IT was about a month after the
foregoing conversation took
place, that Melbourne society
was fluttered by a rumour that the
engagement between Mr. Kingston and
Miss Fetherstonhaugh, which had been
unaccountably broken off, was "on"
again, and that the long-delayed wedding
was to take place immediately. Rumour
for once in the way, was perfectly
correct.
People went to call at Toorak, and
found the aunt serene and radiant, and
the bride-elect wearing all the honours
of her position—not shyly as of yore,
but with a quiet candour and dignified
self-possession that was not generally considered
becoming under the circumstances.
It was thought that a little humility
would be proper in a young person who
was going to enjoy such altogether undeserved
good fortune.
It happened while she was staying at
South Yarra. How it happened nobody
quite knew. Gossip attributed it to
Mrs. Reade's manœuvres; but Mrs.
Reade, far from encouraging anything
of the sort, set herself steadily against
it, and warned Mr. Kingston of probable
consequences in the most terse and
trenchant manner (she had taken a very
different view of the situation since her
return from Adelonga).
Gossip likewise attributed it to the
seductions of the new house, which was
beginning to shadow forth in Palladio-gingerbread
of the most ambitious
pattern, the magnificence of the establishment
that was to be; but gossip
was equally misinformed in this respect.
Rachel was as ready as ever to admire
the house, and the beautiful tiles, and
carvings, and hangings, and upholstery,
that were constantly being designed and
produced for its adornment; she fully
understood how much they represented
for whoever was to possess and enjoy
them. But they had not a featherweight
of value in her eyes as compared
with the happiness she had hoped for
and lost; they did not suggest the idea
of compensation or consolation in even
a slight degree. The fact was that
Mr. Kingston was determined to have her.
Of late he had seemed—not to Rachel,
but to Mrs. Reade—to have a sort of
half-sullen doggedness in his determination,
indicating that he was as much bent
upon winning the game as upon winning
the stakes—that he meant, before all
things, not to be beaten in the enterprise
upon which he had set his heart.
And in this frame of mind he waited
upon opportunity; and in the end, opportunity,
as so often happens in such
cases, served him.
One day Beatrice and her husband
went out of town to lunch, and Rachel
had a long, lonely afternoon. It came
on to rain, and it was grey and chilly.
Dull weather always sent her spirits
down several degrees below the normal
temperature, and just now she was
morbidly sensitive to its influence.
If Beatrice had been at home there
would have been a fire in no time,
summer though it was; in her absence
Rachel did not like to take upon herself
to order one. She lay on a sofa
with a shawl over her feet, and listened
to the rain pattering on the window,
and felt cold, and dismal, and deserted.
At five o'clock she was pining for
her tea, and thinking it had been forgotten,
rang for it; and the smart young
parlour-maid, interrupted in an interesting
tête-à-tête with the next door coachman,
and blessed with few opportunities for
the indulgence of a naturally restive
temper, brought it in with a protesting
nonchalance, a teapotful of nasty liquid,
made with water that had not boiled,
and a couple of slices of bread and
butter that would have charmed a
hungry schoolboy—such as would never
have been presented to the mistress
of the house, as Rachel well knew.
This small indignity, so very small as it
was, greatly aggravated the vague sense of
desolation and orphanhood—the feeling
that she was a person of no consequence
to anybody—which possessed her just
now. And while she was in the lowest
depths of despondency, in the deepest
indigo of blues, Mr. Kingston calling,
discovered her solitude and came in,
tenderly deferential, full of solicitude
for her health and comfort, stooping
from his higher sphere of social importance
to pay homage to her still in
her forlorn insignificance.
For the space of half-an-hour perhaps
she felt that it would be good to be
married to somebody—to anybody—who
would love and take care of her, and
make the servants treat her with proper
respect; and a mere chance enabled Mr.
Kingston to take advantage of that accident.
Looking back afterwards she never
could understand how it was that she
had felt disposed to re-accept him; but
the causes were as distinct as causes
usually are. Badly-made tea, and the
want of a fire in dull weather are,
amongst the multifarious factors of
human destiny, greatly underrated.
Having said the fatal "yes"—or,
rather, having failed at the proper
moment to say "no," which Mr. Kingston
justly took to mean the same thing—Rachel
was allowed no more opportunities
for what her aunt called "shilly-shallying."
The day of the marriage was fixed
at once, and the preparations for her
trousseau simultaneously set on foot.
The girl had hardly come to realise
the extraordinary thing that she had
done when she found herself being
measured for all sorts of wearing apparel,
and consulted about the arrangements
for her honeymoon tour. Then she set
herself to do her duty in the state of life
to which she imagined herself "called,"
with a kind of hopeless resignation. She
recognised the fact that this second
mistake was not revocable like the first;
and therefore she understood that it was
not to be considered a mistake.
All her life and energy now had to
be dedicated to the task of making it
justifiable to her own conscience and in
the eyes of all men.
And so she was sweet and gentle to
her affianced husband, promising him
that, though she could not love him
first and best, if he was content to have
her as she was (and he assured her he
was quite content), she would do all
in her power to prove herself a good
and true wife to him; and she was
tractable and obedient in the hands of
her aunt, and ready to fall in with all
the arrangements that were made for her.
But, as the wedding-day drew near,
the dread of it showed itself to Mrs.
Reade, if to no one else, in the dumb
eloquence of the sensitive, truth-telling
face. That little person who had such
a talent for managing, stood aside at
this crisis, and did not intermeddle with
the strange course of events.
In none of the affairs that she had
promoted and directed and brought to
successful terminations, had she taken
such a deep and painful interest as
she now felt in this, which she had been
powerless to control; but, for the first
time in her life, she was afraid to speak
to her young cousin of the thoughts
that both their minds were full of,
lest she might be called upon to advise
where she found it was impossible to
decide what was for the best, and only
waited helplessly upon Fate, like an
ordinary incapable woman.
On the night before the wedding—a
soft, bright, early autumn night—Rachel
gave her a distinct intimation
if she had wanted it, that the marriage
however it might turn out eventually,
was by no means undertaken as marriages
should be.
The girl stole away from the drawing-room
while the others were temporarily
absorbed in the preparations that were
going on for the great ceremonial, and
Mrs. Reade, hunting for her anxiously,
found her standing in the moonlight
by the kitchen-garden gate.
"Looking at that house again!" the
little woman exclaimed. "Why, you
must know every stick and stone by
heart. I never miss you that I don't
find you here."
"I am like our poor Jenny and the
tank," said Rachel, gazing still at the
imposing pile before her, sharply black
and white against the soft light of the sky.
"Who is Jenny, may I ask?"
"A dear cat we used to have. She
fell into a deep tank one day when
father and I were not at home, and
for two days she was struggling at
the edge of the water clinging to a bit
of brickwork, and no one came to help
her. Some men heard her cries, but
did not know where she was. As soon
as we came home, of course I found it
all out; and I got a large bough of
wattle and lowered it down, and so she
was saved when she was very nearly
gone. Oh, poor thing, what a state
she was in! I sat up with her all night.
But she never got over it. She was
not exactly mad, but she was never in
her right mind afterwards."
"Well?" said Mrs. Reade who was
greatly mystified. "I can't see the
drift of your allegory so far."
"No; I was going to tell you. Ever
after this happened, we had to keep a
constant watch upon her to prevent her
from throwing herself into the tank
again. If she heard the sound of the
lid being moved, she would rush to it
in a sort of frenzy. A bricklayer was
doing something to it one day, and we
had to lock her up, she was in such a
frantic state. She would be gentle and
quiet at other times, but as soon as
she thought the lid was being opened,
she got quite mad to go to it. And
at last a new servant, who did not know
of this, left the lid off one day, and
poor Jenny seized her chance, and
jumped in and drowned herself."
"And that is your well, you mean?"
said Mrs. Reade, pointing to the house.
"And you are immolating yourself, like
Jenny? Oh, Rachel, what are you talking
about!"
"I am talking nonsense, I know,"
said Rachel, with an impressive air of
artificial composure; "but somehow
Jenny happened to come into my head.
Beatrice, do you know I have been
thinking of something."
"Of what? Oh, dear me, I wish to
goodness you would think like a sensible
girl, who knew her own mind sometimes."
"I have been thinking what I ought
to do. I ought to just put on my hat
and jacket and run away. I could go
to a friend, a poor widow, who used to
be very kind to me in the old days, and
she would let me stay with her until I
could get a situation. No, don't scold
me—it is ten o'clock, isn't it? It is
too late for a girl to be out at night
alone. I can't do it, if I would."
"And would you, indeed if you could?"
demanded Mrs. Reade, holding her by
her wrists and looking imploringly into
her face. "Do you really mean that
you have a mind to do such a thing,
Rachel?"
Rachel was silent for a few seconds
and then she began to cry bitterly.
"Oh, I don't know—I don't know!"
she said, turning her head wildly from
side to side. "Sometimes I feel one
way and sometimes another. I want
somebody—somebody strong, like Roden—to
tell me what it is right to do!"
For a moment Mrs. Reade weighed
the merits of the proposition, and all
that lay against it, with as near an approach
to impartial judgment as true
friendship and human fallibility allowed.
And the thought of Rachel's weakness
of purpose and inability to take care of
herself, and of Mr. Dalrymple's traditional
character, turned the scale.
"You cannot go back now," she said.
"My darling, you have doubly given
yourself to Mr. Kingston, and you must
try to make yourself happy with him—much
can be done by trying, if you will
only make up your mind!"
It was the last chance that Rachel
had, and she accepted the fate that
deprived her of it with characteristic
meekness.
"Yes, I will try," she said, wiping
her eyes. "It is too late to go back now."
CHAPTER II.
"WHEN YULE IS COLD."
RACHEL, when she did at last
get married, had a very
stately wedding, if that was
any comfort to her. The weather
was beautiful, to begin with; a lovelier
autumn morning even Australia
could not have furnished, to be an
omen of good luck for the future
years.
Each of the eight young Melbourne
belles who had been invited to assist
at the interesting ceremony took
care to point out the significance
of sunshine and a cloudless sky
when offering their congratulations
to the bride and to the bridegroom
also.
The bridegroom on this occasion
by no means filled the humble office
which tradition and custom assigned
to him. There was not a bridesmaid
of them all who did not feel that she
was much more Mr. Kingston's bridesmaid
than Mrs. Kingston's.
Not only were they better acquainted
and on more friendly terms generally
with him than with her, but he had
far more to say to them, and practically
far more to do with them,
in the course of the day and in the
discharge of his and their official
duties.
He was the prince of bridegrooms,
indeed. He had made magnificent
settlements upon his wife (though the
credit of that really belonged to Mr.
Hardy, who, for once in a way, had
to be reckoned with in the progress of
these arrangements); and his wedding
presents were on an equally noble
scale.
The bridesmaids' bracelets were solid
evidences of his worth in every sense
of the term, and inasmuch as each
bracelet slightly differed from the rest,
though all were equally costly, of the
excellence of his taste and tact. They
were valued thereafter by their respective
recipients rather as parting
keepsakes from their bachelor friend
than as mementoes of his auspicious
marriage.
And the diamond necklace that was
his special wedding-day gift to his
bride, and which lay just under the
ruffled lace encircling her white throat—a
dazzling ring of shifting lights
and colours—a magnet to the eyes
of all spectators—was worthy to have
been a gift from Solomon to the Queen
of Sheba.
There was not a servant in the
house, nor near it, who did not receive
some token of the princely fashion in
which he improved this great occasion,
and who did not participate in the
general impression that he more than
rivalled, in popularity and importance,
the beautiful young lady whom he had
won.
Of the company, all were charmed
with his gaiety, his affability, and his
delightful sang-froid. He was never
for a moment embarrassed. He overflowed
with airy courtesies, not only
to his bride, but to all her maids and
friends.
He made a brilliant speech, that
exactly hit the happy medium between
tearful pathos and unfeeling jocularity,
and that was full of well-bred witticisms,
provocative of gentle, well-bred
laughter. He was, in short, all
that a bridegroom ought to be, and
so very seldom is. He covered himself
with honour.
Rachel, on the contrary, seemed to
have been mesmerised into temporary
lifelessness. It was expected that she
would be shy and fluttered, and bathed
in blushes; but she was not agitated
at all, and she did not blush at all.
She bore herself generally with a
statuesque composure that was thought
by some to be very dignified, and by
others very wooden and stupid, and
that was a little depressing to witness
from either point of view. From the
beginning of the day she wore this
unnatural calmness.
Mrs. Reade had been in terror lest
she should give way to unbecoming
excitement at some stage of the ceremonies,
and was prepared to combat
the first symptoms of hysteria with such
material and moral remedies as were
most likely to be efficacious.
She had strictly enjoined Lucilla,
who had brought the baby to the
wedding, not to let that irresistible
child appear upon any account, and
bidden her restrict herself to the most
perfunctory caresses until the public
ordeal was over. But long ere this
point was reached the little woman
was longing to see some signs of the
emotional weakness that she had deprecated,
and there were none.
The bride was as beautiful as a
sculptor's ideal, but as cold as the
marble which dimly embodies it. She
had apparently nerved herself for a
sacrificial rite, or else the greatness
of her suffering had numbed her;
or she was calm with resignation and
despair.
"I wish," said Mrs. Reade to herself,
in the middle of the marriage service,
"I wish I had stopped it last night. I
have made a mistake."
But as this thought occurred to
her, she was standing—a splendid little
figure in ruby velvet and antique lace—in
the midst of scores of other
splendid figures, a helpless witness to
the irrevocable consummation of her
mistake, which after all was less hers
than anybody's.
Rachel had given her "troth" to her
husband, and he was putting the ring
that was the sign and seal of it—the
token and pledge of the solemn vow
and covenant betwixt them made—upon
her finger.
When the breakfast was over, that
domestic pendant to the religious
ceremony having "gone off" with
great success, Mrs. Kingston, in due
course, retired to put on her travelling
dress.
The bridesmaids proper were dispensed
with at this stage, and the two
married cousins went upstairs with the
bride.
It was Beatrice now who was tender
and caressing; Lucilla, who did not
see very far below the surface of anything,
and was delighted with the
pomp and circumstance of this new
alliance in the family, and charmed, like
all happy matrons, to welcome a new
comer into the matrimonial ranks, overflowed
with unwonted gaiety.
"Now we are all married!" she
exclaimed, sinking upon a sofa in
Rachel's room, and looking very fair and
young—as if marriage had thoroughly
agreed with her—in a pale blue French
dress of the highest fashion. "And
we have all married so well, haven't
we? And we have all got such good
husbands. Oh, how nice it will be
when Rachel and Laura come back
and begin housekeeping! John is going
to let me have a house in town, too,
as soon as Isabel and Bruce come
home, so that we shall be down for
part of the year; and then what a
cosy little family circle we shall make!
But Rachel will be at the head of us
all. Ah, dear child, you will know now
how nice it is to be a married woman—to
have your own husband with you
always—such a delightful, attentive
husband, too, as I know he will be—and
your own home—such a beautiful
home——"
"You lock up her diamonds, Lucilla,"
Mrs. Reade interrupted, handing the
starry necklace to her sister. "And,
Rachel, dear, don't stand and tire
yourself. Sit down, and let me dress
you."
Rachel, when her bridal lace and
satin had been taken off, sat down to
be sponged and brushed, and to have
her travelling boots laced up.
Beatrice performed her lady's-maid
offices in silence, while Lucilla handed
her what she wanted, and pleasantly
chatted on; and when all was done,
and the bride, in russet homespun, was
ready for her departure, there were a
few words whispered that Mrs. Thornley
did not hear.
"My darling, you said you would try."
"Yes, Beatrice, dear; yes, I am
trying."
"You are not finding it very hard—too
hard—are you?"
"It will be easier in a little
while."
"If you make an effort, Rachel—if
you make up your mind—if you are
kind and good to your husband, and
try to keep him straight, and to make
his home happy——"
"Yes, dear; yes. I am going to
do all I can. But to-day I can only
feel that I have lost—quite lost—Roden.
I feel now as if he were dead. Even
the memory of him I must not comfort
myself with any more. That is what
I feel hard. But I am trying to get
over it. I have promised Mr. Kingston—Graham—all
those solemn promises,
and I must keep them—I will. It is
only at first that I don't know how
to bear it; but it will be easier by-and-bye.
We must not talk about it,
Beatrice; it is wrong to talk about it
now. And, oh! I do so dread that I
shall break down."
She did break down at last. When
she descended the staircase into the
hall she found all the company awaiting
her, the front door open, and the carriage
that was to take her away being packed
with her travelling bags and wraps.
She shook hands with all the guests,
and smiled a gentle response to their
congratulatory farewells; she shook
hands with John and his fellow-servants;
she kissed her uncle and
thanked him for all his kindness to
her; she embraced Lucilla and Beatrice
with silent fervour, and then her stately
aunt, to whom she repeated her grateful
acknowledgements for the home and care
that had been given her.
"I am afraid I have not made much
return to you for your goodness to me,
dear Aunt Elizabeth," she said, with
pathetic earnestness, but with no agitation
of voice or manner.
To her intense surprise the majestic
woman suddenly burst into tears.
"Oh, my child!" she said, tenderly,
"I hope I have been as good an aunt
to you as you have been a good niece
to me. I hope you will be very, very
happy, my darling. If you are not, I
shall never forgive myself."
Mr. Kingston, of course, was standing
by, and a frown fell like a cloud
over his face. Mrs. Reade was also
standing by, and she looked at him
steadily for a few seconds with clear,
bright eyes.
"Come, Rachel," he said, and he only
looked at his wife; "we shall lose our
train if we don't make haste."
Rachel withdrew herself from her
aunt's arms, and Mr. Kingston took
her by the hand and led her away,
followed from the house to her carriage
by all her train. She was a good deal
shaken by the little incident that had
so unexpectedly occurred.
There was no mystery to her in
what Mrs. Hardy had said, but the
thing she had done was very strange
and very touching. It invested the
Toorak House and all its belongings
with a new charm that the orphan girl
had never felt before with all the kindness
that she had enjoyed there.
At no time in the fourteen or fifteen
months that she had lived in it had
it seemed so much her "home" as at
this moment, when her aunt cried like
a mother at parting from her—so desirable
a place to stay in now that she
had to go.
"Well," said Mr. Kingston, when the
carriage was fairly out of the Hardy
grounds, and he had waved a gracious
adieu with the tips of his fingers to
the woman at the lodge, who stood in
her Sunday best and white satin cap-ribbons,
smiling and curtseying, to see
them pass; "well, that is a good thing
over, isn't it? Of all the senseless institutions
of this world, a wedding à la
mode is about the most preposterous.
You look knocked up already, when
you ought to be fresh for your
travels."
He spoke with a little nervous irritation,
and Rachel did not answer
him. Her heart was beating very fast,
beating in her ears and in her
throat, as well as in the place where
its active operations were usually carried
on.
All her powers were concentrated
upon a desperate effort to postpone that
breaking-down which she had dreaded,
and which she felt was inevitable, until
she could shut herself within four
walls again. But she could not postpone
it.
Her husband took her hand and
asked her what was the matter with
her—whether she felt ill, or whether
she was regretting after all that she
had married him; whether she was
going to make him happy, as she had
promised, or to curse his life with its
bitterest disappointment—speaking half
in love, half in anger, with a sudden
outburst of protesting entreaty provoked
by her irresponsive silence. And
she began to cry—almost to scream—in
the most violent and alarming
manner.
"My dear love! my sweet child!"
cried the bridegroom, aghast. "I did
not mean to vex you, Rachel. I did not
mean to blame you, my pet. Rachel,
Rachel, hush! do hush! Don't let that
confounded coachman go back and say—Rachel,
do you hear?"—giving
her a little shake—"there are people
passing. For Heaven's sake don't make
a scene in the street, whatever you
do!"
Rachel was almost beside herself with
excitement, but she was awake to the
indecency of betraying her emotion to
the servants and the passers-by. Moreover,
something in her husband's voice
steadied her.
By a strong effort she checked the
headlong impulse to rave and scream
that for a few seconds was almost
overpowering, and held herself in with
shut teeth and tight-locked hands, wildly
sobbing under her breath, and by-and-bye,
when the first rush of passion had
spent itself, she became quiet and tractable,
fortunately, before they reached the
railway-station.
Mr. Kingston was terribly shocked
and outraged by this behaviour. He
would have given anything to be able
to scold her—in a gentle and judicious
manner, of course—but he was afraid
to attempt such a thing, or even to
speak of the probable causes that
had led to such deplorable impropriety.
He rummaged for his spirit-flask, and
made her drink a few drops of brandy,
which nearly choked her; he found
some eau-de-Cologne and bathed her
face; he got her to put on a thicker
veil, which happened to be amongst
the luxuries that her aunt and cousins
had stuffed into her travelling-bag;
and he kissed her and petted her, and
when she attempted to explain and
excuse herself, bade her "Hush! till
another time," and would not listen to her.
His immediate anxiety was to restore
her personal appearance and her powers
of self-command. The more important
matters could wait. And he succeeded
in his efforts; she did not break down
any more.
Their journey that day was not very
far. An hour or two in the train, and
then half a dozen miles in a comfortable
covered buggy, and they reached
the country house which had been
placed at their disposal—the best substitute
to be had for that charming
residence on the shores of the bay at
Sydney—where they were to spend two
or three weeks in their own society
before starting by the next mail to
Europe.
As they were driving through the
silent bush, in the dusk of that
autumn day, and the bridegroom,
wrapped in his fur-collared overcoat,
was musing not very happily upon
the success that had crowned his long-cherished
hopes and plans, his young
wife slipped her hand under his arm,
and laid her cheek upon his coat-sleeve.
"Graham," she whispered softly.
He turned round quickly, and took
her in his arms. It was the first time
she had spoken his name and offered
him a caress voluntarily, and he was
greatly touched and cheered.
"Will you forgive me?" she said,
not shrinking away from his embrace,
but creeping into it as she had never
done before. "And, oh, will you love
me, in spite of it all?"
"Love you!" he echoed, tenderly.
"My sweet, I have always loved you
more than anybody in the world, and I
always shall. It will not be on my side
that love will be wanting."
She said no more, but she lay still,
with her head in its soft little sealskin
cap on his breast, as if she liked to feel
his arms about her.
It was so new to him, and so immeasurably
delightful. He had never
expected to feel happier (even on his
wedding day) than he felt now, with
his best beloved, who had been so impracticable,
his own at last, giving herself
up to him in this way.
Poor, parasitic little heart, full of
spreading tendrils! It was essential to
its very existence that it should have
something to cling to—which was a view
of the case, that happily did not chance
to strike him.
CHAPTER III.
A DISCOVERY.
THERE was a great ball at
Toorak on the night of the
wedding, and like all the
nuptial ceremonies, it went off with
great éclat.
Mrs. Hardy recovered her serenity
very quickly after the bride's departure,
and appeared in the evening, clothed in
smiles and sapphire velvet, looking the
proud woman that it was generally conceded
she had a right to be. Lucilla,
at home for the first time since her
sister Laura's wedding, and since her
accession to the dignities of maternity,
and carrying herself very prettily as a
personage of consequence amongst the
unmarried friends of her girlhood, looked
extremely well and very happy, and
reflected great honour upon her family
in a variety of ways. Beatrice also
was unusually brilliant, not only in her
personal appearance, but in her mode of
discharging the duties of the occasion—a
little too much so, indeed, if anything.
Some elderly ladies, and a very few
young men, were subsequently heard to
express an opinion that she carried that
sharp and satirical manner of hers to
an excess that was unbecoming in a
person of her sex and years, even if she
had married money and become a leader
of fashion.
A little after midnight, these two
young women, the one for the sake of
her baby, and the other on account of
her husband, excused themselves from
further attendance on Mrs. Hardy, and
drove back to South Yarra, where the
Thornleys were staying, carrying their
willing lords along with them.
When they reached home, where of
course they found bright fires ready
for them, the men retired to the smoking-room,
Mrs. Reade having laid upon her
brother-in-law the responsibility of keeping
his host from getting "any worse
than he was already;" and the ladies
went upstairs to Lucilla's apartment.
Lucilla having only arrived in town
the day before, she and her sister had
had no opportunity for what they called
a good talk; and now the baby being
found asleep and in his nurse's charge
for the night, they sat down to begin
it, having previously got rid of ball-room
finery and made themselves comfortable
in their dressing-gowns.
"Does Ned often get—a—like this?"
Mrs. Thornley began, with a compassionate
inflection in her soft voice. She
knew of course that one couldn't expect
everything, but still she was sorry that
her sister's excellent marriage should
have this particular drawback, than
which she could hardly imagine one
more unpleasant and embarrassing, and
that a nice fellow like Ned, with a
noble pedigree and the sweetest temper in
the world, should take his social pleasures
as a shearer would celebrate pay-day.
Mrs. Reade was thinking, at the same
moment, that John was ageing very fast
and getting immensely stout, and that
his manner of addressing his wife, and
his bearing towards her generally,
was more peremptory and dictatorial
than she would feel inclined to put
up with if she were in Lucilla's
place.
"Oh, no," said the little woman,
sharply; "it is only on these festive
occasions, when I am not able to look
after him properly. And at the worst
he is not very bad. He never gets
obstinate and quarrelsome, as some men
do—only vaguely argumentative and subsequently
sleepy. I should think no
husband, with so pronounced a tendency
that way could be easier to manage—if
one knows how to manage."
"You were always a splendid manager,
Beatrice."
"Well, I just hold him well in hand—that's
all. I know he can't help it,
to a certain extent, so I don't keep
always worrying at him about it. It
is only now and then that I give him
a real good talking to—to prevent his
thinking I might grow indifferent, as
much as anything."
"He is such a dear, good fellow,"
said Lucilla, "but for that."
"He is a dear, good fellow, in spite
of that," replied Beatrice, who allowed
no one but herself to disparage her
husband. "He is better worth having,
with all his faults—and that is about
the only one he has—than most of your
brilliant society men. I only hope Mr.
Kingston will be as little trouble to
Rachel as Ned has been to me—and
half as good and kind to her."
"Yes, dear. I didn't mean to say
that he wasn't the best of husbands—far
from it. Indeed, we may both be
thankful for our good luck in that respect—all
of us, I should say. I should
think no four girls in one family are
more happily situated than we are."
"I hope so," sighed Mrs. Reade. "I
hope we are all as happy as—as we
are well off otherwise."
"Dear little Rachel!" said Mrs.
Thornley, musingly. "I don't think
there is any doubt about her being
happy. It is quite extraordinary to see
how fond of her Mr. Kingston is—really
fond of her, I mean. Did you think he
would ever marry such a young girl,
Beatrice? and be so terribly anxious to
do it, too? I didn't. I suppose it was
her beauty captivated him."
"No," said Beatrice; "it was the
fact that she didn't want to captivate
him. That has been her charm all along—he
has felt that his honour was concerned
in making her, and it has been
a difficult task."
"Oh, but I know he thinks a great
deal about beauty, and she is really the
prettiest girl in Melbourne, I do think,
though she does belong to us. She did
not look so pretty to-day though, as
I expected she would. That dead-white
in the morning that brides have to wear
does spoil even the best complexion. I
thought hers could stand anything, but
it can't stand that. When she wears
it in the evening, now—not dead-white,
but transparent white—she is a perfect
picture. At that ball of ours last
year everybody was talking of her.
She was in Indian muslin. John
said she was like a wood anemone."
Mrs. Reade was gazing thoughtfully
into the fire. The mention of the
ball at Adelonga stirred many troubled
thoughts. The real importance of
that event, in its effect upon Rachel,
had never been known to Mrs.
Thornley, who was led to suppose
that the suspension of Mr. Kingston's
engagement in October was solely
due to certain laxities on his part,
which the girl would not condone.
Mrs. Hardy's terror lest "people"
should get to know that a member
of her family had had any dealings
of a compromising nature with
such a person as she considered
Mr. Dalrymple to be had been
the cause of this extreme reticence.
A general impression prevailed amongst
the guests who had attended the
ball, that the handsome ex-hussar
had admired the belle of the evening
to an extent that had roused
the wrath of her fiancé against him;
but no one, strange to say, had
been able to discover more than
that.
Mr. Dalrymple himself never had
confidantes in these matters; and
Mr. Kingston, when he was enlightened
at Christmas, was as little
desirous as Mrs. Hardy that the
facts of the case should be published.
Beatrice and Rachel, who alone discussed
them freely, did so with the
strictest secresy.
Mrs. Reade had no confidential
intercourse with her mother, as of
yore, on the subject of her cousin's
welfare. They had jointly resolved,
just before the younger lady set out
for her summer visit to Adelonga,
that it would be safer to exclude
Lucilla (as a married woman who
told her husband everything) from
any participation in the knowledge of
the mischief that Mr. Dalrymple had
done, and of Rachel's unfortunate infatuation
for him—which did not
seem so very serious at that time;
and since then his name had scarcely
been mentioned between them.
Now, however, the anxious little
woman, with a load of care that she
was by no means used to weighing
on her heart, was impelled to take
advantage of the opportunity offered
by Lucilla's reference to that momentous
ball to put a question that
had suddenly become to herself,
tormentingly importunate.
"Has anything been heard of that
Mr. Dalrymple lately?"
"Oh, yes," said Lucilla; "he is
gradually getting better."
"Getting better!" echoed Beatrice,
sharply. "Why, what is the matter with
him? Is he ill?"
"Didn't you hear? He had a
dreadful accident. He was breaking-in
a young horse that was very wild,
and it bucked him off, or did something,
and he fell on his head. It is
a wonder he didn't break his neck.
No one saw it happen, for he was
away on the plains by himself, and
it was only when he did not come
home at night that Mr. Gordon went
to look for him. They were a long
time finding him, and he had been
there for hours, and he was quite
insensible. There were some wild dogs
sniffing at him, as if he were really
dead. Indeed, Mr. Gordon said, if
they hadn't found him when they
did, the dingoes would probably have
made an end of him. Was it not
dreadful?"
Mrs. Reade was staring at the fire,
not displaying that interest in the
narrative that its tragic details demanded,
apparently.
"When did it happen?" she asked
quietly, without lifting her eyes.
"Oh, some time ago—in December.
We did not hear of it until January.
But he is only now able to get out
of bed and crawl about, poor fellow.
He was dreadfully hurt. His brain
was affected, and the summer weather
in that hot place was so much
against him. And, of course, he
couldn't have what he wanted up
there, and was too bad to be moved.
Mrs. Digby went there to nurse him—the
Hales took the children for her.
It was enough to kill her, so delicate
as she is; but she would go. She
idolises him almost. Mr. Digby went
with her, and stayed till the worst
was over. And Mr. Gordon was most
devoted—he went all the way to
Melbourne to consult the doctors
there about him, travelling night and day."
"Were there no doctors nearer than
Melbourne?"
"Yes, of course; they had two.
But he wanted the best opinions.
He is Mr. Dalrymple's partner, you
know, and they were old friends
before they came out here."
"And did Mr. Dalrymple seem to
be any better after he got the Melbourne
prescriptions?"
"No; it was not a case where
doctors could do much. He seemed
to rally a little while Mr. Gordon
was away, but he had a bad relapse
afterwards. The weather became frightfully
hot, and the fever of course
got worse. He was delirious for a
whole fortnight, and then he was so
low that he just seemed sinking. However,
he must be an amazingly strong
man naturally. He managed to struggle
through it, and now he is getting
about, and all danger is over, though
Mrs. Digby says he is like a walking
skeleton. I expect she will have
brought him home with her by the
time we go back; he will soon get
well when she has him in her own
house. I shall go over and see him,"
added Lucilla, compassionately; "and
I shall ask him to come to Adelonga,
as soon as he is strong enough,
and let me nurse him for a few
weeks."
Mrs. Reade had before her mind's
eye that photograph which her sister
had shown her in Mrs. Digby's
house. She saw every lineament of
the powerful, impressive face distinctly—even
in a photograph it was not
a face that once looked at, could
be forgotten; and she pictured to
herself the changes that months
of wasting illness would have made
in it.
A warm rush of indignant pity,
mingled with something near akin to
admiration, filled her heart, which was
wont to indulge itself in womanly
weaknesses—an impulse to champion
and befriend this man of so kingly
a presence, whose sins, whatever they
were, were balanced with so many
misfortunes. And yet for a moment
she could not help regretting that his
fall from his horse had not broken
his neck.
Ned, guiltily creeping into his dressing-room
about half an hour later,
never had the fumes of superfluous
champagne dispersed from his brain
so quickly. He saw his wife sitting
by her own fireside, with her feet on
the fender and her face in her hands,
crying—actually crying—like any
common woman.
CHAPTER IV.
"TO MEET MR. AND MRS. KINGSTON."
RACHEL was away for nearly a
year and a half, seeing all the
kingdoms of the earth and the
glory of them in the most luxurious
modern fashion. It was such a tour
as a romantic and imaginative woman
born to a humdrum life would feel to
be the one thing to "do" and die; and
according to her account, she enjoyed
it extremely. She came home very
much improved by it in the opinion of
her aunt and other good judges.
"Certainly," they said, "travel is the
very best education: there is nothing
like it for enlarging the mind, and
for giving polish and repose to the
manners."
Mrs. Kingston, indeed, when she took
her place in the society of which her
husband had long been so distinguished an
ornament, was a very interesting study,
as exemplifying this soundest of popular
theories. She was greatly altered in all
sorts of ways. She had quite lost
that bashful rusticity which had been
Mrs. Hardy's despair, and in her unpretentious
fashion, was really very dignified.
There was no hurry and flutter about
her now as there used to be; none of
that indiscriminate enthusiasm, which in
her aunt's eyes branded her as a poor
relation who "had never been used to
anything nice." She expressed her appreciation
of things smilingly and
sweetly, with more or less of her natural
bright frankness, but with a well-bred
moderation and serenity that might
have become a duchess. To please her
husband she wore rich raiment, "composed"
by the most distinguished
Parisian artists, and it symbolised the
change that all her individuality seemed
to have undergone.
She was no longer a girl, an ingénue,
a bread-and-butter miss, a pretty little
nobody; she was an experienced and
cultured woman, a leader of society,
fully equipped for that high position,
with a just appreciation of her own
importance, and relatively to that of
other people's.
Indeed, there seemed to certain persons—Miss
Brownlow amongst others—indications
in her reticent and reposeful
manner of a tendency to be exclusive,
and to think a great deal too much of
herself.
Mrs. Hardy, who was immensely interested
in the unforeseen development,
was beyond measure gratified by it—more
especially as the young wife was
evidently on the best of terms with
her husband, though she had the good
taste to refrain from drawing public
attention to the fact.
Many apprehensions were set at rest
by the sight of her entering a room
on his arm, carefully and beautifully
dressed, as if she had enjoyed dressing
herself, and twinkling with diamonds
everywhere, responding to respectful
greetings with quiet grace, moving in
her comparatively higher sphere as if
she felt thoroughly at home in it. It
seemed to the anxious matron that an
end had been reached which justified
all the means that had been taken to
compass it.
Mrs. Reade was not so satisfied. She
looked at the change in Rachel from
another point of view. She did not
like to see a girl who had been
exceptionally girlish, turned into a
sober woman with such unnatural
rapidity.
Her sister Laura had come home, and
was now settled at Kew, giving entertainments
in a severely-appointed high-art
house; she had had quite as much
of the education of travel as Rachel—perhaps
more, inasmuch as her young
husband was a dabbler in bric-à-bric,
and had a taste for old churches, and
palaces, and pictures; whereas Mr.
Kingston's interest in foreign cities,
however famous, had chiefly concerned
itself with the quality of the society
and the cuisine of the hotels.
But Laura, though stored with information
and experience, and lately
the happy mother of twin daughters,
was much the same as she had been
in her maiden days—cheerful, enterprising,
a rider of harmless hobbies, a
great believer in herself, and in the
force and variety of her fascinations.
She had improved and developed, of
course, but the experiences of travel
had not changed her as Rachel was
changed.
The acute little woman who practically
had never solved the meaning of
love and marriage, and quite understood
her disqualifications in this respect,
yet had glimmerings of the state of
things that existed in Rachel's heart.
She knew—though she had come to
the knowledge by slow degrees—that
the girl was not weak all through, but
only weak as the water-lily is,
"Whose root is fix'd in stable earth, whose head Floats on the tossing waves."
And that just as she had been tenacious
of certain principles in her earlier life,
when living with her father in an
atmosphere which she had only her
own instinct to teach her was tainted
with dishonour, so she would hold fast
to some other things, if they had taken
root, with a secret, blind integrity in
spite of her emotional fluctuations in the
winds and waves of circumstance.
She had adapted herself to the conditions
of her marriage with the pliant
submissiveness of her disposition; but
there was a part of her that refused
to be reconciled to all the degradation
that was involved, and it was a tough
and vital part of her.
Since this was violently repressed,
comprehending as it did all those
aspiring ideals which had had so much
poetry and promise, and which represented
for her, in their loss as in
their possession, the meaning of human
happiness and the diviner aspect of
human life, there was naturally a great
vacuum somewhere—a great emptiness
for which no compensating interests were
available. Hence that serene inexpressiveness
of mien and manner which
had so mature and distinguished an
air.
Mrs. Reade's own marriage was very
much of the same pattern in one
respect—it was but an outward and
visible sign of marriage that had no
inward and spiritual grace; but then
she did not know what it was that she
missed, and Rachel did. And the difference
between the two cases was
perfectly obvious to that intelligent
woman.
On the return of Mr. and Mrs.
Kingston to Melbourne, a number of
fashionable parties were of course given
in their honour. At the chief of these,
a great ball in the Town-hall, the
dramatic action of this story, temporarily
suspended by our heroine's
absence from the country which held
all its elements in solution, so to speak,
was suddenly set going again.
It was towards the end of October,
just when the gay season of the races
was about to set in, and when the
spring was in its glory. It strangely
happened to be also the anniversary of
the night of her clandestine betrothal
to Roden Dalrymple, which was the
memorable last time—two whole years
ago—that she had seen or heard of
him.
Nowadays she never mentioned Roden
Dalrymple's name. She had never
mentioned it to her husband since he
and she came to a certain understanding
on their wedding-day, and her
husband had scrupulously avoided mentioning
it to her; which reticence on
his part was odd and uncomfortable
rather than considerate and delicate, inasmuch
as she was intensely anxious to
pursue the line of conduct that she had
laid down for herself in her relations
with him—to have no secrets and to
tell the truth—and to bring their companionship
into such harmony and
sympathy as the nature of things made
possible.
And since her return she had never
even suggested the existence of her
lost lover to any of those who might
have given her information about him—not
even to Beatrice. She "would
not recognise that she felt" any interest
in his existence.
Nevertheless, she lived in a perpetual,
absorbing, all-pervading consciousness
that he and she were "in the world
together," and that the key to the
whole system of the universe lay somehow
in that fact.
And the years and months, and days
and hours were all dates in the first
place, and periods of time in the
second; and every date was a
register of ineffaceable memories of
him, which she could not destroy or
ignore.
So on this great anniversary, as the
hour approached which witnessed their
last interview in the solitude of the
half-built house (the boudoir was in
the hands of the decorators now, and
the sacred spot of floor was covered
over with inlaid woodwork), she tried
to put the thought of it out of her
mind—tried to shut her eyes to the
inevitable agonising and tantalising
perception of what might have been—and
yet was acutely responsive to
every tick of the clock on her mantelpiece,
checking off the reminiscent
moments one by one. She followed
the events of that long-ago happy
night perforce as an unquiet spirit
"raised" against its will.
"Now we were sitting together,"
she remembered, as the little clock
struck nine silvery notes. "We were
looking at the moonlight on the bay.
Ah, me, how lovely that moonlight
was!"
"Rachel," called her husband from
his dressing-room within, whither he
had just arrived from a dinner at the
club, "aren't you dressed yet? I met
that young woman of yours on the
stairs; she seems to have more time
on her hands than she knows
what to do with. Why don't you
make her wait on you better? She
ought to be getting you ready by this
time."
Rachel jumped up hastily and
rang for her maid, whose ministrations,
essential to the dignity of her
present position, she certainly did not
appreciate.
"I shall not be long dressing,"
she replied; "and it is early
yet."
And then she went into his room
to ask him if he had had a pleasant
party at dinner, and whether he had
enjoyed it, anxious to show him some
special tenderness on this special night—anxious
to find some shelter in his
affection from the reminiscences that
beset her.
He was a little irritable, for his gout
was troubling him, and he did not
respond to her advances. He patted
the hand that she laid on his arm in
a perfunctory manner, and sent her
back to begin her preparations for
the ball. He did not wish her to
dress herself quickly; he wanted her
to make the most of her beauty and
her supplementary resources on such a
great occasion.
He was very fond of his wife still,
and proud of her, and good to her
in his own rather tyrannical way; but
his marriage with her, after a year
and a half of it, had become to himself—as
under the circumstances was
inevitable—a very unromantic and
commonplace affair.
They had lived together in tolerable
peace and comfort; they had never
quarrelled, simply because it was
Rachel's habit to efface herself at
the first symptoms of rising temper;
but neither had they been companions,
in any proper sense of the
term.
As yet he had no active sense of
injury and injustice, in that the possession
of his treasure gave him such
meagre compensation for all that he
had paid for it, but he did feel, in a
general way, that matrimony was—as
he confessed he had been well warned
that it would be—very tame and dull,
and uninteresting, and that it would
be too unreasonable altogether to
expect a man to devote himself
exclusively to its demands. Even
little Rachel herself, he was quite sure,
would not wish him to be bored to
death.
And so he fell back insensibly into
many of his old self-indulgent habits,
and the pleasures of his bachelor life
grew more than ever pleasant. This
was particularly the case after his
return to Melbourne, where his face
became as familiar to club men as in
the ante-nuptial days. Some excuse
for this independence was supposed
to lie in the fact that he and his
wife had not yet settled down to
housekeeping.
The Toorak mansion was being furnished
and decorated with the treasures
of art and upholstery that they had
brought out with them; and until
everything was completed, and the
entire establishment was in proper order
for their reception, and for the giving
of that magnificent house-warming to
which the world of Melbourne fashion
was looking forward, they were inhabiting
a suite of rooms in an hotel,
and domestic life, consequently, was to
a certain extent disorganised.
On this night of which we are speaking,
Rachel thought it was very kind and
attentive of him to come home to her a
full hour before he needed to have done.
It never occurred to her, any more than
to him, that he neglected her.
The servants of the hotel, who were on
the watch for a sight of her as she went
to her carriage, thought her not only one
of the most lovely, but one of the most
fortunate of women; and so did the
majority of the gay company at the Town
Hall, when she made her appearance
amongst them.
She had come back from Europe and all
her sea-voyaging, in excellent physical
health, and the last year or two of her
life, in spite of sorrowful vicissitudes, had
ripened and developed her beauty in a
very marked degree.
She was dressed in white, but with
great richness, of course—her husband
had seen to that; covered with precious
lace, that was as attractive to the eyes of
the Melbourne ladies as the delicacy of her
pure complexion was to those of the men.
And she wore her necklace of diamond
stars, and diamonds on her arms, and on
her bosom, and in her hair; and she was
altogether very magnificent, and made a
great sensation.
Amongst her many admirers she noticed,
when she had been in the room a little
while, a short, stout man, of about forty
or fifty years of age, apparently, who was
a stranger to her, regarding her with
much attention.
He had rather an air of distinction
about him in spite of his low stature, and
a noticeable absence of beauty; and she
had a dim—very dim—impression that she
had seen him, or someone like him,
before.
He wore a fair moustache but no beard
or whiskers, and his florid face was
marked down one side with the puckered
white scar of an old wound.
His eyes were quick and bright, and
the keen observation that he brought to
bear upon her through an eyeglass that he
put into one of them whenever she came
near, obviously with the intention of
studying her to the best advantage, was a
little disconcerting even to an acknowledged
beauty.
She was waltzing with Mr. Buxton—it
was her second waltz, and he danced very
well—when suddenly, high in the air over
her head, the great clock chimed eleven,
and all the associations of that sacred hour
gathered like ghosts around her, Roden
Dalrymple holding the lighted match to
his watch, while she sheltered the little
flame from the wind—her head touching
his cheek and his huge moustache as they
looked down together to see the time—the
mystic light and stillness of the peaceful
night, through which the sound of the city
bells came up to them, to warn them that
their happiness was a thing too good to
last.
"Eleven p.m.," he had called it; and
"you must go home, little one," he had
said. Could it have been at that moment
that he meant to send her away so far,
and never to take her back to his
arms and his heart again?
"Aw—what's the matter? Are you
dizzy?" asked her partner, feeling a
break and a jar in the rhythm of the
measure that had been flowing so very
harmoniously.
"A little," she whispered. "I should
like to sit down for a few minutes—we'll
go on again, if you like, presently."
He led her to a retired bench, and
while she rested stood beside her,
silently watching the people who continued
to revolve before them. She had
hardly sat down, and was beginning
mechanically to fan herself, when the
stranger with the eyeglass came up,
with a lady, who was also unknown to
her, on his arm.
"Here's a seat," said the little stout
man; and his partner, an elderly and
amiable matron, sat down, bestowing
the deprecatory smile of old-fashioned
courtesy upon the two already in possession.
He took the end of the bench
himself, and chatted away to her—she
was his aunt, apparently—leaning a little
forward, with an elbow on his knee;
and Rachel, dreamily occupied as she
was, was quite conscious that his keen
eyes dwelt persistently, not upon his
neighbour's face, but upon her own.
"Why don't you go and get a partner,
James?" said the elderly matron. "You
don't want to dance attendance upon
me, my dear—I shall do very well here
until Lucy wants me. Go and find
some pretty young lady, and enjoy yourself
like the rest of them."
"I don't believe in pretty young
ladies," replied the little man, rather
bluntly. "Except Lucy—and she is
engaged for the whole night, as far as
I can make out."
Here ensued some comments upon
Lucy, who appeared to be the lady's
daughter, generally favourable to that
young person. And the little man then
began to inveigh against the abstract
girl of the period with trenchant
vigour—obviously to the great embarrassment
of his companion, who tried her
best, but vainly, to divert him to other
topics.
"In fact, there are no girls nowadays,"
he remarked coolly; "they are
all calculating, selfish, heartless, worldly
women—always excepting Lucy, of
course—as soon as they cease to be
children. They have only one object in
life, and that is to marry a man—no,
not a man necessarily, a forked stick
will do—who has plenty of money."
"My dear, that is a popular sentiment,
I know, and supposed to be full
of wit and wisdom, but it always seems
to me that it is just a little vulgar,"
replied his companion, frowning surreptitiously,
and giving uneasy sidelong
glances at Rachel. "There are girls
and girls, of course, just as there are
men and men; we see bad and good
in every class. How beautifully this
place lights up, to be sure!"
"They like a fellow to dance with
them and dangle after them, and make
love to them, and break his heart for
them—nothing pleases them better—when
they have no serious business on
hand," the little man proceeded, with
unabashed composure, and still gazing
steadily at Rachel; "but when it comes
to marriage—"
"My dear James, I am not recommending
marriage to you—only a
harmless waltz."
"Then they are for sale to the
highest bidder, whoever he may happen
to be. The poor, impecunious lover—be
he ever so much a lover, and
the best fellow that walks the earth
into the bargain—must take himself off—and
cut his throat for all she
cares."
At this sudden change from the plural
to the singular, and at something personal
and impertinent that she recognised in the
tone and look of the speaker, a deep blush
flooded Rachel's face, and she rose from
her seat with dignity, but trembling in
all her limbs.
"Aw—who the dickens is that fellow?"
Mr. Buxton whispered, with a scowl—supposing,
however, that he could only be a
disappointed aspirant for Rachel's hand.
"He's an impudent brute, whoever he is,
and I have a good mind to tell him so.
What's his name, eh?"
"I don't know," said Rachel. But as
she spoke, and was about to move away,
the stranger rose and stood with an air of
courteous deference to let her pass him—an
air that somehow indicated the breeding
and manners of a gentleman; and all at
once it flashed across her where and when
she had seen him before. He was the man
who had called at Toorak and been closeted
with her aunt at the time when Roden
Dalrymple had promised to come for her,
nearly two years ago. She had gone out
into the garden, thinking he might possibly
have been Roden, to intercept him as he
was going away. She had had only a
distant glimpse of him—of his short,
square figure, and the lower part of his
face—but she recognised now that this
was the same man. She had not gone
many steps into the room, feeling strangely
overwhelmed by her discovery, when a
pair of exhausted waltzers went trailing
by, and one of them said to the other,
"Didn't somebody say Jim Gordon was
here to-night? Where is the old fellow
hiding himself? I should like to see him
again."
The little man with the eyeglass was—of
course he was—Roden Dalrymple's
friend and partner.
She drew her hand from her cousin's
arm, turned round, and walked deliberately
back to the seat she had just
quitted.
"No," she said to her pursuing cavalier,
"do not come. Go and dance with somebody,
and fetch me presently."
"My dear Rachel, you must allow me—aw,
I couldn't really—"
"I want to speak to Mr. Gordon," she
said, pausing in front of that gentleman.
"Mr. Gordon, I want to ask you something.
Will you kindly take me out to
the lobbies—somewhere where it is quiet—if
this lady will excuse you for a few
minutes?"
Mr. Buxton was utterly bewildered, as
well he might be. He stared, stiffened
himself, and then went off to find Laura,
and to tell her of the extraordinary proceedings
of her cousin "with some insolent
beggar whose name she said she didn't know,
though she addressed him by it almost in
the same breath," and to intimate (merely
by way of soothing his own injured dignity)
that there seemed to him something
"rather fishy" going on.
And Mr. Gordon, after losing his presence
of mind for about half a minute, and then
only partially recovering it, silently offered
his arm to the lady who had made that
strange appeal to him. He had never seen
her until to-night; he had hoped he never
should see her, or have anything to do with
her. She had been, in his imagination of
her, the embodiment of all that was detestable
in woman. But now something in
the candid young face, unnaturally set and
pale, and in the suppressed passion and
purpose of her manner, gave him compunctious
misgivings, and a vague but
alarming impression that there had been
some blundering somewhere.
"You are Mr. Gordon, are you not?"
she began hurriedly, as soon as they
were out of the crowd and glare of the
ball-room. "Yes, I thought so; but I
did not recognise you at first. I should
have waited for an introduction, but I
was afraid you might go away. I think
you know who I am. What you were
saying just now—had it not some reference
to me?"
The little man began to stammer incoherently.
He was completely overbalanced
by the shock of this unexpected
attack. Rachel, on the contrary, usually
so fluttered by an emergency, had a
sort of fierce, collected calm about her.
"I am sure it had," she said. "And
I want to know what you meant?"
"I—a—perhaps you are aware that
I am Mr. Dalrymple's friend, Mrs.
Kingston. I am therefore, perhaps,
something of a partisan—forgive me,
if I forgot myself for the moment—"
"Ah," she broke out sharply, "there
has been some great mistake! Tell
me—quickly—before anyone is here to
interrupt us—did you come to see my
aunt that Christmas—the Christmas
before last?"
"Certainly I came to see her and you,"
he replied.
"Did he send you?"
"Of course he did."
"Why?"
"Why!" he echoed angrily. "Do
you mean to say you don't know
why?"
"I know nothing," said Rachel. She
stood before him shining in her satin
and diamonds, without a trace of colour
in her face; and the anguish of her beseeching
eyes told him plainly that she
spoke the truth.
"Oh, dear me, this is terrible!" he exclaimed,
in a flurry of dismay and consternation.
"Do you mean to say that
you didn't know that he was ill?—that
you didn't tell Mrs. Hardy to write that
letter?—that it was all done without your
knowing anything about it? Good
Heavens! would anybody believe there
were such malignant fiends in existence—and
such fools!" he added bitterly.
Then he told her the whole story—how
her lover had got hurt, and had lain
insensible for many days, between life
and death—how his first anxiety upon
recovering consciousness was about his
appointment with her—how he had deputed
his friend to go to Melbourne and
explain his inability to keep it; and
how he (Mr. Gordon) had seen Mrs.
Hardy and afterwards Mr. Kingston, and
been led by them to an apparently unavoidable
conclusion.
"She said you were not willing to see
me, but that she would give you my
messages and explanations," said the
little man, thinking it would be best for
his friend (and not much caring what it
would be for other people) to have it all
out at once, while he was as about it;
"and that she would send me a note to the
club, where I was staying, in the evening,
or instruct you to do so. She had
already told me that you were re-engaged
to—a—your present husband. At night
I got the letter, in which she repeated
this assertion, stating that you had empowered
her to do so."
"And you went and told him that?"
"I did not go and tell him that—for
I did not want to kill him—until I had
taken every possible precaution to get
it corroborated."
"Yes?" ejaculated Rachel, breathlessly.
"I obtained an introduction to Mr.
Kingston at the club, and I asked him
on his honour to tell me if what Mrs.
Hardy had said was true."
"You told him why you wanted to
know?"
"I did."
She stood still for a few seconds to
collect her strength; whole years of effort
and agony were concentrated in that
little interval.
"Shall you be going back to Queensland
soon?" she asked quietly.
"I am going back to-morrow," he
said—though he had not previously
thought of doing so.
"Tell him when you see him—tell
him from me—that I never
knew anything—never, never, from
the day I saw him last until to-night."
"It will break his heart to hear it,
Mrs. Kingston."
"No—he will be glad to know that
I was not utterly base. And I—I want
him to know it."
"And shall I—can I—tell him that
you were really not engaged when they
said you were—when he thought you
were waiting for him?"
She flushed deeply and drew herself
up with a little stately gesture.
"He will not wish you to go into
those particulars, Mr. Gordon. If
you will give him my message simply,
that is all I want you to do. He will
understand it. Will you take me back
to the ball-room now? I should like to
find my cousin, Mrs. Reade."
CHAPTER V.
A CRISIS.
AS nature makes us, so to a great
extent, the most of us remain,
when education has done its
very best, or its very worst, to modify
the great mother's handiwork. Her
patterns, of which no one ever saw the
original designs, and that have been
unknown centuries a-weaving, cannot be
sensibly altered in the infinitesimal fragment
that one human lifetime represents,
though every thread of circumstance, in
its right or wrong adjustment, must
have its value in the ultimate product,
whatever that unimaginable thing may
be.
Still, in the individual man or woman,
here and there, the type that he or she
belongs to is temporarily obscured by
accidental causes; the lines of character,
laid down by many forefathers, are
twisted or straightened by violent
wrenchings of irresponsible fate—as in
less important branches of nature's business
her processes are interrupted by
lightning and earthquakes, and other
rebellious forces.
Rachel, from the hour when she discovered
how it was that she and Roden
Dalrymple had been defrauded of their
"rights," was apparently quite changed
(though—as she is still a very young
woman—we are not prepared to suppose
that she will never be her old weak and
timid and clinging self again). She was
turned, from a soft and shrinking girl,
into a hard and fearless, if not a
defiant, woman.
The immense strength of her love—always
an incalculable "unknown quantity"
in the elements of human character
and the factors of human destiny—had
already given force and point, and meaning
and dignity, to her whole personality
and her relations with life; but now the
magnitude of her wrongs and misfortunes,
and still more of his, seemed to
dwarf and crush every feeble trait and
sentiment in her.
She went back to the ball-room,
very white and silent, on Mr. Gordon's
arm; and the first person of her own
party whom she met there was Mr.
Reade, under whose protection she
placed herself, dismissing her late escort
with a quiet "good-night."
She asked to be taken to Beatrice; and
Ned, who never knew from whom he had
received her, piloted her through the
crowd until he found his small wife,
whose bright eyes no sooner rested on
Rachel's face than they recognised a
new calamity.
"Has she heard anything, I
wonder?" she asked herself in
dismay. "Are you ill?" she inquired
aloud.
"I want to go home," said
Rachel.
The little woman did not waste
time asking useless questions. She
took her cousin to the cloak-room,
sent Ned for a cab, and in a few
minutes the three were driving to the
Kingstons' hotel.
When they reached Rachel's drawing-room,
and Ned had been sent
downstairs to see if her maid was
on the premises, Mrs. Reade put her
arms round her tenderly, and begged
to know what was the matter with
her.
But Rachel, singularly unresponsive
to the rare caress, would not tell—would
not talk at all. She would
not betray the mother's crime to the
daughter, and she would not mention
the name of her beloved, even to
her dearest friend, in these married
days.
"I am not well," she said, gently
but with an odd harshness in her
face and voice. "I could not dance—I
could not stay in that place. I
shall be better here. Go back, Beatrice,
and make excuses for me. Say I was
not well."
"I shall do no such thing," said
Beatrice bluntly. "I shall not leave
you until Graham comes home."
Rachel begged and protested with
a sharp peremptoriness that was very
unusual to her. Beatrice, full of
anxiety and consternation, was obdurate.
In the midst of their discussion,
they heard Mr. Kingston coming upstairs,
bustling along in great haste.
He flung open the door, with an air
of angry irritation.
"Oh, here you are!" he exclaimed
loudly. "What on earth are you
doing? Everybody is inquiring for
you, Rachel. Aren't you well? Why
didn't you tell me, and let me
bring you home, if you wanted to
come? You have set all the room
talking and gossiping, slinking off
before midnight in this way—as if
you were a mere nobody, who
would not be missed—and not letting
me know. What's the matter,
eh?"
Rachel, without changing her position
by a hair's breadth, lifted her eyes
steadily and looked at him, but she
did not speak.
Mrs. Reade saw the look, and
she needed no words to tell her
that some crisis in the conjugal
relations of this pair had come,
which no outsider had any business
to see or meddle with; and she
guessed correctly what it was.
"I will go back, and make what
explanations are necessary," said she;
"and I will come round in the morning,
Rachel."
And she went out quickly, and closed
the door behind her. On the stairs she
met Rachel's maid going up, and told
her her mistress would ring when she
wanted her; and in the lobby of the
hotel she replied to her husband's anxious
inquiries by declaring irrelevantly that
she wished Mr. Kingston, and his house
and his money, were all at the bottom of
the sea.
That gentleman, meanwhile, after following
her out upon the landing, and
looking over the stairs to see that her
natural protector was in attendance,
returned to his wife with a vague presentiment
of unpleasantness in some
shape or other.
He, too, had been struck with the
peculiar expression of Rachel's face, and
a guilty conscience intimated at once
that she had "found out something,"
though it did not suggest any catastrophe
in particular. There were so
many things that, by unlucky accident,
she might find out.
"However, I am not going to be
called to account by her," he said to himself,
in that spirit of swagger which she
had herself nursed and nourished by
her excess of wifely meekness. "I
am not Ned Reade, to submit to
be dictated to and sat upon by
my own wife—so she needn't begin
it."
And he walked into the drawing-room
in a lordly manner.
The reception that he met with
staggered him considerably.
"Graham," said Rachel, in a very
quiet voice, "did you send word to Mr.
Roden Dalrymple that I was engaged to
you that Christmas—you know when I
mean—two years ago, when I was ill?
Did you tell that lie to Mr. Gordon
deliberately, when you knew how things
were with us?"
He was silent—intensely silent—for a
few minutes, amazed, ashamed, embarrassed,
and savage. He did not know
how to answer her. Then he gave a little
short surly laugh.
"What about it? Who has been talking
to you of those things? What is Mr. Dalrymple
to you now, I should like to know?"
"Did you?" she persisted.
"And what if I did?" he retorted
roughly, but still making a ghastly
attempt at badinage. "All's fair in love
and war, you know, my dear; and it was
that aunt of yours who told the lie, as you
elegantly term it—if it was a lie—not I;
I merely did not contradict her."
She looked at him steadily, with that
implacable hardness in her once soft
eyes.
"I will never forgive you," she
said; "I will never, never forgive
you."
"I am sure I am very sorry to
hear it; but I suppose I can manage
to get on without your forgiveness,"
he began. And then he gave up
trying to make a joke of it, and
turned upon her savagely. "Have you
been seeing that fellow, Rachel? Tell
me this instant; I insist upon knowing."
"I have seen his friend," she said,
quietly.
"And did he send his friend to
make those explanations to you—to
you?"
"No; he did not send him. It was
by accident that I met Mr. Gordon to-night!"
"And what business had you to talk
to Mr. Gordon—to talk to anybody—about
your old love affairs? Do you
forget that you are a married woman—that
you are my wife? It was bad
enough when you were single to be
mixing yourself up with a disreputable
scoundrel like that——"
"He is not a disreputable scoundrel,"
she interposed sternly. "He is the most
upright gentleman—he is the most noble
man—in the wide world. I might have
known," she added, drawing herself up
proudly, "that he would never have forsaken
me! I might have been sure that
he would never break his word; that
whoever was to blame for what happened
to me that time, he was not! But
I let myself be twisted round anybody's
fingers rather than trust in him. It serves
me right, it serves me right! I was not
worthy of him."
"Well—upon my word!"
"You need not look at me so, Graham.
I have never deceived you. I told you
before I married you exactly how it was
with me. I have never had any secrets
from you, and I never will have any. You
know as well as I do that I loved him—ah!
I did not love him enough, that is
what has ruined us!—and so I shall while
I live, if I live to be a hundred."
"You mean to say you can sit there and
tell me that to my face?"
"I can only tell the truth," she replied,
with the same hard deliberation. "I
could no more help loving him, especially
now I understand how things have been
with us—no one will know it, but it will
be in my heart—than I could help
breathing. When I leave off breathing,
then I shall forget him perhaps, not
before."
Mr. Kingston was beside himself with
passion—as, indeed, so was she.
"Forewarned is forearmed," he said,
with a sort of sardonic snarl; "I shall
know now what steps to take to protect
my honour."
"You know perfectly well that your
honour—what you call your honour—is
safe," she replied proudly. "If I am not
to be trusted, he is. Do not insult us any
more. We have had enough cruelty; we
shall have quite enough to bear—he
and I."
And so they went on with these bitter
and defiant recriminations—Mr. Kingston,
of course, insisting upon giving due prominence
to his own wrongs, which were
very real ones in their way, and both of
them making reckless proposals with
respect to their domestic arrangements—until
suddenly, without any apparent
warning, Rachel went off into wild
hysterics, and the doctor had to be sent
for.
Perhaps it was the best thing that could
have happened under all the circumstances.
She was very ill for several
hours; and in the morning, when passion
was spent, and she was lying in her bed
still and quiet, with her head swathed in
wet bandages, her husband knelt down
beside her and asked her to forgive him.
"It was for love of you that I did it,"
he said; "and I am punished, too. We
can't undo it now, Rachel, if we would,
and there's no good in making a public
talk and scandal. Let bygones be bygones,
won't you, dear?"
She lifted her heavy eyes to his face.
They were cold and hard no longer, but
unutterably dull and sad.
"Yes," she said wearily; "we have
both been wrong; we have injured one
another. We must try to make the best
of it; it is the only thing we can do
now."
He kissed her and stroked her face, and
adjusted the wet bandages.
"There, there," he said soothingly,
"we both forgot ourselves a little. We
said a great deal more than we meant, I
daresay. People do when they are out of
temper."
And he bade her go to sleep, told her
he would take her for a drive in the
afternoon if she felt well enough, and
went forth with the sense that he was
treating her magnanimously to receive
and reply to inquiries after her health in
person.
By noon, "all Melbourne," according
to Mrs. Hardy's calculation, was aware
that Mr. and Mrs. Kingston had had a
quarrel (though there was every variety
of conjecture as to the cause of it, and a
division of opinion as to which was the
most to blame); but it was not Mr.
Kingston's fault if all Melbourne was not
satisfied by nightfall that the quarrel had
been made up.
CHAPTER VI.
MRS. READE MEETS HER MATCH.
"
WILL Mr. Roden Dalrymple do
Mrs. Edward Reade the great
favour to call upon her to-morrow
(Thursday) morning, if convenient
to him, between ten and twelve
o'clock? She is particularly anxious to
see him upon a matter of private business."
This note was despatched from South
Yarra to Menzies on a certain night in the
early part of December, a few weeks after
the Town Hall ball. Mr. Dalrymple had
just come to Melbourne, and Mrs. Reade,
through the gossip of afternoon visitors,
had heard of it.
She had heard of a great deal more
besides—from Laura's husband chiefly;
and the critical nature of the situation,
and her anxious solicitude for Rachel's
welfare in the midst of the perils and
temptations to which, while a meeting
with her old lover was possible, she would
be exposed, made it seem absolutely necessary
that the person who was most capable
of doing so effectually should interfere
once more.
The course she adopted in undertaking
this delicate and difficult enterprise was
worthy alike of her courage and her good
sense. She had never met Mr. Dalrymple,
and she had no definite knowledge of his
character, only an impression that he was
"wild"—a man of the world, with a
touch of the libertine and the vagabond
about him—and that he was also undoubtedly
a gentleman, with some of the
finer qualities that are the heritage of
good blood.
Yet she determined that she would
abjure all schemes and artifices, and see
him herself before there was time for anything
to happen, and appeal to his honour
and generosity on behalf of the woman
he loved—upon whose peace it seemed
evident to her he had some selfish if not
distinctly evil designs.
"He has come to town in consequence
of Mr. Gordon's representations, of
course, for no other purpose than to
see her," the little woman said to
herself the moment she heard of his
arrival; "and if he does see her,
nothing but trouble can possibly come
of it."
So she determined to prevent trouble
if possible, and this seemed to her the
proper way.
She prepared herself for the interview
on the Thursday morning, without any
sense of having undertaken a difficult
task.
When he arrived she was discussing
dinner with her cook, and she walked
from the larder to the drawing-room
with a very grave and thoughtful face,
but feeling perfectly serene and self-possessed.
He was standing in the middle of
the room, facing the door, with his hat
in his hand when she entered. He
looked immensely tall, and stiff, and
stately. There was an air of impracticable
independence in his attitude,
and in the distant dignity of his salutation
that disconcerted her a little. He
was wonderfully like his photograph she
thought, and yet he was a much more
imposing personage than she had bargained
for.
"Oh, Mr. Dalrymple—it was so kind
of you to come," she said, in her quick,
easy way. "I must apologise for summoning
you in such a very informal
manner, but—a—won't you sit down?"
She dropped into one of her soft, low
chairs; and her visitor seated himself at
a little distance from her, not hesitatingly,
but with just so much deliberation as
indicated a protest against the prolongation
of the interview.
"I understood from your note that you
wished to see me upon some business,"
he suggested gravely.
"I did," she replied, feeling unaccountably
flustered. "Perhaps you will think
it rather impertinent of me—perhaps it is
a liberty for me to take—but the fact is I
have so deep an interest in my cousin's
welfare—she is so very dear to me—I
must plead that as my excuse——"
"You are speaking of Mrs. Kingston?"
he interposed in the same cool and distant
manner, "I hope she is quite well? I
have not had the pleasure of seeing her
since her marriage."
"She is quite well, thank you. I trust
she will keep so, but I am afraid she is
not very strong. Mr. Dalrymple, I ought
perhaps to tell you that I—that Rachel
told me—that I am aware of the relationship
that has existed between you."
"We will not speak of that, if you
please, Mrs. Reade."
"But I sent for you on purpose to
speak of it."
"Then I must ask you to excuse me,"
he said, rising haughtily. "I cannot
discuss those matters with strangers—still
less with a member of Miss Fetherstonhaugh's
family."
"But, Mr. Dalrymple, I am not to
blame for anything that has happened—for
any mistakes that have been made—I
assure you I am not. I never
knew of your accident—I never knew
that Mr. Gordon came down—I
never knew anything more than
Rachel did, until it was too late.
And I was her intimate friend all
that time, and she made me her
confidante. I served her interests as far
as a friend who loved her could, to the
best of my power."
"If that is so, I am very grateful to
you," he said gently, "though I am afraid
you failed to see what her interests were.
May I ask if you are acting under her
instructions now? Did she authorise you
to make this appointment for the purpose
of speaking of these things?"
"Of course she did not."
"Then we will not speak of them.
There would be very grave impropriety in
doing so. You must see, Mrs. Reade,
that nothing you can say will in the least
degree affect the case for anyone. I
think we all know the truth of the story
now. It is too late to take any action
one way or the other. For Mrs. Kingston's
sake, the fewer reminiscences we
allow the better. Our business is to
reconcile ourselves to circumstances, since
they are irrevocable, and to let the past
alone. If it was your intention to explain
to me that you were guiltless of active
participation in the crime which parted
us, believe me, I appreciate the kind
motive, and I thank you from my heart.
But it is much better not to say any more
about it."
He was still standing with his hat in
his hand, and that peculiar distant look
in his sad and haughty face. Mrs. Reade
sat before him in her low chair silent,
with her eyes cast down.
Not one of the numerous gentlemen in
whose affairs she had condescended to
take an interest had ever treated her like
this, and she felt inexpressibly humiliated.
Yet she had no sense of resentment,
strange to say, against the individual
who dominated her, and the position
generally, in such an unexampled
manner.
"Did I understand you to say that Mrs.
Kingston was not strong?" he inquired
after a short pause.
"I think she is very well," Mrs. Reade
meekly responded. "Her constitution is
quite sound; but her nervous system is
delicate. She cannot stand worry, or
shocks, or any great excitement or fatigue—any
of those things upset her."
"I should imagine so. But it is always
possible to keep her free of those things,
is it not?"
Mrs. Reade replied, not so much to
the letter as to the spirit of the
question.
"Her husband takes good care of her,"
she said. "He is very thoughtful for her
comfort. She does not run any risk of
harm that he can spare her. If we are
all as careful of her welfare as he is, Mr.
Dalrymple—if we are as scrupulous to
protect her peace now she is at peace——"
She broke off, and lifted her eyes wistfully.
Mr. Dalrymple looked down upon her
with stately and impenetrable composure.
"I am deeply thankful to know that
her marriage has so far been satisfactory,"
he said. "I suppose the house in Toorak
is nearly finished, is it not?"
"It is quite finished. They went into
it three weeks ago."
"It promised to be a very good house,
though rather of the nouveaux riches order
of architecture," he proceeded coolly; "and
unfortunately it is impossible to manufacture
trees, without which the best
house looks bald and naked. But it stands
well. It must be a very healthy situation;
and that, after all, is the principal consideration."
"I hope she will be happy in it," said
Mrs. Reade. Her soul rebelled against
this mode of treating the question, and
yet her efforts to divert the discussion
into the channels that she had
designed for it were absurdly feeble and
futile.
"I hope so, indeed," he replied gravely.
"I suppose you see a great deal of her,
do you not?"
"Yes. I seldom miss a day without
seeing her. Either I go to Toorak, or
she comes here, or we meet somewhere
about town. I do whatever is in my
power to help to make her happy."
"It must be a happiness to you, too,
to have her friendship and confidence in
such a marked degree."
"It is," said Mrs. Reade.
"I—if you will excuse me—I will say
good morning. Allow me to thank you
very much for permitting me to call,
and for your kind interest in my misfortunes—and
in Mrs. Kingston's welfare.
But the greatest service you can do
her, Mrs. Reade, is to be silent yourself,
and to discourage gossip in others,
about anything that occurred either
before or since her marriage in connection
with me. I hope I do not seem
discourteous in saying this—if so, pray
forgive me. I speak to you frankly,
because you are her friend. I am
afraid she has not had many friends—there
is the more reason that we who
desire her welfare and happiness, should
take every precaution against imperilling
it by allowing any hint of these
private matters to reach the ears of
vulgar scandalmongers. A great crime
has been done, for which if there
is anything in the theory of retribution,
some one will have to answer
some day; but in the meantime our
part is to take care that she is spared
as much difficulty and suffering as
possible."
"Yes, Mr. Dalrymple. That is what
I think—that is what I was going to
say."
"I am sure you think so. I am sure
you see that that is all we can do for
her now. Good morning. I am much
obliged to you for your kindness. It
looks rather as if we were going to
have a storm, does it not? The air is
close and sultry, and the glass is falling
very fast."
He turned from looking out of the
window and made a stately bow; she
laid her hand upon the bell mechanically—she
had no arts wherewith to keep
him; and in another minute he had
passed out of the house, and the door
was shut upon him. The interview which
was to have had such great results was
over.
We have heard it said of a pioneer
colonist, lessee of a Crown-land principality,
that, after bearing the reverses of fortune
which, with the advent of free selectors,
overwhelmed him, the loss of land and
stock and the accumulated treasure of
toilsome and prosperous years, with the
fortitude and equanimity of a gentleman,
he was broken down at last by the unspeakable
humiliation of the circumstance
that he had "lived to hear himself called
a boss-cocky."
Mrs. Reade had not only been defied
and defeated, and made to feel small and
ridiculous in her own drawing-room, where
never man or woman—man, especially—had
never dared dispute her supremacy;
but she had lived to hear herself called,
or at any rate to find herself considered,
a gossip—a common tattler and busybody,
who intrigued in other people's private
affairs from the vulgar feminine love of
meddling—and the blow was equally
bitter.
She stood in the bow window of her
drawing-room, and watched the tall figure
leisurely striding through the garden as if
South Yarra and the adjacent suburbs
were but a small part of his possessions;
taking in all the details of his strong majestic
figure, his thin, dark, proud face,
with its immense moustache, the perfection
of his quiet dress, and the repose
and dignity of his bearing generally,
and of every distinct movement that he
made—even when trying to open a
gate with a mysterious fastening, at
which most people fumbled and bungled
awkwardly.
But she was not consumed with a
passion of angry resentment against him
for the indignities and humiliations that
he had heaped upon her. No, she was
filled with a vague but intense respect
and admiration for him, a feeling that
she had never before entertained for any
individual of his sex.
She did not say it to herself in so many
words, but the thought of her heart undoubtedly
was that here was the man,
who as a husband, would just have suited
her.
CHAPTER VII.
GOOD-BYE.
ON that same day, at a little after
four o'clock in the afternoon,
Mrs. Kingston might have been
seen—she was seen, in fact—going into
the Town Hall by herself, having left her
carriage in the street below. She mounted
the stone steps lightly, with the train of
her dress held up in her hand, looking
exquisitely fresh and dainty in the dusty
sultriness that everywhere prevailed; and
she glided through the vestibule as if time
were precious, paid her sixpence, and
entered the hall, where she took a solitary
seat under the shadow of the gallery at
the lower end.
The organist was interpreting Mozart
to some hundreds of receptive citizens,
making the great organ sing like a choir
of angels in the "Gloria" of the Twelfth
Mass, "et in terra pax, pax, pax hominibus;
bonæ, bonæ voluntatis." All the spacious
place was flooded with the impassioned
harmonies of that inspired theme.
Rachel was not what is popularly
called musical, but in the dulness of
her empty life her soul slacked its thirst
in this way, as a soul of a lower order,
which had been denied its natural
nourishment, might have found comfort
in the emotional stimulus of champagne
or brandy.
She could not play well herself, but
she was like a fine instrument to be
played upon; not one sweet phrase of
melody passed from her listening ear
to her sensitive heart without wakening
an echo that had the very divine afflatus
in it in response. And in this resonance
of enthusiasms and aspirations, dumb and
suffocated in the bondage of her artificial
life—in the sense of breathing spiritual
air, and freedom, though with a passion
of enjoyment that filled her with far
more pain than peace—she found the
one true luxury of her much-envied
lot.
Long ago—oh, so long ago!—the music
of a violin had led her into enchantment,
as the Pied Piper of Hamelin led away the
children. To-day the music of the Town
Hall organ, speaking now in Mozart's
dramatic choruses, and again in Baptiste's
Andante in G, was a similar but a sadder
incantation.
She sat solitary in her far-away chair,
with her feet on the rung of the one in
front of her, her hands, gloved to perfection,
folded in her lap, her delicate,
neat dress daintily adjusted, much as she
might have sat in the pew at church,
a model of matronly grace and propriety.
But who could tell, from the expression
of her quiet pose and her dreamy eyes,
what ineffable raptures and fancies, what
infinite longings and yearnings—nameless,
even to her own consciousness, but all
reminiscent of the blessed past—soared
out of captivity on the wings of those
alluring harmonies!
Who could see that in her heart she
was crying—crying bitterly—for the
poetry and the beauty that were lost out
of her life!
There was an interval of silence, during
which she sat quite still, looking at the
great organ-pipes, and seeing nothing;
and then there grew out of the hush the
delicious rhythm of the "Faust" waltz,
beating like a soft pulse through the
summer air.
What spell is there in the "Faust"
waltz, or in any waltz, for one whose heart
is capable of receiving and responding to
the inspired message of Mozart?
How can we tell? But this we know,
that those whose hearts are warm and
young—who understand how to love and
how to dance, and have done the two
things at the self-same moment—have
seldom any more power than they have
honest inclination to resist the subtle wiles
of this simple measure.
There is a vox humana stop out in
whatever organ plays it, magnetic to the
human passions that memory and imagination
keep. Rachel did not ask why it
was, but she felt, as soon as the air began
to unwind itself from a confusion of sweet
sounds, and she heard the slow time
throbbing softly in her ears, that she did
not know how to bear it.
It filled her soul with a great wave of
suffocating emotion—it ran like an electric
current over all her sensitive nerves—it
contracted her white throat with a choking
pain that was like incipient hysteria—it
set abnormal pulses bounding in her brain.
She did not think of Adelonga, and the
hour when she and her true love had their
first and last waltz together.
No definite picture of the past arose at
the magician's bidding, or if it did, she
shut her eyes to it. But she could not
help the forlorn rapture of longing for
that nameless something that was the
most precious of her woman's rights,
which fate and fraud had taken from
her, when the notes of this dreamy waltz
measure, so charged with passionate and
poetic associations, pulsed from the
heart of the organ into her warm young
blood.
"Oh, my love! my love!"—that was
the burden of the music which was not
set to words.
And she turned her face a little, and
saw Roden Dalrymple standing in the
doorway. He had come in quietly, and
was waiting, with his hat in his hand,
apparently for a pause in the performance,
which he did not wish to interrupt, but
really until he could find where some
one whom he was looking for was
sitting.
It was the first time she had seen him
since that October night when they had
parted in the moonlight under the walls
of the house that was now her home; but
she had been, unknown to herself, expecting
him, and there was no shock in her
surprise.
She knew that he was looking for her,
when she saw his eyes travelling over the
rows of occupied chairs in the upper
division of the hall, and she longed to call
out to him,
"Roden, Roden, here I am!"
But not a dozen seconds passed before
he saw her far away from him in her
shadowy corner; and when he saw her,
with that solemn eagerness in her face, he
knew—but he said to himself he had
already known—that, though she had
forsaken him, she had never done him
wrong.
Of course before the day was over
it was reported in various circles,
more or less select, that pretty Mrs.
Kingston, who had married an old
fogey for his money, was in the habit
of coming to the organ recitals alone
and unbeknown to her husband, in
order to enjoy clandestine flirtations
with younger and more fascinating
men.
It was also darkly whispered that the
favoured individual was a person who
made it his constant practice to run away
with married women, and to murder
their lawful spouses in sham duels
afterwards if they ventured to make any
objections.
But of all the human beings collected
in the Town Hall that afternoon,
perhaps no two were less capable of
violating the spirit of the moral and
social law whereof the letter is so
sacred to the ubiquitous and lynx-eyed
Mrs. Grundy, who persists in suspecting
everyone of a desire to evade or
infringe it, simply for the sake of doing
so, whenever he or she is presented with
an opportunity.
That they loved one another as
much as it was possible for sympathetic
hearts to love, and that they seized one
brief half-hour out of a lifetime of
separation in which to say farewell,
might have been reprehensible from the
conventional point of view; but then
the conventional point of view does not
embrace the universe, by a very long
way.
He came down the hall, and round
to her chair, and she drew her dress
close that he might sit down beside her.
She was too innately pure to make any
mere outward and artificial demonstrations
of modesty in such a moment
as this; and she trusted him too well to
be afraid of him.
She put out her hand, and he took it
in a long, close clasp; and they looked
at one another the while with loving,
despairing eyes, which said, "Oh, Rachel,
why did you?" and "Oh, Roden, forgive
me!" and bridged the only gulf that
could be bridged between them, without
any help of words.
And then, though the organ began to
fill the air with the sonorous crash and
thunder of Bach's great pedal fugue in
D, they heard nothing but the beating
of their hearts, and the memories that
called to them from their brief past,
vibrating through the void and silence
of a world in which they were alone
together.
When the music ceased for an interval,
Mr. Dalrymple rested his arm on the
back of the chair which had served
Rachel for a footstool, and looking into
her face, said under his breath,
"Gordon gave me your message—I
came down to thank you—and I
thought we should get on better if
we could see each other just once.
Dear, we must try and comfort ourselves
with knowing that neither of us
played the other false."
"I did—I did," she whispered
hurriedly. "I ought to have trusted
you, Roden."
"Yes—that was a mistake. But you
did not know any better, poor child.
And they were too many for you,
those people. Gordon ought to have
insisted on seeing you, himself, or
getting some message to you, and not
have left you in their hands. But he
did his best, he says. He was too
anxious to get back to me to have
much patience over it, and he didn't
bargain for being told lies of that
magnitude in cold blood. However,—however——"
He broke off and looked at her with
a passion of love and grief in his eyes
that he dared not trust to speech. And
she looked back at him, with her
simple soul laid bare—longing to make
him know, if they were never to be
together like this again, how absolutely
in her heart she had been true to him.
She would not tell him a lie, at any rate.
"Oh," he said in a sort of groaning
whisper, drawing a long hard breath,
"oh, my little one, isn't it hard
lines!"
"Don't," she gasped, feeling that
clutch on her throat tighten with a
sudden spasm; "oh, Roden, don't!"
And he straightened himself quickly,
and sat back in his chair. And the
organ began to play again—a stately
march of Schubert's, which acted like
a tonic on her disordered nerves, and
as a sedative to the hysterical excitement
that for a moment had threatened to
overmaster her.
The echoes of that march rang in her
ears, when Roden was gone back to
Queensland and this chapter of her
life was finished, for many a long
day.
And then at last the thunders of the
National Anthem brought the performance
to a close, and the audience
trooped out, casting curious glances as
they went at the distinguished-looking
couple standing conspicuously apart—the
tall stranger with the peculiar
moustache, who had soldier and gentleman
written on him from head to
foot, and the graceful young lady with
the lovely complexion and the irreproachable
French dress, whom nobody "who
was anybody" failed to recognise.
The two were left together amongst
all the empty chairs, in a silence that
was hardly broken by the organist's
movements at the far end of the hall,
closing the stops and keys of his
enormous instrument.
"Well," said Mr. Dalrymple, looking
down upon his companion, who lifted
to his sombre eyes a pale but
solemn face, "well—so this is all, I
suppose!"
Her lips twitched a little; she could
not answer him.
"You are not sorry that I came, are
you, Rachel? It will not make it harder
for you, will it?"
"Oh, no, Roden! But it is you on
whom it is so hard—you will be so
lonely without me! I can't bear to
think what I have brought on you—and
you had so many troubles
already!"
"Not you, dear—not you. And I can
bear all my part of it, if only things go
well with you."
"Why did you break that trace?"
she exclaimed, with a touch of bitter
passion. "But for that—but for two
minutes lost—you would never have
seen me, and then I should never
have spoiled your life like this."
"But, dear, we are not going to
regret that, I hope. We have got something
'saved from chance and change,'
if not much, that to me at any rate—yes
and to you too, I know—is worth even
this heavy price that we are paying for
it now. It need not spoil our lives,
Rachel, to know—what we know. It
is an agonising thing to see how
blessed it might have been for us, and to
be obliged to give it all up; but I shall
never think of those two hours, when
we belonged entirely to each other—only
two hours, Rachel, out of our whole
lives!—without being thankful for the
chance which gave them to us. Yes, and
I think we shall be the better for them—I
don't say happier, because I really
don't know what that word means—but
I think life will somehow have
a finer quality henceforth, whatever
happens, on account of those two hours.
Dear, I am forcing myself to give in
to the hard fate that has done us out
of our inheritance; but there is one
thing that I don't think I could get
reconciled to—and that is to thinking
that you would ever live to wish
that we had never known each
other."
"I could not wish it," she whispered;
"I could only try to persuade myself that
I did."
"Do not try. You are under no
obligation of duty to do that. Try to
be happy with your husband—try not to
fret over what is irrevocable, and not
to hanker after what is hopeless. But
don't try to turn me out of the only
place in your life where I have a corner
of my own. Let me keep the little of
you that I have got—it is little enough!
Do you remember what you said to me
that night?—you said you had no rights
in my past. He has no rights in our
past. Keep it sacred, Rachel, for my
sake. That will not hurt anybody. You
are not afraid that such remembrances,
if you shut them away in your heart,
will militate against your efforts to do
what is right by him? And you are not
afraid that I will ever tempt or trouble
you?"
"Oh, Roden, I am not afraid of you—you
well know that!"
"Treat me as if I were dead," he
said gently. "If I had been killed that
time when I was thrown—if I were in
my grave now—I know how you would
think of me. You would not wish you
had never seen me then. That is how
I want you to think of me, Rachel."
"I know," she said, drawing a deep
breath. "But to me—even if you had
killed yourself—to me you could never
be dead."
By this time they had sauntered slowly
out of the deserted hall and through the
empty vestibules, and were standing in
the doorway, looking out upon the street
below them.
The storm that had threatened in the
morning was gathering up. Heavy
clouds weighed upon the sultry air, and
gusts of wind were beginning to blow
the dust about ominously. Pedestrians
were hurrying to gain shelter before the
rain came on, but, as they passed, they
took note of the lingering pair, who were
apparently heedless of the warnings of
the elements, with more or less curious
eyes. Neither of them, it is needless to
say, minded in the least who saw them.
They had no desire to take even this last
good-bye clandestinely.
And when Rachel, to whom it had not
occurred to wonder why her carriage
was not in attendance, saw it thundering
along the street towards her, it
was with as much relief as surprise
that she recognised her husband in it,
looking out of the window for
her.
"We have said nothing," said Mr.
Dalrymple, who perceived the approach
of his old rival and enemy; "and we
had so much to say."
"Perhaps it is better not to say
much," said Rachel.
"Perhaps so. But one thing you
must not mind my asking you—and I
know you will tell me truly—are you
getting along pretty well? Do you
think you will be able to make anything
of a happy life out of it?
That is my great anxiety."
"Do not be anxious about me," she
replied. "I shall get along. I know
that you forgive me—that will help me
more than anything."
"Don't talk about forgiveness, child—it
implies a wider separation than I
think has ever been between us.
There can be no forgiveness in the
case of people who never knowingly
do one another wrong."
The carriage, with its high stepping,
showy horses, began to slacken speed,
and they descended the long flight of
steps quietly, side by side.
"Is he good to you?" inquired
Roden, quickly.
"Very," she replied; "very, indeed."
And then they reached the pavement,
and the person referred to got out of
the carriage and came to meet
them.
It must be recorded, to Mr. Kingston's
credit, that he behaved like a
gentleman on this occasion. He was
a little acid and supercilious, and not
as composed as he assumed to be; but
otherwise he conducted himself with
propriety. "I took the carriage for
half an hour," said he loudly. "I hope
I haven't kept you waiting, my dear.
Ah, Mr. Dalrymple, how do you do?
I did not know you were in town.
I hope you are quite well. Making a
long stay?"
"A day or two only," said Roden,
who stiffened in spite of himself, but
spoke with studied courtesy. "I shall
be starting back to Queensland to-night.
I am glad to have had the opportunity
of meeting Mrs. Kingston, and to see
her looking well."
"Oh, yes, she is very well, I hope.
Travelling did her good—it does everybody
good. I felt quite set up by it
myself. Dear me, was that a drop of
rain? I think you had better be getting
home, Rachel. There is a heavy storm
coming directly. Good day, Mr. Dalrymple,
good day. We can't set you
down anywhere, I suppose?"
Mr. Dalrymple declined a seat in the
carriage with thanks, and he held out
his hand to Rachel.
"Good-bye," he said quietly.
"Good-bye," she replied, with an ash-white
face. They looked at one another
for a second; and then, lifting his hat
gravely, Mr. Dalrymple turned and
walked away down the street, and
Mr. Kingston gave his arm to his
wife, and led her to her carriage. Poor
Rachel! she did not ask herself what
would happen next—she did not wonder
nor care whether she was to be
scolded or not. For a few bitter, lonely
moments, she had no recognisable
future.
Then she turned to her husband, who
was fanning the fuel of his wrath in
silence, laid her hand on his arm, and
said softly, "Graham?"
"Well—what?" he inquired, roughly.
"Do not be angry. I am never going
to see him again."
"It's to be hoped not," he snarled,
"if you have any regard for your reputation.
Standing up there with him, in
that public way, for all Melbourne to
see!"
"You would not have wished me to
meet Mr. Dalrymple in any way that
was not public," she said, drawing herself
up. "And I should be very sorry
to do anything that all Melbourne might
not see."
The rain began to sweep down heavily,
and he turned to put up the window
nearest him with an energy that threatened
destruction to the glass.
And he said no more about Mr. Dalrymple.
Disturbed as he was, he was greatly
relieved that the meeting he had always
dreaded was over, and had taken place
so quietly; and poor as was his estimation
of the abstract woman, he had
the most implicit faith in his wife's
sincerity.
When she told him that she had bidden
her old lover a final farewell, he believed
her; and, though the sight and thought
of the man made him ferocious, he was
quite aware that difficulties were adjusting
themselves more satisfactorily than
he could have expected.
He did not feel that he had any
excuse for upbraiding Rachel now, and
he did not do it. But he had to put
great restraint upon himself not to do
it.
He got out of the carriage at his club,
shutting the door with a bang behind
him, and while his wife drove home by
herself in a state of semi-consciousness,
he went in to quarrel with some of his
old friends who chanced to require his
opinion upon the political situation.
Politics, he promptly gave them to understand,
were beneath his notice,
likewise the people who concerned themselves
therein. He wouldn't touch one
of them with a pair of tongs. It
wasn't for gentlemen and clubmen to
mix themselves up with a lot of rogues
and vagabonds. Let them alone and be
hanged to them. That was what
respectable people did in America. If
Americans didn't care what riff-raff
represented them, why should they?
As for the colony, if it liked to be
dragged in the dirt—if it preferred, of
its own free will, to go to the devil—let
it, for all to him.
And so he worked off his savage temper
harmlessly, and appeared in his own
drawing-room at seven o'clock, irreproachably
spruce, and with a flower in his
button-hole, looking jaunty and amiable,
as if nothing had happened.
Rachel, when he arrived, was sitting
alone in the midst of her wealth and
splendour, waiting for him.
She rose as he entered and went to
meet him, looking lovely in her favourite
black velvet, with red geraniums in her
hair; and she laid her hand on his
sleeve, and lifted a sad but peaceful
face. "Kiss me, Graham," she said
gently.
He put his arms round her at once.
"Dear little woman!" he responded.
"I understand. I am not angry with
you. It's all right. We won't say any
more about it."
And he led her to the dining-room
and placed her "at the head of the
table," which was her social throne;
and he plied her with dainty viands
and rare wines with a fussy solicitude
that was highly edifying to the
servants who waited upon them, by
way of showing her that he forgave
her.
He was much impressed by his own
large magnanimity; and what was more
to the purpose, so in her unselfish heart,
was she. They spent the evening together,
tête-à-tête by the fireside (for it was cold
when the storm was over), in the most
domestic manner, planning new schemes
for the garden and for the arrangement
of a pet cabinet of blue china; and
when Rachel went to bed, lighting her
way about the great corridors and staircases
with a candle that her husband
had lit for her, she felt that he was
helping her to make a fair start upon
the weary road which stretched, plain
and straight—but, oh, so flat and bare!—before
her.
And she was very grateful to him.
Mr. Dalrymple, meanwhile left town by
an evening train, and travelled night and
day until he reached his home in the
Queensland wilderness, where, being
human—and very much so, too—he unloosed
his heart from the restraints that
he had put upon it, and railed at ease over
the injustices of fate in the very strongest
language.
"Why should I have done it?" he demanded
of his ancient friend and comrade
as they lounged in restful attitudes under
the grass-thatched verandah of their
humble little house, smoking the pipe of
peace in the cool of the summer day.
"Why should I have given her up to him?
What right has he to keep her, while I am
lonely for the rest of my days? He has not
the shadow of a right. She doesn't belong
to him, and she never will. There is no
binding force in any other contract that is
entered into by fraud and false pretences;
why should there be in this which she
has been dragged into, and which deprives
her as well as me, of all the flower
and sweetness of her life? It is a
monstrous sacrifice—and as immoral as
it is monstrous.
"It isn't as if we had no end of years,
no end of lives to throw away. Suppose,
ages hence, if we should survive, with
our human nature, and I, for one, don't
want to survive without it—and we look
back upon this precious bit of certain happiness
that we might have had, and see
that we voluntarily gave up the whole of
it merely because of a wretched little
paper law—a miserable little conventional
prejudice—what shall we think of ourselves
then? We shall say that we did not
deserve a gift that we did not know how
to value."
"Rave away," said Mr. Gordon. "It
will do you good. All the same, you
know, as well as I do, that it would be
impossible for you to do less or more than
you have done."
Of course it was impossible. Few
people are better than they profess to be,
but he was one of those few. And if he
had had the happiness of twenty lives to
lose, he would have lost it all twice over
rather than have kept it at any cost of
peace or honour to the woman he loved.
He allowed himself the right to love her
still, which, as he justly remarked, couldn't
hurt anybody.
He thought of her as he rode about his
lonely plains, looking after black boys and
cattle, and dreamt of her as he lay out in
the starlight nights, with a saddle for his
pillow, and the red light of the camp-fire
flickering through the darkness upon his
face; and always with a sense that,
spiritually and morally, she belonged,
before all the world to him.
But he never at heart regretted either
that he had seen her that day at the Town-hall,
or that he had elected to see her no
more. He had done the only thing that
it had been in him to do.
CHAPTER VIII.
CONSOLATION.
IF it is true, as it is said, and
as the observation of most of
us seems to testify, that the
ideal marriage is hardly ever realised,
and then only when the rare and
brief experience has been bought at
untold cost of precious years, it is,
perhaps, equally true that the majority
of marriages wrongly and recklessly
entered into, provided the contracting
parties are honestly disposed,
turn out surprisingly and undeservedly
well.
Time, which solaces our disappointments
and sanctifies our bereavements,
remedies also in a great
measure even these criminal mistakes.
As Rachel truly said, there are
"whole worlds of things" besides love—i.e.,
"the love of man and woman
when they love their best"—to knit
husbands and wives together; and,
independently of the ties that children
create, and which, to the mother at
least, are supremely and eternally
sacred, the innumerable soft webs of
habit and association that are woven
in days and years of intimate companionship
grow, like ivy over a fissure
in a wall, so strong as eventually not
only to hide the vacant place, but in
some degree to supply artificially that
element of stability and permanence to
the structure which in its essential
substance it lacked.
And so it was with Rachel. After
a little time, when she had "settled
down," changed and aged, and sobered
as she was, she really was not
unhappy.
She was always vastly conscious of
her loss, but she was of too wholesome
a disposition to be embittered
by it; and her simple sense of duty
and her characteristic unselfishness
prompted her from the first to wear
a cheerful face for her husband, and
never by word or deed to reproach
him, which course of conduct had
the natural result of comforting
herself quite as much as it gratified
him.
He was not a bad man, and in
his easy fashion, he loved her; and
appreciating her gentle and dutiful
behaviour, he put himself out of the
way to be kind to her, though,
with all his attentions, he never
was what one would call a domestic
husband.
Her demands upon him were not
exorbitant. Indeed, she was true to
her creed in not demanding anything;
but for such evidences of his affection
as he voluntarily bestowed upon her
she showed herself always grateful
in a meek, pleased way that was very
charming to a man vain of his own
importance, and she did not profess
to be more so than, in her soft heart,
she really was.
She had no vocation for independence,
nor for making herself—still less for
making others—miserable; and if she
had married Bluebeard instead of a
well-intentioned gentleman, she must
have twined herself about him with
her tender, deferential, delicately-caressing
ways—which came as naturally
to her as breathing—and have
found support and rest in doing
it.
When all signs of storm had cleared
away, the apparently ill-matched husband
and wife settled down to a life
together that, if not rapturously delightful,
was quite as placid and kindly and
peaceful as the married life of most
of us.
They did not see a great deal of
each other, to be sure; but the hours
that they spent together, being generally
hours when Mr. Kingston was tired
or unwell, and wanted to be nursed
and cheered, and to have the papers
read to him, had a homely sweetness
and solace for Rachel not far removed
from happiness.
And then I am afraid it must be
confessed that the house, and the
wealth and luxury belonging to it, did
comfort her a little.
She was excessively unpretentious in
her habits, and pure and simple in her
tastes, but she had an intense appreciation
of all those delicate personal
refinements which womanly women
love, and only those who have money,
and plenty of it, can enjoy—of which
years of sordid poverty had taught her
the grace and value; and it was not
possible to her, with her healthy sense
of life, to refuse, even if she had
wished, to absorb the fragrance and
brightness of her social and material
surroundings.
She revelled in her beautiful garden
and in her spacious and artistic rooms;
she loved her piano and her books
and pictures, and her innumerable
pretty things; she enjoyed her drives
and her rides, and her visiting and
her parties, and her operas and concerts,
and her shopping expeditions—upon
which no limitations were placed
by her husband, who liked her
to spend his money—with Laura and
Beatrice.
And, more than all, she delighted
in the power which her position gave
her of doing all kinds of helpful,
unpretentious service to the poor and
miserable, whom she seemed, by a sort
of divining-rod, to discover in the most
unexpected places.
Her husband would not allow her
to make her large subscriptions to the
public charities anonymously, nor would
he consent to her taking invalids of
the lower orders for drives, except
upon unfrequented roads and in a
generally surreptitious manner; and he
strongly objected to her visiting poor
people's cottages, and running risks of
catching dirt and fever.
But she might make frocks for
ragged children, and babyclothes for
unprovided mothers, and scrap-books
for the Alfred Hospital; she might
load her carriage with wine and chicken
broth every time she went out; she
might spend a little fortune, as she
did, in helping on benevolent enterprises
of all sorts; and he only laughed
at her for being a soft-hearted little
goose, and triumphed over her when—as
happened in five cases out of
ten—she was proved to have been
more or less flagrantly imposed upon
and taken in.
Like most people who have badly
known the want of money, she was
decidedly extravagant in spending it
now that she had plenty; and, unlike
most husbands and wives in such
circumstances, she and Mr. Kingston
had no pleasanter episodes in their
domestic life than those which had
reference to her financial embarrassments.
It was charming to him (since his
banking account was much too solid
to be easily affected by her operations)
to see her come, with her timid and
anxious face, to confess that she had
spent all her money, and to ask him,
with the sweetest wifely meekness, if
he could spare her a little more; and
to her he never showed to better
advantage than when he declared,
so obviously without meaning it,
that she would ruin him, and then
gave her twice as much as she had
asked for.
She always flushed and glowed with
pleasure at this delicate and generous,
and gentlemanly way of doing things,
and would put her arms round his
neck and kiss him; and, naturally, he
would thereafter set forth to his
club, feeling proud of himself and
pleased with things in general, his
young wife and he being so thoroughly
in their right places in their relation
to one another.
And then there came to Rachel that
which to every true woman is the
greatest and dearest and best—save
one—of all life's many good things,
and which to her must inevitably have
made even the most loveless marriage
lovely:—
"On the 17th inst., at Toorak, the
wife of Graham Kingston, Esq., of a
son."
This little notice appeared in "The
Argus," of the 18th, and caused a flutter
and sensation in all well-regulated
Melbourne households.
"Dear me, how nice! and a son,
too. How pleased Mr. Kingston will
be! An heir to all that fine property
at last! Dear me, how nice! We must
call and make inquiries."
And when kind inquiries resulted in
the satisfactory information that both
mother and infant were progressing
favourably, society congratulated Mr.
Kingston with effusive and impressive
cordiality, which that gentleman, deprecating
a fuss with airs of smiling indifference,
felt to be by no means more
than the occasion demanded.
Of course, the interesting event
made a pleasant commotion in the
great Toorak house and in the Hardy
family.
Mrs. Hardy assumed the functions of
mother-in-law to Mr. Kingston, and
introduced him to his son and heir
with a genuine maternal pride, that
could not have been more touching
or more complimentary to either of
the delighted parents, had the featureless
little atom been a lineal fifth
grandchild.
The stately matron, as is the habit
of stately matrons under such circumstances,
put off her conventional armour
and rustled softly about the hushed
rooms, clothed in all the homely womanliness
of her own baby-nursing youth;
and Rachel, watching her from her
tranquil nest of pillows, forgave her—as
she had long ago forgiven her
husband—and wondered that she had
never understood before what a truly
sweet and loveable woman dear Aunt
Elizabeth was.
And Laura came up to see the
baby, bringing a wonderful high-art
coverlid for the cradle, and all sorts
of wise advice (based upon her exceptional
experience as the mother of twins).
And Beatrice came—poor Beatrice,
who had no babies!—and held the tiny
creature for a long time in her arms,
looking with silent wistfulness at its
crumpled little face.
And by-and-bye, when Rachel was
promoted to gorgeous dressing-gowns
and a sofa in her boudoir, Lucilla
came to stay with her, full of importance
and responsibility (as the mother
of the largest family of them all),
to instruct her in the newest and
most improved principles upon which
an infant of quality should be
reared.
As if Rachel wanted showing how
to manage a baby! Some ladies, as
the nurse sagely remarked, never had
any sense, but if Mrs. Kingston had
been a poor man's wife, which she
hoped she would excuse her taking
the liberty of speaking of such a thing,
she couldn't have took to the child
more naturally.
It speedily became apparent to others
besides that experienced woman that
maternity was Rachel's vocation, and,
when she found it, it seemed that she
had found a consolation, if not an
actual compensation, at last for the
great want and sorrow of her woman's
life.
Mrs. Hardy, watching the young
mother's passion of tender solicitude
for the baby that she could hardly bear
to have five minutes out of her sight,
told herself that, after all, the end
had justified the means; and even Mrs.
Reade, who was most interested in this
latest experiment of a benevolent Fate,
came practically to the same conclusion.
One day she was alone with her
cousin. Rachel had been entertaining
a small and select circle at afternoon
tea in her own pretty room, and the
baby had been present, and she had
been pointing out to its father what
lovely eyes it had, and what small
ears, and what perfectly-shaped hands,
and how charming it was altogether—much
to Mr. Kingston's amusement, and
obviously to his immense satisfaction also;
and now he had kissed her affectionately
and gone out, and the baby was taking
a siesta, and she was resting on her
sofa by the fireside, gazing at the bright
logs meditatively, with a half smile on her
face.
"Tell me," said Beatrice, suddenly,
crossing the hearth and kneeling down
beside her; "tell me, are you happy now,
Rachel?"
Rachel lifted her soft eyes, shining with
a sort of vague rapture.
"Oh, yes," she said, quickly; "indeed
I am." And then in a moment her face
was overshadowed, and she looked in
the fire again with eyes that shone with
tears. "I am too happy," she said,
under her breath, "while he is alone and
sad."
"Don't you think he will like you to
be as happy as possible?"
"I know he will. But it lies on my
heart that he is desolate while I have
so many consolations. Beatrice, I was
reading some verses of Emily Brontë's
the other day, and they seemed to express
exactly how it is with me. Do you remember
them?"
"Sweet love of youth, forgive, if I forget thee, While the world's tide is bearing me along; Other desires and other hopes beset me, Hopes that obscure, but cannot do thee wrong."
"Oh my love!" she broke out suddenly,
"I do not forget thee! And," she
added, more quietly, "I don't think
my being happy can wrong him,
Beatrice."
"No, dear child, far from it," said
Mrs. Reade.
The little woman was not shocked,
nor was she dissatisfied with the
state of things that this naïve revelation
disclosed to her. She was
deeply thankful to know that Rachel,
after all, was happy; but she was not
sorry to know also that she was to this
extent faithful to her true love, who had
dealt so well by her.
It was at this very hour that the
papers containing the announcement of
the baby's birth arrived at the Queensland
bungalow, and that Roden Dalrymple
learned what a change had
taken place, not only in the life and
welfare of his beloved, but in his own
lonely and empty lot.
"The wife of Graham Kingston, of
a son." He knew as well as anybody—better
even than Rachel herself—what
that little notice meant. It meant that
the gulf already parting them had all at
once widened to an immeasurable extent.
He knew how it would be with that
tender and clinging heart—it would be
able to solace itself now, even for the
loss of him.
Yet he loved her well enough to be
glad and thankful for the comfort that
had come to her, though the coming of
it left him doubly bereaved.
CHAPTER IX.
REPARATION.
BUT, after all, Fate willed that
this marriage should be but
the chief episode in the story,
and not the story itself, of Rachel's
life.
One day, when she was flitting about
her great drawing-room, with a basket
of flowers on her arm, singing soft airs
from "Don Giovanni" under her breath
as she busied herself with the arrangement
of little groups of leaves and
flowers in sundry precious receptacles
here and there, a footman entered with a
telegram.
"That is from your master," said
Rachel, lifting it from the salver and
tearing off the envelope.
"Wait a moment, James, until I see
if there are any orders for you to take
out."
She put down her flowers on the
piano, read the brief message tranquilly,
and then lifted her face with a
smile.
"Ask Wilkinson to have the carriage
ready at three o'clock," she said; "not
the brougham, if it keeps as fine as it
is now, the open carriage. And tell cook
I want to speak to her in half an hour.
"Your master is coming home to-day
instead of Friday."
James said "Yes'm" and retired, and
his mistress continued her occupation of
arranging the flowers with more haste
and eagerness than before.
Mr. Kingston had gone from home
a few days previously to meet some distinguished
foreign visitors at a friend's
house in the country, a thing he did
not often do, and she had stayed behind
because little Alfred seemed to have
symptoms of a bad cold coming on—which,
however, had been happily checked
at that stage.
She had not expected her lord's return
just yet, but she concluded that he had
not found the party amusing, or had
been bored in some way, and so had
excused himself from prolonging his visit;
and she was glad of the accident, whatever
it was, that was bringing him back
so soon.
In the afternoon she went upstairs
to get ready to go to the station to
meet him. It was winter, and she
clothed herself in rich furs—sealskin
and sable, with the sealskin cap of old
days on her shining head—against which
the soft roundness of her cheek and
throat, and the blush-rose delicacy of
her complexion was particularly distinct
and striking, and also the evident fact
that, far from pining away, she had
developed in health and strength
quite as much as in beauty during
the five or six years of her married
life.
When she was dressed she went to
the nursery, where her little boy
ran to meet her, begging her to
take him with her wherever she was
going.
She caught him up in her arms and
looked irresolutely at the imposing
nurse, who was responding to his
appeal in an official and determined
manner, telling him that he must not
cry to go in the carriage to-day; he
must go for a nice walk with his nursey,
because his dear papa did not like to
be bothered with little boys when he was
driving with his dear mamma (which was
very true).
"Never mind, Alfy," said Rachel,
hugging him to her maternal bosom,
and covering his fair little face—which
was very like her own—with kisses;
"You shall go with mother next time,
my sweet. Don't cry, dear little man!
Suppose mother brings him home a
pretty new toy? What shall mother
bring Alfy home, nurse, eh?"
"I don't want toys, I want to go with
you, mother," wailed Alfy.
"Oh, well, I think he might," said
Rachel, weakly. "It is a fine afternoon,
and he would enjoy it so! And
his father hasn't seen him for four days.
Dress him quickly, nurse, and I'll take
him. You needn't come to-day, I can
look after him quite well by myself for
once."
Alfy was accordingly dressed, his nurse
performing that operation silently, with
a mien of severe disapproval, and his
mother kneeling on the floor and helping
her.
When he was ready—looking, Rachel
thought, more nearly like an angel than
ever child looked before—he was carried
downstairs in her own caressing arms,
resting his curly head on her sable collar,
and clasping his mites of hands round
her white throat; and she placed him in
the carriage beside her, and tucked up
his little legs in the soft bearskin, and
they set forth together to Spencer Street
in a state of beatific satisfaction and
enjoyment, slightly qualified by Rachel's
well-founded apprehension that her husband
would scold her for spoiling
the child and making a nursemaid of
herself.
When Mr. Kingston arrived at the
station, closely muffled in overcoat and
comforters, it was evident to Rachel's
experienced eye—or ear rather, for as she
knew he would object to her waiting
unattended on the platform, she stayed
in the carriage and sent the footman
to meet him at the train and to take
his baggage, and so heard him before
she saw him—that he was in anything
but a good temper.
He rated an unfortunate porter who
drove a barrow in his way in unnecessarily
violent terms, and then he
demanded angrily of his servant why
the dickens they hadn't brought the
brougham for him on such a bitter day.
"Oh, Graham," said Rachel, stretching
out her hand, "how do you do, dear? I
am so sorry!—but I thought you would
like the open carriage best. It was beautifully
mild when we started—it has been
quite a warm day. And here is Alfy
come to meet you. He is quite well,
again, you see, and such a good little boy,
aren't you, Alfy? He is taking care of
his mother to-day, and sitting so quietly."
"Why did you bring him out in the
cold?" responded the father snappishly.
"And where's the nurse? At home?
Upon my word, Rachel, we might as
well be spared the expense of servants
altogether, for all the use you make of
them. No, I won't kiss him—I might
give him a sore throat."
"Have you a sore throat, dear?" inquired
Rachel meekly, tucking the child
into her own corner of the carriage, and
whispering to him to sit very still.
"I should rather say so—not so much a
sore throat, perhaps, as a general bad cold—the
most confounded bad cold I ever
had in my life. I'm regularly seedy and
done up," grumbled Mr. Kingston, climbing
into his seat beside her.
"Oh, dear, I'm so sorry!"
"That is why I have come home to-day,"
he added. "It's the most wretched
thing to be in other people's houses when
you don't feel well."
"Indeed it is," assented Rachel sympathetically;
"and I am very glad you came
back. How did you catch it, do you
think?"
"I think I must have got it before I
started. But that idiot Lambert sent
an open trap to meet me—you know
what a pouring wet day it turned out?
—and I had to sit and be soaked for
an hour and a half. Umbrellas were no
good in that rain, and there was a
sharp wind, too, and before we reached
the house—great, cold barrack of a
place, with stingy little coal fires—fancy
coal fires!—shows what an idiot the
fellow is, and she's worse—before we
got there I was thoroughly wet through,
and chilled to the bone. I never was
so cold in my life. I took a hot bath
before I dressed for dinner, and I got
Lambert to send me up some brandy,
but it was no use—it seemed to have
regularly struck into me. I couldn't get
warm—not till about the middle of the
night, and then I felt as if I'd got a
fever. I believe I have too."
"Oh, Graham, I hope not."
"It has settled on my chest," he went
on. "I haven't been able to sleep for
coughing—you know I have never had
a cough in my life—and I can't draw
a breath without feeling as if I was
dragging something up by the roots.
Can't you hear how I breathe? You
never heard me breathe like that before
did you?"
Rachel turned her blooming face, now
grave and anxious, to listen to his respiration,
which certainly was strangely
quick and laboured, and noisy, and she
was struck by a great change in his
since she had seen it four days ago.
It had become all at once wrinkled,
and hollow, and haggard—the face of
an old man.
"Oh, my dear," she exclaimed, in an
accent of genuine distress, "you have
got a bad cold, indeed! Hadn't you
better call on the doctor at once—it
won't be much out of our way—and
see what he says about it? It may be
nothing, but I think it seems like bronchitis,
and it is best to be on the safe side."
"I think I will," said Mr. Kingston,
covering his mouth with his wraps
again. "It seems worse than it was
when I started—the cold day, I suppose.
Hang it, I wish you had brought the
brougham—it is colder than ever!"
And he shivered under an accumulation
of great-coats and furs that one would
have thought sufficient for the temperature
of polar regions.
The carriage was stopped in Collins
Street, and remained in the doctors'
quarter until little Alfy fell asleep, and
was temporarily put to bed under the
long, soft skirt of his mother's jacket.
Then, as the dusk was falling, Mr.
Kingston came back to his place, and
tremulously commanded the coachman
to drive home as fast as he possibly could.
"He says it is inflammation of the
lungs, Rachel," he whispered excitedly,
"and that I must go to bed at once.
Only a touch he called it, but he didn't
look as if he thought it a touch. He
is coming up to-night to do something.
He says I ought to have come home
the first day, and not have let it run
on. Inflammation of the lungs—that
is a dreadful thing, isn't it? I have
never had it, but I have heard of it—it's
a most dangerous complaint!"
"Oh, no, dear, not dangerous, except
when people are careless," said Rachel
soothingly, taking his hand under the
fur rug and clasping it between her
own. "And now you are home, with
me to nurse you, you will soon get
all right. Many people have it slightly—it
is quite a common thing with a
bad cold—but when they are well
nursed and taken care of, they soon get
all right again."
"Good little woman! you will take
care of me, I know."
"Indeed I will," she responded, slipping
up one hand under his arm, and
resting her cheek on his coat-sleeve. "I
wish you had come back to me before.
But, once I get you fairly into my hands,
I'll soon nurse you round."
However, though she did all that a
woman and a wife, and one born to be
the genius of a sick room, could do,
she did not nurse him round. By the
time he reached home, where the household
was thrown into a panic of consternation,
he was very ill indeed—his
fright about himself helping very much
to develop the bad symptoms rapidly;
and the doctor, who next day summoned
other doctors in consultation upon the
case, pronounced him—not in words,
but by unmistakable signs—to be in
a serious and critical condition. The
attack had been severe from the first;
it had been allowed to run on for
several days; and the constitution of
the patient, enervated and shattered by
years of unwholesome indulgence, was
as little fitted to stand an illness as any
constitution could be. The pain in
breathing grew worse and worse, and
the fever hotter and drier; and then
stupor came on, and delirium, and exhaustion,
and by-and-bye a filmy cloud
over the sunken eyes, and a dusky
pallor over the old, old, wrinkled face;
and, in spite of all the doctors, and all
the nurses, and all that money could do—in
spite of the agonised devotion of
his young wife, who never left him for
more than five minutes at a time,
taking snatches of sleep only when he
slept, sitting by the bedside, and resting
her tired head on the same pillow
that she smoothed for his—it was over
in less than a week. And a little
paragraph appeared in "The Argus" one
morning, to shock that small world of
which he had so long been a distinguished
ornament, with the incomprehensible
intelligence that he was "gone,"
and would never be seen at a club
mess or in a festive drawing-room
again.
On the night of his death, when fever
and pain and restlessness were sinking
away with the sinking pulse, and when
Rachel, watching beside him, thought
he was past knowing anyone—even
her—he looked at her with a gleam
of loving recognition. "Good little
woman!" he muttered in a struggling
whisper. "Dear, good little woman!"
She stooped over him at once with
a yearning passion of pity and vague
remorse, and kissed him, and laid her
white arms about him, raining tears on
his dying face and his cold limp hands.
"Oh, Graham, Graham, I have not
been good enough to you!" she cried.
"And you have been so good—so
kind—to me!"
He continued to look at her with dull
wistful, pathetic eyes.
"Have I?" he gasped, feebly.
"Have I?"
And then the gleam died out of his
face in the shrouding darkness that
was creeping over him. He was
quiet for several minutes, and Rachel
laid her cheek on the pillow beside
him, and listened to the faint
rattle which now and then told
that the "step or two dubious of
twilight" between sleep and death
was not yet crossed, motioning the
other watchers away from the bedside,
that he and she might be alone
together.
And suddenly he roused himself, and
said—panting the words out slowly
and huskily, but evidently with
a perfect consciousness of their meaning—"Rachel—you
can—have him—now."
Her arm was under his pillow, and
she drew it back to her gently until
his head lay next her breast.
"Hush—hush—hush!" she said, with
choking sobs. But he went on
steadily, as if he had not heard her.
"Only tell him—not to—not to—lead
little Alfy—into bad ways."
After a pause, he said,
"Do you hear!—tell him—"
"He will not—he could not!" she
broke out eagerly. "He is a good,
good man, though people think he is
not! He will take care of little Alfy,
my darling—do not be afraid—he will
never lead him into bad ways—never
never!"
Ought she to have said it? Had
she given him—she, who, at this moment,
would have laid down her life to
save his, if that had been possible—the
comfort she had meant to give, or a
most cruel, cruel stab, in his last conscious
hour? She looked at him with
agonised, imploring face, which mutely
prayed him to try and understand her;
and there came slowly into his sunken
eyes a vague intelligence and a dim,
dim smile. He did understand her—better,
perhaps, than he had ever understood
her before.
"Good little woman!" he murmured,
"Good little girl—to tell the truth."
CHAPTER X.
FULFILMENT.
RACHEL, who could not have
dissembled if she had tried,
appeared to be overwhelmed
by Mr. Kingston's sudden death.
She wept herself ill, sitting now in his
library chair, now in his office, now in
his dressing-room, with mementoes of
his domestic occupations and the homely
companionship of nearly half-a-dozen
wedded years around her; missing him
from his accustomed place with a sense
of having lost one of the best and
kindest husbands that ever ungrateful
woman had.
She allowed no one to touch his clothes
and trinkets, or his books and pipes, or
anything that he had used and cared
for, but herself; and she cried over them,
and kissed them, and laid them away
in sacred drawers, to be treasured relics
and heirlooms for her little Alfy, who
was to be taught to reverence the
memory of the tenderest of fathers, and
to hand down to unborn generations
the name and fame of the most accomplished
and estimable of men.
She wandered about her great, silent
house, in and out of the spacious rooms,
making loving inventories of all the
rich appointments, which had never
had so much grace and beauty as
now.
"He built this lovely place for me,"
she would say to herself, or perhaps say
aloud to Beatrice, who was her chief
companion at this time, "He had this
carved dado made because I didn't like
tiles; he gave me this Florentine
cabinet on my twentieth birthday; he
chose these hangings himself because he
said they suited my complexion." Every
bit of the house and its furniture was
newly sanctified by some of these reminiscences.
She gathered together all his letters
reverently—some had been waiting for
his return from Mr. Lambert's, and were
still unopened; and though many of them
were addressed in the kind of handwriting
that was especially calculated
to arouse curiosity, she would not pry
into his correspondence, nor allow anyone
else to do so.
She would not read what he had
evidently never intended her to read;
she burnt them all without taking
one of them out of its envelope, and
then drove to the cemetery with a wreath
of flowers for his grave.
"He was the best of husbands," she
said, when to her own people she talked
of him.
And Mrs. Hardy, who was truly
afflicted by the family bereavement, was
comforted to be able to repeat this
tender formula to all the gossip of her
own circle.
"He was the best of husbands. So
fond of her to the last! Even when
he was delirious you could see plainly
his distress when she went out of the
room, and his relief when she came
back again. And she was so devoted!
Such a thoroughly suitable marriage in
every way—as if they had been made
for each other! She is broken-hearted
for the loss of him. And how he valued
her he has plainly proved."
And here the gossips would smile
decorously, and shake their heads, and
say, "Yes, indeed." For they all understood
what this allusion meant. It meant
that Mr. Kingston had left the half of
his great property absolutely at his young
wife's disposal, and that she was the
sole and unrestricted trustee of the rest,
which was settled upon his son; which
certainly did prove that he had valued
her in the most conclusive manner.
But in a little while—a scandalously
little while—indications that this young
widow of twenty-five was not inconsolable
for the loss of her elderly husband,
became apparent to all but the most
superficial observers.
It was not that she wore such very
slight mourning—soft black silks and
cashmeres that were the merest apology
for weeds—for everybody knew that
Mr. Kingston had had a horror of crape,
and had been repeatedly heard to declare
that no wife of his should wear it if
he could help it.
Mrs. Hardy had explained that it was
in deference to his wishes that she had
defied custom in this respect; and,
though there was a strong impression
that she ought to have insisted on paying
proper respect to his memory, in spite
of him—and even that his protests
against conventional suttee were never
intended to include this particular case
(as was very probable), but only indicated
his personal distaste for harsh and unbecoming
materials in ladies' apparel—the
fact that it was growing the fashion
to be lax and independent in these
matters, saved her the verdict of the
majority.
And it was not that she drove about,
within two months of his death, with
her veil turned back over her bonnet—in
the case of a veil so transparent,
it didn't make much difference whether it
were up or down—leaving her youthful,
lovely, rose-leaf face exposed to public
view as heretofore.
It was not that she was heartless or
unfeeling, or that she infringed the laws
of good breeding and good taste in any
distinctly and visible manner.
No one could quite say what it was,
and yet everyone felt that the fact
was sufficiently indicated that she
was recovering from the shock of
her sudden and terrible bereavement
with unexpected, if not unbecoming,
rapidity.
"You mark my words," somebody
would say to somebody else, when Mrs.
Kingston's carriage went flashing by, and
she turned to bow to them, perhaps with
her serene, sweet, grave smile; "you
mark my words—that woman will be
married again by this time next year.
I don't know what makes me think so,
but I am sure of it. There is a look
in her face as if she were going to make
herself happy."
The person addressed, being a man,
would probably reply that the odd thing
would be if she did not make herself
happy (and generally he suggested that
by remaining a widow she would be
most likely to secure that object), with
youth and beauty, leisure and liberty,
and ten thousand a year to do what
she liked with; and that he sincerely
hoped she would be.
Being a woman, she was more likely
than not to look after Rachel and her
carriage with solemn severity, and wonder
how it was that that poor, dear, foolish
man never could see that the girl cared
nothing at all about him, and had only
married him for his money.
Mrs. Hardy was becoming aware of
this state of public opinion with respect
to her niece's conduct—which had been
so extremely proper hitherto—and was
herself conscious of the subtle change
that had taken place, and was
uneasily wondering what it indicated,
when one day Rachel came to see
her.
It was eleven o'clock on a warm
summer morning, just before Christmas;
and the young widow walked over
through the gardens and the back gate,
wearing a light, black cambric dress
and a shady straw hat, looking—Mrs.
Hardy thought, glancing up at her from
her writing-table in a cool corner of
the now transformed drawing-room—unusually
well and strikingly young and
girlish.
"Well, my dear, how are you? And
where's Alfy? Have you not brought
him with you?"
Rachel put her arm over her aunt's
shoulder, and kissed her affectionately.
"I haven't brought him to-day, because
I wanted to have a little quiet
talk," she said. "Are you very busy,
auntie?"
Mrs. Hardy was busy—she always was,
from breakfast until lunch time; but
she was impressed by a certain gentle
gravity in Rachel's voice and manner,
and understood that there was something
of importance to be attended to. So she
gathered up her papers, told her visitor
to take off her hat and sit down,
and inquired anxiously what was the
matter.
"There is nothing the matter," said
Rachel, with a little hesitation. "But,
auntie dear, I am going to—do something,
and I would not do it without
telling you first."
She sat upon the edge of a chair, and
leaned her arms on a corner of the
writing-table; and she looked into the
elder woman's face with wistful, longing,
pleading eyes.
Mrs. Hardy had faint, instinctive premonitions.
"Well, my dear," she replied a little
brusquely, "I shall be glad to advise
you to the best of my power. But you
are your own mistress now, you know."
Then after a little pause, she said
anxiously, "What is it you are going
to do?"
"Auntie," faltered Rachel, "auntie—you
know all about Mr. Dalrymple?"
"Rachel—my dear—you don't mean to
say—! And your poor husband not six
months in his grave!"
"Not yet," said Rachel, suddenly
becoming composed and collected.
"Though I do not believe that I ought
to put it off. But presently, auntie—as
soon as you would think it right—I
want to marry Mr. Dalrymple. And
in the meantime he is waiting for me
to send him a message—he has asked
me to write—we want to have
the comfort of some sort of
recognised engagement, if it is ever so
quiet——"
"Oh, Rachel, don't ask me to have
anything to do with such a thing!
Only think what poor Graham would
say if he could know! And he left
little Alfy in your hands—and he
left all that money to you—little
thinking what you would do with
it!"
"He knew—he knew," said Rachel.
"He has already sanctioned it. Dear,
good husband! He left me the money
without any conditions if I married again,
and he knew I should do this. It was
understood between us when he died.
Aunt Elizabeth, I think he wished to
make reparation to Roden and me.
Don't you wish it, too? Only think,
it is six years—six whole years—that
poor Roden has been lonely in Queensland,
without any brightness or comfort
in his life; and, though he has loved
me just the same, he has never
attempted to do—what you would not
have wished him to do—all that time.
It is six years this very week, Aunt
Elizabeth, since he sent Mr. Gordon
down to you."
"And if he had come himself," said
Mrs. Hardy, passionately, beginning to
break down and cry, "I should not
have let him see you—I would not
have allowed you to have him. Oh,
child, child! when you have grown-up
daughters to look after and manage
for, you will understand that I tried to
do my best for you—you will think less
hardly of me then."
Rachel jumped up from her chair,
and kneeling down flung her warm
young arms about the sobbing woman.
"My own auntie," she exclaimed
fondly, "if I could think hardly of
you I should be ashamed to live. I
know you tried to do your best for me—of
course I know it! It is always
a mistake to deceive people, but I
deceived you, too, not telling you all I
had done. I know you were right to
keep me away from him knowing only
what you knew. If he had been wicked,
as you thought, and I had had it all
my own way, what would have become
of me? But now—now that you know
he is good——"
"Ah, my dear, I don't know it!
Remember that dreadful duel! And how
can you tell that he doesn't want
you now for your money? He has
none of his own, and you have a
great fortune that he could squander
as he liked. Everyone will say
that it was for the sake of your
money."
"It would sooner have been that
the money would have kept him
from me," said Rachel softly. "Once
I was afraid of that. But afterwards
I was ashamed that I could
have any fears. We understand
each other better. Aunt Elizabeth,
Beatrice knows that he is good—Beatrice
believes in him—and my dear
Graham gave me leave to make him
happy. Won't you consent to it,
too?"
"Well, if poor Graham gave you leave
it is not for me to interfere, I suppose.
But you won't let anyone know
you are engaged so soon?"
"It need only be known to ourselves,
auntie."
"And you'll promise me you won't get
married again under the year, at the very
earliest?"
"Yes, dear Aunt Elizabeth, I will
promise you that. If I can go and
stay at Adelonga for a little, and take
Alfy——"
"Is he down at the Digbys?"
"Yes, auntie."
"Perhaps that will be the best
plan," said Mrs. Hardy, sighing. "It
is a quiet place, and out of the
way, if only Lucilla doesn't gossip
about it."
CHAPTER XI.
CONCLUSION.
MRS. THORNLEY was a little
scandalised like her mother, at
first, not by Rachel's desire to
marry again—for that she should do
so, as a rich young widow of twenty-five,
"left" by a husband just forty
years her senior, was generally anticipated
as a matter of course—but by
the too early announcement of those
wishes and intentions which conventional
decorum forbade a woman to dream of
until "the year" was up.
Very speedily, however, she forgot to
be shocked by anything of this kind,
and devoted herself ardently to the
furtherance of her cousin's happiness.
She had had Mr. Dalrymple at
Adelonga after his accident, and had
nursed him for about a month of his
convalescence; and since that time both
she and John had had a strong
feeling of friendship for him, not
much less than that which they
had always had for their favourite, Mrs.
Digby.
They had condoned all the errors of
his earlier years (even the great duel,
which Mr. Gordon had assured them
was the worst episode in a reckless
but not dishonourable career, and was
in itself unstained by any mean or
vicious motives), and they had proved
the sincerity of their respect and
regard for him by allowing their son
Bruce to "chum" with him in Queensland.
And now, being put in possession of
all the facts relating to his and Rachel's
love affairs, Lucilla entered eagerly into
the arrangements which Rachel herself,
without a blush of shame, suggested for
bringing the long-parted lovers together
again.
"Oh, yes, my darling," she wrote hurriedly,
by return of post, "pray do
come and spend all the summer with
us. Mamma says that as it is so very,
very soon we must be careful to keep
it quite quiet, but John wishes me particularly
to tell you that, in his opinion,
you are quite right.
"We both like Mr. Dalrymple very
much, and we think he has behaved
so very well. And John says he is
not at all a spendthrift now, whatever
he may have been once, and
he thinks really that he will take care
of your money and not squander it
away (only he says you must let him
arrange things for you on your marriage—which
must take place at Adelonga—so
as to be quite on the safe side); for
they have had both floods and droughts
very badly at their place in Queensland,
and yet they have made it pay,
which John says he never expected.
Bruce thinks so much of the property
and the way it has been managed, that
I am sure he will want to go in with
Mr. Gordon if Mr. Dalrymple will let
us buy him out (perhaps he won't now
the meat-freezing is going to do such
great things.) But these are details
to talk of presently. We must get you
here first.
"If you can come on Tuesday,
do. John will meet you at the
train. I have written to Mr. Dalrymple
to come the next day, for you must
not be excited and upset until you
have had time for a good rest after
your journey. I am having the blue
south room got ready for you—the
one you used to like—and the large
dressing-room next to it for dear
little Alfy. I don't think you ought
to send away your maid. Won't it
look odd after being used to one for
so long? I have plenty of room
for her as well as for the nurse,
&c., &c."
On the Tuesday, Rachel, with Alfy and
his nurse, arrived, having dismissed
some of her servants and put the rest
on board wages, having packed up her
most precious china and art treasures,
and swathed her splendid upholstery in
sheets of brown holland, prepared
to spend any length of time at
Adelonga that circumstances would
admit of.
It was a beautiful day in January,
rather too hot for travelling in comfort,
but pleasant and breezy about the
Adelonga-hills and the bosky garden
that sheltered the old house. It was
the same old house still, Rachel was
thankful to see. Mr. Thornley had been
building with brick and stone in town,
and so had been content to leave to his
country seat, the picturesque charm of
its wooden walls and its medley of
low roofs and gables; and now it
stood embowered in cool vine leaves
and sweet-scented creepers, with great
trees of pink oleander, which loved the
sultry midsummer, nestling up against
it, and making broad splashes of sunny
colour amid the sombre richness of evergreen
shrubs—a sort of earthly paradise
in Rachel's eyes. Lucilla was standing
on the verandah, surrounded by all her
family (except her grown-up step daughter,
Isabel, who had been sent on a visit
to an aunt in Sydney to be "out of the
way") waiting to greet her welcome
guest; and Rachel, jumping down from
the buggy, and flinging herself into
those faithful arms, felt that she had
been a wandering prodigal in strange
countries for half a dozen years,
and was on the threshold of home
again.
"But, oh," she said to herself, when
having seen little Alfy tucked up in
his cot, and having, maidless, with her
own hands, laid away her clothes in
drawers and wardrobes, she began to
dress for dinner, "what could have
made Lucilla imagine that waiting for
him for twenty-four hours would rest
me?"
The long hours passed, however, as
the longest hours do, and the evening
of Wednesday drew on with a flaming
crimson sunset; and Rachel listened
for the sound of buggy wheels on
distant bush tracks, and was deafened
by the noise of her own loud-beating
heart.
"They are coming," whispered Lucilla,
creeping with the stealth of a conspirator
into her cool, dim drawing-room,
where the young widow stood,
bright-eyed and pale, in her black
gown, steadying herself with a hand on
the piano.
"Shall I send him in to you by himself,
dear, or would he think that was
bad taste—a too open and vulgar way
of recognising the state of affairs?"
"Oh, no, he would think not it vulgar,"
replied Rachel, smiling slightly through
her air of solemn and rapt abstraction.
"You must send him by himself, Lucilla,
please—this once."
The buggy came into the garden and
passed the window. Lucilla, outside on
the verandah, welcomed her guest with
effusive inquiries after Mrs. Digby's health
and welfare, and that of all the little
Digbys' respectively; Mr. Thornley gave
loud directions to the servants about
the portmanteau that was to be carried
to the green gable room. And then the
buggy went to the stable-yard; there
was a few minutes' silence; and the
door of the drawing-room opened
quietly, and Roden Dalrymple came
in.
He had changed a little in the four
years since she had seen him last; his
ruddy moustache was a little more
grizzled, and the lines in his sun-tanned
forehead were stronger and
deeper.
She was changed, too; there was a
matronly grace and maturity in the
roundness of her shapely figure and in
the reposeful softness of her face, that
had been wanting in the beauty, fresh
and delicate as he remembered it, of her
earlier girlish years.
But the only change they recognised
in one another was their deeper capacity
for understanding the worth and the
meaning of such an experience as this,
when, with his back against the closed
door, and her hands about his neck, he
held her in both arms clasped close to
his breast, and they drank together in
one moment of speechless passion the
solace and the sweetness of all the kisses
that they should have had.
In the evening Lucilla sat down to the
piano, to play some of Beethoven's
sonatas to her husband. It was a lovely
moonshiny summer night, and some of
the windows stood open, letting in the
fragrance of jessamine and tobacco,
and a quantity of tiny moths and
gnats.
Mr. Thornley, having taken his coffee
and his cigarette upon the verandah,
lying all along on a bamboo easy chair,
stayed there to listen and doze in
obscurity, with his handkerchief thrown
over his bald head to keep off the
mosquitoes.
For a few minutes Mr. Dalrymple stood
behind his hostess; but, finding that she
played from memory, and therefore did
not want leaves turned over for her, he
left the piano, and crossing the room,
stooped down to Rachel as she sat
in a low chair dreamily fanning
herself.
"Rachel," he whispered, "is the
lapageria in blossom now?"
"I don't know, Roden—I don't think
so," she replied.
"Shall we go and see?"
She rose at once, and they went
together into the curtained alcove and
through the noiseless swing door.
"Where is our seat?" he said, taking
her hand as soon as they were alone,
and leading her down the dim alleys,
over-arched with fern trees, and filled
with broken shadows of the gigantic
fronds. "I hope it is in the same
place."
It was in the same place, but the
place was stiller and darker than it used
to be—built all round and about with
gnarled masses of cork, feathered in
every crevice with maiden hair, and
roofed with drooping leaves.
There was just moonlight enough to
enable them to find it, and when they
found it they sat down side by side,
and Rachel laid her head on one of
her lover's broad shoulders and her
hand on the other; and they remained
there for several minutes without moving
or speaking, listening to the far-off
sound of the piano, more perfectly at
rest than either of them had ever
imagined it possible to be in this
world.
Mr. Dalrymple spoke first, drawing a
long breath.
"Must we be separated any more,
Rachel? Can't we be married now—this
week—to-morrow—and go away from
everybody quietly? It seems like tempting
Providence to lose sight of one
another again—to lose one hour
more than we can help of what
we have been kept out of all this
time."
"It does—it does," assented Rachel.
"But I promised Aunt Elizabeth that I
would be a widow for a year."
"You were a widow for me—how many
years?"
"I know, Roden, I know. I do not
do it willingly. But other people—other
things—have to be considered."
"Six months more! Child, no one has
any right to demand such an enormous
sacrifice of us. Who knows how long
we may live to be together as we want
to be together? Can we afford to
throw away six months on the top of
six years for the sake of mere sham
propriety, knowing the worth of every
hour as we do?"
"Roden," said Rachel gently, after a
pause, "it shall be just as you like. If
you think we ought not to wait,
we will not. I can explain to Aunt
Elizabeth."
And then he recognised his responsibilities.
"No," he said, "I think perhaps we
had better wait—though there is no
sense or justice in it. We'll pay Mrs.
Grundy the heaviest price that she has
swindled honest people of for many a
day, and then we'll take it out with
interest. But you will do something
for me in the meantime?"
"There is nothing I could do for you
that I should not want to do for myself,
Roden."
"You won't go quite away, will you?
You'll stay here till I have to leave,
and then you'll come and stay a long
while with Lily? You'll let me have
sight of you, and keep watch over you,
until the waiting time is up?" There
was no answer required for this question.
What they could do for one another
they would, as both well knew. He
held her tightly in his arms, covering
half her face with his great moustache.
"And when the time is up we will
not wait one hour—not one," he said,
with sudden, strong passion. "That very
day, Rachel, I shall take you away to
Queensland, where nobody can reach
us and nothing can interfere with us.
When at last I do get you, I will
have you—for a little while at all
events—absolutely and wholly to myself."
And Rachel prayed that she might
be permitted to live until that "little
while" should come.
It seemed, in this moment of anticipation,
something that it would be
presumptuous for a mortal woman to
hope for, much less to expect.
And should Love, when all is said
and done, be the ruler and lord of
all—supreme arbiter of the destinies
of purblind creatures, not one in ten,
perhaps not one in fifty, of whom
have the faculty to see him and know
him as he is?
Should the passion of wayward girls
defy the wisdom and wishes of parents
and guardians, who have learned in
long years of costly experience something
of the potentialities of this many-sided
life?
Should all risks of poverty and social
ignominy, with their long train of
trials and temptations, involving the
welfare of innocent relatives and unborn
children, be dared in an irrevocable
moment of enthusiasm for one's
faith in the eternal fidelity of any man
or woman?
Like many other questions that
trouble us in this world, wherein
nothing seems quite right and nothing
altogether wrong, we are constrained
to leave it for the history of future
ages, that we shall never see, to
answer.
Knowing only what we know, we
must not say "yes"—we cannot say
"no." We have not sufficient light for
any such generalities.
But when one finds this unique
treasure of human life, to whom it is,
with respect to his tangible earthly
possessions, what the pearl of great
price was to the merchantman of Scripture,
there seems no better thing for
him to do than to sell all that he has
to buy it, so long as he sells only what
is absolutely his own, and none of the
rights and privileges that belong to
other people.
THE END.
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