[Charles Lamb, Coleridge’s associate of the “Cat
and Salutation” days, remained a close friend to the
last, and he plays an important part in the Highgate period.
Among Lamb’s letters, edited by Canon Ainger, are sixty-two
to Coleridge; and there are a few to Allsop and James
Gillman from 1821 onward. The next fourteen letters to
Allsop reflect the relationship of the little circle of the
Lambs and Gillman and Coleridge.
Blandford-place, March 1st, 1821.
My dearest Friend,
God bless you, and all who are dear and near to
you! but as to your pens, they seem to have been plucked
from the devil’s pinions, and slit and shaped by the blunt
edge of the broad sprays of his antlers. Of the ink (i.e. your
inkstand), it would be base to complain. I hate abusing
folks in their absence. Do you know, my dear friend, that
having sundry little snug superstitions of my own, I shrewdly
suspect that whimsical ware of that sort is connected with
the state and garniture of your paper-staining machinery.—Is
it so? Well, I have seen Murray, and he has been civil, I
may say kind, in his manners. Is this your knock?—Is it
you on the stairs?—No. I explained my full purpose to him,
namely,—that he should take me and my concerns, past
and future, for print and reprint, under his umbrageous
foliage, though the original name of his great predecessor in
the patronage of genius, who gave the name of Augustan to
all happy epochs—Octavius would be more appropriate—and
he promises,—cætera desunt.
May 4th, 1821.
My dear Friend,
Mr. and Mrs. Gillman’s kind love, and we beg that
the good lady’s late remembering that (as often the very
fullness and vividness of the purpose and intention to do a
thing imposes on the mind a sort of counterfeit feeling of
quiet, similar to the satisfaction which the having done it
would produce) you had not been written to, will not prejudice
the present attempt at “better late than never.” We
have a party to-morrow, in which, because we believed it
would interest you, you stood included. In addition to a
neighbour Robert Sutton, and ourselves, and Mrs. Gillman’s
most un-Mrs. Gillmanly sister (but n. b. this is a
secret to all who are both blind and deaf), there will be the
Mathews (Mr. and Mrs.) at home, Mathews I mean, and
Charles and Mary Lamb.
Of myself the best thing that I can say is that, in the belief
of those well qualified to judge, I am not so ill as I fancy
myself. Be this as it may,
I am always, my dearest friend,
With highest esteem and regard,
Your affectionate friend,
S. T. Coleridge.
T. Allsop, Esq.
“Of this day and the one following,” Allsop says, “I have
a few notes, which appear to me of interest. It must be
borne constantly in mind, that much of what is preserved
has relation to positions enforced by others, which Coleridge
held to be untenable on the particular grounds urged, not
as being untrue in themselves.”
Had Lord Byron possessed perseverance enough to
undergo the drudgery of research, and had his theological
studies and attainments been at all like mine, he would
have been able to unsettle all the evidences of Christianity,
upheld as it is at present by simple confutation. Is it
possible to assent to the doctrine of redemption as at present
promulgated, that the moral death of an unoffending
being should be a consequence of the transgression of
humanity[119] and its atonement?
Walter Scott’s novels are chargeable with the same faults
as Bertram, et id omne genus, viz., that of ministering to the
depraved appetite for excitement, and, though in a far less
degree, creating sympathy for the vicious and infamous,
solely because the fiend is daring. Not twenty lines of
Scott’s poetry will ever reach posterity; it has relation to
nothing.
When I wrote a letter upon the scarcity, it was generally
said that it was the production of an immense cornfactor,
and a letter was addressed to me under that persuasion,
beginning “Crafty Monopolist.”
It is very singular that no true poet should have arisen
from the lower classes, when it is considered that every
peasant who can read knows more of books now than did
Æschylus, Sophocles, or Homer; yet if we except Burns,
none[120] such have been.
Crashaw seems in his poems to have given the first
ebullience of his imagination, unshapen into form, or much
of, what we now term, sweetness. In the poem, Hope, by
way of question and answer, his superiority to Cowley is
self-evident. In that on the name of Jesus equally so; but
his lines on St. Theresa are the finest.
Where he does combine richness of thought and diction
nothing can excel, as in the lines you so much admire—
Since ’tis not to be had at home,
She’l travel to a martyrdome.
No home for her confesses she,
But where she may a martyr be.
She’l to the Moores, and trade with them
For this invalued diadem,
She offers them her dearest breath
With Christ’s name in’t, in change for death.
She’l bargain with them, and will give
Them God, and teach them how to live
In Him, or if they this deny,
For Him she’l teach them how to die.
So shall she leave amongst them sown,
The Lord’s blood, or, at least, her own.
Farewell then, all the world—adieu,
Teresa is no more for you:
Farewell all pleasures, sports and joys,
Never till now esteemed toys—
Farewell whatever dear’st may be,
Mother’s arms or father’s knee;
Farewell house, and farewell home,
She’s for the Moores and martyrdom.
These verses were ever present to my mind whilst
writing the second part of Christabel; if, indeed, by some
subtle process of the mind they did not suggest the first
thought of the whole poem.—Poetry, as regards small poets,
may be said to be, in a certain sense, conventional in its
accidents and in its illustrations; thus Crashaw uses an
image:—
As sugar melts in tea away,
which, although proper then, and true now, was in bad taste
at that time equally with the present. In Shakspeare, in
Chaucer there was nothing of this.
The wonderful faculty which Shakspeare above all other
men possessed, or rather the power which possessed him in
the highest degree, of anticipating everything, evidently is
the result—at least partakes—of meditation, or that mental
process which consists in the submitting to the operation of
thought every object of feeling, or impulse, or passion
observed out of it. I would be willing to live only as long
as Shakspeare were the mirror to nature.
What can be finer in any poet than that beautiful passage
in Milton—
——Onward he moved
And thousands of his saints around.
This is grandeur, but it is grandeur without completeness:
but he adds—
Far off their coming shone;
which is the highest sublime. There is total completeness.
So I would say that the Saviour praying on the Mountain,
the Desert on one hand, the Sea on the other, the city
at an immense distance below, was sublime. But I should
say of the Saviour looking towards the City, his countenance
full of pity, that he was majestic, and of the situation that
it was grand.
When the whole and the parts are seen at once, as
mutually producing and explaining each other, as unity in
multiety, there results shapeliness—forma formosa. Where
the perfection of form is combined with pleasurableness in
the sensations, excited by the matters or substances so
formed, there results the Beautiful.
Corollary.—Hence colour is eminently subservient to
beauty, because it is susceptible of forms, i.e. outline, and
yet is a sensation. But a rich mass of scarlet clouds, seen
without any attention to the form of the mass or of the
parts, may be a delightful but not a beautiful object or
colour.
When there is a deficiency of unity in the line forming
the whole (as angularity, for instance), and of number in
the plurality or the parts, there arises the Formal.
When the parts are numerous, and impressive, and predominate,
so as to prevent or greatly lessen the attention to
the whole, there results the Grand.
Where the impression of the whole, i.e. the sense of
unity predominates, so as to abstract the mind from the
parts—the Majestic.
Where the parts by their harmony produce an effect of
a whole, but there is no seen form of a whole producing or
explaining the parts, i.e. when the parts only are seen and
distinguished, but the whole is felt—the Picturesque.
Where neither whole nor parts, but unity, as boundless
or endless allness—the Sublime.
It often amuses me to hear men impute all their misfortunes
to fate, luck, or destiny, whilst their successes or
good fortune they ascribe to their own sagacity, cleverness,
or penetration. It never occurs to such minds that light
and darkness are one and the same, emanating from, and
being part of, the same nature.
The word Nature, from its extreme familiarity, and in
some instances, fitness, as well as from the want of a term,
or other name for God, has caused very much confusion in
the thoughts and language of men. Hence a Nature-God,
or God-Nature, not God in Nature; just as others, with as
little reason, have constructed a natural and sole religion.
Is it then true, that Reason to man is the ultimate
faculty, and that, to convince a reasonable man, it is sufficient
to adduce adequate reasons or arguments? How, if
this be so, does it happen that we reject as insufficient the
reasoning of a friend in our affliction for this or that cause
or reason, yet are comforted, soothed, and reassured, by
similar or far less sufficient reasons, when urged by a
friendly and affectionate woman? It is no answer to say
that women were made comforters; that it is the tone, and,
in the instance of man’s chief, best comforter, the wife of
his youth, the mother of his children, the oneness with
himself, which gives value to the consolation; the reasons
are the same, whether urged by man, woman, or child. It
must be, therefore, that there is something in the will itself,
above and beyond, if not higher than, reason. Besides, is
Reason or the reasoning always the same, even when free
from passion, film, or fever? I speak of the same person.
Does he hold the doctrine of temperance in equal reverence
when hungry as after he is sated? Does he at forty retain
the same reason, only extended and developed, as he possessed
at four and twenty? Does he not love the meat in
his youth which he cannot endure in his old age? But
these are appetites, and therefore no part of him. Is not a
man one to-day and another to-morrow? Do not the very
ablest and wisest of men attach greater weight at one
moment to an argument or a reason than they do at
another? Is this a want of sound and stable judgment?
If so, what then is this perfect reason? for we have shown
what it is not.
It is prettily feigned, that when Plutus is sent from
Jupiter, he limps and gets on very slowly at first; but when
he comes from Pluto, he runs and is swift of foot. This,
rightly taken, is a great sweetener of slow gains. Bacon
(alas! the day) seems to have had this in mind when he
says, “seek not proud gains, but such as thou mayst get
justly, use soberly, distribute cheerfully, and leave contentedly.”
He that is covetous makes too much haste; and
the wise man saith of him, “he cannot be innocent.”
I have often been pained by observing in others, and was
fully conscious in myself, of a sympathy with those of rank
and condition in preference to their inferiors, and never
discovered the source of this sympathy until one day at
Keswick I heard a thatcher’s wife crying her heart out for
the death of her little child. It was given me all at once
to feel, that I sympathized equally with the poor and the
rich in all that related to the best part of humanity—the
affections; but that, in what relates to fortune, to mental
misery, struggles, and conflicts, we reserve consolation and
sympathy for those who can appreciate its force and value.
There are many men, especially at the outset of life,
who, in their too eager desire for the end, overlook the
difficulties in the way; there is another class, who see
nothing else. The first class may sometimes fail; the latter
rarely succeed.
June 23, 1821.
My dearest Friend,
Be assured that nothing bearing a nearer resemblance
to offence, whether felt or perceived, than a syllogism bears
to the colour of the man in the moon’s whiskers, ever
crossed my brain: not even with that brisk diagonal traverse
which Ghosts and apparitions always choose to surprise us in.
I have indeed observed or fancied, that, for some time past,
you have been anxious about something, have had something
pressing upon your mind, which I wished out of you,
though not particularly to have it out of you. I must explain
myself. Say that X. were my dearest Friend, to whom I
would be as it were transparent, and have him so to me in
all respects that concerned our permanent Being, and likewise
in all circumstantial accidents in which we could be of
service to each other. Yet there are many things that will
press upon us which are our individualities, which one man
does not feel any tendency in himself to speak of to a man,
however dear or valued. X. does not think or wish to think
of it when with Y., nor Y. in his turn when with X., and yet
still the great law holds good—whatever vexes or depresses
ought if possible to be out of us. Now I say that I should
rejoice if you had a female Friend—a Sister, an Aunt, or a
Beloved to whom you could lay yourself open. I should
further exult if your confidante were my Friend too, my
Sister or my Wife.
God bless you.
S. T. Coleridge.
T. Allsop, Esq.
My dear Friend,
We are quite sure that you would not allow yourself
to fancy any rightful ground, cause, or occasion for not
coming here, but the wish, the duty, or the propriety of
going elsewhere or staying at home. When the Needle of
your Thoughts begins to be magnetic, you may be certain
that my Pole is at that moment attracting you by the spiritual
magic of strong wishing for your arrival. N.B. My Pole
includes in this instance both the Poles of Mr. and eke of
Mrs. Gillman, i.e., the head and the heart.
But seriously—I am a little anxious—so give my blest
sisterly Friend a few lines by return of post—just to let us
know that you are and have been well, and that nothing of
a painful nature has deprived us of the expected pleasure; a
pleasure which, believe me, stands a good many degrees
above moderate in the cordi or hedonometer of,
Yours most cordially,
S. T. Coleridge
T. Allsop, Esq.
Sept. 15th, 1821.
My dear Friend,
I cannot rest until I have answered your last letter.
I have contemplated your character, affectionately indeed,
but through a clear medium. No film of passion, no glittering
mist of outward advantages, has arisen between the sight
and the object: I had no other prepossession than the
esteem which my knowledge of your sentiments and conduct
could not but secure for you. I soon learnt to esteem
you; and in esteeming, became attached to you. I began by
loving the man on account of his conduct, but I ended in
valuing the actions chiefly as so many looks and attitudes
of the same person. “Hast thou any thing? Share it with
me, and I will pay thee an equivalent. Art thou any thing?
O then we will exchange souls.”
We can none of us, not the wisest of us, brood over any
source of affliction inwardly, keeping it back, and as it were
pressing it in on ourselves; but we must magnify it. We
cannot see it clearly, much less distinctly; and as the object
enlarges beyond its real proportions, so it becomes vivid;
and the feelings that blend with it assume a proportionate
undue intensity. So the one acts on the other, and what at
first was effect, in its turn becomes a cause; and when
at length we have taken heart, and given the whole thing,
with all its several parts, the proper distance from our mind’s
eye, by confiding it to a true friend, we are ourselves surprised
to find what a dwarf the giant shrinks into, as soon as
it steps out of the mist into clear sunlight.
I am aware that these are truths of which you do not need
to be informed; but they will not be the less impressive on
this account in your judgment, knowing, as you must know,
that nothing short of my deep and anxious convictions of
their importance in all cases of hidden distress, and of their
unspeakable importance in yours, could impel me to seek
and entreat your entire confidence, to beg you, so fervently
as I here am doing, to open out to me the cause of your
anxiety, that I may offer you the best advice in my power,—advice
that will not be the less dispassionate from its being
dictated by zealous friendship, and blended with the truest
love.
I fear that in any decision to which you may come in any
matter affecting yourself alone, you may, from a culpable
delicacy of honour, which, forbidden by wisdom and the
universal experience of others, cannot but be in contradiction
to the genuine dictates of duty, want fortitude to choose,
the lesser evil, at whatever cost to your immediate feelings,
and to put that choice into immediate and peremptory act.
But I must finish. I trust that the warmth and earnestness
of my language are not warranted by the occasion; but
they are barely proportionate to the present solicitude of,
Your faithful and affectionate friend,
S. T. Coleridge.
T. Allsop, Esq.
Sept. 24th, 1821.
My dearest Friend,
I will begin with the beginning of your (to me most
affecting) letter. Not exactly obligation, my entirely beloved
and relied-on friend! The soiling hand of the world has
dyed and sunk into the sense and import of the term too inseparably,
for it to convey the kind and degree of what I feel
towards you, on the one scale. I love you so truly, that in
the first glance, as it were, and welcome of your anxious affection,
it delights me for the very act’s sake. I think only of
it and you, or rather both are one and the same, and I live
in you. Nor does the complacency suffer any abatement,
but becomes more intense and lively. As a mother would
talk of the soothing attentions, the sacrifices and devotion
of a son, eager to supply every want and anticipate every
wish, so I talk to myself concerning you; and I am proud of
you, and proud to be the object of what cannot but appear
lovely to my judgment, and which the hard contrast in so
many heart-withering instances forced on me by the experience
of my last twenty years, compels me to feel and value
with an additional glow. Lastly, it is a source of strength
and comfort to know that the labours and aspirations and
sympathies of the genuine and invisible Humanity exist in a
social world of their own; that its attractions and assimilations
are no Platonic fable, no dancing flames or luminous
bubbles on the magic cauldron of my wishes; but that there
are, even in this unkind life, spiritual parentages and filiations
of the soul. Can there be a counterpoise to these? Not a
counterpoise—but as weights in the counter-scale there will
come the self-reproach, that spite of all inauspicious obstacles,
not in my power to remove without loss of self-respect,
I have not done all I could and might have done to
prevent my present state of dependence. I am now able to
hope that I shall be capable of setting apart such a portion
of my useable time to my greater work (in assertion of the
ideal truths and à priori probability, and à posteriori internal
and external evidence of the historic truth of the
Christian religion), as to leave a sufficient portion for a not
unprofitable series of articles for pecuniary supply. I entertain
some hope, too, that my Logic, which I could begin
printing immediately if I could find a publisher willing to
undertake it on equitable terms, might prove an exception
to the general fate of my publications. It is a long lane that
has no turning, and while my own heart bears witness to
the genial delight you would feel in assisting me, I know
that you would have a more satisfactory gladness in my not
needing it.
And now a few, a very few, words on the latter portion of
your letter. You know, my dearest Friend, how I acted myself,
and that my example cannot be urged in confirmation
of my judgment. I certainly strive hard to divest my mind
of every prejudice, to look at the question sternly through
the principle of Right separated from all mere Expedience,
nay, from the question of earthly happiness for its own sake.
But I cannot answer to myself that the image of any serious
obstacle to your peace of heart, that the Thought of your
full development of soul being put a stop to, of a secret
anxiety blighting your utility by cankering your happiness,
I cannot be sure—I cannot be sure that this may not have
made me weigh with a trembling and unsteady hand, and
less than half the presumption of error, afforded by the
shrinking and recoil of your moral sense or even feeling,
would render it my duty and my impulse to bring my conclusion
anew to the ordeal of my Reason and Conscience.
But on your side, my dear Friend! try with me to contemplate
the question as a problem in the science of Morals, in
the first instance, and to recollect that there are false or intrusive
weights possible in the other scale; that our very
virtues may become, or be transformed into temptations to,
or occasions of, partial judgment; that we may judge partially
against ourselves from the very fear, perhaps contempt,
of the contrary; that self may be moodily gratified by self-sacrifice,
and that the Heart itself, in its perplexity, may
acquiesce for a time in the decision as a more safe way;
and, lastly, that the question can only be fully answered,
when Self and Neighbour, as equi-distant
from the
conscience or God, are blended in the common term, a
Human Being: that we are commanded to love ourselves as
our Neighbour in the Law that requires a Christian to love
his Neighbour as himself.
But indeed I persuade myself that this dissonance is not
real between us, and that it would not have seemed to exist,
had I continued the subject into the possible particular
cases; e.g., suppose a case in which the misery, and so far
the moral incapacitation, of both parties were certainly foreseen
as the immediate consequence. A morality of Consequences
I, you well know, reprobate; but to exclude the
necessary effect of an action is to take away all meaning from
the word action—to strike Duty with blindness. I repeat it,
that I do not, cannot find it in myself to believe, that on any
one case, made out in all its limbs, features, and circumstances,
your heart and mine would prompt different
verdicts.
But the thought of you personally and individually is at
present too strong and stirring to permit me to reason on any
points. If the weather is at all plausible, we propose to set
off on Saturday. I do most earnestly wish that you could
accompany us; a steam-vessel would give us three-fourths of
the whole day to tête-à-tête conversation. God bless you,
And your affectionate and faithful friend,
S. T. Coleridge.
T. Allsop, Esq.
Cottle saw Coleridge for the last time in 1821. He says
“It is a consolation to reflect, that, in the year 1821, being
in London, I called to see Mr. Coleridge, at Mr. Gillman’s,
when he welcomed me in his former kind and cordial manner.
The depressing thought filled my mind, that that would
be our final interview in this world, as it was. On my going
away, Mr. C. presented me with his Statesman’s Manual, in
the title-page of which he wrote—‘Joseph Cottle, from his
old and affectionate friend, S. T. Coleridge.’”—(Early
Recollections, ii, 177.)
Coleridge, during his Highgate period, was induced by
Blackwood to send a few contributions to his magazine (see
Lamb’s Letters, ii, 32). He had contributed Fancy in
Nubibus in 1819, and he now sent selections from his
Literary Correspondence in the shape of letters, which
appeared in 1821. Two of these letters are printed by
Thomas Ashe (Miscell. Works, 238). The following is one of
the letters not published by Ashe:
October, 1821.
Dear Sir,
Here have I been sitting, this whole long-lagging,
muzzy, mizly morning, struggling without success against
the insuperable disgust I feel to the task of explaining the
abrupt chasm at the outset of our correspondence, and
disposed to let your verdict take its course, rather than
suffer over again by detailing the causes of the stoppage;
though sure by so doing to acquit my will of all share in
the result. Instead of myself, and of you, my dear sir, in
relation to myself, I have been thinking, first, of the Edinburgh
Magazine; then of magazines generally and comparatively;
then of a magazine in the abstract; and lastly,
of the immense importance and yet strange neglect of that
prime dictate of prudence and common sense—Distinct
Means to Distinct Ends. But here I must put in one
proviso, not in any relation though to the aphorism itself,
which is of universal validity, but relatively to my intended
application of it. I must assume—I mean, that the individuals
disposed to grant me free access and fair audience
for my remarks, have a conscience—such a portion at least,
as being eked out with superstition and sense of character,
will suffice to prevent them from seeking to realise the
ultimate end, (i.e. the maxim of profit) by base or disreputable
means. This, therefore, may be left out of the
present argument, an extensive sale being the common
object of all publishers, of whatever kind the publications
may be, morally considered. Nor do the means appropriate
to this end differ. Be the work good or evil in its tendency,
in both cases alike there is one question to be predetermined,
viz. what class or classes of the reading-world the
work is intended for? I made the proviso, however, because
I would not mislead any man even for an honest cause, and
my experience will not allow me to promise an equal
immediate circulation from a work addressed to the higher
interests and blameless predilections of men, as from one
constructed on the plan of flattering the envy and vanity of
sciolism, and gratifying the cravings of vulgar curiosity. Such
may be, and in some instances, I doubt not, has been, the
result. But I dare not answer for it beforehand, even
though both works should be equally well suited to their
several purposes, which will not be thought a probable case,
when it is considered how much less talent, and of how
much commoner a kind, is required in the latter.
On the other hand, however, I am persuaded that a
sufficient success, and less liable to drawbacks from competition,
would not fail to attend a work on the former plan,
if the scheme and execution of the contents were as appropriate
to the object which the purchasers must be supposed to
have in view as the means adopted for its outward attraction,
and its general circulation were to the interest of its proprietors.
During a long literary life, I have been no inattentive
observer of periodical publications; and I can remember
no failure in any work deserving success that might not
have been anticipated from some error or deficiency in the
means, either in regard to the mode of circulating the
work (as, for instance, by the vain attempt to unite the
characters of author, editor, and publisher), or to the typographical
appearance; or else from its want of suitableness
to the class of readers on whom, it should have been foreseen,
the remunerating sale must principally depend. It
would be misanthropy to suppose that the seekers after
truth, information, and innocent amusement, are not sufficiently
numerous to support a work in which these attractions
are prominent, without the dishonest aid of personality,
literary faction, or treacherous invasions of the sacred
recesses of private life, without slanders which both reason
and duty command us to disbelieve as well as to abhor;
for what but falsehood, or that half truth, which is falsehood
in its most malignant form, can or ought to be
expected from a self-convicted traitor and ingrate?
If these remarks are well founded, we may narrow the
problem to the few following terms—it being understood
that the work now in question is a monthly publication, not
devoted to any one branch of knowledge or literature, but a
magazine of whatever may be supposed to interest readers
in general, not excluding the discoveries or even the speculations
of science, that are generally intelligible or interesting,
so that the portion devoted to any one subject or
department shall be kept proportionate to the number of
readers for whom it may be supposed to have a particular
interest. Here, however, we must not forget, that however
few the actual dilettanti, or men of the fancy may be, yet,
as long as the articles remain generally intelligible (in
pugilism, for instance) Variety and Novelty communicate
an attraction that interests all. Homo sum, nihil humani a
me alienum. If to this we add the exclusion of theological
controversy, which is endless, I shall have pretty accurately
described the present Edinburgh Magazine, as to its characteristic
plan and purposes; which may, I think, be comprised
in three terms, as Philosophical. Philological, and
Aesthetic Miscellany. The word miscellany, however, must
be taken as involving a predicate in itself, in addition to
the three preceding epithets, comprehending, namely, all
the ephemeral births of intellectual life which add to the
gaiety and variety of the work, without interfering with its
express and regular objects.
Having thus a sufficiently definite notion of what your
Magazine is, and is intended to be, I propose to myself, as
a problem to find out, in detail, what the means would be to
the most perfect attainment of this end. In other words,
what the scheme, and of what nature, and in what order and
proportion, the contents should be of a monthly publication;
in order for it to verify the title of a Philosophical, Philological,
and Aesthetic Miscellany and Magazine. The
result of my lucubrations I hope to forward in my next,
under the title of The Ideal of a Magazine; and to mark
those departments, in the filling up of which, I flatter
myself with the prospect of being a fellow labourer. But
since I began this scrawl, a friend reminded me of a letter I
wrote him many years ago, on the improvement of the mind
by the habit of commencing our inquiries with the attempt
to construct the most absolute or perfect form of the object
desiderated, leaving its practicability, in the first instance,
undetermined. An essay, in short, de emendatione intellectûs
per ideas—the beneficial influence of which on his mind he
spoke of with warmth. The main contents of the letter, the
effect of which my friend appreciated so highly, were
derived from conversation with a great man now no more.
And as I have reason to regard that conversation as an
epoch in the history of my own mind, I feel myself encouraged
to hope that its publication may not prove useless
to some of your numerous readers, to whom Nature has
given the stream, and nothing is wanting but to be led into
the right channel. There is one other motive to which I
must plead conscious, not only in the following, but in all
these, my preliminary contributions; viz.—That by the
reader’s agreement with the principles and sympathy with
the general feelings which they are meant to impress, the
interest of my future contributions, and still more, their
permanent effect, will be heightened; and most so in those
in which, as narrative and imaginative compositions, there
is the least show of reflection, on my part, and the least
necessity for it,—though I flatter myself not the least
opportunity on the part of my readers.
It will be better, too, if I mistake not, both for your
purposes and mine, to have it said hereafter that he dragged
slow and stiff-kneed up the first hill, but sprang forward as
soon as the road was full before him, and got in fresh; than
that he set off in grand style—broke up midway, and came
in broken-winded. Finis coronat opus.
Yours, etc.,
S. T. Coleridge.
P.S. I wish I could find a more familiar word than
aesthetic for works of taste and criticism. It is, however,
in all respects better, and of more reputable origin, than
belletristic. To be sure, there is tasty; but that has been
long ago emasculated for all unworthy uses by milliners,
tailors, and the androgynous correlatives of both, formerly
called ’its, and now yclept dandies. As our language,
therefore, contains no other useable adjective, to express
that coincidence of form, feeling, and intellect, that something,
which, confirming the inner and the outward senses,
becomes a new sense in itself, to be tried by laws of its
own, and acknowledging the laws of the understanding so
far only as not to contradict them; that faculty which, when
possessed in a high degree, the Greeks termed φῖλοκᾶλία, but
when spoken of generally, or in kind only, το αἰσθητικόν;
and for which even our substantive, Taste, is a—not inappropriate—but
very inadequate metaphor; there is reason to
hope, that the term aesthetic, will be brought into common
use as soon as distinct thoughts and definite expressions
shall once more become the requisite accomplishment of
a gentleman. So it was in the energetic days, and in the
starry court of our English-hearted Eliza; when trade,
the nurse of freedom, was the enlivening counterpoise of
agriculture, not its alien and usurping spirit; when commerce
had all the enterprise, and more than the romance
of war; when the precise yet pregnant terminology of the
schools gave bone and muscle to the diction of poetry and
eloquence, and received from them in return passion and
harmony; but, above all, when from the self-evident truth,
that what in kind constitutes the superiority of man to
animals, the same in degree must constitute the superiority
of men to each other, the practical inference was drawn that
every proof of these distinctive faculties, being in a tense and
active state, that even the sparks and crackling of mental electricity,
in the sportive approaches and collisions of ordinary
intercourse, (such as we have in the wit-combats of Benedict
and Beatrice, of Mercutio, and in the dialogues assigned
to courtiers and gentlemen, by all the dramatic writers of
that reign,) are stronger indications of natural superiority,
and, therefore, more becoming signs and accompaniments
of artificial rank, than apathy, studied mediocrity, and the
ostentation of wealth. When I think of the vigour and
felicity of style characteristic of the age from Edward VI to
the restoration of Charles, and observable in the letters and
family memoirs of noble families—take, for instance, the
Life of Colonel Hutchinson, written by his widow—I cannot
suppress the wish—O that the habits of those days could
return, even though they should bring pedantry and Euphuism
in their train![121]
Coleridge and the Gillmans had gone to Ramsgate for a
holiday while Allsop had gone to Derbyshire. The next
letter is from Ramsgate.
Oct. 20, 1821.
My dear Friend,
Not a day has passed since we left Highgate in
which I have not been tracing you in spirit up and down
the Glens and Dells of Derbyshire, while my feet only have
been in commune with the sandy beach here at Ramsgate.
Once when I had stopped and stood stone still for some
minutes, Mrs. Gillman’s call snatched me away from a spot
opposite to a house, to the second-floor window of which I
had been gazing, as if I had feared, yet expected, to see you
passing to and fro by it. These, however, were visions to
which I had myself given the commencing act—fabrics of
which the “I wonder where Allsop is now” had laid the
foundation stone. But for the last three days your image,
alone or lonely in an unconcerning crowd of human figures,
has forced itself on my sleep in dreams of the rememberable
kind, accompanied with the feeling of being afraid to
go up to you—and now of letting you pass by unnoticed,
from want of courage to ask you, what was most on my
mind—respecting the one awful to me because so awfully
dear to you—(for there is a religion in all deep love, but the
love of a Mother is, at your age, the veil of softer light
between the Heart and the Heavenly Father!) Mrs. Gillman
likewise has been thinking of you both asleep and awake:
and so, though I know not how to direct my letter, yet a
letter I am resolved to write.
I am sure, my dear Friend! that if aught can be a comfort
to you in affliction or an addition to your joy in the hour of
Thanksgiving, it will be to know, and to be reminded of
your knowledge, that I feel as your own heart in all that
concerns you. Next to this I have to tell you, that the Sea
Air and the Sea Plunges, and the leisure of mind, with
regular devotion of the Daylight to exercise (for I write only
after tea), have been auspicious, beyond my best hopes,
to my health and spirits. The change in my looks is
beyond the present reality, but may be veracious as prophecy,
though somewhat exaggerating as history. The same in all
essentials holds good of Mrs. Gillman; and I am most
pleased that the improvement in her looks and strength has
been gradual though rapid. First she got rid, in the course
of four or five days, of the Positives of the wrong sort—e.g.
the blackness under the eyes and the thinness of the cheeks—and
now she is acquiring the Positives of the right kind,
her eyes brightening, her face becoming plump, and a
delicate, yet cool and steady colour, stealing upon her
cheeks. Mr. Gillman too is uncommonly well since his
second arrival here. The first week his arm, the absorbents
of which had been perilously poisoned by opening a body,
was a sad drawback, and prevented his bathing. In short,
we are all better than we could have anticipated; and the
better we are, the more I long, and we all wish you to be
with us. If you can come, though but for a few days, I pray
you come to us. In grief or gladness, we shall grieve less,
and (I need not say) be more glad, by seeing you, by
having you with us. I will not say write, for I would a
thousand times rather have you plump in on me, unannounced;
but yet write, unless this be possible. We have
an excellent house, with beds enough for half a dozen
Allsops, if so many there were or could be, the situation
the very best in all Ramsgate (Wellington Crescent, East
Cliff, Ramsgate); and we, or rather Mrs. Gillman’s voice
and manner, procured it shameful cheap for the size and
accommodations.
I am called to dinner; so God bless you, and receive all
our loves, my very dear friend.
S. T. Coleridge.
T. Allsop, Esq.
My birth-day, 51; or, as all my collegiates and Mrs.
Coleridge swear, 50.
Coleridge was only forty-nine on 21st October 1821, not
fifty-one as he supposes. He could never remember his
birthday, nor the year in which he was born.
Ramsgate, Nov. 2nd, 1821.
My dear Friend,
First, let me utter the fervent, God be praised! for
the glad tidings respecting your dear Mother, which would
have given an abounding interest to a far less interesting
letter. May she be long preserved both to enjoy and reward
your love and piety! And now I will try to answer the
other contents of your letter, as satisfactorily I hope, as I am
sure it will be sincerely and affectionately. Conscious how
heedfully, how watchfully I cross-examined myself whether
or no my anxiety for your earthly happiness and free exercise
of head and heart had not warped the attention which it
was my purpose to give whole and undivided to the one
Question—What is the Right, I can repeat (with as much
confidence as the slippery and Protean nature of all self-inquisition
and the great à priori likelihood of my reason
being tampered with by my affections, will sanction me in
expressing) what I have already more than once said, viz.,
that I hold it incredible, at least improbable to the utmost
extent, that you and I should decide differently in any one
definite instance. Let a case be stated with all its particulars,
personal and circumstantial, with its antecedents and involved
(n.b.—not its contingent or apprehended) consequents—and
my faith in the voice within, whenever the heart
desiringly listens thereto, will not allow me to fear that our
verdict should be diverse. If this be true, as true it is, it
follows—that we have attached a different import to the
same terms in some general proposition;—and that, in
attempting to generalise my convictions briefly, and yet
comprehensively, I have worded it either incorrectly or
obscurely. On the other hand, your communications likewise,
my dear friend! were indefinite—“taught light to
counterfeit a gloom;” and love left in the dusk of twilight
is apt to fear the worst, or rather, to think of worse than it
fears, and the momentary transformations of posts and
bushes into apparitions and foot-pads must not be interpreted
as symptoms of brain fever or depraved vision.
And now, my dearest Allsop! why should it be “a melancholy
reflection, that the three most affectionate, gentle, and
estimable women in your world are the three from whom
you have learnt almost to undervalue their sex?” In other
words those who in their reasonings have supposed as
possible, not even improbable, that women can be unworthy
and insincere in their expressions of attachment to men,
the frequency of which it is as impossible, living open-eyed,
not to have ascertained, as it is with a heart awake to what
a woman ought to be, and those of whom you speak substantially[122]
are. Why should this be a melancholy reflection?
(Thursday, Nov. 1st. A fatality seems to hang over this
letter; I will not, however, defer the continuation for the
purpose of explaining its suspension.) Why, dearest friend,
a melancholy reflection? Must not those women who have
the highest sense of womanhood, who know what their sex
may be, and who feel the rightfulness of their own claim to
be loved with honour, and honoured with love, have likewise
the keenest sense of the contrary? Understand a few
foibles as incident to humanity; take as matters of course
that need not be mentioned, because we know that in the
least imperfect a glance of the womanish will shoot across
the womanly, and there are Mirandas and Imogens, a Una,
a Desdemona, out of fairy land; rare, no doubt, yet less
rare than their counterparts among men in real life. Now
can such a woman not be conscious, must she not feel how
great the happiness is that a woman is capable of communicating,
say rather of being to a man of sense and sensibility,
pure of heart, and capable of appreciating, cherishing, and
repaying her virtues? Can she feel this, and not shrink
from the contemplation of a contrary lot? Can she know
this, and not know what a sore evil, fearful in its heart-withering
affliction in proportion to the capacity of being
blessed, a weak, artful, or worthless woman is—perhaps in
her own experience has been? And if she happen to know
a young Man, know him as the good, and only the good,
know each other—if he were precious to her, as a younger
brother to a matron sister—and so that she could not dwell
on his principles, dispositions, manners, without the thought—“If
I had an only daughter, and she all a mother ever
prayed for, one other prayer should I offer—that, freely
chosen and choosing, she should enable me to call this man
my son!” would you not more than pardon even an excess
of anxiety, even an error of judgment, proceeding from
a disinterested dread of his taking a step irrevocable, and,
if unhappy, miserable beyond all other misery, that of guilt
alone excepted? Especially if there were no known particulars
to guide her judgment—if that judgment were given
avowedly, on the mere unbelieved possibility, on an
unsupposed supposition of the worst.
In Mrs. Gillman I have always admired, what indeed I
have found more or less an accompaniment of womanly
excellence wherever found, a high opinion of her own sex
comparatively, and a partiality for female society. I know
that her strongest prejudices against individual men have
originated in their professed disbelief of such a thing as
female friendship, or in some similar brutish forgetfulness
that woman is an immortal soul; and as to all parts of
the female character, so chiefly and especially to the best,
noblest and highest—to the germs and yearnings of immortality
in the man. I have much to say on this, and shall
now say it with comfort, because I can think of it as a pure
Question of Thought. But I will not now keep this letter
any longer.
God bless you, and your friend,
S. T. Coleridge.
T. Allsop, Esq.
P.S. The morning after our arrival, a card with our
address and all our several names was delivered in at the
post office, and to the Postmaster; and this morning,
Monday, Oct. 29, I received your letter dated 16th, which
ought to have been delivered on Wednesday last—lying at
the Post-office while I was hour by hour fretting or dreaming
about you. And you, too, must have been puzzled with
mine, written on my birthday. A neglect of this kind may
be forgivable, but it is utterly inexcusable; a Blind-worm
sting that has sensibly quickened my circulation, and I
have half a mind to write to Mr. Freeling, if my wrath does
not subside with my pulse, and I should have nothing better
to do.
Saturday Afternoon, Nov. 17th, (1821).
At length, my dear friend! we are safe and (I hope)
sound at Highgate. We would fain have returned, as we
went, by the Steam-vessel, but for two reasons; one that
there was none to go by, the other that Mr. Gillman thought
it hazardous from the chance of November fogs on the river.
Likewise, my dear Allsop, I have two especial reasons for
wishing that it may be in your power to dine with us tomorrow;
first, it will give you so much real pleasure to see
my improved looks, and how very well Mrs. Gillman has
come back. I need not tell you, that your sister cannot be
dearer to you—and you are no ordinary brother—than Mrs.
Gillman is to me; and you will therefore readily understand
me when I say, that I look at the manifest and (as it was
gradual), I hope permanent change in her countenance,
expression, and motion, with a sort of pride of comfort;
second (and in one respect more urgent), my anxiety to
consult you on the subject of a proposal made to me by
Anster, before I return an answer, which I must do speedily.
I cannot conclude without assuring you how important a
part your love and esteem constitute of the happiness, and
through that (I will yet venture to hope) of the utility, of
your affectionate friend,
S. T. Coleridge.
T. Allsop, Esq.
Monday Morning (—1821).
My dear Friend,
Ab Hydromania, Hydrophobia: from Water-lust
comes Water-dread. But this is a violent metaphor, and
disagreeable to boot. Suppose then, by some caprice or
colic of nature, an Aqueduct split on this side of the slider
or Sluice-gate, the two parts removed some thirty feet from
each other, and the communication kept up only by a hollow
reed split lengthways, of just enough width and depth to
lay one’s finger in; the likeness would be fantastic to be
sure, but still it would be no inapt likeness or emblem of
the state of mind in which I feel myself as often as I have
just received a letter from you!—and when, after the first
flush of interest and rush of thoughts stirred up by it, I sit
down, or am about to sit down, to write in answer, a poor
fraction, or finger-breadth of the intended reply fills up
three-fourths of my paper; so sinking under the impracticability
of saying what seemed of use to say, I substitute
what there is no need to say at all—the expression of my
wishes, and the Love, Regard, and Affection, in which they
originate.
For the future, therefore, I am determined, whenever I
have any time, however short, to write whatever is first in
mind, and to send it off in the self-same hour.
I do not know whether I was most affected or delighted
with your last letter. It will endear Flower de Luce Court
to me above all other remembrances of past efforts; and
the pain, the restless aching, that comes instantly with the
thought of giving out my soul and spirit where you cannot
be present, where I could not see your beloved countenance
glistening with the genial spray of the outpouring; this, in
conjunction with your anxiety and that of Mr. and Mrs.
Gillman concerning my health, is the most efficient, I may
say, imperious of the retracting influences as to the Dublin
scheme.
Basil Montagu called on me yesterday. I could not but
be amused to hear from him, as well as from Mrs. Chisholm
and two other visitors, the instantaneous expression of
surprise at the apparent change in my health, and the certain
improvement of my looks. One lady said, “Well! Mr.
Coleridge really is very handsome.”
Highgate is in high feud with the factious stir against the
governors of the chapel, one of whom I was advising against
a reply addressed to the inhabitants as an inconsistency.
“But, sir, we would not carry any thing to an extreme!”
This Is the Darling Watch-word of Weak Men, when
they sit down on the edges of two stools. Press them to act on
fixed principles, and they talk of extremes; as if there were or
could be any way of avoiding them but by keeping close to
a fixed principle, which is a principle only because it is the one
medium between two extremes.
God bless you, my ever dear friend, and
Your affectionately attached
S. T. Coleridge.
T. Allsop, Esq.
P.S. Our friend Gillman sees the factious nature and
origin of the proceedings in so strong a light, and feels so
indignantly, that I am constantly afraid of his honesty
spirting out to his injury. If I had the craft of a Draughtsman,
I would paint Gillman in the character of Honesty,
levelling a pistol (with “Truth” on the barrel) at Sutton,
in the character of Modern Reform, and myself as a Dutch
Mercury,[123] with rod in hand, hovering aloft and——pouring
water into the touchhole. The superscription might be
“Pacification,” a little finely pronounced on the first syllable.[124]
The scheme alluded to in the last two letters, was a project
to deliver a course of lectures in Dublin. Anster, the
translator of Faust, was a Professor in Trinity College,
Dublin.
January 25th, 1822.
Dearest Friend,
My main reason for wishing that Mrs. Gillman should
have made her call on Mrs. Allsop, or that Mrs. Allsop
would waive the ceremony, and taking the willingness for
the act, and the præsens in rus (if Highgate deserves that
name) for the future in urbe, would accompany you hither,
on the earliest day convenient to you both, is, that I cannot
help feeling the old inkling to press you to spend the
Sunday with me, and yet feel a something like impropriety
in so doing. Speaking confidentially, et inter nosmet, if it
were prognosticable that dear Charles would be half as
delightful as when we were last with him, and as pleasant
relatively to the probable impressions on a stranger to him
as Mary always is, I should still ask you to fulfil our first
expectation. As it is, I must be content to wish it; and
leave the rest to your knowledge of the circumstantial pro’s
and con’s. Only remember, that what is dear to you
becomes dear to me, and that whatever can in the least
add to happiness in which you are interested, is a duty
which I cannot neglect without injury to my own. I am
convinced that your happiness is in your own possession.
One part of your letter gave me exceeding comfort—that
in which you spoke of the peculiar sentiment awakened
or inspired at first sight. This is an article of my philosophic
creed.
And now for my pupil schemes. Need I say that the
verdict of your judgment, after a sufficient hearing, would
determine me to abandon a plan of the expediency and
probable result of which I was less sceptical than I am of the
present? But first let me learn from you whether you had
before your mind, at the moment that you formed your
opinion, the circumstance of my being already in some sort
engaged to one pupil already: that with Mr. Stutfield and
Mr. Watson I have already proceeded on two successive
Thursdays, and completed the introduction and the first
chapter, amounting to somewhat more than a closely-printed
octavo sheet, requiring no such revision as would render
transcription necessary; and that three or four more young
men at the table will make no addition, or rather no change.
Mr. Gillman thought my agreeing to receive Stutfield advisable.
Mrs. G. did not indeed influence me by any express
wish, but thought that this was the most likely way in which
my work would proceed with regularity and constancy; in
short, it was, or seemed to be, a bird in the hand, that, in
conjunction with other reliable sources, would remove my
anxiety with regard to increasing any positive pressure on
their finances of former years; so that if I could not lessen,
I should prevent the deficit from growing. On all these
grounds I did—I need not say down right—engage myself,
but I certainly permitted Mr. Stutfield to make the trial in
such a form that I scarcely know whether I can, in the
spirit of the expectation I excited, be the first to cry off, he
appearing fully satisfied and in good earnest. Now, supposing
this to be the state of the case, how would my work
fare the better by dictating it to two amanuenses instead of
five or six, if I get so many? For the occasional explanations,
and the necessity of removing difficulties and misapprehensions,
are a real advantage in a work which I am
peculiarly solicitous to have “level with the plainest
capacities.” To be sure, on the other hand, I might go on
three days in the week instead of one, and let the work
outrun the lectures, but just so I might on the plan of an
increased number of auditors; and secondly, so many little
obstacles start up when it is not fore-known that on such a
day I must do so and so. I need not explain myself further.
You can understand the “I would not ask you, but it is
only—” “and but that—” “I pray do not take any time
about it,” etc., etc., added to my startings off.
If I do not see you on Sunday, do not fail to write to me,
for of course I shall take no step till I am quite certain that
your judgment is satisfied one way or other, for I am with
unwrinkled confidence and inmost reclination,
Your affectionate friend,
S. T. Coleridge.
T. Allsop, Esq.
It will be seen from this letter that Coleridge was falling
behind with his Board money due to Gillman: hence his
anxiety to form a philosophical class composed of Mr. Seth
Watson, Mr. Stutfield, and others.
March 4th, 1822.
My dearest Friend,
I have been much more than ordinarily unwell for
more than a week past—my sleeps worse than my vigils,
my nights than my days;
——The night’s dismay
Sadden’d and stunned the intervening day;
but last night I had not only a calmer night, without
roaming in my dreams through any of Swedenborg’s Hells
modéré; but arose this morning lighter and with a sense of
relief.
I scarce know whether the enclosed Detenu[125] is worth
enclosing or reading. I fancy that I send it because I
cannot write at any length that which is even tolerably
adequate to what I wish to say. Mrs. Gillman returned
from town—very much pleased with her reception by Mrs.
Allsop, and with the impression that it would be her
husband’s fault if she did not make him a happy home.
I shall make you smile, as I did dear Mary Lamb, when
I say that you sometimes mistake my position. As individual
to individual, from my childhood, I do not remember feeling
myself either superior or inferior to any human being; except
by an act of my own will in cases of real or imagined moral
or intellectual superiority. In regard to worldly rank, from
eight years old to nineteen, I was habituated, nay, naturalized,
to look up to men circumstanced as you are, as my superiors—a
large number of our governors, and almost all of those
whom we regarded as greater men still, and whom we saw
most of, viz. our committee governors, were such—and as
neither awake nor asleep have I any other feelings than
what I had at Christ’s Hospital, I distinctly remember that
I felt a little flush of pride and consequence—just like what
we used to feel at school when the boys came running to
us—“Coleridge! here’s your friends want you—they are
quite grand,” or “It is quite a lady”—when I first heard
who you were, and laughed at myself for it with that
pleasurable sensation that, spite of my sufferings at that
school, still accompanies any sudden re-awakening of our
school-boy feelings and notions. And oh, from sixteen to
nineteen what hours of Paradise had Allen and I in escorting
the Miss Evanses home on a Saturday, who were then
at a milliner’s whom we used to think, and who I believe
really was, such a nice lady;—and we used to carry thither,
of a summer morning, the pillage of the flower gardens
within six miles of town, with Sonnet or Love Rhyme
wrapped round the nose-gay. To be feminine, kind, and
genteelly (what I should now call neatly) dressed, these
were the only things to which my head, heart, or imagination
had any polarity, and what I was then, I still am.
God bless you and yours,
S. T. Coleridge.
T. Allsop, Esq.
March 22nd, 1822.
My dear Friend,
Mr. Watson is but now returned. I was about to set off to your house and
take turns with Mrs. Allsop in watching you. It is a comfort to hear
from Watson that he thinks you look not only better than when he saw you
before, but more promisingly.
Si tibi deficiant medici, medici tibi fiant
Haec tria: mens hilaris, requies, moderata dieta
is the adage of the old Schola Salernitana, and his belief and judgment.
Would to God that there were any druggist or apothecary within the
king’s dominions where I could procure for you the first ingredient of
the recipe, fresh and genuine. I would soon make up the prescription,
have the credit of curing you, and then make my fortune by advertising
the nostrum under the name of Dr. Samsartorius, Carbonijugius’s Panacea
Salernitana——iensis.
You will have thought, I fear, that I had forgotten my
promise of sending you Charles Lamb’s epistola porcina.
But it was not so. I now enclose it, and when you return
it I will make a copy for you if you wish it, for I think
that writing in your present state will be most injurious to you.
I am interrupted—“a poor lad, very ragged, he says Mr.
Dowling has sent him to you to show you his poetry.”—“Well!
desire him to step up, Maria!”
As soon as Mr. Green left me, Mrs. Gillman delivered
your letter. I am not sorry, therefore, that the Wild Irish
Boy made it too late to finish the above for that day’s post.
His name, poor lad! is Esmond Wilton; his mother, I
guess, was poetical. But I will reserve him for a dish on
our table of chat when we meet.—In reply to your affectionate
letter what can I say, but that from all that you
say, write or do, I receive but two impressions; first a full,
cordial, and unqualified assurance of your love towards me,
a genial unclouded faith in the entireness and steadfastness
of your more than friendship, sustained and renewed by the
consciousness of a responsive attachment in myself, that
blends the affections of parent, brother and friend,—
A love of thee that seems, yet cannot greater be;
and secondly, impressions of grief or joy, according, and in
proportion to, the information I receive, or the inferences
that I draw, respecting your health, ease of heart and mind,
and all the events, incidents, and circumstances, that affect,
or are calculated to affect, both or either. Only this in
addition—whatever else may pass through your mind, never,
from any motive, or with any view, withhold from me your
thoughts, your feelings, and your sorrows. What if they be
momentary, winged thoughts, not native, that blowing
weather has driven out of their course, and to which your
mind has allowed thorough flight, but neither nest, perch,
nor halting room? Send them onward to pass through
mine; and between us both, we shall be better able to give
a good account of them! What if they are the offspring of
low or perturbed spirits—the changelings of ill health or
disquietude? So much the rather communicate them.
When on the white paper, they are already out of us; and
when the letter is gone, they will not stay long behind; the
very anticipation of the answer will have answered them,
and superseded the need, though not the wish, of its arrival.
And shall I not, think you, take them for what they are?
With what comfort, with what security, could I receive or
read your letters, or you mine, if we either of us had reason
to believe, that whatever affliction had befallen, or discomfort
was harassing, or anxiety was weighing on the heart, the
other would say no word of or about it, under the plea of
not transplanting thorns, or whatever other excuse a depressed
fancy might invent, in order to transmute unfriendly
withholding into a self-sacrifice of tenderness. If you had
come to stay with me while I lay on a bed of pain, it would
grieve you indeed, if, from an imagined duty of not grieving
you, I should suppress every expression of suffering, and not
tell you where my pain was, or whether it was greater or less.
Grant that I was rendered anxious or heavy at heart, or
keenly sorrowful, by any tidings you had communicated
respecting yourself! Should it not be so? Ought it not to
be so? Will not the Joy be greater when the Cloud is
passed off—greater in kind, nobler, better—because I should
feel it was my right? And is there not a dignity and a
hidden Healing in the suffering itself—which is soothed in
the wish and tempered in the endeavour of removing, or
lessening, or supporting it, in the Soul of a dear Friend?
However trifling my vexations are, yet if they vex me, and
I am writing to you, to you I will unbosom them, my
dear ... and my serious sorrows and hindrances I will
still less keep back from you. General Truths, Discussions,
Poems, Queries—all these are parts of my nature, often
uppermost; and when they are so, you have them—and I
like well to write to, and to hear from you on them—but
these I might write to the Public: and with all Christian
respect for that gentleman, I love your little finger better
than his whole multitudinous Body.
Give my love to Mrs. Allsop, and tell her I will try to
deserve hers.
Ever and ever God bless you, my dearest friend.
S. T. Coleridge.
T. Allsop, Esq.
“The letter here alluded to,” says Allsop, “is a most
delightful communication from Charles Lamb; which, with
the hints thrown out by Manning, as to the probable origin
of roast meat, were afterwards interwoven into that paper on
Roast Pig, one of the best of Lamb’s productions.”
9 Mch. 1822.
Dear C.,
It gives me great satisfaction to hear that the Pig turned out so
well—they are interesting creatures at a certain age. What a pity
such buds should blow out into the maturity of rank bacon! You had all
some of the crackling—and brain sauce—did you remember to rub it
with butter, and gently dredge it a little, just before the crisis?
Did the eyes come away kindly with no Œdipean avulsion?—was the
crackling the colour of the ripe pomegranate?—had you no damned
complement of boiled neck of mutton before it to blunt the edge of
delicate desire?—did you flesh maiden teeth in it?
Not that I sent the Pig, or can form the remotest guess what part Owen
(our landlord) could play in the business. I never knew him give any
thing away in his life—he would not begin with strangers. I suspect
the Pig after all was meant for me—but at the unlucky juncture of
time being absent, the present, somehow, went round to Highgate.
To confess an honest truth, a Pig is one of those things I could never
think of sending away. Teals, widgeons, snipes, barn-door fowls,
ducks, geese, your tame villatic things—Welsh mutton—collars of
brawn—sturgeon, fresh and pickled—your potted char—Swiss
cheeses—French pies—early grapes—muscadines,—I impart as freely to
my friends as to myself,—they are but self-extended; but pardon me
if I stop somewhere—where the fine feeling of benevolence giveth a
higher smack than the sensual rarity; there my friends (or any good
man) may command me; but pigs are pigs; and I myself am therein
nearest to myself; nay, I should think it an affront, an undervaluing
done to Nature, who bestowed such a boon upon me, if, in a churlish
mood, I parted with the precious gift. One of the bitterest pangs I
ever felt of remorse was when a child—my kind old aunt had strained
her pocket-strings to bestow a sixpenny whole plum-cake upon me. In my
way home through the Borough, I met a venerable old man—not a
mendicant—but thereabouts; a look-beggar—not a verbal
petitionist—and, in the coxcombry of taught charity, I gave away the
cake to him. I walked on a little in all the pride of an evangelical
peacock, when of a sudden my old aunt’s kindness crossed me—the sum
it was to her—the pleasure that she had a right to expect that I,
not the old impostor, should take in eating her cake—the damned
ingratitude by which, under the colour of a Christian virtue, I had
frustrated her cherished purpose. I sobbed, wept, and took it to heart
so grievously, that I think I never suffered the like. And I was
right; it was a piece of unfeeling hypocrisy, and proved a lesson to
me ever after. The cake has long been masticated, consigned to the
dunghill, with the ashes of that unseasonable pauper.
But when Providence, who is better to us all than our aunts, gives me
a Pig, remembering my temptation and my fall, I shall endeavour to act
towards it more in the spirit of the donor’s purpose.
Yours (short of Pig) to command in everything,
C. L.
April 18th, 1822.
My dearest Friend,
There was neither self nor unself in the flash or jet of pleasurable
sensation with which I saw the old
tea-canister top
surmounting my own name, but a mere unreflecting gladness, a sally of
inward welcoming, on finding you near to me again. I am indebted to it,
however, for this, and the dear and affectionate letter that sustained
and substantiated it, like a gleam of sunshine ushering in a genial
south-west, and setting all the birds a singing; while the joy at the
recall of the old, dry, scathy, viceroy of the discouraged spring, the
Tartar laird from the north-east, augments yet loses itself in the
delight at the arrival of the long-wished-for successor to his native
realm, gave a sudden spur and kindly sting to my spirits, the
restorative effects of which I felt on rising this morning, as soon
after, at least, as the pain which always greets me on awaking, and
never fails to be my Valentine for every day in the year, had taken its
leave.
Charles and Mary Lamb are to dine with us on Sunday next, and I hope it
will be both pleasant and possible for you and Mrs. Allsop to complete
the party; and if so, I will take care to be quite free to enjoy your
society from the moment of your arrival, and I hope that Mrs. Allsop
will not be too much tired for me to show her some of our best views and
walks; and perhaps the nightingales may commence their ditties on or by
that day, for I have daily expected them.
Need I say what thoughts rush into my mind when I read
a letter from you, or think of your love towards me.
God bless you, my dear, dear friend,
S. T. Coleridge.
T. Allsop, Esq.]