"Take me home with you, Cousin Chilian," she
pleaded, when he came in the next day.
"But I thought"—he studied her in surprise.
"I want to go home," she interrupted, and her under
lip had a quiver in it that would have disarmed almost
any one, persuaded as well.
"Why, yes. Didn't you enjoy the party?" He felt
suddenly at loss, he was not used to translating moods
with all his knowledge.
"Oh, it was delightful! And some such pretty girls.
There were new dances. And Mrs. Stevens is charming.
Anthony came over a little while."
In spite of inducements held out, she would go.
Cousin Giles was almost cross about it.
"I'm so glad to get back," she said to Rachel.
"One feels so safe here."
"Was there any danger?" laughed the elder.
Cynthia's face was scarlet. It wasn't danger
exactly, but she felt better under Cousin Chilian's
wing. And she was her bright gay self all the
evening.
But how to get her story told? For if Mr. Saltonstall
came and asked for her company, as they termed
it then, and not being warned, he should consent——
They sat by the study fire. It had turned out cold
and cloudy, with indications of snow. He had a lamp
near him on the small table, and read and thought, as
his glance wandered dreamily over the leaping flashing
blue and yellow flames. If it stormed for one or
two days, she could not have come home.
She rose presently and came and stood by him, laid
her hand lightly on his shoulder. She was a young
lady now, and it was hardly proper to draw her down
on his knee.
"Cousin Chilian;" hesitatingly.
"Well, dear?" in an inquiring tone.
"There is something I ought to tell you, and I want
to ask you—to—to do—oh, I hardly know how to say
it. Mr. Saltonstall came down; he and Mrs. Stevens
are old friends——"
Ah, he knew now. This young man had dared to
invade the virginal sweetness of her soul, to trouble
the quiet stream of girlhood. He was roused, strangely
angry, for all his placid temperament.
"I couldn't help it—just before he went away—and
I couldn't have dreamed of such a thing——"
Then she hid her head down on his shoulder and
cried.
"Dear—my dear little girl—oh, yes, it would have to
happen sometime. And—he loves you."
"Oh, that isn't the worst;" illogically, between her
sobs. "He is coming to ask you if he may—and I
don't want him to come that way. I just want it as it
was before. Polly Upham can't think or talk of anything
but her intended, and it gets tiresome. He
doesn't seem so very wonderful to me. And wouldn't
it weary you to hear me praising some one all the
time?"
"I think it would," he answered honestly, yet with
some confusion of mind.
"So I don't want it;" with more courage in her
voice. "I want good times with them all. And I
don't see how you can come to love any one all in a
moment."
Was he hearing aright? Didn't she really want the
young man for a lover? He was unreasonably,
fatuously glad, and the pulses, that were chilled a moment
ago, seemed to race hot through his body.
"It was not quite marriage?" a little huskily.
"He wanted to ask if he might have the right to
come, and he said he loved me, and, oh, I am
afraid——"
She was trembling. He could feel it where she
leaned against him. He took sudden courage.
"And you do not want him to come in that way?
It would most likely lead to an engagement. And then
I should have to listen to his praises continually. Yes,
it would be rather hard on me;" and he laughed with a
humorous sound.
It heartened her a good deal. She was smiling now
herself, but there were tears on her cheek.
"And you won't mind telling him; that is not very
much, that——"
"I think you are too young to decide such a grave
matter, Cynthia," he began seriously. "And you
ought to have a glad, sweet youth. There is no reason
why you should rush into marriage. You have a
pleasant home with those that love you——"
"And I don't want to go away. I feel as if I would
like to live here always. You are so good and indulgent,
and Cousin Eunice is so nice, now that she
doesn't seem afraid of any one. Were we all afraid
of Cousin Elizabeth? And we have such nice talks.
She tells me about the old times and what queer
thoughts people had, and how hard they were. And
about girls whose lovers went away to sea and never
came back, and how they watched and waited, and
sometimes we cry over them. And the house is so
cheerful, and I can have all the flowers I want, and
friends coming in, and, oh, I shall never want to go
away, because I shall never love any one as well as
you."
That was very sweet, but it was a girl's innocence,
and her face did not change color in the
admission.
"Well, I will explain the matter to Mr. Saltonstall.
I am glad you told me, otherwise I should hardly have
known your wishes on the subject. And now we will
go on having good times together, and count out
lovers."
"Yes, yes." She gave his hand a squeeze and was
her own happy self, not feeling half as sorry for the
man who would come to be denied as he did.
It snowed furiously the next morning, and sullenly
the day after. Then it was cold, and she said half a
dozen times a day she was so glad she came home.
She did not see Mr. Saltonstall when he called, and
she really did miss him at two little companies. Then
she wondered if she oughtn't give one, she had gone
to so many.
"Why, yes," Cousin Chilian answered. She might
have turned the house upside down so long as she was
going to stay in it.
Then she wondered if she ought to invite him. Mrs.
Lynde and she were very good friends, and she should
ask Avis, of course. They spoke—they were not ill
friends.
Chilian considered. "Yes, I think I would," he
made answer.
They had a merry time and danced on the beautiful
rugs, and had a fine supper. And Mr. Saltonstall
was glad to be friends. She was young and presently
she might think of lovers. He would try and keep his
chance good.
Anthony came now and then and spent a Sunday
with them. He loved to hear Cousin Chilian read
Greek verses, but the pretty love odes seemed to mean
Cynthia, and he used to watch her. Then Ben Upham
was a visitor as well, and used to play checkers with
her, as that was considered quite a good exercise for
one's brains.
Polly would be married in the spring, Alice Turner
in June. The Turners were always besieging her for
a two or three days' visit, and the Turner young men
hovered round her. She never seemed to do anything,
she never demanded attention, but when she glanced
up at them, or smiled, they followed her as the children
did the Pied Piper. She might have led them
into dangerous places, but she was very simple of
heart. Yet the danger was alluring to them.
Polly came to her for a good deal of counsel. When
there were two patterns of sleeves, which should she
take?
"Why, I'd have the India silk made with this and
the English gingham with that—you see it will iron so
much easier. Miss Grayson does up the puffs on a
shirring cord, then you can let them out in the washing."
"That's a fine idea. You do have such splendid
ideas, Cynthy."
"They are mostly Rachel Winn's," laughed the
young girl.
They had a capable woman in the kitchen now.
Cynthia should have been mastering the high art of
housekeeping, people thought, instead of running about
so much and driving round in the pony carriage with
Miss Winn, or a girl companion. Of course, there was
plenty of money, but one never quite knew what would
happen.
John Loring was building his house as people who
could did in those days. They would not be able to
finish it all inside, and there was a nook left for an
addition when they needed it. Polly was to have some
of grandmother's furniture, and John's mother would
provide a little. Corner cupboards were quite a substitute
in those days for china closets, and window-seats
answered for chairs. But there was bedding and
napery, and no one thought of levying on friends.
Relatives looked over their stock and bestowed a few
articles. Cynthia thought of the stores in the old house
and wished she might donate them. She did pick out
some laces from her store, and two pretty scarfs, one
of which Polly declared would be just the thing to trim
her wedding hat, which was of fine Leghorn. So she
would only have to buy the feather.
They haunted the stores and occasionally picked up
a real bargain. Even at that period shoppers did not
throw their money broadcast.
"Cynthia Leverett is the sweetest girl I know,"
Polly said daily, and Bentley was of the same opinion.
They were to stand at the wedding.
"And I want you to wear that beautiful frock that
you had when Laura Manning was married. I shall
only have two bridesmaids, you and Betty, but I want
you to look your sweetest."
And surely she did. They had a very nice wedding
party and the next day Polly went to her own house
and had various small tea-drinkings, and she arranged
them for Saturday so Bentley could come up. They
were wonderfully good friends, but Cynthia felt as if
she had outgrown him. In her estimation he was just
a big friendly boy that one could talk to familiarly.
Anthony was more backward in the laughter and
small-talk.
Then there was the college degree. There was no
such great fuss made over commencement then, no
grand regattas, no inter-collegiate athletics, for it was
a rather serious thing to begin a young man's life and
look forward to marriage.
He went straight to Mr. Chilian. It was the proper
thing to be fortified with the elders' consent. Of
course, he would not marry in some time yet, but if he
could be her "company" and speak presently—they
had been such friends.
Chilian studied the honest young fellow, whose face
was in a glow of hope. So young to dream of love
and plan for the future!
"You are both too young;" and his voice had a bit
of sharpness in it. "Cynthia is not thinking of such
things."
"But one can think of them. They begin somehow
and go into your very life. I believe I've loved her a
long while."
"I think neither of you really know what love is.
No, I cannot consent to it. I want her to go on having
a good free time without any anxiety. I have some
right to her, being her guardian."
"But—I will wait—I didn't mean to ask her immediately."
"We are going on a journey presently. I cannot
have her disturbed with this. No, your attention
must be devoted to business for the next two
years."
He drew a long breath. "But you don't mean I
must break off—everything?" and there was an unsteadiness
in his voice.
"Oh, no. Not if you can keep to the old friendliness."
Then Chilian Leverett dropped into his easy-chair
and thought. The child had grown very dear to him,
she was a gift from her father. A tumultuous, uncomprehended
pain wrenched his very soul. To live without
her—to miss her everywhere! To have lonely
days, longer lonely evenings when the dreariness of
winter set in. And yet she had a right to the sweet,
rich draught of love. But she did not need it amid all
the pleasures of youth. Let her have two or three
years, even if it was blissful thoughtlessness. But he
must put her on her guard. A young fellow soon
changed his mind. The old couplet sang itself in his
brain:
| "If she be not fair for me, |
| What care I how fair she be?" |
Did he get over his early love and forget? We all
say, "But ours was different."
How to find the right moment? Ben did not come
over. She was very busy with this friend and that,
youth finds so many interests. But one evening, when
they were sitting on the porch in the moonlight, the
young fellow walked slowly along, glanced at them,
halted.
She flew down to the gate.
"Oh, Ben, what has happened?" she cried, the most
bewitching anxiety in her face. "Why, you have not
been in—for weeks."
"Not quite two weeks." Had it seemed so long to
her? To him it had been months.
"Oh, come in. Cousin Chilian will be glad to see
you."
The radiant cordiality in her face unnerved him.
"And you?" Yes, he must know.
"Do you have to ask that question?"
The sweet, dangerous eyes said too much, but the
smile was that of amusement.
So they walked up the path together. Mr. Leverett
greeted him in a friendly manner.
"I thought I ought to come in and say good-bye.
I'm going off on some business for father, and may not
be back for several weeks."
"That sounds as if you needed an apology for coming
at all," she commented with half-resentful gayety.
He flushed and made no immediate reply.
"And we are going to take a journey as well. Up
somewhere in Maine. Mr. Giles Leverett insists we
shall, for our health, but I think it is our delightful
company. He has to go to look after a large estate
where some people think of founding a town. Isn't it
funny?" and she gave her bewitching laugh that was
like the notes of silver bells, soft, yet clear. "They
must go off and build up new places. And some people
are going West, as if there wasn't room here.
Have you noticed that we are overcrowded?"
"Well, sometimes along the docks it looks that
way."
"I like a good many people. Often Merrits' is
crowded, and it's funny to catch bits of sentences. And
at Plummer's as well. Did you ever read right across
the paper, one line in each column, and notice the odd
and twisted-up sense it made? That's about the way
it sounds."
How bright and charming she was! Ben could not
keep his eyes from her radiant face. Was she really
a coquette, Chilian wondered. Yet she was so simple
with it all, so seemingly careless of the effect. That
was the danger of it.
He lingered like one entranced. Poor young lad!
Chilian began to feel sorry for him.
She walked down to the gate with him, and hoped
they would have a nice time when autumn came, if he
meant to stay in Salem.
A young man not in love would have called her a
bright, merry, chatty girl. He went away with the
consciousness that she liked him very much. Chilian
asked her if she did.
She glanced up wonderingly.
"Why—he is nice, and being Polly's brother makes
it—well, more familiar. Then we can talk about Anthony.
I believe he didn't like him much at first, but
he does now."
Oh, how could he put her on her guard! She was
not dreaming of love. Saltonstall's fancy had died out—no
doubt this would, too. Lad's love. Was it worth
ruffling up the sunny artlessness? But he would watch
the young men closer now that he knew the danger
line.
He said simply to himself that he could not give her
up to any one else so soon. There would be a long life
of joy and satisfaction to her, and he knew she would
not grudge him these few years. Then, too, he was
quite certain she had not even had an imaginary fancy
for these two men—Ben was nothing but a boy.
Anthony Drayton was to join them. Miss Winn
was to be Cynthia's companion. Mrs. Stevens had
refused to trust her precious self to any wilds, and
bear and wolf hunts, though Mr. Giles declared they
were not going to take guns along. He was not an
enthusiastic hunter. As for Chilian, such sport did not
attract him.
The journey was partly by stage, partly on horseback,
and one or two days they left the ladies at the
tavern where they stopped. Cynthia was charmed
and amused at the uncouthness of the people and their
dialect in some places, and positive good breeding in
others. Anthony unearthed a college chum who was
tally man at a sawmill. The new town was really
making progress. A small chapel had been started,
a schoolhouse built. And twenty years later it was a
pretty town; in fifty years an enterprising city.
"Anthony's going to be a first-class fellow. I
should like to have such a son. Chilian, you and I
should have married and have sons and daughters
growing up. But at my time of life I should want
them grown up. And smart, as well. I always feel
sorry for the fathers of dull lads, when they have
plenty of means to educate them. Yes, I should want
mine to have a good supply of brains."
Chilian Leverett enjoyed the change very much and
the breath of spruce and pine was invigorating. But
there was a little nervous feeling about Cynthia.
Cousin Giles was somewhat of a lady's man, and he
was on the continual lookout that Cynthia should not
tire herself unduly, that she be assisted over the rough
places, that she should have the best of everything.
He was almost jealous at times.
But Cynthia moved about gayly, serenely, full of
merry little quips, seizing the small ridiculous events
with such a sense of amusement that she inspirited
them all. And he could not notice that she paid any
more attention to Anthony than either of her seniors.
There was such a genuine frankness in all she said
and did, a charm of manner that was just herself, and
had none of the arts of society, but came from a heart
that overflowed with spontaneous warmth, but was not
directed to any particular person.
Cousin Giles declared he was sorry to get back to
Boston. He could not remember when he had enjoyed
such a good time. Then in a business way it had been
a success, which added to his satisfaction.
They really had to stay in Boston one night. They
would fain have kept Cynthia for a week, but she said
she was tired of just changing from one frock to
another, and longed for more variety.
"And I'm so glad to get back home again," she cried
delightedly. "I've had a splendid time, and I like
Anthony ever so much. Cousin Giles was so nice
and fatherly. He ought to adopt Anthony and give
him his name, and that would always make me think
of father. But after all, home is best. Oh, suppose I
was a waif, just being handed from one to another!"
She looked frightened with the imaginary lot. She
expressed emotions so easily.
"You couldn't have been;" hoarsely.
"Cousin Chilian, if you had not been in the world,
or if you hadn't been willing to take me—I don't
think father knew much about Cousin Giles—why, I
must have gone to strangers."
There were tears in her eyes, and a sweet melancholy
in her voice.
She had so much to tell Cousin Eunice that it
seemed really as if she had taken the journey with
them. She put on Jane's faded gingham sunbonnet
and gave her voice a queer nasal twang, and talked as
some of the women did up there in the wilderness, who
thought a city "must be an awfully crowdy place an'
she jes' didn't see how people managed to live in it.
An' as fer the sea, give her dry land every time."
Then she talked the French-English patois of the
emigrants from Canada, and told of their funny attire,
and their log huts, sometimes with only one big room,
with a stone chimney in the centre, and sawed logs
for seats.
"They did that in Salem nigh on to two hundred
years ago," said Cousin Eunice.
"How much people do learn by living," remarked
the little girl sagely.
Then the olden round began. Being asked out to
tea and inviting in return, sewing bees, quilting parties
when some girl was making an outfit. And though
the elders shook their heads at such a waste of time,
they went out to walk in the afternoon and stopped
in the shops that were making a show on Essex Street
and Federal Street. There was Miss Rust's pretty
millinery parlor—it had a sofa in the front room and
a table with an embroidered cover that Cynthia had
sent her. They talked of new styles and colors, and
were aghast at the thought that royalty sometimes had
as many as twenty hats and bonnets. She made pretty
old lady caps as well, and she did love to hear the
young girls chatter. And Molly Saunders was still
baking gingerbread, that had delighted them as school
children, and no one made such good spruce and sassafras
beer.
One evening at a dance she had a great surprise.
Some one said, "Miss Cynthia Leverett, Mr.
Marsh."
A rather tall, ruddy, good-looking fellow, with laughing
eyes and an unmistakable sailor air, held her dainty
hand and studied her face.
"Oh, you don't know me!" in the jolliest of tones.
"And I should know you if you had been cast ashore
on a rocky island and I were looking at you through
a spyglass. You haven't changed in the main, only to
grow prettier. You were a poor pale little thing
then."
"Oh, I can't think!" She flushed and smiled.
Something in the hearty voice won her.
"At Dame Wilby's school. And the bad boy who
sat behind you—Tommy Marsh."
"Oh! oh! And that day I sat on the floor!" She
laughed gayly. She did not mind it a bit now.
"Wasn't it funny? And the way you just sat still
with the school in an uproar. You standing up there
and 'sassing' back the old dame! Such a mite of a
thing, too. My! but you were a plucky one!" in admiration.
"And you never came to school after that.
I ought to get down on my knees and beg your pardon
for the sly pinches I gave you, and the times I
tweaked your curly hair. I've half a mind to do it."
"Oh, no!" and she made a funny gesture of alarm,
and both laughed.
"And I've been over there to India, where you came
from, and found some people who knew your father.
I've been to sea seven years, three on this last cruise,
and when the Vixen is repaired and refitted I'm going
out again as first mate. One of these days I shall be a
captain."
How proud and strong he looked. Why, one
couldn't help liking him.
"I wonder if I might dance with you?"
"Oh, do you dance? I thought sailors—and there
are no girls——" and she blushed at her incoherence.
"I think we do a little. Where did you get the
Sailor's Hornpipe from? We're sorry about not having
girls, but we make it answer. And when you get
in the doldrums, or becalmed, it stirs up your blood.
Oh, they are taking their places."
Ben was in the same quadrille. Every time he
touched her hand he gave it a pressure that made her
cheeks rosier. Altogether it was a delightful evening.
Cousin Chilian came for her. He had found she
preferred it.
"Oh, Cousin Chilian, I've had such a funny adventure.
Perhaps you can recall the little boy I really
hated that week I went to the dame's school. Well,
he is a nice big fellow now, and we had a talk, and he
has been to Calcutta and seen people who knew father.
I want him to come so we can have a good long talk,
and won't you ask him? You'll like him, I know. I'll
find him and bring him to you, and you can ask him to
come while I'm putting on my things."
She hunted him up and he was very pleased to meet
Mr. Leverett. She gave them quite a while, for she
was chatting with the girls about some weddings on
the tapis.
She gave Mr. Marsh her hand and a smile that
would have set almost any masculine heart beating.
It must have been born with her, though it was pitifully
appealing in the childhood days. Now the true,
sweet nature shone through it, lending it a fascinating
radiance.
Mr. Leverett said he should be glad to have him call
while he was in port, and the young man thanked him
and said he should give himself the pleasure.
"And when he does come," said the little lady in
her half-coaxing, half-imperious way, "can't we have
him up in the study? You see, it does very well for
half a dozen of us to be down in the parlor, but it gets
kind of stiff and not cheerful with just one. And
you'll like to talk to him."
He assented readily. Ben always came up in the
study, though now he would rather have been alone
with Cynthia. There were some things he meant to
say, if he ever had a chance, in spite of youth and
guardianship.
Mr. Marsh did not lose much time considering. The
very next week he called.
They found him a nice, agreeable, well-informed
young man, a true sailor lad, and like many a Yankee
boy, he kept adding to his stock of knowledge where-ever
he went. He had drawn some useful charts of
seaports and islands he knew about, their products and
climates, and really his descriptions were as good as a
geography.
"There's no doubt Salem has the lead in the foreign
trade, but we're going to be pushed hard the next
few years. Other cities have found out the profit in it.
But we've some of the best captains, and that's what I
mean to be myself."
At Calcutta they still held a warm remembrance of
Captain Anthony Leverett. And Marsh thought it
quite a wonderful thing that the little girl had gone
back and forth and braved all the perils. He told them
of a pirate ship they had once battled with and the rich
stores they had taken from her. The prisoners had
been left on an island.
"But—how would they get to their homes?" she
asked.
"Oh, that wasn't our lookout. They'd have done
the same thing to us if they could, maybe worse. Occasionally
vessels are wrecked, and sometimes it is
months before a ship goes that way and sees their
signal."
Yes, she was glad nothing of the kind had happened
to her. And Chilian, watching the little shiver, gave
thanks also.
Thomas Marsh enjoyed these evenings wonderfully.
He was always glancing at Cynthia to see if what he
said met with her approval. It seemed so strangely
sweet to be thrilled at the tones of her voice and the
touch of her hand. And when she looked up and
smiled, the blood surged to his brain. He was quite a
favorite with the girls, but no other one had that power
over him.
Of course, they met here and there at the different
companies—he never went unless she was sure to be
there, and if he asked she answered frankly. Cousin
Chilian took her down to see the Vixen, which was
nearly ready for her new cruise. He was very proud
of her, so was Captain Langfelt, and they had some tea
in the cabin. But some sudden knowledge came to
Chilian Leverett, and he was sincerely glad the young
man was going away.
The evening Thomas Marsh came in to say good-bye,
she was alone.
"You'll find Miss Cynthia up in the study," said
Jane, and thither he went two steps at a time. She
had on a soft gown, and he thought she looked like
some lovely flower as she rose to greet him.
"I believe we are to sail to-morrow. Stores and
cargo are all in, and now the captain is in haste to be
off. Come down about eleven in the morning and wish
me God-speed, a safe journey, and a happy return."
"Yes. We were talking of it to-day. Oh, I hope
you will have all, though a great many things happen
in three years." Neither of them, indeed no one, could
have predicted what was to happen in those eventful
three years.
They discussed the pleasant times, the girls and boys
who had grown up and married during the whole seven
years of his absence. Oh, how sweet and pretty she
was! He envied the boys like Bentley Upham and two
or three others who had business at home—but no, he
never could have been anything but a sailor.
Then he rose to go. He stood holding her hand and
the red and white kept flitting over her face, her eyes
were so soft and dark. They would haunt him many a
night on the deck.
"It's best that I am going so soon," he began in a
rather tremulous voice. "Do you remember what
your uncle was reading the other day about the man
who wanted to be lashed to the mast when they passed
the Syrens? It would be that way with me if I staid
much longer. I—I wouldn't be able to help loving
you, and I doubt whether it would be a good thing for
either of us. I've tried all along to keep it to a plain,
honest like, but I know now it is more than that. I
shall take away with me the remembrance of the sweetest
girl in all the world, and I have no right to spoil her
life. But sometimes maybe you'll think of a far-away
lad, who sends you his love and the best wishes for
your happiness with the man you will love best of all."
Then he pressed her hand to his lips and went slowly
down the stairs. She heard the door shut. And, foolish
girl, she sat down and cried, and there Cousin Chilian
found her, and had to listen and absolve.
"No," he said, "it would not do for you to have a
sailor lad. Your tender heart would break with the
anxiety. He's a nice, upright fellow, and he will never
shirk a duty. But you——" What should he say to
her?
"I want to stay here. Oh, I wonder if you will like
me when I get as old as Cousin Eunice, and the world
will change and improve and I shall be queer and old-fashioned?"
He held her in his arms, but he was shocked to find
what was in his own heart.