Dear Cecilia:—
The wind is shrieking
in great gusts, which begin piano,
crescendo to fortissimo, and then die
away in weird, unearthly echoes, while the
rain keeps up a continuous counterpoint to
this minor music in sharp staccato against
the window panes. The mist is so thick
that the obelisk at the end of Max-Joseph-strasse
looks like a mere shadow. It is now
five o'clock and I have "shut up shop," as
it were, to talk with you, for my lesson for
to-morrow, a fugue in C minor, is finished.
It occurred to me, as I was writing it, how
curiously a fugue subject resembles certain
clever and unscrupulous people. Both are
thoroughly adaptable, both are capable of
saying the direct opposite of what they
have previously boldly stated, both are
difficult to deal with and can only be
managed successfully by employing the
greatest finesse.
I was interrupted in my letter of yesterday
by Frau von Waldfel and her niece, who
came to call. Of course that meant a cup of
coffee. When they left I had to hurry down
to the school for a lesson, so writing was out
of the question. By the bye, I am afraid I
may have excited your sympathies unduly in
favor of Fräulein Hartmann, for ever since
that day I wrote you, when I met her crying
in the hall, she has appeared most cheerful.
Yesterday she was in unusual spirits,
although to tell the truth her gayety struck
me as somewhat forced. It was as if she
were endeavoring to overcome the impression
which her tears must have given me.
After my lesson with Thuille yesterday I
stopped in at Miss Pollard's. She is a piano
student with whom I have become acquainted,
and goes by the nickname of
Polly. I found her sitting on a very low
stool before the piano and resting her fingers
on the keys, for all the world like a child too
little to reach up to play.
"What are you doing?" I said.
"I'm practising," she said, with crushing
dignity. Then, throwing me a supercilious
glance, "This is an exercise especially recommended
by Lescheticsky."
"Oh!" said I meekly, inwardly wondering
if there are any more sensitive creatures
on earth than we music students. How enthusiastically
we rave over our "method"!
How more than ready we are to challenge
man, woman, or child who breathes a doubt
of its infallibility! And oh! with what
majestic disdain we utterly ignore the very
existence of any other! Realizing all this,
I judged it wiser to change the subject by
asking quickly,—
"Are the girls coming to-day?"
No sooner had I spoken than in came the
two New York girls of whom I wrote as
calling on me when I first arrived. We have
become firm friends by this time. Over a cup
of tea we four discussed the last Weingartner
concert, and more especially Alexander
Petschnikof. (I can never pronounce his
name without wanting to sneeze.) He
had played the Mozart Concerto and Bach's
Chiaconna most acceptably, to judge from his
reception. Since none of us were violinists
we felt free to discuss his style and phrasing
with all that intolerance which people
are wont to employ when criticising things
of which they themselves are ignorant.
Just as we were putting on our wraps
Polly made a confession.
"Well, girls, I'll have to tell you the
truth," she said. "I've been complained
of to the police."
"Again?" said Louise, in a startled
whisper.
"Again?" Edith and I echoed, aghast.
"And who is it this time?" demanded
Edith. She has a way of recovering and
getting at the root of things before any
one else. She did not ask why. We all
knew that there could be but one reason.
Polly, usually the essence of demureness,
turned and looked at us with hard, angry
eyes.
"It's the Poet downstairs," she explained.
"He says I'm ruining his inspirations by
my barbaric pounding. Fancy that reaching
Lescheticsky's ears! He says I'm 'at
it' all day!"
"Outrageous!" cried Louise.
"Preposterous!" avowed Edith.
They were both following the laws of
Lescheticsky.
"I'm so sorry," said I more mildly, for
somehow I could not help but see a picture
of the distressed poet, pacing the floor, and
beating his brow as he vainly sought for a
brilliant thought, while from above came
the unceasing, monotonous, nerve-destroying
sound of a Czerny exercise repeated
over and over.
"It's not the moving I mind," continued
Polly, "I'm quite an adept at that, having
lived in three pensions since my arrival last
August." Here she smiled bitterly. "But
at one thing I do rebel, and that is at having
to pay thirty marks for a damper for
my piano, which I ordered from Berlin in
the hope of appeasing him when he complained
a week ago!"
It was, indeed, an unhappy situation. We
all knew, too, that those thirty marks meant
a good deal to Polly.
"Perhaps, after all, it will come out all
right," said Louise consolingly.
"I consider it an absolutely absurd proceeding!"
said Edith emphatically, as she
stamped out into the hall.
"You might come down and talk with
the Poet's Wife at our pension," I suggested.
We always said "the Poet's Wife," since
we had long ago given up her five-syllable
name as hopeless. "I'm sure she would be
able to help you."
You see Polly lives alone. We three
discussed the matter as we walked down the
Ludwig-strasse, the girls leaving me at the
Conservatory, where I had a piano lesson at
five.
And now I must stop, for it is time to
dress for the opera. To think of hearing
the "Rheingold" at last!
I have heard the "Rheingold" and "The
Valkyrie," and can hardly wait for "Siegfried"
to-morrow night. Every seat in the
Hof-Theatre was occupied, and an immense
crowd stood downstairs. The price of seats,
increased three marks, seemed to make no
difference in the attendance. Polly and
two of her friends were too late to obtain
any desirable places, so they clubbed together
and engaged a Dienstmann to get their seats
for them. One finds a Dienstmann at every
turning here. They are forlorn, sad-eyed
creatures, in short, frayed jackets and red
caps, who linger on street corners gazing
abstractedly into space with their hands in
their pockets. For a small sum they will
run from one end of Munich to the other,
or, if need be, will stand in line for tickets
from four in the morning on. Polly has a
favorite old Dienstmann called Friedrich.
Accordingly, Friedrich was summoned to
the rescue and stood the entire night with
hundreds of others on the chilly stones of
Max-Joseph-Platz in order to get seats.
There is a rule that not more than three
tickets can be sold to one of these men.
The places in the gallery cost two marks
(fifty cents) and the Dienstmann demands,
for standing all night, generally four marks.
It is divided among the trio, so they get
their places for about eighty cents. This
price is the exception, however; ordinarily
one pays but thirty-five cents for a seat at
this altitude.
When it comes to sitting in the balcony
or orchestra one finds that the fabulous
stories which one hears in America about
the cheapness of opera are grossly exaggerated.
"Why, opera costs nothing over there!"
you hear. "One can go for a song!"
As a matter of fact, the seats in the first
balcony generally cost two dollars, an orchestra
seat a dollar and a half, and very often
these prices are considerably increased.
Is there anything more exquisite than the
first act of the "Rheingold," more bewitching
than those elusive daughters of the
Rhine, more perfect than the enchantment of
those rippling chords? The whole scene is
a flawless poem. When it came to the
second act, however, my indomitable sense
of humor rose to the surface. You have
heard that old adage, haven't you, "Laugh
and the world laughs with you, weep and
you weep alone"? I have proven satisfactorily
that the first part is a fallacy pure and
simple—at least in Germany. Was I at
fault because when I first heard the giant
motif I smiled? Am I to be condemned
because I had to smother a laugh when
Mimi rolled over and over on the stage, and
shrieked forth a ridiculous "Augh!" as in
a fit of indigestion? And the giants were
such wild-looking creatures with grotesque
tufts of hair on the crown of their heads—should
I have taken them more seriously?
Apparently, if I am to judge from the demeanor
of the audience, who never changed
their expression during the entire opera.
And, after all, there are a good many people
at home who think to regard one bar of
Wagner without reverential seriousness is
sacrilege. Yet "to thine own self be true,"
Cecilia, and so I make no defence. What
need when I am writing to one who Understands?
The spring motif of "The Valkyrie" is
the incarnation of tenderness and eternal
freshness, and the climax of the whole opera
seems to me simply colossal. Brünnhilde,
sung by Senger-Bettaque, was convincing
and forceful. Her supposedly fiery steed, a
raw-boned black creature who looked sufficiently
mild for children to drive, was reluctantly
dragged in, licking sugar in a most
obvious fashion from the corners of his
mouth. Even a sturdy and belligerent
Brünnhilde, it seems, must at times yield to
puerile means in order to gain her point.
Later the war-maiden was seen scudding
through the sky on a snow-white charger, so
I judged she must have been fortunate
enough to exchange her apathetic beast
during the course of the opera. Fricka was
sung by Fräulein Fremstad, whose Carmen,
I hear, has made quite a furore. The whole
thing was splendidly given, and in the last act
I gleaned considerable knowledge about the
bass tuba which comes in here so often, just
as in the "Rheingold" I marked the growling
themes for 'cello and double basses.
Well, it's all over, that wonderful Ring!
"Siegfried" came on Thursday, and Knote,
whom I had previously heard as Tristan,
sang the title rôle. At the end of the first
act the audience fairly went wild with enthusiasm.
Oh, that wonderful bit of orchestration
where Mimi speaks of fear! And
that perfect effect of the bird-voice in the
Waldweben, singing in the clarinet above
the strings, while the horn note, pianissimo,
gives that poignant touch of color which
only the brain of a master could conceive.
The dragon, which Herr Martens tells me
is generally a small affair, was horrible and
immense enough for any one. I positively
trembled when he poured forth clouds of
steam from his gaping jaws, and disclosed a
throat of red fire. The bass tuba makes a
grand worm. I never realized what it was
to hear a worm crawl before. But in spite
of the wonders of the work, I wish it were
shorter. My head was frightfully tired endeavoring
to follow the countless interwoven
themes. But then, this is my first
hearing of it all, and perhaps another time
I might change my opinion.
What a stupendous climax Gotterdammerung
is to the whole Ring! The prelude
is perfect, and I can imagine no more
dramatic moment than that when Siegfried
drinks to Brünnhilde in the fatal draught.
Never shall I forget the grandeur of the
music at the breaking of day, before the entrance
of the hero, and the stirring sound
of those eight horns; nor will that last
grand picture of Valhalla fade from my
mind for many moons.
It seemed as though half the American
colony had turned out for the Ring, for we
continually met people we knew at the intermissions.
There is always a pause of
twenty minutes at some time between the
acts. Why, you inquire? My dear Cecilia,
a German would never think of existing
two hours without refreshment, much less
four; consequently there isn't a theatre or
opera house in all Germany which does not
contain a restaurant. To be sure, it is
rather a come-down to discover Professor
B——, whom you saw a moment ago enthralled
by the strains of the Waldweben,
now prosaically munching a ham-sandwich
and drinking beer in a corner of the café, as
though his soul had never been stirred beyond
the excitement of choosing what he
should order for dinner. But that is the
German temperament, and one soon gets
used to it.
There is the "Siegfried" bird-call running
through my head again! Is it that which
the fountain—my fountain, as I claim it
now—sang to me as I passed to-day? Or
did I myself unconsciously hum the melody
and hear in the ripple of the falling water
the soft rhythm of accompanying 'cellos and
violins?
Christmas is in the air, and every street-corner
has bloomed into a miniature forest
of trees. These are fastened in squares of
wood, and stand up straight and proud. As
a rule some strange, bent old woman presides
over them, and out of curiosity to-day
I stopped in Odeons-Platz and inquired the
price of a particularly plump little tree.
"One mark fifty" (thirty-seven and a half
cents), quavered the dame, "but they run up
as high as fifteen marks."
The poor soul looked so disappointed as
I, after thanking her, turned away, that I
simply could not resist going back—least of
all at Christmas time. There was nothing
to buy but trees, so I picked out the plump
little one which had first attracted my attention.
She was delighted and beamed at me
as I started off with it dragging behind me
from under my arm, for my hands were full
of music books. I had not the slightest idea
what to do with my new possession. I had
just made up my mind to leave it at some
one's door, when who should come trudging
along through the snow but the Hausmeister's little boy.
He was on his way home
from school, with his books strapped to his
back in one of these curious black knapsacks
which all the school children carry. I thrust
the tree into his arms, with the assurance
that it was for him, and left him, wholly bewildered,
hugging it tightly to his breast.
When I reached the corner I turned to
see him still standing there and gazing after
me from between the branches with an expression
of astonishment and delight. I
waved my hand, and at last he moved and
gave a sign with his red mitten. Then he
turned and ran towards home as fast as his
fat legs could carry him.
The shops, with one exception, are not
nearly as finely decorated as ours at home.
This exception is the sausage-store, which is
a thing of beauty and a joy forever. To be
frank, a sausage had never impressed me as
a particularly artistic creation, nor had I
been wont to regard it as a species of decoration
until Germany unfolded to me its
many possibilities. Could you but see one
of these windows, hung with long ropes, the
links of which are large Frankfurters joined
together by a band of green, you would
not fail, I am sure, to admire the intricacy
of the designs and the striking originality
with which the small sausages are interspersed
with the larger ones so as to produce
the most surprising effects! Who ever associated
sausages with anything so idyllic as
a waterfall? Yet here you have a wooden
mill, high up on an improvised hill, and over
the wheel flow down streamers of sausages
to mass in a lake below. Who ever thought
of connecting them with the legends of the
Middle Ages? Yet Herr Schmidt, at the
corner, has constructed the most marvellous
tower out of sausages laid crisscross,
with openings for little windows, with a
turret on the very top, with a flag waving
proudly on the highest peak, and most
wonderful of all, with a drawbridge securely
fastened over a moat of parsley.
Everybody gives every one else some little
remembrance for Christmas, and we are racking
our brains to think of things appropriate
for those at the pension. The clerks in the
shops help one out all they can. You have
no idea how courteous they are. Always
on entering they say "Good day" and the
proprietor comes up with "How can I serve
you, gnädiges Fräulein?" Then they will
pull down all the goods in the store, bring
out hidden boxes from under the counters,
and even send outside for something they
have not got, remaining perfectly satisfied
if you only purchase something. If you buy
nothing, however politely you may regret
that the silk does not match, or the lace
bear the required pattern, they plainly show
their displeasure in their faces.
We are always politely escorted to the
door by a clerk, who bids us good by.
Often in the smaller stores it is amusing
to hear the chorus of farewells which follow
us. Last week Polly and I had coffee
at one of these fascinating Conditorei, or
little bake-shops which one finds here everywhere.
For an absurdly small sum we had
a table to ourselves, coffee enough for a
dozen, and the most delicious cakes you
ever ate! When we had finished, I started
to leave some Trinkgeld for the waitress,
who had served everything in the daintiest
fashion.
"Fifty pfennigs!" said Polly, looking at
the coin that I had laid on the table.
"I felt I ought to give more, but they
told me——" I began.
"More!" exclaimed Polly. "I never
heard of such a thing! Don't you know
that ten pfennigs (two cents and a half) for
each person is considered quite sufficient?"
Polly has lived here longer than I, and
has absorbed the idea that a pfennig—a
fifth of a cent—is a pfennig, and not to be
lightly treated. Accordingly I laid the
sum on the table. The waitress swept the
money into the black leather bag which she
wore about her waist just as Kathie does in
Alt-Heidelberg, and expressed her thanks
repeatedly as she opened the door for us
to pass out.
"Bitte, verehren uns wieder!" (Please
honor us again) said the proprietor from her
desk.
"Adieu, meine Damen," cried the waitress
at the table in the corner, while our little
maid poured forth a continual sing song of
"Danke sehr, meine Damen. Besten Dank!
Habe die Ehre!" (I have the honor) until
we were out on the street.
Polly and I looked at each other and
laughed.
"Don't fancy it was the effect of the tip,"
said she. "They go through the same program
for half the money. I always give ten
pfennigs and have never missed a word."
She laughed again gaily, for she is once
more quite happy inasmuch as the "poet
on the floor below" has been suddenly
called to Stuttgart. A drama of his has
been accepted there, and he was so overcome
with joy that he withdrew his complaint
and told Polly she might "bang
away" till he returned.
"And now come down to the Schlüssel
Bazar with me," she said, tucking my hand
coaxingly under her arm. "I want you to
help me select a gift."
There is no more fascinating place for a
Christmas shopper than the Bazar, but I
glanced at the clock on the Theatiner church.
"I really can't, Polly," I said; "there is
a chorus rehearsal at five, the last before the
concert, and I must hurry along this minute
or I shall be late."
So we parted, and I wended my way
quickly through the fast-gathering dusk,
past the Feldernhalle, which never looks
more imposing than when half concealed
in the mystery of shadows, across the busy
Platz, now twinkling with countless lights,
by the statue of Lewis the First, and in at
the door of the old Conservatory itself.
To-day came the Probe in the big hall for
the concert next week. The regular Conservatory
chorus has been enlarged by a
number of new voices, some of which are
shrill enough to pierce through the dome
itself. I came home utterly exhausted, for
we were kept singing and standing three
hours, and never in the annals of conducting
was there a more wretched rehearsal. For
the first time I saw a new side of Stavenhagen;
he literally raged, but instead of making
himself ridiculous he was positively majestic.
To be sure, he got very red in the face, and
his blond, curly hair, through which he
despairingly thrust his hands, was much
awry, but he stamped about on his bit of
platform so ferociously, shook his baton so
threateningly, and shouted his commands in
such sonorous German that I trembled in
my American shoes.
We sang first Liszt's "Excelsior." Why
is it that the most shrinking, retiring, and
timid-appearing member of an orchestra is
always the one to play the instruments of
percussion? One can easily imagine a stout,
muscular creature presiding at the kettledrums,
but when we come to look for him
we discover him at the end of the line of
flutists, playing the piccolo. The eternal law
of opposites is, I suppose, as applicable here
as elsewhere. An unusually meek man was
to manage the bells which play such an important
part in this work, and he continually
came in half a beat late. Stavenhagen
glared at him darkly, tried him several times,
and then gave it up as hopeless. The chorus
attacks were frightful, and each part sang at
its own sweet will.
The Brahms Requiem began more auspiciously,
and as the beautiful first movement,
which we really sang well, went on, the
director's tense expression softened, and he
relaxed into his usual easy beat, hand on hip.
At the close, where the sopranos end with
the pianissimo phrase, "selig sind" (blessed),
and the tenors come in yet fainter after
them, and the whole thing dies away as
might the distant notes of a celestial choir,
we were gratified to hear him murmur "Sehr
schön!" He praised us, too, for the second
movement. Isn't it magnificent when the
whole chorus sing in unison that grand, broad
theme, "Denn alles Fleisch ist wie Gras"
(Behold all flesh is as grass)? And then
the tender melody, "So seid nur geduldig"
(Therefore be patient), which follows! It
nearly swept me off my feet. Let critics
say what they will, I love the work, and
think perhaps, after all, Mr. Huneker is
right in saying that Brahms is the first
composer since Beethoven to sound the
note of the sublime.
We were just congratulating ourselves
on getting through very creditably, when
alas! we stumbled upon the pitfalls and
snares of that most difficult of fugues, "Der
Gerechten Seelen" (The righteous souls).
There is a bit of it where the tempo is amazingly
tricky, and I remember no place, even
in Bach's B minor Mass, so difficult to sing
well. The girl beside me, who had a high,
shrill voice, insisted on coming in a measure
too soon, and this repeated mistake set our
director's nerves on edge.
"Die Erste Sopran! Die Erste Sopran!"
(The first soprano!) he cried, shaking his
baton at our corner. Over and over we
sang the same bars, but never once perfectly.
Finally he threw down his stick, and with a
desperate "Ach, Gott!" put his hands over
his ears.
The chord broke off abruptly. The
orchestra, plainly very bored, carelessly
examined their instruments. The other
members of the chorus looked at us reproachfully.
We looked anywhere we
dared. The first sopranos were in disgrace.
After what seemed an interminable silence,
in reality about half a minute, Stavenhagen
picked up his baton and said calmly, sternly,
his voice cutting the stillness, "We will
go on."
Well, we got through somehow, but it
was after eight o'clock when I ran down
the snowy street back to the pension. The
family were at supper and the anxious face
of Mütterchen looked relieved as I opened
the door.
"We thought you were lost, isn't it?"
said the Herr Doktor, in what he considered
unimpeachable English.
Fräulein Hartmann, looking charming in
a light-blue gown which she had donned in
honor of Lieutenant Blum, her aunt's guest
that evening, jumped up and ran to meet
me.
"I'm so glad you are here safe," said she.
To her the idea of a girl being out alone
after six o'clock was almost inconceivable.
"I myself was on the point of going in
search of gnädiges Fräulein," said Lieutenant
Blum, with a low bow, much rattling
of sword, and that sneering smile which even
his great black mustache fails to conceal.
"That was indeed kind of you, Herr
Leutnant," I replied as sweetly as possible.
"You really didn't think me lost, or kidnapped,
or perchance murdered in cold blood,
did you?" I added to Mütterchen, as I took
my seat.
"I might have thought even such frightful
things as those, had not our friend opposite
insisted that you had been detained and that
there was no need of 'putting up my umbrella
till it rained,'" she answered.
I looked gratefully across the table at the
Poet's Wife, who smiled understandingly
back. Hers is one of those sunny, unselfish
natures which, "when they have passed the
door of Darkness through," leave the world
a better place than they found it.
The serenity of perfect poise is such an
enviable thing to possess! Alas, that it is
so seldom found in people of a musical temperament!
I can hardly imagine a placid
Tschaikowsky or an unruffled Dvorák, can
you?
Stille Nacht, heilige Nacht!
Alles schläft, einsamwacht,
Nur das traute hochheilige Paar,
Holder Knabe im lockigen Haar
Schlafe in himmlischer Ruh'.
Can you see us as we stood on Christmas
Eve in the quaint dining-room singing together
the old carol which has rung
throughout Germany on this night for centuries
gone by? We formed a strange congregation—all
wanderers from different
parts of the globe, for once united by the
Christmas spirit. There were eleven of us
in all,—the Baron and Baroness with Karl
between them, their rosy, good-natured
faces sober and reverential; Herr Doktor,
standing near, his critical expression softened
as, under the spell of the song, his
thoughts turn to his Paris hearthstone;
Frau von Waldfel, forgetting, in the meaning
of the hour, to wonder what sort of
goodies we were to have for dinner; Fräulein
Hartmann, lost in a dream, at her side;
the Poet and his sweet-faced wife, holding
each other by the hand as they joined
firmly in the refrain; Herr Martens, abandoning
his student airs to add a tenor, and
last—but best of all—Mütterchen. I sat
at the piano to play the accompaniments,
where I could see not only them, but catch
a glimpse of the servants who stood together
outside in the hall. They were all
arrayed in their best. Georg, especially
gorgeous in the splendor of a new livery
with fully six dozen brass buttons, stood in
the front row. Next him was the cook,
resting her hand on the head of her little
girl, who had been granted leave from the
convent to attend this gala occasion. The
other servants crowded together behind
them. For this one evening in the year
caste was forgotten, and the Baroness's
strong soprano joined with the alto of her
maid as they led the rest in the hymn each
had sung from childhood.
All went well till we reached the second
verse. Then I heard Herr Martens' voice
tremble, then break, then cease altogether.
Poor fellow! his family is scattered over
two continents, and for him the word
Home is associated only with a sense of
forlornness and loss. Gretchen, our own
little maid, but a year away from the Bavarian
Highlands, hid her face on Therese's
shoulder. I looked at Mütterchen bravely
singing, but I knew in my heart that she
was thinking of Home. The picture of
those around the table across the sea flashed
across me and I felt an odd tightening at
my throat.
It was only for a moment—this shadow
of sadness on us all. Then it suddenly vanished,
for at the last note the Baron flung
open the double doors of the salon and ah!
what a bewildering, fascinating, wonderful
tree was revealed! Karl and I exchanged
glances with satisfied smiles. We were
proud of our work. The hours of labor in
the morning spent in tying on the varicolored
balls, in hanging the tinsel favors, in
arranging the silver shower had not been in
vain. It was indeed a marvellous shower,
delicate, fairy-like, falling from the very topmost
bough, where stood the figure of the
Christ-child with outstretched hands as if to
bless those below.
For a moment we were breathless with
admiration. Then "All for the presents
together," shrieked Karl in glee, "Eins, zwei,
drei!" and in we went.
Along the sides of the room ran tables
covered with a white cloth and trimmed
with evergreen. On these the gifts were
laid, not done into parcels, but tastefully
arranged. Each person had his own particular
group, and over it hung a bough of
green and a basket of cakes and candy. In
one corner was a large table for the servants.
Mütterchen and I could not help smiling to
hear the flood of joyous exclamations on
every side as we examined our presents.
The German language seems to have an
endless supply of adjectives expressive of delight.
There are thousands of them, ranging
from the sonorous grossartig, with the prolonged
rolling of the rs, to that overwhelming
one which has such a wealth of emphasis
on the last syllable, kol-os-sál! When they
are all, as it were, turned on together, the
effect is torrential!
After we had looked at our gifts and admired
those of every one else, and the servants,
beaming with happiness, had shaken
hands and expressed their thanks, we went
into the dining-room. Of course there was
a Bowle and we drank, standing, a toast to
"Merry Christmas." Then we played a lot
of games, which although childish afforded
us much amusement. Lieutenant Blum,
with mustache more marvellously twisted
than ever, came in and joined us, and later
Edith and Louise with a lieutenant of the
Second Regiment appeared. Just before
twelve we all set off for St. Michael's to
attend the midnight mass.
The great cathedral was crowded when
we entered, and we could only find places in
the chancel on the left of the altar. Thus
we had a good view down into the church
itself, and by the flickering light on the pillars
dimly discerned the vast crowd kneeling
in the pews, blocking the aisles, and occupying
every portion of available space. Beyond
them and above hovered mysterious
shadows. It was almost oppressively silent.
Only the footsteps of those entering broke
the intense stillness. The sound, dying
away in weird echoes high up beneath the
vaulted roof, made the silence which followed
more absolute.
Suddenly the big bell on the Frauenkirche
began to toll in wonderful, mighty throbs.
At the same moment, from above among
the shadows, floated down the sound of
music—exquisite strains of Palestrina.
The door on our left opened and a long line
of priests entered, clad in magnificent robes
of white and gold. We all fell on our
knees in the semi-darkness, our eyes turned
towards the high altar, which alone gleamed
like a gorgeous jewel beneath the rays of
a hundred tapers. The impressive service
began.
Through hazy clouds of incense I gazed
down on the kneeling, worshipping crowd,
kneeling and worshipping just as thousands
of other throngs were doing at that very
hour, here in far-off Germany, in France, in
Italy, and across the sea. The marvellous,
beautiful meaning of it all stirred me. My
mind turned back through the ages to that
night in the dusky stable of Bethlehem.
Surely it is the wonder of all wonders that
one Life—one brief, mortal Life, lived
among millions of other lives—now after
the passing of centuries stands out as the
sole link uniting all Christendom.
Lost in the beauty of the service with its
lights and incense and music and gold-decked
priests, it was with a start that I awakened
as it were from a spell when the music
ceased, and the priests had filed out through
the arched door. The cathedral felt suddenly
damp and chill, and shivering, I pulled
my cloak around me.
"I didn't care for the organist's selection at
all," said Polly critically, as we turned to go.
"We must walk as quickly as possible or
we shall all be ill for a week with colds from
sitting so long in this damp church," added
Edith in her emphatic way.
But the Poet's Wife said nothing. She
only looked at me with her deep, unfathomable
eyes, and pressed my hand gently.
Sometimes she reminds me of you, Cecilia.
She is one of the few in the great world
who Understand.