Up in the loft of St Blank’s
Church the young organist had been practising the whole
morning. People paused on the street to listen to the
glorious sounds, and were thrilled by them, as one is only
thrilled when the strong personality of the player enters into
the execution.
Down into the committee-room, where several deacons and the
young rector were seated discussing some question pertaining to
the well-being of the church, the music penetrated too, causing
the business which had brought them together, to be suspended
temporarily.
“It is a sin to talk while music like that can be
heard,” remarked one man. “You have found a
genius in this new organist, Rector.”
The young man nodded silently, his eyes half closed with an
expression of somewhat sensuous enjoyment of the throbbing chords
which vibrated in perfect unison with the beating of his strong
pulses.
“Where does she come from?” asked the deacon, as a
pause in the music occurred.
“Her father was an earnest and prominent member of the
little church down-town of which I had charge during several
years,” replied the young man. “Miss Irving was
scarcely more than a child when she volunteered her services as
organist. The position brought her no remuneration, and at
that time she did not need it. Young as she was, the girl
was one of the most active workers among the poor, and I often
met her in my visits to the sick and unfortunate. She had
been a musical prodigy from the cradle, and Mr Irving had given
her every advantage to study and perfect her art.
“I was naturally much interested in her. Mr
Irving’s long illness left his wife and daughter without
means of support, at his death, and when I was called to take
charge of St Blank’s, I at once realised the benefit to the
family as well as to my church could I secure the young lady the
position here as organist. I am glad that my congregation
seem so well satisfied with my choice.”
Again the organ pealed forth, this time in that passionate
music originally written for the Garden Scene in Faust,
and which the church has boldly taken and arranged as a quartette
to the words, “Come unto me.”
It may be that to some who listen, it is the divine spirit
which makes its appeal through those stirring strains; but to the
rector of St Blank’s, at least on that morning, it was
human heart, calling unto human heart. Mr Stuart and the
deacons sat silently drinking in the music. At length the
rector rose. “I think perhaps we had better drop the
matter under discussion for to-day,” he said.
“We can meet here Monday evening at five o’clock if
agreeable to you all, and finish the details. There are
other and more important affairs waiting for me now.”
The deacons departed, and the young rector sank back in his
chair, and gave himself up to the enjoyment of the sounds which
flooded not only the room, but his brain, heart and soul.
“Queer,” he said to himself as the door closed
behind the human pillars of his church. “Queer, but I
felt as if the presence of those men was an intrusion upon
something belonging personally to me. I wonder why I am so
peculiarly affected by this girl’s music? It arouses
my brain to action, it awakens ambition and gives me courage and
hope, and yet—” He paused before allowing his
feeling to shape itself into thoughts. Then closing his
eyes and clasping his hands behind his head while the music
surged about him, he lay back in his easy-chair as a bather might
lie back and float upon the water, and his unfinished sentence
took shape thus: “And yet stronger than all other feelings
which her music arouses in me, is the desire to possess the
musician for my very own for ever; ah, well! the Roman Catholics
are wise in not allowing their priests and their nuns to listen
to all even so-called sacred music.”
It was perhaps ten minutes later that Joy Irving became
conscious that she was not alone in the organ loft. She had
neither heard nor seen his entrance, but she felt the presence of
her rector, and turned to find him silently watching her.
She played her phrase to the end, before she greeted him with
other than a smile. Then she apologised, saying:
“Even one’s rector must wait for a musical phrase to
reach its period. Angels may interrupt the rendition of a
great work, but not man. That were sacrilege. You
see, I was really praying, when you entered, though my heart
spoke through my fingers instead of my lips.”
“You need not apologise,” the young man
answered. “One who receives your smile would be
ungrateful indeed if he asked for more. That alone would
render the darkest spot radiant with light and welcome to
me.”
The girl’s pink cheek flushed crimson, like a rose
bathed in the sunset colours of the sky.
“I did not think you were a man to coin pretty
speeches,” she said.
“Your estimate of me was a wise one. You read
human nature correctly. But come and walk in the park with
me. You will overtax yourself if you practise any
longer. The sunlight and the air are vying with each other
to-day to see which can be the most intoxicating. Come and
enjoy their sparring match with me; I want to talk to you about
one of my unfortunate parishioners. It is a peculiarly
pathetic case. I think you can help and advise me in the
matter.”
It was a superb morning in early October. New York was
like a beautiful woman arrayed in her fresh autumn costume,
disporting herself before admiring eyes.
Absorbed in each other’s society, their pulses beating
high with youth, love and health; the young couple walked through
the crowded avenues of the great city, as happily and as
naturally as Adam and Eve might have walked in the Garden of Eden
the morning after Creation.
Both were city born and city bred, yet both were as
unfashionable and untrammelled by custom as two children of the
plains.
In the very heart of the greatest metropolis in America, there
are people who live and retain all the primitive simplicity of
village life and thought. Mr Irving had been one of
these. Coming to New York from an interior village when a
young man, he had, through simple and quiet tastes and religious
convictions, kept himself wholly free from the social life of the
city in which he lived. After his marriage his entire
happiness lay in his home, and Joy was reared by parents who made
her world. Mrs Irving sympathised fully with her husband in
his distaste for society, and her delicate health rendered her
almost a recluse from the world.
A few pleasant acquaintances, no intimates, music, books, and
a large share of her time given to charitable work, composed the
life of Joy Irving.
She had never been in a fashionable assemblage; she had never
attended a theatre, as Mr Irving did not approve of them.
Extremely fond of outdoor life, she walked, unattended,
wherever her mood led her. As she had no acquaintances
among society people, she knew nothing and cared less for the
rules which govern the promenading habits of young women in New
York. Her sweet face and graceful figure were well known
among the poorer quarters of the city, and it was through her
work in such places that Arthur Stuart’s attention had
first been called to her.
As for him, he was filled with that high, but not always wise,
disdain for society and its customs, which we so often find in
town-bred young men of intellectual pursuits. He was
clean-minded, independent, sure of his own purposes, and wholly
indifferent to the opinions of inferiors regarding his
habits.
He loved the park, and he asked Joy to walk with him there, as
freely as he would have asked her to sit with him in a
conservatory. It was a great delight to the young girl to
go.
“It seems such a pity that the women of New York get so
little benefit from this beautiful park,” she said as they
strolled along through the winding paths together.
“The wealthy people enjoy it in a way from their carriages,
and the poor people no doubt derive new life from their Sunday
promenades here. But there are thousands like myself who
are almost wholly debarred from its pleasures. I have
always wanted to walk here, but once I came and a rude man in a
carriage spoke to me. Mother told me never to come alone
again. It seems strange to me that men who are so proud of
their strength, and who should be the natural protectors of
woman, can belittle themselves by annoying or frightening her
when alone. I am sure that same man would never think of
speaking to me now that I am with you. How cowardly he
seems when you think of it! Yet I am told there are many
like him, though that was my only experience of the
kind.”
“Yes, there are many like him,” the rector
answered. “But you must remember how short a time man
has been evolving from a lower animal condition to his present
state, and how much higher he is to-day than he was a hundred
years ago even, when occasional drunkenness was considered an
attribute of a gentleman. Now it is a vice of which he is
ashamed.”
“Then you believe in evolution?” Joy asked with a
note of surprise in her voice.
“Yes, I surely do; nor does the belief conflict with my
religious faith. I believe in many things I could not
preach from my pulpit. My congregation is not ready for
broad truths. I am like an eclectic physician—I suit
my treatment to my patient—I administer the old school or
the new school medicaments as the case demands.”
“It seems to me there can be but one school in spiritual
matters,” Joy said gravely—“the right
one. And I think one should preach and teach what he
believes to be true and right, no matter what his congregation
demands. Oh, forgive me. I am very rude to speak like
that to you!” And she blushed and paled with fright
at her boldness.
They were seated on a rustic bench now, under the shadow of a
great tree.
The rector smiled, his eyes fixed with pleased satisfaction on
the girl’s beautiful face, with its changing colour and
expression. He felt he could well afford to be criticised
or rebuked by her, if the result was so gratifying to his
sight. The young rector of St Blank’s lived very much
more in his senses than in his ideals.
“Perhaps you are right,” he said. “I
sometimes wish I had greater courage of my convictions. I
think I could have, were you to stimulate me with such words
often. But my mother is so afraid that I will wander from
the old dogmas, that I am constantly checking myself.
However, in regard to the case I mentioned to you—it is a
delicate subject, but you are not like ordinary young women, and
you and I have stood beside so many sick-beds and death-beds
together that we can speak as man to man, or woman to woman, with
no false modesty to bar our speech.
“A very sad case has come to my knowledge of late.
Miss Adams, a woman who for some years has been a devout member
of St Blank’s Church, has several times mentioned her niece
to me, a young girl who was away at boarding school. A few
months ago the young girl graduated and came to live with this
aunt. I remember her as a bright, buoyant and very
intelligent girl. I have not seen her now during two
months; and last week I asked Miss Adams what had become of her
niece. Then the poor woman broke into sobs and told me the
sad state of affairs. It seems that the girl Marah is her
daughter. The poor mother had believed she could guard the
truth from her child, and had educated her as her niece, and was
now prepared to enjoy her companionship, when some
mischief-making gossip dug up the old scandal and imparted the
facts to Marah.
“The girl came to Miss Adams and demanded the truth, and
the mother confessed. Then the daughter settled into a
profound melancholy, from which nothing seemed to rouse
her. She will not go out, remains in the house, and broods
constantly over her disgrace.
“It occurred to me that if Marah Adams could be brought
out of herself and interested in some work, or study, it would be
the salvation of her reason. Her mother told me she is an
accomplished musician, but that she refuses to touch her piano
now. I thought you might take her as an understudy on the
organ, and by your influence and association lead her out of
herself. You could make her acquaintance through
approaching the mother who is a milliner, on business, and your
tact would do the rest. In all my large and wealthy
congregation I know of no other woman to whom I could appeal for
aid in this delicate matter, so I am sure you will pardon
me. In fact, I fear were the matter to be known in the
congregation at all, it would lead to renewed pain and added
hurts for both Miss Adams and her daughter. You know women
can be so cruel to each other in subtle ways, and I have seen
almost death-blows dealt in church aisles by one church member to
another.”
“Oh, that is a terrible reflection on Christians,”
cried Joy, who, a born Christ-woman, believed that all professed
church members must feel the same divine spirit of sympathy and
charity which burned in her own sweet soul.
“No, it is a simple truth—an unfortunate
fact,” the young man replied. “I preach sermons
at such members of my church, but they seldom take them
home. They think I mean somebody else. These are the
people who follow the letter and not the spirit of the
church. But one such member as you, recompenses me for a
score of the others. I felt I must come to you with the
Marah Adams affair.”
Joy was still thinking of the reflection the rector had cast
upon his congregation. It hurt her, and she protested.
“Oh, surely,” she said, “you cannot mean
that I am the only one of the professed Christians in your church
who would show mercy and sympathy to poor Miss Adams.
Surely few, very few, would forget Christ’s words to Mary
Magdalene, ‘Go and sin no more,’ or fail to forgive
as He forgave. She has led such a good life all these
years.”
The rector smiled sadly.
“You judge others by your own true heart,” he
said. “But I know the world as it is. Yes, the
members of my church would forgive Miss Adams for her
sin—and cut her dead. They would daily crucify her
and her innocent child by their cold scorn or utter ignoring of
them. They would not allow their daughters to associate
with this blameless girl, because of her mother’s
misstep.
“It is the same in and out of the churches. Twenty
people will repeat Christ’s words to a repentant sinner,
but nineteen of that twenty interpolate a few words of their own,
through tone, gesture or manner, until ‘Go and sin no
more’ sounds to the poor unfortunate more like ‘Go
just as far away from me and mine as you can get—and sin no
more!’ Only one in that score puts Christ’s
merciful and tender meaning into the phrase and tries by
sympathetic association to make it possible for the sinner to sin
no more. I felt you were that one, and so I appealed to you
in this matter about Marah Adams.”
Joy’s eyes were full of tears. “You must
know more of human nature than I do,” she said, “but
I hate terribly to think you are right in this estimate of the
people of your congregation. I will go and see what I can
do for this girl to-morrow. Poor child, poor mother, to
pass through a second Gethsemane for her sin. I think any
girl or boy whose home life is shadowed, is to be pitied. I
have always had such a happy home, and such dear parents, the
world would seem insupportable, I am sure, were I to face it
without that background. Dear papa’s death was a
great blow, and mother’s ill health has been a sorrow, but
we have always been so happy and harmonious, and that, I think,
is worth more than a fortune to a child. Poor, poor
Marah—unable to respect her mother, what a terrible thing
it all is!”
“Yes, it is a sad affair. I cannot help thinking
it would have been a pardonable lie if Miss Adams had denied the
truth when the girl confronted her with the story. It is
the one situation in life where a lie is excusable, I
think. It would have saved this poor girl no end of sorrow,
and it could not have added much to the mother’s
burden. I think lying must have originated with an erring
woman.”
Joy looked at her rector with startled eyes. “A
lie is never excusable,” she said, “and I do not
believe it ever saves sorrow. But I see you do not mean
what you say, you only feel very sorry for the girl; and you
surely do not forget that the lie originated with Satan, who told
a falsehood to Eve.”