A Spray of Lilac
A Spray of Lilac
Printed by Ballantyne, Hanson and Co.
London and Edinburgh
And Other Poems and Songs
BY
MARIE HEDDERWICK BROWNE
LONDON
ISBISTER AND COMPANY Limited
15 & 16 TAVISTOCK STREET COVENT GARDEN
1892
As thou is strong to roll away the stone
From memory’s grave, and set the dead past free
To claim again brief kinship with its own.
PREFATORY NOTE
Most of the Poems contained in this volume have appeared during the past ten years, in “Atalanta,” “Chambers’s Journal,” “London Society,” “Little Folks,” “The Girl’s Own Paper,” and other serials.
If an apology for venturing to offer them to the public in collected form be deemed necessary, I can only urge the plea of the poor but hospitable Dervish, “He is a generous host who freely giveth his best, be his best but clear water and a crust.”
M. H. B.
London, December 1892
CONTENTS
A SPRAY OF LILAC
Laden with memories of long ago,
And all the present dims as o’er my soul
The waves of tender recollection flow.
My hands are stretched to meet the coming years,
The world holds all the glory that it held
Ere yet mine eyes had looked on it thro’ tears.
Her fairy fabrics; vast horizons glow
With fires of promise, for behind their veils
They hid rich treasures in that long-ago.
The rapture of the old ecstatic bliss,
All, all are mine, as once again I cling
To ripe warm lips in love’s first passion-kiss.
For Autumn’s brows a crown of living gold;
Sad Winter follows with his winding-sheet,
For all the glory has grown grey and old.
As thou, is strong to roll away the stone
From memory’s grave, and set the dead past free
To claim yet once brief kinship with its own.
IN AN OLD GARDEN
Tufts of heavy-headed stocks;
Either side the quaint old gateway
Blazing, torch-like hollyhocks.
Saintly lilies bending low,
Daisies, powdering all the green sward
With a shower of summer snow.
Wallflowers that with every sigh
Spill such scent that e’en the brown bees,
Reel with rapture wandering by.
O’er the sunny gable wall,
Scarce can hold their ruddy nurslings
Ripening where the warm beams fall.
How it thrills my life to-day!
I can almost hear the flower-bells
Tinkle where my footsteps stray!
There first woke Love’s magic thrill;
And methinks a breath of Eden
Clings to earth’s old gardens still.
A MOTHER’S GRIEF
Long, long ago went our baby queen—
No name but hers on the white headstone,
That gleams to the moon from its mound of green!
None of her own did welcome her there—
Not a grain of kindred dust doth wave
In the flowers that out of the tears of despair
Have arched a rainbow over her grave.
Out from the warmth of a mother’s breast,
Heedless of darkness and night’s alarms,
On to the silent city she pressed
To take her place ’mong the mighty throng
That people its myriad streets. Ah, me!
I felt my God had done me a wrong,
When He loosened love’s cords and set her free!
Like a burdened wave on a desert shore,
Seemed all too feeble to reach His ears
And the pain grew old that my bosom bore;
But the faith that I once had thought mine own
Rose up to mock where it could not save,
And my heart grew hard as the carven stone
That was crushing my darling in her grave.
Met mine, a sickness would o’er me creep,
And I’d turn wild eyes to the lonely place
Where she was lying alone—asleep.
At strife was I with the world, and God
Had drawn around Him an angry cloud;
Earth held no green but the churchyard sod,
And the daisies wore the gleam of a shroud.
With a wand’ring touch small fingers stole,
And feeble lips to its fountains pressed,
And stirred with a vague sweet joy my soul;
And the floodgates opened, and blessèd tears
Of repentance fell from my eyes like rain,
And after the barren and prayerless years
I knelt to the Giver of All again!
A SUMMER MEMORY
An evening in one far June,
The sun seemed loth to leave the sky
To a young impatient moon.
For the sea’s long cool embrace;
We watched the ripples breaking,
Like smiles upon its face.
To the broad breast of the hill;
The twilight’s glamour gathered,
And the day was with us still.
And a joy to pain akin,
Touched all that lay without us,
And hushed my soul within.
We seemed to stand apart;
Yet I thought your eyes grew tender,
And I know what filled my heart.
And the distance wider grew,
Till the world of waves was lying
Between me, love, and you,
I watched you turn away,
And I went back to duty—
’Tis all a woman may.
The thrilling heights of bliss—
Unless the next world gives us
The love we lose in this—
We seemed to stand apart,
And I thought your eyes grew tender,
And I knew what filled my heart.
UNSATISFIED
I look behind, and thro’ my tears,
Across a wide, wide gulf of years,
I see you now and now I know.
I did not know your real worth,
And, longing for the future’s birth,
Found time so slow, so slow to pass.
While those I held slipped from my clasp,
As I stretched yearning hands to grasp
Shadows—’tis evermore the same!
Nor heed the blossoms at our feet;
Like puny birds we beat and beat
Our lives out ’gainst Fate’s prison bars.
MY SONG
In praise of love that maketh life so sweet;
One worthy such a grand and noble theme—
Worthy to lay at my belovèd’s feet.
On Music’s silken thread, so rhythmic-sweet
That those who hear shall feel as though each word
Were but an echo of my heart’s warm beat.”
My heart is full—too full, ah me! for words;
And yet methinks my new-found joy has lent
Fresh rapture to the voices of the birds.
The music filling all this life of mine.
Oh! love is too sublime a theme for me;
I can but kneel in silence at love’s shrine.
IN AN OLD CHURCHYARD
A little old grey church I found;
Around it lies—dear restful ground!
God’s garden with its sacred plots.
Its time-worn walls in close embrace:
So Memory sometimes keeps a face
Half-veiled in tender misty folds.
The tower, bird-haunted, is alive;
In leafy seas they dip and dive,
Those tiny warblers all day long.
The crumbling headstones guard the graves
Which softly swell—green voiceless waves
That will not break though tempests rage.
In this sweet hamlet of the dead,
In broken sentences I read
The record those old tablets keep;
A voice whose echoes never die?
Adown the ages, Rachel’s cry
Still rings o’er some God-garnered sheaf.
Did fill with such as seemed to rise
And drown the glory of the skies,
O’er those who’d slept the sleep of years.
SECRETS
Tap against the window-pane;
There is something they would seek,
Had they voices and could speak.
Silence seals their crimson lips,
And the dull rain drops and drips.
Stands a little sad-eyed lass;
There is something she would seek,
But a maiden may not speak—
Silence seals her longing lips,
And the dull rain drops and drips.
Her side of the window-pane;
And the crimson roses grow
Pale as dreams dreamt long ago;
(Hearts may break behind sealed lips),
And the dull rain drops and drips.
REVEALED—NOT SPOKEN
I met in yonder lane;
A flood of sunshine seemed to fall
Around her as she came.
A tenderer, livelier green,
And blossoms burst from every bud
As she passed on between!
A skylark round him threw,
As high above her golden head,
He poised amid the blue.
And yet—I know not why,
Upon the threshold of my lips
The story seemed to die.
The magic of her smile,
That in a spell held all my soul,
And kept me dumb the while!
For earth-born love seemed she;
From her white height of maidenhood
How could she stoop to me?
And though the tongue may fail,
In potent language they reveal
The old, old tender tale.
Methought I heard my name
So softly, murmurously breathed,
I scarce knew whence it came!
A subtle sweetness stole
Through all our being, and we felt
That soul had answered soul.
The bird’s song in our ears,
We left the lane, my love and I,
To meet the coming years.
BURIED TREASURES
With all that riches can bestow,
But there is wealth, wealth cannot buy,
Hid in the mines of “Long Ago.”
Yet sometimes, when I dream alone,
She comes and takes my hand in hers,
And shows me what was once my own.
I count my treasures o’er and o’er;
I learn the worth of some, whose worth,
Ah me! I never knew before.
And I return to things you know,
With empty hands and tear-filled eyes,
Back from the mines of “Long Ago.”
AFFINITY
Our hands have scarcely ever met,
With just a formal word or two
You come and go; and yet—and yet—
I have a dream we two were one
Ere garb of flesh these spirits wore;
The soul that speaks within your eyes
Tells mine they’ve met and loved before.
Knowing the day will surely dawn
When, as the first man woke, you’ll wake
From your soul-sleep, and looking on
My face will know that I am she,
Your Eve, your other self, your fate.
Till then, till then, come weal or woe,
I am content, content to wait.
“ MY HOUSE IS LEFT UNTO ME DESOLATE ”
And I shall be where my belovèd are;
And with your eyes aglow with faith, you say,
“Thy dear ones have not journeyed very far.”
Till on mine ear mine own voice strangely falls,
Like some mechanic utterance that repeats
A meaningless refrain to empty walls.
A distance measureless as my despair.
When from the dreams that give them back to me,
I wake to find that they have journeyed there!
Has hoped, surmising, since the first man slept;
But, oh, the heart, it knoweth its own loss,
And death is death, as ’twas when Rachel wept.
AN OLD MAN’S DREAM
I sit alone to-night and dream;
Upon the hearth, like elfin sprites,
The red flames dance, and twist, and gleam.
The pictured faces on the wall
Pale, and o’er each familiar thing
A strangeness slowly seems to fall.
One whom I loved in days gone by.
The same is she, unchanged by time—
Unchanged—but oh, how changed am I!
Was like spun threads of living gold,
Still clusters round a brow that wears
Immortal youth—and I am old.
Her eyes, that meet mine o’er and o’er;
And yet she loved me once—and love,
I know, is love for evermore.
I think I know for whom she seeks.
She only sees a strange old man,
With snow-white hair and wrinkled cheeks.
For flight, a soft stir moves the air,
It is the whisper of her gown—
She goes to look for me elsewhere.
It is the firelight’s ruddy gleam;
Thank God she did not pass me by
I only saw her in a dream!
A SUMMER WOOING A SONG
The hedgerows are foaming with blossom to-day;
Its bonfires the golden gorse lights on the hill,
And the wanton wind’s wooing wherever it will.
The cuckoo’s name rings through the woodlands to-day;
The warm blood of Summer runs rioting through
The veins of each leaflet—then why not of you?
There’s Passion and Poetry stirring to-day.
Half blinded with rapture, the heavy bees dart
From the lily’s white breast to the rose’s red heart.
The old world’s begun a fresh courting to-day.
I wooed you all winter, but found you as cold
As the snowdrift that gleamed on the ridge of the wold.
Your eyes tell me “Yes,” though your lips say me “Nay.”
The tears, so long frost-bound, are ready to flow,
And she melts in my arms, my proud maiden of snow!
WEE ELSIE
That e’er I’ve kent, not ane surpasses
My Elsie.
Auld farrant a’ she does and says;
Just watch the bairnie as she plays
“At mither,” dressed in mither’s claes!
Her lips part in her guileless talk;
She hauds a key that wad unlock
Yer heart were’t hard as granite rock.
They seem tae look ye through an’ through;
But though sae brave, an’ frank, an’ true,
Wi’ happy fun they’re brimmin’ fu’.
Sae long, sae silken, an’ sae fair,—
In truth it seems a verra snare
That’s caught an’ kept a sunbeam there.
Aroun’ a nature just as sweet;
Methinks the bairnie is complete
Frae wise wee heed tae willin’ feet.
BIDE WI’ MITHER
Nor seek to lea’ the auld hame-nest;
O’ a’ earth’s luvs ye yet will fin’
A mither’s highest is, an’ best.
She reads you like an open buik;
You scarce need speak, she is sae quick
Tae understan’ yer ev’ry luik.
The wee bit face sae aft turned up
For “mither’s kiss,” has workit late
An’ early for your bite an’ sup.
Tae mak’ twa unco scrimp en’s meet;
In her first days o’ weedowhood
She scarce could spare the time tae greet.
The laddie’s young, an’ he can wait;
There was a time, when you were wee,
She micht hae had anither mate.
As guid’s the fayther you had lost;
An’ though she could hae boucht her ease,
She wad na’ dae it at the cost.
Your strong young arm should be her stay;
Life’s dounward slope is hard eneuch,
Be yours the han’ tae smooth the way.
That duty done brings sweet reward;
The Maister, Christ, pleased na’ Himsel’,
Although He was creation’s Lord!
CHILD ANGELS
That go on missions sweet;
They have no wings to bear them,
Just little human feet.
And all my faith was dim,
’Twas one of them that led me,
And brought me back to Him.
There lay a widening breach,
And you were coldly drifting
Beyond each other’s reach,
A child’s hand ’twas that bridged it—
A child’s soft, rosy palm
Held both your souls united,
And life grew sweet and calm.
And heart and head were bowed,
The blue eyes of a baby
Made rifts in pain’s dark cloud.
Who go on missions sweet,
If ye had wings to bear you,
Instead of little feet,
Altho’ ye love us much,
To soar to Him who tells us
His “Kingdom is of such.”
MY LOVE OF LONG AGO
There are eyes as true and sweet;
There are hearts as strong and tender
As the heart that’s ceased to beat;
There are voices just as thrilling;
There are souls as white, I know,
As hers was when she went from me—
My love of long ago.
The tale that ne’er grows old;
Life’s greys are always changing
For some one into gold;
But amid the shine and shadow,
Amid the gloom and glow,
She walks with me, she talks with me—
My love of long ago.
That the years to me have brought,
I am glad the world that holds her
Is the world that changes not.
And the same as when she left me,
She waits for me, I know—
My love on earth, my love in heaven,
My love of long ago.
IN SUMMER TIME
Streamlets laugh and song birds sing,
To the clover bees close cling.
Poppies burn and wings unfold,
Earth-stars twinkle on the mould.
From that Eden once our own—
Make of every flower a throne.
Yonder heather-hill, that lies
Fitting footstool for the skies.
Lighting up the moorland ways,
And the days are golden days.
(Earth-bound, yet than earth more free)
Wears a look of constancy.
Was a shy, uncertain thing,
Like a bud just blossoming,
Till our two lives, lived as one,
Make a summer of their own.
TWIN-SISTERS
Twin tender rosebuds, hand in hand,
Fashioned as one—scarce known apart;
I see each face, God sees each heart.
That hold the blue of summer skies,
And hair like finest gold refined;
I see the beauty, God the mind.
Oh! they are fair to look upon;
Perfect from crown to dainty foot;
I see the bloom, God sees the fruit.
If theirs be not that spirit meek?
What though their eyes are heaven’s own hue,
If never wet with pity’s dew?
A gem that will for ever shine.
Oh, may this outward beauty be
But type of inward purity!
And backward swing the gates of gold,
Before the Master they may stand,
Twin tender rosebuds hand in hand!
AT LAST
As she waited long ago,
Ere her sweet eyes were pain-haunted
Or her hair was touched with snow;
Ere that look of patient pathos
Downward curved her tender lips,
Or across her life’s young morning
Fell a shadow of eclipse.
Know not now youth’s bounding grace,
And a world of sin and suffering
Is recorded in his face;
Airy dreams of high ambition
That he cherished in the past—
All have vanished—and aweary
He returns to her at last.
Where he first breathed love’s fond vow,
With new hopes, like the new roses
Sprung from old roots, they stand now;
And the past is past for ever,
She forgives, and he forgets,
For the present peace has buried
Years of sorrows and regrets.
TRYSTING-TIME
Has drawn the tired sun to her breast,
I seek my darling’s place of rest.
Ah me, how lag our listless feet
When we have but a grave to greet!
So like a soft white-crested wave
Is all beneath the skies I have.
Oh love, since in the long agone
I left you sleeping here alone!
BESIDE THE DEAD
The show-white purity of her dead brow;
Withhold your lips, their passion or their pain
Can thrill her nor with love nor pity now.
The joyless dawns, the nights that brought no rest
Are ended,—and those weary eyelids fell
O’er eyes that had grown dim in one vain quest.
Steadfast, unshaken to the very last,
And with her idol undefaced, unstained,
To place it in a “niche in Heaven” she passed.
Had thrilled her heart, as spring’s first breath awakes
The rapture in the bosom of a bird
Till winter’s silence with a song he breaks.
In the fierce crucible of human pain,
Had felt that I was more than satisfied
If loss of mine had ended in her gain.
The memory of a lightly plighted vow,
To take one kiss from those dead lips were theft,
The jewel was yours,—I claim the casket now.
HER FIRST SEASON
Round a dainty snow-white throat—
Fastened here and flutt’ring there
With a careless cunning care;
Blue-bells, blue as summer skies are.
Or her own sweet sunny eyes are,
Cluster close beneath her chin,
As if love—and not a pin—
Kept them fondly nestling in!
Like a dragonfly’s clear wing
Full of whispers vague and sweet,
Falls in white folds to her feet.
Light as moss veils drape their roses,
Round her flower-like form it closes—
Every graceful curve it shows us.
Of a shade æsthetic, faint,
Weave a jealous network o’er
Two pink palms that I adore;
And a musical mixed jangle
Comes from bracelet and from bangle
As it fetters each slim wrist
(Made but to be clasped and kissed),
With fantastic coil and twist.
Wind-kissed on a summer morn.
What, you say you see the glint
Of a reaper’s blue scythe in’t?
Nay, ’tis but a silver arrow
Wand’ring through a golden furrow,
Where the sun-shafts bore and burrow.
From the home-nest just set free;
Knowing neither grief nor wrong,
In her heart and lips a song.
’Tis not I would wish to make her
Prim and drab-gown’d like a Quaker!
All fair things are beauty’s dower—
Doth not God’s hand paint the flower?
(Youth is but a fleeting hour!)
ANTICIPATED
Upon your head a golden crown,
But Nature, having had my taste,
And being first, has set one down.
And sapphires of a heavenly hue,
And pearls all shimmering soft and fair;
But here she’s been before me too.
And strung two pearly rows between,
And sapphire eyes more blue than heaven
She’s dowered you with, my queen, my queen!
My heart’s best treasures at your feet:
Without love’s gem, which shines for aye,
The fairest crown were incomplete.
WHEN THOU ART NEAR A SONG
Thy voice is all the music I can hear;
My heart’s desire is granted unto me
When thou art near.
I’m blest in breathing the same atmosphere.
To higher heights my aspirations soar
When thou art near.
My lips on those I hold so very dear,
I know that heaven is not so far away
When thou art near.
A PORTRAIT
A shadow ever haunts her eyes;
Like dusky pools are they on which
The mystery of the moonlight lies.
No ring hath it of joyous mirth;
Yet somehow when she speaks, methinks
A benediction falls on earth.
She moves with such a quiet grace;
And ’tis the pitying soul within
Makes tender twilight of her face.
Have looked like this when to her breast
The Babe, who was to save a world,
With mingled joy and pain she pressed.
DOROTHY
Little count hath she or care;
All her gold is in her hair.
Round this old world seems to cling
When you hear her laugh or sing.
Much she wonders—little knows,
Love’s as yet a folded rose.
Glad is she, nor knows she why:
Just to live is ecstasy!
That have daisies for their links;
Youth’s the fount where Pleasure drinks.
Little count hath she or care,
Sunshine in her heart and hair.
DAFFODILS
To the tune that the March pipes blow,
Heads a-tossing—lances crossing,
Curtsies sweeping and low.
They tumble, and twist, and turn,
What tho’ from its slender pillar
Droppeth one golden urn?
Never a pause for breath.
Ah, well!—are we too not whirling
As blind, in our “dance of death”?
THE BLACKBIRD
Then hey! the blackbird’s golden flute;
All steeped in love seems every note
Let loose from his mellifluous throat.
What rapture thrills his tiny frame,
His heart is like a brimming cup,
Where pearls of joy keep bubbling up.
At heaven’s far gate may soar and sing,
But oh, methinks the blackbird brings
Heaven down to earth what time he sings!
“ WHOM THE GODS LOVE DIE YOUNG ”
I, from the summit of the hill,
Look down, and marvel at God’s will.
All eager for the upward race,
Her genius shining in her face.
She yearned to scale the steepest steep,
And now—she’s fallen upon sleep!
The downward slope. Good-bye, sweet friend,
Life’s myriad ways meet in the end.
GRANNIE’S BAIRN
I scarce hae use for hauns or feet—
An’ after a’, why should I fash
When she’s sae nimble an’ sae fleet?
The words hae haurdly left ma mooth
Afore I fin’, across my nose,
She has them set astride forsooth.
Picks up the steeks that whiles will drap—
She slips aboot like some wee moose
For fear she’ll wauke me frae ma nap.
Fin’ drawn up close tae granny’s chair;
She learns her task an’ sews her seam,
An’ sups her cog o’ parritch there.
But whiles, sic puzzlin’ things she’ll spier,
The verra Meenister himsel’
Waud be dumbfounded could he hear.
But just eneuch tae show that she
Is no a being that is made
O’ diff’rent clay tae you an’ me.
The neebors roon aboot agree,
And sae ye ken it is na just
Ma ain opeenion that I gie.
LOVE’S POWER
The whole world seem’d with you to ebb away,
And like a broken stranded wreck I lay.
A fresh tide thrill’d my life’s deserted shore;
And Love was conqueror over Death once more.
A JUNE MEMORY
In regalest splendour and pride.
Sweet peas, like butterflies tethered,
Were flutt’ring on every side.
Burned dull in the sun’s strong glow,
And the yellow bees, like meteors,
Went flashing to and fro.
But an old-world garden wild,
Where purple-hooded pansies
And long-lashed daisies smiled.
And the sad years hurtle by
Like birds whose wings are broken
When they just have learned to fly.
In the life that’s yours to-day,
That garden and its glamour,
And the time that would not stay!
Does one face never arise
And for a moment hold you
With the old spell of its eyes?
And we!—we must be dumb.
And life’s June goes for ever
And the snows of winter come.
A MESSAGE
High up on a window-sill,
’Mid grime and gloom and squalor,
Grew a golden daffodil.
Like a sunbeam that had strayed
Out from the light of heaven
Into a land of shade.
A skylark sweetly sang
Till all the narrow alley
With its wild rapture rang.
Paused, as her wild eyes turned
To where, on its humble altar,
The flower-flame upward burned.
’Twas the heart that had long lain dead,
As the bird’s song rose from its prison
In the shadow overhead.
And oh! methinks they preach
At times with a power and pathos
We men can never reach.
HER WINDOW
Eager to get a little peep
Behind the curtain of snowy lace
That hangs, like a bridal veil, over the face
Of a shy wee window, whose panes glint through
A network of creepers, like eyes of blue.
And see them high and higher go
Till their lips are kissing the lattice sill,
And their tendrils toy at their own sweet will
With the casement, so full of tender charms
Since her shadow has lain within its arms.
SHATTERED HOPES
The mavis carolled blithe and free;
But—ah, his song was not for me!
Pierced like an arrow thro’ my brain;
I could have cursed him for his strain.
Each proof of a Creator’s powers;
Yet dull and hateful were the hours.
The tears within my burning eyes—
The past before my vision flies.
Once more my being thrills with bliss;
Once more I melt with tenderness.
Deep fraught with passion on his tongue,
Till heart and soul with pain are wrung.
In memory’s grave I’ve laid away
My idol that has turned to clay.
HAND IN HAND
Went Dora and I in the bygone days;
A wee girl she, her boy lover I,
Ready to fight for her and die.
Went Dora and I in the after-years;
She was my wife and her husband I
Ready to fight for her and die.
As her dear eyes dimmed, and her spirit passed;
An angel is she,—alone am I
Ready, O, God! and I cannot die.
“ AND FOR THE WEARY, REST ”
The sweetest and the best
Is, that to weary laden ones
Who come, He giveth rest.
And streets of shining gold
We think so much when we are sick
And sorrowful and old.
To contemplate the joy,
The great and glorious themes of heaven
That angel-minds employ.
We long to lay us down,
Feeling we scarce could bear the weight
Of e’en a glory-crown.
None other proof than this,—
That He has “rest” for those who feel
Almost too tired for bliss.
IN AN OLD ORCHARD
Bury one deep, as I lie below
The laden white boughs abloom and ablow
In the dear old orchard, where long ago
My grand-dame dreamed, as I’m dreaming now,
With love in her heart and youth on her brow.
And grey night follows the golden noon,
And Autumn though ruddy brings ruin and rune,
And passion ne’er warms the cold heart of the moon.
So let me dream on, ’mid the apple-blooms sweet,
For noontide and bloomtide are fair as they’re fleet.
And Summer is ended, and harvest is past,
And the loosened leaves earthward are fluttering fast,
And the sleep that is dreamless is mine at last,
O, make my grave here; and lay me to rest
Where the sweet-scented snow shall fall light on my breast.
BY THE SEA
Of the welcomes loud, and the farewells low;
Of the meeting lips, and the parting tears,
Of the new-born hopes, and the growing fears,
Of the eyes that glow, and the cheeks that pale,
As the hazy horizon’s mystic veil
Is silently parted, and to and fro
The white sails come and the white sails go.
As I watch alone by the ocean’s rim.
For a dream is mine—ah me! ah me!
That salt with tears is the salt salt sea.
O, yearning eyes and outstretched hands!
O, divided lives, and divided lands!
As long as the waters ebb and flow
Shall the white sails come and the white sails go.
REGRET
That forever haunts my weary brain,
Till heart and soul grow weak with pain.
In the curlew’s cry from the lonely mere;
In the whisper of leaves when woods are sere.
As if a breaking heart of its own
Wailed out in that strange low undertone.
As the leaden years crawl slowly by!
It will ring through my life till I die, I die.
WAE’S ME
The dull rain is patt’ring amang the deid leaves,
The mist-wreaths are swirling about the grey mountains,
The wee drookit birds huddle close ’neath the eaves.
Like some wander’d bairnie that fain wad win hame,
Aye seekin’ an’ seekin’, an’ never yet findin’,—
Sure man, in his pilgrimage here, is the same.
I look north an’ south, an’ I look east an’ west,
An’ I envy the folk i’ the kirk-yaird out yonder,
For there, ’mang the mools, there is rest—there is rest!
THE REASON WHY
An’ blithe as she is braw;
But ’tis not worth nor beauty aye
That steal the heart awa’.
Her lips are like the haw;
But neither ane nor t’ither ’twas
That stole my heart awa’.
Her brow like driven snaw;
And yet it was na’ these I vow
That stole my heart awa’.
’Twad gar an iceberg thaw;
But ’twas na’ this by my guid-faith
That stole my heart awa’.
For Beauty kens nae law;
(Though some folk maun be easy pleased
Wha’s hearts are stown awa’!)
Is no wi’out a flaw!
But just because she’s her ain sel’
She stole my heart awa’.
DOWN BY THE SEA
O’er which the Master’s fingers ever stray!
I, listening, hear a myriad melodies
Played in the space of one short summer day.
The sweet, sad dirge of softly dying swell,
The deep, delicious gurglings in the caves,
Hold music that this soul of mine loves well.
Like it responsive to His touch alone,
For only He can wake the harmonies
Which sleep within thy bosom and mine own.
A VENTURE
And I feel like a hungry bee,
I long to dart straight to its heart,
But—what would be the fate of me?
And yet I dare not risk her scorn,
And who but knows the reddest rose
May hide the very sharpest thorn?
Its sweetness up in one long kiss?
So I, who dare not risk her scorn,
Can risk still less to lose such bliss.
Athirst with long long years of drouth,
She will forgive me, that I sought
That dewy chalice, her sweet mouth.
WATER LILIES
All freighted with pure gold,
The lilies lie at anchor
On the lake’s breast, calm and cold.
The zephyr’s first faint kiss
To waft them to another world,
More bright and fair than this.
If I should find, one day,
They’d drifted from their moorings,
And in silence sailed away.
THE SENTINEL
The merry hours, the mournful hours
Alike he counts them all
As he stands erect at his post,
Time’s solemn Sentinel.
And on, with never a pause for breath,
He hurries us nearer the day of death.
Though his warning voice is ofttimes drowned
In the whirr, as the wheels of life run round,
Yet, whether or no we hear the sound,—
The merry hours, the mournful hours
Alike he counts them all,
As he stands erect at his post,
Time’s solemn Sentinel.
A LOVE SONG
A little dimpled chin drops down,
While trembling shy lids hide the light
Of love, new born in eyes dark brown.
For shelter, fluttering like a dove;
And with a rapture half divine
I burn my kisses through its glove.
Upon her cheek and modest brow,
But only Cupid’s self could lend
The crimson stealing o’er them now.
A heaven of love is in her smile,
Her pure mind, like an altar-flame,
Burns clear and steady all the while.
AUTUMN
And a flaming fire her crown.
Each one a destroying torch.
Nor the dews her thirst can slake.
And decay in every breath.
Strewn with corses of dead flowers.
She but whispers of a grave.
A QUAKER MAID
With a knack of changing
Like the sea, when shine and shower
O’er its breast are ranging.
Each one a heart-breaker,
Who would think that they belonged
To a little Quaker?
And she walks sedately,
With a sort of lily-mien—
Drooping, and yet stately.
“Thou” and “thee” and “thying,”
Yet the while those grey-green eyes
Seem to be belying.
This sad suit and sober,
Why should Spring’s young sapling be
Brown-leaved like October?
Crown her curls with roses!
Wreath her neck with daisy-chains!
Fill her hands with posies!
Young limbs girt with gladness,
How they mock this dismal drab
Livery of sadness!
“ THE TIME, THE PLACE, THE BELOVED. ”
You and I and love and June—
All without and all within us
Set to one sweet happy tune!
Drowsy bees go blundering by;
’Mid the tresses on your temples
Little breezes swoon and die.
Overhead a sapphire dome;
’Neath our feet a sea of emerald,
Flecked with daisies for its foam.
’Tis for love the time and place!
What a world of rapture can be
Crowded into one small space.
DAY-DREAMS
In my home among the hills;
Your eyes meet mine in every flower;
Above the highest height you tower,
Yet the glamour of your presence
The lowest valley fills.
That sings on its way to the sea;
And when the wind sweeps over
The low beds of the clover,
’Tis the breath of my belovèd
Its wide wings bear to me.
But though sweet these day-dreams be,
’Tis the deeper dreams of sleeping
That restore you to my keeping,
And so the world of shadows
Is the dearest world to me.
SONG OF THE SEASONS
Sing it ’mong the roses,—
Sing it till each sleeping bud,
Dewy-eyed, uncloses.
All the song-birds hear it!
Sing,—till every blade of grass
Finds a voice to cheer it.
Sigh it through the flowing
Shroud that over earth’s dead breast
Falls in time of snowing.
That once held the roses!
Sigh it round the grave, that o’er
Summer’s glory closes.
ONE SUMMER DAY
The sea slept at our feet,
As still, as if its mighty heart
Had almost ceased to beat.
Across the earth to steal,
As when after benediction
The priest and people kneel.
Lay on the pulse of life,
And stilled, for one brief moment,
Its tumult and its strife.
THE INSCRUTABLE
Like a bright bird let loose from Paradise—
A weary woman, in the shadow, sitting
With haggard face and dry despairing eyes.
Stricken to marble her warm pulsing breast:
And God denies the luxury of dying
To the sad soul whose one cry is for rest.
DELILAH
To lure me as the cruel light the moth,
To my destruction.—Long ago my wrath
Cooled its white heat in pity’s depths divine.
I could have crushed thee—but that time is past,
And tho’ I needs must love thee to the last,
Tempt me not now—it is too late, too late.
Such love as thine can only bring a curse.
I would be better for my love, not worse,
So go while I have strength to say “Good-bye.”
A BABY’S GRAVE
In a death-crowded place,
With grim black yews to keep God’s sun
From shining on her face.
For her a little nest;
No crushing marble slab I laid
Upon her tender breast.
Her sacred form enclose,
The sternest guardian of her grave
Is just a fragile rose.
A CHILD’S FAVOURITE
With an arm and a leg a-missing,
The point of her nose rubbed off, I suppose,
Through too much washing or kissing.
With tinsel lace tarnished and tattered;
Her “coal-scuttle” bonnet holds, alas!
A head that’s a trifle battered.
She never had curls black or golden;
A doll’s wig was safely painted on
In the days that you call “olden.”
Yet once she was just as much cherished
As your dolly is—by a wee girl
Whose dolly-days long ago perished.
RICH OR POOR?
Or diamond drops, like frozen tears,
Has clasped my lady’s slender neck
Through all the barren empty years.
Have clasped my neck thro’ the sweet years;
Yet she is rich and I am poor—
Or so it to the world appears.
DOLLY’S GARDEN
All her “very own,”
Every flower that’s in it
By her hand was sown—
Never out of Eden
Were such blossoms blown.
Deep and dark and blue—
As her soul those lilies,
Pure and white and true;
Frail earth-flowers and fading—
Dolly’s fading too.
Here I stand alone,
Dolly’s tending blossoms
Near the Great White Throne:
Dolly now has heaven
For her “very own.”
IN A DREAM-SHIP
In a ship of shining shell:
Her cloak was a butterfly’s gauzy wing,
Her bonnet a big blue-bell,
Her bed was a lady’s slipper,
Her blankets the leaves of a rose,
And a cushion of thistledown had she,
Just to rest her tiny toes.
She was borne o’er a silver sea;
And she never feared as the captain steered
For the land where she wished to be.
As they drifted along,
That she sang from the ship of shell—
“Oh, we are bound
For enchanted ground;
It’s there that the fairies dwell.”
And the little maid awoke
As against the side of the fair frail barque
A cruel billow broke;
And she rubbed her eyes, and she pinched her arm,
And fearfully peeped around;
But instead of a ship “for fairyland”
She had boarded a “homeward-bound.”
THE FLOWER-QUEEN’S FALL
And watched the people go up and down
The winding highway, dusty and grey,
That stretched from the village away to the town.
’Gainst the humble garden where she was born,
And her red lips curled at the old flower world,
And she cast around her such looks of scorn
And the pansies huddled together with fear,
And the poor pinks paled, and each daisy quailed,
And dropped from her lashes a big round tear.
And never were subjects more loyal than they—
And they fondly dreamed she was good as she seemed,
And because they had loved they were proud to obey.
High over their heads, with an angry gust
The wind swooped down and tore off her crown,
And its jewels went whirling away with the dust.
A VETERAN
But hushed is his voice, and still are his hands.
He ceased from his labours long years ago,
And he’s only a “pensioner” now, you know.
For a brave heart beat in his breast of wood,
And you could depend on all he said
Till age, at last, turned him queer in the head.
In his armour,—a straight, stiff, oaken case,
He “stands at ease” in his sentry box,
And leaves time-telling to younger clocks.
TO A BUTTERFLY
With gaily-jewelled wings,
You make me think of fairy folk
And of enchanted things.
In a castle grim and grey—
A “chrysalis” folk called it—
But you escaped away.
A restless roving elf,
Or fold your wings and lie so still—
A very flower yourself.
You softly float away,
Just like a tiny fairy barque
Bound for a fairy bay.
The flowers yield perfumes rare;
But you were born a trifler,
Frail thing of light and air!
WHEN AND WHERE
The Angel of Death will come,
And, laying a finger on lids and lips,
Will strike me blind and dumb.
Like the skeleton at the feast,
’Mid laughter and mirth this thought finds birth
Where it is welcome least.
In my prime or old age hoar,
At home, with my loved ones round my bed,
Or alone on an alien shore.
Is God not over all?
He knows the time and He knows the place
Who marks a sparrow’s fall.
WHEN LOVE IS YOUNG
In the lap of winter their ashes lie,
And the earth is wan and grey the sky.
And my pulses thrill with the glowing wine
That flows from the grape of Love’s deathless vine.
Nor leaf nor bloom, and the mad winds tear
The last poor tatters the forests wear?
A garden of roses, a haven of rest,
A bird that has builded a warm love-nest?
A CHARACTER SKETCH
Slow to condemn, and swift to praise;
Ready to help in hour of need,
Generous in thought as well as deed.
To uphold the right and put down wrong;
Never a thought of self or gain,
Proud of her God-given gifts—not vain.
When the “daily round” and task are done;
Modest and maidenly, yet no prude;
Perfect enough, but not “too good.”
No ideal—a living woman.
FRIENDS
That, though her summers number scarcely nine
I need none other, as I go my ways
With her small fingers closely clasping mine.
And people it with all things fair and sweet;
The stars that twinkle overhead at night
Drop down at dawn in daisies at our feet.
I keep my sighs and give her all my song,
Because she is so trusting and so weak
I feel that I can suffer and be strong.
’Tis wide enough for both. And my white dove,
With untried wings, knows little love but this,
That “Mother” is another name for “Love.”
BED-TIME
And tied up their wee frilled nightcaps tight.
The summer day’s been hot and long
And daisies, although they are so strong,
Are always tired and ready for bed
Ere the stars, heaven’s daisies, awake o’erhead.
Awake they could no longer keep—
They’ve been astir since the dawn of day,
Sighing their sweet perfume away,
And feeding the hungry beggar bees
That never say “thanks” nor “if you please!”
Had shut your drowsy eyes of blue—
Wee busy hands, wee busy feet
Must rest sometime, you know, my sweet—
The flower-bells all have chimed “Good night.”
They’ll ring to wake you with the light.
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