St Chrysostom, in his work on
The Priesthood, defends deceit, if for a
good purpose, by many Scriptural
examples; ends his first book by asserting
that it is often necessary, and
that much benefit may arise from it;
and begins his second book by saying
that it ought not to be called deceit,
but "good management."
Good management, then, let me
call the innocent arts by which I now
sought to insinuate my project into
favour and assent with my unsuspecting
family. And first I began
with Roland. I easily induced him
to read some of the books, full of the
charm of Australian life, which Trevanion
had sent me; and so happily
did those descriptions suit his own
erratic tastes, and the free, half-savage
man that lay rough and large
within that soldierly nature, that he
himself, as it were, seemed to suggest
my own ardent desire—sighed, as the
careworn Trevanion had done, that
"he was not my age," and blew the
flame that consumed me with his own
willing breath. So that when at
last—wandering one day over the
wild moors—I said, knowing his
hatred of law and lawyers—
"Alas, uncle, that nothing should
be left for me but the bar!—"
Captain Roland struck his cane into
the peat, and exclaimed, "Zounds,
sir, the bar and lying, with truth and
a world fresh from God before you!"
"Your hand, uncle—we understand
each other. Now help me with those
two quiet hearts at home!"
"Plague on my tongue! what have
I done?" said the Captain, looking
aghast. Then, after musing a little
time, he turned his dark eye on me
and growled out, "I suspect, young
sir, you have been laying a trap for
me; and I have fallen into it, like an
old fool as I am."
"Oh, sir, if you prefer the bar!—"
"Rogue!"
"Or, indeed, I might perhaps get a
clerkship in a merchant's office?"
"If you do, I will scratch you out
of the pedigree!"
"Huzza then for Australasia!"
"Well, well, well," said my uncle,
"With a smile on his lip and a tear in his eye;"
"the old sea-king's blood will force
its way—a soldier or a rover, there is
no other choice for you. We shall
mourn and miss you; but who can
chain the young eagles to the eyrie?"
I had a harder task with my father,
who at first seemed to listen to me
as if I had been talking of an excursion
to the moon. But I threw in a
dexterous dose of the old Greek
Cleruchiæ—cited by Trevanion—which
set him off full trot on his
hobby, till, after a short excursion to
Eubœa and the Chersonese, he was
fairly lost amidst the Ionian colonies
of Asia Minor. I then gradually and
artfully decoyed him into his favourite
science of Ethnology; and
while he was speculating on the
origin of the American savages,
and considering the rival claims of
Cimmerians, Israelites, and Scandinavians,
I said quietly,—"And you,
sir, who think that all human improvement
depends on the mixture of
races—you, whose whole theory is an
absolute sermon upon emigration, and
the transplanting and interpolity of our
species—you, sir, should be the last
man to chain your son, your elder
son, to the soil, while your younger
is the very missionary of rovers."
"Pisistratus," said my father, "you
reason by synecdoche—ornamental,
but illogical;" and therewith, resolved
to hear no more, my father
rose and retreated into his study.
But his observation, now quickened,
began from that day to follow
my moods and humours—then he
himself grew silent and thoughtful,
and finally he took to long conferences
with Roland. The result was that,
one evening in spring, as I lay listless
amidst the weeds and fern that
sprang up through the melancholy
ruins, I felt a hand on my shoulder; and
my father, seating himself beside me on
a fragment of stone, said earnestly—"Pisistratus,—let
us talk—I had
hoped better things from your study
of Robert Hall."
"Nay, dear father, the medicine
did me great good: I have not repined
since, and I look steadfastly
and cheerfully on life. But Robert
Hall fulfilled his mission, and I
would fulfil mine."
"Is there no mission in thy native
land, O planeticose and exallotriote
spirit?1" asked my father, with compassionate
rebuke.
"Alas, yes! But what the impulse
of genius is to the great, the instinct
of vocation is to the mediocre. In
every man there is a magnet; in that
thing which the man can do best there
is a loadstone."
"Papæ!" said my father, opening
his eyes; "and are no loadstones to
be found for you nearer than the great
Australasian Bight?"
"Ah, sir, if you resort to irony, I
can say no more!" My father looked
down on me tenderly, as I hung my
head moody and abashed.
"Son," said he, "do you think that
there is any real jest at my heart when
the matter discussed is whether you
are to put wide seas and long years
between us?" I pressed nearer to his
side, and made no answer.
"But I have noted you of late," continued
my father, "and I have observed
that your old studies are grown
distasteful to you; and I have talked
with Roland, and I see that your desire
is deeper than a boy's mere whim.
And then I have asked myself what
prospect I can hold out at home to induce
you to be contented here, and I
see none; and therefore I should say
to you, 'Go thy ways, and God shield
thee,'—but, Pisistratus, your mother?"
"Ah, sir, that is indeed the question!
and there indeed I shrink. But,
after all, whatever I were—whether
toiling at the bar, or in some public
office—I should be still so much from
home and her. And then you, sir—she
loves you so entirely, that——"
"No," interrupted my father; "you
can advance no arguments like these
to touch a mother's heart. There is
but one argument that comes home
there—Is it for your good to leave
her? If so, there will be no need of farther
words. But let us not decide that
question hastily; let you and I be together
the next two months. Bring
your books and sit with me; when
you want to go out, tap me on the
shoulder and say 'Come.' At the end
of those two months, I will say to you
'Go,' or 'Stay.' And you will trust
me; and if I say the last, you will
submit?"
"Oh yes, sir, yes."
This compact made, my father
roused himself from all his studies—devoted
his whole thoughts to me—sought
with all his gentle wisdom to
wean me imperceptibly from my own
fixed tyrannical idea, ranged through
his wide pharmacy of books for such
medicaments as might alter the system
of my thoughts. And little
thought he that his very tenderness
and wisdom worked against him, for
at each new instance of either my
heart called aloud, "Is it not that
thy tenderness may be repaid, and thy
wisdom be known abroad, that I go
from thee into the strange land, O my
father?"
And the two months expired, and
my father saw that the magnet had
turned unalterably to the loadstone in
the great Australasian Bight; and he
said to me, "Go, and comfort your
mother. I have told her your wish,
and authorised it by my consent, for
I believe now that it is for your good."
I found my mother in the little room
which she had appropriated to herself,
next my father's study. And in that
room there was a pathos which I have
no words to express; for my mother's
meek, gentle, womanly soul, spoke
there, so that it was as the Home of
Home. The care with which she had
transplanted from the Brick House,
and lovingly arranged, all the humble
memorials of old times, dear to her
affections—the black silhouette of
my father's profile cut in paper, in the
full pomp of academics, cap and gown,
(how had he ever consented to sit for
it!) framed and glazed in the place of
honour over the little hearth; and
boyish sketches of mine at the Hellenic
Institute, first essays in sepia
and Indian ink, to animate the walls,
and bring her back, when she sate there
in the twilight musing alone, to
sunny hours when Sisty and the young
mother threw daisies at each other;—and,
covered with a great glass shade,
and dusted each day with her own
hand, the flower-pot Sisty had
bought with the proceeds of the domino-box,
on that memorable occasion
on which he had learned "how
bad deeds are repaired with good."
There, in one corner, stood the little
cottage piano, which I remembered all
my life—old-fashioned, and with the
jingling voice of approaching decrepitude,
but still associated with such
melodies as, after childhood, we hear
never more! And in the modest
hanging shelves which looked so gay
with ribbons, and tassels, and silken
cords—my mother's own library, saying
more to the heart than all the cold
wise poets whose souls my father invoked
in his grand Heraclea. The Bible
over which, with eyes yet untaught to
read, I had hung in vague awe and
love, as it lay open on my mother's
lap, while her sweet voice, then only
serious, was made the oracle of its
truths. And my first lesson-books
were there, all hoarded. And bound in
blue and gold, but elaborately papered
up, Cowper's Poems—a gift from
my father in the days of courtship—sacred
treasure which not even I had
the privilege to touch; and which my
mother took out only in the great
crosses and trials of conjugal life,
whenever some word less kind than
usual had dropped unawares from her
scholar's absent lips. Ah! all these
poor household gods, all seemed to
look on me with mild anger; and
from all came a voice to my soul,
"Cruel, dost thou forsake us!" And
amongst them sate my mother, desolate
as Rachel, and weeping silently.
"Mother! mother!" I cried, falling
on her neck, "forgive me, it is past,
I cannot leave you!"
"No—no! it is for your good—Austin
says so. Go—it is but the
first shock."
Then to my mother I opened the
sluices of that deep I had concealed
from scholar and soldier. To
her I poured all the wild, restless
thoughts which wandered through the
ruins of love destroyed—to her I confessed
what to myself I had scarcely
before avowed. And when the picture
of that, the darker, side of my
mind was shown, it was with a prouder
face, and less broken voice, that I
spoke of the manlier hopes and nobler
aims that gleamed across the wrecks
and the desert, and showed me my
escape.
"Did you not once say, mother,
that you had felt it like a remorse
that my father's genius passed so
noiselessly away, half accusing the
happiness you gave him for the
death of his ambition in the content
of his mind? Did you not feel a new
object in life when the ambition
revived at last, and you thought you
heard the applause of the world murmuring
round your scholar's cell? Did
you not share in the day-dreams your
brother conjured up, and say, 'If my
brother could be the means of raising
him in the world!' and when you
thought we had found the way to
fame and fortune, did you not sob
out from your full heart, 'And it is
my brother who will pay back to
his son—all—all he gave up for
me?'"
"I cannot bear this, Sisty!—cease,
cease!"
"No; for do you not yet understand
me? Will it not be better still, if
your son—yours—restore to your
Austin all that he lost, no matter how?
If through your son, mother, you do
indeed make the world hear of your
husband's genius—restore the spring
to his mind, the glory to his pursuits—if
you rebuild even that vaunted
ancestral name, which is glory to our
poor sonless Roland—if your son
can restore the decay of generations,
and reconstruct from the dust the
whole house into which you have
entered, its meek presiding angel—ah,
mother, if this can be done, it will
be your work; for unless you can
share my ambition—unless you can
dry those eyes, and smile in my face,
and bid me go, with a cheerful voice—all
my courage melts from my
heart, and again I say I cannot leave
you!"
Then my mother folded her arms
round me, and we both wept, and
could not speak—but we were both
happy.
Now the worst was over, and my
mother was the most heroic of us all.
So I began to prepare myself in good
earnest; and I followed Trevanion's instructions
with a perseverance, which
I could never, at that young day, have
thrown into the dead life of books. I
was in a good school amongst our
Cumberland sheepwalks, to learn
those simple elements of rural art
which belong to the pastoral state.
Mr Sidney, in his admirable Australian
Hand-Book, recommends young
gentlemen who think of becoming
settlers in the Bush to bivouac for
three months on Salisbury Plain.
That book was not then written,
or I might have taken the advice;
meanwhile I think, with due respect
to such authority, that I went
through a preparatory training quite
as useful in seasoning the future emigrant.
I associated readily with the
kindly peasants and craftsmen, who
became my teachers. With what
pride I presented my father with a
desk and my mother with a work-box,
fashioned by my own hands!
I made Bolt a lock for his plate-chest.
And (that last was my magnum opus,
my great masterpiece) I repaired
and absolutely set going an old turret
clock in the tower, that had stood at
two P.M. since the memory of man.
I loved to think, each time the hour
sounded, that those who heard its deep
chime would remember me. But the
flocks were my main care. The sheep
that I tended and helped to shear,
and the lamb that I hooked out of the
great marsh, and the three venerable
ewes that I nursed through a mysterious
sort of murrain, which puzzled
all the neighbourhood—are they not
written in thy loving chronicles, O
House of Caxton!
And now, since much of the success
of my experiment must depend
on the friendly terms I could establish
with my intended partner, I
wrote to Trevanion, begging him to
get the young gentleman who was
to join me, and whose capital I was
to administer, to come and visit
us. Trevanion complied, and there
arrived a tall fellow somewhat more
than six feet high, answering to the
name of Guy Bolding, in a cut-away
sporting-coat, with a dog-whistle
tied to the button-hole; drab shorts
and gaiters, and a waistcoat with
all manner of strange furtive pockets.
Guy Bolding had lived a year and
a half at Oxford as a "fast man;"
so "fast" had he lived that there
was scarcely a tradesman at Oxford
into whose books he had not contrived
to run.
His father was compelled to withdraw
him from the university, at
which he had already had the honour
of being plucked for the little go:
and the young gentleman, on being
asked for what profession he was
fit, had replied with conscious pride,
"That he could tool a coach!" In
despair, the sire, who owed his
living to Trevanion, had asked the
statesman's advice, and the advice
had fixed me with a partner in expatriation.
My first feeling, in greeting the
fast man, was certainly that of deep
disappointment and strong repugnance.
But I was determined not to be too
fastidious; and, having a lucky knack
of suiting myself pretty well to all
tempers, (without which a man had
better not think of loadstones in the
great Australasian Bight,) I contrived,
before the first week was out, to
establish so many points of connexion
between us that we became the best
friends in the world. Indeed, it would
have been my fault if we had not,
for Guy Bolding, with all his faults,
was one of those excellent creatures
who are nobody's enemies but their
own. His good humour was inexhaustible.
Not a hardship or privation
came amiss to him. He had a
phrase "Such fun!" that always came
to his lips when another man would
have cursed and groaned. If we lost
our way in the great trackless moors,
missed our dinner, and were half-famished,
Guy rubbed hands that
would have felled an ox, and chuckled
out "Such fun!" If we stuck in a
bog, if we were caught in a thunderstorm,
if we were pitched head over
heels by the wild colts we undertook
to break in, Guy Bolding's only elegy
was "Such fan!" That grand shibboleth
of philosophy only forsook him
at the sight of an open book. I don't
think that at that time, he could have
found "fun" even in Don Quixote.
This hilarious temperament had no
insensibility; a kinder heart never
beat,—but, to be sure, it beat to a
strange, restless, tarantula sort of
measure, which kept it in a perpetual
dance. It made him one of those
officiously good fellows who are never
quiet themselves, and never let any
one else be quiet if they can help it.
But Guy's great fault, in this prudent
world, was his absolute incontinence
of money. If you had turned an
Euphrates of gold into his pockets at
morning, it would have been as dry as
the great Sahara by twelve at noon.
What he did with the money was a
mystery as much to himself as to
every one else. His father said in a
letter to me, that "he had seen him
shying at sparrows with half-crowns!"
That such a young man could come
to no good in England, seemed perfectly
clear. Still, it is recorded of
many great men, who did not end
their days in a workhouse, that they
were equally non-retentive of money.
Schiller, when he had nothing else to
give away, gave the clothes from his
back, and Goldsmith the blankets
from his bed. Tender hands found it
necessary to pick Beethoven's pockets
at home before he walked out. Great
heroes, who have made no scruple of
robbing the whole world, have been just
as lavish as poor poets and musicians.
Alexander, in parcelling out his spoils,
left himself "hope!" And as for
Julius Cæsar, he was two millions in
debt when he shied his last half-crown
at the sparrows in Gaul. Encouraged
by these illustrious examples, I had
hopes of Guy Bolding; and the more
as he was so aware of his own infirmity
that he was perfectly contented
with the arrangement which made me
treasurer of his capital, and even
besought me, on no account, let him
beg ever so hard, to permit his own
money to come in his own way. In
fact, I contrived to gain a great ascendency
over his simple, generous,
thoughtless nature; and by artful
appeals to his affections—to all he
owed to his father for many bootless
sacrifices, and to the duty of providing
a little dower for his infant sister,
whose meditated portion had half gone
to pay his college debts—I at last
succeeded in fixing into his mind an
object to save for.
Three other companions did I
select for our Cleruchia. The first
was the son of our old shepherd, who
had lately married, but was not
yet encumbered with children,—a
good shepherd, and an intelligent,
steady fellow. The second was
a very different character; he had
been the dread of the whole squirearchy.
A more bold and dexterous poacher
did not exist. Now my acquaintance
with this latter person, named
Will Peterson, and more popularly
"Will o' the Wisp," had commenced
thus:—Bolt had managed to rear, in a
small copse about a mile from the
house—and which was the only bit of
ground in my uncle's domains that
might by courtesy be called "a wood"—a
young colony of pheasants, that
he dignified by the title of a "preserve."
This colony was audaciously
despoiled and grievously depopulated,
in spite of two watchers who, with
Bolt, guarded for seven nights successively
the slumbers of the infant settlement.
So insolent was the assault
that bang, bang went the felonious
gun—behind, before—within but a
few yards of the sentinels—and the
gunner was off, and the prey seized,
before they could rush to the spot.
The boldness and skill of the enemy
soon proclaimed him, to the experienced
watchers, to be Will o' the Wisp; and
so great was the dread of this fellow's
strength and courage, and so complete
their despair of being a match for his
swiftness and cunning, that after the
seventh night the watchers refused to
go out any longer; and poor Bolt himself
was confined to his bed by an attack
of what a doctor would have called
rheumatism, and a moralist, rage.
My indignation and sympathy were
greatly excited by this mortifying
failure, and my interest romantically
aroused by the anecdotes I had heard
of Will o' the Wisp; accordingly,
armed with a thick bludgeon, I stole
out at night, and took my way to the
copse. The leaves were not off the
trees, and how the poacher contrived
to see his victims I know not; but five
shots did he fire, and not in vain,
without allowing me to catch a glimpse
of him. I then retreated to the outskirt
of the copse, and waited patiently
by an angle, which commanded
two sides of the wood. Just as
the dawn began to peep, I saw my
man emerge within twenty yards
of me. I held my breath, suffered
him to get a few steps from
the wood, crept on so as to intercept
his retreat, and then pounce—such
a bound! My hand was on his
shoulder—prr, prr—no eel was ever
more lubricate. He slid from me like
a thing immaterial, and was off over
the moors with a swiftness which
might well have baffled any clodhopper—a
race whose calves are generally
absorbed in the soles of their hobnail
shoes. But the Hellenic Institute,
with its classical gymnasia, had
trained its pupils in all bodily exercises;
and though the Will o' the Wisp
was swift for a clodhopper, he was no
match at running for any youth who
has spent his boyhood in the discipline
of cricket, prisoner's bars, and hunt-the-hare.
I reached him at length,
and brought him to bay.
"Stand back," said he, panting,
and taking aim with his gun; "it is
loaded."
"Yes," said I; "but though you're
a brave poacher, you dare not fire at
your fellow man. Give up the gun
this instant."
My address took him by surprise;
he did not fire. I struck up the barrel,
and closed on him. We grappled
pretty tightly, and in the wrestle the
gun went off. The man loosened his
hold. "Lord ha' mercy, I have not
hurt you!" he said falteringly.
"My good fellow—no," said I;
"and now let us throw aside gun and
bludgeon, and light it out like Englishmen,
or else let us sit down and
talk it over like friends."
The Will o' the Wisp scratched its
head and laughed.
"Well, you're a queer one," quoth
it. And the poacher dropped the gun
and sate down.
We did talk it over, and I obtained
Peterson's promise to respect the preserve
henceforth, and we thereon grew
so cordial that he walked home with
me, and even presented me, shyly and
apologetically, with the five pheasants
he had shot. From that time I sought
him out. He was a young fellow not
four-and-twenty, who had taken to
poaching from the wild sport of the
thing, and from some confused notions
that he had a license from Nature to
poach. I soon found out that he was
meant for better things than to spend
six months of the twelve in prison,
and finish his life on the gallows after
killing a gamekeeper. That seemed
to me his most probable destiny in
the Old World, so I talked him into
a burning desire for the New one:
and a most valuable aid in the Bush
he proved too.
My third selection was in a personage
who could bring little physical
strength to help us, but who had more
mind (though with a wrong twist in
it) than all the others put together.
A worthy couple in the village had
a son, who being slight and puny,
compared to the Cumberland breed,
was shouldered out of the market of
agricultural labour, and went off, yet
a boy, to a manufacturing town.
Now about the age of thirty, this
mechanic, disabled for his work by a
long illness, came home to recover;
and in a short time we heard of nothing
but the pestilential doctrines with
which he was either shocking or infecting
our primitive villagers. According
to report, Corcyra itself never engendered
a democrat more awful. The
poor man was really very ill, and his
parents very poor; but his unfortunate
doctrines dried up all the streams
of charity that usually flowed through
our kindly hamlet. The clergyman
(an excellent man, but of the old
school) walked by the house as if it
were tabooed. The apothecary said
"Miles Square ought to have wine,"
but he did not send him any. The
farmers held his name in execration,
for he had incited all their labourers
to strike for another shilling a-week.
And but for the old tower, Miles
Square would soon have found his way
to the only republic in which he could
obtain that democratic fraternisation
for which he sighed—the grave being,
I suspect, the sole commonwealth
which attains that dead flat of social
equality, that life in its every principle
so heartily abhors.
My uncle went to see Miles Square,
and came back the colour of purple.
Miles Square had preached him a long
sermon on the unholiness of war.
"Even in defence of your king and
country!" had roared the Captain;
and Miles Square had replied with
a remark upon kings, in general, that
the Captain could not have repeated
without expecting to see the old
tower fall about his ears; and with an
observation about the country, in particular,
to the effect that "the country
would be much better off if it were
conquered!" On hearing the report
of these loyal and patriotic replies,
my father said, "Papæ!" and, roused
out of his usual philosophical indifference,
went himself to visit Miles
Square. My father returned as pale
as my uncle had been purple. "And
to think," said he mournfully, "that
in the town whence this man comes,
there are, he tells me, ten thousand
other of God's creatures who speed
the work of civilisation while execrating
its laws!"
But neither father nor uncle made
any opposition when, with a basket
laden with wine and arrowroot, and
a neat little Bible, bound in brown,
my mother took her way to the excommunicated
cottage. Her visit was
as signal a failure as those that preceded
it. Miles Square refused the
basket; 'he was not going to accept
alms, and eat the bread of charity;'
and on my mother meekly suggesting
that, 'if Mr Miles Square would
condescend to look into the Bible, he
would see that even charity was no sin
in giver or recipient,' Mr Miles Square
had undertaken to prove 'that, according
to the Bible, he had as much
a right to my mother's property as
she had—that all things should be in
common—and that, when things were
in common, what became of charity?
No; he could not eat my uncle's
arrowroot, and drink his wine, while
my uncle was improperly withholding
from him and his fellow-creatures so
many unprofitable acres: the land
belonged to the people.' It was now
the turn of Pisistratus to go. He went
once, and he went often. Miles Square
and Pisistratus wrangled and argued—argued
and wrangled—and ended
by taking a fancy to each other; for
this poor Miles Square was not half so
bad as his doctrines. His errors arose
from intense sympathy with the sufferings
he had witnessed, amidst the
misery which accompanies the reign
of millocratism, and from the vague
aspirations of a half-taught, impassioned,
earnest nature. By degrees,
I persuaded him to drink the wine and
eat the arrowroot, en attendant that
millennium which was to restore the
land to the people. And then my
mother came again and softened his
heart, and, for the first time in his life,
let into its cold crotchets the warm
light of human gratitude. I lent him
some books, amongst others a few
volumes on Australia. A passage in
one of the latter, in which it was
said "that an intelligent mechanic
usually made his way in the colony,
even as a shepherd, better than a
dull agricultural labourer," caught
hold of his fancy, and seduced his
aspirations into a healthful direction.
Finally, as he recovered, he
entreated me to let him accompany
me. And as I may not have to return
to Miles Square, I think it right
here to state, that he did go with me
to Australia, and did succeed, first as
shepherd, and, on saving money, as
landowner; and that, in spite of his
opinions on the unholiness of war, he
was no sooner in possession of a comfortable
log homestead, than he defended
it with uncommon gallantry
against an attack of the aborigines,
whose right to the soil was, to say the
least of it, as good as his claim to my
uncle's acres; that he commemorated
his subsequent acquisition of a fresh
allotment, with the stock on it, by a
little pamphlet, published at Sydney,
on the Sanctity of the Rights of Property;
and that, when I left the colony,
having been much pestered by
two refractory "helps" that he had
added to his establishment, he had
just distinguished himself by a very
anti-levelling lecture upon the duties
of servants to their employers. What
would the Old World have done for
this man!
I had not been in haste to conclude
my arrangements, for, independently
of my wish to render myself acquainted
with the small useful crafts that might
be necessary to me in a life that makes
the individual man a state in himself,
I naturally desired to habituate my
kindred to the idea of our separation,
and to plan and provide for them all
such substitutes or distractions, in
compensation for my loss, as my fertile
imagination could suggest. And
first, for the sake of Blanche, Roland,
and my mother, I talked the Captain
into reluctant sanction of his sister-in-law's
proposal, to unite their incomes
and share alike, without considering
which party brought the
larger proportion into the firm. I represented
to him that, unless he made
that sacrifice of his pride, my mother
would be wholly without those little
notable uses and objects—those small
household pleasures—so dear to woman;
that all society in the neighbourhood
would be impossible, and
that my mother's time would hang so
heavily on her hands that her only
resource would be to muse on the
absent one and fret. Nay, if he persisted
in so false a pride, I told him,
fairly, that I should urge my father to
leave the tower. These representations
succeeded; and hospitality had
commenced in the old hall, and a
knot of gossips had centred round
my mother—groups of laughing children
had relaxed the still brow of
Blanche—and the Captain himself was
a more cheerful and social man. My
next point was to engage my father
in the completion of the Great Book.
"Ah, sir," said I, "give me an inducement
to toil, a reward for my
industry. Let me think, in each tempting
pleasure, each costly vice—No,
no; I will save for the Great Book!
and the memory of the father shall
still keep the son from error. Ah,
look you, sir! Mr Trevanion offered
me the loan of the £1500 necessary to
commence with; but you generously
and at once said—'No; you must not
begin life under the load of debt.'
And I knew you were right, and
yielded—yielded the more gratefully,
that I could not but forfeit something
of the just pride of manhood in incurring
such an obligation to the
father of—Miss Trevanion. Therefore
I have taken that sum from you—a
sum that would almost have sufficed
to establish your younger and
worthier child in the world for ever.
To that child let me repay it, otherwise
I will not take it. Let me hold
it as a trust for the Great Book; and
promise me that the Great Book shall
be ready when your wanderer returns,
and accounts for the missing talent."
And my father pished a little, and
rubbed off the dew that had gathered
on his spectacles. But I would not
leave him in peace till he had given
me his word that the Great Book
should go on à pas du géant—nay, till
I had seen him sit down to it with
good heart, and the wheel went
round again in the quiet mechanism of
that gentle life.
Finally, and as the culminating
acme of my diplomacy, I effected the
purchase of the neighbouring apothecary's
practice and good-will for Squills,
upon terms which he willingly subscribed
to; for the poor man had pined
at the loss of his favourite patients,
though, Heaven knows, they did not
add much to his income. And as for
my father, there was no man who
diverted him more than Squills, though
he accused him of being a materialist,
and set his whole spiritual pack of
sages to worry and bark at him, from
Plato and Zeno to Reid and Abraham
Tucker.
Thus, although I have very loosely
intimated the flight of time, more than
a whole year elapsed from the date of
our settlement at the tower and that
affixed for my departure.
In the meanwhile, despite the rarity
amongst us of that phenomenon a
newspaper, we were not so utterly cut
off from the sounds of the far-booming
world beyond, but what the intelligence
of a change in the administration,
and the appointment of Mr Trevanion
to one of the great offices of
state, reached our ears. I had kept
up no correspondence with Trevanion
subsequent to the letter that occasioned
Guy Bolding's visit; I wrote
now to congratulate him: his reply
was short and hurried.
Intelligence that startled me more,
and more deeply moved my heart,
was conveyed to me some three
months or so before my departure, by
Trevanion's steward. The ill health
of Lord Castleton had deferred his
marriage, intended originally to be
celebrated as soon as he came of
age. He left the university with the
honours of "a double-first class;"
and his constitution appeared to rally
from the effects of studies more severe
to him, than they might have been to
a man of quicker and more brilliant
capacities—when a feverish cold,
caught at a county meeting, in which
his first public appearance was so
creditable as fully to justify the
warmest hopes of his party, produced
inflammation of the lungs, and
ended fatally. The startling contrast
forced on my mind—here sudden
death, and cold clay—there youth
in its first flower, princely rank,
boundless wealth, the sanguine expectation
of an illustrious career, and
the prospect of that happiness which
smiled from the eyes of Fanny—that
contrast impressed me with a strange
awe: death seems so near to us
when it strikes those whom life most
flatters and caresses. Whence is that
curious sympathy that we all have
with the possessors of worldly greatness,
when the hour-glass is shaken
and the scythe descends? If the
famous meeting between Diogenes and
Alexander had taken place not before,
but after, the achievements which gave
to Alexander the name of Great, the
cynic would not, perhaps, have envied
the hero his pleasures or his splendours,
the charms of Statira, or the
tiara of the Mede; but if, the day
after, a cry had gone forth, "Alexander
the Great is dead!" verily I believe
that Diogenes would have coiled
himself up in his tub, and felt that, with
the shadow of the stately hero, something
of glory and of warmth had gone
from that sun, which it should darken
never more. In the nature of man,
the humblest or the hardest, there is a
something that lives in all of the Beautiful
or the Fortunate, which hope and
desire have appropriated, even in the
vanities of a childish dream.
"Why are you here all alone,
cousin? How cold and still it is
amongst the graves!"
"Sit down beside me, Blanche; it
is not colder in the churchyard than
on the village green."
And Blanche sate down beside me,
nestled close to me, and leant her head
upon my shoulder. We were both
long silent. It was an evening in the
early spring, clear and serene—the
roseate streaks were fading gradually
from the dark gray of long, narrow,
fantastic clouds. Tall, leafless poplars,
that stood in orderly level line,
on the lowland between the churchyard
and the hill, with its crown of
ruins, left their sharp summits distinct
against the sky. But the shadows
coiled dull and heavy round the evergreens
that skirted the churchyard, so
that their outline was vague and confused;
and there was a depth in their
gloomy stillness, broken only when
the thrush flew out from the lower
bushes, and the thick laurel leaves
stirred reluctantly, and again were
rigid in repose. There is a certain
melancholy in the evenings of early
spring which is among those influences
of nature the most universally recognised,
the most difficult to explain.
The silent stir of reviving life, which
does not yet betray signs in the bud
and blossom—only in a softer clearness
in the air, a more lingering
pause in the slowly lengthening day;
a more delicate freshness and balm in
the twilight atmosphere; a more lively
yet still unquiet note from the birds,
settling down into their coverts;—the
vague sense under all that hush, which
still outwardly wears the bleak sterility
of winter—of the busy change,
hourly, momently, at work—renewing
the youth of the world, reclothing
with vigorous bloom the skeletons of
things—all these messages from the
heart of Nature to the heart of Man
may well affect and move us. But
why with melancholy? No thought on
our part connects and construes the
low, gentle voices. It is not thought
that replies and reasons: it is feeling
that hears and dreams. Examine not,
O child of man!—examine not that
mysterious melancholy with the hard
eyes of thy reason; thou canst not
impale it on the spikes of thy thorny
logic, nor describe its enchanted circle
by problems conned from thy schools.
Borderer thyself of two worlds—the
Dead and the Living—give thine ear
to the tones, bow thy soul to the shadows,
that steal, in the season of
change, from the dim Border Land.
Blanche (in a whisper.)—What
are you thinking of?—speak, pray!
Pisistratus.—I was not thinking,
Blanche; or, if I were, the thought is
gone at the mere effort to seize or detain
it.
Blanche (after a pause.)—I know
what you mean. It is the same with
me often—so often, when I am sitting
by myself, quite still. It is just like
the story Primmins was telling us
the other evening, how there was a
woman in her village who saw things
and people in a piece of crystal, not
bigger than my hand:2 they passed
along as large as life, but they were
only pictures in the crystal. Since I
heard the story, when aunt asks me
what I am thinking of, I long to say,
"I'm not thinking! I am seeing pictures
in the crystal!"
Pisistratus.—Tell my father that;
it will please him. There is more
philosophy in it than you are aware
of, Blanche. There are wise men
who have thought the whole world,
"its pride, pomp, and circumstance,"
only a phantom image—a picture in
the crystal.
Blanche.—And I shall see you—see
us both, as we are sitting here—and
that star which has just risen
yonder—see it all in my crystal—when
you are gone!—gone, cousin!
And Blanche's head drooped.
There was something so quiet and
deep in the tenderness of this poor
motherless child, that it did not affect
one superficially, like a child's loud
momentary affection, in which we
know that the first toy will replace us.
I kissed my little cousin's pale face,
and said, "And I too, Blanche, have
my crystal; and when I consult it,
I shall be very angry if I see you sad
and fretting, or seated alone. For you
must know, Blanche, that that is all
selfishness. God made us, not to indulge
only in crystal pictures, weave
idle fancies, pine alone, and mourn
over what we cannot help—but to be
alert and active—givers of happiness.
Now, Blanche, see what a trust I am
going to bequeath you. You are to
supply my place to all whom I leave.
You are to bring sunshine wherever
you glide with that shy, soft step—whether
to your father, when you see
his brows knit and his arms crossed,
(that, indeed, you always do,) or to
mine, when the volume drops from his
hand—when he walks to and fro the
room, restless, and murmuring to himself—then
you are to steal up to him,
put your hand in his, lead him back to
his books, and whisper, 'What will
Sisty say if his younger brother, the
Great Book, is not grown up when he
comes back?'—And my poor mother,
Blanche!—ah, how can I counsel you
there—how tell you where to find
comfort for her? Only, Blanche, steal
into her heart and be her daughter.
And, to fulfil this threefold
trust, you must not content yourself
with seeing pictures in the crystal—do
you understand me?"
"Oh yes," said Blanche, raising
her eyes, while the tears rolled from
them, and folding her arms resolutely
on her breast.
"And so," said I, "as we two, sitting
in this quiet burial-ground, take
new heart for the duties and cares of
life, so see, Blanche, how the stars
come out, one by one, to smile upon
us, for they too, glorious orbs as
they are, perform their appointed
tasks. Things seem to approximate
to God in proportion to their vitality
and movement. Of all things, least
inert and sullen should be the soul of
man. How the grass grows up over
the very graves—quickly it grows and
greenly—but neither so quick and so
green, my Blanche, as hope and comfort
from human sorrows."
There is a beautiful and singular
passage in Dante, (which has not perhaps
attracted the attention it deserves,)
wherein the stern Florentine
defends Fortune from the popular accusations
against her. According to
him, she is an angelic power appointed
by the Supreme Being to direct and
order the course of human splendours;
she obeys the will of God; she is
blessed, and, hearing not those who
blaspheme her, calm and aloft
amongst the other angelic powers,
revolves her spheral course, and rejoices
in her beatitude.3
This is a conception very different
from the popular notion which Aristophanes,
in his true instinct of things
popular, expresses by the sullen lips
of his Plutus. That deity accounts
for his blindness by saying, that
"when a boy he had indiscreetly promised
to visit only the good," and Jupiter
was so envious of the good that
he blinded the poor money-god.
Whereon Chremylus asks him, whether,
"if he recovered his sight, he
would frequent the company of the
good?" "Certainly," quoth Plutus,
"for I have not seen them ever so
long." "Nor I either," rejoins Chremylus
pithily, "for all I can see out
of both eyes!"
But that misanthropical answer of
Chremylus is neither here nor there,
and only diverts us from the real
question, and that is, "Whether Fortune
be a heavenly, Christian angel,
or a blind, blundering, old heathen
deity?" For my part, I hold with
Dante—for which, if I were so pleased,
or if, at this period of my memoirs, I had
half a dozen pages to spare, I could
give many good reasons. One thing,
however, is quite clear—that, whether
Fortune be more like Plutus or an
angel, it is no use abusing her—one
may as well throw stones at a star.
And I think if one looked narrowly at
her operations, one might perceive
that she gives every man a chance, at
least once in his life; if he take and
make the best of it, she will renew her
visits; if not—itur ad astra! And
therewith I am reminded of an incident
quaintly narrated by Mariana in
his "History of Spain," how the
army of the Spanish kings got out of
a sad hobble among the mountains at
the pass of Losa, by the help of a
shepherd, who showed them the way.
"But," saith Mariana, parenthetically,
"some do say the shepherd was
an angel; for after he had shown the
way, he was never seen more." That
is, the angelic nature of the guide was
proved by being only once seen, and
disappearing after having got the army
out of the hobble, leaving it to fight
or run away, as it had most mind to.
Now I look upon that shepherd, or
angel, as a very good type of my fortune
at least. The apparition showed
me my way in the rocks to the great
"Battle of Life;" after that,—hold
fast and strike hard!
Behold me in London with Uncle
Roland. My poor parents naturally
wished to accompany me, and take
the last glimpse of the adventurer on
board ship; but I, knowing that the
parting would seem less dreadful to
them by the hearthstone, and while
they could say, "He is with Roland—he
is not yet gone from the land"—insisted
on their staying behind; and so
the farewell was spoken. But Roland,
the old soldier, had so many practical
instructions to give—could so help me
in the choice of the outfit, and the
preparations for the voyage, that I
could not refuse his companionship to
the last. Guy Bolding, who had gone
to take leave of his father, was to join
me in town, as well as my humbler
Cumberland colleagues.
As my uncle and I were both of one
mind upon the question of economy,
we took up our quarters at a lodging-house
in the City; and there it was
that I first made acquaintance with a
part of London, of which few of my
politer readers even pretend to be
cognisant. I do not mean any sneer
at the City itself, my dear alderman;
that jest is worn out. I am not alluding
to streets, courts, and lanes;
what I mean may be seen at the
west end, not so well as at the east,
but still seen very fairly; I mean—the
House-tops!
The house-tops! what a soberising
effect that prospect produces on the
mind. But a great many requisites
go towards the selection of the right
point of survey. It is not enough to
secure a lodging in the attic; you
must not be fobbed off with a front
attic that faces the street. First,
your attic must be unequivocally a
back attic; secondly, the house in
which it is located must be slightly
elevated above its neighbours; thirdly,
the window must not lie slant on the
roof, as is common with attics—in
which case you only catch a peep of
that leaden canopy which infatuated
Londoners call the sky—but must be
a window perpendicular, and not half
blocked up by the parapets of that
fosse called the gutter; and, lastly,
the sight must be so humoured that
you cannot catch a glimpse of the
pavements: if you once see the world
beneath, the whole charm of that
world above is destroyed. Taking it
for granted that you have secured
these requisites, open your window,
lean your chin on both hands, the
elbows propped commodiously on the
sill, and contemplate the extraordinary
scene which spreads before you. You
find it difficult to believe that life can
be so tranquil on high, while it is so
noisy and turbulent below. What
astonishing stillness! Eliot Warburton
(seductive enchanter) recommends
you to sail down the Nile if you want
to lull the vexed spirit. It is easier
and cheaper to hire an attic in Holborn!
You don't have the crocodiles,
but you have animals no less hallowed
in Egypt—the cats! And how harmoniously
the tranquil creatures blend
with the prospect—how noiselessly
they glide along at the distance,
pause, peer about, and disappear. It
is only from the attic that you
can appreciate the picturesque which
belongs to our domesticated tiger-kin!
The goat should be seen on
the Alps, and the cat on the house-top.
By degrees the curious eye takes
the scenery in detail: and first, what
fantastic variety in the heights and
shapes of the chimney-pots! Some all
level in a row, uniform and respectable,
but quite uninteresting; others,
again, rising out of all proportion, and
imperatively tasking the reason to
conjecture why they are so aspiring.
Reason answers that it is but a homely
expedient to give freer vent to the
smoke; whereon Imagination steps
in, and represents to you all the
fretting, and fuming, and worry, and
care, which the owners of that chimney,
now the tallest of all, endured,
before, by building it higher,
they got rid of the vapours! You see
the distress of the cook, when the sooty
invader rushed down, "like a wolf on
the fold," full spring on the Sunday
joint. You hear the exclamations of
the mistress, (perhaps a bride,—house
newly furnished,) when, with white
apron and cap, she ventured into the
drawing-room, and was straightway
saluted by a joyous dance of those
monads, called vulgarly smuts. You
feel manly indignation at the brute
of a bridegroom, who rushes out from
the door, with the smuts dancing
after him, and swears, "Smoked out
again—By the Arch-smoker himself,
I'll go and dine at the club!" All
this might well have been, till the
chimney-pot was raised a few feet
nearer heaven; and now perhaps that
long-suffering family owns the happiest
home in the Row. Such contrivances
to get rid of the smoke! It is not
every one who merely heightens his
chimney; others clap on the hollow
tormentor all sorts of odd headgear
and cowls. Here patent contrivances
act the purpose of weathercocks,
swaying to and fro with the wind;
there others stand as fixed as if by a
"sic jubeo" they had settled the business.
But of all those houses that, in
the street, one passes by, unsuspicious
of what's the matter within, there is
not one in a hundred but what there
has been the devil to do, to cure the
chimneys of smoking! At that reflection,
Philosophy dismisses the subject;
and decides that, whether one lives in
a hut or a palace, the first thing to do
is to look to the hearth—and get rid of
the vapours.
New beauties demand us. What
endless undulations in the various
declivities and ascents: here a slant,
there a zig-zag! With what majestic
disdain yon roof rises up to the left!—Doubtless,
a palace of Genii or
Gin, (which last is the proper Arabic
word for those builders of halls out of
nothing, employed by Aladdin.) Seeing
only the roof of that palace boldly
breaking the skyline—how serene
your contemplations! Perhaps a star
twinkles over it, and you muse on soft
eyes far away; while below, at the
threshold—No, phantoms, we see you
not from our attic! Note, yonder,
that precipitous fall—how ragged and
jagged the roof-scene descends in a
gorge. He who would travel on foot
through the pass of that defile, of
which we see but the picturesque
summits, stops his nose, averts his
eyes, guards his pockets, and hurries
along through the squalor of the grim
London lazzaroni. But seen above,
what a noble break in the skyline!
It would be sacrilege to exchange
that fine gorge for a dead flat of dull
roof-tops. Look here—how delightful!—that
desolate house with no
roof at all—gutted and skinned by
the last London fire! You can see
the poor green and white paper still
clinging to the walls, and the chasm
that once was a cupboard, and the
shadows gathering black on the aperture
that once was a hearth! Seen
below, how quickly you would cross
over the way! That great crack forbodes
an avalanche; you would hold
your breath, not to bring it down on
your head. But seen above, what a
compassionate inquisitive charm in the
skeleton ruin! How your fancy runs
riot—repeopling the chambers, hearing
the last cheerful good-night of that
destined Pompeii—creeping on tiptoe
with the mother, when she gives her
farewell look to the baby. Now all
is midnight and silence; then the red,
crawling serpent comes out. Lo!
his breath; hark! his hiss. Now,
spire after spire he winds and coils;
now he soars up erect—crest superb,
and forked tongue—the beautiful
horror! Then the start from the sleep,
and the doubtful awaking, and the
run here and there, and the mother's
rush to the cradle; the cry from the
window, and the knock at the door,
and the spring of those on high towards
the stair that leads to safety
below, and the smoke rushing up
like the surge of a hell! And they run
back stifled and blinded, and the
floor heaves beneath them like a bark
on the sea. Hark! the grating wheels
thundering low; near and near comes
the engine. Fix the ladders!—there!
there! at the window, where the
mother stands with the babe! Splash
and hiss comes the water; pales, then
flares out, the fire: foe defies foe;
element, element. How sublime is
the war! But the ladder, the ladder!—there
at the window! All else are
saved: the clerk and his books; the
lawyer, with that tin box of title-deeds;
the landlord, with his policy of insurance;
the miser, with his bank-notes
and gold: all are saved—all, but the
babe and the mother. What a crowd
in the streets! how the light crimsons
over the gazers, hundreds on hundreds!
All those faces seem as one face,
with fear. Not a man mounts the
ladder. Yes, there—gallant fellow!
God inspires—God shall speed thee!
How plainly I see him!—his eyes are
closed, his teeth set. The serpent leaps
up, the forked tongue darts upon
him, and the reek of the breath wraps
him round. The crowd has ebbed
back like a sea, and the smoke rushes
over them all. Ha! what dim forms
are those on the ladder? Near and
nearer—crash come the roof-tiles.
Alas, and alas!—no; a cry of joy—a
"Thank heaven!" and the women force
their way through the men to come
round the child and the mother. All
is gone, save that skeleton ruin. But
here, the ruin is seen from above. O
Art, study life from the roof-tops!
I was again foiled in seeing Trevanion.
It was the Easter recess, and
he was at the house of one of his brother
ministers, somewhere in the north
of England. But Lady Ellinor was in
London, and I was ushered into her
presence. Nothing could be more cordial
than her manner, though she was
evidently much depressed in spirits,
and looked wan and careworn.
After the kindest inquiries relative
to my parents, and the Captain, she
entered with much sympathy into my
schemes and plans, which she said that
Trevanion had confided to her. The
sterling kindness that belonged to my
old patron (despite his affected anger
at my not accepting his proffered
loan) had not only saved me and my
fellow-adventurer all trouble as to
allotment orders, but procured advice,
as to choice of site and soil, from the
best practical experience, which we
found afterwards exceedingly useful.
And as Lady Ellinor gave me the little
packet of papers with Trevanion's
shrewd notes on the margin, she said
with a half sigh, "Albert bids me say,
that he wishes he were as sanguine of
his success in the cabinet as of yours
in the Bush." She then turned to her
husband's rise and prospects, and her
face began to change. Her eyes sparkled,
the colour came to her cheeks—"But
you are one of the few who
know him," she said, interrupting herself
suddenly; "you know how he
sacrifices all things—joy, leisure,
health—to his country. There is not
one selfish thought in his nature. And
yet such envy—such obstacles still!
and" (her eyes dropped on her dress,
and I perceived that she was in mourning,
though the mourning was not
deep,) "and," she added, "it has
pleased heaven to withdraw from his
side one who would have been worthy
his alliance."
I felt for the proud woman, though
her emotion seemed more that of pride
than sorrow. And perhaps Lord Castleton's
highest merit in her eyes had
been that of ministering to her husband's
power and her own ambition.
I bowed my head in silence, and
thought of Fanny. Did she, too, pine
for the lost rank, or rather mourn the
lost lover?
After a time, I said hesitatingly,
"I scarcely presume to condole with
you, Lady Ellinor; yet, believe me,
few things ever shocked me like the
death you allude to. I trust Miss Trevanion's
health has not much suffered.
Shall I not see her before I leave England?"
Lady Ellinor fixed her keen bright
eyes searchingly on my countenance,
and perhaps the gaze satisfied her, for
she held out her hand to me with a
frankness almost tender, and said—"Had
I had a son, the dearest wish
of my heart had been to see you
wedded to my daughter."
I started up—the blood rushed to
my cheeks, and then left me pale as
death. I looked reproachfully at Lady
Ellinor, and the word "cruel" faltered
on my lips.
"Yes," continued Lady Ellinor,
mournfully, "that was my real thought,
my impulse of regret, when I first saw
you. But, as it is, do not think me
too hard and worldly, if I quote the
lofty old French proverb, Noblesse
oblige. Listen to me, my young
friend,—we may never meet again,
and I would not have your father's
son think unkindly of me with all my
faults. From my first childhood I
was ambitious—not as women usually
are, of mere wealth and rank—but
ambitious as noble men are, of power
and fame. A woman can only indulge
such ambition by investing it in
another. It was not wealth, it was
not rank, that attracted me to Albert
Trevanion; it was the nature that
dispenses with the wealth, and commands
the rank. Nay," continued
Lady Ellinor, in a voice that slightly
trembled, "I may have seen in my
youth, before I knew Trevanion, one
(she paused a moment, and went on
hurriedly)—one who wanted but ambition
to have realised my ideal.
Perhaps, even when I married—and
it was said for love—I loved less with
my whole heart than with my whole
mind. I may say this now, for now
every beat of this pulse is wholly
and only true to him with whom
I have schemed, and toiled, and
aspired; with whom I have grown
as one; with whom I have shared
the struggle, and now partake the
triumph—realising the visions of my
youth."
Again the light broke from the dark
eyes of this grand daughter of the
world, who was so superb a type of
that moral contradiction—an ambitious
woman.
"I cannot tell you," resumed Lady
Ellinor, softening, "how pleased I
was when you came to live with us.
Your father has perhaps spoken to
you of me, and of our first acquaintance?"—
Lady Ellinor paused abruptly,
and surveyed me as she paused. I
was silent.
"Perhaps, too, he has blamed me?"
she resumed, with a heightened
colour.
"He never blamed you, Lady
Ellinor!"
"He had a right to do so—though
I doubt if he would have blamed me
on the true ground. Yet, no; he never
could have done me the wrong that your
uncle did, when, long years ago, Mr
de Caxton in a letter—the very bitterness
of which disarmed all anger—accused
me of having trifled with
Austin—nay, with himself! And he,
at least, had no right to reproach me,"
continued Lady Ellinor warmly, and
with a curve of her haughty lip, "for
if I felt interest in his wild thirst for
some romantic glory, it was but in
the hope that, what made the one
brother so restless, might at least
wake the other to the ambition that
would have become his intellect, and
aroused his energies. But these are
old tales of follies and delusions now
no more: only this will I say, that I
have ever felt in thinking of your
father, and even of your sterner uncle,
as if my conscience reminded me of a
debt which I longed to discharge—if
not to them, to their children. So
when we knew you, believe me that
your interests, your career, instantly
became to me an object. But, mistaking
you—when I saw your ardent
industry bent on serious objects, and
accompanied by a mind so fresh and
buoyant; and, absorbed as I was in
schemes or projects far beyond a
woman's ordinary province of hearth
and home—I never dreamed, while
you were our guest—never dreamed of
danger to you or Fanny. I wound
you, pardon me; but I must vindicate
myself. I repeat that, if we had
a son to inherit our name, to bear
the burthen which the world lays
upon those who are born to influence
the world's destinies, there is no
one to whom Trevanion and myself
would sooner have intrusted the happiness
of a daughter. But my daughter
is the sole representative of the
mother's line, of the father's name:
it is not her happiness alone that I
have to consult, it is her duty—duty
to her birthright, to the career of the
noblest of England's patriots—duty,
I may say, without exaggeration, to
the country for the sake of which
that career is run!"
"Say no more, Lady Ellinor; say
no more. I understand you. I have
no hope—I never had hope—it was a
madness—it is over. It is but as a
friend that I ask again, if I may see
Miss Trevanion in your presence,
before—before I go alone into this
long exile. Ay, look in my face—you
cannot fear my resolution, my honour,
my truth. But once, Lady Ellinor,
but once more! Do I ask in vain?"
Lady Ellinor was evidently much
moved. I bent down almost in the
attitude of kneeling; and, brushing
away her tears with one hand, she
laid the other on my head tenderly,
and said in a very low voice—
"I entreat you not to ask me; I entreat
you not to see my daughter. You
have shown that you are not selfish—conquer
yourself still. What if such an
interview, however guarded you might
be, were but to agitate, unnerve my
child, unsettle her peace, prey upon"—
"Oh, do not speak thus—she did
not share my feelings!"
"Could her mother own it if she
did? Come, come, remember how
young you both are. When you return,
all these dreams will be forgotten; then
we can meet as before—then I will be
your second mother, and again your
career shall be my care; for do not
think that we shall leave you so long
in this exile as you seem to forbode.
No, no; it is but an absence—an excursion—not
a search after fortune.
Your fortune—confide that to us when
you return!"
"And I am to see her no more?" I
murmured, as I rose, and went silently
towards the window to conceal my
face. The great struggles in life are
limited to moments. In the drooping
of the head upon the bosom—in the
pressure of the hand upon the brow—we
may scarcely consume a second in
our threescore years and ten; but
what revolutions of our whole being
may pass within us, while that single
sand drops noiseless down to the bottom
of the hour-glass.
I came back with a firm step to Lady
Ellinor, and said calmly, "My reason
tells me that you are right, and I submit.
Forgive me! and do not think
me ungrateful, and over proud, if I
add, that you must leave me still the
object in life that consoles and encourages
me through all."
"What object is that?" asked Lady
Ellinor, hesitatingly.
"Independence for myself, and ease
to those for whom life is still sweet.
This is my twofold object; and the
means to effect it must be my own
heart and my own hands. And now
convey all my thanks to your noble
husband, and accept my warm prayers
for yourself and her—whom I will not
name. Farewell, Lady Ellinor."
"No, do not leave me so hastily; I
have many things to discuss with you—at
least to ask of you. Tell me how
your father bears his reverse?—tell
me, at least, if there is aught he will
suffer us to do for him? There are
many appointments in Trevanion's
range of influence that would suit
even the wilful indolence of a man of
letters. Come, be frank with me!"
I could not resist so much kindness;
so I sat down, and, as collectedly as I
could, replied to Lady Ellinor's questions,
and sought to convince her
that my father only felt his losses so
far as they affected me, and that nothing
in Trevanion's power was likely
to tempt him from his retreat, or calculated
to compensate for a change
in his habits. Turning at last from
my parents, Lady Ellinor inquired
for Roland, and, on learning that he
was with me in town, expressed a
strong desire to see him. I told her
I would communicate her wish, and
she then said thoughtfully—
"He has a son, I think, and I have
heard that there is some unhappy
dissension between them."
"Who could have told you that?"
I asked in surprise, knowing how
closely Roland had kept the secret of
his family afflictions.
"Oh, I heard so from some one who
knew Captain Roland—I forget when
and where I heard it—but is it not
the fact?"
"My uncle Roland has no son."
"How!"
"His son is dead."
"How such a loss must grieve him!"
I did not speak.
"But is he sure that his son is
dead! What joy if he were mistaken—if
the son yet lived!"
"Nay, my uncle has a brave heart,
and he is resigned;—but, pardon me,
have you heard anything of that son?"
"I!—what should I hear? I would
fain learn, however, from your uncle
himself, what he might like to tell me
of his sorrows—or if, indeed, there be
any chance that"—
"That—what?"
"That—that his son still survives."
"I think not," said I; "and I
doubt whether you will learn much
from my uncle. Still there is something
in your words that belies their
apparent meaning, and makes me
suspect that you know more than you
will say."
"Diplomatist!" said Lady Ellinor,
half smiling; but then, her face settling
into a seriousness almost severe, she
added, "It is terrible to think that
a father should hate his son!"
"Hate!—Roland hate his son! What
calumny is this?"
"He does not do so, then! Assure
me of that; I shall be so glad to know
that I have been misinformed."
"I can tell you this, and no more—for
no more do I know—that if ever
the soul of a father were wrapt up in
a son—fear, hope, gladness, sorrow,
all reflected back on a father's heart
from the shadows on a son's life—Roland
was that father while the son
lived still."
"I cannot disbelieve you," exclaimed
Lady Ellinor, though in a
tone of surprise. "Well, do let me
see your uncle."
"I will do my best to induce him
to visit you, and learn all that you
evidently conceal from me."
Lady Ellinor evasively replied to
this insinuation, and shortly afterwards
I left that house in which I
had known the happiness that brings
the folly, and the grief that bequeaths
the wisdom.
I had always felt a warm and almost
filial affection for Lady Ellinor,
independently of her relationship to
Fanny, and of the gratitude with
which her kindness inspired me: for
there is an affection very peculiar in
its nature, and very high in its degree,
which results from the blending
of two sentiments not often allied,—viz.,
pity and admiration. It was
impossible not to admire the rare
gifts and great qualities of Lady Ellinor,
and not to feel pity for the cares,
anxieties, and sorrows which tormented
one who, with all the sensitiveness
of woman, went forth into
the rough world of man.
My father's confession had somewhat
impaired my esteem for Lady
Ellinor, and had left on my mind the
uneasy impression that she had trifled
with his deep, and Roland's impetuous,
heart. The conversation that
had just passed allowed me to judge
her with more justice—allowed me to
see that she had really shared the
affection she had inspired in the student,
but that ambition had been
stronger than love—an ambition, it
might be, irregular and not strictly
feminine, but still of no vulgar nor
sordid kind. I gathered, too, from
her hints and allusions, her true excuse
for Roland's misconception of her
apparent interest in himself: she had
but seen, in the wild energies of the
elder brother, some agency by which
to arouse the serener faculties of the
younger. She had but sought, in the
strange comet that flashed before her,
to fix a lever that might move the star.
Nor could I withhold my reverence from
the woman who, not being married
precisely from love, had no sooner
linked her nature to one worthy of
it, than her whole life became as
fondly devoted to her husband's as if
he had been the object of her first
romance and her earliest affections.
If even her child was so secondary to
her husband—if the fate of that
child was but regarded by her as one
to be rendered subservient to the
grand destinies of Trevanion—still it
was impossible to recognise the error
of that conjugal devotion without
admiring the wife, though one might
condemn the mother. Turning from
these meditations, I felt a lover's
thrill of selfish joy, amidst all the
mournful sorrow comprised in the
thought that I should see Fanny no
more. Was it true as Lady Ellinor
implied, though delicately, that Fanny
still cherished a remembrance of me—which
a brief interview, a last farewell,
might re-awaken too dangerously
for her peace? Well, that was
a thought that it became me not to
indulge.
What could Lady Ellinor have
heard of Roland and his son? Was
it possible that the lost lived still?
Asking myself these questions, I arrived
at our lodgings, and saw the
Captain himself before me, busied
with the inspection of sundry specimens
of the rude necessaries an
Australian adventurer requires. There
stood the old soldier, by the window,
examining narrowly into the temper
of hand-saw and tenor-saw, broad
axe and drawing-knife; and as I
came up to him, he looked at me from
under his black brows, with gruff
compassion, and said peevishly—
"Fine weapons these for the son of
a gentleman!—one bit of steel in the
shape of a sword were worth them
all."
"Any weapon that conquers fate
is noble in the hands of a brave man,
uncle!"
"The boy has an answer for everything,"
quoth the Captain, smiling,
as he took out his purse and paid the
shopman.
When we were alone, I said to him—"Uncle,
you must go and see Lady
Ellinor; she desires me to tell you so."
"Pshaw!"
"You will not?"
"No!"
"Uncle, I think that she has something
to say to you with regard to—to—pardon
me!—to my cousin."
"To Blanche?"
"No, no—to the cousin I never saw."
Roland turned pale, and, sinking
down on a chair, faltered out—"To
him—to my son!"
"Yes; but I do not think it is news
that will afflict you. Uncle, are you
sure that my cousin is dead?"
"What!—how dare you!—who
doubts it? Dead—dead to me for
ever! Boy, would you have him live
to dishonour these gray hairs!"
"Sir, sir, forgive me—uncle, forgive
me: but, pray, go to see Lady
Ellinor; for whatever she has to say,
I repeat that I am sure it will be
nothing to wound you."
"Nothing to wound me—yet relate
to him!"
It is impossible to convey to the
reader the despair that was in those
words.
"Perhaps," said I, after a long
pause, and in a low voice—for I was
awestricken—"perhaps—if he be
dead—he may have repented of all
offence to you before he died."
"Repented!—ha, ha!"
"Or, if he be not dead"—
"Hush, boy—hush!"
"While there is life, there is hope
of repentance."
"Look you, nephew," said the
Captain, rising and folding his arms
resolutely on his breast—"look you,
I desired that that name might never
be breathed. I have not cursed my
son yet; could he come to life—the
curse might fall! You do not know
what torture your words have given
me, just when I had opened my
heart to another son, and found that
son in you! With respect to the
lost, I have now but one prayer, and
you know it—the heartbroken prayer—that
his name never more may come
to my ears!"
As he closed these words, to which
I ventured no reply, the Captain
took long disordered strides across
the room; and suddenly, as if the
space imprisoned, or the air stifled
him, he seized his hat, and hastened
into the streets. Recovering my surprise
and dismay, I ran after him;
but he commanded me to leave him
to his own thoughts, in a voice so
stern, yet so sad, that I had no choice
but to obey. I knew, by my own
experience, how necessary is solitude
in the moments when grief is strongest
and thought most troubled.
Hours elapsed, and the Captain had
not returned home. I began to feel
uneasy, and went forth in search of
him, though I knew not whither to
direct my steps. I thought it, however,
at least probable, that he had
not been able to resist visiting Lady
Ellinor, so I went first to St James's
Square. My suspicions were correct;
the Captain had been there two hours
before. Lady Ellinor herself had
gone out shortly after the Captain left.
While the porter was giving me this
information, a carriage stopped at the
door, and a footman, stepping up,
gave the porter a note and a small
parcel, seemingly of books, saying
simply, "From the Marquis of
Castleton." At the sound of that
name I turned hastily, and recognised
Sir Sedley Beaudesert seated in the
carriage, and looking out of the window
with a dejected, moody expression
of countenance, very different
from his ordinary aspect, except when
the rare sight of a gray hair, or a
twinge of the toothache, reminded
him that he was no longer twenty-five.
Indeed, the change was so
great that I exclaimed, dubiously—"Is
that Sir Sedley Beaudesert?"
The footman looked at me, and
touching his hat said, with a condescending
smile,—"Yes, sir—now the
Marquis of Castleton."
Then, for the first time since the
young lord's death, I remembered Sir
Sedley's expressions of gratitude to
Lady Castleton, and the waters of
Ems, for having saved him from
"that horrible marquisate." Meanwhile,
my old friend had perceived
me, exclaiming,—
"What, Mr Caxton! I am delighted
to see you. Open the door,
Thomas. Pray come in, come in."
I obeyed; and the new Lord Castleton
made room for me by his side.
"Are you in a hurry?" said he;
"if so, shall I take you anywhere?—if
not, give me half an hour of your
time, while I drive to the City."
As I knew not now in what direction,
more than another, to prosecute
my search for the Captain, and as I
thought I might as well call at our
lodgings to inquire if he had not returned,
I answered that I should be
very happy to accompany his lordship;
"though the City," said I,
smiling, "sounds to me strange upon
the lips of Sir Sedley—I beg pardon,
I should say of Lord—"
"Don't say any such thing; let
me once more hear the grateful sound
of Sedley Beaudesert. Shut the door,
Thomas; to Gracechurch Street—Messrs
Fudge and Fidget."
The carriage drove on.
"A sad affliction has befallen me,"
said the marquis, "and none sympathise
with me!"
"Yet all, even unacquainted with
the late lord, must have felt shocked
at the death of one so young, and so
full of promise."
"So fitted in every way to bear the
burthen of the great Castleton name
and property, and yet you see it
killed him! Ah! if he had been but
a simple gentleman, or if he had had
less conscientious desire to do his
duties, he would have lived to a good
old age. I know what it is already.
Oh, if you saw the piles of letters on
my table! I positively dread the
post. Such colossal improvements on
the property which the poor boy had
begun, for me to finish. What do you
think takes me to Fudge and Fidget's?
Sir, they are the agents for an infernal
coal mine which my cousin had reopened
in Durham, to plague my life
out with another thirty thousand
pounds a-year! How am I to spend
the money?—how am I to spend it!
There's a cold-blooded head steward,
who says that charity is the greatest
crime a man in high station can commit;
it demoralises the poor. Then,
because some half-a-dozen farmers sent
me a round-robin, to the effect that
their rents were too high, and I wrote
them word the rents should be lowered,
there was such a hullabaloo—you
would have thought heaven and earth
were coming together. 'If a man in
the position of the Marquis of Castleton
set the example of letting land
below its value, how could the poorer
squires in the county exist?—or, if they
did exist, what injustice to expose
them, to the charge that they were
grasping landlords, vampires, and
bloodsuckers. Clearly, if Lord Castleton
lowered his rents, (they were
too low already,) he struck a mortal
blow at the property of his neighbours,
if they followed his example; or at
their character, if they did not.' No
man can tell how hard it is to do good,
unless fortune gives him a hundred
thousand pounds a-year, and says,—'Now,
do good with it!' Sedley Beaudesert
might follow his whims, and
all that would be said against him
would be, 'Good-natured, simple
fellow!' But if Lord Castleton follow
his whims, you would think he was a
second Catiline—unsettling the peace,
and undermining the prosperity, of the
entire nation!" Here the wretched
man paused, and sighed heavily;
then, as his thoughts wandered into
a new channel of woe, he resumed,—"Ah,
if you could but see the forlorn
great house I am expected to inhabit,
cooped up between dead walls, instead
of my pretty rooms, with the windows
full on the park; and the balls I am
expected to give, and the parliamentary
interest I am to keep up; and
the villanous proposal made to me
to become a lord steward, or lord
chamberlain, because it suits my rank
to be a sort of a servant. Oh, Pisistratus!
you lucky dog—not twenty-one,
and with, I dare say, not two
hundred pounds a-year in the world!"
Thus bemoaning and bewailing his
sad fortunes, the poor marquis ran
on, till at last he exclaimed, in a tone
of yet deeper despair,—
"And everybody says I must
marry, too!—that the Castleton line
must not be extinct! The Beaudeserts
are a good old family eno'—as
old, for what I know, as the Castletons;
but the British empire would
suffer no loss if they sank into the
tomb of the Capulets. But that the
Castleton peerage should expire, is a
thought of crime and woe, at which
all the mothers of England rise in a
phalanx! And so, instead of visiting
the sins of the fathers on the sons, it
is the father that is to be sacrificed
for the benefit of the third and fourth
generation!"
Despite my causes for seriousness,
I could not help laughing; my companion
turned on me a look of reproach.
"At least," said I, composing my
countenance, "Lord Castleton has one
comfort in his afflictions—if he must
marry, he may choose as he pleases."
"That is precisely what Sedley Beaudesert
could, and Lord Castleton cannot
do," said the marquis gravely. "The
rank of Sir Sedley Beaudesert was a
quiet and comfortable rank—he might
marry a curate's daughter, or a duke's—and
please his eye or grieve his heart
as the caprice took him. But Lord
Castleton must marry, not for a wife,
but for a marchioness,—marry some
one who will wear his rank for him,—take
the trouble of splendour off his
hands, and allow him to retire into a
corner, and dream that he is Sedley
Beaudesert once more! Yes, it must
be so—the crowning sacrifice must be
completed at the altar. But a truce
to my complaints. Trevanion informs
me you are going to Australia,—can
that be true?"
"Perfectly true."
"They say there is a sad want of
ladies there."
"So much the better,—I shall be
all the more steady."
"Well, there's something in that.
Have you seen Lady Ellinor?"
"Yes—this morning."
"Poor woman!—a great blow to her—we
have tried to console each other.
Fanny, you know, is staying at Oxton,
in Surrey, with Lady Castleton,—the
poor lady is so fond of her—and no
one has comforted her like Fanny."
"I was not aware that Miss Trevanion
was out of town."
"Only for a few days, and then she
and Lady Ellinor join Trevanion in
the north—you know he is with Lord
N——, settling measures on which—but
alas, they consult me now on those
matters—force their secrets on me. I
have, heaven knows how many votes!
Poor me! Upon my word, if Lady
Ellinor was a widow, I should certainly
make up to her: very clever
woman—nothing bores her." (The
marquis yawned—Sir Sedley Beaudesert
never yawned.) "Trevanion has
provided for his Scotch secretary, and
is about to get a place in the Foreign
Office for that young fellow Gower,
whom, between you and me, I don't like.
But he has bewitched Trevanion!"
"What sort of a person is this Mr
Gower?—I remember you said that
he was clever, and good-looking."
"He is both, but it is not the cleverness
of youth; he is as hard and sarcastic
as if he had been cheated fifty
times, and jilted a hundred! Neither
are his good looks that letter of recommendation
which a handsome face
is said to be. He has an expression
of countenance very much like that of
Lord Hertford's pet bloodhound, when
a stranger comes into the room. Very
sleek, handsome dog, the bloodhound
is certainly—well-mannered, and I dare
say exceedingly tame; but still you
have but to look at the corner of the
eye, to know that it is only the habit
of the drawing-room that suppresses
the creature's constitutional tendency
to seize you by the throat, instead of
giving you a paw. Still this Mr Gower
has a very striking head—something
about it Moorish or Spanish, like a
picture by Murillo: I half suspect that
he is less a Gower than a gipsy!"
"What!"—I cried, as I listened with
rapt and breathless attention to this
description. "He is then very dark,
with high narrow forehead, features
slightly aquiline, but very delicate,
and teeth so dazzling that the whole
face seems to sparkle when he smiles—though
it is only the lip that smiles,
not the eye."
"Exactly as you say; you have
seen him, then?"
"Why, I am not sure, since you
say his name is Gower."
"He says his name is Gower," returned
Lord Castleton, drily, as he
inhaled the Beaudesert mixture.
"And where is he now?—with Mr
Trevanion?"
"Yes, I believe so. Ah! here we
are—Fudge and Fidget! But perhaps,"
added Lord Castleton, with a
gleam of hope in his blue eye,—"perhaps
they are not at home!"
Alas, that was an illusive "imagining,"
as the poets of the nineteenth
century unaffectedly express themselves.
Messrs Fudge and Fidget
were never out to such clients as the
Marquis of Castleton: with a deep
sigh, and an altered expression of face,
the Victim of Fortune slowly descended
the steps of the carriage.
"I can't ask you to wait for me,"
said he; "heaven only knows how long
I shall be kept! Take the carriage
where you will, and send it back to me."
"A thousand thanks, my dear lord,
I would rather walk—but you will let
me call on you before I leave town."
"Let you!—I insist on it. I am still
at the old quarters, under pretence,"
said the marquis, with a sly twinkle
of the eyelid, "that Castleton House
wants painting!"
"At twelve to-morrow, then?"
"Twelve to-morrow. Alas! that's
just the hour at which Mr Screw, the
agent for the London property, (two
squares, seven streets, and a lane!) is
to call."
"Perhaps two o'clock will suit
you better?"
"Two!—just the hour at which
Mr Plausible, one of the Castleton
members, insists upon telling me why
his conscience will not let him vote
with Trevanion!"
"Three o'clock?"
"Three!—just the hour at which I
am to see the Secretary of the Treasury,
who has promised to relieve Mr
Plausible's conscience! But come and
dine with me—you will meet the executors
to the will!"
"Nay, Sir Sedley—that is, my dear
lord—I will take my chance, and look
in, after dinner."
"Do so; my guests are not lively!
What a firm step the rogue has! Only
twenty, I think—twenty! and not an
acre of property to plague him!" So
saying, the marquis dolorously shook
his head, and vanished through the
noiseless mahogany doors, behind which
Messrs Fudge and Fidget awaited the
unhappy man,—with the accounts of
the great Castleton coal mine.
On my way towards our lodgings,
I resolved to look in at a humble
tavern, in the coffee-room of which
the Captain and myself habitually
dined. It was now about the usual
hour in which we took that meal, and
he might be there waiting for me. I
had just gained the steps of this tavern,
when a stage coach came rattling
along the pavement, and drew up at
an inn of more pretensions than that
which we favoured, situated within
a few doors of the latter. As the
coach stopped, my eye was caught by
the Trevanion livery, which was very
peculiar. Thinking I must be deceived,
I drew near to the wearer of the
livery, who had just descended from
the roof, and, while he paid the coachman,
gave his orders to a waiter who
emerged from the inn—"Half-and-half,
cold without!" The tone of the
voice struck me as familiar, and, the
man now looking up, I beheld the features
of Mr Peacock. Yes, unquestionably
it was he. The whiskers were shaved—there
were traces of powder in the
hair or the wig—the livery of the Trevanions
(ay, the very livery—crestbutton,
and all) upon that portly
figure, which I had last seen in the
more august robes of a beadle. But
Mr Peacock it was—Peacock travestied,
but Peacock still. Before I had
recovered my amaze, a woman got
out of a cabriolet, which seemed to have
been in waiting for the arrival of the
coach, and, hurrying up to Mr Peacock,
said in the loud impatient tone
common to the fairest of the fair sex,
when in haste—"How late you are—I
was just going. I must get back to
Oxton to-night."
Oxton—Miss Trevanion was
staying at Oxton! I was now close
behind the pair—I listened with my
heart in my ear.
"So you shall, my dear—so you
shall; just come in, will you."
"No, no; I have only ten minutes
to catch the coach. Have you any
letter for me from Mr Gower? How
can I be sure, if I don't see it under
his own hand, that"—
"Hush!" said Peacock, sinking his
voice so low that I could only catch
the words, "no names, letter, pooh,
I'll tell you." He then drew her apart,
and whispered to her for some moments.
I watched the woman's face,
which was bent towards her companion's,
and it seemed to show quick
intelligence. She nodded her head
more than once, as if in impatient
assent to what was said; and, after a
shaking of hands, hurried off to the
cab; then, as if a thought struck her,
she ran back, and said—
"But in case my lady should not
go—if there's any change of plan?"
"There'll be no change, you may
be sure: Positively to-morrow—not
too early; you understand?"
"Yes, yes; good-by"—and the woman,
who was dressed with a quiet
neatness, that seemed to stamp her
profession as that of an abigail, (black
cloak, with long cape—of that peculiar
silk which seems spun on purpose for
ladies'-maids—bonnet to match, with
red and black ribbons,) hastened once
more away, and in another moment
the cab drove off furiously.
What could all this mean? By
this time the waiter brought Mr Peacock
the half-and-half. He despatched
it hastily, and then strode on towards
a neighbouring stand of cabriolets.
I followed him; and just as,
after beckoning one of the vehicles
from the stand, he had ensconced
himself therein, I sprang up the
steps and placed myself by his side.
"Now, Mr Peacock," said I, "you
will tell me at once how you come to
wear that livery, or I shall order the
cabman to drive to Lady Ellinor Trevanion's,
and ask her that question
myself."
"And who the devil!—Ah, you're
the young gentleman that came to me
behind the scenes—I remember."
"Where to, sir?" asked the cabman.
"To—to London Bridge," said Mr
Peacock.
The man mounted the box, and
drove on.
"Well, Mr Peacock, I wait your
answer. I guess by your face that you
are about to tell me a lie; I advise
you to speak the truth."
"I don't know what business you
have to question me," said Mr Peacock
sullenly; and, raising his glance
from his own clenched fists, he suffered
it to wander over my form with so vindictive
a significance that I interrupted
the survey by saying, "Will you encounter
the house? as the Swan interrogatively
puts it—shall I order the
cabman to drive to St James's Square?"
"Oh, you know my weak point,
sir; any man who can quote Will—sweet
Will—has me on the hip," rejoined
Mr Peacock, smoothing his
countenance, and spreading his palms
on his knees. "But if a man does fall
in the world, and, after keeping servants
of his own, is obliged to be himself
a servant,
---- 'I will not shame
To tell you what I am.'"
"The Swan says, 'To tell you what
I was,' Mr Peacock. But enough of
this trifling: who placed you with Mr
Trevanion?"
Mr Peacock looked down for a moment,
and then, fixing his eyes on me,
said—"Well, I'll tell you: you asked
me, when we met last, about a young
gentleman—Mr—Mr Vivian."
Pisistratus.—Proceed.
Peacock.—I know you don't want
to harm him. Besides, "He hath a
prosperous art," and one day or other,—mark
my words, or rather my friend
Will's—
"He will bestride this narrow world
Like a Colossus."
Upon my life he will—like a Colossus,
Pisistratus (savagely.)—Go on
with your story.
Peacock (snappishly.)—I am going
on with it! You put me out; where
was I—oh—ah yes. I had just been
sold up—not a penny in my pocket;
and if you could have seen my coat—yet
that was better than the small-clothes!
Well, it was in Oxford
Street—no, it was in the Strand, near
the Lowther—
"The sun was in the heavens; and the proud day
Attended, with the pleasures of the world."
Pisistratus, (lowering the glass.)—To
St James's Square?
Peacock.—No, no; to London
Bridge.
"How use doth breed a habit in a man!"
I will go on—honour bright. So I
met Mr Vivian, and as he had known
me in better days, and has a good
heart of his own, he says—
"Horatio,—or I do forget myself."
Pisistratus puts his hand on the
check-string.
Peacock.—I mean, (correcting
himself)—"Why, Johnson, my good
fellow."
Pisistratus.—Johnson!—oh that's
your name—not Peacock.
Peacock.—Johnson and Peacock
both, (with dignity.) When you know
the world as I do, sir, you will find
that it is ill travelling this "naughty
world" without a change of names in
your portmanteau.
"Johnson," says he, "my good
fellow," and he pulled out his purse.
"Sir," said I, "if, 'exempt from public
haunt,' I could get something to do
when this dross is gone. In London
there are sermons in stones, certainly,
but not 'good in everything,'—an
observation I should take the liberty
of making to the Swan, if he were not
now, alas! 'the baseless fabric of a
vision.'"
Pisistratus.—Take care!
Peacock—(hurriedly.)—Then
says Mr Vivian, "If you don't mind
wearing a livery, till I can provide
for you more suitably, my old friend,
there's a vacancy in the establishment
of Mr Trevanion." Sir, I accepted the
proposal, and that's why I wear this
livery.
Pisistratus.—And, pray, what
business had you with that young
woman, whom I take to be Miss
Trevanion's maid?—and why should
she come from Oxton to see you?
I had expected that these questions
would confound Mr Peacock, but if
there really were anything in them
to cause embarrassment, the ci-devant
actor was too practised in his profession
to exhibit it. He merely smiled,
and smoothing jauntily a very tumbled
shirt-front, he said, "Oh sir,
fie!
'Of this matter,
Is little Cupid's crafty arrow made.'
If you must know my love affairs,
that young woman is, as the vulgar
say, my sweetheart."
"Your sweetheart!" I exclaimed,
greatly relieved, and acknowledging
at once the probability of the statement.
"Yet," I added suspiciously—"yet,
if so, why should she expect
Mr Gower to write to her?"
"You're quick of hearing, sir; but
though
'All adoration, duty, and observance;
All humbleness, and patience, and impatience,'
the young woman will not marry a
livery servant—proud creature, very
proud!—and Mr Gower, you see,
knowing how it was, felt for me, and
told her, if I may take such liberty
with the Swan, that she should
——'Never lie by Johnson's side
With an unquiet soul,'
for that he would get me a place in
the Stamps! The silly girl said she
would have it in black and white—as
if Mr Gower would write to her!"
"And now, sir," continued Mr Peacock,
with a simpler gravity, "you
are at liberty, of course, to say what
you please to my lady, but I hope
you'll not try to take the bread out of
my mouth because I wear a livery,
and am fool enough to be in love with
a waiting-woman—I, sir, who could
have married ladies who have played
the first parts in life—on the metropolitan
stage."
I had nothing to say to these representations—they
seemed plausible;
and though at first I had suspected that
the man had only resorted to the
buffoonery of his quotations in order
to gain time for invention, or to divert
my notice from any flaw in his
narrative, yet at the close, as the
narrative seemed probable, so I was
willing to believe that the buffoonery
was merely characteristic. I contented
myself therefore with asking—
"Where do you come from now?"
"From Mr Trevanion, in the country,
with letters to Lady Ellinor?"
"Oh, and so the young woman
knew you were coming to town?"
"Yes, sir; some days ago. Mr
Trevanion told me the day I should
have to start."
"And what do you and the young
woman propose doing to-morrow, if
there is no change of plan?"
Here I certainly thought there was
a slight, scarce perceptible, alteration
in Mr Peacock's countenance, but he
answered readily, "To-morrow? a
little assignation, if we can both get
out;—
'Woo me, now I am in a holiday humour,
And like enough to consent.'
Swan again, sir!"
"Humph!—so then Mr Gower
and Mr Vivian are the same person."
Peacock hesitated. "That's not my
secret, sir; 'I am combined by a sacred
vow.' You are too much the gentleman
to peep through the blanket of the
dark, and to ask me, who wear the
whips and stripes—I mean the plush
small-clothes and shoulder-knots—the
secrets of another gent, to whom
'my services are bound.'"
How a man past thirty foils a man
scarcely twenty!—what superiority
the mere fact of living-on gives to
the dullest dog! I bit my lip, and
was silent.
"And," pursued Mr Peacock, "if
you knew how the Mr Vivian you
inquired after loves you"! When I
told him incidentally, how a young
gentleman had come behind the scenes
to inquire after him, he made me
describe you, and then said, quite
mournfully, 'If ever I am what I
hope to become, how happy I shall
be to shake that kind hand once
more,'—very words, sir!—honour
bright!
'I think there's ne'er a man in Christendom
Can lesser hide his hate or love than he.'
And if Mr Vivian has some
reason to keep himself concealed
still—if his fortune or ruin depend
on your not divulging his secret for
awhile—I can't think you are the
man he need fear. 'Pon my life,
'I wish I was as sure of a good dinner,'
as the Swan touchingly exclaims. I
dare swear that was a wish often on
the Swan's lips in the privacy of his
domestic life!"
My heart was softened, not by the
pathos of the much profaned and desecrated
Swan, but by Mr Peacock's unadorned
repetition of Vivian's words;
I turned my face from the sharp eyes
of my companion—the cab now stopped
at the foot of London Bridge.
I had no more to ask, yet still there
was some uneasy curiosity in my mind,
which I could hardly define to myself,—was
it not jealousy? Vivian, so
handsome and so daring—he at least
might see the great heiress; Lady
Ellinor perhaps thought of no danger
there. But—I—I was a lover still,
and—nay, such thoughts were folly
indeed!
"My man," said I to the ex-comedian,
"I neither wish to harm Mr
Vivian (if I am so to call him,) nor
you who imitate him in the variety of
your names. But I tell you, fairly,
that I do not like your being in Mr
Trevanion's employment, and I advise
you to get out of it as soon as possible.
I say nothing more as yet,
for I shall take time to consider well
what you have told me."
With that I hastened away, and
Mr Peacock continued his solitary
journey over London Bridge.
Amidst all that lacerated my heart,
or tormented my thoughts, that eventful
day, I felt at least one joyous
emotion, when, on entering our little
drawing-room, I found my uncle seated
there.
The Captain had placed before him
on the table a large Bible, borrowed
from the landlady. He never travelled,
to be sure, without his own Bible,
but the print of that was small, and
the Captain's eyes began to fail him
at night. So this was a Bible with
large type; and a candle was placed
on either side of it; and the Captain
leant his elbows on the table, and
both his hands were tightly clasped
upon his forehead—tightly, as if to
shut out the tempter, and force his
whole soul upon the page.
He sate, the image of iron courage;
in every line of that rigid form there
was resolution. "I will not listen to
my heart; I will read the Book, and
learn to suffer as becomes a Christian
man."
There was such a pathos in the
stern sufferer's attitude, that it spoke
those words as plainly as if his lips
had said them.
Old soldier! thou hast done a soldier's
part in many a bloody field;
but if I could make visible to the
world thy brave soldier's soul, I would
paint thee as I saw thee then!—Out
on this tyro's hand!
At the movement I made, the Captain
looked up, and the strife he had
gone through was written upon his
face.
"It has done me good," said he
simply, and he closed the book.
I drew my chair near to him, and
hung my arm over his shoulder.
"No cheering news then?" asked
I in a whisper.
Roland shook his head, and gently
laid his finger on his lips.
It was impossible for me to intrude
upon Roland's thoughts, whatever
their nature, with a detail of those
circumstances which had roused in
me a keen and anxious interest in
things apart from his sorrow.
Yet, as "restless I roll'd around my
weary bed," and revolved the renewal
of Vivian's connexion with a man of
character so equivocal as Peacock, the
establishment of an able and unscrupulous
tool of his own in the service of
Trevanion, the care with which he
had concealed from me his change of
name, and his intimacy at the very
house to which I had frankly offered
to present him; the familiarity which
his creature had contrived to effect
with Miss Trevanion's maid, the
words that had passed between them—plausibly
accounted for, it is true, yet
still suspicious—and, above all, my
painful recollections of Vivian's reckless
ambition, and unprincipled sentiments—nay,
the effect that a few
random words upon Fanny's fortune,
and the luck of winning an heiress,
had sufficed to produce upon his heated
fancy and audacious temper: when
all these thoughts came upon me,
strong and vivid, in the darkness of
night, I longed for some confidant,
more experienced in the world than
myself, to advise me as to the course
I ought to pursue. Should I warn
Lady Ellinor? But of what?—the
character of a servant, or the designs
of the fictitious Gower? Against the
first I could say, if nothing very positive,
still enough to make it prudent
to dismiss him. But of Gower or
Vivian, what could I say without, not
indeed betraying his confidence—for
that he had never given me—but without
belying the professions of friendship
that I myself had lavishly made
to him? Perhaps, after all, he might
have disclosed whatever were his real
secrets to Trevanion; and, if not, I
might indeed ruin his prospects by
revealing the aliases he assumed.
But wherefore reveal, and wherefore
warn? Because of suspicions that
I could not myself analyse—suspicions
founded on circumstances most
of which had already been seemingly
explained away? Still, when morning
came, I was irresolute what to do;
and after watching Roland's countenance,
and seeing on his brow so great
a weight of care, that I had no option
but to postpone the confidence I pined
to place in his strong understanding
and unerring sense of honour, I wandered
out, hoping that in the fresh air
I might re-collect my thoughts, and
solve the problem that perplexed me.
I had enough to do in sundry small
orders for my voyage, and commissions
for Bolding, to occupy me some
hours. And, this business done, I
found myself moving westward; mechanically,
as it were, I had come to
a kind of half-and-half resolution to
call upon Lady Ellinor, and question
her, carelessly and incidentally, both
about Gower and the new servant
admitted to the household.
Thus I found myself in Regent Street,
when a carriage, borne by post-horses,
whirled rapidly over the pavement—scattering
to the right and left all
humbler equipages—and hurried, as if
on an errand of life and death, up the
broad thoroughfare leading into Portland
Place. But, rapidly as the wheels
dashed by, I had seen distinctly the
face of Fanny Trevanion in the carriage,
and that face wore a strange
expression, which seemed to me to
speak of anxiety and grief; and, by
her side—was not that the woman I
had seen with Peacock? I did not see
the face of the woman, but I thought
I recognised the cloak, the bonnet,
and peculiar turn of the head. If
I could be mistaken there, I was not
mistaken at least as to the servant on
the seat behind. Looking back at a
butcher's boy, who had just escaped
being run over, and was revenging
himself by all the imprecations the
Diræ of London slang could suggest,
the face of Mr Peacock was exposed
in full to my gaze.
My first impulse, on recovering my
surprise, was to spring after the carriage;
in the haste of that impulse, I
cried "Stop!" But the carriage was
out of sight in a moment, and my word
was lost in air. After pausing for a
moment, full of presentiments of some
evil—I knew not what—I then altered
my course, and stopped not till I found
myself, panting and out of breath, in
St James's Square—at the door of
Trevanion's house—in the hall. The
porter had a newspaper in his hand as
he admitted me.
"Where is Lady Ellinor? I must
see her instantly."
"No worse news of master, I hope,
sir?"
"Worse news of what?—of whom?—of
Mr Trevanion?"
"Did you not know he was suddenly
taken ill, sir; that a servant
came express to say so last night.
Lady Ellinor went off at ten o'clock
to join him."
"At ten o'clock last night?"
"Yes, sir; the servant's account
alarmed her ladyship so much."
"The new servant, who had been
recommended by Mr Gower?"
"Yes, sir—Henry," answered the
porter staring at me. "Please, sir,
here is an account of master's attack
in the paper. I suppose Henry took
it to the office before he came here,
which was very wrong in him; but I
am afraid he's a very foolish fellow."
"Never mind that, Miss Trevanion—I
saw her just now—she did not go
with her mother; Where was she
going, then?"
"Why, sir—but pray step into the
parlour."
"No, no—speak."
"Why, sir, before Lady Ellinor set
out, she was afraid that there might
be something in the papers to alarm
Miss Trevanion, and so she sent Henry
down to Lady Castleton's, to beg her
ladyship to make as light of it as she
could; but it seems that Henry
blabbed the worst to Mrs Mole,—"
"Who is Mrs Mole?"
"Miss Trevanion's maid, sir—a
new maid; and Mrs Mole blabbed
to my young lady, and so she took
fright, and insisted on coming to
town. And Lady Castleton, who is
ill herself in bed, could not keep
her, I suppose—especially as Henry
said, though he ought to have known
better, 'that she would be in time
to arrive before my lady set off.'
Poor Miss Trevanion was so disappointed
when she found her mamma
gone. And then she would order
fresh horses, and would go on,
though Mrs Bates (the housekeeper,
you know, sir) was very angry with
Mrs Mole, who encouraged Miss;
and—"
"Good heavens! Why did not
Mrs Bates go with her?"
"Why, sir, you know how old Mrs
Bates is, and my young lady is always
so kind that she would not hear of it,
as she is going to travel night and
day; and Mrs Mole said she had
gone all over the world with her last
lady, and that—"
"I see it all. Where is Mr
Gower?"
"Mr Gower, sir!"
"Yes! Can't you answer?"
"Why, with Mr Trevanion, I believe,
sir."
"In the north—what is the address?"
"Lord N——, C—— Hall, near
W——"
I heard no more.
The conviction of some villanous
snare struck me as with the swiftness
and force of lightning. Why, if Trevanion
were really ill, had the false
servant concealed it from me? Why
suffered me to waste his time, instead
of hastening to Lady Ellinor? How,
if Mr Trevanion's sudden illness had
brought the man to London—how
had he known so long beforehand (as
he himself told me, and his appointment
with the waiting woman proved)
the day he should arrive? Why now,
if there were no design of which Miss
Trevanion was the object—why so
frustrate the provident foresight of
her mother, and take advantage of
the natural yearning of affection, the
quick impulse of youth, to hurry off
a girl whose very station forbade her
to take such a journey without suitable
protection—against what must be
the wish, and what clearly were the
instructions, of Lady Ellinor? Alone,—worse
than alone! Fanny Trevanion
was then in the hands of two
servants, who were the instruments
and confidants of an adventurer like
Vivian; and that conference between
those servants—those broken references
to the morrow, coupled with the
name Vivian had assumed—needed
the unerring instincts of love more
cause for terror—terror the darker,
because the exact shape it should
assume was obscure and indistinct?
I sprang from the house.
I hastened into the Haymarket,
summoned a cabriolet, drove home as
fast as I could (for I had no money
about me for the journey I meditated;)
sent the servant of the lodging
to engage a chaise-and-four,
rushed into the room, where Roland
fortunately still was, and exclaimed—"Uncle,
come with me!—take money,
plenty of money!—Some villany I
know, though I cannot explain it, has
been practised on the Trevanions.
We may defeat it yet. I will tell
you all by the way—come, come!"
"Certainly. But villany!—and
to people of such a station—pooh—collect
yourself. Who is the villain?"
"Oh, the man I have loved as a
friend—the man whom I myself
helped to make known to Trevanion.—Vivian—Vivian!"
"Vivian!—ah, the youth I have
heard you speak of. But how?—villany
to whom—to Trevanion?"
"You torture me with your questions.
Listen—this Vivian (I know
him)—he has introduced into the
house, as a servant, an agent capable
of any trick and fraud; that servant
has aided him to win over her maid—Fanny's—Miss
Trevanion's. Miss
Trevanion is an heiress, Vivian an
adventurer. My head swims round,
I cannot explain now. Ha! I will
write a line to Lord Castleton—tell
him my fears and suspicions—he will
follow us, I know, or do what is
best."
I drew ink and paper towards me,
and wrote hastily. My uncle came
round and looked over my shoulder.
Suddenly he exclaimed, seizing my
arm, "Gower, Gower. What name
is this? You said 'Vivian.'"
"Vivian or Gower—the same person."
My uncle hurried out of the
room. It was natural that he should
leave me to make our joint and brief
preparations for departure.
I finished my letter, sealed it, and
when, five minutes afterwards, the
chaise came to the door, I gave it to
the ostler who accompanied the horses,
with injunctions to deliver it forthwith
to Lord Castleton himself.
My uncle now descended, and
walked from the threshold with a
firm stride. "Comfort yourself," he
said, as he entered the chaise, into
which I had already thrown myself.
"We may be mistaken yet."
"Mistaken! You do not know this
young man. He has every quality that
could entangle a girl like Fanny, and
not, I fear, one sentiment of honour
that would stand in the way of his
ambition. I judge him now as by
a revelation—too late—oh Heavens, if
it be too late!"
A groan broke from Roland's lips.
I heard in it a proof of his sympathy
with my emotion, and grasped his
hand; it was as cold as the hand of
the dead.