At the foot of the mule-track, where the carriage
stopped, one lighted window showed in the villa.
"We get out here," said Val to Richard Marcus,
who had just arrived in San Goffredo. "It's the only way up
to my cottage. They'll carry your luggage up from the station
presently." She gave some directions to the coachman, in
Italian. Just as they were starting up the track, the window
with the light behind it opened, and a slim figure stepped from
the room on to the balcony, and called out a gay greeting to
Val; spreading her arms along the balcony rail, she leant over
still further:
"Is that my cousin Richard? Welcome to Italy, Cousin
Richard!" And then, laughing away her own affectation, she
added spontaneously: "We've all been longing for you to
come."
"See you later on, to-night," Val cried, over her shoulder,
and began to trudge upwards under the bending olive trees.
"Some time to-night," was flung back by that low, joyous
voice in the dark.
"Good heavens! Who was that?" asked Richard; and
Val replied in slightly mocking tones:
"That, dear Richard, was your Cousin Loraine. You
haven't seen her yet, have you?"
"Loraine? Do you mean that little tick who did a bunk
with Goddard? Do you mean that they are here?" His
inflexion was like a wedge of stolid British horror; if there was
one thing more than another that Richard disliked, it was a
situation—an irregular situation. "Does Toni know they are
here? Why doesn't she do something about it?"
All Toni's relations had been asking this.
"Toni knows. I sent her a telegram, of course, as soon as
the happy pair turned up, about six weeks ago; the middle of
September."
"And Toni answered that you were to pack him straight
back to her, I suppose?"
"She did not, Richard. And it would have been a difficult
thing to do, anyway. Toni, being a spirited young woman,
sent back a telegram which amounted to a shrug, a laugh, and
her blessing!"
"I still don't see why you kept them here," Richard went
on, irritably. "Why, good Lord, they first met on my lawn,
he and Toni."
"That," Val answered respectfully, "would naturally bring
you in as a main factor in the present deplorable disintegration
of the marriage."
"Don't be a triple ass, Val. I meant—he seemed to me all
right; sound, you know. County family. I don't like his
brothers much; one of them's a waster, but quite an ordinary
waster. And I often see his father, Jimmy Goddard. He's in
the same hunt as Molly."
"That's making it worse and worse!"
"I like you, Val," said Richard, laughing, "but I growl when
I'm ragged; I'm that sort of dog. And as for your Loraine——"
He had taken a violent dislike to Loraine—partly for Toni's
sake, of course; and partly because of the little incident when
she had come out on to the balcony and welcomed him warmly
to a strange country. He felt, without being able to express
it, that she had arranged this fleeting moment of drama in the
dark, anticipating that he might treasure it for ever in his
heart, as a sudden oasis in the wilderness. "And I still don't
see why she was longing for me to come."
"You'll adore her. Everybody adores Loraine!"
"I hate people everyone adores. What do you think of
Goddard?"
... Val did not answer for a few moments, as the path
slanted up at a sharper angle, and the stones were slippery
from recent rain. Then she said slowly: "I don't think
Giles is at all well."
That, in fact, had been her real reason for encouraging them
to remain where, for Toni's sake, she could keep an eye on him.
They had reached the top of the path, now, and there was a
wan stream of light from the cottage which stood on the crest
of the low hill. Richard was able to see Val's face. He said
affectionately:
"You don't seem over fit, yourself, Val. There's a sort of—of
pucker in your tranquillity." He was, indeed, very fond of
Val Power; she had helped him out of what had promised to be
the worst scrape of his life, a few years ago; and he had talked
to her, then, with all his reserves broken down.... That awful
business when the family had tried to marry him off to
Jeanne-Marie! ... And thinking of the family, reminded him that a
once formidable member of it, was said to be staying with Val at
San Goffredo; and that he would presently meet his Aunt Elsa.
"Look here, I say, Val—this business of Goddard and
Loraine. What does Aunt Elsa say about it all? Surely, she
doesn't put up with it? She's with you, isn't she?"
"Rather! She's with me," Val chuckled. "I foresee," she
said, "that I shall have the delight of watching you and Aunt
Elsa at last in alliance—spiritually in alliance; but all the same,
she's struggling on the edge of being fond of Loraine."
"You never allow her up at your house, I suppose? I can't
see Aunt Elsa putting up with that."
"Of course she puts up with it. We've coaxed her into
being quite genial."
"Then she's no right to be genial," grunted Richard, feeling
that a bit of the ancient auntly severity was badly wanted in
this home, where Val encouraged runaway cousins, and
runaway husbands of cousins, who had run away together....
Val said: "You can write to The Times about it, and sign
yourself 'Father of Two,' or 'Shocked Paterfamilias,' or 'A
Clod of Gloucestershire Soil,' whichever most appeals to you!
But don't unsettle Aunt Elsa's mind, there a dear. She doesn't
quite know where she is, any way: what with liking Loraine,
and loyalty to Toni, and family tradition, and my arguments,
and Giles looking thin.... You know what Aunt Elsa was,
when anyone looked thin! And now suppose we stop lingering
in the damp garden, and go in where it's warm, and have some
food." She whistled, and a small West Highland terrier, a
scuttling patch of shaggy white, dashed down the path towards
them, and began leaping all over Val, with sharp joyous barks.
"Down, Mac! Down, old boy! Make friends with the
new gent! Where's Terry? Oi! Mac, where's Terry?"
And a voice from the front door, a deferential, girlish voice,
belonging to a figure in pale pink, said:
"I'm afraid Terry's down with Loraine again, Miss Power.
I hope you don't mind. We tried to shut him up, but Marietta
opened the door for something, and he dashed out. You know
how Terry adores Loraine!"
"Who's Terry?" asked Richard in an undertone. "And
who's that girl?"
"My other dog—a Kerry blue; and that's Queenie, who
runs the house for me while I paint."—But then all undertones
were drowned in a voluble burst of welcome in a foreign accent,
from the hall behind Queenie:
"My dear, dear boy, but this is a pleasure! No, come—I
must have a kiss! But you are looking splendid, I will say!
And grown! And how I vish you could have brought those
good little boys with you. I always say to Val, one can never
have enough in ze house, especially children! You nottee,
what are you doing, too, coming so far and not bringing your
vife? But come in now! You are wet and frozen and you
must have your dinner; you will not be sorry now—no? yes?—to
try your old Aunt Elsa's cooking again, isn't it?"
Richard infinitely preferred Aunt Elsa's welcome, to
Loraine's. He felt, too, that it was a good thing for Val,
dwelling erratically in a foreign country, that she should have
Aunt Elsa saying vehemently: "No!" and "I forbid!" and
"It isn't right!" and "Never, never!" at frequent intervals,
even if Val took no notice of such adjurations. There was
something eternally warm, eternally jocund and coquettish, in
the personality of Aunt Elsa. She and Richard were ancient
enemies; and she had been chief among those who had accused
him and trapped him, thwarting all sullen attempts at escape,
in the Jeanne-Marie episode. But "Wash it out!" thought
Richard, unaware that he was repeating the Matriarch's dying
words.—"Wash it all out!" ... Here they were together in
Italy—he and Val and Aunt Elsa, heartily pleased to be under
the same roof. He gave the pretty, dimpling old lady a hug
that was far too robust for her strength, and told her that he
was ready to eat largely of anything she had cooked; but—a
whiff from the kitchen helping him!—he would most of all
prefer those ripping things like dumplings only in a sort of
rich gravy and stuffed with eggs.... "Or was it plums?" a
little vaguely. For he and Molly and his sons ate proper food,
joints and roly-poly pudding and the like, so that he had almost
forgotten what might be the ingredients of a Rakonitz dish,
spicy and mysterious.
It was difficult to be articulate in the chattering, noisy
welcome that seemed to have unloosed itself from every corner
and archway of the vaulted room.... Kindly flames leaping
from the logs of olive-wood; Aunt Elsa, wildly excited,
explaining that it was "Eier-nöckeln," but how could Richard
have guessed—but no, how could he have guessed? The dog
Mac still hurling himself from one to the other of them; Val
hurriedly interviewing a sort of Italian infant school, that had
poured in from the kitchen—Marietta and Stefania and Lola....
"How do you do?" said Richard, awkwardly, to these,
responding to Val's matter-of-course introduction, and to
their shyly outstretched hands and bright beaming faces.
Queenie was saying in discreet, rapid undertones to Val:
"Did you see Loraine, coming up here, Miss Power? Did
she seem all right? She seemed a little depressed when she
went, after tea. I wonder if you'd mind if I took down my
hot-water bottle, in case she doesn't sleep again, and needs it?
Or did you say she was coming up to-night? She wasn't sure
if you wanted her, though I told her of course we did!"
—Richard looked questioningly at his Aunt Elsa, who
fluttered, twinkled, shrugged her shoulders, spread her hands,
nodded and sighed; trying to convey, by these conflicting
signs, her utter perturbation of spirit over the monstrous
advent, at San Goffredo, of Toni's husband; her bewilderment
at Val's acceptance of such a situation—(but a disgrace!)—her
reluctant beginnings, nevertheless, of motherly affection
for Loraine; her secret understanding of Richard's point of
view, promising him a long confidential talk later on; her
amusement at Queenie's very obvious rave on Loraine; and,
finally: "But come, we must be a little modern, isn't it?
After all, zat poor Loraine is not quite English! ..."
Stefania put in a question as to whether the Signorina
Loraine was coming up to dinner that night? Her mobile
little mouth drooped in disappointment, when Val said: "No,
after dinner."
"Stefania adores Loraine," said Queenie, and Richard
muttered: "Oh, God!" Queenie, not noticing, went on
with enthusiasm, reciting her saga into space, telling her
rhapsody to the reeling constellations: "All the little Italian
peasant kiddies adore Loraine. She is wonderful with children.
Stefania and Lola forget to be servants when they're playing
with Loraine. She races up and down the hills with them, and
climbs trees. Luigi, the son of the man at the wine-shop, is
simply crazy over her, though he's only sixteen; and she tries
to laugh it out of him. He brings her a bottle of his father's
sweetest Moscata wine every day; he steals it for her, because
she once said she liked it. Old Pulcini will be furious if he ever
finds out; Luigi always says such a romantic thing whenever
he gives it to her: 'This is for the Signorina; it is a beautiful
wine, because she is so beautiful!' Loraine's own cook,
Manuela, adores her, too. Manuela is half Spanish; she says
she will knife anyone who hurts her little Señorita. Loraine—"
Very firmly, Richard requested to be shown up to his room.
You could not too virulently dislike Queenie, so pretty and
breathless, with a faint flush on her blossomy skin, and a look of
sudden timidity as she realised, perhaps, that she had been
talking too much, in front of a strange man. But he had had
enough of hearing about Loraine worship, for the moment:
Terry, the Kerry Blue; Queenie; Stefania; Manuela;
numberless Italian children; and Luigi, aged sixteen, son of a
local vintner—all, so said the legend and the disciple, were
centred in this adoration; and, it was to be supposed, Giles
Goddard, Toni's husband; and, imminently, Aunt Elsa, who,
according to Val, was struggling on the edge. Apparently, only
Val had succeeded in remaining immune; and of Val's feelings
he could never be quite sure. He would have to see her with
Loraine before he was satisfied. She was not as serene as usual:
there were signs of disturbance in her indolent voice; in a
mournful, tired way, her eyes seemed at times to contract, until
the pupils were merely black specks. Val had an attractive
trick of suddenly closing her eyes, and then quickly opening
them again, just before she laughed; as though, before laughter
could have its way with her, she must first, for a fleeting instant,
shut out sight of the visible world.... Richard imagined
that, without being a victim to the spell that Loraine seemed
to scatter around, Val was yet too acutely aware of her cousin's
force for destroying peace. Then was it upsetting her work?
Val had made her name on a certain concentration of savage
irony that burst its way through the paint in whatever she did;
a curious tendency, considering how lazy good-nature to those
around her, was her main characteristic. Did Loraine like
Val? ... "As though it mattered!" remarked Richard, to the
empty room about him; and he banged his hair-brushes down
on to the table with quite unnecessary vehemence. Did
Loraine like Val? Richard was not impressionable. His was a
nature that, as a rule, instead of responding sensitively to
vibrations and harmonies and subtle signs of conflict in the
atmosphere about him, solidly resisted them, remained
impregnable, hewing out his own slow, sure way towards the mental
destination on which he was originally intent. That was why
he was the more disgusted that he should now find himself in a
strange house, in a strange country, speculating about a strange
woman, and her strange effect upon those around him. This
was the sort of damn-fool mood that artists had, and sometimes
foreigners; or, perhaps, invalids; not sensible English farmers!
As though good old Val could not be trusted to keep in place a
gaudy creature who would presently appear to vamp him with
a red camellia in her mouth! Richard clumped down to his
dinner.... Thinking of Loraine and her artificiality, he
found perverse pleasure in accentuating his own farm-labourer
characteristics, easily enough shed as a rule, directly he was on
holiday, and out of the fields.
But when, a couple of hours later, Loraine materialised, with
Giles by her side, and Terry squirming along behind, ostentatiously
and willingly her slave, she did nothing so obvious as to
chew a red camellia, or attempt to vamp her hitherto unknown
cousin Richard. She was, indeed, frankly and exuberantly glad
to see him; but her second welcome, in its essence, had the
same note in it as Aunt Elsa's: claiming kin with him, stressing
the warm fact that they were, though distantly, blood relations.
She wore, not the jade-green velvet that ought to have
shocked Quimper, and did not, but a sedate nut-brown frock,
cut in the way that her fingers shaped all her frocks: long,
pointed bodice and wide skirt down to her ankles. It was
subtle of Loraine, with the feet of a goddess, not to yield to
the cheap temptation of wearing short skirts. And she came
running in, calling:
"Ah now, where's my Aunt Elsa, the only friend I have in
this house?"
"Oh, Loraine! ..." gasped Queenie, protesting. But
Loraine swept aside Queenie's very existence; Queenie had
been too easy a conquest.
"You are my friend when I'm not there, aren't you, darling,
wicked Aunt Elsa? Tell me truly, Cousin Richard, hasn't she
told you nothing but noice things about me? She scolds us to
our faces, but sticks up for us behind our backs; and don't I
know it!"
Aunt Elsa tried very hard to frown her disapproval; but an
irrepressible dimple, which sixty years ago had been one of the
toasts of Vienna's young officers and "gigerls," showed
suddenly in her left cheek, just under the eye. "I do scold you,
yes, when you wear that thin dress and no cloak after all I have
told you," she cried; and succumbed to Loraine's flattery, to
Loraine's embrace. Then, remembering that Richard was
there, and that she and Richard were allies in the cause of
respectability, tried to pull herself together again—too
late—and added pettishly: "But do not, I beg you, sit about all
over me like this! You are one of those who never finds
themselves a chair, no!"
But, meanwhile, Richard and Giles had met. The last time
had been nearly a year ago: November, in Gloucestershire,
when Giles had gone down to his father for some hunting with
the Berkeley; that had been just before Antony was born.
Richard expected a measure of embarrassment from Goddard,
which would at least equal, if not double, his own. But Giles
was not embarrassed; he was not even self-conscious nor
defiant, as far as Richard could see. At the first second of
encounter, Richard had thought Val was talking rot when she
had remarked that Giles was not well.... Why, he had never
seen the man look quite so alive, nor so full of vitality. But
straight on top of that, followed the contradiction; and he
understood, with a resentful shock, both the reason for Val's
comment, and the reason for her slackness in censure. There
was surely something not quite natural about a fellow who was
not a bad fellow, and yet could leave his wife, and, a few months
later, appear among his wife's relations with that air of sunny
exuberance—well, not sunny, exactly—starry was more the
word: Giles seemed to be kicking his heels among the stars;
he was not on firm ground any more, and he had forgotten that
other people could still keep to firm ground and firm
conventions. This pair—Giles and Loraine—damn it all! They were
assuming themselves the centre and nucleus of a happy family
party: "Here we all are! Isn't it amusing?" Their entrance
had been—well, Mercury and Psyche ... demi-gods,
half-mortals.... No, Mercury was a whole god, wasn't he? But
here, in Giles, was mortal faculty to be happy, with a god's
severance from the consequences. In Giles—public school,
young English army man; father in Gloucestershire now; type
that hated all forms of freak conduct, freak clothes.... His
evening-dress, his manners, his close-cut hair and short clipped
moustache ... all in order.... You couldn't place it, that
effect he brought in with him, of sparkle and irresponsibility.
He was not acting, but this entrance—it was surely part of a
show? It would have been glib and insolent, had it been meant
insolently. But it was not even that, Richard could see. They
were expecting no reproaches; they were just happy and full
of charm.
Val, watching the encounter with concealed anxiety, observed
with relief that the hackles on Richard's neck had ceased
bristling, the bulk of his opposition had subsided.... And, in the
way of Aunt Elsa, he slowly succumbed—but to Giles, not to
Loraine.
Loraine was comfortably settled on the floor, now, her brown
skirts billowing round her, her head against Aunt Elsa's knee;
Terry lay in her lap, blinking up at her through such a thick
mat of untidy fringe, that it was hard to believe that he could
see anything at all! "Terry ni houlihan" ... or words to
that effect! ... she murmured affectionately.
"She talks to him in Pidgin Erse," Val mocked; "and to
Mac, in a sort of bastard Gaelic. I don't know what language
she'd achieve if we kept a Pomeranian!"
Did Val like Loraine? Richard was still not sure. No doubt
but that, out of the whole crowd assembled, Val's approbation
was the only one that Loraine really cared about, or sought to
win. He could not accuse her of showing off; she was
quaint and old-fashioned that evening—a little princess of the
rigid Spanish Court, very courteous to Richard, quietly
affectionate with Aunt Elsa; she checked Queenie's exuberant
services; and, in her low, husky voice, made them all laugh
with a really funny account of how Queenie had despairingly
brought her the household books to check, that very afternoon;
and after Queenie herself, and Aunt Elsa, and apparently
Marietta, had already been tampering with them, with the
best will in the world and in three languages, striving to get
them right...
"What I always say is, everyssing or nossing," cried Aunt
Elsa. "It is true that Val has her work and does not want to
lead the house, therefore; but if it were all left to me who was
taught to be domestisch and practisch in the kitchen when I
was yet an age when girls now sit in school and learn
nossing..." And she nodded vigorously at Queenie, whom she detested.
"But how can I make economies and prevent ruin, yes, for that
will be the end of it, when that one there calls herself the
housekeeper and interrupts her coquettings with the cobbler and
carpenter and all the other Italians whom she thinks barons and
counts because she knows nossing of the world and has read a lot
of quatsch! Yes, calls herself the housekeeper here, and gives a
lot of silly orders and adds up the figures all wrong!"
Queenie protested with tears in her eyes, for she was not
used to Rakonitz frankness and open hostilities: "Oh, but
really, Mrs. Rakonitz, you mustn't, please. I did my best, but
I am with Miss Power to housekeep for her, you know, and how
can I get the accounts right when you make Marietta bring them
to you first, and turn all the 'ones' into foreign 'sevens,' so
that I can't read them any more?"
Aunt Elsa was heard to observe in a perfectly clear aside to
Richard; "It would go that child nossing on, if she could read
them! No head, I tell you, Richard, no head at all; and what
Val wants with her—one of my reasons for stopping, is naturally
to save my niece the expense and worry——" Not for the first
time was Aunt Elsa hinting that Queenie should be sent about
her business, leaving her in entire lordship of Val's domestic
arrangements. But Val preferred remaining Aunt Elsa's hostess,
to allowing her full powers of ministration. It was comfortable
and entertaining to have this really delightful specimen of the
best and most highly-flavoured Viennese aunt, being an aunt
from room to room, and as good as a fire in them. But Val knew
that an Aunt Elsa on whom you were dependent, would speedily
become an Aunt Elsa of whom to be afraid; not merely lovable,
as now. So she retained Queenie, nominally as a housekeeper;
actually, as a safeguard from old autocracies. Aunt Elsa's
persecution of "that-one-there" was unflagging, and a real
pleasure to behold, for those who had gauged the thickness of
Queenie's pale skin. "And you don't know what a mouth she
has for eating," she still confided in Richard, but fortunately
during Queenie's absence in quest of drinks. "You think it
pretty now, yes, but wait until you see it full! Ach! I have
no patience! And zen she runs about with a vase full of blooms
and moch too full of water, and puts it in ze middle of the table,
spilling a big pool for me to put my needlework in, later on, and
vonders if everyone, yes, everyone is wondering how Val could
ever ever manage to get on without the help of that sweet young
girl who arranges blooms from the garden so nicely? ... Nöebig!"
But Queenie was quite determined that nothing on earth,
except sheer booting, would make her quit Val's establishment
while Loraine was at San Goffredo and at the foot of the hill.
Loraine could compensate her for everything. Queenie Bell,
brought up entirely between Potley Green High School and
Potley Green Tennis Club, had never met anything so dazzling,
so unique, as Loraine. She could not understand how anyone
could look at Val Power, although she painted very good pictures
in their way, when such a thrilling Loraine was about! So she
swallowed as much as she could of her resentment at that
terrible old woman's persecution, and said, smoothly—hearing
Aunt Elsa's final denunciation, and having been taught to be
polite to the aged, insane, and decrepit: "Mother always told
me it was an inspiration to artists to have flowers about the
house. And I do my best to save expense, Mrs. Rakonitz,
indeed I do. It's not easy in Italian, and I'm nothing like as
good as Loraine at figures. Loraine——" muzzily, into space,
once again, "Loraine is a marvel at figures."
Richard was surprised to hear it! It was easy to believe that
pretty pink-and-white Queenie, her sleek fair hair and demure
eyelids, and that self-conscious wiggle of the hips, almost
imperceptible, reproving the non-existent but always possible
license of men, had been that type of school-girl who had sat
with her friends as near the back of the class-room as she could
get, and far away from either the sporting or the intellectual
group; paying no attention whatever to the lessons, except as
a form of oft-repeated joke; and giggling violently, especially
in the mathematics class, at an earnest mistress's efforts to
instruct her. But Loraine?—Richard looked enquiringly at
her: her eyes were shadowed to an expression of soft and
serious supplication, as though she were saying: "Please don't
hate me—I can't help being unattractive, can I?" He was to
learn, later on, several of her other characteristics which would
strike him as equally incongruous with the sturdy aptitude for
figures. She was not to be got by heart, all in a flash. Not
only was she, as Queenie had said, an expert accountant—neat
and accurate—which was absurd, when you looked at her!—But
she also gloried in hard and incontestable substances:
coarse food, for instance: large quantities of coarse food, like
macaroni and pungent onions and rough bread; she enjoyed
digging in the garden; and it seemed to give her the same odd
comfort to plan systematic and daily performances of such
unadorned hard work as this, as to balance dreary and complicated
sums in arithmetic: "I'm coming up here, every single morning
early, at seven-thirty, without fail, Val knows, don't you,
Val? to dig over this large bed for potatoes. Who says I won't?
But I'm going to, and it'll be splendid for me, and that it will,
indeed!" ... And no amount of subsequent lapses from
such a time-table, would kill her illusion of her own fixity of
purpose, next time she made such a resolution. "If you do
things regularly, like that, sticking to it, you can't die!" she had
cried out, once, passionately. And a truth lay like a small patch
on the spectacular streamer of rubbish. She had any amount
of quick, practical knowledge of what should be done in
illnesses; how to cook vegetables; how to take a stain out of
silk; she knew about laundry, and useful carpentering oddments.
It seemed as though, with these qualities and preferences,
all of them genuine, she were holding her sides with
ribald laughter at those people who would inevitably expect
her to be richly-coloured, dreamy, full of wild romances and
other-world longings. Val had asked her what it was that gave
her such a vehement satisfaction in the smell of strong soap, for
instance; or in the sight of a column of double-entry; and she
had answered, abruptly: "It's because they keep one to
earth—things like that. And I want to be kept to earth."
"Afraid of dying young?" Val quizzed her. She always
pricked Loraine's heroics whenever she could; and Loraine
had replied, angrily:
"Afraid, yes.... But not of dying! And you're unfair to
me, Val, as Toni was.... You'll always, always, always try to
show me up at being theatrical, even when, like now, it's I and
no one else who have shown you how to get the red-and-white
tiles of your verandah floor properly polished, and you using
water on them! You clever people, who push away exciting
things for fear they're not real, you'll end by never settling
near anything real at all!"
But Richard, too, who had visualised her along purely decorative
and fantastic lines: useless, bewildering, ensnaring, found,
bewildered and uneasy, that she did not try to ensnare him;
not, at all events, with any of the usual flutter of sex; though
she had a way of perpetual, silent appeal that he would back
her up and be on her side; even when no one was attacking
her. And every now and then: "Yes, I know your secret....
I knew it at once! But don't be afraid; it's quite safe with
me!"—thus her soft and inscrutable rain-coloured eyes both
warned and reassured him. "Damn it!" thought Richard,
"I haven't got a secret!" ... This girl was going to be a
nuisance. Why did she so fatally force upon them all the
conviction that they were taking sides, or that there were any sides
to take? Why did she make loyalty and enmity, their liking or
dislike of her, so much more significant than it really was?
Richard thrust down a schoolboy desire to growl: "Yah—no
one's even thinking of you!"—and see how she met that. And
yet, as she gathered up Queenie-worship and Terry-worship;
and bits from Aunt Elsa, and fragments from Stefania, flitting
in and out to draw curtains and fill the log-basket; as she
casually mentioned Luigi and his votive bottles of Moscata,
and repeated the incredible compliments of an old gentleman
with whom she had accidentally scraped acquaintance on the
hills, that day; and read them a paragraph of a letter from
somebody-or-other's governess, wanting to leave her present
employment for the sake of being with Loraine for no salary at
all—yet it still struck Richard that childishly she was heaping
up all these rags and tags and treasures, only to build an
impressive pile to be laid at Val's feet; in some cases, she was
actually working to draw away from Val, what Val already had,
in order, generously, to be able to offer it up again as a personal
tribute from herself.
... Giles was teasing her, now, by enumerating a list of her
odd preferences: "Roots of garlic, Kerry Blues—she doesn't
like you, Mac, does she, my white angel?"—("No," growled
the West Highland; "and 'cos why? 'Cos I don't like her!
Quod erat demonstrandum!")—"Black bread; washing up
dishes, preferably greasy ones, from a dinner-party of
twenty-four! Smuggling on the coast of Dalmatia—which I don't
believe in, not for a moment ... but it makes a good tale!
Trigonometry; hard mattresses; and relations! Have I got
the list right, Loraine?"
Loraine answered, serenely, for she seemed less aware of
Giles than of any other person in the room: "More or less
right; but you might add that you were asleep during the
smuggling—fast asleep, at the bottom of the boat, with the net
thrown over you. And I like bathing healthy babies, with
round, strong limbs that kick the breath out of me. You have
two little boys of your own, haven't you, Cousin Richard?—the
darlings!"
"Are you going to call him Cousin Richard, all the time?"
asked Val. "It reminds me of an old-fashioned children's
book—the Sir and Madam kind—when the young were too respectful
to accost their elders without a prefix."
"Maybe that's how I feel about Cousin Richard," laughed
Loraine; and Aunt Elsa interrupted:
"Vot nonsense! Richard is younger than you, yes, a good
deal! Richard is—let me once see—twenty-three? twenty-four?——"
"Give us a chance!" said Richard. "Twenty-six. Jimmy's
two, now. My Jimmy, I mean, Goddard; not your governor!"
"And such a love!" cried Aunt Elsa, leaving it vague as to
whether she meant Jimmy Goddard or Jimmy Marcus!—But
anyhow, she had never seen either! "Such fat little legs!"
"Ah! But you should see Babs!" said Loraine....
A shocked Aunt Elsa cried: "You dear God!"
... They were all, except Giles, appalled at Loraine's
calm mention of Toni's daughter.
In the after stillness, you could almost hear the apparatus of
Queenie's modesty sending its message to her eyelids, so that
those blue wells of innocence that were her eyes might remain
veiled. "Lower them! Quick! Danger!" ... Loraine
could do no wrong, that was understood; and as for Giles:
"—It's a sin, yes, I know, but how can he help it—for
her?" But in this rather dreadful house of Miss Power's, people
actually talked about sin ... which was worse ... And
Miss Power never stopped them. Never even tried. "I
expect she herself..." thought Queenie, vaguely.
Val, with her habit of indolence, always with the hope that
if she did nothing whatever about a difficulty, sometime somebody
else would conveniently do it first, Val, indeed, was just
waiting! She noticed, however, that Giles was abnormally
unembarrassed; and that it was, in fact, merely a graceful
deference towards possible inhibitions of Aunt Elsa or Richard
Marcus that restrained him from agreeing quite simply and
heartily with Loraine, that his little daughter Babs was, indeed,
extraordinarily fascinating and attractive. Giles had not been
gripped by a set of new and lawless notions; he just appeared
to have been cut loose from any moral centre of gravity, and
to be floating in a serene haze, midway between cool earth and
dark heaven.... But Richard, whose feet, in heavy boots,
were well and firmly planted, thought that everybody about
him, not alone himself, was in a state of hot anguish. Generously,
for the first time in his life, he made one stupendous and
pugilistic effort to be tactful; when an uncomfortable remark
had been made, a man well versed in the art of graceful
diplomacy, at once and with a deft wit, changed the subject,
and turned the conversation. So:
—"By the way," said Richard, laboriously building his
bridge, "talking of your people, Val, I've brought out a present
for you: from a chap I don't know; but he said Aunt Haidée
had told him I was going out to visit you; ... he just caught
me at Victoria, and whanged a great lumpy parcel into my
arms. He said his name was Greenways, and that he'd been
staying out here..."
But if the calm had been pricked before, now it was
ripped across, beyond all repairing, Stephen
Greenways? ... Richard paused, not understanding why
his sudden effort at tact seemed to have been lifted off its
hinges ... swung in mid-air ... and then gently lowered
and replaced again....
"Yes," said Val. "He's a pal of mine. But he's always
trotting off to China and places like that—inconvenient, if you
want him in a hurry. He stayed out here about two months
ago, was it, Loraine?"
"Less than that; six weeks ago. Giles and I found him
here when we came. Ah, now, do fetch down the present,
Cousin Richard, and let's see if it's worth having."
"What is it?" Queenie asked inquisitively.
"I don't know," said Richard. "D'you think I opened it?" And
he went upstairs; while Val, Loraine, and Aunt Elsa
exchanged glances of amusement over this characteristic male,
who could bring a present the whole way from London to San
Goffredo, without even prodding it to find out the contents,
or tearing away a little corner of the paper!
"Let's guess what it is," said Queenie, who was youthfully
thrilled by presents, even when they were not for her.
Giles said promptly: "Mocassins. Travellers from foreign
lands always bring home mocassins and yashmaks."
"I want a necklace of shark's teeth, more than anything else
in the world," cried Queenie. And gazed limpidly at Giles,
who answered, "Your personality doesn't suggest shark's teeth,
Queenie. D'you know what I'd bring you?"
Queenie immediately began to flirt; which meant, in her
case, that she assumed a creamy demureness, as though her
girlhood were a pearl in a locked white velvet casket, and she
had recently lost the key.
"What would you bring me, Giles?"
Aunt Elsa interrupted, vindictively determined that Queenie,
if she could help it, should never hear what Giles would bring
her.... She condemned Giles for running away from Toni,
with Lorraine; but, once with Lorraine, at least, thought
Aunt Elsa, he might as well stop where he was, and not add to
the complacencies of the Belle of Potley Green, who called him
"Giles," so cheeky!
"But zat is not true, Giles, vot you say before. Often have
I been abroad; I have told you, have I not, that I vas not born
in England?—but never have I brought home to my girls
anything so sillee as yashmaks."
She thought they were a form of waterproof coat.
... Richard returned; and they all clustered round Val
while she opened the parcel, which was elaborately swathed in
several layers of thick brown paper, and then in coloured tissue
paper. Marietta and Stefania stole in from the kitchen, with
that sense of happening which always beckoned them forward
at the right moment.
Finally, Val removed the last crinkled black wrappings....
For the first moment they were all startled by the flare and
whirl of colour which beat out on their eyes. The jade and
blue and anemone pink were like three distinct shocks; then
Loraine, with a cry of joy, plunged her hands into the brocade
and embroidery, and shook it out before all of them, so that
they could see that it was a Chinese coat—even before they
heard the clank of the little gold Mandarin buttons, three at
the throat and three at the hem.
Gazing at it, you might think that you had never seen
embroidery before, for it was the very climax of all that was
brilliant and exotic. The flower-petals were worked in a
flaming pattern round the broad bands of kingfisher blue
embroidery; and again round each oval plaque that was woven
of a silvery heron with a long green beak, and behind his
outstretched wings a rainbow. All among the silken arabesques,
butterflies were delicately poised, golden butterflies and black
butterflies, and butterflies that were gold and black. The
closer you looked, the more there was to see; intricate markings
on the butterfly wings, purple and grass-green and apricot;
tiny stamens springing from every flower; circles that wisely
ringed the eye of each separate stork. Not one stork was like
another, and not one butterfly; nor was it incredibly foolish
that this discovery should make you happy. And when you
had looked closely, you looked again, from a distance, to exult
in the perfection of the whole coat, stiff and gleaming folds of
anemone pink, lining that was a flash of green lightning, bands
of a blue so intense that for very depth of colour it appeared to
stir and shift and shudder, as the depths of the sea will stir
while you look down into it.
—"By Jove!" muttered Giles. "Finest specimen I've
ever seen!"
"But it is colossal! It is wunderbar!" simultaneously
from Aunt Elsa.
And Queenie cried out: "Oh, Loraine, how perfectly
gorgeous you'd look in it!" Furthermore, she told the
constellations: "Loraine looks gorgeous in things that most
people can't wear without looking queer and funny!"
Loraine said, in a voice that sounded harshly, as though two
metals had been struck together: "Put it on, Val. Queenie's
quite right, you'll look gorgeous in it."
Giles, struck by the twist she had given Queenie's burst of
enthusiasm, glanced swiftly, apprehensively, at her.... She
was not happy and restful any more, and her hands trembled
with impatience as she helped Val on with the coat. Val was a
superb woman with nothing frail nor exotic in her appearance.
Health was clear in her brown skin; in the curves of her mouth,
firm and yet indolent; in the burnish on her ash-gold shingled
hair. The Chinese coat hung upon her impersonally as though
on alien shoulders. The Italian children burst into enthusiastic
admiration at seeing their mistress so radiantly apparelled.
She pivoted slowly, displaying herself, spreading her arms to
show the wide square of her sleeves.
And Loraine turned to Richard, and said confidentially,
as though she could not withhold her admiration any longer:
"Wouldn't Val look magnificent in riding kit?"
"Cousin Richard's going to take me home to-night,"
announced Loraine, at the end of a boisterous
evening—boisterous as far as she was concerned. She
had changed quite suddenly from the little-Spanish-princess
mood, quaint and old-fashioned, to a fury of restlessness,
attracting attention in every hectic way she could. She had
given negro imitations; she had flung her arms about Aunt
Elsa's neck, tom-boy fashion, and swung her off her feet, at the
same time pacifying her with soft, Irish endearments; she had
made Terry dance with her: "Oi! First unique performance
of our special Kerry Blues ... dedicated to the plural of his
race! ... An' was this the way of it, me sweet heart of a
dog?" And she had shown off Queenie's thraldom by first
snubbing the girl brutally, and then restoring her to favour.
None of this exhibition was meant, individually, for Richard or
even for Giles; it was all hurled at Val:—"You have the coat!
But these gifts, and these, and these, are mine..." Thus
Giles, who, after eight months, was learning to know his
Loraine, interpreted her defiant looks at Val; her stolen,
longing looks at the treasure which Stephen Greenways had
sent out to Val.
And then Loraine had told her maddest stories, in which
brigands, smugglers, elephant-trainers, and any handy form of
potentate, flung their admiration round her like a dark cloak
with a rich lining. She whirled her hearers along by the roads
and seas which Giles and she had travelled, since last February:
down the Adriatic coast on the Dalmatian side, into the
Grecian Archipelago; up through Roumania; up the Danube;
and to Vienna in September, after their long solitudes in wild
places: "And it was like a breath of home again, to me, though
mind you, I'd never been there in my life before. But the trail
of my own family was in every street I saw, and on every tongue
I heard speaking.... And I said to Giles: 'I've got to follow
it up. Now I know what it is that I've been lone and hungering
for, these months. For I must be with my own flesh and blood
again, or die. And if none of them are left in Vienna, then, du
lieber Gott! what's to prevent us going South to Italy, where
my cousin Val is, and my Aunt Elsa, and settling down near
them for a while?'"
"What indeed?" murmured Val....
Giles did not contradict any of Loraine's tales and rhapsodies.
Now and then, under his clipped moustache, his mouth
twitched humorously; but his eyes remained angry, deep-set
under his brows; that fixed spark of anger which last February
and a scene with Toni, had brought along.
Loraine had them all with her in Vienna now, and Aunt Elsa
was getting excited.... What a noise the two of them
made, like a crowd—a chattering, sparkling crowd, in a café.
Val, too, lay back in her arm-chair, and, like Giles, was content
to watch them, half-abstractedly.... Now and then her eyes
strayed towards the coat where it lay spread upon the divan.
She was happy that evening.
And Richard thought: "Foreigners!"
And Queenie, from another angle, thought: "Foreigners!"
... While Loraine and Aunt Elsa danced their eager,
hilarious memories:
"Those sandwich at Demmel's—you went in there? The
Hof-Konditorei? Ach, delicious! And especially the
Lachs—the smoked salmon!" "Aunt Elsa, one morning we took a
droschke and drove up to the Kobenzl, and had our coffee and
rolls there—high up, oh high on the terrace, with all Vienna
below us. The sun smiting the tall, tall Stephanskirche, and
the dome of the Karlskirche, and—oh, do you remember what
a sunset was like, downy raspberries solemnly crushed between
the two spires of the Votif, when I went in for Chorale every
evening ... And one morning I passed, and the Tailors of
Vienna were inside, consecrating their heraldic device....
They came out in mediæval costume, and rode on horseback
with banners, and all the crowd cheered.... It was so like
Vienna, to take their tailors so seriously, and almost nothing
else!"
Aunt Elsa metaphorically ducked her head and rushed in
under Loraine's whirlwind of enthusiasm: "Ze Prater-Allée....
Straight straight down many miles between the green
trees. And there the officers rode, so fesch! And the Royal
family—ach, die arme Elisabet!—Tell me, then, Loraine, did
you enter the Spanische Reitschule? Did you see the vonderful
horses from Arabia that no one else but royalty must ride,
effer?"
"And the blue trout, at Schoner's, in the
Siebensternengasse—swimming in their tanks! And the cool
restaurant down in the vaults of the Rathauskeller——"
"Schoner's?—but did you not go to Sacher's? All the
finest people went bummelling to Sacher's—— It was gay in
Vienna, in those days when I was a girl—ach, yes! And we
bought plums cheap, you would wonder yourself, in the old
Hoher Markt!"
"... Drank heurigen Wein at the Rockenbauer—and the
students sang: 'Mädel, ruck ruck ruck——'"
"—An meiner grünen Sei-ei-te!" chimed in Aunt Elsa.
And they finished the chorus together.
"You went to the Opera——"
"Rosenkavalier! Oh, Aunt Elsa——"
"New music, that. Good, yes! but I vos taken to Zauberflöte
ven a young girl. Mozart! Himmlisch! If I had not
married so young, I meant to sing, myself, at the Opernhaus
in Wien, one day.—Fancy this, Loraine, it vill make you laugh:
at my Aunt Laura's wedding I was a little bridesmaid in white
tulle mit silver dots and a wreath of coral on my curly hair!
Goldig! Your Uncle Leon—or was it Karl?—or was it not
your uncle?—but still, he put me on ze table, and 'Hoch!'
they all cried, and at once I sit myself into the middle of the
big Chocoladen-Torte ... Quatsch!"
—Giles was getting restless. He broke in, two or three times,
in attempts to interrupt them; persistently trying to fix
attention on a certain Viennese musical-comedy—the very
latest, which they had heard and liked: "It hasn't come to
England yet; it won't get there until next year, of course.
They start from Vienna, and only come to England later.
'Gräfin Maritza.'—You look out for it, Marcus; it's jolly
good! But it won't be over until next year. There's a
wonderful fox-trot in it. Do you remember, Loraine—'Varasdin'!
All London will be humming it, next season....
But it won't be new to us. We'll have heard it already in
Vienna ... 'Varasdin' ... this is how it goes ... gorgeous
rhythm....
"Komm mit nach Varasdin,
So lange noch die Rosen blühn;
Dort wollen wir glucklich sein—"
... Impetuously, he pulled Queenie to her feet, and foxtrotted
with her, still trolling the jovial chorus.... If Queenie
had only known it, he was not dancing with her in a room in
Italy.... He was once more back in the studio with
Toni—having a good time—popular—the best dancer.... He had
not dropped out yet! Why, this melody, this tune of the
season—he was ahead of them all ... he had heard it in
Vienna! Didn't that prove——?—He was sick of it before
Colin and Toni and all their gang had even heard of
it....
"Hel-lo!" thought Richard; "he's home-sick!"
... Home-sickness was a thing Richard could understand and
compassionate, when it was for England; he could perceive
homesickness sensitively, before anyone else; and perceiving it
hidden behind this pitiful outburst, actuating every jerky
irrelevant boast in it, he felt the friendlier towards Giles
Goddard. Everything here was so beastly exotic: Italian
servants; Chinese coat; Aunt Elsa and Loraine with their
Vienna and Vienna.... "Poor devil! He's home-sick!"
—And Giles danced with flattered Queenie, out into the
hall, and out through the open door.
"Not raining any more, and it's moonlight," he called back
to the others. "... It's Moonlight in Kalua." ... And
then they heard Queenie's:
"Oh, do let's go up among the olives for a few moments.
It's so lovely there, with the moon!"
"... Denn meine Leidenschaft
Brennt heisser wie der Goulasch-Saft!"
which means that my passion for you, Queenie, is hotter than
gravy with red pepper in it."
"Oh, Giles, you mustn't..." Queenie giggled.
Their voices died away.
Richard supposed that there would be an immediate outbreak
of tigress-woman from Loraine, at seeing her mate thus
snatched away from her; tempestuous scenes and dagger
threats! But Loraine, on the contrary, appeared peculiarly
satisfied by the departure of Giles with Queenie, as though it
coincided with a plan of her own, as yet unrevealed. She
gave a low chuckle, echoed by Val.
"At it again," said the latter, softly. "Happy Queenie!"
Aunt Elsa rose to her feet in some excitement: "It is not
right, after ten o'clock, and she a young girl, up there is ze
olives where no one is. Loraine, you should call him back.
Val, you should call her back. She is in your charge out here,
isn't it? How does it look to those who see zem?"
"Darling Aunt Elsa," Val pacified her, "Queenie's flirtations
wouldn't hurt a fly! At heart, she's just a little prude. I've
heard her put a man through his paces so often. So has Loraine."
"Yes, this is how it goes," said Loraine; "we were listening
once, after Queenie had got off with that Taylor man, at Santa
Nucia. She was standing at the window, flicking the blind-cord
about, her back to the room ..." Quite remarkably,
Loraine became Queenie: it was a complete transformation;
her movements were Queenie's, and the way she held
her head.
... "And he came up behind her: 'Why are you so cross
with me to-night?'
"'Oh, I'm not cross with you.'
"'Oh yes, you are.'
"'If you think so, I suppose I am. I didn't know I was.'
"'What have I done?'
"'Nothing.'
"'Perhaps I should have done something, then?'
"'You must do as you like, of course.'
"'No, I want to do as you like.'
"'It doesn't make any difference to me.'
"'Sure?'
"'Oh, I'm never sure about anything.'
"'Some people are quite sure about one thing.'
"'Some people isn't everybody, are they?'
"'No, but they wish they were.'
"'Do they?'
"'You know I do.... Are you ever going to forgive me,
Queenie?'
"'It can't make any difference to you.'
"'Can't it?'
"'Can it?'
"'That's for you to say.'
"'Of course I forgive you, silly boy.'
"'Then you aren't angry with me any more?'
"'I never was. I said so.'
"'You didn't! You said—oh well, never mind. What are
you going to give me to prove you forgive me?'
"'I can't give you anything that you want, can I?'
"'Can't you?'"—Young Taylor, as assumed by Loraine,
was growing deeper and more intense with every dive below
the surface of his emotions; and still Queenie—Loraine
flicked her personality with marvellous ease from one to the
other—stood by the window, her head turned towards him
over her shoulder, her fingers airily flicking the blind-cord:
—"'Perhaps I don't mean what you mean.'
"'I can only mean one thing.'
"'Is it what you were saying so seriously to Miss Carlisle,
last night out on the terrace?'
"'What did I say to Miss Carlisle?'
"'How should I know? ... She's very pretty.'
"'Oh, yes, she's pretty. She dances prettily. But what
comes next?'
"'I don't know,'" said Queenie—Loraine, archly provocative.
"'There's nothing in her.'
"'Ah! there spoke the embittered man of the world.'
"'Are you never serious?'
"'It's nice to be serious sometimes,'" wistfully. "'Only
one's afraid, isn't one, to let oneself go?'
"'Is one?"
"'Well, isn't one?'
"'Do you mean what I mean?'
"'I don't know what you mean.'
"'Don't you? Well, do I?'
"'You ought to know!'"—
—"Oh, shut up!" cried Val. She and Richard were helpless
with laughter. "She's never as bad as that!"
"I sink it is dreadful, dreadful," said Aunt Elsa. "I do not
know vot they were talking about all the time!"
"No," shrugged Loraine, "nor did I; nor did they. I
believe there was some question of a kiss playing hide-and seek
under it all! But I can't be sure, even now!"
"But do you mean to tell me," protested Richard, "that
Goddard plays up to that sort of footling game? That that's
what they're doing now?"
"Not quite, no. Giles confides in her; confides in her
more than in any of us. We try to rag him out of it. But he
says he can't help it; it's a fatal fascination; his one
unconquerable vice. He makes most lurid revelations to Queenie,
some of them almost true, just to hear the damn-fool things
she'll say, and watch her eyelids flutter, and hear her trying to
make him a better man! There's something prettily religious
about our Queenie, in addition to all our other troubles with
her. She's rather 'Mercy among the heathens,' in this
house—'Sign of the Cross,' you know, especially church-time on
Sunday morning. What Giles won't see is that it's very trying
for us, when he singles out Queenie to hear the story of his life.
She's simply thick with sweet importance for hours afterwards!"
Loraine put in: "Like a white blanc-mange that's had a
cherry stuck in it!"
"Thought you were keen on her," growled Richard.
"Not at all, Cousin Richard. She's keen on me. Such a
difference! She calls me 'Loveliest,' when really moved.
And anyway," Loraine added, shaking back her head, "I'm
not going to wait about for them, while Giles throbs his soul
inside-out, up yonder in the moonlight. I'm for home.
Cousin Richard will see me down the mule track."
"Now zat I vill not have!" Aunt Elsa rose to a crescendo
again. "Richard is tired. He's had his long journey, isn't it,
and must go to bed? And you, Loraine, vill vait here quietly
with me, while Val sends one of the little servants to fetch
down the ozzer two, and you and Giles can go home. So,
nobody will be disturbed or put out of their way. That poor,
poor boy can hardly keep his eyes open," glancing at Richard,
who grinned, and asked Aunt Elsa if she thought sitting in a
train all day, and walking once up the mule-track and once
down again, was equal to a day's stiff ploughing, single-handed,
after frost!
"Of zat, I don't know. I may be nossing but a syphon
in zis house; but in zis, I vill be obeyed!"
But Loraine hugged her, and laughed, and cried out:
"Come on, then, Cousin Richard!" And Val laughed, too,
and murmured sleepily:
"I don't think I can send Stefania after the truants, Aunt
Elsa. They're all right, really. I expect Queenie will be along
home, presently."
Richard and Loraine were already gone.
"I'd rather be vamped by Loraine than by Queenie, on the
whole," Val was beginning, carelessly—— And then she saw
that Aunt Elsa was crying, her eyes screwed up into a dolorous
grimace, and the little tears chasing swiftly over her wrinkled
crab-apple cheeks....
"Aunt Elsa, darling, what is it? Have we been rude?
Have you hurt yourself?" But she could not think of anything
that had transpired during the last few hours, and certainly not
during the last few minutes, that could have had the effect of
making Aunt Elsa cry. Surely they had all been petting her;
making rather a fuss of her; waiting courteously, even with
deference, to hear what she had to say on any subject, before
in actual fact, they took no notice of it?
And Aunt Elsa, for her part, could not explain to Val that
she was weeping because no one was afraid of her any more,
and she had suddenly realised it....
It was true, then, that they were old and done-for, the
aunts; their force broken for good. What Aunt Elsa had
enjoyed in former days had been, not so much tyrannising over
the weak, ordering them hither and thither, and striking panic
into them by her scoldings; but doing battle with those
younger ones who presently grew strong enough to rebel against
her. Those were, indeed, fine times, when they disobeyed her;
defied her; told her what they thought of her and she had
screamed back! Now, instead, they were all kind; so kind!
She could not rule them any more; the mysterious power had
left her; she had forgotten the trick of it. Now, when she
uprose wrathfully, and said: "I forbid it! You shall not go
up in the olives!" and "You must not go down the hill!"—they,
instead of subsiding, terrified, as Truda's generation had
done—Truda and Wanda and her own Freda; or else shouting
back: "I'll do as I like, I tell you. I won't be told what to
do. It's my life, isn't it, not yours?" as Val, Richard, Maxine,
Toni had dared to do, while they were still in their teens—now,
they smiled, and took such constant care not to hurt her
feelings: "Darling Aunt Elsa!" Their manners to her were
charming, now; they could even afford, occasionally, when not
too inconvenient, to give in to her; to make a show of obedience
... The aunts were growing old....
Aunt Elsa wept; it was humiliating, and not nearly so
much fun as when they had been afraid!
* * * * * * *
Down on the mule-track, under the colourless shimmer of
the olives, Loraine was saying impulsively:
"Look here, Cousin Richard, I wish you'd tell me—I've
been so anxious to know that it's all right—about Val and
Stephen Greenways? ... Did he send her any sort of message,
when he gave you that coat for her? Did he say nothing,
nothing at all to show that he knew, already, that our Val was
different from all the rest of the world? Ah, now, did he?"
Richard remained stolid. "He'd hardly be likely to, while
running beside a moving train, would he?"
"You know very well what I mean," impatiently. "Why
do you pretend you are dull or slow-witted? Two or three
words would be enough to show. What exactly did he say, then,
when he gave you the parcel? Had he spoken about it before?"
"I'd never met him before. He knows Val's people, doesn't
he? It was they who told him I was coming out here. I like
the look of him. He seemed a capital fellow."
"One of the best!"—Loraine mocked the hearty tones of
one man when he speaks of another.—"A capital fellow!" And
then she persisted: "What were his exact words when he
handed you the parcel through the window of the train?"
"He said, more or less: 'Had an awful job to catch you;
thought the train went at eleven instead of ten-thirty. Look
here, I want you to take this out to San Goffredo for me. Will
you?'"
"Is that absolutely all?"
"Absolutely all. Why?"
Loraine, who had been skimming to and fro between the
trunks of the trees, stood still in the middle of the path: "I
want you to take this out to San Goffredo for me."—She was
not irritable nor truculent, any more. Indeed, she was looking
rather as Val had looked, an hour ago—dreamy, with lips now
wayward, now tender; the corners of her eyes tilted with
laughing surprise, as though someone had given her a present....
"I'm used to this way down," she said at last, abstractedly.
"Go back now, Cousin Richard; Aunt Elsa was cross that I
took you away, the dear woman! It was just the company I
wanted, for a part of the way. Good night! good night!"
"I'm coming as far as your door," Richard persisted. "It's
lonely here, and—you can't tell, I suppose.... Quite likely
there are dagoes about?"
"Quite likely, in Dago-land!" echoed Loraine, but not
unkindly. "Listen, though! Aren't they after calling you,
from up there? Good night!" She ran so quickly ahead of
him, down the uneven, stony track, that he did not vainly try
to overtake her, not knowing his way; and with a shrug of the
shoulders for her caprices, turned to climb back. He had
thought she was only pretending to be rid of him, when she
said that they were calling him from the top. Presently,
however, as he drew nearer, his ears—not as fine as
hers—caught Val's: "Richard, Richard, do make haste!"
... "Giles has sprained his ankle, or done something to it,"
she assured him, hurriedly, when he reached the top, where she
stood waiting. "—Fox-trotting about on the terraces, the
idiots! Can you help us bring him in? The stones in those
loose walls often give way, if you're not looking out. He's
going to sleep in our sun-room, to-night. And probably for the
next three weeks. Aunt Elsa said: 'Vat did I tell you, isn't
it?' at least seventeen times, bless her."—All this, breathlessly,
while Richard strode beside her, up the garden, past the house,
and over the terraces to where a grove of olives grew thickly on
the lower slopes of the hills behind. Richard, who had the
shoulders and muscles of a young bull, was, as Giles thankfully
declared, the man out of all others he would have chosen—the
very pick of English heroes, in fact!—to carry him the two
hundred yards or so from the scene of his accident, to the divan
in what Val called the sun-room.
... "If you don't mind, Miss Power," Queenie broke in,
rather pale and agitated, "hadn't I better run down and sleep
with Loveliest, to-night? She'll be alone, you see; and she
won't know what's happened. We can't leave her alone, can
we? If I go down, I can look after her."
"I suppose you'd better," Val conceded, for the moment
more preoccupied with Giles' foot, which, indeed, had received
a pretty serious wrench, than with the vital question of who
was to look after Loraine. "Richard, see Queenie down to
Loraine's, will you? It's just at the bottom of the mule-track,
you know."
"That poor boy!" wailed Aunt Elsa. "He must be, quite
surely, dead with sleep from all he has to do to-night!"
Queenie hesitated: "I shall be all right, alone," she began.
Richard grinned. "I think that poor boy can just manage
to stagger a few paces further. I shan't have to carry you, at
any rate, shall I, Miss Bell?" And they heard a sweet girlish
voice imploring him to call her "Queenie," as the front door
banged behind them.
"She's a priceless ass!" murmured Giles; as, years ago, he
had said of Aimée Lequesne. Queenie a little resembled Aimée,
though she was younger, prettier, less elegant, more pink-rose
and dew-drop. The type held a perverse fascination for Giles.
He could not prevent himself from leading them on to display
their full pricelessness! Besides—as he explained to Val—by
confiding in them, you had all the pleasure of getting it off
your chest, without any of the after-sorrow of knowing that
you had parted from your secrets, because they never even
began to understand what you were driving at!
... All this, while she was bathing his foot, under Aunt
Elsa's directions. Aunt Elsa thought him mad, and told him so:
"When I vas a young girl, the young gentlemen admired me,
or zey did not. If zey admired me, zey took me for a walk, or a
drive in the Prater, and there was a little—a very little,
coquetting and compliments; but zey meant ze compliments; and
sometimes zey were—oh, but in despair!" Aunt Elsa went on,
dimpling at the recollection. "But if zey did not admire me;
if, for instance, zey preferred girls who were tall, with a fine
figure, blonde and serious; zen zey did not take me for walks;
zey took another, and I was not offended! Why should I be?
There were always plenty! Plenty!"
—"Oi!" Giles cried out, in pain; "that's hot! You hell
cat, take it off!" but Val serenely went on bathing his ankle.
"But," finished Aunt Elsa, "as for this modern silliness: 'I
take her out and flatter her because she is an ass; and not
because I admire her von little bit'—of zat, there vas nossing;
and very glad I am to live then, and not now, when one never
knows, and young men use ugly words like 'hell-cat' when a
clever girl does her best for them."
"—I apologise, Val," said Giles.
"I accept your apology, Giles," said Val.
"Put the gramophone where I can turn it on, before you
go to bed."
"In ze night?" shrilled Aunt Elsa. "I beg of you, Val,
you vill do no such thing that he asks! He can have a nice
book and one aspirin."
Giles looked shocked. "Dope? Aspirin? Ought I, really?
Wouldn't the gramophone be more wholesome?" ... And
Aunt Elsa twinkled appreciation at him. She loved being
teased by a good-looking man:
"You nottee boy!" and then followed a slap.
They made him comfortable, without the gramophone
within reach, and went up to their beds.
"Tell Richard to lock up when he comes in, will you, Giles?"
"And you two boys are not to talk through half the night,"
was Aunt Elsa's parting adjuration. Her tears had eased her;
and while she had one of her rampageous children—as they
seemed to her—ill under her roof, or even under Val's roof, she
would be entirely happy.
Presently Richard came in.
"You don't seem worn out, yet," Giles remarked. "Sit
down and have a pipe before you turn in, won't you?"
Richard nodded. "How's the foot?" as he sank down at
the end of the divan.
"Throbbing like hell! It would be better if you got off it,
you know!"
Richard got off it. "Sorry!"
"Don't mention it! It was the other one!"
There was a long silence.
"Started hunting before you left, I suppose?"
"Barely. Foot-and-mouth broke out, down there; it didn't
come near my farm, luckily; but it'll do in some of the hunting."
"You haven't seen much of my guv'nor, then?"
"No; he's been in town a lot, this autumn."
"Old scoundrel!" affectionately, from Giles.
A long silence again.
"Don't you ever get bored, down there? You never go up
to London, yourself?" asked Giles.
"Bored? Good Lord! With two-hundred-and-seventy
acres to attend to? Not to mention a wife and a couple of
sons! But I should think you get bored out here, doing nothing,
don't you?"
The talk was nearing a perilous subject....
"Doing nothing?" Giles repeated, with sudden bitterness.
"Why, what have I ever done, since the War? If you are a
born loafer, you don't notice it when you're doing nothing."
Richard began, awkwardly: "You had four years of
fighting, and two out in Mespot afterwards ..."
"Cologne, the last year," Giles corrected him. "But in an
odd sort of way, you know, Marcus—I don't know if it has ever
struck you?—the War has done us in. We'll never do anything
else. I don't mean fellows who've got to tear round and find
something, or they'd starve; they may end in pulling off a
career; but when we needn't, like myself, we can always say:
'Oh, well, I fought in the War!'—and there it stands; an
excuse, if you like; but a definite achievement—something
done—we have fought in the War. Now in the days before
there was a war, a man couldn't just slop about and dance and
loaf and damn-all else, for the very shame of it; for the shame
of having nothing whatever to put to his credit. Well—here I
am, a useless waster; but the landscape isn't quite blank. My
war service, such as it is, sticks up out of the flat, like—like
the monument to the Dover Patrol on the cliffs at
St. Margaret's."
Richard thought his companion was a trifle feverish; but
there was sense in what he said, too. "Well, and here I am," he
countered. "And I didn't fight in the War. Wish to God I
had!"
"Too young, weren't you?" But Giles knew Richard's
story. He had heard it first from Toni, and then from Val.
"Too young until 1917, and then I was interned. I'd been
born in Germany, you see."
"Hard luck!"
"Yes," Richard assented.... He knocked out his pipe and
got up. "We shall have Aunt Elsa down on us if we talk any
longer." He was definitely liking Giles more and more; less
for what had been said, than for a strange sympathy between
them regarding the much, as yet, left unsaid. "Do you want
anything before I leave you? How's the foot, now?"
"Still hurting like hell, thanks! No, I don't want
anything. Good night."
"Good night."
He caught a flash of the other man's smile, just as he turned
to leave the room ... Giles had realised the sudden melting
of Richard's prejudice, and had silently acknowledged it. They
parted that night without a single mention of Loraine, or of
running away ... or of Toni.
Loraine began to make trouble.
From the moment she was inspired with the notion
that the coat might have been meant for her, she did
actually succeed in believing it. There had been just one angry
hour when Val had worn it, and Val had owned it, and had
dared to look happy about it ... Loraine coveted that coat
as never before in her life had she coveted a gift. It meant so
infinitely much more to her than it could ever mean to Val, who
preferred truth stripped of the hangings of romance, and bare
lines that never pranced into arabesques. But Loraine was
infatuated; she felt that if she could live with this coat, and
touch its richness whenever she was appalled by day after day's
dull and tepid routine; if she could learn, and learn by
heart, the gracious poise of every butterfly on the deep-sounding
blue of its background, she could be entirely content.
She had been given beautiful things before now, but never
yet such decorative perfection as these folds of brocade,
stiffly encrusted and weighted down with their embroidered
fantasies.
... Stephen Greenways, of course, had meant the coat for
her, and not for Val. She had not been sure whether her
legendary spell had fallen upon Stephen and entranced him,
while he had been staying up at Val's cottage. He had teased
her and argued with her, and he had looked at her very often,
and they had gone fish-spearing on the Mediterranean, and he
had talked about travel, a matter-of-fact Othello; and about
drugs with perilous uses. "I'm utterly a nomad at heart!"
Loraine had said....
During one of the hours they had been together, he had
kissed her, choosing for his sudden subjection an odd, a grotesque
moment, when she had not been expecting it, out of all the
hours when she had felt herself fascinating and inscrutable....
What had possessed the man, at sight of her light-hearted
clowning? It was at twilight on a muddy evening, when they
had gone to dig up plants for Val's garden, from around a
deserted house in the hills. One of the dogs had fallen into a
sunken tank, nearly hidden by a tangle of laurels and fig trees
and wild myrtle, and had been unable to haul himself out.
Loraine, always ahead of the rest of the party, had forthwith
plunged in and handed him up, dripping, to the others on the
bank. It was a wet, but not in the least a dangerous rescue,
and she did not try to make heroic capital out of it. She
simply took off her soaked woolly skirt and jumper; and
accepted any stray clothing that Queenie, Stephen, and Giles
could contribute. The result might have been a spirited
painting by Caldecott, or any other nursery artist who rendered
his pirates more highly-coloured than fearsome: bright blue
knickers and gum-boots—those were her own. Then a copper-orange
jersey and a shaggy lemon-yellow scarf, gaily clashing,
and both hugely too large for her slimness; and Giles' old
green broad-brimmed hat-of-all-shapes, which she clapped
rakishly on her head to cover one eye; and went capering and
dancing down the track, glorying in the shouts of robust
laughter that must greet her comic appearance. Loraine never
minded making a fool of herself. Giles and Queenie had gone
on ahead; and only Stephen was waiting.... And that was
when he had so surprisingly kissed her. "You did look such a
jolly kid!" was his sole remark, afterwards.
But now, triumphantly, she knew that he had sent her the
coat as a proof of the affinity between them, of the silken thread
stretched tight between soul and soul. He would know that
she would look strange and marvellous in that strange coat.
Stitch by stitch, her mind worked a complex pattern of his
actions; every sentence he had spoken, she cunningly altered
to express what his silence had never yet expressed. Loraine
had not cared over-much about him—then; but she cared now
about the man whose intuitions had prompted him to such a
dramatic acknowledgment of her spell, as deliberately to wait
till just so long afterwards, and then, without any accompanying
babble, to choose such rich mysterious vehicle to express
him—or to express her as she had appeared to him.
And now a foolish, an idiotic mistake had resulted in the
coat going to Val, and not to her. Richard Marcus, Cousin
Richard—he was a born blunderer! Loraine had seen that
from the first. And his blunder had worked itself out
antagonistically to her, influenced by his subterranean dislike.
"What am I going to do?" Loraine wondered. Straightforwardly,
she could have gone to Val and said: "Stephen
Greenways meant the coat for me; give it up!" Or she could
have written to Stephen: "The Chinese coat which you meant
for me, has gone to Val. Please tell her at once that I am to
have it." But these were not Loraine's ways of accomplishment;
she saw plot after plot unfolding, flower-like in front of
her; and her spirit trembled and thrilled and was exultant at
the prospect of so many exquisite, minute devices. She had set
up Val on an eminence to be worshipped—head of her family;
she, a little tribal outsider, for ever wandering about, seeking a
pretext for submission to her tribal instincts; she was ready to
be extravagantly generous, in spirit and in service, both to Toni,
and, after Toni had rejected her, to Val. But Val would have
nothing so theatrical as worship or prostration; nor even a
specially encircled, specially consecrated duo of kinship,—Loraine
and Val against the world, as Loraine would so gladly
have made it. Very well then, since Val would not be her
goddess, Loraine, bored with conditions of level tranquillity,
was glad now to be able to invest her with a part of at least
some significance, and one with the possibility of sensational
development in it. The fact that Val, unconscious of what was
being woven around her, would have hated such a part, amused
Loraine all the more! She cared, temporarily, not a whit for
Val's natural reactions. Val had the coat; so Val was a creature
to be destroyed. Afterwards, when she had stripped her,
Loraine would love her, and be sorry, and make a coat for her
out of caresses; and Val would be beholden to her for this.
They were all arrogant, these—royal Rakonitz women. They
all thought they could go their way, unchallenged, doing as they
liked: rejecting love; choosing it; mocking at it ... Val
had advised Loraine, once, to leave amateur theatricals at the
bottom of the hill, when she came up! Right! she should
have theatricals forced upon her, and not so amateur at that!
... Loraine went up the hill.
But she was not going to ask to have her coat back; nothing
so crude! It was enough for her to know, from a distance, that
it was her coat; enough, that Stephen should have meant it for
her. Naturally, she was not going to take it away from Val, nor
even let Val know that she had this power to claim it. Val must
be protected; allowed her coat, but by Loraine's sanction only,
and by Loraine's sacrifice.... And Val need not know this,
either. It was enough, again, that Loraine should know.
"Praise unto Loraine, the Magnificent!" ... And, feeling
exactly like that, she swung herself into the sun-room through
one of its wide, open windows, on the morning following Giles'
accident.
Queenie had already left Villa Bel Respiro, where Loraine
lived, and gone up to her housekeeping duties, a couple of
hours earlier. Loraine found her, now, looking fresh and sweet
in pale pink, ministering to Giles' foot; the very sight of her
a refreshment—so Loraine was sure Queenie was sure!—to
his hot, feverish eyes; as her fair head, unconscious of self,
bent pityingly over the injured ankle; and her deft, cool
little fingers massaged it the wrong way....
"Oi!" cried Loraine. "What the hell do you think you're
doing, Queenie?"
"It's got to be rubbed the way the blood flows," said
Queenie, positive but vague; and Giles' eyes threw a silent,
anguished appeal for help, at the new-comer.
"And which way does the blood flow?" enquired Loraine,
with deep interest.
Queenie began: "I'm sure I heard the Doctor say when
Norman, my brother, sprained the muscles of his calf——"
"All right," said Loraine, brutally.... She deemed it a
fitting lesson for Giles that, fox-trotting with Queenie by
moonlight, he should later have to submit to Queenie's
untechnical nursing. "Go on! I'll watch." But she could not
watch for long; the punishment to herself was too great, as it
always is to those who are aware of how a job ought to be done.
"Ah now, be gone and see about the laundry, Queenie, do!
Are you having the Doctor for this foot? You'd better send
for him. It's badly swollen. Wait a minute while I see if
there are bones broken. No—no, I think not. But there
might be a tendon snapped, or more than one."
"You do everything like a professional, Loraine; and a good
'un at that," said Giles, with a sigh of relief, as Loraine took
over entire control of the fomenting, massaging, and bandaging
departments; and Queenie, a little hurt and offended, withdrew.
"Queenie's idea of nursing a fellow is to offer to read
to him. She seemed to think I couldn't read for myself, as
I've hurt my foot!"
"What were you just telling her, last night, when the gods
tripped you up?" Loraine enquired, severely; and Giles
warded her off with an evasive:
"Oh, we were talking about Colin's play. First night
yesterday, you know."
"Do you wish you had been there?"
He did not answer. Presently, with seeming irrelevance, he
said: "Queenie told me that every man had it in him to do
something, if only he tried."
"I'm shaw!"
Giles made a quick, restless movement under her hands....
"Don't use that phrase. It's—silly."
"And why not? All the gang were using it, two years ago.
A bit out-of-date, perhaps, but Colin's play will be pumping
some new slang into the waiting world, I've no doubt. Though
it'll be stale again, by the time it drifts out here."
Again, Giles did not reply. He was humming a tune—"Varasdin"
... "Queenie said," he began once more, "that
"Varasdin" ... "Queenie said," he began once more, "that
a man ought to do manly work. She didn't quite think that
acting and writing plays and dancing—and all that sort of
thing—was manly. I asked her if she meant the sort of work
that should be done in a sun-helmet? She said: 'Yes, something
like that.' And she was quite sure that I had something
in me which would make me a good leader of men. I told her
that I felt a most dreadful blighter, loafing about and doing
nothing; and she said that if I really loved you as you ought
to be loved, being so wonderful, I'd feel I had to be doing
something—something rather grand and big, so that you
shouldn't despise me; and that even if I failed, that failure is
sometimes better than success, and very often brought out the
best in a man.... It was all very beautiful, Loraine! And I
meant to hew down a whole forest of trees, for your sake, with
an axe, and wearing a sun-helmet and brawny muscles....
But then part of the wall slid and toppled, and me with it;
and I shan't be able to get down the mule-track for a week at
least, I should say. How will you manage without me?"
"I don't know which of all that monologue I'll be answering
first. It's full of good points, that it is. And of course if you
like to get yourself laid up here among all my enemies, and no
road where a carriage can drive up or down to fetch you
away——"
"What enemies?"
"Cousin Richard, to begin with. He hates me!
"My dear old kid——"
"He hates me," repeated Loraine, making entirely expert
and practical movements with her hands, and wildly false and
fantastic gestures with her temperament. "He'd do me harm
if he could. He'll turn everyone against me. He'll make them
disbelieve every single word I say. He'll make me feel I'm not
welcome, like a blow in the face, every time I enter this door."
"You never do," Giles interrupted, good-humouredly.
"You always leap in by the window, even when the door's
nearer!" He tried to beguile her from rhetoric, by teasing
her over trivial matters. "It's one of your theatrical tricks,
as Val calls them."
"Ah ... yes, does she?" ... Loraine brooded a moment
on this. "Where is Val?"
"At the end of the garden, in the studio, working like a
maniac to finish off something on hand now, because she's got
a new idea she wants to carry out quickly. Something to do
with painting that coat of hers, I think."
"Coat of hers," repeated Loraine, enigmatically.... "You're
not to be telling anyone what I'm going to be telling you, Giles?"
"You're pulling that bandage infernally tight!" said Giles.
"All right, go on! I won't tell."
"It's got to be tight. That coat of hers—that coat of
hers——"
"Well?" impatiently. "Gorgeous thing, isn't it? I
thought at the time, when we turned up here and found
Greenways, that he was keen on her."
"And he might have been, if we hadn't turned up here.
Ah, it's my old curse, Giles——" Her eyes grew large and
haunted.... "It's my curse and my destiny, and I can't help
it, and I hate myself; I long for peace, but there's trouble
wherever I go, following me; where there was quiet before,
comes catastrophe.... It's my curse and my destiny and my
fate, and I wish it were different! Oh, how I wish it were
different! I'm not articulate, like all you clever people—I
can't express my meaning..... It's dreadful when your tongue
is tied on a short string.... And now here's sorrow again!"
Giles kept to himself his slightly sardonic rendering of all
this: that Loraine did indeed create trouble; but not in the
mysterious, foredoomed style of Deirdre of the Sorrows, and
Helen of Troy: "Where'er I come, I bring calamity." ... Not
as she preferred to picture it—herself a victim, helpless in
the meshes cast by her own inevitable and unwilling
bewitchments.... No, there was trouble wherever Loraine came,
simply because Loraine brought trouble, Loraine made trouble,
Loraine liked trouble. It was eight months, now, since Giles
had run away with her. For eight months he and she had been
constantly together. You cannot be the fool of an illusion for
an indefinite period. Besides, Loraine permitted her fools to
break away quite easily, and without effort to keep them, when
illusion was over. She did not mind. Not in that way was she
tiresome. All her energies were bent on attracting, by enchantments
crude or subtle, those who might be reluctantly drawn
towards her; and she wasted none on those who had already
walked beside her in the flowering meads ... "Belle Dame
Sans Merci" ... and were rubbing dazed eyes, not quite
awake, upon the cold hill-side.
She and Giles had almost, but only quite lately, reached the
stage of being frank with each other. At any moment, so Giles
felt, so Loraine felt, one or the other of them might break
down the last filmy pretext—he of being infatuated, and she
of needing his infatuation. But he did not want to encourage
Loraine, just now, by plainly calling her a mischief-monger—no
more and no less. For he could see that she was on the
threshold of one of her bad times. He knew the swift course
of them. He had known last night, when Val had tried on the
coat, by something Loraine had said, then, and by her voice in
saying it. This morning she was even more excited. Secrets
were in the air: "Richard hates me!" ... "You're not to
tell anyone!" ... "That coat of hers!" ... Loraine would
allow no state of indifference in any group about her: friends,
enemies, plotters, haters, lovers, victims—they would all be
allotted their parts to play, and their sides to take, by Loraine,
during the next days, hypnotised by her will; all except Giles.
Giles had been through it, and for him it was nearly over. He
had a dwelling-place now, in his own private inferno; and
nobody was taken to view it except, sometimes, and most
perversely, Queenie, who said of it, with earnest, girlish
encouragement: "Oh, but I'm sure you can make this house
look quite nice if only you put a few fresh flowers on the table,
and dusted the corners!" ... and went away again without
having seen it. His dwelling-place in Hell! Giles grinned...
"Well—and what about Val's coat?" he asked.
"Just that it isn't Val's coat! It isn't! Just that Stephen
Greenways sent it out to me, and that clod Richard made a
mistake, thinking, perhaps, in his comely Gloucestershire way,
that I being with you, no other man would be sending me a
present at all, nor thinking of it." And she told Giles what she
had gathered from Richard, the night before—how Stephen
had only said: "I want you to take this out to San Goffredo
for me."
Giles looked disturbed. "It might equally be for you or
for Val."
"It might be," Loraine retorted, "except that if one of
us knows for certain—if one of us had had a hint, before he
went away, of such a gift coming from him——"
"Did he give you any hint of that sort?"
"'I'll be sending you a message painted in silk,'" Loraine
quoted dreamily.
... Memory or inspiration? She hardly knew herself. He
must have said it, surely. So very much the perfect thing to
say—with a secret intention behind it, proven now, of sending
her the coat ... "a message painted in silk."
"That does look as though he meant it for you," Giles
admitted. "But why couldn't the silly ass say so?"
She shook back her hair, triumphantly. "He thought there
would be no question. Of course he thought that. When a
man is in a state of folly, does it ever occur to him that anybody
in the whole world can think he's meaning any other woman?
Besides, the train was moving already. Richard said so."
"It will be a blow for Val."
She blazed round at him, indignantly: "And what for in
the wide heavens are you thinking that I'll tell her?"
"You'll not tell her?"
"No," sternly.
"You'll let her keep the coat?"
"Yes."
Giles concealed his astonishment. "It's rather—decent of
you, Loraine."
"Why," Loraine said, softly—and truly, "I love Val beyond
a thousand coats. But I suppose she'd call this one of my
'theatrical tricks.' Mind, Giles, you've promised not to tell
anyone. Not Queenie. Curb your inconvenient vice, if you
can, this time, for unburdening to Queenie of all the world.
She's not safe."
Giles acquiesced, but absently. He was trying to work out
what Greenways would do on receiving Val's letter of thanks.
Greenways, too, would be rendered fairly helpless by his
messenger's mistake. Unless he were a cad—and he was not a
cad—he could not but imitate Loraine's beau geste. Nor
could he even present Loraine with another coat from Pekin,
always supposing that another so superb could be ransacked
from the bales that unloaded their Chinese treasures down at
the docks. Two girls going about wearing Chinese coats?—one
of them beloved, and the other not?—ridiculous, surely!
No, Val alone would have to possess the coat, and the rest of
them would be pledged to assist Loraine in protecting Val from
truth, and from a wound and an after-scar deep beyond their
knowing.
—"Damn!" muttered Giles. "I shall be deadly uncomfortable,
now, every time Val snubs Loraine or makes fun of
her. Wish I weren't stuck up here!" But there was no road
down; only the steep mule-track; and no legitimate excuse
for him to raise a fuss and insist on being carried back to the
Villa Bel Respiro, when he was so comfortable and well looked
after in Val's house.
Meanwhile, Loraine had gone off in search of Aunt Elsa.
"Where's my Aunt Elsa?" she was heard calling, on the
stairs. "Where's my best friend in this house?"
Her voice was buoyant, relishing life. She was glad, tremulously
glad and thankful, that she was going to let Val keep the
coat; that thus she had decided, for herself. Coming up the
hill, she had not been quite sure, you see—not quite sure what
she was going to do when she reached the top! It would so
depend on whom she first met; on how they spoke to her; on
the quickly altering flux of mood and event.... She had been
a little afraid that she might be led to behave badly over this—or
not as well as Val would have behaved, had their positions
been reversed. Then she had told Giles proudly, impulsively,
how of course she meant to say nothing; of course Val must
continue to own the coat, confident that it belonged to her.
And having once announced the sacrifice, Loraine knew herself
pledged to follow it by deed. So that was all right! Good
Loraine! Splendid solitary little heroine! ... And there
would be any amount of fun to be had round the outskirts of
sacrifice! As long as life was not dull; as long as the hourly
wheel was spinning at perilous speed, not crunching, creaking,
monotonously around and around; as long as Loraine was at
the centre of the spin, she would not ask for more. And still
that glorious coat remained, indestructibly in being, where
she could sometimes see it, and secretly know it hers; and no
one else, no one else at all would know.... Yes, of course,
Giles, because she had told him; but only Giles. So she ran,
singing, into Aunt Elsa's bedroom. What she saw there,
pleased her again: Aunt Elsa, wearing huge horn-rimmed
spectacles, in a big arm-chair, a gigantic and overflowing
work-basket beside her, was taking the trimming off one antiquated
evening dress, with the obvious intention of sewing it in quite
a different pattern on another. It was a cosy spectacle; the
trimming was not exactly sequins, and not wholly chenille, and
not entirely beads: the three warred for place on the strips of
lace sewn firmly on to stiff satin. You did not see trimming
like that, nowadays! And there were sheets round Aunt Elsa's
feet, too, like waves of the sea, billowing, subsiding into
hollows—Val's sheets, badly in need of mending. And, not content
with evening-dresses and the sheets, Aunt Elsa had already been
in Richard's room, and found all the socks he had brought with
him, and triumphantly carried them away with her, to go
over Molly's darns all over again—because she was quite
sure that Richard's young English wife could have no idea
how to darn a sock: "She who is out hunting ze foxes all ze
year!" ...
"You darling!" cried Loraine, gathering Aunt Elsa and
spectacles and sheets and trimming and socks and the
work-basket into a generous embrace! She darted about
the room, exclaiming, touching, taking up photographs of
Melanie, Freda, Gisela, and Pearl—Aunt Elsa's four girls;
here they were separately, and in a docile group; and here an
extra one of Pearl, to show that she was the youngest and the
favourite: "Hadn't she got lovely fat legs as a baby?" cried
Loraine.... But, truth to tell, pretty Pearl had them still,
though she was now a B.Sc. And here was Anastasia—poor
Aunt Anastasia, who had died the previous January ... Aunt
Elsa wept a little: she and 'Stasia had been such friends when
they were girls together in Vienna! And she recounted a few
of the tricks they had played on their brothers, and on their
dashing admirers. It seemed to Loraine that this laughing,
mischievous generation had "played tricks" with terrific
gusto; she would have liked to have been born among them,
and played tricks, too. And here was a dingy oil-painting of
Uncle Albrecht, Aunt Elsa's husband, and yet Aunt Anastasia's
uncle, which was a funny mix-up, when you came to think of
it! What a kind, mild face he had! He had died when the
Nong-Khan crash occurred...
"His heart was broken," sobbed Aunt Elsa, luxuriously.
"And also, he was eighty-eight—old enough to have been my
fazer; but they all said it was good I should marry a man so
much older; it would sober me a little."
"And of course it hasn't!" laughed Loraine. "You're
just an incurable ruffian, Aunt Elsa! I knew it, the very
moment I first saw you. You'd play tricks now, if you had
the chance. I believe you do!"
—And Aunt Elsa's shoulders shook a little, and her dimple
came and went, as she remembered how, only yesterday, she
had played a fine game over the contents of the linen-chest, to
upset that imbecile Queenie.... "Na, na!"—She prodded
Loraine in the ribs, and Loraine prodded her back, as though
they were of one age.... And then Aunt Elsa pulled her
down, and whispered some spirited recital in which the phrases
"lavender-bags" and "pepper" and "You dear God, how
she sneezed, that stupid one!" recurred hilariously! ... They
chuckled together, and Loraine said:
"Poor Queenie! It'll do her good!"
And Aunt Elsa bade her bring out a large box of marrons-glacés,
which she kept concealed in the cupboard, and they had
a private munch together, and planned yet another trick for
the bewilderment of the pink-and-white girl: "I vish I knew
why Val keeps her!"
"Val keeps her, honey, because she's afraid of being left to
your tender mercies," said Loraine, realising that you can
always tell the truth if you do it directly enough, and with
such scandalous boldness as not to be believed.
"Ach! Val knows I would break the last bone in my body
for her! She is a dear girl—not as dear as my own girls,"
added Aunt Elsa, quickly; "and I hope soon she is going to
be happy.... Yes? You think so too? That coat? It must
mean somssing, you think?"
... Loraine knelt on the floor, among the sheets, her hands
clasped, her arms on Aunt Elsa's lap. She felt very snugly in
the heart and bosom of the Rakonitz family, up here in Aunt
Elsa's bedroom, talking secrets. How sweet the old ones were,
compared with the younger ones who did not like her: Toni,
Maxine, Richard, Val—did Val like her? She was never sure.
She cared most of all, lately, for Val's affection. And she felt,
a little wistfully, that it was lonely making sacrifices that
nobody praised you for; and that it would be nice if just Aunt
Elsa knew—no one else could know what she was giving up for
the sake of Val's happiness!—and perhaps praised her a little,
and called her a "dear girl," in the same warm tones that she
had just used for Val. There could be no harm, surely, in
telling Aunt Elsa, in squeezing a little closer to this darling,
middle-of-the-family, old great-aunt?
In the meanwhile, Aunt Elsa was going on: "I am so glad,
too, zat it should have been Richard to bring it, and to see
Richard here, and all of them so friendly. He and Val used to
quarrel—oh, but terribly! He was always a little too serious,
that boy—and zen during the War—but now he is very, very
happy too. He has a sweet little wife—I have never seen
her!—English, and zey hunt together, and she helps him with the
farm. But it pleases me to see him out here and to see all you
young ones together——" Aunt Elsa had forgotten, for the
moment, exactly what it was that had brought Loraine together
with the rest, out here in San Goffredo!—"Because we all used
to be such friends in our family; always in each other's houses—I
and 'Stasia and Henrietta and ze Uncles, as the children
always called Felix and Max and Louis; always such jokes;
and all of them so generous. You would have wondered yourself!
But then after that—it used to make me sad, I tell you,
when we gave up our houses and zere were no gemüthliche
Sunday afternoons all together—-scart and solo-whist ... till it
vos bridge!—Ze pantomime at Christmas, and your Uncle
Max had a box at the Opera; you remember? But I forget,
you were not there; it was a pity. Where were you all ze
years, Loraine? Ach! And Anastasia's sons: poor Bertrand!
... And Mrs. Ischl never forgot to bring chrysanthemums on
a birthday—never, never; and Zillah, who sang Schumann's
Lieder so beautifully, but one never sees her now; and Louis
never liked her like the rest; but anyhow, she could only have
married one of them. But often I used to say to that dear
Anastasia: 'But what a shame the young ones do not keep
together as we used to. They miss so much! I sink some of
zem hardly know when the others' children are born!'—which
would not have been possible, no, in the old days; and the
wedding-presents not what they used to be when one of you
married, and I always gave ze dinner-service and Truda ze
fish-knives, and you shall get the same from me, Loraine, when you
marry. And so," finished Aunt Elsa, beginning to sew again
with renewed vigour, "it pleases me very much, it makes me
feel warm and young again, to see you all together here such
friends, and Richard coming all ze way, leaving his farm, to
visit Val, and Giles with his bad ankle"—this, too, was
apparently included in the list of blessings—"and only zat stupid
girl who doesn't belong, to spoil it all."
And still it seemed to Loraine, luxuriating in the opulent
sentimentality of this jumble from Aunt Elsa, that she herself
was not quite placed where she wanted to be, with all the
limelights beating on her at once; standing where all the rays
crossed; the centre and the focus....
"Aunt Elsa, I don't know what to do.... Darling, do
advise me; there's only you—and I'm so worried; it would
be so awful for her if she found out. But if we both work to
keep it from her—Richard had no right to make a terrible
mistake like this. You'll hate me for it, but it isn't my fault;
it isn't! It's Richard's."
"But vot is it?" cried Aunt Elsa.
"That coat. The Chinese coat that Stephen Greenways
asked Richard to bring out to San Goffredo. What am I to do,
Aunt Elsa? Oh, do guess. Don't make me say it! His actual
words to Richard were: 'I want you to take this out to San
Goffredo.' If only he'd said 'to Val,' but he didn't, he didn't!
Aunt Elsa, can't you guess? I was out here, too, when Stephen
Greenways was staying with Val. I—I saw quite a lot of
him——"
"Um Gotteswillen!" Aunt Elsa slowly realised what
Loraine was trying to tell her. "You mean—that beautiful
coat——?"
"Yes. He sent it out to me, not to Val. I suppose he took
it for granted that it would reach me; that no one could
possibly imagine—— Oh, I don't mind about the coat! Let
it go hang! It's Val's happiness I mind. She mustn't find out,
she mustn't! Help me to keep it from her, won't you, Aunt
Elsa? Oh, perhaps I shouldn't have told you, but you won't
tell anyone else, will you? Promise?"
Aunt Elsa, very upset, promised. And she praised Loraine
with great emphasis for her generous behaviour in not laying
claim to her property. Until, suddenly, her approbation
clouded over, and her bright eyes beamed suspiciously from
under the rim of her pushed-up spectacles. "But you must
have encouraged him, that he should send you a present like
zis, which I am sure must have cost much money; whether he
can afford it or not, I cannot tell; yet however that is, you
should not have coquetted with him, Loraine. It is very wrong.
Yes, I am angry: one must be faithful, isn't it?" ... But
then Aunt Elsa, too, tripped up over her sententious fault-finding,
and came to a dead stop, faced with the moral situation
of which the ethics were bewildering: one must, indeed, be
faithful; but in this case, to whom did she exhort faithfulness?
To Loraine? in connection with Giles, who was Toni's
husband? Should Loraine be faithful to Giles who was being
faithless to Toni? And if she should, or if she should not,
Aunt Elsa surely must not primly preach a wife's duties to her
who was no wife? For the hundredth time, the perplexed old
lady asked herself how she could ever have been coaxed into
this unrespectable attitude of pretending to sanction what was
so shocking? Supposing, for instance, any of the older members
of the family—that dear Amélie, who lived so close, at San
Remo, not much more than three hours away—supposing that
they should ever find her out? Find her sitting, as she was
now, with her plump hand on Loraine's head, having secrets
with Loraine; the two of them so intimate that she had not
even taken her front hair out of its little tight, steel curlers?
"But Val assured me zere was nossing..." murmured Aunt
Elsa, piteously seeking to put a wash of rose-colour over lurid
scarlet, to cover it up. "But if there is nossing why are they
togezzer, she and Giles?" For, to her mind, being togezzer
was everything, not nossing. And now all this further
complication about the coat which that nice man, Stephen Greenways,
had sent to Val; and it was all so appropriate and as it
should be; and her own most fortunate presence in the house
during his courtship—there must have been previous courtship,
for him to have dared send such an expensive and such a significant
gift—had added the last pleasant aura of convention
around the whole satisfactory affair. Val had had her chaperon,
and no one could possibly say a word; yes, for even though
she was in her thirty-fifth year, it would not have been right
for her to have had a young man—an "admirer" was Aunt
Elsa's favourite word for those who came a-wooing—if she had
been living here alone, or with only that stupid girl. She did
so want so see Val happy and with babies, and she did love a
wedding—yes, even though it meant giving a dinner-service.
But now—Loraine and not Val? They had all been so peaceful,
before Loraine came; in a way, it was a pity.... And yet
Aunt Elsa could not wish her away, with her affection, her
spontaneous flatteries, the sound of her loud singing up the hill,
the wind and the glow of life that she brought in with her
whenever she appeared. No one else was such a real companion
to Aunt Elsa, as Loraine. The others were all great dears to
her, but Loraine was her contemporary!
It was, indeed, Loraine's especial talent and reward, to have
been able to make her feel like this.
Even if Stephen Greenways cared for Loraine, and not for
Val, and Loraine were to leave Giles who would go back to
Toni—Aunt Elsa would have to produce her dinner-service,
after all, this time for Loraine and Stephen; because, to her,
an affair must end inevitably in marriage or in broken hearts.
Yes, but all that could not settle Val; the poor one, her heart
would be broken. It was time, too, that Val should have
married—thirty-five, you dear Heavens! and still a maiden!—(Aunt
Elsa was taking a lot for granted.) Aunt Elsa herself
would have looked on such an age as hopeless; and, certainly
she had hailed Stephen Greenways as Val's last chance. Yet
Loraine was more than thirty-five, and also deserved a
chance. But she had Giles. Yes, but she should not have had
Giles!
... Ach! it was all too dreadful and too puzzling! And
anyhow, Loraine had said Val was not to be told; that they
two were to keep the secret, and shield Val. She was a good,
kind, sweet child, although naughty, sometimes—but very
naughty, this Loraine! Aunt Elsa took the small oval face
raised beseechingly towards her, firmly between her two hands,
and gave her a smacking kiss....
A light step outside, a knock on the door: "Please, I don't
want to disturb you," said Queenie, resentfully; "but Giles
told me—is Loveliest here? Yes, she is." Queenie's jealous
eyes took in the attitude of the conspirators. "Loraine, are
you stopping to lunch? Because Stefania wants to dash down
and get some of your favourite mascalponi; and Luigi's here
with an enormous bunch of yellow chrysanthemums that he
said were for you because they are like the sun, and so are you;
only Stefania won't let him give them to you because she says
they are cemetery flowers—you know how superstitious
Italians are!—and Luigi says not when they are yellow; only
I really believe it's because she's jealous: they both adore
you so, Loveliest; they are fighting now, down in the
kitchen."
—Terry rushed clumsily past Queenie, and rolled over on his
back beside Loraine, barking delightedly at having found her.
* * * * * * *
... Why, they all loved her! How could she have tormented
herself with the thought that she was isolated, left out
in the cold? That she had enemies in this house—this dear,
dear house on top of the hill? They all loved her....
Loraine went down to lunch in the sweetest, gentlest mood,
her heart like melting strawberry ice-cream, her tongue like
velvet pansy petals; putting forth life like the green plush
shoots from the hedges on the first soft day of spring; rippling
with eagerness for a chance to be kind to somebody who felt
pathetic and needed her kindness; to polish away sharp
corners; to create laughter.
And this was Loraine, self-forgetful: for, once she was there
where she craved to be, popular, sunning herself, Loraine did
not bother about Loraine, any more; she could, indeed,
achieve then a certain tender dignity that sprang from grace
within; she could give, then, without taking; her ego entirely
subdued, she would fling herself with all her soul and curiosity
and warm interest, into the lives of others around her. It was
only when the rays were withdrawn; when they lit on another
head than hers; when she was neglected, left to the shadows,
that Loraine began instinctively to fight for notice, as the
normal creature fights for air. It was then that she bragged
desperately, flamboyantly, waving her rags and tags of past
conquests, past compliments; retailing them; reading aloud
fragments from her hoarded letters, as though they were the
tattered banners of old victories that could still make her
glorious. And if all this boasting and clamour still failed to
attract the notice she must have ... watch Loraine growing
hoarser, paler! Watch her slowing down, dying.... That was
what it amounted to: a gradual death-in-life, from lack of
air...
Until, from the ashes, from the grey ashes whereof the licking,
greedy flames had taken their toll, a phœnix Loraine would
rise again ... sweet, tender, humble, so that all those around
her would marvel at themselves for not having loved her enough
before!
But for the moment, all was well. The party gathered
round the lunch-table were in excellent spirits.
"Here comes Cousin Richard," laughed Loraine, "wonderfully
true to type, and just about to say: 'I can't eat your
foreign kickshaws, Val! Have you got a round of cold beef in
the house?'"
"Oh, I can eat 'em all right," Richard said, very seriously;
"I can eat 'em! I don't say I like them, of course—— What
are you all laughing at?"
Giles, in an arm-chair, with his foot up on another chair,
remarked: "You know, Richard, your eventual punishment
for all this Anglomania will be that your sons will turn out
rabid Internationalists, Pacifists and Esperantists, who will
refuse to live anywhere except abroad!"
Richard looked startled at the notion. "Good God" he
muttered.... Then shook it off, as a nightmare that could
never possibly be fulfilled. Yet it flitted across Loraine's mind
that this would be a sort of tipsy tragedy that might well happen
to Richard: his sons' complete reaction from his own fanatical
love for England. Her apprehension of such a stroke of skilful
irony from the high gods, amounted, for a few seconds, almost
to prophecy.... Her eyes met Richard's. Could he have
guessed what she was thinking? ... He thrust his hand down
into his pocket, as though he had there a talisman against any
such evils to come. "Had a letter from Jim, this morning,"
he announced; and produced it for Aunt Elsa's reading. Part
of it was printed in huge red chalk capitals; the other part of
it evidently dictated to Molly: "Darling Dad, I have been
bluddid again"—-This was Jim's only unaided effort. The
hand of Mollie did the rest, and then added a foot-note:
"Young Jim's got the very devil in him, lately. I heard
Tommy howling the house down, so I ran upstairs and found
that Jim had bitten him. Jim was tightly curled up in the
blankets on the bed, trying to make me think he wasn't there!
He was pulled out with a very red face, and explained that he'd
got to bite Tom, because, though he bore him no personal
ill-feeling, he was a tiger, and a conscientious tiger couldn't do
otherwise than bite! So I used my worst and most preachy
mother-voice, and said: 'But darling, even tigers don't bite
their little brothers, you know.' But Jim got the better of me,
even then. He said that he had no little brothers—— He was
a lonely tiger, without relations! I can't do much with him
while you're away, Richard. And for other reasons, too, I like
it better when you're here; so don't stay too long in Italy, will
you?'" ... Molly was not coherent in conveying her feelings,
but it was at least plain that she and Richard were delightfully
far from being an unhappy couple.
Aunt Elsa scattered into ecstasies over "zat Bubele's letter."
But she was shocked about "bluddid"! She did think that
Molly really should not allow the children to use such dreadful,
dreadful expressions!
"'A lonely tiger, without relations...'" mused Loraine.
"Ah, well, I don't suppose he meant it as a reflection on the
Rakonitz family! And haven't you often wished, Cousin
Richard, that you were that lonely tiger?"
"Oh, my relations don't bother me much, down on the farm."
Loraine sang, teasingly:
"How're you going to keep him
Down on the farm,
After he's seen Paree?"
"Beastly town, Paris!" growled Richard. "Stopped a
night there, coming through. Beastly guide chaps tried to
take me round their beastly shows..."
"I do wonder you ever braced yourself at all to come out
here, to the beastly continent!"
"Oh, I'd do worse than that for Val.—Not much worse,
though," he added, a slow gleam of humour in his deep-set
eyes.
Val roused herself from abstraction. "Who'd do what for
Val?" She had not heard a single word of what had passed
at the lunch-table. Val the hostess was temporarily submerged
in Val the artist. The arrival of the coat yesterday, had
materialised all her brilliant dreams; not only one, but all,
and in all directions: not only the coat itself, not only Stephen,
but a new picture.... She was intensely alive, now, after a
long and rather somnolent and non-creative period. The gift
from Stephen had been as a single trumpet-call, before the full
orchestra crashed into sound and movement....
"You're looking quite dreadfully inspired, Val," Giles ragged
her. "Come out of it, and tell us all about it! I didn't know
artists ever really looked like that. I thought it was a legend."
"Tell us, Val," pleaded Loraine, suddenly catching, from
her affinity to Val, that quality of quivering excitement. And
she was glad, now, again, that she had done or said nothing
that might have destroyed it.
Val pushed back her plate, and smiled lazily round at the
ring of faces turned towards her. "Oh, I don't mind telling
you. Just an idea, and I want to begin to make sketches for it
this afternoon. That was why I was finishing off that old stuff
in a hurry. It's the Chinese coat, of course, that started me; I
was crazy to paint it from the first moment I saw it."
Loraine's eyes flashed a message, first at Giles, then at Aunt
Elsa: "You see! And don't you dare to tell her!" was the
message. But they had not meant to tell Val, either of them.
"I've been up in your room, Queenie. I hope you don't
mind, but I knew you had just the thing I wanted—that sort
of kimono dressing-jacket affair, that you wear sometimes after
you've washed your hair."
"It was a present from Aunt Irène," Queenie interrupted in
rather an offended tone, pronouncing the name in the French
fashion. "She said it was quite a good one, really. Not so
lovely as yours, of course. But she bought it in Regent
Street."
"My dear, I'm sure she did. It's a lovely dressing-jacket.
I'm not running it down. Only—-well..." Val was a little
puzzled as to how she could proceed; but artists must be ruthless,
and she could not spare Queenie's feelings over that pseudo-oriental
rag in cotton crêpe, with its bit of imitation embroidery
round the edge! And so she went on: "I want to paint you
wearing it, Queenie. You do look so nice in it. I want you to
look as though you knew you looked nice in it while you are
wearing it. Do you see what I mean?"
... Loraine was leaning across the table, her lips a little
parted, her eyes sparkling with wicked joy. She knew well
enough what Val meant!
"And I'm going to have the Chinese coat—mine—flung
empty across a chair in the background," Val went on.
After a long silence, Queenie said: "I expect it will be a
very nice picture, Miss Power, and of course I don't mind
lending you my Chinese coat, and sitting for you. But I don't
see much sense in it all. Do you, Loveliest?"
"Yes..." said Loraine, breathlessly. And then she burst
out with: "Val, you're a genius and a devil, and I adore you!"
Giles, over in his arm-chair, chuckled, and said nothing. And
Richard lumbered up in Queenie's support, saying: "If Val
wants to paint that Mandarin's coat I brought out, why doesn't
she do it? But I must say, I don't quite see the sense of
dragging in the other one."
Giles chuckled again.
Aunt Elsa, never long to be left out of a discussion, and quite
unable to fathom why her clever niece should want to paint that
stupid girl, cried shrilly, in terror lest Queenie should be too
flattered by the selection of herself for the model: "Vy do
you start calling it a Chinese coat, Queenie, now, all of a sudden
so grand, when always it was a dressing-jacket before? I cannot
understand these silly affectations, no!"
... Loraine's brain was light and flashing with an idea;
but she waited until she could get hold of Val alone, after
lunch, and then rushed up to the studio in her wake. "Oi!
Val! Wait for me!"
"I thought you'd be coming," said Val, pleasantly.
"... Well, what do you think of it?"
"You know what I think of it! ..." Her tone was enough.
"Thanks. And what's Queenie thinking of it?"
"As though Queenie mattered! What's the good of pretending
you aren't a brutal savage, Val, where your work's
concerned. But now ... look here—this is what I was after
asking you"—for the moment she faltered, felt actually shy.
Val, in her workshop, was rather a supreme being. "I want
to be in the picture," said Loraine, with an effort of courage.
"I want to wear the real coat. It'll be better than having it
thrown empty across the chair ... won't it?"
But Val did not even reflect on the possibility. At once
and decisively, she shook her head. "No, old thing. Sorry.
Spoils my conception. Cuts right across it."
"Ah, but it doesn't! Don't treat me as though I didn't
understand, Val, what you're aiming at. I do, I do. It's the
Modern Girl ... trumpery; sham little Queenie in her
sham oriental jacket. And then, showing it up—ah, it isn't a
picture at all!—It's a slice of cruelty. It's one of your
mocking epigrams. You're too clever to live, Val, I always
said it, and too articulate: showing it up, the real thing; a
real thing from the old world; the work of a hundred eyes
and a hundred hearts in it; mayhap, a hundred years. They
run them up by machinery now; it's just as good, they think.
But your picture—that will shout the difference. Ah, but
Val, I am real? You don't deny my reality, do you? I'm not
one of your Queenies? Ah, see now, haven't I got your whole
meaning plain? Do you have to explain things to me? Then
what's wrong with my wearing the coat? I know it's an honour
to be painted by you. I want that honour. Say yes, Val. Say
you will." For it had seemed to her, when Val had proposed
the picture, at lunch, that here was the divine solution of the
problem of ownership, and the quick, full answer to the sacrifice
she had made; far, far rather than possessing the coat, did she
want to be painted by Val, wearing it. The substance was only
the shadow, here. For Loraine was an artist too, at heart,
though without a creative outlet. Her worship of beauty was
sincere; long after she was dead, she felt, instinctively, that
her portrait would live, stiffly robed in the magnificent coat
that Stephen had sent her, and immortalised by Val, who was
one of the family and whom she loved. Thus would be quieted
Loraine's consuming desire to be identified with the family.
Not, of necessity, noisily, and for some shining gain;
flamboyantly self-assertive in all else, where honour to a Rakonitz
was concerned, it was good enough, to Loraine, that Val should
be the flame, if she might but feed it; Val's the fame, if to
Loraine might be allowed the privilege of silent content,
knowing she had done all she could in helpfulness. She was
proud of Val. Proud of Toni, too.... ("But I won't be left
out!") She reflected, too, on contributory pleasures that
would be involved, by sitting for Val in this picture: she would
have, here, an excuse to wear the coat; to be wearing it for
long, silent, happy hours shut away in the studio, while the
picture gradually grew and took shape—she sharing in it,
understanding every subtle inflexion of the brush; delicious
hours, alone with Val—for Queenie hardly counted; Queenie
was the foil, in this case, to the close-woven unity between the
cousins. Of course, she need never say, now, that the coat was
really hers. What did that matter? She was not going to
have said so, in any case.... But ah, how happy she was now,
only needing Val's "yes."
But Val would not say "yes."
"Don't you see, Loraine—— No, it's no good interrupting,
saying that you see everything. You see part of it. But I
meant, among other things, that nobody was quite good enough
to wear that coat—the real one. It can stand by itself—a sort
of impersonal miracle. I know it's only stuff and embroidery,
but it actually has achieved, along those lines, perfection. It
has the indifference of perfection. It's not—a pragmatic
proposition. It doesn't need human wearing. It's just solitary
... a comment, a caustic comment, if you like, on shams and
imitations.—Oh, I know I'm talking like a prig and a pedant,
but there you are, Loraine!—You asked me. You must realise
that you and the coat together would be too much of a good
thing—a sort of vulgar over-emphasis."
"I don't know why you should call me vulgar," said Loraine,
sullenly and deliberately blunting her receptiveness to Val's
ideas.
"I'm not calling you anything," Val retorted, exasperated
by the other's persistence, and badly wanting to get to work
while the light lasted. "I'm not calling you anything. When
the sun shines on the fire, it neutralises it, doesn't it? Makes
the flame seem shabby and ineffective? Well, that's what I'm
going to paint in this picture of mine. But I don't want two
suns. Of course I'd like to paint you. I'll do you, one day, by
yourself. Naked, probably; I like your straight, thin back—the
back of a native African child. You can stand alone, too,
you know, without a Mandarin coat to back you up."
"Thanks," retorted Loraine. "But I happen to want to
wear the coat, and I don't see why I shouldn't!" ... She was
struggling to fight down the impulse to cry aloud, passionately,
that it was her coat, and that she could wear her coat whenever
she pleased! And that if she allowed Val to paint her coat, it
was she who would be doing the artist a favour. She just
succeeded in vanquishing this impulse; but she glowered like
a baffled, angry goblin, at this insolent and unconscious—robber
so calmly rummaging among tubes and palettes and canvases.
Val smiled suddenly over her shoulder at Loraine: "Don't
plague me, there's a good kid; not just now. It's really quite
out of the question, what you're asking me. I simply couldn't
do it, and that's that! Now, be a pal and clear off! Tell
Queenie I want her, plus Aunt Irène's dressing-jacket from
Regent Street. And do take Richard for a walk, or do
something to amuse him. It's stopped raining. What a nuisance,
Giles being laid up! He and Richard could have 'tramped'
together, lovely long-day tramps.... I detest tramping!"
... So Loraine walked slowly down the garden again.
She might as well take Richard for a tramp as do
anything else. A roystering wind from the sea
was hustling all the grey clouds over the mountains; shouldering
them apart to show, underneath, strips and patches of vivid
blue, the colour of a Renaissance Madonna's cloak. Presently
all the clouds would be gone, and the whole sky would be just
that deeply-dreaming blue. And if Val had only yielded her
what she wanted, Loraine would have been really happy.
Almost enough colour, even for her, collected into her small
space in the universe, counting the coat, and that blue sky
after rain. She called to Richard, and to Terry and Mac,
without bothering to re-enter the house.
"What's up?" said Richard, strolling to the open door.
"Coming for a walk?"
"I don't mind—I mean, thanks awfully."
"Well, come on, then!" Loraine cried, impatiently,
standing three terraces above him.
"Oh, haven't you got to go home first, and put on——?"
"Put on what?"
"I don't know," said Richard. "I imagined women always
put on something for walks!" Even Molly, who was hardy
enough in all weathers, would change into stout brogues, and
put on a sports coat or a short suede jacket—he liked her in
that!—and jam a felt hat down over her curly, brown hair.
Loraine was wearing her favourite shape of dress: long, pointed,
tight-fitting bodice, and full skirt that flowed down almost to
her ankles. She dressed like this for day or evening alike. It
was rather a jolly dress, Richard thought, in its own way and
for its own purpose—a sort of rough, crêpe silk, patterned red
and blue. And she wore scarlet sandal-arrangements, in plaited
straw.... "What for would I be changing?" said Loraine,
simply.
"Aren't you cold?"
"I'm never cold and I'm never hot! Glory and gracious,
Cousin Richard!—one would think you were a lounge lizard,
yourself, instead of a farmer!"
"I'm all right," said Richard. "I was being considerate." He
joined her at once, and they swung along one of the paths
that led up through the olives into the hills.
Loraine very soon left the worn track, to beat out a path of
her own: down, for a while, into the valley, and then climbing
again. She dropped from terrace to terrace, ignoring the
roughly-hewn steps that were sometimes to be found; as
though steps were nothing to her, or as little as heat and cold.
Richard was amazed at her suppleness. Although ready enough,
usually, to believe that Loraine was showing off, he could not
believe it now, on this walk. It was just natural for her to run
and climb and leap; she had been given the freedom of earth
and air.
The olive trunks were bright black velvet stripes in the mist
of silver foliage. "They always go black like that after rain,"
Loraine explained carelessly.
Out in the open, they could hear the wind; and presently it
banged and buffeted their faces, as, rounding a corner of the
terrace, they found themselves on a small exposed plateau of
grass and broom and wild thyme; the valley was below them,
first a wavy shimmer of yellow and purple and coppery-red,
where the late leaves still clung on in the vineyards; then a
shimmer of silvery-blue, where the artichokes were planted,
flat field after field. In front of them, across another dip and
on a higher level than their eyes, was a small village, crested by
three admonitory cypresses, pointing upwards in front of the
church; and a bell in the tower, clanging a wild, golden chime,
as though that too were swung by the wind and not by human
will. On a further slope, San Goffredo di Monte, a tiny
fortified city, swarmed in a huddle of pink and white and
lemon-coloured houses, behind prim battlements that were like a
picture in a child's book of enchantment. Between the niches,
you could just catch a glimpse of little magical orange trees,
shining golden specks in their glossy foliage. And behind the
walls again were the further mountains, lifting tier upon tier,
purple and indigo in the shadows; their eternal olives spotted
by occasional crimson of the wild cherry in its November hues,
drawing to a pause wherever was carved the single, sombre
holiness of cypress. Whichever way they looked, Richard and
Loraine, the whole landscape seemed to be tossed and insurgent,
shaken in the jovial swirls of the wind; plunged hot into the
gold swim of the sun. For everywhere was gold, and everywhere
was movement: the golden bell; the rumpled glitter
of the olives; a telegraph wire, that looped the abyss from one
village to another, gleamed, where the rays caught it, a quivering
bridge of pure gold. A flight of small, dark-gold birds
through the dusk into the sun ... into the shadow again
... back in the sun; the flame of the red wild-cherry; the flame
of the spread vineyards. A wet, swaggering, turbulent scene....
Loraine flung herself prone on to the ground; the dogs
rolled gleefully over and over beside her.
"What's the bell for?" asked Richard, who had always
heard that Italy was a highly-coloured country, and was now
compelled to believe it. "No cattle anywhere; they're all
stall-fed, hereabouts. I was talking to a fellow in the train,
about their chief produce; he spoke a bit of English. They
get frosts down on the level, sometimes, but practically never
higher up. In a good year, he says, he can get as much as ten
lire a dozen for the early artichokes. Sounds quite profitable.
What is the bell for? It isn't Sunday."
"Oh, a festa or something. You can always rake up a saint,
here, if you feel like a holiday. How do you like it, Cousin
Richard?" Her cheek pillowed on her arm, she watched him
under her nonchalant, unequal eyelids, ready to mock should
he stick to his habit of British unenthusiasm; though she
would hate, too, any lyrical outburst in celebration of the
landscape. She didn't quite know what she wanted. Anything
would do to mock at! Val had been horrid, and the devils were
loose.... "Apart from the soil and the produce and the profits,
how do you like it?"
Richard said, after a pause: "Sharply cut everything is,
except just the olives, and they're a sort of hazy background to
the sharpness. In England you mostly get the farms and the
fields and the hedges and trees, even the sky and the clouds,
running into one another—blurred. But here—that village
is such a brilliant white, and you can easily run your fingers
along the edges of it—d'you know what I mean? And the
shape of the cypresses, and the clean round oranges, and the
hills cut out with a knife along that awfully hard blue sky; it's
as though somebody were trying to make up for the olives!"
Loraine said, in answer: "Oh.... Why do you hate me so,
Richard?" And this was not total irrelevance. She had been
startled at his noticing such an essential quality of Italy, which
had not yet presented itself even to her, with all her quick sense
and appreciation of beauty; nor even to Val, the artist; Val
had never pointed out what Richard, in his slow matter-of-fact
tones, had seen in the shock of his very first encounter with all
this brave riot of sun and wind, gold and blue and purple. So
that Loraine, suddenly brought to knowledge that a Richard
existed who was, after all, capable of response and utterance, a
Richard whose friendliness would be worth while, and whose
antagonism was a matter of fastidiousness, not, as she had
scornfully deemed it, mere British stolidity, Loraine cried
straight from her heart: "Why do you hate me so?"
But Richard disliked being forced into personal arguments;
he thought Loraine was simply being tiresome, and incapable of
seeing, in cypress or vine or mountain, aught but a background
for Loraine. So at once he turned gruff, and said shortly: "I
don't hate you! Why should I?" He might have added:
"I'm just indifferent to you," which would have been, to
Loraine, the most deadly insult. But he checked this, telling
himself with his habitual honesty that, anyhow, it would not
have been quite true: he was not wholly indifferent to Loraine;
most of the time she irritated him intensely, but: "I like her
in spots," added Richard, not aloud!
Loraine said no more; her chin cupped in her hands, she
continued to gaze at him steadily. The bell from the church
tower across the valley and above them, was silent now. Richard
threw a stone for Terry, who, however, wagged his tail and did
not move from his post at his idol's side. Mac was careering
away somewhere, out of sight; but now and then you saw the
bushes move, and heard a short squeal of delight, announcing
some precious find.
"If you want to know," Richard went on—for he preferred
silences that were of his own making, and became uncomfortable
when they were, so to speak, the property of someone
else—"If you want to know, you seem to me——"
"Yes. Go on!"
"—Dangerous."
Loraine smiled, her mouth like a crescent moon, the corners
tilted upwards. Dangerous! This was the old story: Babs,
Queenie, Luigi, Giles, Terry the dog, Manuela—how many
more?—"Dangerous to whom?"
"To Val!" he blurted out.
Loraine stopped smiling. "To Val? Why—I'd do
anything for Val. Why ... I love her."
Richard stirred uncomfortably: you never used the word
"love," especially in the open air and in daylight, and speaking
of another woman—and of your cousin, good God!
"Perhaps," doubtfully. "But she's not as serene as she
used to be; and her house isn't happy. Because we're all
bothering about you, all the time, one way and another." He
felt himself helplessly committed, now, to being rude; and
though regretting it, thrust on his accusation: "You're a kind
of obsession in the house." And when Richard did find words,
they were apt to be extraordinarily on the spot. "It's unrestful,
and it isn't good for Val, nor for her work."
Loraine sighed ... closed her eyes, like a child snuggling
down into sleep. He did not notice the furious clenching of
her fists. "Not good for Val," she murmured. "Fancy
that! Not good for Val!"
Richard began: "Sorry if I've put my hoof in it—" but
Loraine's sing-song crooned across his apologies, oblivious of
them—"And he brings out a Chinese coat, and gives it to the
wrong woman, as a fool might do—as a fool might do ... but
I'm not good for Val."
"What the hell do you mean? The wrong woman?"
Loraine opened her eyes, sunnily: "You see, Cousin
Richard, the Chinese coat was a present for me; a present from
Stephen Greenways. Who told you to give it to Val? Did
he?"
—The man paused in the act of pressing down the tobacco
into his pipe, and stared at her in consternation, "Lord!" he
exclaimed, ruefully. "But why the deuce didn't you——?"
"Yes? Didn't I what? Should I be after saying: 'Hands
off! That's mine!'—when you bring out a parcel, and tell
Val—Val that I'm bad for!—that it was a present for
her? ... And she trying it on, so pleased, ... And all of them
there: Queenie, Aunt Elsa, and Giles, and the servants?
Should I be shaming her? Leaning forward, and snatching it
off her very back, and putting it on my own, saying: 'It's a
mistake—the messenger's a fool—it's a mistake—it's mine and
mine and mine?' No. She's got to have it now. She's got
to keep it, and never be told. I'll not be hurting Val. Don't
you know yet, Cousin Richard, that it's people who are stupid
do all the hurt? not who are dangerous!"
"Are you sure—that Greenways meant it for you?" But
Richard had not much hope, really, that she was lying to him.
True conviction had sounded in her voice.
Loraine said, simply: "He told me, before ever he left,
that he would send me 'a message painted in silk.' Mind,
Richard, you have to keep this a secret. You've not got to tell
anyone. And especially not Queenie, who's a babbler. It
mustn't get round to Val."
Richard assented. But he was still troubled. "Well, but
won't Greenways write or come out himself, eventually?
Something of that sort?"
"And if I choose to let him drift?" Loraine argued,
mournfully. "He'll follow the coat. Don't I know men? Why,
there's hardly a man knows the difference between one woman
and another. I'm not vain. It just happened to be me. It
might have been Val. It shall be Val." She sprang up restlessly,
and in a few seconds he had lost sight of her. She had
darted round the walled corner of the terrace, and so was
hidden to view. When Richard found her again, some ten
minutes later, brought to the spot by Terry's frantic barks,
she had found a new pastime, and had apparently forgotten all
the world besides. A lissom olive sapling was growing from
its parent trunk. Loraine had discovered that from half-way
up the old olive, she could fling herself on to the crest of the
other young one, embracing it, and her weight would be just
enough to carry it in a wide, outward curve, almost down to
the grass. Directly she leapt away, loosening her hold, the
sapling sprang elastically upright again; and once more
Loraine, scuttling like a wild-cat up the old tree trunk, could
enjoy the glorious flying sensation of her sweep and dive to the
ground. She did not know that Richard was there. He stood
for a few moments, smoking, and watching her, and he could
not help admitting the unconscious loveliness of her
performance. The quaint, unsuitable dress she wore:
wide-skirted, vivid blue and red, gave the beauty of her flying act
its touch of humour, and humour always enhances beauty
where it does not kill it. Grey-green and silver for background,
and Loraine rushing past it like a jewel, like a bird....
Presently, in flight, she caught sight of Richard, and cried out:
"It's glorious! Come and do it! No, you're too heavy;
you'd break the branch!"
Richard laughed. "Eleven stone ten! No, I won't risk
it! Good sport, though! You look as though you
hadn't any weight at all!"
... A temporary lull had occurred in their antagonism.
They went home good friends. Richard thought it jolly
decent of her to have shut up about the coat.
—But, back at the house, it was hard to forget that Val
was all the while painting her picture of Queenie and
the Regent Street dressing-jacket and the Chinese
coat. Val was absorbed in her painting. Loraine found this
nearly unbearable. Even Queenie, so she imagined, was
putting on slightly superior airs. Queenie, after all, was a
participant, selected by Val to sit for her. It occurred to
Loraine, maddened by this pantomime of preening and strutting,
that she had only to inform Queenie, in words of one
syllable, why, precisely, Val had chosen her, what was the
subtle meaning of her inclusion in the picture, to put an end to
all this; but it would have put an end to the picture, too;
Queenie would hardly be likely to lend herself as model to
Val, once she had fully grasped the symbolism which hitherto
had only been clear to Loraine, and, in a lesser degree, to Giles,
not counting the artist herself. Loraine would not consent to
such a betrayal: a part of her nature was too big to be packed
away into any enclosure of spite or petty jealousy: she
reverenced beauty and the brilliant soft meanings hidden away in
beauty; and she worshipped the romance of the Rakonitz
family, and all that went to build it up. Because she guessed
already that the picture had in it the element of a masterpiece;
because it struck a blow for beauty against shams; because it
was Val painting it, and Val was the granddaughter of Simone
Rakonitz—tall Simone with the red-gold hair that flowed
down to her ankles when she stood; because of all these things,
Loraine would not wilfully deprive the picture of its chances
of fulfilment. So she thought, at first, that she would behave
with wonderful dignity and forbearance, and stay away from
Val's cottage altogether. This would remove her from
temptation—"And, thank God, I can always be happy by
myself!" reflected Loraine ... but with inward misgivings.
The kind of people she most admired were those who could
be happy by themselves: nomads, explorers, anchorites—that
gallant, lonely, laughing race that never settled anywhere;
that depended neither on land, house, kin, nor friends. Loraine
deemed these folk the salt of the earth: "I'm a nomad," she
cried, when she most passionately desired to settle down and
never move on again! "And I'm happiest alone!"—which
was even more of an illusion; for whether in love or in war,
the fundamental Loraine was entirely gregarious; so that her
three days of haughty and solitary withdrawal to the foot of
the hill, away from all the pleasant possibilities of warm,
human strife on top of it, were, from her point of view, not a
success.
The first half-hour was splendid: Loraine was convinced
that she was doing the right thing, and that they must be
sitting up there, respecting her for it; respecting her hard and
ceaselessly. She sang, because she was so happy by herself, and
danced into the kitchen to chatter with Manuela ... and was
annoyed when she found her out. Before the day was over, she
hardly knew what to do with herself, so tormented was she by
the desire to run up the hill and see whether they were still
noticing that she was keeping away.... It was all right, as
long as they were noticing it. As for Giles, he was a traitor.
What business had he to be up there in the thick of it, among
her enemies? Up there, where Val owned the coat, and Queenie
sat for the picture, the while Loraine, to whom belonged the
coat, and who could have destroyed the picture, sat forlorn
and outcast? "I'm not going where I'm not wanted," half
sobbed Loraine, that evening, when, looking up from her
balcony, she saw the lights turned on in the sun-room, and
imagined the sociable after-supper hum and busy-ness:
Richard with his pipe; Aunt Elsa with her mending; Giles on
the divan, confiding in demure Queenie, or pleading for the
gramophone—old fox-trots and new: his favourite "Kalua"
of 1922; "Varasdin," which he had recently heard in Vienna;
and that latest London success, "I'm a little bit fonder of
you"; Val, dreamy, tired out, her big limbs inert in an
arm-chair, absorbed in thoughts of her work, thoughts of Stephen
... Marietta and Stefania running in and out; Loraine
envisioned them all, even the dogs, Mac and Terry—yes,
ungrateful Terry would have forgotten her! If Terry were but
half a faithful dog he would be down the hill by now, and lying
patiently on the steps in front of the closed door. "Ah well,
I'm biding my time," said Loraine, trying, against odds, to
work up melodrama. But it fell rather flat. Was she biding
her time, indeed? Whom was she threatening? And
anyhow,—the same trouble again!—were they aware that she was
biding? If not, then biding could bring no satisfaction....
She wandered into the kitchen, and this time found Manuela,
and began to talk, and felt better, becoming more and more
voluble under the lubrication of Manuela's flatteries—sincere,
but artful in their placing! She told Manuela the whole story
of the Chinese coat, and what a marvel it was, and how the
tall, handsome Englishman had sent it to her; but the other
Englishman—not tall and with broad shoulders—yes, her
cousin, the one up at the cottage now—had given it to the
Signorina Val, by mistake; but, of course, the Signorina Val
must never know: "because you see, Manuela, though one
can accept kindness from those one loves, it is very hard to
accept it from an enemy, and still find pleasure in it. And, I
don't know why, but they all hate me up there, and it would
spoil her pleasure—do you see what I mean, Manuela?—it
would spoil her pleasure in that marvel of a coat if the Signorina
Val knew that she had to take it from me instead of from the
English Signore. So I don't tell her, I don't tell anyone but
you, Manuela; and I keep away. I am happier alone."
"You are a princess," cried Manuela. "Yes, indeed, a little
princess, and they are all pigs! The Signorina Val, moreover,
will look like a carabinière and an elephant, when she wears a
coat such as you describe to me. That is a comfort, at least."
"Hush, Manuela. I cannot permit it, that you speak so of
my cousin."
"Like a whole brigade of cavalry, I say," repeated the
obdurate servant. "For there is no doubt that the gift is
appropriate to my beautiful queenly little Signorina, and meant
for her. When a man thinks hotly of a woman, day and night,
then he knows by the movements of his heart what to buy for
her, what to send her, what will express his passion. That
garment, as you describe it to me, could have been meant for
no other than my Signorina. Certainly not for that big slow
Englishwoman. Ho, ho! I laugh at the idea.... He would
laugh too!"
Manuela held her sides, and rocked in mirth. She had said
some shrewd things, and a whole heap of foolish ones. A
benefactress of lovers was Manuela, hot and strong. Because
she was too plain and angular ever to hope for one of her own,
she relished love by proxy, and Loraine's conquests were meat
to her. She yearned, now, to see her mistress arrayed in the
embroidered splendour that must have cost the ardent Englishman
so many soldi. But the situation created by the other
Englishman's blunder did not displease her, either, for she
gloried in intrigue and confidences.... In the days of Philip of
Spain, you might have seen the prototypes of Loraine and
Manuela, mistress and maid, court lady and faithful
tire-woman, whispering behind fans, plotting while the lady's hair
was being dressed and her face painted for the King's ball that
night.... Masks, and grated windows, snatches of a gallant
ditty sung outside.... Manuela's figure, close-wrapped,
flitting on her mysterious bawdy errand down a dark street, the
houses on either side as tall as towers.... And in consequence,
later on, flowing blood that soon stiffened into a dull brown
pattern. And then a new lover. That would have suited
Manuela. She was puzzled when Loraine had ceased to be
interested by Giles, who was so tall, with such a thin,
handsome, distinguished face.... But now Manuela understood.
Another cavalier. Life was so simple, after all. Two cavaliers
suited her better than one; they clinked coins in her palm, in
rivalry, and she could play off one against the other. And two
still fell far short of the numbers due to her mistress, her
graceful, high-bred, imperious, fascinating little Signorina
Loraine!
She hated Val, and commented freely, now, and scornfully,
on Val's figure, which she deemed useful only for breeding
purposes—"And for that she does not use it, because she is
not one, she, to attract the men!"—Val's clothes, her rough
tweed skirts and woollen sports coats, were too expensive and
well-cut for Manuela to recognise their origin, but sagged and
pulled out of drawing by bad and incurable tricks of digging
her hands into her pockets, and lounging.... And these
mannish habits, too, Manuela censured freely. She was blazingly
jealous of Val, and of Val's influence over Loraine.
... Loraine was aware that she ought not to encourage
Manuela's intimacy. But she was impressionable to
atmosphere.... Loraine swayed and tumbled, half-hypnotised, into
her suggested role of the capricious little Spanish princess,
adored by her servitor, cruel to her at one moment, haughty
and snubbing.... And the next moment, a warm-hearted
child again, embracing her, pouring out penitence for that
hot-tempered box-on-the-ears ...
And was the scene not richer, more interesting, played thus,
than in a style which dingy people called "natural"—"Mary,
you can go now. I don't wish to hear any complaints about
the fishmonger's boy. It isn't your place..."—Natural!
But now and here, Loraine, defying their criticism, talked with
Manuela, her servant. The talk rippled on and on
... Loraine went to bed, feeling much better.
The whole of the next day she spent up in the hills, picnicking
with Luigi and with Luigi's little brothers and sisters.
This was not such a bad day. She could whole-heartedly play
games with Italian peasant children, and enjoy it as much as
they. And when she came home, she found that Queenie had
been down the hill three times in vain search of Loveliest. As
long as anxiety about her was active and not stagnant, she
could bear her self-imposed isolation. She wondered, in quite
a rosy humour, what Val was thinking about it?
As a matter of sober fact, Val had not noticed. Val had
been in the studio all the morning. A rather petulant Queenie
had apparently been allowed a half-hour's rest—that was the
occasion of the first rush down the hill and back again—but no
more than that; her services were relentlessly commandeered
again. At lunch-time, there was no sign of either of them.
Stefania, when questioned whether she had called the Signorina
Val, said, in her pretty, distinct voice, that she had indeed been
three times to the studio door, and at last had entered; but
that the Signorina Val was "molto occupata," painting:
"She is painting the beautiful new jacket that the Signore
brought from England," said Stefania; "and she will not stop.
I have never yet seen her cosi. Perhaps it is
because——"—a rush of shyness overcame her.
"Vell, and go on!" cried Aunt Elsa, more accustomed than
the others to the foreign type of servant, who is at once so
much more, and so much less, familiar with her employers than
the English kind; more intimately concerned with their
welfare, and yet more feudally acquiescent to the differences
between slave and master; so: "Go on!" Aunt Elsa bade
her, inquisitively. Thus had she gossiped with that good
Rosalia in her mother's kitchen in Vienna, when she was a girl;
Rosalia, who made such a speciality of Nusstorte and Zimmtkuchen.
"Perhaps," Stefania obediently went on, and a hard note
sounded in the usual pretty softness of her voice, "the Signorina
Val is working so hard, painting the beautiful jacket, because
she does not know how long she may keep it...." And she
put down a flask of wine on the table, raised her eyelids for one
quick, inscrutable look towards the assembled Signori, and
returned to the kitchen, where her little stolid Egyptian face
broke into flashing mischief, as she recounted to Marietta what
she had dared to say, and how it had been received; and then
dodged Marietta's elder-sisterly lecture!
Meanwhile, Richard, Giles, and Aunt Elsa, looked at each
other uneasily...
"She knows something," said Richard. "How the devil
did that come out, I wonder?"
"She must have seen Manuela this morning," from Giles.
Aunt Elsa contributed: "But Manuela would not know,
isn't it?"
And then all three realised, one by one—Giles first—that
neither of the others were in the least puzzled or surprised; in
fact, that they were talking quite naturally about a secret that
Loraine had divulged only to Giles, only to Aunt Elsa, only to
Richard.... Giles laughed; and Richard, making a laborious
and belated attempt to cover up what had already been fully
uncovered, said:
"Who is Manuela? And what have she and this kid been
talking about? I can't make out what you're driving at,
either of you."
"No good!" Giles replied curtly. "You can safely open
up, Richard. Finesse isn't your line. And anyhow, at this
rate the whole of San Goffredo will know by to-morrow morning
that you handed out Greenways' coat to the wrong woman."
* * * * * * *
Loraine's endurance gave out on the following afternoon.
She provided herself, as excuse for going up the hill again, with
a flask of rather special Orvieto wine, which the infatuated
Luigi had stolen from his father; and comforting herself with
the reflection that whatever else awaited her at Val's cottage,
there would be, at least, a grand scene of some sort, she started
forth. Hardly was she a quarter of the way up the mule-track,
however, when she met Queenie coming down.
—"Loveliest," said Queenie, after several hugs and
where-were-you-yesterdays, "I've been sent to ask you if you would
be too awfully sweet and come up to massage Giles' foot? No
one else has the knack of it like you have. The Doctor said it
had to be done a certain way, you know—the way the blood
rolls—and he doesn't seem to like it when it's me or Aunt Elsa
or Richard. I don't mind a bit, of course, and I don't think
Richard minds much either; but Aunt Elsa gets in a terrible
state—she's such an old fuss-box!"
Loraine, ever an opportunist, considered the proposition in
relation to her pride. "I was going up into the hills by myself
all day long, with a bottle of wine and some cigarettes; it
would have been glorious, right, right away from everybody;
but still, if Giles' foot"—she paused, still indecisive——
"Loveliest," Queenie coaxed her, "it's so dull up at the
cottage without you."
"It's not that would be bringing me back," said Loraine.
"No, no, of course not. I know it wouldn't. But I really
do think," Queenie went on, seriously, "that Giles' foot ought
to be properly massaged: it would be rather an awful thing
if he got lame for life—people do, sometimes—just through
wrong treatment, or through no treatment at all."
"You're a helpless lot!" laughed Loraine, giving in with
good grace. "Ah well, I suppose I'd better be coming along
with you."
"You could go on for your day in the hills, afterwards,"
Queenie suggested.
"Don't you see I can't do that, when once I've ... broken
through?"
"What is it, Loveliest? I don't quite understand. Broken
through what? Has there been a row? You and Val—is it
anything to do with the picture she's painting of me? I
shouldn't mind a bit giving up my place in it to you; you know
that, don't you, Loveliest? But she's already begun, and you
know what Val is, in one of these moods." Queenie jauntily
called her "Val," away from her actual presence.
"It's nothing, nothing whatever to do with the picture;
and I hate sitting still, anyhow. I can't sit still for more than
a minute or two. It's no good at all I'd be as a model, that I
wouldn't. It's nothing you would understand has kept me
away, Queenie, so you'd far better not be prying nor asking
questions. And look here, if I do go back with you to the
cottage now, to massage Giles' foot, you're not to say one word
about my having meant to go away from them all for the day.
It might make them uncomfortable; it might make them feel
that I was doing them a favour by giving it up; and I don't
want that. I hate these rows and scenes and intrigues. Peace
is what I want—peace, and a lot of it; and lying about in the
sun. So mind that, Queenie! and let's race along now; and
look here, we'll pretend this bottle of wine was going to be a
present for Val; I can't be bothering to take it back home
now. Luigi gave it to me for myself; it's a very special
Orvieto—oh, I forgot, you don't know about wines.... Ah, never
mind, Luigi wouldn't be grumbling if I told him I wanted to
be sharing it with a friend or two."
"It's wonderful of you, Loveliest, taking it like that,"
Queenie sighed, admiringly. She did indeed feel that Loraine
had a way of adding colour to the smallest and pettiest affairs
of everyday, which merely ordinary people transacted with far
less generosity of spirit.
Val accepted Loraine's presence as though there had never
been an absence. Val was working furiously. Occasionally she
emerged from the mists and was lazily good-humoured all
round—she wasn't the snappy type of artist—and then
disappeared again. Her blurred sense of observation was quite
incapable of making clear little mental foot-notes such as:
"Loraine's here"; "Loraine wasn't here yesterday";
"Loraine is displeased"; "Aunt Elsa is fussed." She took
all this come-and-go for granted. She was neglecting her
household, in addition to neglecting Loraine's temperamental
displays—and not to mention the invalid's sprained foot:
Queenie was terribly shocked that Val omitted to say, at every
first daily encounter: "Good morning, Giles. Is your foot
better? I do hope it is. Did you sleep well, or was it paining
you?"—enquiries which punctilious Queenie never failed to
make herself. Moreover, Val also disgracefully neglected her
guest, Richard, considering that he had made a very special
effort of will and of convenience to leave his farm and leave
England and come out to Italy to see her. She had not any
formal ideas about entertaining, but took things haphazardly
and just as they rolled in from the future to the present; though
it did strike her, in proposing that Richard should take the first
available chance of leaving the farm to the superintendence of
his head man, and pay her a visit, that he might prove, in Giles'
case, a quite excellent antidote to Loraine; and that the two
men could together fill their days by those useless and athletic
performances which the vigorous male adopts as a matter of
course. Then, too, Val had been going through a slack period as
far as her work was concerned, and had imagined she would have
plenty of time to devote to her cousin from Gloucestershire.
But with Richard had arrived, unexpected, the Chinese coat
from Stephen; and with the Chinese coat from Stephen had been
stimulated a mood of long-awaited inspiration. And now Giles
had twisted his ankle; and Val was shut up in the studio all
day; and Richard was having, as he expressed it, rather a dud
time. He took it philosophically, however, until the reappearance
of Loraine in their midst; when he groaned in spirit,
anticipating further pageantries and demonstrations of the
kind his soul abhorred.
... But Loraine was behaving like an angel, and it was
certainly not due to her that even Val, preoccupied as she was,
gradually became aware of a curious discomfort in her home
and in herself; yes, queerly enough, in her own body. It was
certainly not Loraine who told Val that she was large and
hulking; and yet, somehow, the words seemed to have been
insinuated into the atmosphere, and Val began to behave as
though she were both these things; as though she were blowsy,
milkmaidish.... Yet it was not Loraine who was responsible
for the idea. Loraine, indeed, was always defending her against
any such absurd notion. Even when there was no one against
whom she could prove the contrary, Loraine seemed to be
proving it. Her loyalty went so far as to call Val's attention,
over and over again, to the advantages of not being slim and
supple and formed like a boy—"as I am, for instance," said
Loraine. Also she helped Val by advising her over the choice
of clothes, the sort of lines that would tend to make her
appearance more slender, tone down the generous sweep of her
bosom and hips. Loraine knew exactly what Val ought to
wear; what she ought emphatically not to eat; and was quick
and stern to check her disobedience to these rules; and so
generously eager to point out to everybody—Aunt Elsa and
Richard and everybody—the times when Val's figure was really
not looking too unattractive at all, that, somehow, Val found
it difficult to be unconscious for any length of time of the
limbs that had hitherto carried her carelessly forward, not
unlike the Winged Victory rushing down the steps in the Louvre
Gallery.
Val had reasons, just now, for being peculiarly sensitive
about her appearance. She responded to suggestion....
Gradually she avoided sight of herself in the mirror; gradually
she avoided sight of Loraine running, Loraine climbing like a
cat, Loraine slippery and boneless, leaping down from walls
with hardly a jar in her contact with the ground, or slinking
from bough to bough in the tree-tops. Val wondered if
Stephen Greenways had ever looked from Loraine to her, and
used the word—no, she could not use it herself, thinking of
Stephen; it was such an uncomfortable little monosyllable,
like a germ in the air. She did not know how the obsession had
glided in. Even the Winged Victory might not have carried
herself so superbly if a tourist had once murmured in her
hearing: "Fat" ... and passed on.
And then, too, Val felt diffident and uneasy, now, whenever
she wore Stephen's gift. At first she had often slipped it on,
from an artist's delight in it, and her woman's profounder
delight to appear, even in the man's absence, as he must have
envisioned her when buying the coat. But Richard and Aunt
Elsa looked at her so queerly whenever she wore it, so anxiously,
as though they feared some unhappiness in store for her, and
would have warded it off if they could. And Stefania, instead
of murmuring with an appreciative gleam in her huge brown
eyes, "Ma, che bella, Signorina!" whenever she saw Val in the
stiff, glowing sheath of cyclamen and blue and emerald, would
walk past with her small head held high and turned away, and
afterwards they could all hear Marietta rowing her in the
kitchen. Mysterious quarrels in the kitchen were frequent
now, and they bothered Val, who was fond of the "infant
school," as she called her diminutive staff. Now and then, too,
she interrupted conversations between Giles and Aunt Elsa
and Richard and Loraine—for Loraine was always up at the
cottage lately—and she knew she was interrupting them, not
from anything she overheard, but because whenever she came
in, an entirely fresh subject was at once introduced, usually by
the resourceful Loraine.... It was odd that at her entrance
they had always just finished one particular subject of
conversation, and were starting another.
Loraine, however, was the only one who did not suddenly
lapse into a stricken and self-conscious condition whenever the
coat was mentioned. Loraine knew a lot about Chinese art
and old Oriental customs:
—"There you are, Val!" Triumphantly she pounced on
Val's rather silly mistake about hereditary Mandarins. Loraine
was abnormally well acquainted with details about the difficult
examinations that had to be passed before any Chinaman could
become a Mandarin. "There you are, Val! That proves
you're absolutely Western at heart, or you'd have known that.
You think of the East in terms of cheap bazaar. You're only
interested in your own limited outlook; your whole philosophy
is Occidental; any man who had travelled would laugh his
throat dry if you should be after saying anything like that to
him!"
Queenie said: "What a wonderful chum you'd be, Loveliest,
to a great man who travelled. Do you know——" to the
patient others—"Loraine can toss down fiery rum without
drawing breath, even, and not feel it; like a man. And I
simply don't know how you can remember things, like all you
told us about the Pekin stitch, was it? And all the poor little
Chinese embroiderers who went blind doing it, so that it was
stopped by law."
"Is it in my coat anywhere, that special Pekin stitch?"
Val asked, her interest aroused.
"Do you actually mean you can't find it yourself?"
"If I could, I shouldn't ask you, Loraine."
After a pause, Loraine said, "Yes. It's in the coat. I
noticed it at once. That's how I knew it must be genuinely
old, because the Pekin stitch doesn't exist in the modern
Chinese stuff."
"I should think not, if it cost the worker his sight. No
stitch would be worth that."
"It might be—to the artist!" Loraine blazed out, truculently
bent on forcing Val into displays of ignorance and stolid
mediocrity. "But I suppose you proud painters don't grant
the title of artist to the poor souls who only know how to use
a needle with a thin silk thread at the end of it."
The proud painter in question merely replied that she
would rather argue with a hurricane than with Loraine....
"The patient men and women who called into creation those
storks and dragons and flowers and butterflies and rainbows on
your coat, who never allowed their eyes time to rest on real
blossoms and birds flying—don't you think they disdained the
shoddy Western folk: little grey beings who performed dingy
hasty work under a dingy sky? don't you think they disdained
their meagre sacrifices, and their hurried scramble to get things
done so as to see the results quickly ... These workers, who
thought a lifetime and their eyesight too little to squander for
decorating a square half-yard of silk—perfectly!"
"I'd give up the coat, gladly, to leave them their sight."
"And that point of view they'd despise too! To them it
was just worth while, to achieve these controlled and minute
arabesques, for me, lover of beauty, to appreciate two hundred
years later ..."
"Never did I let Melanie and Freda work too long
wiz the bad gaslight on a sideboard-cover wiz crochet lace
even though I knew I must not be seeing because those
dear girls meant it as such a nice surprise for my birthday;
but I said, eyes come first and surprises second, isn't
it?" Such was Aunt Elsa's warmly personal contribution to the
discussion on Oriental aspects of philosophy.
"I once knew a girl," Loraine darted off at a fantastic
tangent, "who bit her nails, but otherwise she was glorious as
a lyric by Shelley. And there was a man who would have loved
her, but for the blemish of her finger-tips. He was an artist as
the Chinese understand it, you see, Val, and could only be
satisfied by perfection——?
"Is this going to be a story specially invented to bully me?"
Val asked, a trifle apprehensively.
"Or is it all about something that happened to you,
Loraine? Oh, is it? I do hope so! It often is, when you
begin like that," cried Queenie, ingenuously, "with: 'I once
knew a girl.' But if it's you, won't you tell us?"
But Loraine simply flashed her a smile, and went on,
jongleuse squatting in a bracelet of sunshine, romancing to
the group on the loggia:
—"So while he was away, she tried and tried and tried and
failed, and tried again, and was tempted by her old habit, and
had to start anew from the beginning ... but she did succeed
at last, and just in time for his return. How she longed to show
them to him—ten little oval shields of pale pink pearl guarding
her soft finger-tips.... But he found her lying in bed, with her
wrists in bandages, her hands amputated——"
"Oh, Loraine!"
Loraine's voice had grown harsh: "A child fallen in the
way of a motor-car—The girl, saving it, had her fingers
mangled in the wheels—They had to operate quickly.
Well ... you wouldn't have desired her to hold back, would
you, because her hands were beautiful now, and she had so
wanted to show them to her lover? At first he could not
understand her distress that he had not come a day sooner;—only
one day sooner, she kept on repeating. He had been away
a year and two months; and just a year and two months it
had taken her laboriously to allow her nails to grow for his
fastidious pleasure. Ah now, but you needn't look downcast,
Queenie, my dear, for I've a happy ending all ready and waitin'
for you, to be served with shrimp sauce an' parsley: for when
she told him, crying from weakness and disappointment, poor
maid!—he loved her all the more passionately—an' what man
wouldn't?—for the beautiful hands that she had sacrificed to
keep a human child unhurt, before she had ever been able to
show them to him at all. They remained his dearest treasures,
those ghost hands with their ten little oval shields of pale pink
pearl.... An' there are, indeed, two jokes to this story I've
told you! One of them being that it illuminates your side of
our quarrel, Val, instead of mine; which I knew before
I'd even begun but, being noble, I was not letting that
stop me!"
"It's humiliating to be backed by one's opponent," said
Val. "What's the other joke?"
"The other joke is hidden in the story itself, not in its
moral; clenched tight in the two hot palms of the girl I once
knew, who lost her hands and won a happy martyrdom. For
listen again: she had been in such a wild state of nerves,
during the night before her lover turned up, that she had
bitten away every one of her pretty new nails..."
"Oh, Loraine! But that spoils it!"
—With a laugh for Queenie's shocked exclamation, and
declaring that she was tired of high society, Loraine flitted
away indoors, to the kitchen, where, through the window, she
could be heard entertaining the infant school and Luigi...
But, "I did think at first, didn't you, Giles? didn't you,
Miss Power?—that Loveliest was going to tell us a story about
herself. Something mysterious in the way she twinkled at
me, when she said 'A girl I knew'!"
"The heroine quite certainly was going to work out at
herself," Giles delivered a verdict rather unusually caustic,
for him. "And that was the third joke.... She remembered
only just in time that it would be difficult to account for the
fact that she still had her two hands. I saw her ... realising
this. It isn't likely, otherwise, that Loraine would let such a
chance slip!"
... And Val silently sent Toni a reassuring message. Giles
was not in the very least in love with Loraine any more,
whatever he had been last February. Giles saw right through
Loraine.... "After all," said Val aloud, "she does hang
our empty hours with tapestries!"
"You've caught that florid style from Loraine," he teased
her.
"My dear Giles, we're a florid family!"
"A torrid family! A horrid family! Richard's the only
austere member of it!"
Aunt Elsa cried: "Vot is that about the family?"
And Richard looked up, at sound of his name: "I was
wondering about that accident with the car," he said. "I
don't see, honestly I don't, how she could have had her hands
mangled, and nothing else, while the child escaped unhurt.
Where, exactly, was the child, while the wheels of the car
went over her hands——?"
—"And what make of car was it?" remarked Giles, very
seriously; "that's the really essential question...."
"Lord, how it's pelting down!" Richard remarked.
"Didn't know you got these tropical rains here. It
looks as though we're going to have a cloud-burst."
Giles, whose foot had almost healed during the last week's
skilful treatment and massage, limped across to the window:
"There's a whole crowd of people coming up the hill. Wonder
if they're coming here, or if they're just taking a walk. They
seem a bit wet.—Val," he added, as the door opened, "about
twenty people are coming up the hill. You don't happen to
know 'em, do you?"
Val smiled at her assembled house-party. "Yes," she said,
"I saw them as I dashed down from the studio. It's my Aunt
Amélie and my Uncle Nathan——"
"What!" shrieked Aunt Elsa, overturning her work-basket.
"—my cousin Etienne, my cousin Camille, my cousin
Jeanne-Marie, two brats—presumably the property of Camille
and Etienne—and another four or five whom I don't know.
Cousins, too, perhaps!" Her hands in her pockets, and still
that odd, ironic smile on her lips, she leant back against the
wall, and watched the effect of her announcement.
Loraine cried at once: "Ah, but how thrilling!" and
dashed out, bare-headed and practically bare-shouldered, into
the rain, to welcome this still unknown portion of beloved
family.
"You vill stop here!" cried Aunt Elsa, but it was too late.
—At the same time, Richard ejaculated: "The San Remo
lot! Christ! Shall I bolt?"
"Yes! No! At once! Sit where you are!" from Aunt
Elsa. "Gott im Himmel! Why didn't Amélie let me know?
A little consideration——
"I shouldn't worry, Richard," said Val, laconically. His
episode with Jeanne-Marie had been fierce while it lasted, but
it was six years since Richard had been saved—by her, as it
happened!—and the older generation—led by Aunt Elsa, as it
happened!—had been routed. Little Jeanne-Marie's excuse
for her wilful swerve aside from virtue had been, according to
Richard, so ardent an admiration for her famous grown-up
cousin Val, that she desired to imitate her in everything
... "Well ... here we all are!" said Val.
The San Remo family, of course, could have had no notion
that Richard was actually, and at this moment, staying with
Val. It was too late to do anything: already the clamour of
voices was pouring like an inverted waterfall up the garden
path. Aunt Elsa suddenly realised that, apart from the
unparalleled catastrophe of Richard in the house, she would also
have to answer to Amélie for the bewildering presence,
countenanced by herself, of Toni's husband with Loraine. Amélie
would have heard the scandal—surely Truda and Wanda and
Henrietta and all of them in London would have written. A
dozen possible lines of action darted through her head; she
attempted, giddy with horror, to seize them all and perfect
one of them, at the same instant as the front-door opened....
—"Mrs. Rakonitz," the ubiquitous Queenie was saying at
her elbow, "I don't think we have chairs enough if they should
stop and want to sit down. Shall I——"
Aunt Elsa, unhappy and beset, cried angrily: "You are
good for nossing, I tell you, nossing, nossing, nossing!"—And
with a guilty soul and reeling brain, and a tongue gallantly
babbling affection and welcome, she trotted out into the hall
to meet that dear Amélie.
Val, with a humorous shrug of the shoulders, followed her.
At once a clamour of explanation, hospitality, family
affection, news and reproaches, introductions and greetings and
solicitude, beat and shattered with such overwhelming din
against its imprisoning walls and ceilings, that it seemed they
must at any moment collapse.
(... "This," said Giles to Richard, in the sun-room, "this
is the cloud-burst!")
"But Amélie——"
"But Elsa——"
"No, but such a treat, such a surprise——"
"You had my letter?"
"Ach! You sent a letter?"
"But I tell you, three whole days ago!"
"But it is impossible! And Camille's children,—how fine
they look, how pretty! What, only eight, the youngest?
Ach, and so wet——"
"Shall I get dry shoes, Mrs. Rakonitz? What size——?"
"If you would be so kind, ma chère.... But what a surprise,
Elsa, to have been met, outside, by a new sweet little
cousin! And she tells me she is a daughter of our Uncle
Andreas. Pas possible! Na—eh bien—and what do you think
we have come to tell you?"
A shrill scream from Aunt Elsa! ... "No! Engaged?
The little Jeanne-Marie? Your baby? And this is her
fiancé? You must let me—yes, an old Aunt—she always
kisses! So ... and again..."
"At once I said: 'Nathan, we must take him over to see
Elsa. It is our duty, and a pleasure. San Remo is only three
hours away; ce n'est rien!'"
"But what a day to come! What bad fortune! So soaked,
and no road up here.... You had to walk."
"And this, let me present you, is Orlo's father, Count
Vassiloff; and his uncle; his sister; his sister's husband. My
dear cousin, Madame Rakonitz...." Then, in an aside:
"I could not leave them behind, you understand?"
"Such a real pleasure.... But dying of hunger and thirst
you must be, yes?"
"My dear Elsa, what room have you for such a party?—From
all you wrote me, I thought the house was much, but
much larger."
"Sorry," came in Val's voice, unexpected, cool and clear,
amidst the froth and tumult. "But of course we can manage
quite easily."
... "Oui, oui, oui, from Moscow ... that terrible revolution
has driven us here as émigrés, Madame Rakonitz; just
poor émigrés now——"
—"Why do you say that, when you know that you are one
of the best and oldest families——?"
"My dear Amélie, but how enchanted they will be in
England! You have written to the family? They have
heard? But why has nobody told me before? Only two days
ago?—no, three?—And a dinner-service.... Yes, yes, yes,
your mother will tell you that old Aunt Elsa always gives a
dinner-service! And you who have lived with me like a
daughter, wiz my own daughters—— But all in white,
Jeanne-Marie!—and on a day like this! As trotzig as ever with your
extravagant ideas! Even a bride! For after all, only three
days engaged—— Why do you allow it, Amélie? And ze
nurse, she can speak Italian? She can go in ze kitchen with
our Italian servants?"
"But she is Italian! I have told you three times!"
"But you have not told me that Camille's children's nurse
is Italian! But Nathan will surely have rheumatism if we
stand here! Val, why do you not take them where there is a
fire? And you, Orlo—I may call you Orlo? Of course.
And your uncle and father and sister and brozzer, too?"
"They are not all called Orlo," Jeanne-Marie explained,
sedately cheeky. And the torrent poured into the sun-room.
Three out of the four Russians had fastened themselves on
to Val; and with bright, light, mad eyes, and with that
ghastly fluency which is characteristic of their race, were
telling her just how their souls behaved when toppled from
riches and high estate, and thrust into positions of beggared
humility in San Remo. She saw, from her confinement within
these barriers of unrestrained soul, that Aunt Elsa's reckoning
had come, and that she could not assist her....
Loraine, in her childish joy at meeting another branch of
the Rakonitz family, had quite forgotten that there was any
reason whatever for embarrassment on her behalf; and was
fully occupied, as well, in charming Uncle Nathan, Etienne,
and Camille, the relatives nearest to hand, and in making friends
with the two children, while stripping them of their soaked
shoes and socks. Queenie presently reappeared with a whole
armful of assorted dry garments; rivulets and pools of water
were dripping from the visitors' clothing all over the tiled floor;
Terry and Mac were barking furiously; the Russians had got
well away with the story of their spiritual life...
—And here were Aunt Amélie and Richard suddenly brought
face to face, as two who meet across an open grave. Last time
they had met had been at Aunt Elsa's house, late on the eve of
Richard's enforced marriage with Jeanne-Marie. And then
Richard, incited at the eleventh hour by that rebellious traitor,
Val, had firmly, heavily, desperately, and quite obstinately,
refused to atone for his villainy.... Last time they had
met!
"How do you do, Aunt Amélie?" said Richard ... and
suddenly he caught a comic look from Giles, and became
infected by the prancing spirit of gay lunacy rampant in Val's
cottage. He saw, too, that Aunt Elsa was about to have
hysterics; and that Madame de Yong's bosom, corsetted and
controlled and usually implacable, was now heaving slightly
from the tempest within.... Richard's gloom lifted, and his
deep-set eyes twinkled. "I say, I must congratulate you. I
hear Jeanne-Marie has just got engaged. Topping! You
must be awfully bucked, you and Uncle Nathan."
"And such a wonderful match!" quavered Aunt Elsa.
"Not a penny, you say, but noble, and an old title, and zere
may be anozzer revolution the ozzer way round, in Russia.
And, till then, if the dear Nathan's business is going so well as
you boast——?" And then, with a quick twitch of the understanding,
Aunt Elsa realised, amazed but with exquisite relief,
that Amélie must be, logically, just as frightened as she was
herself; and that this encounter with Richard was—to say
the least of it—decidedly inconvenient. Here was she with her
young daughter, Jeanne-Marie, tall, slim, golden, a jeune fille
in white, with cast-down eyelids, and a heart presumably
cherished and unsophisticated; here cette pauvre Amélie was,
so proud to have a daughter newly engaged, bringing her
daughter's fiancé to San Goffredo, knowing that dear Elsa was
there; partly to boast, over Val, that Jeanne-Marie was now
rangée; partly in genuine affection, because the de Yongs, not
anglicised like the London branch of Rakonitz, still held close
to the family tradition that neither birth, death, nor marriage
should rightfully take place among them, unless all the other
available members of the family were called in to triumph or
to mourn....
—"And the first thing we meet is that dreadful Richard!"
wailed Aunt Amélie, in silent consternation. The one episode
in Jeanne-Marie's career that must at all costs be buried and
forgotten, concealed from Jeanne-Marie's prospective husband
and the prospective husband's father, uncle, brother and
sister! If only she had not brought them all along! But how
could she know? How could she have known? How like Elsa
not to have informed her! And now, what was Richard going
to tell? Would he be discreet? How would Jeanne-Marie
behave? Would she be discreet?
... "How are you, Jeanne-Marie?" spoke Richard's slow,
English voice, like an ominous thudding accompaniment of
drums to Aunt Amélie's mounting panic.
Val, rising above her enthusiastic Russians like Aphrodite
from the waves, just caught a glimpse of the meeting between
the hero and heroine of an old story, before she was once more
submerged.
... "How do you do, mon cousin?" Jeanne-Marie was
sublime—a snow-maiden, virginal, without a tremor. "It's a
surprise that you should be out here visiting Val. Maman,
will you present to him my fiancé?"
Richard wondered if she knew that he was married; that he
had two sons. He exulted, thinking of Jim and Tommy; of
Molly's seat on a horse; of the long stiff furrows of freshly-turned
earth, on his farm. He exulted in his escape from all
this—this foreign mess. Good old Val! Oh, good Val! Not
all Jeanne-Marie's fairness could lure him into even a passing
spasm of regret. His lot had fallen into pleasanter places. He
had sown his seed in English soil. He shook Count Orlo
Vassiloff heartily by the hand, thinking, with no rancour, what
a fine-looking fellow he was, and wondering why Aunt Amélie
looked so scared and yet so indignant; and why Aunt Elsa
hustled their little group away from what she thought a
dangerous moment ... thus landing herself, plumply and
neatly, out of the frying-pan that was Richard, into the fire
that was Giles:
"But vait, Amélie.... So many people, so much family,
and half of you don't know ze ozzers; and now see, we have
left Giles out, and there he is standing with no one to talk to.
Come here a minute, Giles—yes, he has hurt his foot, poor
boy—and meet your Aunt Amélie."
"Giles?" said the formidable Amélie, enquiringly. "Giles?"
Aunt Elsa remembered, then, with a sinking at the knees.
She remembered that in the eyes of Amélie and Nathan, Giles
ought not to be here; and if he were here, Toni should be
here too; or, if Giles were here without Toni, then Loraine
should not be here with Giles; and that, finally, if Loraine and
Giles were here together, (even if, as Val had said, there was
nossing...) then, most undoubtedly, she, Aunt Elsa, should
not be here, countenancing this terrible situation, lending
Rakonitz sanction to it, presumably in acquiescence with such
flamboyant immorality.
Giles came forward, smiling pleasantly. Like Loraine, he
seemed to feel no shame whatever.
"Giles?" repeated Aunt Amélie. "Not——? Mon Dieu,
Elsa!"
Aunt Elsa, in a last frenzied attempt to redeem her own
character in the eyes of Amélie and Nathan, who were
contemporaries, and had the severe standards of their generation,
tumbled into a hectic improvisation of a Mr. Joddard who was
staying with Val on a visit. She trusted that the link between
him and Loraine might not have been revealed as yet; and
that in this haphazard confusion of strangers and relatives, it
would remain concealed until the end of the disastrous
afternoon. But almost immediately she had to reject this idea;
for alas! she had already mentioned Giles, to Amélie, as being
one of the family, and Amélie's cousin-by-marriage. Alternatively,
it occurred to her that she might locate Giles (as far as
Amélie was concerned) in the villa at the foot of the hill; and
that it should be Loraine who was staying up here with them,
the sweet little new cousin, Andreas' great-granddaughter.
"But naturally, Amélie, I am chaperoning her!" How would
that do? ...
And then all these evasions and subterfuges collapsed, as
Amélie repeated:
"Joddard? Giles Joddard? Is that the one who was the
husband of cette pauvre Antoinette?" Her beady eyes flashed;
the little hairs above her lips bristled ominously.
"That's the low fellow," Giles assented, seeing that Aunt
Elsa had gone all to bits.... "But is the husband, not was.
I suppose, in a sort of way, I'm your nephew."
"He lives alone at the bottom of the hill," whispered Aunt
Elsa, feebly. "But he has hurt his foot, poor boy." She had
a sudden, magnificent, half-crazy inspiration that if she could
get Amélie up to her own room, now, and then take her into
the spare bedroom next door, and say that was where Loraine
slept, it would effectually free her from suspicion of sanctioning
the Giles-Loraine entanglement. It made, after all, so much
difference where people slept.... But this idea was destroyed
anew, when she recalled that the little spare-room would be
full of Richard's razors and other masculine evidence. She
had made her worst blunder in stating that Giles lived at the
foot of the hill. If she had said that Loraine lived there, where
would have been the harm in Giles sharing a room with
Richard? With a heavy sigh, Aunt Elsa resigned herself a
victim to circumstantial evidence; and feeling no better, as
she afterwards told Val, than a procureuse, she led zat dear
Amélie upstairs to take off her hat, and change her soaked shoes
and stockings. She tried very hard to lead the talk round to
rheumatism, sciatica, lumbago, and other perfectly harmless
manifestations of nature.
But Aunt Amélie realised that she had only one defence
against Aunt Elsa's spiked reminders that Jeanne-Marie was a
jeune fille with a past—and a past, moreover, perilously in the
vicinity!—and that was to raise a still greater storm of
indignation against Aunt Elsa's own vulnerable spot; so she refused
to let her moral sternness be propitiated nor hoodwinked on
the subject of Giles and Loraine. Elsa had no right to allow
it! Elsa had no right to call Giles "that dear boy," when
cette pauvre petite Toni was desolée, fretting her heart out, an
abandoned wife, over in London! Elsa had no right to call
Loraine a "dear girl." They were sinners...
Brushing back her oily black hair ferociously from her plump
and pasty face, Aunt Amélie went a little too far. She told
Elsa that not only would Elsa's own four good girls have their
chances of marriage imperilled by their mother's slackness of
outlook and tolerance si outré; but she said, furthermore,
that she did not like her own daughters to meet ...
"You speak to me not of your own daughter!" cried Aunt
Elsa, "who was no better than a charlotte in a broth-house
before she was eighteen, yes, and still I kept her in my house so
that you and Nathan can marry her quickly to hide her shame;
and a good sing, too, that Richard turned his back on her, for
he has got a much, much better vife now, who vos a good girl
before she vos married, which vos more, Amélie, than your
Russian Count will be able to say if he knew, which I suppose
you have not told him; no, but I will, unless you are polite in
zis house, remembering where you too must shame yourself
and not trying to teach me, isn't it?" ... And then Aunt Elsa
wound up with a sentiment which demolished in a few stupendous
words her own virtuous, stern and autocratic principles,
and those of the whole Rakonitz family of the past seventy-three
years; and swept her right across, a rebel, a deserter, a
flaming deserter, into the ranks of the young generation: "As
for Toni in London, what you reproach me with, she knows
how to manage her own affairs better than you and I can
manage them for her, yes, even if we don't know what she is
doing and vy!—And if you have now finished brushing your
hair, Amélie, and it is not at all becoming at your age, the way
you do it; it should be softer round the face, for it is not as
though your nose turned up, no!—we will go downstairs."
... Aunt Amélie was very subdued when they joined the
others. Aunt Elsa, on the contrary, was flushed, and her
bright sloe eyes gleamed triumphantly. In the full sight of
Amélie, she gave Loraine, in passing her, a warm kiss, quickly
and spontaneously returned by Loraine, always ready for
demonstrations of affection from her darling Auntie. And
then Aunt Elsa, with a slightly piratical roll in her walk, crossed
the sun-room to where Richard and Giles, Jeanne-Marie and
her fiancé, stood in a little knot; and cracked one or two
hilarious jokes with Giles on the subject of betrothals—jokes
distinctly Viennese in flavour, which surprised even
Jeanne-Marie; then she pinched them all heartily by the ear, yes
even Count Orlo ... and felt much better. Her knees had
ceased to quake, and she would never fear Amélie again!
But the amazing behaviour of Aunt Elsa was only one item
that contributed to the making of the rest of the day into a
sort of jocund nightmare. Not one of Val's original house-party
was behaving normally, except Loraine, to whom a fitful
and freakish atmosphere was, indeed, normal. Nobody
appeared to sit still for long. Clumps of them rushed from
room to room, in varying and often surprising assortments of
two and three and four; sat down to eat and drink, stood up
again to dance to the gramophone; scampered through the
rain up to Val's studio to see her pictures; scampered down
again, single file, like supers in a cinema: Aunt Lisa, Uncle
Nathan, Aunt Amélie, Val and the Russians, nurse and the
children, Loraine, Camille and Etienne, Richard and
Jeanne-Marie, Giles last of all, limping.
In Uncle Nathan, a mild little man with the upturned,
twisted moustaches falsely attributed to villains, had sprung
up a fervent admiration for Queenie. He had never before
seen anything so beautiful as Queenie; not even his own
daughter, Jeanne-Marie, was as beautiful as Queenie. Queenie's
job, for the afternoon and evening, was mostly an attempt to
collect chairs together—as many chairs as there were people—in
whichever room the visitors happened to be congregated.
And as Uncle Nathan belonged to a chivalrous age, and could
not bear to see so lovely a girl performing low, menial offices
like carrying chairs, he spent his hours rushing along in front
of her to open doors, wrestling with her in an attempt to snatch
a chair from her hands; or, if he were too late, rushing
breathlessly along behind her: "Mais je vous en prie, je vous en
prie-pardon-laissez-moi-it is not right-dear child I am
almost old enough to be your father"—and indeed, Uncle
Nathan, whose eldest child, Camille, was at this time
thirty-seven, was really quite old enough to be Queenie's father!
Val quite simply could not free herself from her attendant
Russians; wherever she moved, the Russians came too. They
said they had discovered in Val a precious sympathy for their
sufferings, and a frankness and courage in the agonising art of
living, which reminded them entirely of their own lost country.
Val was helpless: whatever she did, whatever she said, roused
them to ecstasies—it was so Russian! Finally, she resigned
herself to being a Dostoievsky heroine in spite of herself;
resigned herself to their confidences, which streamed limpidly
on and around her, pouring down upon her head, winding in
coils about her ears, a limpid, ceaseless flow, stark and
shameless....
Giles, whose innate spirit of harlequin perversity flourished
amazingly in surroundings like these, devoted himself to Aunt
Amélie. Even better than confiding in Queenie, was the
bizarre sensation of confiding in Aunt Amélie. As blandly and
as childishly, almost, as one of the Russians, only with a look
in his eyes that betrayed his intent to those who knew him
well, he confided in Aunt Amélie the entire inner history of
his marriage, involving a long sequence of events which had
never taken place; quoting scraps of letters which Toni had
never written him; reviling Loraine, whom he declared had
been the evil genius of his life—Loraine's flicker of a wink at
long-distance range, tested his gravity for an instant! And,
in a grand peroration, he begged Aunt Amélie to act as his
ambassador, and start off instantly for London at his expense,
if she didn't mind travelling third-class in a good cause, and
see his poor wife, and say that if it had not been for that sale
chien of a Montenegrin mackerel, Giles would never have
deserted her... Giles was perhaps going a little too far in
his revelations when he thus implicated Toni, but it was so
difficult to remember that Toni was not actually there, to be
amused by his performance. In the medley of fantastic events
which had made to-day so grotesque, it would hardly have
been surprising to him if he had suddenly caught Toni's eye,
instead of Loraine's, across the room, and solemnly winked at
her. Letting Toni down? Absurd! Of course Toni was
laughing too. Distance was nothing, to-day; and actions which
had gone before, were lying severed from the present moment,
impotent to control it. Cause and effect were a senseless jingle.
Time was a farce, and could be dealt with and demolished, as
disrespectfully as whacking a bald head with a bladder. It was
the world's mistake, hitherto, to treat time solemnly.... He
had not yet married Toni—— He had just seen her in her
yellow dress, beside the duck-pond, sun in her eyes, laughing!
... Leap four-and-a-half years!—What a good time they
had enjoyed! ... Babs, Paul, and Antony.... An unreal
scene about some fool of a fellow called Belworthy, remotely
connected with a firm of dressmakers in Hanover Street....
All dissolved at a touch of the imagination. Nothing was true
except this mad assembly of mad people, cardboard puppets
dressed in tinsel.... Presently, they too would dissolve.
What could be more ridiculous than these persons from the
Russian stage?—the sort of play only highbrows went to,
special performances—Well, and here was a special
performance; only they were related to him, yes, soberly, link by
link, like this—like this, see?—He had met Toni and married
her; and Toni's cousin was Jeanne-Marie, and Jeanne-Marie
was soon to be married to Count Orlo, and Count Orlo had
brought along his father, his uncle, his sister, and his sister's
husband—— Query: how was the husband of the sister of
Count Orlo related to Jimmy? ... Just another link or two,
and there you are! And who was that girl singing French
nursery chansonnettes, acting them so drolly and with such
spirit, to divert the two children—foreign brats!—Who was
the dancing girl? She had Toni's face, only ... That was
Loraine, Loraine Rakonitz. Why, he had done a bolt with
Loraine, eight months ago; left Toni for this girl; and yet
his Aunt-by-marriage Amélie was still his Aunt-by-elopement
Amélie! ... What a silly game! What a damn-fool game!
How cracked we all are! "I must tell Queenie about that!
Queenie'll be shocked": "Oh, Giles!" ... Hullo! and here
was Val in her Chinese coat—in Loraine's Chinese coat. She
had gone and put it on to show the Russians, perhaps; or
because Queenie had been telling Camille, mother of the brats,
how lovely it was; or because Val herself felt crazy and
many-coloured, and found in her coat the symbol of her mood, as a
musician would find it in a burst of what is called modern
music.
The San Remo party were to take the eight-twenty train
home again. Queenie, still in the role of "the only practical
one," had suggested to Val, in a low discreet voice, that there
should be no sit-down early dinner—she had had enough of
carrying chairs about, even with the assistance of infatuated
Uncle Nathan!—but a sort of stand-up supper with drinks
and refreshments, whatever she and Marietta could improvise.
So everybody roamed about, and took what they liked. Two
carriages had been ordered to wait for the party, at the foot
of the mule-track by Villa Bel Respiro, to drive them to the
station. It was now well after seven o'clock; some of the
party were still eating and drinking; some were dancing; the
gramophone was playing the "Julian" tango.
"Ah, these new French tangos, they're no good," cried
Loraine, impatiently; "stiff as pokers, and correct as a Church
Meeting! Put on an old Argentine tango, and we'll show them,
Giles. No, I forgot your foot; but Etienne said he knew the
Argentine tango." So Loraine snatched off "Julian," and
put on "Cup of Sorrow," instead; and she and Etienne
swayed and glided and dipped, their bodies free and pliant, her
hip pressed sinuously against his; while the Russians thoroughly
enjoyed the performance; and Richard thought: "Good
Lord! If I ever saw Molly do that——!"
... Val seemed disturbed about something. Released for
a moment from her troupe of attendant Russians, she had
walked across to Aunt Elsa, asked her advice, showed her...
Aunt Elsa gave a shriek.
—"Loraine!" called Aunt Elsa. "Loraine, stop for a
moment zat nonsense, isn't it, and come and look at zis, and
tell us a little how we had better take it out, quickly. It was
you who rubbed that stain for me—egg and tomato—from my
mauve satin, quite vonderfully. And Val has spilt
somesing—wine, I think—on to her coat."
Aunt Elsa had forgotten, in her agitation, that there had
ever been a certain question of ownership.
Loraine had stopped tangoing at Aunt Elsa's first summons.
She was always ready to help on a question of practical
efficiency, rather proud of her leadership in such incongruous
matters. Val showed her the blemish on the coat—a dark
splash on the cyclamen brocade, and spreading over a plaque
of the embroidery.
"Isn't it a shame? My hand shook. It's that Barolo wine,
I think. I only just noticed it. What am I to do?"
... But Loraine, seeing the stain, had suddenly stiffened.
"You fool!" she accused Val, hoarsely. "You aren't fit to
wear it, spoiling it like this. You big, clumsy fool!"
... A hush fell on the noisy chattering groups round the
room. Unconsciously they fell into a semicircle, their faces
turned towards Loraine and Val, watching the development of
this swift, inexplicable drama. Too late, Aunt Elsa
remembered that she should not have consulted Loraine about the
damage to the coat. With a sinking heart, she waited for the
revelation that must come, now. Loraine was shaking with
temper; she would not be likely to control her tongue, after
her coat, her precious coat, had been violated while worn by
another.
Richard, too, expected that now Loraine must surely divulge
the secret they had all been keeping from Val. He drew nearer.
So did Giles....
"It'll never be perfect again," half sobbed Loraine; and,
with what seemed to Val an absurdly passionate gesture, put
her lips down on the embroidery where the splash of wine had
darkened it, as though she would have protected it, had she
been able, with a barrier of her own flesh. "It was perfect;
it'll never be perfect again."
Val pulled herself away. "A trifle over-excited, aren't
you?" she said, pleasantly. "You'd better run home to bed."
Loraine lifted her head; she could have wept over her coat,
but she enjoyed insulting Val; it was rather a relief from her
pent-up desire, ever since Richard's arrival, to be herself
handling, stroking, wearing that gorgeous creation which Val
had so casually spoilt. "You are the school-girl type," she said,
uttering every word scornfully and distastefully; "you believe
you are an artist, but no artist could have injured such a work
of art. Oh, you'd be all right in tweeds or a 'gym-dress,' or a
nice, simple, white evening frock that you can 'send to the
cleaners'; those are your style. And then you have the cheek
to flaunt about the whole evening wearing my——"
Richard crashed in, just in time. He said anything that
came into his head, however discourteous, which he thought
might divert her fury less perilously from Val to himself:
"Your manners are barbaric, Loraine. Just keep them in
check, or else you needn't bother to come up here again."
He had achieved his purpose.
Loraine flung savagely round on him: "This house was
Heaven before you came into it. I was always happy up here.
You've brought in a dry-rot. Ever since you came, everyone
has turned against me: Val and Aunt Elsa and Stefania and
Terry.... You kept Giles up here, so that he shouldn't be
with me! You've got him over on to your side. Treachery!
Do you think I haven't seen it? I'm not coming here again,
not while you're here."
And with a cry that was partly another sob and partly an
animal choking in rage, she hurled herself over the low window-sill,
and vaulted, arms outstretched in front of her, as though
pushing something away, from terrace to terrace of the garden,
until she disappeared, running through the rain, under the
olives that met over the mule-track.
... Val sighed. "How like Loraine not to have gone
through the door," she murmured.
"Mon Dieu!" exclaimed Aunt Amélie. "Quelle colère!
C'est épouvantable!"
The Russians were all smiling, with animated, childish eyes....
They felt quite at home and comfortable.
"Please, Miss Power, I think I ought to go after Loraine,
and sleep with her to-night. I do, really. She'll make herself
ill over this. She's terribly upset. I think I'll go down, even
if you forbid it," finished Queenie, very bravely.
More melodrama!—"All right, my child; why on earth
should I forbid it? Aunt Amélie, I'm afraid it's time you all
made a move, if you're going to catch that train. Queenie and
Richard will go down, and show you the way. The carriages
ought to be waiting by now."
But Queenie had already started. "Take down some
brandy," Val called after her, "if you think Loraine is likely
to have a heart-attack. She never has any brandy in the house.
And by the way——" she raised her voice, for Loraine's votary
was already half-way down the path, "you might ask Loraine,
when she feels a bit better, what I'm to use to get those stains
out of my coat?"
Queenie came up to breakfast the next morning, big
with importance and secrecy; obviously she was
complacent with the knowledge of being now aware
of something hidden from Val. She patronised Val a little, at
breakfast.
"Loraine's been very ill indeed, all night. I sat up with her."
Val refused to take any but a flippant view of the severe
illness: "Is she coming to lunch to-day, to help eat up
yesterday's supper?"
"No, indeed she isn't." A touch of indignation was audible.
"I'm not sure whether she will ever come to this house again;
not unless—— But I was wondering, Miss Power—I don't
know whether I ought to say it?—but I do believe Loraine
might be brought round, if you were to apologise to her. She's
awfully fond of you, you know."
"My dear Queenie, why should I apologise? Because
Loraine kicked up the devil of a scene in front of a crowd of
relations, over a spot I'd made on my coat?"
"Oh, but——" Queenie began ... and very perceptibly
checked herself.
Aunt Elsa came down to breakfast, just then; and Richard
and Giles strolled in from the garden a minute or two later.
Giles said: "You've put up with me for a long time, Val.
My foot's almost well, so I'd better get down the hill to-day."
"I shouldn't, if I were you," said Val, significantly.
"Loraine's ill."
Giles whistled. "Body of Bacchus! Then I'll stop where
I am for a bit! Anyway, I'm going back to England
soon." Heedless of the sensation he had just caused, he turned to
Queenie: "How's the Martyr of Bel Respiro? Pale, but
forgiving us all with her last breath?"
Queenie lifted her chin to a reproving slant. "I don't think
Val has any right to keep you away from Loraine, just now." It
was the first time she had ever called Val by her Christian name,
but she was a little shaken out of her usual sedate discretion.
"You shall not mix yourself into it, yes?" cried Aunt Elsa.
Richard, who, like Giles and Aunt Elsa, had already guessed
from Queenie's demeanour that now the secret of the coat had
been unleashed for her benefit as well as theirs, and was
consequently in a panic that she might let it re-escape upon Val at
any instant, tried the same tactics with her, as last night with
Loraine: he sought to divert her girlish indignation upon
himself: "Loraine always kicks up ten times more fuss than
anyone else, with fifty times less reason for it," he growled.
"Mr. Marcus, I thought you were abominably rude to
Loraine last night. After all," Queenie went on, very
temperamental and defiant, after her night spent in Loraine's
company, "she was a guest in your cousin's house."
"It would be awfully jolly, Queenie," suggested Val, "if
you were to teach us a few manners. Richard and I are
terrible barbarians, you know; we haven't even learnt the
rudiments of good behaviour."
Queenie subsided for the nonce; she could never cope
deftly with sarcasm. And Aunt Elsa said:
"Mean you zat she is really ill, or zat she is only putting it on?"
"Both," answered Val. "It does make her really ill when
she's unpopular. I know Loraine! She needs popularity as
other people need oxygen; and if she doesn't get it, she'll
slowly lose her strength and sink. It's a queer phenomenon."
Queenie entered the lists again. "Oh, I don't think that's
generous of you, Miss Power, and I don't believe you understand
Loraine at all; really I don't. She's not a bit easy to
understand, but I promised her I would do my best. You see——"
"Thank you, Queenie. I don't need you to explain Loraine
to me."
Queenie flushed a dull, resentful red; she was of the type
that takes offence slowly but thoroughly. "Loraine is being
very kind to you, really," she began.
Richard got up abruptly and walked away to the window.
He realised that he could not push back the secret any longer,
now that it was fairly leaping from Queenie's tongue. Aunt
Elsa looked at Giles. He shrugged his shoulders. It had better
come now.
"Loraine's often been kind to me," replied Val. "Really,
Queenie, Loraine and I agree excellently, and that's why I so
hate this gaudy, picturesque, wounded-animal-at-bay business."
But Queenie, still smarting under the public snub she had
received, said: "You never give Loraine credit for anything.
She can do—noble things."
"Ach! Richard!" gasped Aunt Elsa.
Richard drummed with his knuckles on the window-ledge.
"Go on, Queenie, spit it out and get it over!"
"Get what over?" asked Val, surprised at the nervous
edge on his voice.
"All right, I will. You all sit on me because you think I'm
a fool, and you are all beastly to Loraine. You even try to get
Giles away from her, and the whole time it's her coat!" Queenie
sprang up from her seat and turned her face, with its
facile pink-and-white, full in Val's direction, so as not to miss
anything of her expression. "The Chinese coat that you're
so proud of—it's Loraine's. Mr. Greenways meant it for
Loraine. He sent it out to her and not to you, because he
was secretly in love with her. It was 'a message painted in
silk.' Loraine knew at once that your cousin had made a mistake
when he handed it to you, only she was too fine to say
anything. She wouldn't say anything now, even though you have
turned her out of the house.... I expect you'll be furious
with me, but I don't care. I like justice!" finished Queenie.
And waited for the skies to burst.
"Well, and so do I, of course," said Val, very cheerfully.
And the two men silently applauded. "And if the present is
meant for Loraine, she must have it, though still I don't see
what all the wow-wowing was about. I'll run down with it
after lunch, but I must get some work done first." And she
sauntered out into the garden, and up the path towards her
studio.
Queenie looked disappointed. "She didn't seem to mind
a bit!"
"You expected her to start spitting and fuming like your
pal, the Queen of the Tiger-cats, didn't you?" queried Richard,
to whom championship of Val had lent sudden and quite
effective eloquence. Deeply troubled, he followed Val out
of the dining-room.
"Now you, Queenie, go and do some work perhaps, yes?" Aunt
Elsa was nearly weeping, but still vituperative; "and
not be always running down and up, down and up, down and
up the hill, making mischief."
Queenie was nearly crying, too. She suddenly felt very
young, and wanted England and Potley Green and her mother
and her nice friends at Potley Green Tennis Club. Her moral
digestion, having been fed almost entirely on cold mutton and
rice pudding, was not equal to all this pâté-de-foie-gras and
truffles. And she had thought it would be so lovely to see
"abroad." "I promised Loraine I'd come down again this
morning," she blubbered.
"Then you have nemis promised her." Aunt Elsa dropped
into a land of idiom whither Queenie could not follow. "You
sink yourself very clever and pretty, isn't it? And you are
nossing, nossing but a stupid goose and a fressack and a
meesnick-in-Prague, and I am sorry, terribly sorry for the man who
marries you, if he ever does which I sink he von't. And now
go to your room, and do, for Heaven's sake, try and be a little
bit useful with all zat appetite you have; for I see myself, wiz
my own eyes, that even zis morning you eat more bacon than
anyvon; and I should sink not your first breakfast either; I
should sink from vot I know of you zat you take good care you
have one before you come up the hill. And all ze curtains and
ze bed-covers can be taken down and vashed, and ze rings put
back. I have said it for ze last fortnight. To-day I mean it
shall be done, if I have to trot after you and tell you all ze
time. Du Himmel! One would sink you were an ornament
and a princess, teaching us all our vays and manners! Now you
stop looking at me like a sack of macaroni! Once you have let
ze poker out of ze pig, you cannot put it back!"
—"Per piacere, Signorina," said Stefania, coming in at that
opportune moment for Queenie, who was too stunned by Aunt
Elsa's outburst to have escaped of her own accord. "Per
piacere, Signorina, Marietta does not know what to say to the
stiratrice who has spoilt one of the Signore's English shirts
when ironing it. She is here just now."
"Let her off lightly," Giles called after the departing
Queenie. "As I was the signore who owned the shirts, I don't
feel inclined to prosecute!" He turned to Aunt Elsa, now
crying briskly and with immense gusto. "I say, you did let
fly! It was great! I wish I could have taken it down!" Then,
as Aunt Elsa's hysterical grief did not abate—grief
compounded of sorrow for Val, wrath at Queenie, and reaction
after yesterday's valorous combat with Aunt Amélie—Giles
came and sat beside her, on the arm of the big chair; and
without embarrassment, or any other of the usual soul-hindrances
of young ex-officers brought up in the atmosphere of English
public-school and country-house, he set himself to the task of
comforting her. Most amazingly did he comfort her...
* * * * * * *
Richard stood at the door of the studio. "Good old Val!"
he said, finding her coolly occupied with the finishing touches
to a characteristic portrait of Ettore and Vanna—a simple
couple who kept a comestibile shop down in San Goffredo.
She had been at work on this, off and on, before the inspiration
of the Chinese coat had caused her to fling it aside. "Good
old Val!"
She gave him the ghost of her own ironic smile. "How
long have you known, Richard?"
"About ten days."
"Loraine told you?"
"Yes."
"Has she told Aunt Elsa too?"
"Yes."
"And Giles?"
"Yes."
"Anyone else?"
"A lot of Italian riff-raff!"
"You all let me make a pretty fool of myself, didn't you,
swanking about in Loraine's Chinese coat? Why, I refused
to let her wear it to be painted in—her own coat! Loraine
was really rather generous—she spared me, then."
"Sorry, dear"; he was too inarticulate to express that
thickness in his throat, which rose at sight of her cynical
gallantry; "it was I who was the fool, making such a blunder.
I don't quite know how to get it right again without hurting
you. As for Queenie——"
"Oh, Queenie doesn't count," said Val contemptuously;
"but I'm afraid there will be a reckoning with Loraine."
It was with the full consciousness of such a reckoning impending,
that she sauntered down the mule-track, a few hours later,
with the coat over her arm. The front door was opened by
Manuela. The servant's hard, intelligent eyes gleamed at the
coat, and then gleamed oddly at Val.
"My poor little Signorina is ill," she said. "I do not know
what happened at your festa last night, but she came home
very ill; all night I sat up with her, la povera bambina. It was
not necessary that that other one, that young Signorina with
the fair hair, should come down to nurse her; I alone would
have been enough; I who am practical for illnesses of the
heart. But what you have brought there will do her good; it
is better than medicine for one who has a temperament like
my Signorina, whom I love as if she were my own child."
"Damn the woman!" thought Val; "then she knows all
about it, too. How Loraine must have let her emotions rip,
in the night!" And in spite of the ache that shook her almost
unbearably every time she thought of Stephen Greenways, she
could not refrain from a little mischievous smile, imagining what
her cousin's star night must have been like, with Manuela and
Queenie as combined audience, ministering angels, and chorus.
Loraine was lying as Val had anticipated, remembering
previous minor collapses: a still, white little figure in a white
nightgown in a white bed; her mournful, uneven eyes, and
the flat, wooden line of light brown hair, the only touches of
colour. Her face was like a sorrowful goblin's.
"Here's your coat, Loraine," said Val, very gently.
She did not look at the coat for quite a long time after
Val had gone, but kept her head turned towards the
window, where the dim softness of a rainy day blurred
the silvery foliage of the olives, and the sea beyond. Thus she
lay, tantalising herself. It was good to know that behind her
in the room, broadly spread over two pegs in the wall where
Val had hung it, was all that richness of colour; good to know
that when she arose from her bed, now that she felt the strength
rushing back in her veins, she could feast upon it at her leisure,
as she had always wanted to do; learn to know apart the tiny
brilliant butterflies; learn to know her coat ... her coat, now.
Slowly, luxuriously, she dragged her eyes away from the world
outside, turned on her back, hands clasped behind her head,
and looked at the garment. Yes, it was even more of a miracle
than she had imagined. Loraine stretched her limbs, and
uttered a low sound that might have been a purr of content.
How happy she was going to be, onwards into the next day,
and the next, for ever after. Val had been such a darling! No
need to quarrel with Val, in the future; between them was
that subtle and elastic understanding that could be stretched
and stretched, but never snapped; for always it sprang back
again to perfection. Val had behaved so beautifully over the
coat, and everyone up at the cottage would begin loving
Loraine once more.... Now that her nervous, flamboyant
mood had been smoothed down again to restfulness and charm,
she already loved them all.... Aunt Elsa and Richard—oh,
she could easily make it up with Richard; he had said brutal
things, but she liked men to be frank.... And Queenie?
Queenie had made mischief, of course Queenie must learn
not to be a mischief-maker, but at least she had been very loyal
to Loraine.... Stefania and Terry.... All loving her again....
A fold of the coat was turned back, showing the vivid green
silk with which it was lined. It lay so boldly against the
wonderful anemone pink, that Loraine's heart shivered with the
poignancy of her appreciation. How glorious it was to love
her friends, and be loved still more in return, and to own such
a coat....
Oh indeed, she felt very much stronger. She had been so
ill this morning; the blood seemed to drag through her veins
reluctantly; now they were filling like a stream into which
the rain has poured; and like the stream, it sang little songs
through her body ... lilting, dancing along. Presently she
would get up, and dress, and put on the coat, and go out, so
that people should see her in it, and be glad because of it, as
she was glad....
Presently. There was no hurry.
And then, quite suddenly, as though some elusive influence
passing outside had given her memory a sharp tug, she let
herself think of Stephen Greenways....
The coat was, after all, only a symbol of the richness and
rareness of the romance which had inspired the sending. She
was tired of the dull hues of ordinary love-making. Stephen
would be different. He would transfuse into her life the same
exotic tints as that coat, by simply hanging there, had showered
into the room. Far away, where little yellow men worked
with coloured silks, love was like that all the time, and Stephen
was bringing it to her, this brilliant enchantment. He had
sent her a message painted in silk. Soon, perhaps, he would
send her a letter, written in words that were a further spell to
illuminate the commonplace day. And after that ... he
would come himself.
So real for the moment was the expectation she had conjured
up, that she actually started forward, sure of seeing Stephen,
when the door was cautiously opened....
But it was Manuela, with a glass of hot milk. The servant
scrutinised her mistress closely; then she looked at the coat;
then back at Loraine—and her smile was satisfied.
"E bella, n'é?"
Manuela nodded, raising her hands to express in gesture the
admiration for which her tongue was inadequate; then she
sat down on the end of the bed. She told Loraine over and
over again how like an angel the signorina would look in that
coat; how the citizens of San Goffredo would run and stare,
and afterwards for many years tell each other about the
beautiful English signorina in the Chinese coat; and above
all, how the cavalieri would all become infatuated and fall at
her feet, and die, and stab themselves.... "It is the English
signore who sent it to you because he is mad for love, is it not
so, my signorina? The Signorina Val, she stole it from you;
she was wicked, but now she repents and brings it back."
Loraine corrected her, carelessly: "You must not speak so
of the Signorina Val, Manuela. She did not willingly steal it.
It was a mistake."
"I once knew of a mistake; it was cosi: two women there
were, and one man..." She sat for a long time beside
Loraine, gossiping, softly, maliciously, happily, about the
enemies of the signorina; or, with just that typical lewdness
in her manner, of the lovers of the signorina, and all the
gaieties of intrigue.
Finally, Manuela said: "An English signore arrived here
at San Goffredo, not two hours ago. I think it must be the
same.... Luigi saw him at the station, and heard him speak
to the station-master; and then he passed here on his way up
the hill."
The swift association of ideas sent Loraine's eyes flying to
the coat. Stephen! ... It must be Stephen!
"You should have told me before, Manuela."
"Mà!" The servant was delighted; "it is he! I can
see it by the Signorina's smile and the softness of her eyes;
but how could I know? He went up the hill. If a man desires
hotly, he comes straight to the house of the beloved one, and
tells her of his desire."
"But Manuela, see, the lover's road is not always straight;
sometimes it seems to lead away, and it curves, and it returns
again. For the sake of courtesy he must make pretence that his
visit is to the Signorina Val, in whose house he enjoyed hospitality
last time he was here. Presently, later on..." Loraine's
voice grew dreamy... "later on, he will come down here to
visit me.... So I will rest first, and then I will feel stronger,
and rise and dress and wear his gift. But ... hush, Manuela!
You will remember?" She put her fingers to her lips, enjoining
silence, and Manuela nodded several times; while her
discreet and yet jocund look was a dig in the ribs and at the
same time a blessing. Still in the atmosphere of conspiracy,
she tiptoed from the room.
... Stephen had come. Yielding herself to the hypnotic
sway of the coat that hung on her wall opposite the bed,
Loraine lay luxuriously planning the future as though she
were in no hurry to savour reality.
... Still with those indolent, englamoured movements, she
presently rose, and made her toilet; the drizzle of rain had
stopped, and she could see, by the reflection over the water,
that the westerly clouds had split and were barring a sky of
tender green and primrose.
She put on the coat, for the first time.
Then she went to the window, and looked out. She looked
up the terraced hill, to where, on the left from Val's cottage,
the olives parted and made a gap against the sky. There, the
sun had just dipped...
Outside the gate of Bel Respiro, Val met Lola with
the afternoon post, and Terry. Terry was plainly
meditating a visit to Loraine; and Val, once his idol,
politely held open the gate for him to pass through. Then she
took the letters and a few journals from England out of Lola's
hand, and went slowly up the hill towards her home.
She felt depleted.
When she had first heard from Queenie that Stephen had
sent the coat to Loraine, and not to her, her first thought was
at all costs to prevent a scene; to handle the affair lightly;
not to let Loraine see that it mattered to her, beyond the
material loss of a charming and expensive present. She had
succeeded in these aims, but the effort had left her emotionally
ruined and bankrupt. She was quite certain, she had been
certain all along, that Stephen's present was significant only as
a herald is significant, because he announces his master. If
Stephen had sent her the coat, it had meant, viewed straightforwardly
and without false diffidence, that Stephen cared for
her, and that Stephen himself would be following soon. Stephen
had sent Loraine the coat; well, it meant the same thing;
only the direction was altered. She did not hate Loraine; she
hated herself, the unconscious buffoon of this episode....
For naturally she had written to Stephen to thank him; and—this
is where shame stole in and burnt her cheeks and scalded
her throat—she had, in her frank manner, detesting veiled
allusions and mystery and pretended modesty, let him read in
this letter that she expected him to arrive soon, and would be
glad for him to come. She had gone on to say, in typical
Val-fashion, rather emphasised because of her recoil from all the
Loraine tricks of intrigue and delicate complication: "I'd
rather like you to know this, Stephen; it might save us a
difficult interview if I say it now: I've led the sort of life
which I consider more or less all right, but which, according
to Puritanical standards, would be considered all wrong. I'm
not the sort of woman who debates, in a perpetual agony of
indecision, through four hundred pages of a novel, and three
acts of a drama, whether she should tell or should not tell, and
goes on nagging the problem for years; because I don't think
it's a problem that matters, not to that extent, anyway! I've
never wanted to flap my private life, like a red flag, in people's
faces; it's undignified, and not worth while. But I might as
well be telling you now, because you might have strong views
on that subject. To some men, I know, it makes all the difference
in the world—in fact, the difference has astonished me.
I simply can't guess whether their sense of proportion has gone
to pot, or mine? ... I feel perfectly sane and happy, but
this may be a delusion. I may be utterly miserable and
hopeless; I may be wrung, tormented with the desire to atone; I
may be, but it doesn't feel like it: the sun shines out here more
often than not, and I'm keen on my work—both good things!
Don't imagine I'm doing anything so Sardou-ish and overwrought
as Confessing my Past; I'm just mentioning it, so
there you are!——"
She had written all this to Stephen ... and there had been
absolutely no need for it. He simply did not care a tinker's
curse whether she were good or bad; pure, or steeped in
cherry-coloured sin! Val had to clench her fists hard while
she imagined Stephen's amazement on reading that letter;
imagined him wondering how chivalrously—for he was a decent
type of man—he could cover up her blunder without too
deeply humiliating her. There had hardly been time, as yet,
for her to receive his answer. Probably he would ask Loraine's
permission to pretend that he had all along meant the coat for
Val; probably he and Loraine would be able to afford this
kindness to a beggar.... "And I can't even work!" cried
Val to the unresponsive olives. That had been mere bravado,
this morning, using paint and brushes on an old portrait of
Vanna and Ettore. The picture she had wanted to paint, the
one in which Loraine had pleaded in vain to sit as model—that
could never be finished now, lacking the Chinese coat.
Finished? It was hardly begun. "Oh Lord!" said Val,
slowly, "what the hell am I to do?" ... And here was home,
full of people who were sorry for her. Reluctantly she pushed
open the dining-room door; only Giles was there, sunk in
one of the big arm-chairs in front of the fire.
"Where's everybody?" asked Val, listlessly. "Here, do
you want to see the papers?" She handed him the rolled-up
copies of the Onlooker, and one or two others.
"Aunt Elsa has gone to bed," said Giles, "overcome by the
too-powerful violet rays that were in the air yesterday and
to-day! Queenie, I think, is writing a long, long letter to her
mother—I'll see if I can steam it open before it goes to the
post; it ought to be worth reading! And Richard, with a
strong man's oath, has taken Mac out for a good long tramp
over the hills—the kind of tramp that you're so keen on, Val!" He
eyed her keenly. "Up to the neck, aren't we, Val, you and
I? You're putting up a good show, though. I take off my
hat to you."
Val's acknowledging smile was a little weary; but she was
too raw to stop and discuss what had happened, even with
Giles; so she left him, and went out to the solitude of the
studio.
Giles had nothing else handy to read, so he opened the
Onlooker; but he knew already, more or less, what he was
going to find in it. Such daily papers as came through to San
Goffredo had already told him that; and all the exuberant
letters from exuberant theatre-goers, which Val and Queenie
had been receiving from England this past week. Colin on the
front page, Colin on the back page; interviews with Colin and
special articles on Colin; photographs in every conceivable
position; in every conceivable scene of his new play; Colin
Martial with the Vauxhall racing model he bought yesterday,
and the Rolls-Royce he meant to buy to-morrow. Colin
Martial, London's Idol, Darling of the Gods, Our New
Dramatist, Not-Yet-Twenty-Five; seen at the Fifty-Fifty,
seen at the Embassy, seen at the Kit-Cat, at Giro's ... in
fact, there hardly seemed to be a moment of the day or night
when Colin was not seen! Already, cigarettes and restaurant
dishes were being named after Colin. He had made such a
splash as a whole Heavenly Host might have made, falling into
the middle of the Pacific Ocean. Every thirty or forty years,
it happens that young ambition achieves a dramatic success
of this nature; once it begins, it cannot stop; as at a
unanimous touch, all the fame-bells are set ringing; all
the paper lying about catches fire; all tongues chatter the
same name; all the sheep of fashion run hustling, pattering,
crowding into one narrow alley, hardly knowing why they run.
Colin Martial was twenty-four and eleven months when his
comedy "She Burnt Her Boats" was tentatively put on in
London, with himself and Lucilla Danby in the two leading
parts. He had explained in an engaging interview, the day
after, that the title had actually been "She Burnt Her Boots"
... but that he and Miss Danby had decided that it would be
unlucky to correct the misprint in the preliminary announcements.
This radiant sort of fooling with the Gentlemen of
the Press, was typically Colin. Stuffed away in a drawer,
awaiting their propitious hour, Colin had four or five other
plays as yet unproduced. Now, managers were, so the papers
reported, "fighting" for them.... Giles had a fantastic
vision of several middle-aged and glossy gentlemen with silk
hats, their foreheads spangled with sweat, lungeing violently
at each other with umbrellas, while Colin stood by, with that
faun-like smile which Giles knew so well—it was much more a
matter of the eye-brows than mouth. He and Colin Martial
had been good friends in London, during the protracted
carnival years which followed their meeting in the last month
of the War. They had both been at the high tip of popularity
in their set; both amazingly good dancers; both in possession
of unflagging high spirits. Giles was no less witty than Colin,
though his style was lazier; and Colin never allowed any of
his own numerous adversities to act as an extinguisher. Giles
remembered, now, looking at the frontispiece of this week's
Onlooker, headed "The Most Talked of Young Man in
London," how Colin used to solace himself over any set-back,
by rushing round to the studio, to plan, with a chubby relish
that destroyed any sort of ghoul-like effect, how he was going
to "do in" such and such an enemy; and eventually reduce
the whole lot, by his staggering triumphs, to a state of abject
and imploring pulp!
... But it was incredibly like the simplest fairy-tale that
it should actually have happened like that. Giles could imagine,
knowing his friend so well, just how gloriously Colin was
enjoying himself, and with what appreciation of detail; no
jargon of dust-and-ashes, no affectation of "dead-sea-fruit"
and the hollowness of success, for Colin; grapes tasted like
grapes to him; and cheers were cheers, not empty plaudits.
He had been recalled fourteen times, that first night of "She
Burnt Her Boats"; and when he had at least expected the
critics to be sour or caustic on the subject of too-easy success,
the majority of these, too, were enthusiastic. As for gold,
it must have been pouring in like the spring tides, from north,
south, east, and west; showering down with the surprising
bounty of tropical rains; thrown up as from hidden springs
and fountains. Lucky Colin! Prince of Luck! Fortunatus!
Holder of the magic end of the wish-bone! Dreamer whose
dreams came true.... Giles murmured Kipling's lines,
finding in them that queer solace which comes to the indolent
man when a poet has fitted his mood with a perfect
phrase:
"Drawbridge let fall, it's the Lord of us all,
The Dreamer, whose dreams came true."
... They singled out Colin, now, like a flash of summer
lightning. Colin had never longed for more than this which
had just been given him. His present success encircled the
whole space of his dreams as with a ring of rubies.
And yet—"Dreamer whose dreams came true"—Giles had
always imagined him older, more battered than Colin; and
without Colin's confident, springing impudence ... The long,
burnished slope led straight to the castle now, after it had
looped and led away again for so many maddening years. All
the malicious elfin host were pressed in panic against the walls
and battlements.... Here was the real dreamer at last, and
they had to yield:
"I'll not fight with the herald of God!
I know what his master can do..."
But he was tired, tired; he walked slowly, and his eyes were
dazed and incredulous. There was neither pomp nor arrogance
about this lonely figure on the long burnished slope till now
untrodden. Surely he could hardly have realised that he was
a conqueror?
"... Open the gate, he must enter in state..."
Reluctantly the great doors were rolled back.... Giles leant
forward to peer at the face of the dreamer. Breathless, half
terrified, and in awe, he recognised it. His own face, as he had
always known it must be! Though not yet his own face; this
Giles was much, much older; more exhausted; so worn-out
by the fight that he trailed nearer and still nearer to the dancing
glitter of the castle walls in front of him, without ever seeing
that he had arrived....
But what damned silliness! His own face? And when had
man ever been further from dreams-come-true? It was Colin,
Colin, Colin Martial for whom the drawbridge had been
lowered; for him the gates were opened. Giles railed scornfully
at his own despicable, fatuous, self-deluded vanity, which
made him, even now, confronted with the unimportance of
his existence, yet try to drag himself, harnessed to a tawdry
allegory like a chariot borrowed from the Lord Mayor's Show,
into the lit streets where the cheering was.
He slowly turned the pages of the Onlooker, seeking for
distraction, and knowing he would not find it. Colin was
ubiquitous; Colin was everywhere. The editor of the Onlooker,
like, probably, every other editor in London, had got Colin on
the brain ...
In Venice, in a gondola, Giles had said to Toni: "I'd love
to stand in front of a cheering, raving, hectically applauding
crowd, all because of me; just for a moment focussing the
sensation I'd won; drinking it in. I don't know for what, though;
and it doesn't really matter..." Toni had been amazed,
almost shocked; she had called his ambition "cheap"—and,
laughing, he had admitted it. So, with the thought of Toni,
and idly turning over another page, he came to "Rosalie's"
weekly article on "Fashions of the Hour"—and learnt that
the firm of "Toni's," of Hanover Street, had designed Lucilla
Danby's truly marvellous toilettes in "She Burnt Her Boats." Lucilla
Danby had a reputation for smartness. And "Toni's"—or
Toni, if you like!—had certainly created a sensation by
the originality and daring of their designs.
In fact, "Toni's"—or Toni, if you like!—was sharing in the
fun, too. Toni was on the pinnacle, hand in hand with Colin;
not quite so dizzy a pinnacle, perhaps, but good enough. Toni
also would be sought after, congratulated, in the thick of it....
Giles closed the Onlooker, and let it slide from his knees. He
knew now that he was jealous; jealous of Colin, of Toni, of
both, over in London. He was sorry ... for he despised
jealousy; he could mock at himself for being jealous, but he
could not deny it. Here he was, in Italy, rather sick and
out-in-the-cold—a very futile sort of man, with nothing to do and
nothing done.
And his foot ached.... This additional trifle aggravated
the sense of failure. Colin Martial had all the glory and the
fun and the riches—and two feet that, presumably, did not
hurt him with a single twinge. It was only when you were
down-and-out, reflected Giles, unreasonably, that you sprained
your ankle. Colin could dance ... with Toni. They would
be pointed out, excitedly: "Look—that's them! Look!"
... "If I'd been in London, they might, perhaps, have
allowed me to help shift a bit of scenery, now and then!"
... For what else could he do? Out of it all, yes—but Colin and
Toni had each their special job. You can't manufacture glory
with hot air and gas as the sole ingredients.
He had made a mistake. He had been a fool. Of his own
accord he had left it all. He was down among the dead men
... there were no lights, no saxophones, down among the
dead men!
What sort of new steps were they dancing now? Would he
be able to do them, again? He would have to submit humbly
to be taught ... and by that time they would have swung on
to something else. Colin composed music, too, and songs;
Colin's fox-trots would be played and danced to, now, wherever
you went in London.... "Varasdin" was a pretty useful
fox-trot—yes! Giles was still ahead of them all, with that; it
would not yet have reached there; he had seen in the papers
no mention of "Gräfin Maritza" coming to England. The
rhythm of "Varasdin" jerked its way through his brain again,
less and less jauntily ... dragging along at the pace of a funeral
march....
... Toni was quite complete without him, since this had
happened. He had meant to go back, but he would only be
in the way. She had her success. People were anxious to
catch Toni as she passed, and make her join them—gay, careless
Toni, screwing up her deep blue eyes with laughter. He could
not go back now; he might have gone back before; but now
it would look as though he were the sort of rotter who kept
away only until it were worth his while to repent.
... Giles lay there in the arm-chair in front of the fire, in
Val's cottage in Italy. Italy was a beautiful, warm country;
and the sun was fading the flames, as it sank softly towards the
line of hills along the west. He lay there, with the Onlooker at
his feet; and he was home-sick ... he was drenched in his
sickness for home, and the taste in his mouth was salt with it....
—Suddenly he heard the front door flung violently open.
Then the door of the dining-room. A man in a heavy overcoat
entered impetuously, dumped down a suit-case, looked round
the room, his eyes dismissing Giles as an object of very minor
importance.
"Hullo, Greenways! You?"
"Where's Val?" demanded Stephen Greenways.
"Up in the studio, at the back. You know your way, don't
you?"
"Yes. See you presently." Greenways strode across the
room towards the door which led into the garden.
"It doesn't much matter if you don't," murmured Giles.
Then he roused himself: "Look here, Greenways——"—the
other man stopped impatiently—"that Chinese coat you sent
out here——"
"Well?"
"Did you mean it for Val?"
"Whom the hell else should I mean it for?" said Stephen
Greenways, simply. And he disappeared up the garden path.
"And so Val's all right, too," murmured Giles, but not
bitterly now. Kindness was reasserting itself. Rather Colin
to have leapt the moon and caught the sun between his palms,
than some greedy and unhumorous bloke, with no quicksilver
in his veins nor generosity in his spirit. Colin, at least, would
never grow inflated with the contemplation of Colin! And as
Colin was all right, that young Mercury, and ... Toni was
all right, and Val was all right, and Stephen!—Well, Giles
wasn't going to be a growling, surly, misanthropic sort of bear.
It was not a bad proportion of people, any old way, to be all
right, even if he did not happen himself to figure among them.
He rose, and stretched his limbs, smiling at the thought of the
scene that was certainly going on, at present, up in the
studio—scene dabbled all over with silver and vermilion, like some
glowing page of illumination. He was damned glad for Val.
Val had been awfully decent to him and Loraine....
And as he thought of Loraine, Queenie came tripping into
the room, carrying a letter.
Queenie had washed her pretty face, and bathed the red
rims of her pretty eyes, and done her pretty smooth hair very
becomingly, and had chosen to put on a pretty white frock;
all of which had, somehow, a demurely reproachful air about
it. She was feeling much better.
"Has Lola gone to the post, yet, with the afternoon letters,
do you know?" she asked of Giles. And he answered,
mendaciously:
"Yes, I'm sure she has; I heard her going down." For he
saw that Queenie was holding a bulging, fat envelope in her
hand; and he still hoped for a chance of relishing some of its
contents.
"I've been writing to Mother," said Queenie. "It does do
one good, you know, when one has a fit of the mopes, to pour
it out to someone who understands. I expect it's quite likely
that Mummie will send me a telegram to come straight home,
after she has read my letter; because, though I didn't want to
upset her, I had to tell her a little bit how I had been treated:
for I do think, don't you, Giles, that Mrs. Rakonitz was very
unfair in all she said this morning—in fact, she was more than
unfair; I think she was a little bit vulgar; and nothing
would worry Mother more than thinking I was with vulgar
people."
"What makes you think our Aunt Elsa vulgar?" Giles
asked, sympathetically. Truth to tell, he had thought that
Queenie had been made to suffer rather unnecessarily from
Aunt Elsa's overwrought nerves and fluent oratory.
"Well, I mean all that she said about my appetite. One
doesn't talk about people's appetites, in front of other people,
and making it seem as though I ate more than my help was
worth to Val!—It made me terribly uncomfortable. Besides,
I'm not fatter; I think I'm thinner lately. And—oh, lots of
things she said. Of course, she's foreign—one has to make
allowances for that!—but it doesn't follow at all that foreigners
need be vulgar because they're foreign. I've known most
awfully sweet foreigners. In fact, when they are refined and
polite, they're sometimes better than us."
Suddenly and earnestly, she delivered herself of a load of
perplexity: "Sometimes, you know, I don't understand them
a bit in this house. Do you? Don't you think them
rather—odd, sometimes? Even rather loose?"
"It depends what you mean by loose."
Queenie could not explain. She just knew her neat little
code of right and wrong: "There's no harm in flirting." "Of
course God sees us." "As long as one remains really
good." "One is only young once, that's what I say." But
morals, here, were juggled so skilfully; so criticised and
manhandled; made to stand on their heads; pulled to pieces and
put in a corner. Queenie was laughed at when she had said
nothing funny. Her ethics were rejected, found wanting, by
a code that seemed, according to Potley Green, to have no
sense in it. Finally, she had to take refuge in the notion that
she alone had any steady ideas at all of virtue, humour, or
politeness. It was to Queenie's credit that she had tried very
hard to remain polite and patient; not to answer back; to
be helpful and deferential to the aged; she had strongly
impressed the new English chaplain when he called for the
first time at Val's cottage, by her undoubted influence for good,
in this abode of the heathen and infidel. It was the easier for
Queenie to keep on trying, because she was unwaveringly sure
that she would have her reward elsewhere.
—"But I do think she's a bad-tempered old beast!" cried
Queenie, reverting to Aunt Elsa, and the scene of the morning.
"She's jealous of me because I'm young."—Giles raised one
eyebrow, quizzically; he didn't agree that Aunt Elsa was
jealous of Queenie—— "She's always trying to get me out of
the house; always rubbing it into Val that I'm no good at
housekeeping. It's rather insulting to Mummie, in a way;
because, although she wasn't brought up in a Viennese kitchen,
she's a very clever manager indeed. They all say so, in Potley
Green. And we keep our servants almost longer than anyone.
And I expect hers were always giving notice—spiteful old cat!
I'm awfully silly, of course, to let her depress me by anything
she says; and I'll take a cup of tea up to her room presently,
because I think one ought to rise above things, don't you?
But somehow I felt that this morning was just the last straw,
especially after the night we had had—Manuela and I—sitting
up with Loveliest."
"I've had a fit of the hump, too," said Giles, in that state of
genial intimacy which both Val and Loraine had so sternly
forbidden him, on the ground that it was bad for Queenie.
She eyed him with concern. "Oh, why?" she asked. "I
do wish you wouldn't. It does bother me so."
"It's awfully nice of you to care, Queenie." ... He
resisted the temptation to state pathetically that his own mother
was dead as a sentimentality too lush even for Queenie's
consumption. Instead, he said: "Did you know that
Stephen Greenways had come?"
"What!" cried Queenie. "Oh, where? Oh, he hasn't,
has he? Oh, when? Have you seen him? What did he say?
Where is he now? Down the hill with Loveliest?" This, of
course, accounted for Giles' despondency, if Greenways were
down with Loveliest!
"On the contrary, up the hill with Val."
"With Val?"
Giles nodded. "Loraine's story was a fantasy, Queenie. I
don't suppose she meant to make it all up. But Greenways'
romance with her never existed except in her own brain. It
was a piece of gorgeous, ornate embroidery, like the coat itself....
And all that we've been hiding and whispering about and
worrying over; and the taking sides, evidence and clues
and secrets, the sacrifices and the revelations and the rest
of it—those were equivalent to the silk butterflies, the birds
with scarlet beaks, the rainbows, and the silvery herons, and
the thousand tiny stitches in the petals of a Chinese blossom." He
took some joy in elaborating his metaphor, seeing that
Queenie had paid it the compliment of her Church-and-the-Best-Poetry
face of attention. "Well——" he dismissed it, "a
feverish dream of Loraine's, and we were drawn in ... every
one of us. Now it's just shrivelled to nothing. Greenways
sent the coat to Val; he'd get a bit of a shock if he knew what
had been going on about it."
"Then," gasped Queenie, "you must go straight down to
Loveliest, of course. How lucky that your foot is well enough!"
"Ain't it?" said Giles, without emotion. "Must I go
down just now, Queenie? Why? Won't you do, instead? I
don't like being a messenger of evil tidings. They always
killed them, in ancient history, you know."
"Sometimes," Queenie said, very puzzled and intent,
"sometimes I can't understand you—I mean, not so well as at
other times."
"Ah!" said Giles. "Is this sometimes, or one of the other
times?"
Queenie went on: "You must see that you would be more
good than I—me, I mean—to Loveliest, just now, when she's
having to give up Stephen."
Giles wanted to contend, fractiously, that Loraine could not
give up that which had never been in her possession; but
it was not his habit to argue logically with Queenie. He
preferred to shake her into manifestations of "pricelessness"!
"Well, it's rather a pity," he said, with that unworthy object
in view, "that you think I ought to stay with Loraine,
because I was just thinking of taking the next train back to
England."
"What!" cried Queenie. "What! To England? Oh, but
you're not! You mustn't! You weren't! How callous of
you!"
"I've got a wife in England, and three children. You've
been taught morals, Queenie. Isn't it right that a penitent
man should return to his wife?"
Queenie wriggled.... She was flattered that Giles should
have set her up as the angel at his cross-roads; but what a
responsibility! A girl can do so much.... She fenced for
time before giving the decision which would settle him one
way or another. "What made you want to go back, so
suddenly? Is she ill?"
"She's quite too flamboyantly well, I should think." He
picked up the Onlooker, and flicked the pages rapidly.
"Oh!" cried Queenie, over his shoulder, two or three times.
"Isn't that Colin Martial? Oh, there's one of Colin! That's
Colin Martial, too, isn't it? Isn't he fascinating and
attractive? I do so love his smile."
"Here!" Giles pointed out to her "Rosalie's" Fashion
Article.
Queenie read it, much impressed by Toni's share in London's
theatrical sensation of the hour. She could not quite make up
her mind whether it were etiquette or not, to congratulate
Giles. "But I don't think," said Queenie, clinging to the
special line on which she hung out her ethical washing, "I
don't think you ought to go back; not yet, anyhow; not till
you yourself have done something rather Big to bring to your
wife; something to justify yourself."
"That's a difficult measurement," Giles contended. "Just
how Big will something have to be, before it justifies myself?"
"You must judge of that," Queenie said, looking at him with
clear, straight eyes. "No one can live another man's life for
him, you know! 'One by one we must all file on through the
narrow aisles of pain'—I don't really like Ella Wheeler Wilcox,
though I used to once—I feel I've rather grown beyond her;
but it does seem to me that she has got hold of a deep truth in
that, don't you think? But you must be tremendously glad,
Giles, that your wife has done so well."
Giles forgot that he was talking to Queenie, and lapsed into
honesty. "I'd be a hell of a lot gladder if I'd done it, and she
were being glad that I'd done so well."
"Oh, Giles!" with a reproving flutter of the eyelids.
He felt curiously tired and near breaking-point, although he
could not have told what had so gnawed his vitality. Even
ragging Queenie wasn't as much fun as it had been in the past;
rather a poor game, in fact; and he had lost all desire to read
what was in the letter she had written to her mother. "So
you think I ought to go down to Loraine, and see her through
this Greenways reverse, do you? Righto! I'm going! I
intended to, all along, as a matter of fact; knew I should have
to. You might see that my things are bunged into a suit-case,
Queenie, and that one of the infant school brings it down."
"Are you sure that your foot——?"
"Oh yes, my foot will carry me. So long! I'd keep away
from the olive terraces, if I were you, Queenie. I've just
heard the studio door open. They're probably going to stroll
out into the sunset..."
He limped away.
Queenie reflected. "There's really a lot of good in Giles..."
... Loraine went to the window, and looked out.
She looked up the terraced hill to where, on the
left from Val's cottage, the olives parted and made
a gap against the sky. The sun had just dipped.
She saw, for her sight was wonderfully keen, two figures
standing in black silhouette against the clear, pale colours of
the opening. She saw that it was Stephen Greenways and Val.
And then she saw them embrace; and from the curve of their
bodies, she knew with unfailing sureness that he had just told
her of his love, that he had come out to San Goffredo especially
to tell her. And for the very reason that he loved Val, he had
sent Val the Chinese coat, the Chinese coat that Loraine was
wearing.
Loraine turned, leant with her back against the window,
and stared with menacing eyes at the hateful emptiness of the
room. Why wasn't there something that she could tear and
tatter? something tangible, yet something of no account?
And at that moment she heard footsteps limping through
the hall. The door opened, and Giles came in.
... Something for her to tear and tatter; something that
was of no account.
Giles saw at once that there was no need for him to be
messenger. Loraine knew. "Am I of any use?" he said, and
his heart was hammering unevenly, foreboding a row. He was
unafraid of most things. But quarrels with Loraine, who
reminded him so of Toni—another row with Toni!—it was
more than he could bear. If only it had been a quite different
woman of a different race...
And Loraine began to trample and to tear:
"You? You've never been of any use! You're the sort
who comes in whenever we are wanting something else. Do
you think that any man'll do for me? That if I can't have
one, I'll have another? Is it a cheap vampire you're thinking
me? Have I ever sucked blood for the sake of blood? You're
smiling because a man, out there yonder, has jilted me. But
I'm a man myself, and a man who jilts women ... carelessly,
callously, when the fun's over. It's fun that I'm after, and
beauty and magnificence and courage. You've got none of
these to give me. Why, I ran through you in a week;—less
than a week; a day, an hour. I've been bored with you, ever
since. You of any use? You, who let yourself be won in an
evening? Toni and Val and I snap our fingers at such slippery
spoils. The Rakonitz women aren't easily satisfied."
"So it seems," said Giles. "But I didn't know you'd been
bored as long as that, Loraine. Why didn't you tell me
before?"
"Haven't we been telling each other? Haven't we——"
"Oh!" he exclaimed, irritated by her trick of phrasing,
"don't turn everything I say into a question!"
"Haven't we told each other," she stormed again, "when
we roamed in discontent from island to island, in Greece?
Weren't we telling each other, then? Weren't we escaping
from each other, and doing it together in the hopeless way
that people do when the woman won't hurt the man because
he's poor stuff and can't bear the hurting? When we ran
away from solitude, and rushed up to Vienna, where the streets
were animated, and the cafés crowded—wasn't I telling you
then, that I was bored and bored and bored? And when we
left Vienna, and rushed down here again, where there was Val
of my own family, and Aunt Elsa, the darling—wasn't I telling
you then? Wasn't I?"
"You may have been! Rather a long-winded way, when
you might have put it into four words: 'I'm bored with
you.' Why chase half over the map, first?"
"I can't stop in one place for ever, unless I'm in paradise.
I have to go on and on. It's the gipsy in me. Because you
were there, because you had left your wife, I had to drag you
with me! I'll have to go on dragging you with me, I suppose."
"I shouldn't worry!" said Giles. His temper, too, was
sliding over the edge of control. "You're forcing me into being
crude, Loraine; but you might as well know that I've been,
for weeks, for months, just as bored and sick with the whole
affair as you. More, perhaps—because I chucked up something
that'll be hard to get back ... on that night when you
were so up against it and begged me to get you away from it
all——"
Loraine began to laugh: "Dear me!" she scoffed. "And
what could I have been meaning by that?"
"Don't pretend!" sharply. "You can't have forgotten!
I own that I was fairly fed-up that evening, too, at the
Hambone. Toni had let me down pretty badly, and I'd just found
it out."
And again Loraine laughed.
"And there were other reasons too, why I wanted to leave
England." He was not going to tell Loraine, who already held
him too cheaply, that one of these had been terror that he was
clinging too close to popularity, too elated by it, too dependent
on it; and that he recoiled from the vision of the man he
might become quite soon, unless he broke away. For Loraine
had wanted to rely on him, on his strength and his protection,
and his quick, practical, masculine sense of action; and she had
appealed to him for all this just at the critical hour, when
Toni, Toni who was Loraine's cousin, and so like her, had
fatally humiliated his manhood; shown him that she had no
need of him; that, indeed, she had been chivalrous in protecting
him; and that she was capable of sudden decisions without
support from the weaker male. That strange night when he
and Loraine had met at the Hambone, and had danced and
danced together.... And then, in Loraine's mad, impetuous
way, they had left behind the dancing, and the drinking,
clinking crowd, and had walked and walked through empty,
dawn-grey streets, further and further north; he believed it
was Hendon where they had finished their fantastic truancy.
And Loraine, in the mood of a panic-stricken child who can no
longer bear its fears alone, but must beg for succour from
ghosts and goblins, had confessed to him how her sense of
herself, of her own personality, had gone astray, because
she was never alone, and almost never with her own kin, who
did not want her, but always and always among strangers,
who only cared for her to amuse them: "But my will has grown
flabby and flattered, that it has. I used to be able to rule
it with: 'I'll go' or 'I'll stay,' and be glad of my own strength
to go when I was sick of the cymbals, the hollow, hollow
cymbals. But what has changed me an' what has weakened
me, Giles? For I stay on and on, and I sink in deeper and
deeper, and I'll die—I'll die—for want of a hand to lift me
away. Giles, I can't live in the shrill clamour of this town
any more! I daren't tell anyone else; I had to tell you,
to-night; I felt you could help me, and no one else but you.
You can help me. It's like being stifled slowly in black velvet,
folds and folds of black velvet. If you could take me away,
right away, a clean cut—ah now, can't you? Won't you?
Have you ever dreamt of an octopus, Giles? It's a dream of
horror, and it comes to me every night.... Giles, it's
only you who won't condemn me for fuss over nothing!
You feel strong and so sane; you'll pick me up, and not
let me struggle; you'll carry me away, even if I try to get
back! ..."
And now, eight months later, Loraine was laughing: "And
you deserted Toni, for a reason as poor as that! My faith!"
"Leave Toni out of this, please."
"Ah—the stern Englishman! I was waiting for that, I was
indeed! 'Leave my wife out of this vulgar quarrel with a low
baggage.' ... But I'll speak of my little cousin how and where
I want, to the husband who has let her down and left her to
fend for herself, with three children and a mass of debts and
a business that had gone to pot..."
"I offered her my help in the business. She laughed at the
notion."
"She knew you were just no good except as a sort of hired
mountebank, to liven up a dud party! You had a reputation
for that, I hear."
Giles flushed, but went on, ignoring her gibe: "And I left
a note to Jimmy that three-quarters of our income was to be
paid direct to her."
"Fine of you!" cried Loraine, in mock admiration; "I'm
struck all of a heap! Four lines on a sheet of paper, telling the
man who's drawing the money he never worked for, that he
needn't give you more than a quarter of the money that you've
never worked for. Renunciation can do no more. And that
absolved you from all further responsibility. Ah, it's a gallant
rescuer you were to me, and a hero to the tip of your tongue:
'Don't be afraid, Loraine—I'll take you away out of it
all!' You'd no right to take me away! What was I to you? How
dared you leave Toni, for me or anyone else? I'll never forgive
you for leaving Toni, who's a thousand million times too good
for you!"
Sadly enough, Giles answered: "I'll grant you that. Yet
if you felt this, need you have asked me, of all the world, to
rush you away from London, and from all that was terrifying
you?"
"Need you have come? Need you have come? I had no
man belonging to me—— We who are the lone pirates, dash
in anywhere to make a capture. Why need I have spared you,
or pitied your weakness? Can't you resist a temptation? Am
I trustee of your faithfulness? Had there been never a promise
to Toni, my Toni, that you might have remembered? Frightened,
was I? and pleading for help? ... Well, then, you—you
knight in armour, tell me, another time, that I'm to go and
get a man of my own, and not hang round besetting you with a
whining tale! Another time, say: 'I'm married!'—No, men
haven't the guts to say it! They think it's infra dig., not
dashing enough.... They're ashamed of it, bless their sweet
eyes! Ah, but I'd have respected the Giles Goddard, my
cousin's husband, who'd have turned on me, savage, and whipped
me off, that night, that night you were so kind, so
considerate—— How dared you humiliate Toni Rakonitz, by
deserting her? She who ought to have had the pick of a
husband from end to end of the long world!"
Giles bowed his head, silently, to his bludgeoning, on Toni's
behalf, from this surprising quarter.... He admitted that
most of it was just and deserved; but wished, nevertheless,
that Loraine could contrive to be as inarticulate as so many
times she had stated she was; and a little less picturesque in
her rhetoric ...
... "And if it's true what you say, that she was impudent
and would have none of your help, and tilted back her head,
laughing and behaving badly—for I know Toni, and I know
Val, and the cool indifference of them that makes you so angry
you could choke them!—But if I'd been you, I would have
choked her, sooner than left her, to follow another not so good!
I'd have choked manners into her, and humble ways——"
"The cave-man stunt? Oh, I think not, Loraine. It really
isn't done, you know. And as for Val——" He drove attack
over the border, from his country into hers—"As for Val, if
you loved her so much, why the devil had you got to interfere?
Push your claims between her and her man? You're simply an
insatiable dramatist.... You lied, when you gave us all to
understand that Greenways must have meant the coat for you,
because of things that went before, and that only you and he
knew about: things he had said to you—'A message painted
in silk....' He can never have said it. He doesn't remember
you exist. If you had seen his face, just now, when he asked
me where Val was..."
"Ah ... don't!" With hands flung out, she warded off
his revelations. But she had not really cared about Stephen;
only about being the centre of Stephen's romance. And she
felt it was he, not she, who had blundered, in the destination
of his gift. A gift to the beloved should be so surely appropriate
that no doubt could be raised. And the Chinese coat was not
inevitably Val's; it was Loraine's. Exotic, brilliant, artificial,
Loraine wore it as though the thousand tiny yellow men with
pigtails and large spectacles, who had patiently laboured on
it with a million stitches, had all the while thought of
her and seen her before them. And Val? Loraine's one-time
criticism had been just: Val looked marvellous ... in
riding kit.
"You can't blame me," Loraine proudly defended herself,
to Giles: "I gave the man credit for an imagination he hadn't
got. He had had the privilege of knowing me.... And then
he sent out that coat, without the owner's name on it, to San
Goffredo. Look at it—look at it well, now—look at it on me!
Was I wrong, to feel it mine? He was wrong—not I. And if
he hadn't the subtlety and the vision to have prepared me
beforehand with the one perfect phrase: 'I'm sending you a
message painted in silk....' I had to do it, for him; and
pretend, as hard as I could, that he must have sent it! And
you, with a skull as dense as his, call that 'lying.' A lie?—Ah,
what's the difference? What's the difference between God's
lies and my own? If life is just tame for the moment; if it's
flat and insipid; if it's like a bath that isn't cold enough, and
isn't hot enough to make the blood tingle;—am I to get no
praise at all for what I did to put the colour in? To cram it to
bursting with excitement? When I told you I needed your
help, and you gave up everything to take me away, oughtn't
you to be grateful to me?"—Skilfully, she pushed the war back
again over the border and into his territory—"I provided you
with the test, didn't I? I provided you with the chance to
make a sacrifice? I tuned up the fiddle.... And then, afterwards,
when you've had all that richness you didn't deserve—that
Heaven couldn't bother to give you, but which I gave you—then
you draw yourself up, and talk stiffly about telling a lie;
and it's thanking me on your knees you should have been, for
inspiring an occasion to be loyal to Toni, against odds, and when
you were angry with her into the bargain. You could have
been proud of yourself then! But weren't you just the chivalrous
rescuer!" she mocked, "and couldn't I see your passion
drinking me up like dry blotting-paper drinks up ink? And
didn't you just feel well with yourself over our scamper out
into the blackness, the sensation we caused, and the gaping
and talking we left behind? And yet, if you're not feeling quite
so well with yourself now, at least thank me, Giles, thank me,
you fool, for setting you free from your ordinary, humdrum,
everyday complacency! 'Am I of any use?' you say, courteously.
Divil a bit of use, to me or to anyone else. You've
made me bad friends with Toni, an' that's all you've done. I
could have mastered terror alone and without you, last February.
I appealed to you, for the evening was strange and grey, and I
wanted to light it with battle and resistance. I wanted to fight
for you—and lose. I wanted to hear the flames of your loyalty
go roaring up to illuminate the dingy skies——"
"In fact," Giles interrupted, "you were dull that evening,
and wanted something to do." He strode over to the table,
scribbled on a block of writing-paper, and tore off a sheet;
while with his other hand he never ceased ringing the china
bell that stood near.
"Dio!" cried Manuela, rushing in. "Dio! But what is
it? What has happened?"
"Here," said Giles, curtly. "A telegram. Here's money,"
he plunged his hand into his pocket. "Take it down to the
post now, at once, immediately, subito, you understand? It's
for England, and it's to go 'urgente.' Go, Manuela!" And
directly she had clattered away, her wonted insolence intimidated
by his manner, he turned, smiling, to Loraine. "Thanks,
Loraine; not for then, but for now. I was afraid you'd need
me to look after you, still. As you've no use for me, and never
had; as you're not afraid, and never were, I needn't wait any
longer." He limped into his bedroom. Loraine followed him,
a thin ornate little creature, proudly sheathed in the warm gleam
and glitter of colour from Val's coat. She followed him,
mimicking him, mimicking the way he had spoken to Manuela,
the way he had spoken to her ... He was trying to get down
his suit-case from where it stuck out from under a pile of other
boxes and bags and blankets, on top of the tall cupboard; but
it was not easy, with his lame foot, to climb on to a chair; and
the suit-case was just out of his reach. He turned round and
swore at Loraine; she swore back, mimicking him ... there
might have been twice Giles in the room, and no Loraine at
all! Then, furiously, he pulled down the whole pile of lumber,
that clattered and thumped to the floor round about him,
raising clouds of dust, so that he began to cough.... And
still Loraine, as though wound up and prompted by a demon,
stood there watching whatever he vainly attempted to do and
burlesquing it.... Maddening him, with her flitting
resemblances to Toni....
"Take off that coat!" he shouted at her, between coughing,
and tearing open the straps of his suit-case. "Take it off, damn
you! It's Val's coat, not yours! You nearly did her in,
pretending it was yours! You look horrible in it!" ... But
that was not true: Loraine looked like the lovely little goddess
of an Oriental temple, in the coat.
... The suit-case was locked. Giles turned out drawer
after drawer, throwing the contents on to the stone floor. He
had lost control of his temper, now. He only knew that he had
been cheated and tricked and laughed at; that he had been
Loraine's fool; that he had left Toni behind, and now he was
going back to Toni; that he was wildly glad of his freedom to
go back; wildly glad to be released from the thrall whence all
the glamour had faded long ago, before even the summer came;
wildly suspicious of yet another trick which might serve to keep
him here.... His key! What had Loraine done with his
key? But he wasn't going to let that hold him back, when
London and Toni lay at the end of his journey—— Not a
trifle like that. He found other odd keys; drove them into
the lock; could neither turn it, nor shake it free. In his frenzy,
he broke the key in half; glared at Loraine as though she were
responsible for this, too ...
"I'm not going to let that stop me," he muttered. Another
suit-case, hers, would do; what did it matter? ... Just
chuck his things in; there was time to catch the 6.15, if he
hurried. Let her pack for him! Let her help him, as women
should, instead of standing there like a bloody little Chink
idol.... He told her so!—His breathing was short and quick,
as it still was, sometimes, from that weak spot on his lung, that
was the result of being gassed eight years ago.
—"Go back to Toni?" scoffed Loraine. "How pleased
she'll be! Was that a loving telegram you sent her? 'Rejoice,
darling! Put out my slippers, and let it be grilled kidneys for
breakfast, because I've actually decided to come home again!'
... She won't take you back, Giles. Don't you fret about
catching that train. An odd day or two won't make much
difference, it's I can tell you that; not in the eternity
that'll have to pass before Toni Rakonitz takes you back.
Don't I know her better than you? Aren't we one blood,
she and I?"
"Stop asking me questions, I tell you!" Giles thundered at
her. That blasted drawer had stuck, now! Rotten Italian
furniture! Rotten everything! He tore at it ... and
blandly and suddenly it gave way under his hand, so that he
staggered backwards.
—"Toni's proud," Loraine went on. "I'm too close to
Toni not to be understanding how she feels over things. She
has no use for a man who lets her down. Ah! I could have
told you that at the very moment you were doing yourself in.
Toni's a man—she's got her job."
Giles took no notice: shirts, suits, socks—he aimed them
towards the open suit-case from every part of the room, as he
ransacked drawer and cupboard. They lay in heaps on the floor.
Then he rammed them all in, indiscriminately, boots on top—what
did it matter? And all the while, Loraine's gibes pattered
and fell around him like hailstones, like poisoned arrows flung
by a deft hand. He didn't know why he stayed to pack; and
yet it seemed to his obstinate fancy, that he could not leave
anything of his property behind with Loraine; that there
must be no scrap of substance for her to hold him by, nor to
show that he had ever belonged to her.
That was all, now, thank the Lord. He pulled down the
lid; it wouldn't nearly close. He thrust his knee on to it,
pressing with all his strength.... It wasn't true, that Toni
had done with him! It couldn't be true that he had sacrificed
all that he cared for, for the sake of a delusion, a fairy-tale, a
witch's shamming. He wanted, during these last moments at
Villa Bel Respiro, to be able to tell Loraine all that he thought
of her.... To compress his rage and contempt into a few
biting words that would sear and scorch—— But he couldn't
find the words, and there was no time.... And this damned
suit-case still wouldn't close...
He began to cough again. He couldn't stop coughing.
Through the sound of it, Loraine's voice still beat on....
He wanted to laugh at the nonsense she was spouting:
a lot of eye-wash about having taken Toni's husband,
because, loving Toni, she was so enjoying the act of
sending him back again ... Sending him back?—But he was
going back; of his own accord he was going. If only this
cough...
Suddenly Giles collapsed, exhausted, his arm thrown out
across the suit-case, his head buried on his arm. When he
looked up again, some fifty seconds later, the sleeve of his coat
was dabbled and stained with blood, and blood was pouring
from between his lips.