. Allow me to add my humble
but earnest congratulations on Miss
Trevanion's approaching marriage
with one worthy, if not of her, at
least of her station. I do so as becomes
one whom you have allowed to
retain the right to pray for the happiness
of you and yours.
"My dear Mr Trevanion, this is a
long letter, and I dare not even read
it over, lest if I do, I should not send
it. Take it with all its faults, and
judge of it with that kindness with
which you have judged ever
Your grateful and devoted servant,
"Pisistratus Caxton."
Library of the House of Commons, Tuesday Night.
"My dear Pisistratus,—* * * * *
is up! we are in for it for two
mortal hours. I take flight to the
library, and devote those hours to
you. Don't be conceited, but that
picture of yourself which you have
placed before me has struck me
with all the force of an original. The
state of mind which you describe so
vividly must be a very common one,
in our era of civilisation, yet I have
never before seen it made so prominent
and life-like. You have been in my
thoughts all day. Yes, how many
young men must there be like you, in
this Old World, able, intelligent, active,
and persevering enough, yet not adapted
for success in any of our conventional
professions—'mute, inglorious
Raleighs.' Your letter, young artist,
is an illustration of the philosophy of
colonising. I comprehend better, after
reading it, the old Greek colonisation,—the
sending out not only the paupers,
the refuse of an over-populated
state, but a large proportion of a better
class—fellows full of pith and sap,
and exuberant vitality, like yourself,
blending in those wise cleruchiæ a
certain portion of the aristocratic with
the more democratic element; not
turning a rabble loose upon a new soil,
but planting in the foreign allotments
all the rudiments of a harmonious
state, analogous to that in the mother
country—not only getting rid of hungry
craving mouths, but furnishing vent
for a waste surplus of intelligence and
courage, which at home is really not
needed, and more often comes to ill
than to good;—here only menaces our
artificial embankments, but there,
carried off in an aqueduct, might give
life to a desert.
"For my part, in my ideal of colonisation,
I should like that each exportation
of human beings had, as of
old, its leaders and chiefs—not so appointed
from the mere quality of
rank, often, indeed, taken from the
humbler classes—but still men to
whom a certain degree of education
should give promptitude, quickness,
adaptability—men in whom their followers
can confide. The Greeks
understood that. Nay, as the colony
makes progress—as its principal town
rises into the dignity of a capital—a
polis that needs a polity—I sometimes
think it might be wise to go still farther,
and not only transplant to it a
high standard of civilisation, but draw
it more closely into connexion with
the parent state, and render the passage
of spare intellect, education, and
civility, to and fro, more facile, by
draughting off thither the spare scions
of royalty itself. I know that many
of my more 'liberal' friends would
pooh-pooh this notion; but I am
sure that the colony altogether, when
arrived to a state that would bear the
importation, would thrive all the
better for it. And when the day shall
come (as to all healthful colonies it
must come sooner or later) in which
the settlement has grown an independent
state, we may thereby have laid
the seeds of a constitution and a civilisation
similar to our own—with self-developed
forms of monarchy and
aristocracy, though of a simpler growth
than old societies accept, and not left
a strange motley chaos of struggling
democracy—an uncouth livid giant,
at which the Frankenstein may well
tremble—not because it is a giant, but
because it is a giant half completed.8
Depend on it, the New World will be
friendly or hostile to the Old, not in
proportion to the kinship of race, but
in proportion to the similarity of manners
and institutions—a mighty truth,
to which we colonisers have been
blind.
"Passing from these more distant
speculations to this positive present
before us, you see already, from
what I have said, that I sympathise
with your aspirations—that I construe
them as you would have me;—looking
to your nature and to your objects,
I give you my advice in a word—Emigrate!
"My advice is, however, founded
on one hypothesis—viz., that you are
perfectly sincere—you will be contented
with a rough life, and with a
moderate fortune at the end of your
probation. Don't dream of emigrating
if you want to make a million, or
the tenth part of a million. Don't
dream of emigrating, unless you can
enjoy its hardships,—to bear them is
not enough!
"Australia is the land for you, as
you seem to surmise. Australia is the
land for two classes of emigrants: 1st,
The man who has nothing but his
wits, and plenty of them; 2dly, The
man who has a small capital, and who
is contented to spend ten years in
trebling it. I assume that you belong
to the latter class. Take out
£3000, and before you are thirty years
old, you may return with £10,000 or
£12,000. If that satisfies you, think
seriously of Australia. By coach, tomorrow,
I will send you down all the
best books and reports on the subject;
and I will get you what detailed information
I can from the Colonial
Office. Having read these, and
thought over them dispassionately,
spend some months yet among the
sheep-walks of Cumberland; learn
all you can, from all the shepherds
you can find—from Thyrsis to Menalcas.
Do more; fit yourself in every
way for a life in the Bush, where
the philosophy of the division of
labour is not yet arrived at. Learn to
turn your hand to everything. Be
something of a smith, something of a
carpenter—do the best you can with
the fewest tools; make yourself an
excellent shot; break in all the wild
horses and ponies you can borrow
and beg. Even if you want to do none
of these things when in your settlement,
the having learned to do them
will fit you for many other things not
now foreseen. De-fine-gentlemanise
yourself from the crown of your head to
the sole of your foot, and become the
greater aristocrat for so doing; for he
is more than an aristocrat, he is a king,
who suffices in all things for himself—who
is his own master, because he
wants no valetaille. I think Seneca
has expressed that thought before
me; and I would quote the passage,
but the book, I fear, is not in the
library of the House of Commons.
But now—(cheers, by Jove. I suppose
* * * * * is down! Ah! it is so; and
C—— is up, and that cheer followed
a sharp hit at me. How I wish I
were your age, and going to Australia
with you!) But now—to resume
my suspended period—but now to
the important point—capital. You
must take that, unless you go as a
shepherd, and then goodbye to the
idea of £10,000 in ten years. So,
you see, it appears at the first blush
that you must still come to your father;
but, you will say, with this difference,
that you borrow the capital,
with every chance of repaying it, instead
of frittering away the income
year after year till you are eight-and-thirty
or forty at least. Still, Pisistratus,
you don't, in this, gain your
object at a leap; and my dear old
friend ought not to lose his son and
his money too. You say you write
to me as to your own father. You
know I hate professions; and if you
did not mean what you say, you have
offended me mortally. As a father,
then, I take a father's rights, and
speak plainly. A friend of mine, Mr
Bolding, a clergyman, has a son—a
wild fellow, who is likely to get into
all sorts of scrapes in England, but
with plenty of good in him, notwithstanding—frank,
bold—not wanting
in talent, but rather in prudence—easily
tempted and led away into extravagance.
He would make a capital
colonist, (no such temptations in
the Bush,) if tied to a youth like you.
Now I propose, with your leave,
that his father shall advance him
£1500,—which shall not, however,
be placed in his hands, but in
yours, as head partner in the firm.
You, on your side, shall advance
the same sum of £1500, which you
shall borrow from me, for three
years without interest. At the end
of that time interest shall commence,
and the capital, with the interest
on the said first three years,
shall be repaid to me, or my executors,
on your return. After you have been
a year or two in the Bush, and felt
your way, and learned your business,
you may then safely borrow £1500
more from your father; and, in the
meanwhile, you and your partner will
have had together the full sum of
£3000 to commence with. You see
in this proposal I make you no gift,
and I run no risk, even by your death.
If you die, insolvent, I will promise
to come on your father, poor fellow!—for
small joy and small care will he
have then in what may be left of his
fortune. There—I have said all; and
I will never forgive you if you reject
an aid that will serve you so much,
and cost me so little.
"I accept your congratulations on
Fanny's engagement with Lord
Castleton. When you return from
Australia you will still be a young
man, she (though about your own
years) almost a middle-aged woman,
with her head full of pomps
and vanities. All girls have a short
period of girlhood in common; but
when they enter womanhood, the
woman becomes the woman of her
class. As for me, and the office
assigned to me by report, you know
what I said when we parted, and—but
here J—— comes, and tells
me that 'I am expected to speak, and
answer N——, who is just up, brimful
of malice,'—the House crowded,
and hungering for personalities. So I,
the man of the Old World, gird up
my loins, and leave you with a sigh,
to the fresh youth of the New—
'Ne tibi sit duros acuisse in prœlia dentes.'
"Yours affectionately,
"Albert Trevanion."
So, reader, thou art now at the
secret of my heart.
Wonder not that I, a bookman's
son, and, at certain periods of my life,
a bookman myself, though of lowly
grade in that venerable class,—wonder
not that I should thus, in that
transition stage between youth and
manhood, have turned impatiently
from books.—Most students, at one
time or other in their existence, have
felt the imperious demand of that
restless principle in man's nature,
which calls upon each son of Adam to
contribute his share to the vast treasury
of human deeds. And though
great scholars are not necessarily, nor
usually, men of action,—yet the men
of action whom History presents to
our survey, have rarely been without
a certain degree of scholarly nurture.
For the ideas which books quicken,
books cannot always satisfy. And
though the royal pupil of Aristotle
slept with Homer under his pillow, it
was not that he might dream of composing
epics, but of conquering new
Ilions in the East. Many a man,
how little soever resembling Alexander,
may still have the conqueror's
aim in an object that action only can
achieve, and the book under his pillow
may be the strongest antidote to
his repose. And how the stern Destinies
that shall govern the man weave
their first delicate tissues amidst the
earliest associations of the child!—Those
idle tales with which the old
credulous nurse had beguiled my
infancy—tales of wonder, knight-errantry,
and adventure, had left behind
them seeds long latent—seeds
that might never have sprung up
above the soil—but that my boyhood
was so early put under the burning-glass,
and in the quick forcing-house,
of the London world. There, even
amidst books and study,—lively observation,
and petulant ambition, broke
forth from the lush foliage of romance—that
fruitless leafiness of poetic
youth! And there passion, which is a
revolution in all the elements of individual
man, had called a new state of
being, turbulent and eager, out of the
old habits and conventional forms it
had buried,—ashes that speak where
the fire has been. Far from me, as
from any mind of some manliness,
be the attempt to create interest by
dwelling at length on the struggles
against a rash and misplaced attachment,
which it was my duty to overcome;
but all such love, as I have
before implied, is a terrible unsettler:—
"Where once such fairies dance, no grass doth ever grow."
To re-enter boyhood, go with meek
docility through its disciplined routine,—how
hard had I found that return,
amidst the cloistered monotony of
college! My love for my father, and
my submission to his wish, had indeed
given some animation to objects
otherwise distasteful; but, now that
my return to the University must be attended
with positive privation to those
at home, the idea became utterly hateful
and repugnant. Under pretence
that I found myself, on trial, not yet
sufficiently prepared to do credit to
my father's name, I had easily obtained
leave to lose the ensuing college
term, and pursue my studies at
home. This gave me time to prepare
my plans, and bring round—how
shall I ever bring round to my adventurous
views those whom I propose
to desert? Hard it is to get on
in the world—very hard! But the
most painful step in the way is that
which starts from the threshold of a
beloved home.
How—ah, how, indeed! "No,
Blanche, you cannot join me to-day;
I am going out for many hours. So
it will be late before I can be home."
Home!—the word chokes me!
Juba slinks back to his young mistress,
disconsolate; Blanche gazes at
me ruefully from our favourite hilltop,
and the flowers she has been
gathering fall unheeded from her
basket. I hear my mother's voice
singing low, as she sits at work by her
open casement. How—ah, how, indeed!